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Peccata Patris, Filius Redentor
A MarshalGraves Production
Episode Three – 'Adrenaline Cooldown'
Gendo stared implacably up at the catapult elevator as it slowly lowered the Eligor back to the mecha cages. His expression remained blank, his mouth drawn back into its habitual non-expressive neutrality after the battle had ended, and his son had shown himself to be in good repair and good spirits. Showing worry during the battle was one thing: he was the supreme commander of NERV, and this had been the first sortie, the proving ground, so to speak. It was almost expected of him to be worried about his 'baby', the mission, rather than 'his' baby, his son Shinji.
Damn the Old Men for not letting him smile in public. Damn the Old Men for not letting him show his son that he gave a damn. Damn Yui for damning him to this utterly cluster-fucked mess. And damn him for setting it all in motion, that dark, dark day fifteen years ago. If only he hadn't...if only. If only, if only, if only. If only Gendo had a bullet for every 'if only', he'd have long-since destroyed SEELE.
Still, the battle was won, and there were matters to attend to. He turned his gaze and his introspection outward, to take in the shape of technicians and engineers swarming the now-silent Eligor, each of them wearing a jumpsuit uniform. It brought a small smirk to his face to see it. Each of those men wore gunmetal-gray, with 'IKARI' stenciled in black above a silhouette of the Eligor's front-on profile, its red camera the only real color gleaming menacingly, or perhaps reassuringly, at the viewer, across their backs. Beneath it was the legend 'ELIGOR'. Each of them wore a NERV patch on their left shoulder, a UNAF patch on their right shoulder, and a job-badge on their left breast that read, simply, 'ACP-01'.
These were -his son's- men. His pit crew. His team. And each of them bore a proud smile or broad grin as they began to hook up hoses and inspect sites of damage. Gendo had hired each of those men personally, and he knew each of them would give their all and then some to ensure Shinji's mecha was in perfect condition for the next go 'round. They'd work especially harder, knowing their efforts to date had yielded what was a resounding victory against a nominally-superior foe.
The care the bridge crew used to open the neck of the Eligor and extract Shinji's plug-and-play designed 'universal canopy' that allowed him to interface to the neural receptors in the mechanical monstrosity showed their dedication. Still, Gendo had a job to do.
"Eligor Team, this is Commander Ikari. Ensure that Captain Ikari is situated and sent to my offi-no. Have him report to the control room for debriefing. That is all."
With that, Gendo turned around and walked up to his desk, giving a brief nod and a meaningful look from behind his glasses at his once-more placid daughter and her friend, Lieutenant Asuka Soryu, before turning to look at the purple-haired woman that was still holding both of them against her in a death grip of a hug.
"Subcommander Kaji...I believe Lieutenants Ikari and Soryu would like to see the good captain before he has to report for debriefing."
Misato merely nodded once, releasing the girls and nudging them towards the exit that led out into the Eligor's cage with a shaky smile. Asuka charged out, her eyes wet with unshed tears, while Rei stared at him for a brief moment.
"....You're a louse, Commander Ikari."
With that, the blue-haired girl walked, almost mechanically (Gendo could almost, -almost- believe that it was because of her injuries rather than her eccentricities, but he knew he wasn't that lucky. He -hated- R. Dorothy Wainwright, and he'd have to put up with 'her' all night at dinner!) out of the room after the fiery redhead, leaving Gendo Ikari with his subcommander. With the girls gone, Misato had no reason to moderate herself any longer.
"What the -hell- were you playing at, Gendo?! You -know- Mission Control is my job, you -know- I need to be out on that floor directing the battle! Why did you even -hire- me to be your subcommander if you're going to run the show, anyway?!"
Gendo sat down in his chair, turned his amber-tinted gaze upon the formerly-JSSDF captain-turned-NERV-subcommander, and rested his elbows upon his desk, lacing his fingers together before his face, casting his mouth in shadow that allowed him, at last, to smirk.
"This was our first mission, Subcommander Kaji. Our first sortie, and our first contact with the Angelic Threat for fifteen years. What sort of commander would I be if I did not give this battle my personal attention? What manner of -father- would I be if I did not direct my son, and encourage him, even if it is by weight of my presence alone?"
Misato pulled up short in her rant, then gave a quick 'che' as she crossed her arms over her impressive bust. Make no mistake, Gendo was a cold man, an almost mechanical automaton of a human being, but even -he- was hard-pressed not to stare at the cleavage on display. If she wasn't a happily-married woman, his subordinate, and a highly-accurate shot with a pistol, he'd probably have put in quite a bit of effort into wooing her. As it was, she was nearly ten years younger, and far, far less jaded than he would ever be, and he did not begrudge her her happiness.
She was still really, really damn hot, though.
"Commander...I'm sorry. I understand that, and I really appreciated the day off to take care of Aki-chan, but...I..."
Gendo raised his eyebrow sharply at her, and experience with her boss had ingrained the reflex that that gesture meant 'shut the fuck up' very, very quickly.
"Subcommander Kaji....Misato....believe me. I understand. I know what happened fifteen years ago. I know what it cost you, what it cost -everyone-. Your father's death was one of the reasons I looked very, very closely at your curriculum vitae, after all. The Angels may have taken your father, but it is our job, as NERV, my job, as commander, and -your- job, as subcommander, to ensure the -best possible performance- of our mecha pilots against the Angels."
He took a deep, fortifying breath, though he moved his body not an inch otherwise. Misato still could not see him still smirking beneath his hands.
"...This sortie was not proceeding as planned from the -get-go-. And you, of all people, know that no plan ever survives first contact. When Lieutenant Ikari was injured, I was forced to use the -last- person I ever wanted in the cockpit. Captain Ikari was never meant to enter battle directly, but to act as your hand and voice as an operations commander. Now, however, I cannot...-NERV- cannot afford to bench him again. Even should the Fourth Angel wait for Lieutenant Ikari to heal--by some miracle I will never be foolish enough to believe in--Captain Ikari has a -proven battle record- against these foes. He has, dare I say it, commendable record for someone who was -never- intended to pilot. I took command today because the confidence and surety that today's victory will have given him could not spring from nowhere before this battle."
Misato raised a very, very laconic eyebrow at the commander, almost a universal gender-based and gender-understood signal to get to the damn point.
Gendo continued to smirk as he did, in fact, continue, "Now, however...flush with victory, with a confirmed Angelic kill under his belt, Shinji...-Captain Ikari- will not -need- me to hold his hand. After today's sortie, unless you are out of action somehow, I will not be taking command. That will be your job, subcommander."
With that, he turned his head towards the cages, where he felt more than heard the technicians finally opening his son's universal canopy.
"Thank you for your time, Subcommander Kaji."
It was as clear a dismissal as he could give without being considered a -rude- asshole, at least.
"And Misato? Don't worry. You will be present for enough Angels to die 'by your hand' that someday, I am sure, you will wish you had worn gloves. Kindly send the captain in when he is...prepared."
This time, as she gave him one last short, sharp glare, Misato Kaji could almost -swear- she saw the malicious smirk beneath Gendo Ikari's interlocked hands before she shook her head and tossed it away as a figment of her imagination, instead choosing to walk outside to the cage where Shinji was being removed from his canopy.
Shinji was...not a pleasant sight to behold as the Life Cauldron Liquid, or 'LCL', drained from the canopy. Even hunched over and coughing the foul-tasting witch's brew from his lungs, the extent of the damage to his body from years before was very, very visible. His arms and legs were encased in metal 'sleeves' that simultaneously acted as armor and forced his twisted limbs into a facsimile of normal motion. Metal braces ran up his ribs, bolted to the bone directly, to ensure the weight of the sleeves did not tear his flesh from his skeleton, and, hunched over as he was, Misato could see the flexible metal nodes that ran from the back of his head all the way down to the bottom of his tailbone, a metal 'spine' that connected all of the 'augmentations' to his brain and allowed him the only semblance of normality his condition would allow. Then he lifted his head.
His nearly-bald pate was a ruin of scar tissue left over from the many dozens of surgeries he had needed, first to ensure his brain's swelling did not kill him outright, and then for the installation of the neural nets and wetware implants that tied his nervous system to the mechanical 'limbs' that contorted his uncooperative body into the -worst- uncanny valley of normal movement Misato Kaji had -ever- seen in her life. But the worst of all was his left eye. A ruin of flesh surrounding a cold, mechanical iris, the outer 'ring' dyed a cold, icy blue that attempted, and failed miserably, to match his normal, natural right eye gazed out, making him look half like an unfeeling machine and half like a sad, silently-screaming caricature of a human being. The dichotomy of his features was jarring. It always had been, and it always would be.
Misato could never quite shake the feeling that Shinji's 'good' eye was constantly begging her to put him out of the misery merely -existing- inflicted on the poor boy. Between that, and the scarring that criss-crossed his chest as an artifact of the -severely- extensive surgeries that had been required to give the poor boy the semblance of normality he currently had, it was no wonder most people who met him for the first time had the nowhere-near-unique-enough reaction of losing their last three days' worth of lunch while simultaneously vowing vengeance upon Tomoe Ikari.
Shinji was far too sweet, far too -nice- a boy for this to be his life. Worse, Misato knew the poor boy had never been outside of NERV since the day he had arrived in the Geofront's hospital ten years ago. People who were paid and knew what they were signing up for, people who joined to -help him-, were one thing, but inflicting the general public with his....features was too much for the poor boy to handle, and that was the greatest crime of all.
All of Shinji's friends, Misato ruminated, were -technicians-. Doctors. Engineers. Soldiers. All of them adults. Misato rather imagined that the day Shinji first met Asuka (the reports were hilarious: he didn't even know what children -were-, and thought her an adult small person. It...ended badly for the poor boy, by all accounts, though Asuka had seemed to develop an 'I'm an adult complex' immediately and forever thereafter) was the first breath of truly fresh air the child had ever received since his injuries. It was made all the more heartbreaking when Misato remembered that Shinji was -still a growing boy-, and needed ten times the maintenance such a set-up would cost someone who was already fully-grown.
And those maintenance cycles took up most of two days out of every two months. Even now, having had years to get used to the idea, Misato Kaji could not help but want to cry looking at the boy. Instead, she chose to take heart at the sight of the blue-haired 'maid' once more breaking character to give her precious Onii-chan a monster of a hug while Asuka berated him.
"....and how could you let him grab you like that?! Don't you know you're not supposed to take your eye off the enemy for even a -second- in combat! Of course you know, you dummkopf, you're the one that beat it into -my- brain in the simulators! Baka-Shinji, stop smiling at me like that, you...you...you pervert, and take your beating like a man!"
Honestly, it was like she'd never left home. Though, the 'pervert' thing was rather new.
She cleared her throat, and Shinji, still bare-chested (he was all-too-frequently clothed only in a pair of heavy-duty trousers, as his mechanical parts were a bit too rough on most clothes, and most clothes that could withstand the stresses his body could put on them were too rough on his scarred skin) immediately snapped to attention. Smiling thinly at the lack of a salute (good, she'd drilled them well), she merely stepped up and snapped to attention, herself. "Captain Shinji Ikari?"
Shinji held back the urge to gulp at Misato's brown-eyed stare. "Captain Shinji Ikari, reporting, Subcommander Kaji."
Misato nodded, shortly and sharply. "Good. You are expected in the command center with Commander Ikari for debriefing. I'll be taking command of the work crews for maintenance on the ACP-01. Understood?"
Shinji just nodded shortly and sharply, his hands clenched tightly to his sides. Without conscious effort on his part, his right hand began to close into a fist and, with a will, he forced it to stop. "Understood, ma'am!"
Misato nodded and smiled thinly. "Good. Dismissed, captain."
Shinji slumped to an at-ease posture and gave each of the girls a quiet, subdued hug before moving to head for the open door leading to the control room, but was stopped by a hand on his shoulder. He turned and was somewhat surprised to meet Misato's eyes with his own mismatched gaze.
"And...Shinji? Good work out there, little bro. You nailed it." She winked at him, almost scandalously, before linking arms with both girls and dragging them off and away towards the bridge that overlooked the cage. He smiled sheepishly, rubbed the back of his neck (he hated doing that, the screech of metal-on-metal got -annoying-, but it was such a habit!), and walked into the control room.
It's...kinda quiet in here.
He didn't know what he'd expected, but everyone was utterly silent. There wasn't even the noise of keyboards clacking away. Feeling a hysterical sense of doom welling up in the very pit of his chest, Shinji Ikari walked towards the desk where his father still remained seated, still held his vaguely-threatening pose with his elbows propped up on the surface of the desk.
It was only the benefit of Shinji's mechanical eye that let him see the easy, relieved grin his father wore. And with that smile, Shinji felt his own spirits reverse from their dive into a soar. He approached the desk and stood at attention, waiting for his father's acknowledgement.
Gendo, for his part, finally schooled his expression and lowered his hands, 'absently' touching the base PA trigger.
"Captain Ikari, reporting as ordered, commander."
Gendo smiled thinly as he replied, "At ease, captain."
Shinji relaxed and clasped his hands loosely at the small of his back.
"Captain Ikari, today, at Eighteen-Hundred-Thirty-Two hours, you entered into the combat zone and engaged your opponent, the Third Angel, designated 'Sachiel'. Is this correct, Captain?"
Shinji nodded shortly and sharply. "That is correct, sir."
"The engagement lasted approximately ten minutes, and ended in the termination of the target while you and your Angelic Combat Platform remained combat-worthy. Is that correct, captain?"
Shinji gulped and nodded again, remembering all of the mistakes he'd made, oh-so-helpfully pointed out to him by Asuka -again- just outside. "That...that is correct, yes, sir."
Here, Gendo nodded gravely, his voice grim and almost -quiet-. "Then, Captain Ikari, having reviewed the footage of the battle, and having downloaded your Angelic Combat Platform's onboard recording, I shall have to await your signature on the after-action report when it is prepared. I have just one more thing to say on the matter."
Shinji began to feel sweat build up on his brow once more as he almost hesitantly, almost whisperingly, asked, "What would that be, sir?"
Though his face remained completely neutral, Gendo's voice took on a quality that seemed as though he was almost forcing himself to show some enthusiasm. That was all anyone in the control room could think as his voice positively ground out, "Captain Ikari, by sheer dint of the undeniable evidence in the matter of the First Angelic Battle, it is apparent that your sortie was an unqualified success. As a result, I am forced to make your temporary brevet-rank due to impending combat sortie permanent, and install you into the rolls as a captain. Your pay shall be backdated to the moment of your breveting, and from this day forward, you shall be known to all NERV and UN Forces as 'Captain Ikari'. Excellent work, captain. Excellent work."
He stood and abruptly turned away, clasping his own hands behind his back and looking directly into the barely-polished glass in the back, where only someone with perfectly-exceptional vision, or a cybernetic eye, could see the reflection of the commander, beaming at his son with pride and joy that he could not afford to show before any other face.
Shinji left the control room upon dismissal with a broad grin of his own that it would take surgery to remove. The cheers that were erupting all over the base, the crews all chanting his name, couldn't even hold a candle to that smile gifted to him by his father.
Nothing ever could.
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Misato gazed up at the partially-ruined face of the massive mecha, imagining, for a moment, that it was gazing back at her, judging her, weighing her. The weight of that gaze settled upon her shoulders in an almost physical manner, sending jolts down her spine as she met the gaze that, scarcely half an hour ago, would have been the less-unkind gaze of Shinji Ikari.
It gave her an unpleasant shiver, now, as she imagined herself to be found wanting in that cold, dead, red stare.
She turned at the sound of muffled footsteps, and tilted her head to greet the much-less-judgemental blue gaze of Kyoko Soryu, who nodded briefly in greeting before leaning on the rail, still clad in her wetsuit, and staring back into the dead, cracked camera 'lens' of the inert machine-god that rested before them. Misato turned back and met its gaze, once again, resisting the wild urge to close her eyes and cry, and the two ladies remained that way in silence for a moment, just living in the moment as the sounds of the 'pit crew' running their checks and calling out itemized reports to one another filtered up from the cage they stood above.
"It wasn't originally named 'Eligor', you know."
Misato turned and tilted her head at the brunette, a curious look on her face despite herself.
"In the early design stage, we ran into a hell of a lot of problems, and had to work hard, fast, and throw some serious shit at the wall and see what stuck to get this thing even as far as prototyping. Just...so much went wrong, at some points, it felt like -everything- went wrong. As a result, for about four years, this thing's name was 'Murphy'."
Kyoko turned a wry grin at the purple-haired subcommander and gave a simple shrug. "Looking back, that name's even more appropriate, considering we built the outer layers according to specs and appearance standards given to us by the commander...who apparently received them from Rei. This design, Eligor's design, is based off of a cybernetic cop."
Kyoko chuckled softly to herself at that, while Misato just kept on looking confused before shaking her head and turning around to lean her back and elbows on the rails, inadvertently pushing her chest into much greater prominence. "I...don't get it."
It took Kyoko a full minute and a half to get her laughter under control, time that Misato took advantage of to collect her thoughts and put forward another question, one that was more important, to her, at least.
"Why Shinji? Why...all this? Why can't someone else pilot these things?"
At that, Kyoko's intermittent chuckling dried up and became a long, tired sigh, "That...that's easy to answer, but difficult to actually -say-."
Misato reached up and rested her hand lightly on the wetsuit-clad brunette's shoulder, silently encouraging her.
"The answer is because we didn't have time. The first mecha project we had going was scrapped because of the extreme likelihood of fatalities in the creation process. And by 'likelihood', I mean every single model was guaranteed to kill the first person to initiate contact with the machine. There was a strong possibility that the second person might not survive, either. Commander Ikari pulled the plug on -that- research less than a year after the first test model was completed and killed his wife."
Misato winced, mentally chalking yet another fatality, yet another ruined life, ruined -family-, up to the angels as Kyoko continued.
"Unfortunately, that research was the -best- we had going for us, and we had design specs and armor mock-ups and everything. We could build all the mecha in the world we wanted, but we didn't have anything that could make them -move-, not with the laws of physics being perfectly capable of enforcing themselves."
At this, Kyoko sighed tiredly and walked over to the console she'd been working on during the battle. She withdrew a slim brown purse, which she proceeded to open. Pulling out a pack of cigarettes, she took one, lit it, and took a long drag before walking her way back towards Misato. "Were you briefed on all this when you took up the post?"
Misato shook her head, looking fascinated, now as she replied, "No. I was hired to the post of subcommander when Kozo Fuyutsuki retired, and the commander gave me overall command of the tactical side of things, with Sections Two and Four nominally under my command. The mechs are Section Three, I jus--"
At this, Kyoko raised her hand in Misato's direction, palm flat and aimed at Misato's face, while she took another drag. "I'm the head of Section Three. I know who signs my paycheck, hon. I just thought as subcommander you might actually know the specs of the machines you oversee in battle."
Misato just shook her head. "No, I've cared more about their performance, and the pilots' performance in the simulations. You guys do the programming there, I just trust what I see. I don't have the head for all that 'pounds per square inch' thing." At this, Misato gave a self-deprecating shrug and smiled disarmingly at the good doctor.
Kyoko just chuckled at that and lowered her hand to rest it on her hip. "Well, you might want to learn. There are three different mechs we've constructed, and knowing what they're -designed- to do could help you determine what they -can- do in a battle. For instance, this bad boy is 120 meters tall. You're not going to be sending him under a bridge any time soon, unless there's a -really- deep river or bay for him to walk through."
Misato had to nod at that, conceding the point, before drawing herself back towards her earlier question. "So...why the kids, anyway? Why couldn't...say...-I- climb in this thing and wreck Angel face all day?"
At that, Kyoko winced and took another long drag off of her cigarette before stubbing it out, staring contemplatively at the diminished pack, as though deciding whether or not a second was worth it, or called for, at the moment. "It's an artifact of the first project. The first project took advantage of a then-undiscovered phenomenon caused by Second Impact, called ADAMnations, to 'link' the pilots to the mecha and make it move. The problem is, these ADAMnations are only detectable by those born under ADAM's radiation atmosphere, which has blanketed the planet since Second Impact."
At this, Misato blinked, almost owlishly, and then the stress of the conversation and, more importantly, its content, hit her. She reached over to grab the pack from Kyoko, teasing a cancer stick from the pack with her teeth and lighting it with Kyoko's offered flame. "ADAMnations?"
Kyoko nodded quietly. "Portmanteau of 'ADAM' and 'emanations'--and, to everyone who's worked on Project E, 'damnations'. Children....children born after Second Impact are somehow -modified-, below the genetic level, to be sensitive to these ADAMnations. It's been known to cause hallucinations, when the ADAMnations are particularly strong in a given area, and some children can be more or less sensitive to them. But the key thing is, these...psychic links? They're only active in children fifteen years old and under, and they were and -are- the only method we have of connecting the pilot to the mech and making it -move-. These ADAMnations are still being studied, but...we do know two things."
At this, Misato turned back to leaning on the rail, realizing, somehow, that the Eligor's glare was less judgemental somehow as she absently listened to Kyoko's words.
"The first is, somehow, the links between pilot and mecha -somehow- allow the child to tell physics to pack up and leave the house for a while, and the second is that, without those links in the first place, all our AT-pylons would do is make a pretty red glow. The synchronization process gives the AT-Field -direction-...and the pilot is its soul."
Misato gazed, almost defiantly, into that dead, broken red stare, the sightless gaze boring into and through her. Somehow, she almost -preferred- that damned thing when Shinji was behind it.
That red, dead circle just continued to glare listlessly at the purplette.
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Making tea was -awesome-, Shinji decided as he lightly stirred the teabag around to turn the steaming water in the cup into a nice, rich red color. Taking in the rich aroma, one of the first genuine smells he could remember outside of the bloody, coppery stink of LCL, he sighed contentedly as he sat down at the table. While he wished he could help Rei and Asuka in the kitchen, having a mobile body was still something...very, very new to him, and he wasn't going to be winning any awards for something as intensive as cooking any time soon.
That said, he probably wouldn't have had the heart to try and stick himself in the kitchen even if he -had- magically sprouted with five-star cooking ability from his LCL-filled tank, a tank that had been his home for almost the entirety of the last decade. And Rei and Asuka were -absolutely enthusiastic- about cooking Shinji 'his first home-cooked meal'. And, of course, by 'enthusiastic', Shinji meant 'if he dared to step one metal boot inside their kitchen, he'd be shitting scrap for a month', but, of course, he was just arguing semantics, there.
That sounded weak, even in his -own- head. With a sigh, Shinji took a slow sip of the hot tea, and delighted in the slight burn that developed on his tongue from the too-hot beverage. Closing his eyes and enjoying the sheer -wash- of scents that filled the house, from Rei's muted vanilla to Asuka's more vibrant cinnamon, the scent of the teak furniture that his father had had imported, the light dusting of earth from countless years of countless shoes treading across the varnished cherry floors....
In all honesty, the scents of cooking food washing in from the kitchen were, while heavenly, utterly second to the fascinating -everything- Shinji had not yet had time or inclination to render into 'white noise'.
It was, after all, his first day walking, out and about, and while he'd had to throw on a cloak before he could stomach the thought of leaving NERV for the first time since he could remember, it was...it was magnificent.
The sights, the sounds, the smells, everything was -new- and -wonderful- and -fresh-. A whole world he'd been separated from, open to him at last!
It had taken both Asuka and Rei, a cloak, and a heavy-duty forklift to get him out the damn door. He'd been fucking terrified, and he'd remained quiet and still in the back of the van, thinking 'I mustn't run away' for...pretty much the entire trip to his father's house.
Once he'd gotten there, though...once he'd gotten inside, he couldn't help exploring. He kept well away from any windows--drawing the curtains when passing them by was impossible-- just to familiarize himself with his new, larger world.
Then he'd seen the nameplate on the door to 'his' room, and he'd broken down crying. Asuka had held him, calling him a 'baka' and a 'sensitive moron' while he kept apologizing to her. Rei came in from time to time when her cooking could afford it to give him a soft, tender hug, breaking character with alarming frequency. Finally, Asuka had dragged him into the dining room, handed him a cup of near-boiling water, and a tea infuser, and here he was, now.
He raised his head and blinked, holding back a smile as his father entered the room, just as Asuka and Rei both brought in dishes upon dishes of food from the kitchen. Gendo admired the sight stoically, for a moment, before pulling a device out of his pocket and studying it for a moment. He held up his hand for a moment as Shinji began to rise from his seat, stopping the teenager cold in his tracks before, with a soft nod and a -very- explosive sigh, he pressed a button on the side of the device and wrapped his arms around Shinji in the first hug he'd given the boy in over a decade.
Both Asuka and Rei developed an extremely selective and short-term version of memory loss when tears made themselves evident in both of the men's eyes. Without fanfare or ceremony, the 'family' set down to dinner. As they began to eat, discussions naturally cropped up over time, with Shinji learning that Asuka was staying here for a few nights while Kyoko hammered out Section Three's workload in bringing the Eligor and the EX-00 'Artemis' back up to snuff, and would be sleeping in Rei's room.
He also learned that Asuka had picked up an unwanted 'admirer' back in Germany, and felt an irrational desire to introduce Eligor's MSRG-01 to the ballsack of the eighteen-year-old who apparently thought a thirteen-year-old girl earning her initial -degree- was 'easy pickings'. He laughed, a stilted, dry thing--his throat unused to making the sounds--when Asuka revealed she'd used her training on him when he'd tried (and failed) to get a little handsy without so much as a 'by your leave'. He then felt an immediate and irrational desire to introduce his rail rifle to Richard Langley's -head- when the man had refused to press charges on the harasser.
Of course, talking about Asuka's college life inevitably turned into talking about Rei's schooling, which brought up a conversation that would eventually come back to bite Shinji in the rear. Of course, by 'eventually', it should be known that said rear-biting would take place within the next three minutes.
"...And that brings us to now, Commander Ikari."
Gendo nodded, his chin resting on his hands as he stared forward with a rictus smile fixed to his face, ignoring the twitch in his left eye as it and its partner flicked down to the device he'd removed from his pocket and placed on the table, earlier. Shinji knew, from experience and design, that it was a signal detector, designed to pick up and detect sent signals in the area. His father was doing what he could to ensure nobody realized that Gendo had a goddamned -heart-, and Shinji felt yet another irrational surge of hatred for an unseen target. He was soon drawn from his musing by his father's voice.
"That's good, Rei. I'm glad to hear you're making friends. I've said it once, and I'll say it a thousand times, it sounds like this Horaki girl has her head screwed on straight. I believe her mother works in Section Three, under Kyoko....hrm. Obviously, the apple doesn't fall far from the tree."
At that, Gendo rubbed his face tiredly with one hand, before turning to look at Shinji, his smile shifting from indulgent to merely...content. "Shinji, son...how are you feeling, right now? Are the new mods settling well?"
Shinji nodded, took a sip of his tea (his fourth cup tonight!), and swallowed before answering, "Yes, Father. I'm feeling a lot better than the last attempt, and I'm more than a little hopeful this'll be a longer-lasting setup than...well..."
Gendo nodded, smiling quietly to himself. "That's good, son. That's actually...wonderful to hear."
Shinji stared, curiously, too timid to question his father (he'd always been too timid, this was -Gendo fucking Ikari-, damnit!), but eager to know what was going through the man's mind.
"Well...Kyoko and I had very high hopes for the current model, so we...well, we designed an outer-layer, so to speak. We thought you might have trouble acclimating to the public world after living in Terminal Dogma's...in -that- tank for so long that we...we wanted to make sure you kept your self-esteem intact."
Shinji tilted his head as his dad's hand darted down into his briefcase and returned with a picture. He handed the picture to Shinji, and Shinji could not help but stare.
It looked like the Eligor, but...it couldn't be, considering his father was -leaning on the mech's shoulder-. If it weren't for the bunny-ear antennae, Gendo would outstrip the mech's height by a good two or three inches! It was then that Shinji realized what this meant.
"Father, is...is this...?"
Gendo merely nodded, his smile widening. "Indeed, son. That is a cybernetic exoskeleton designed to link up to your current series of mods. It won't do anything for your anonymity, but then again, with your condition that was always going to be a problem, but...at least this way, you don't have to feel ashamed of your scars while you and Asuka are in school."
Shinji couldn't help but smile, at that. His father was always thinking about him, always putting him first. It was a heady feeling, for someone who'd been without love or parents at all for nearly a whole year ten ye--wait, what?
Two voices shouted as one, "While I'm in -what-?!"
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It is now time to deal with questions!
Interesting thought to have all of Gendo's plots be for Shinji's sake. Doubt it'd fit canon Gendo too well, but as a catalyst for a NERV that actually works toward its stated goal it seems to work. It even gives a plausible reason for how Akagi (pretty sure it's Naoko specifically) found him breaking down despite his difficulty emoting- I mean, what caring parent WOULDN'T break down upon hearing about that sort of thing happening to their kid?
It looks like Gendo's been practicing emoting (and, to a degree, acquiring a sense of humor- is that a Metal Gear reference I see?) since then, incidentally.
Kinda wondering about the Eligor's technical stuff (like, converted from the Evangelion or built from scratch), but I suspect that'll be explained in time, so I'll just ask if all the piloted mecha will be named from the Goetia instead. Will we be seeing, say, an Astaroth?
Have a cookie for spotting that! And yes, that was actually explicitly Naoko Akagi that found him. Yes, yes, that was an MGS reference. Gendo has two teenage children at the moment, and he's -trying- to be a decent father...even if Rei tests that -all the goddamned time-, so he's a -bit- more up on the lingo, as it were, than his canon counterpart. As to emoting...he's definitely had more practice, but he's also a consummate actor. I'm actively attempting to blur the lines, here, so that nobody knows whether or not he's CaringDad!Gendo, or ManipulativeBastard!Gendo. If my -readers- can't tell, Kihl Lorenze and the Old Men can't tell, natch.
As to the technical side...well, while we don't get into tensile strength, we do have a nice little bit about the mecha in this chapter, so I hope that satisfies at least -some- of your curiousity!
Okay, I came here due to
@Jake 's recommendation, and so far it seems to have been a good one!
Your writing style is really good, very engaging. Detailed, without going overboard. And the changes promise to be very interesting. And I also like how it promises more by hinting at things without yet explaining them. What is the relationship of Misato and Kaji to the others? It's clear there is one, after all. Is Asuka 'extended family' because she's Shinji's girlfriend? I mean, it is never
explicitly stated... and so on. Not to mention all the different terminology. Eligor? Well, that's not Judeo-Christian. ACP? EX? I suppose we'll see. But I have the feeling those are not actually the EVAs with another name...
I really like that Shinji still has a proper motivation. That often gets a bit overlooked when a fic changes his background and hence his personality. The series made it clear he basically only sticks around
because he is rather weak-willed, after all. So it's nice to see him being altered here, but still have his very own reason for fighting. I hope we will see more of Asuka and Rei and their motivations as well. Especially given how altered they are... Rei obviously so, and Asuka, with her mother still around, well... that kinda changes everything, one would think.
Asuka works well as PoV character. Impulsive, lively, yet still clearly different from canon. As for Rei, uh... yeah, that's odd. I'll reserve judgement until we see more of her
I do wonder how certain things still work. In the series, most likely Asuka could synch with 02 because it was her mother's soul inside it. Here, Kyoko is alive, yet Asuka is nonetheless a pilot. Which makes me believe her "RCM-VF-1S" is not EVA-02, either. But if it aren't EVAs, what are they? And what happened to the EVAs then? And if they are, well, how does it all still work?
Also, okay, Asuka got her degree. As a teenager. But then, she is a kid genius... and yet, Shinji also already went or goes to college at that age? That seems to be a bit of a stretch to me. And since Asuka is called a "young teenager", they don't seem to be aged up, either... Also, they're now properly integrated into a military hierarchy? Hm.
/E: Oh and yeah, one other thing: Gendo. So one the one hand, he still longs for Yui, but then on the other hand he decides, due to what happened to Shinji "fuck her and fuck her plans"? How does he emotionally reconcile that?
I appreciate the compliment, thanks! I try not to bog down in the details, but, as I mentioned earlier, every little bit of a story -makes up the story-. From settings to events to characters, -everything- has to come together. On the character side, yes, that -is- why Asuka was selected to be the first-episode introductory character for us, to act as our eyes and ears as we're brought into this scary, new NERV, and because, thanks to backstory, I actually had a valid excuse! I do so love it when canon agrees with my attempts to change it, hee.
Shinji is, as noted by Jake earlier, different, but still similar, and the same holds true with Shinji. Rei, on the other hand...I could not find a valid excuse to keep her character anywhere -near- the same, especially for...certain reasons. All I can say about that at this point is that, essentially, she's living life for both herself and her Onii-chan. It doesn't -quite- come through, especially in these early chapters (it's still the same day! Holy crap, three chapters and I haven't even gotten passed the first -day-!), but it will become much, much more obvious as time wears on that Our Reis Are Different.
Shinji has a metal spine, and obviously has little to no problem whatsoever with being the pilot of the Gigantic Murder Machine, but his -base- motivation remains absolutely the same: he wants to make his father proud. It's for different -reasons-, and has different connotations this time, but it's still our beloved baka-Shinji at the core of it. And it's less that Shinji's a child genius, and more....well...circumstances conspired, and I'll leave it there, for now.
Asuka is still very much Asuka, but without the utter crippling fear of being left alone. Now, she has her mother, but her father proved to be just as much a dipshit as he did in canon, and, while not nearly so egregious as boning a nurse in the next room while his insane wife commits murder-suicide in tandem with her daughter-that-is-a-doll, it's still a horrifying thing to go through as a child that young, and it's a weight on the psyche as you grow up and realize -why- your family is a broken one. She latched onto Shinji, hardcore, and...well, he's her motivation, her rock, and no, he is not her boyfriend.
Possibly yet. (Spoilers!)
As to how Gendo reconciles things....yeah, he's broken. He does miss and love his wife, very, very much. But, for all intents and purposes, she's -dead-. And she -wanted- to be a giant mecha, -anyway-. All Gendo had left was her plans, which involved him damning his already-damned soul even further, and his son, which the plan called for him to abandon. That abandonment got his son nearly -killed-. He's not seeing much need to reconcile 'keeping Shinji safe' with 'Yui's plan' when Yui's plan blatantly -ruined- 'keeping Shinji safe' (in this continuity, at least). Gendo -does- love Shinji. We even have exceptionally tear-jerking moments of that shining through, in the scene where he leaves Shinji behind, and in his last words. He -loves- Shinji, and we get to -see it-. As to Yui....well, he's definitely -obsessed- with her, but love? That he doesn't even stop to think for a couple of minutes as to how his wife would react to the callous, evil treatment of -her- son speaks ill of one or both of them, in canon. Either Yui wouldn't bat an eye at Shinji being all-but-physically abused speaks ill of her, or that Gendo doesn't realize a woman who -does- love her son would want nothing to do with the man that did that speaks very, very poorly as to his actual -love- for the woman. It's a tightrope, managing to balance the few shows of love and care for Shinji we get (There is no way the Scenario called for that 'Good work, Shinji' after the Sahaquiel battle, for example), and his actual 'I'm gonna turn my son and all of humanity into goo for -that woman-!' right now.
Now, as to how this affects the Scenario....well. For one thing, you're very, very right. The mechas seen so far, and near to come, are -not- Eva-series. At all. They're mechs. Mobile suits. Knightmare Frames. Armored Cores. Our Giant Mecha Are Different. They do, obvioiusly, generate an AT-Field, as explained in this chapter, and they -do- still need an underaged pilot to control said AT-Field, but the -how- is ever so different. And it's explained in chapter yet to come.
There will only ever be eleven Evas in this 'fic. One of them is Unit-01. I'll let y'all figure out what the rest of them are.
For another....Gendo -does- still have to convince the Old Men that he's following the Scenario, and so far, the only things that matter to -that- are the Dummy Plug system, which...doesn't necessarily -need- an Eva, and killing the fuck out of the Angels, which, as you saw in Episode Two, Gendo's still all about dat!
Oh, and before y'all point this out to me, I already know what y'all are going to say.
"If Shinji couldn't go out in public because of his appearance, and he's lived in a tank all his life, how could he pick up Asuka from the station like she said in Chapter Two?"
That's not a mistake or a plot hole. That's -intentional-.
Also, I will be going back to repair some jargon-related errors in Chapter Two. NERV-Actual is apparently moronic, and should be shortened to 'Command' as Shinji's not speaking to Gendo, but the actual bridge crew.
Marshal, out! Whoo!