Neither hail nor sleet nor a day full of little disasters can stop me! Well, it almost did. But that is not interesting. The feast is interesting! On with the show. You chose to
call the laws unjust. Punky!
4.10 The Great Feast I
How to speak of what followed, how to render it truthfully and rightfully? Heart trembles at such questions, and the mind proves feeble; the only answer comes from the soul. And therefore, as a sailor, who, when beset by a storm, takes refuge in the safety of a port, we should likewise seek protection in the harbour of gospels, the fountain of saintly wisdom, and in which the path to sainthood is contained. And was it not written in the gospel of Saint Nebridius that he whose preaching is contrary to his action is twice a liar? And was not the response that the First Saint gave, when asked why he does not observe the laws of White Wall, that one learns the name of God through justice? Can the law be broken then, for the sake of justice? A man could say: but the law is justice; yet, the words of the First Saint clearly disagree with this claim. Therefore, if law and justice are not the same, then the law can be broken, if such is the demand of justice. And is lying just? Most obviously not; it is a sin and the domain of the Malefactors, who are for that reason also called the Great Deceivers. Then, if one breaks the law, but maintains that the law is just, he is, as Saint Nebridius teaches, twice a liar and twice a sinner.
Such is the answer that the soul gives, and with it, it must be concluded that although you spoke against the law and custom of your people, which was considered saintly in origin, you did so out of piety and righteousness. Far be from it to say that they cannot be a source of sin; such is the might of the Malefactors and the devils that serve them, that even the well of saintly knowledge that is faith can be sometimes poisoned by them; a great number of heresies known to us speak that the good religion can too become a vessel for damnation, if not observed correctly. And perhaps this forces us to consider: by what measure could you judge the law unjust? One who speaks against many, and against the wisdom of generations, is often a sower of strife and unrest, therefore a sinner. But was not the First Saint such a man, who stood against the evils of idolatry and spoke to us the gospel of the saintly path? And were not the prophets that the Old Book speaks of sent to caution many, while they were but one, with merely justice and ardour at their side? Truth be told, the words that you spoke, I find impossible to judge, and I will pray to the Saints that they render their judgment on you in the full extent of their great justice. And let us all consider the cautions of Saint Nebridius: may only the Saints ever live without doubt.
And so, when asked by the red-headed maid, you replied:
"This is not fair, this is not right."
And as you spoke those rebellious words, you took on your back a different burden; for a seed of doubt, once sown, will not go away. An injustice once named cannot be forgotten; and you feared that now that you could no longer agree with the laws of your people, you would be renounced by them; and you feared even more that it would be preferable to be renounced, than to live in injustice.
The red-headed maid, although she had forced you to say those words, did not smile, nor did she express mirth. Rather, she delivered you such words:
"You are going to carry that weight."
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You gained a new scar: Rebellious. Having once agreed that the laws of the world are unjust, you can longer submit to them and find it proper.
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In the hall of Ulla the Hammer, a mighty number of great guests had been gathered. There was Ulla and his sons, Ulbert, Ulrig and Ulla with their favoured retainers, and his wife Ethelberta with her maids. There were also many other kinsmen of his: his brother Gelbert and his sons Dagome (also called Golden-beard) and Gella, and their retainers, and also men who were beholden to Ulla: Rupert, Gunthram, Chliperic, Boso and Merovech. Then there was also the great guest, abbot Galen of Saint Deusdedit Monastery, who for his great kindness and generosity was called the Magnanimous and was known for that he had no lover for gold or silver, and took none, unless made to, and what received, he immediately gave away to the poor and the wanting. He was given the seat of honour to the right of Ulla the Hammer. There were also other notable guests: Ragnemodus of the Karlings, with his son Carolus, and brothers Otha and Offa from the line of Mumolus, who were very fine with bow and spear, and were companions to Ulla from the time of war.
There were also many others, but to name them all, there is not enough space; for although the mighty great-hall of Ulla had never seen such a feast before, and so many great guests who, and those who attended can attest that they had never before or after been treated as finely as by Ulla. For behind each of them, there stood a servant holding a candle, so that the hall was as bright as during the day, if not brighter, and in the other hand, the servant held a painted pitcher with finest wine, and in no other hall in the land could such a good wine be found as it was served during the feast.
There was also a great abundance of food, the likes of which you had never seen before; white bread and cheese and very many kinds of meat, fowl and fish, and spices from the East, and olive and oil. And if any bowl or dish was emptied, it was instantly refilled, so that none of them could be every empty. Also, Ulla made it so that in each bowl, a silver coin was hidden, and he who found could take it as his.
And Ulla himself filled the first goblet of the night, and drank from it to honour his new-born son, and it was passed between guests, including you (as you were a honoured guest of the house, you were given a fine place, to the right of Ulla's wife). It was filled with great wine, dark and strong like blood, and you never had stronger. And you consider whether to drink deep of it, like a man and a warrior, or rather lightly, like someone who is afraid to let the wine, which is the vessel of honesty, to speak through them; like an eremite or a woman.
[ ] Drink deeply.
[ ] Drink lightly.