Hug Your Destiny [NSFW] - Explicit / Kink (Trans Protag)

Hypothesis:

There are certain kinds of people who can only get a balanced relationship by starting with an imperfectly balanced dynamic, and adding trim weights to adjust the center of gravity.

Yeah. I mean considering Faust it makes sense as a place to start, I just hope that Lyle can grow into it a bit? I think that's the direction things are already taking.

Part of that is probably seeing her as less of a... force of nature to just endure and more someone who can respond to input and be helped.
 
Chapter seemed a bit filler-y, but its also necessary connective tissue and there are some neat character bits with lyle accepting her shoggoth bits more.

I liked it.
 
Well that answered a bunch of questions about AA I'd had at the beginning of the story. I'd been wondering what exactly their goal was, mostly, and that covered that very well.
 
I remember trying CwtE when it was first posted on SV and it not really clicking with me then, but I decided to give it another go a few days back and I'm glad that I did. I just finished reading through everything and I'm eagerly awaiting more.

MGE is, to me, very much a WJT universe and the enforced heterosexuality, monogamy, not to mention lack of consent and the creepy underage stuff has always put me off. But I've enjoyed the way this story has handled things and the way it looks at those issues and goes "Yes, but...".

I'm horrible at finding the right words to express myself so I'll just say that I like how things are being written and hope the characters manage to find better ways of doing things before the story's end.
 
Chapter Forty-Nine - Lady-shaped
The guest speaker, a gorgeous Selkie named Marina, had had quite a bit to say, after being ferried in on an army of what were apparently her personal maids. I got the sense a lot of the speech was aimed at folks here who hadn't quite experienced things the way I had, I was kind of a special case, but one sentiment in particular did stick out, even if I wasn't sure what to think of it.

"You can be a girl," she'd said, "Your body a girl's body, your mind a girl's mind. You just have to want it."

It was a novel thought. I knew that I'd physically transformed, had become lady-shaped, and I'd expected, I guess, that at some point I'd become a lady myself, it seemed like the way things were going, but the process had been… opaque? Far away? Not really something I worried about. And, to be fair, I'd had a lot more disruptive changes, I was a grime-hungry slime demon, I liked forging contracts with trapped heroes and nibbling on floor tiles. Being distracted by that stuff seemed, if not normal, at least expected.

But I hadn't really… I hadn't been bothered by the lady-shapedness. The idea that I had to eat male spirit energy, sure, but I wasn't like… unaware there were women out there only attracted to other women. The two things weren't the same. Was the difference between me and a lady just… was it really so slim?

I'd started to think of myself as a Slime, and I certainly was, I thought of the horns on my head as mine, and it felt true that they were, but… while I'd called my body lady-shaped, I'd not really inhabited that headspace the same way.

Was it something I wanted to do? That I was an Alp at all suggested the answer was yes, but… Could I really just flip a switch like that? Think of myself as a lady, and in so doing, be one? What was the difference, really, if not just that thought? Taking comfort in the role, I guess? Could the desire to be a woman be so simple?

If I were a woman, what would be different?

I guess… if I were, and I were owning it, proud of it? I might stop wearing this robe, dress a little less like I was hiding from everyone. Would I feel less weird about eating men? I didn't think so. I'd be a lesbian, right? Can you still be someone's husband if you're a lesbian? I wouldn't want to take that away from the women in my life that I love. I guess if I say so, and my wife says so? Who else would have the right to argue?

I wouldn't… start playing with dolls or anything? Did I know any women who did? …Actually, if Beeps counted as a doll then maybe I was the biggest fan of dolls I knew.

So then, what was the difference? Between me and a woman? If it wasn't anything, then… what?

The question gripped me as I walked home, thoughtlessly flowing around the crowds. Maybe I should ask someone. But who? Faust? She'd set out to turn me into a lady from day one. I knew what she'd say. Beeps? A good sounding board, but Beeps' devotion would probably remain if I were a toad, much less a woman. She was completely uninvested in the answer. Blackberry had been proudly proclaiming me as "her husband who turned into a lady but it was okay because we still loved each other" since before I even realized there was a question. For her, this wasn't complicated, and I wasn't sure she could explain how she felt in a way I could understand, even if the support meant everything.

Amy, of course, but I leaned on her for this kind of thing a lot. I might ask her, but she didn't have the wildly outside perspective I needed. Akubra, on the other hand, had too much of it. I didn't know Samael at all, and while Charlotte might have been otherwise ideal, the things she was going through right now made me think it was a bad idea.

That left Magenta, who, if I recalled right, had wanted to see me anyway, for something unrelated? I'd been meaning to drop by, maybe now was the time. I didn't think she was like… a great source to get answers like this from, but there's something to be said for asking someone you're likely to disagree with what they think about something. Sometimes that can help you form your own thoughts. And besides, even if maybe I shouldn't, I liked Magenta.

That decided, I abruptly was facing the other direction, and walking the other way. I had eyes across my body so it didn't really require any reorienting, but a few people in the crowd seemed bothered when a new face flowed out of the back of my head, and the old one fell away under my hair. My horns sort of rolled around like a plate dropped on the floor, and I was off, headed towards Magenta's warehouse. I'd have to figure out where she lived one of these days, but she spent a lot of her time at the warehouse anyway, so the need wasn't exactly pressing.

The trip to the studio warehouse was rather short, as it was itself centrally located in the city, if slightly further out than my home and the town hall. Anemone, the Kraken receptionist, was waiting when I entered, although presumably not specifically for me. She was huge, her torso was as big as my entire body, and her tentacles were far longer than humanoid legs, making her overall even larger than a human her size would have been, and it wasn't close.

Heck, her head by itself was about the size of my torso. She had shoulder length blue hair, wore presumably decorative spectacles, and had white, almost rubbery skin, like a whale's, which turned blue towards the tips of her fingers, tentacles, and her ears. She was covered all over with black markings that accentuated the femininity of her gigantic form, and it wasn't clear to me if they were natural or tattoos.

She waved to me as I entered, "Hey, Lyle!"

"Hey, Anemone, how are things here?" I asked.

She smiled. "Because we brought them here, Lyle."

I closed my eyes briefly, centering myself. It had the effect of making me look disapproving, and also helping me to avoid snickering at her ridiculous wordplay. It was a constant habit of hers, and she clearly didn't need encouraging.

Judging by the smirk on her face, she was used to this tactic, though.

"Hey, Anemone?" I asked.

"Mmm?"

"Do you have some sort of… underwater tunnel?" I asked.

"Oooh~ you want to know about my underwater tunnel, honey?~" She giggled.

I stumbled, metaphorically. "I-I meant… you aren't stuck in there, right? You can go home?"

Her smirk softened, she looked… genuinely touched. "Ah… yeah, I can. I can go to the park too, although…" and her smile broadened again, "I can actually walk on land if I want, as myself or in human form, if I like, you know?"

I nodded, thoughtfully. "Actually, do you shrink down, if you make yourself look human?"

She laughed. "No, I run around full-size, actually. The folks in the cities never suspect."

I paused, then shook my head, ruefully. "That makes sense. I don't know why I'm surprised, I can actually make myself bigger too, at this point."

A sudden light shone in her eyes. "Can you now?"

I paused, then smiled. "Well, no, not right now, there's not enough room!"

Her eyes widened, and then she laughed, long, hard, and loud. It was an incredibly honest laugh, one without consideration of those around her, no self-consciousness. Passionate.

"I like you, Lyle. Let me know if you ever need swimming lessons, okay? I'd hate to see you drift apart in the water because no one taught you how to keep yourself together."

My eyes widened, and I asked, slightly shaken, "Does that happen?"

Her eyebrows waggled, "You never know. Either way, I'd love to spend all day correcting your form~. Now go on in, honey. Magenta's been eager to see you."

She put down her hand and I stepped into the palm, letting her ferry me across the moat that separated the rest of the studio from the public waiting area.

It wouldn't do to keep Magenta waiting.
 
The guest speaker, a gorgeous Selkie named Marina, had had quite a bit to say, after being ferried in on an army of what were apparently her personal maids. I got the sense a lot of the speech was aimed at folks here who hadn't quite experienced things the way I had, I was kind of a special case, but one sentiment in particular did stick out, even if I wasn't sure what to think of it.

"You can be a girl," she'd said, "Your body a girl's body, your mind a girl's mind. You just have to want it."

Ah, I get that reference!

I wouldn't… start playing with dolls or anything? Did I know any women who did? …Actually, if Beeps counted as a doll then maybe I was the biggest fan of dolls I knew.

This is the cutest line in the update.

That left Magenta, who, if I recalled right, had wanted to see me anyway, for something unrelated? I'd been meaning to drop by, maybe now was the time. I didn't think she was like… a great source to get answers like this from, but there's something to be said for asking someone you're likely to disagree with what they think about something. Sometimes that can help you form your own thoughts. And besides, even if maybe I shouldn't, I liked Magenta.

Lyle and Magenta's relationship seems interesting to me. Magenta certainly hasn't been like... an unalloyed good friend, even if she's helpful?

She waved to me as I entered, "Hey, Lyle!"

"Hey, Anemone, how are things here?" I asked.

She smiled. "Because we brought them here, Lyle."

Amazing pun :V
 
Chapter Fifty - Definitions
The 'communication' room in Magenta's warehouse was smallish, and the floor was oddly padded, cushioned. The walls, and the ceiling too, judging by the look of them. Any furniture that might normally have been in here had been removed. It was uniformly dark, demonic purple, and lit from no apparent source. Besides Magenta and myself, who were only really peeking in through the doorway, there was one other occupant.

In one corner, doing her best to pretend she didn't exist, was a normal, human woman.

She was damn near the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. Naked, sure, but her breasts were smallish, slightly uneven. She was doing her best to cover both of them, as well as her crotch. Her black hair was matted, sweat-slick, and the sweat had gathered on her darkly tanned olive skin, as well. She was shaking terribly as she glared at us, brown eyes hateful and fearful both. She was covered in small imperfections, skin scarred, or pocked, a mole on one arm, some little acne on her back. Her ribs were starting to show.

Not traditionally what you'd think of as beautiful.

But fuck me if she wasn't anyway. I hadn't seen anyone like her in ages, and certainly not since I'd Alped. Except Charlotte, of course, but her collar protected her from our senses. I couldn't tell how corrupted she was or wasn't. This woman though? She'd barely taken in any demonic energy at all. She was so… so pure, so… empty. Wow…

I turned to Magenta, frowning, tearing my eyes away from the woman, doing my best to ignore the effort that took. I had a sneaking suspicion where this was going, and I didn't like it.

"Well? She's fucking hot, right? Doesn't she just get you going?"

I wanted to agree. She was. She did.

Instead, I said, "What did you say to her? She looks terrified." I tried to frown, tried to ignore the woman all my senses were screaming at me about.

Magenta smirked at me. "The truth. That I was gonna bring another Demon to meet her, that's you, by the way, and that you were gonna show her her new religion."

I stared at her, gormlessly.

"You know? Fucking? Her new religion is sex." Magenta added, when I failed to jump the woman.

"…No, I… I understood that when you implied it… I just… Is this how you do things? You lock women in rooms and do sex at them until they like it?"

Magenta frowned. "Well, no. There's usually a lot more to it when I do it for me, but I wanted you to have space to find your own technique. It's a very personal thing, the first time you turn someone. It's important to do it however feels right for you."

Well… shit.

Magenta smirked at me as I quickly shut the door and turned to her, livid.

"No. No, I'm not doing this. Not participating in this… this thing you do." Even though I want to. Even though my instincts screamed. "I'm not sure why you thought I would!" I lied, brazenly. The anger helped to sell it, I hoped.

She got right up in my face, her skin smelling slightly of something floral. Her breath, however, smelled like cum.

It made me hungrier.

"Lyle, honey," her tail slid up the outside of my thigh, not quite enough pressure to break my surface tension. Teasing me with the potential penetration. "You're going to have to do this eventually."

I crossed my arms. It felt petulant more than indignant. "That's not true. I… have to eat, yeah, but… she's not food."

"She's the best kind of food, Lyle. Food for the soul."

Her tail slid to the inside of my thigh. My own started questing in a similar way across her body. I had a lot more control over myself than I would have as an Incubus, but it's still less than I'd had when I was fully human.

"Turning women into monsters is what we're for, Lyle. It's what a Demon is, what it means to be like us. Our souls screamed out to the Demon Lord and she gave us the power to enact our wildest fantasies, and now we return the favor. That girl in there, she thinks she hates us, that's she's terrified, but she's wrong, she's just sad, just repressed. A taste of pleasure will break that barrier down and she'll be grateful you did it. It'll be like nothing you've ever felt, I promise."

I sighed, opening the door again. I wasn't going to get anywhere talking to Magenta, she was a zealot, but I could try talking to her, at least. "Okay, okay just… just stay outside. You can watch from out here."

Magenta drew herself up indignantly before a small smile slowly crept onto her face. She became visibly more aroused as it did, the tiny slice of fabric covering her crotch soaking further, and her nipples tightening as her entire body flushed from its normal blue to a slightly darker purple.

"So you want to be alone with her, do you? You little minx. Alright, just remember, you can't pussy out. If you leave the room without her undying devotion, I'll make her regret it."

The woman in the corner whimpered a little. I grimaced in sympathy. Magenta was mostly talk, she just… liked to create a certain atmosphere. But that atmosphere could be scary enough on its own, and at the end of the day, while I wasn't certain she meant it, she might well carry through; after all, she was still a monster.

But, then again… So was I.

Steadfastly ignoring the dripping sensation trailing down my legs, I waited for Magenta to leave, before I sat myself down in to the opposite corner from the woman, and settled in for the long haul. The damndest thing was that Magenta or not, this woman wouldn't make it out of the city. Even if I took her by the hand and led her out, while somehow resisting pinning her down myself… and just the thought of that was getting me wet, so I didn't think it was super likely, but even if… well, there were more than enough Mamono giving off more than enough energy that the passive corruption alone meant she'd monsterize before we reached the city limits.

Magenta apparently carried her in by air, but I wasn't dumb enough to think I could put her body that close to mine with any kind of restraint.

The point was, once way or another, she was as good as done. That probably wasn't going to lift her spirits if I said it out loud, but Magenta probably already told her, frankly. She'd have done it just to see the look on her face, both now, and when she was thanking her for it later, after her transformation.

I sat in the corner, considering my approach and avoiding looking at her, both to seem less threatening, and to let myself cool down a little. I tried to match her posture, somewhat, but putting my hands anywhere near my breasts was a terrible idea at the moment. My pussy was desperate for something, anything to touch its over-sensitive skin, so I fought to keep it from so much as brushing the floor. It was really odd to me that that part of me was any more sensitive than the rest, given that I was slime everywhere, not just there, and I could actually probably make a vagina appear anywhere I wanted, but dwelling on thoughts like that tended to just make me more sensitive everywhere else, rather than provide any relief for my arousal, so…

Ultimately, I suspected that I not only failed to mirror her properly, but that I also looked kinda stupid.

I looked over at her, self-consciously.

Yep. She's staring.

I blushed. "Sh-shut up." I muttered, feeling a little petulant. "I'm trying to be less horny, it's… just not working very well."

She looked away, and so did I. A steady dripping sound echoed as the silence stretched.

Fuck I'm horny.

I waited a little longer, before giving up, and fidgeting, starting to switch my position. Her eyes tracked me as I moved, cautious, alert… which meant she had a great view when I slipped in a puddle of my own cum, and splashed my slimy ass down on to the floor, collapsing into a sad, sopping, formless mess. I jiggled there grumpily for a few moments, embarrassed, and not eager to reform. I still had a vague sense of my surroundings, but I really didn't want to see the look on her face right now.

Eventually, though, I bubbled back up, facing my corner, so I didn't have to look at her.

"Please don't laugh."

"…You're a Slime? I thought you were a Demon?" She asked, quietly.

"Technically…" I said, "technically I'm an Alp."

"Oh. Oh. I… see." She sounded… sympathetic? "So when she said I was your first…"

I turned around, slowly. "Yeah, I… I've been putting it off."

"Oh." She said. We both fell silent again. Alps were pretty commonly known to adapt slowly to being a Monster. It's one of the reasons they're so well known, despite being kinda rare. It was judged important that people know that it can happen to men too, and not to trust them if it did, no matter how clear-headed they seemed. We all fall eventually. I'd hold myself back as long as possible, but… this room was about as sealed as things could get. Just my passive demonic aura would 'cook' her eventually, and… once she got hot enough, she'd beg me to take her. I'd be able to resist that for… probably ten seconds, maximum.

"For what it's worth," I said, "I really am sorry."

She was silent for a while, then, "It… isn't worth much. But… I think I do believe you. …For whatever that's worth."

Not a lot.

"Why, uh… why don't you tell me a little about yourself? We both know where this is going to go, but… there's no reason not to be friendly until then, right?"

She gave me a look. One that screamed; 'I'd rather gnaw off my left arm'.

"Not… not to put too fine a point on it, but it isn't like you have to worry about me capturing you when your guard's down."

She choked out a surprised, bitter laugh, nearly falling over from the involuntary response, then she sighed, her glare softening a little. "…I guess not."

I waited another few minutes while she gathered herself.

"My name is… Elsie." I flinched.

Magenta had hunted down a name she knew I'd have history with, the same name as the girl from the dream, the one Magenta herself had failed to turn into a Demon, the one who'd been fucking multiple men at once. 'This is what's at stake', I could almost hear her say, 'so, don't fuck it up.'

Elsie continued, "I am… I was a student at a magical college in Chalté. Not studious enough to identify a disguised Demon, I suppose."

Magenta was a pretty strong Demon anyway. Being that she had an empire built on supplying sexual fantasy dreams to the masses and all.

"I… I grew up on a farm. I accidentally turned one of our pigs blue, and… well, the guards passed it up the chain. Studying to be a mage for the crown isn't a bad life, and I was able to send some money home, to friends and family…"

She looked for a moment like she might be overcome. Family, friends, maybe even someone she liked…? Not the sort of thing that's comforting in a situation like this. Any other time sure, but… by this time tomorrow she'd be plotting to fuck at least one of the people on that list, statistically.

I tactfully avoided saying that aloud.

"I'd been doing that for some time when, well…" She paused. "You said you're an Alp?"

I nodded, not wanting to interrupt while she actually talking to me.

"So you'd know, then." She said, "It's just… it's so hard to keep to what they tell you to. I felt so closed in, so controlled. I needed a place where I could let the pressures out…"

She looked at me, frustrated.

"So I went somewhere I knew I shouldn't have. A bar, on a bad side of town."

Ah. Yeah, that'd do it.

From the look she gave me, I knew I'd let my understanding show.

"Yeah, I guess I was too tempting a target. Someone routinely inside castle grounds security, out and about on her lonesome. It didn't happen the first time, or the fifth, but eventually, she found me."

I frowned, nodding.

"Did she get you too?" She asked.

I shook my head. "Love of my life came back from the dead. A Lich."

Her eyes widened. Liches had a reputation.

"Oh." She said.

"Yeah, nothing I could do. In my grief, nothing I wanted to. Not that I regret it, I admit." I smiled lightly, but she wouldn't meet my eye.

She shuffled lightly, sitting a little more comfortably rather than crouching. Now that she was leaning back against the wall, her legs, knees, and feet were sufficient to protect her modesty, and she freed up her arms.

"So…" I said.

"So." She said.

"I… um…" I continued, awkwardly. "There's uh… well, there's a couple way this can go."

She stared at me, unimpressed.

"I mean; I assume… I assume you don't want to let yourself go wild?" I ventured, carefully. "We could just… sit here until you turn, but you'd be a Succubus. You know what that means."

She glowered. "That wouldn't be me."

"I…" This was hard. "I don't think that's quite true. We aren't defined by our limitations, at least, not alone. We're also defined by the things we can do. Just because… you'd lose some limitations you've placed on yourself, that doesn't mean you'd become less yourself. At least, I don't think so."

She stayed quiet.

"I… When Sally came back from the dead, she was a little different, a little more aggressive, but still the woman I knew. I wouldn't have gone with her if I didn't believe that." I continued. "The thing is, the difference between what she did, and what happens to a lot of women, is that instead of letting the pressure mount until she broke, she found a way to redirect it towards her own aims."

I smiled.

"She's good at that."

Elsie narrowed her eyes at me. "You think I should lean in."

I hesitated. "I think… I think you could. If this is going to happen either way, why not try to guide it? If you're lost outside in the woods, you don't just… lie down, do you? You do something to turn it to your advantage. The trees can be shelter, with a little work. If you know what to look for, you can find food and water. Maybe you can't get out on your own, but… that doesn't mean it's over, does it? Some people live out there quite happily, you know?"

She huffed.

"Well," I said, "Think about it. If you have to cross a river, you don't let someone just pick you up and fling you in, you plan a crossing and you take some tools and you wind up exactly where you mean to. If you fight all the way up to the end, the snap as it overtakes you is going to be more dramatic, you'll be flung into the deep end by the sheer force of it, and when it washes you away, who knows where you'll come up for air? You can pick your place and wade in, though. There's still a chance you'll get swept up, but… That chance is better than nothing, right?"

Her shoulders sagged, just a little.

"This transformation will define you if you let it." I said, "so define it first."

She looked up at me, and I thought, maybe, I'd made a connection there, touched on something real, something even I was struggling with.

"And," I said, with renewed vigor, "You don't have to do it alone. I want to help you through it, and out the other side, if you'll have me."

Oh!

"Sorry, I forgot! Let me introduce myself."

I stood up, walking slowly closer, and held out my hand.

"Hi, Elsie, it's nice to meet you. My name is Lilac."
 
Hello, Lilac!

Also, Poor Elsie! She's just found her self in a pretty terrible situation! Magenta proves to remain very cunning and manipulative, very awful by many standards, yet probably among the nicest by demon standards, considering most would have bent her to their way of thinking by now and have her halfway to demonhood.
 
Chapter Fifty-One - Let's Get You Fitted
She stood up, walking towards me.

"It's… well, it's not nice to meet you, but…"

My eyes widened, and I put my hand behind my head, embarrassed.

"Ehehehe… Yeah, poor phrasing, sorry."

Elsie hadn't shaken my hand, but I'd put it out more by reflex than anything. Standing up and walking towards me was more than enough.

"So," she said, "How do we do this?"

I have no idea!

"Well," I said instead, "The difference between a Demon and a Succubus is… sort of a fervent belief in the rightness of being a Mamono. So… I think we should look at it like that? Like a prayer to the Demon Lord to not just wash over the sculpture of your soul, sanding bits away, but to flow intelligently, to refine, and add definition. If we do that, and the changes are ones you're earnest about accepting, I think we can do it."

"That sounds a lot like a guess," she said, suspiciously.

"Well, this is my first time, but Magenta said I need to do this on my own, and I don't think you want me to involve her anyway, right?"

She shuddered.

"It's fine, though, really. I have Demonic instincts! They'll guide me."

Probably!

She looked less than convinced, but she didn't go back to cowering in the corner, which was a kind of success. I noted again just how pretty she was. Not like my wives, not like Jack, a kind of beauty that was entirely separate. Instinctual in the same way as my attraction to Jack, but tied up in the fact that I was big into the ladies, much like my attraction to my wives.

"Well!" I said, "first, the easy stuff. You're a huge magic nerd, like Sally is, right?"

"I don't know your Sally, and I resent being called a huge nerd, but yes, I guess so."

I nodded. "Well, you can expect your command over magic to increase. Before I Alped, I had absolutely no magic talent, but now, I can do this!"

I lashed out a hand, and a blank contract burst into being, flash and fire heralding its arrival.

"A Demonic contract?" She asked, "Do we need one?"

"It's for your benefit, actually." I said, "most Demons bind others with their contracts, sure, but they're equally as binding on the Demon involved."

I cleared my throat.

"I, Lilac von Frankenstein Nightcap of the Forest," I began.

I got a weird look from her, but it felt right to include the last names of my wives. Beeps didn't have one, and Amy had left her family behind, but the rest would be represented.

"do hereby swear to provide the undersigned with the following service; to do all I can to help her become the best Mamono she can be as she perceives it, and assist as she crosses into the Demon Lord's embrace, and in return, the undersigned promises to be honest with me about her desires, that we can come to the best accord we can achieve under these terms. The terms of this contract ends when the undersigned has become a Mamono herself."

I couldn't help it. I wiggled a little as the words etched into the paper, burning their way into reality.

"Deal?" I asked, with baited breath.

She paused, looking a little sick. "Do I have to?"

"I… no, you don't have to. But… this protects you from me losing control of myself and jumping you. It makes it much more realistic that we can work together, and if you have to be honest about what you want, there won't be any regrets later, right?"

She nodded, reluctantly, but nothing happened.

"I need you to say it."

I need it.

She gulped, gathering herself. She was shaking.

"Hey…" I said, gently, "It's okay. I know this is scary, but you're about to gain things you can't even imagine."

She looked at me, tears in her eyes.

"That's what I'm afraid of, stupid."

"Ah, right," I paused, "well, focus on the things you can imagine, then! More magic, sure, but there's lots of other benefits too, I never finished listing them. Free food, free water, free housing, plenty of free time, freedom from injury, from age, from the repressive regime you already admitted put so much pressure on you, and, I can't emphasize this enough, freedom from fear, not just your own, but from the fear of your neighbors. Everyone here will be happy to know you, you can find people happy to share in the things you hold dear, whether it's the study of magic or baking the best damn apple pie the planet's ever seen."

I paused, shaking my head.

"That's been the biggest change, really. I don't have to be afraid of these people. I'm accepted here, and whatever I want to do or try, there's someone here to share in the joy of it with without suspicion or restriction or guilt."

Her eyes were wide, when I looked back to her. "Free?"

"Yeah, it's so weird. The only real trade here is luxury for luxury. Everything you need, everything anyone needs, it's all here in such abundance there's not even a way to restrict it if we wanted to, and why should we? We can make all the space we want. Our magic is exponential; we earn more than we can spend summoning food or water faster than we could eat or drink it."

"I can study whatever I want?"

I nodded. "My wife could tell you more about that, but… there's like, a consortium of nerds who'd be happy to catch you up, or to explore the frontiers with you. Why shouldn't they? They have all the time in the world, and more big brain folks means more friends to study with and things to learn."

She let out a sound halfway between a moan, and a growl, and it was hungry.

She flushed as I looked at her, embarrassed. She looked confused, but the kind of confused you get when someone gives you a hug from behind, or you find something you'd lost hidden in a pocket of your winterwear.

"I-I have to… I… How could I not…? I… I agree." Even as the words left her lips, she looked bewildered, but I felt the contract as it slipped into place.

I fought it, but I couldn't quite contain the moan.

She gave me a look like she'd just touched filth, and not in the sexy way.

"What was that noise?" She asked, bristling.

"S-sorry. Contracting feels… good." I muttered. "It's like… I have a purpose and I'm fulfilling it? A real certainty that I'm doing what I should be doing. It's a bit… exciting."

She narrowed her eyes. "I don't wanna sound like that. It's embarrassing."

"Yeah…" I let my shoulders fall. "I still feel kind of ashamed about it myself. Although, it's growing on me. Being a Demon is harder than being a Slime in a lot of ways."

"Uh, yeah… what's that all about, anyway?" She asked, cautiously. "Dark Slimes aren't usually also Demons."

"Not a Dark Slime," I said. "Shoggoth, actually."

I debated opening some eyes, but reconsidered.

"Oh."

"Yeah, there was a Wonderlander involved, and I sort of… well… it's hard to remember exactly, but it's special circumstances."

"Not just any Wonderlander, my love." Akubra said.

I jumped three feet in the air.

Elsie quickly backed up against the wall, startled by my sudden movement.

I looked around but didn't see her.

"Do you hear that?" I asked Elsie.

She shook her head, looking quite spooked as I spoke to, apparently, no one.

"Yes I do, Lilac, my love." Akubra replied.

I looked around again, this time more suspiciously.

"Akubra?" I asked, cautiously, as I smoothed myself out, fright leaving my body reluctantly. "Was that you?"

"Yes, it was me. Do you really not recall?" She asked.

"Where are you?" I asked.

"Is that really the question you want to be asking?" She responded, lightly. "Wouldn't it be more appropriate to ask; 'where are you?'"

"I did!" I said, frustrated. "Unless… you meant, 'where are you' as in, 'where am I?' In which case I'm right here!"

"Yes," she replied, "you are, and so am I. It's quite romantic, isn't it?"

I nodded. I had no idea what she was talking about, but I wouldn't deny my wife romance simply because I didn't understand it at the time. Maybe I'd figure it out later and it could be romantic in retrospect.

"Say 'hello and welcome to the club' to Elsie for me, would you, Lilac? I'm always delighted when someone joins the ranks."

"Uh…" I paused. "I'm not sure that's something she'd like, Akubra. I don't want to make her mad, and I don't think she's interested in your club."

"Oh, she must be," she said, "or I wouldn't have come here."

Uh… huh.

"Akubra says 'Hi', Elsie."

She squinted at me. "Who?"

"That isn't what I said, Lilac."

I shook my head, frustrated. "My wife, one of them anyway. Sorry about this, she doesn't make sense. Which, if anything, is more comforting than it isn't. Rather, she says; 'hello and welcome to the club.' She runs a nightclub here in town, but we aren't there right now."

"Yes we are," Akubra replied, dreamily.

I closed my eyes, breathing deeply.

"Of course, honey, whatever you say."

She smiled, although I don't know how I could tell.

"I'll talk to you later, sweetheart," she said.

"Okay," I said. I turned my focus back to Elsie, and away from the voices in my head. "Sorry about that. I'm not clear on what just happened but I guess she's being neighborly?"

"Well…" Elsie said, "Tell her thanks, I guess."

I nodded.

"In the meantime, though," I said, more firmly, now that I was back on less confusing ground. "let's talk details, I want to make sure I understand exactly what you want out of this. I can't promise it will help, but I don't see how it could hurt."
 
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Chapter Fifty-Two - Calling All
Elsie ran me through it. It was a little embarrassing actually. She let out things that, from the expression on her face, she'd never intended to tell anyone, and maybe even a few things that surprised her about herself. She was compelled to be honest, though, and I was compelled in turn to take that honesty and make something of it.

The broad strokes, though, were not surprising. It turns out that once she couldn't lie to me, she did in fact have a sex drive and sexual fantasies. I was shocked. Shocked!

Well, not that shocked. As a Demon, or maybe as a Shoggoth, I was able to sort of… sense… desire. I was sort of perpetually unsurprised about the things she revealed, as though rather than being a puzzle I was putting together from scratch, I'd had it completed in front of me all along, and was picking out individual pieces to examine more closely before putting them back.

I sort of intuitively understood how her desires fit into her as a person, like she was a tapestry of interlinking wants and needs, and I was counting threads.

What it came down to was a picture that was a little difficult to paint as a lecherous conqueror, though.

I rubbed my hands through my hair, in consternation, the two merging and breaking apart in a way that was much more thorough than I'd been able to manage most of my life.

"Well," I said, "I… have to say it's not the most Demonly collection of desires I've ever seen."

She looked at me crossly, both in face and in arms. She'd become more confident as we talked and I failed to leap at her. It was heartening, I really wanted this to work for her, and it was more likely the more she took charge of her fears.

"I'm not going to be sorry I'm not horny enough, you know." She said.

"Well, no, I mean," I replied slowly, "this is some pretty kinky stuff, that's not what I'm worried about."

She blushed. She'd been unable to hold back a few details I rather suspected she was embarrassed by. I didn't know you could get harnesses for humans, but I bet Blackberry would like some to go with her saddle.

"It's just," I said, "I don't know any Demons who 'want to stay in their rooms all the time reading books and cuddling somebody who's all tied up like a robbery', or who think 'people should just be calmer and quieter, just shush up once in a while'."

It sounded more like Faust than Magenta or myself, but I couldn't exactly leave to go get her.

"Well…" I mused… "It's more Demonish than it is Succubish, I guess, which is what matters. Maybe you can be like, a Demon Librarian or something."

Although I didn't think librarians did a lot of robbery.

Except Sally I guess, she'd technically been a librarian, sort of. If like four separate books counted as a library, anyway. But I think her robberies were more incidental that they were encouraged by her role.

I took a breath. She looked nervous.

"Are you ready?" I asked.

She closed her eyes tightly, and after a moment, nodded. She was tense, and I didn't really know how to help. While she was more confident, she was by no means relaxed, and I could understand why.

All I could do was remind her what we were fighting for.

"Remember," I said, slowly spreading out, climbing myself up the walls and across the ceiling, pooling up out of the floor and covering the room completely, "You aren't fighting this, don't waste your energy, your focus. Call out to it, shout out what you want."

She nodded, her eyes still screwed shut. "I know. I'm scared, though."

My eyes, meanwhile, could no longer be held shut to keep her from being frightened. As I pushed out, mouths, teeth, and tongues formed and moved, and eyes snapped open from within the mass. I was closing in, and I was losing my ability to hold back. It was time now, and the contract no longer kept me from her.

The sense of her was overwhelming and I wanted it so badly.

"I understand," I said, my voice coming from all around her now, as the walls began closing in. "But don't worry, I'm here for you."

She gasped and flinched, and I fell upon her before she could do much else, collapsing in onto her from all sides, and bubbling up from the floor.

She opened her mouth, perhaps to scream, and I flowed inside her.

"Relax," I whispered inside her ear, "The hard part's over, you already surrendered, remember? I'm not going to hurt you, Elsie."

She had no clothes to shed, and so I flowed across her surface luxuriantly, cleaning away grease and grime. I scoured her down to her pores, but gently so, and I felt it as she finally stopped struggling, as the lightest delights played across her skin.

There we go, nice and clean! That had been bothering me desperately.

With the formalities out of the way, and with her body already mostly mine, I focused down on making her feel as good as possible. I rubbed at her slight breasts, kissing with mouths too small to see, and licking with tongues too many to know, I came up inside her from beneath, meeting myself in the middle, smiling lightly at the surprised tension as I entered her, which all too quickly melted away, and I played with her pussy tenderly, lovingly.

It wasn't long until the movements of her body were not her own initiative but all responses beneath my touch, but with the loss of her senses came a sort of passion to her movements I couldn't help but enjoy. She leaned into my every touch like a magnet, almost anticipatory, and I taught her body to dance.

I poured my energy into the void inside her soul, pleased in a visceral way to watch her be stained and filled with the infection I reveled in. It was so much more than I thought it'd be.

But I had a purpose here, a mission, and I wouldn't let myself be distracted.

I could see it leeching into her, and while I didn't have a sense yet of how the changes would happen, I did my best to guide them by will, to send the energy with intent.

"Please," I thought as loudly as I could, "Please hear us, please hear her, hear me. Help me take her to the fulfillment of herself. Don't let her be another thoughtless convert, let me sculpt her, help me show her."

I… thought I caught the interest of something. Something I was swimming in, much like Elsie swam in me. I could taste/hear/smell/see/touch the focus of it, the attention so bright it was all I could do to sense it at all.

WELL WELL WELL LITTLE ONE.

I shook.

WHAT DO WE HAVE HERE?

I shuddered.

NO, NEVERMIND, NO NEED. I SEE IT.

I strained.

BUT THAT'S NOT HOW YOU DO IT, LOVE.

It was too much!

DO IT LIKE THIS.

I twisted.

YES, LIKE THAT, TINY FLOWER.

I screamed.
 
Chapter Fifty-Three - Welcome to our Club
It's not really possible to lose yourself when you've filled a room. You're pressing against every surface and against yourself in a way that makes you too aware of where you are, like clothes that are as tight as you dare to wear.

That said, when you're being assaulted by a presence from outside reality, or whatever it had been that had just happened, you can still wind up disoriented.

At least in my experience. I'll compare notes with anyone else, if they offer.

Maybe they'd know what the hell just happened?

Elsie, for her part, seemed unaware anything had happened, transfixed as she was by her own sensation. She was nearly full up, now, absolutely and sinfully saturated with demonic energy in a way that made me squirm, knowing I'd been the cause, but… I had to wonder if something had gone wrong?

I'd have expected her to start growing a tail or something by now.

She certainly wasn't holding back on the passion, anymore writhing and freely cumming inside my omnipresent embrace, but it was that perfect hold, like clay squeezed tight in your fist, that made it impossible to miss that she was, at a glance, unchanged, at least beyond the smoothing away of imperfections that even Incubi could count on. I suppose it was possible her skin had started to change? I wasn't sure I'd be able to tell if it was merely a shift in tone.

The last of her purity drained away, in a moment that was, for me, quite entrancing, but she remained stubbornly vanilla.

That is, until she abruptly vanished.

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"Oh my lord I think I ate her!" I yelled, panicking, as I collapsed into myself, pulling myself back into my familiar shape.

I ran towards the door, not having thought clearly enough to condense there, and yelled for Magenta.

"Magenta! She's gone, I think I ate her!"

Magenta burst into the room, like she'd been trying to get in for some time, and only just realized I was no longer blocking the door.

"You what?!"

"I ate her!" I yelled, fully panicked. "She just disappeared after I filled her up completely! Vanished! I must have pulled her in! I'm like fifty percent mouth!"

What do I do?

What do I do!?

"Okay, calm down, Lilac." She said, and her voice lilted oddly over my name. I could focus on what she thought about that later, it had just slipped out. It felt right. But now wasn't the time.

She looked around the room, but it was incredibly obvious there wasn't anyone hiding in here, given there was nowhere to hide.

She turned back to me, and I stumbled back under the weight of her gaze.

"What's that?" she said, looking at my stomach.

"What's what?"

She waltzed over, and I looked down, half expecting to see a finger or something morbid like that. Instead, it was what looked the corner of a piece of bleached paper.

I stared down at it.

Had I picked something up out in the street? Things did get stuck in my body from time to time but I usually munched on them if they weren't too big.

She reached out and grabbed it, tugging at it a little. I fought the urge to make her fight for it, and wasn't entirely successful. She had to yank to pull it out.

It was a small rectangular piece of thick paper, roughly the size of the palm of my hand.

"What the heaven?" Magenta asked, doing her, admittedly doofy, equivalent of a curse.

As we watched, the paper changed in her hand. An odd black symbol, like a clover, appeared repeatedly across it, and the number 'seven' etched itself into the corner.

Magenta dropped it immediately, and backed away like it was possessed.

"Oh shit!" she said, eyes on the object, "H-how? W-what?"

It landed on the ground, face down. On the back, a fantastical landscape was depicted, with a strange castle at the center of rolling hills with a checkerboard pattern.

Something about it disturbed me.

I watched it for a moment, confused.

"What is it?"

"It's her," Magenta said, confused, and a little shaken. "She's… a Trumpart."

A what?

The thing flipped over, and began to float into the air, growing larger.

I backed away, suddenly very unsure, the relief I'd started to feel at the idea Elsie might be alive smothered by a strange dread.

Elsie's head popped out the surface, from the central symbol, and she was scowling.

"Can you two keep it down? I want to do an inventory of this library and I can't think over your theatrics."

"Elsie?" I asked, confused.

She nodded. Her black hair had a white streak running through it. It was shaped, on one side, like the symbol on the paper, on the other, like the seven from the same.

What?

"Look," She said, "I'm grateful you got me a house to hide in, that's more than I could have hoped for, and I was thinking I'd have to go out and source the ropes myself, but the silk is a nice touch. That said, I'm all sexed out for now and I just want to explore my mansion. Please be quiet."

"O-okay." I said, and with that she sunk back down out of view, the paper returning to its original size and lying on the floor once more.

Magenta grabbed my hand, and pulled me out of the room, shushing me any time I tried to speak.

"Lilac," she said, once we had a door between us and Elsie, "What did you do?"
 
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i have questions

E: Also can I add that Lilac is a fantastic name?
 
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This has made me suddenly imagine what Akubra was like before she became a Mamoo and dear lord that is unsettling to think about.
 
That's very odd. It's kinda weird that Elise doesn't recognize the weirdness of suddenly having a house to hide in, but... she looks like she might be a wonderlander or something so weird is to be expected I guess.
It makes sense to me. Sudden magic libraries take priority, at least until you have an idea of what you'd want to read later.
 
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