Guilt: Sophia
In spite of my best efforts I couldn't fight the grin tugging at the edges of my mouth. Even Mrs. Nuggent's boring ass class couldn't hamper the high I was riding on right now.
Two days. It took Emma, Madison and I two days to collect all of the shit we stuffed into Hebert's locker. God had that been disgusting, but now…
Heh.
Now it was easily ten times worse, and we had stuck Hebert in there.
It was all I could do not to start laughing at the memory of her screaming to 'let her out'. Stupid uppity bitch, no one helps prey. Prey gets left behind and dies.
Heh, maybe the stupid bitch would actually die in there! Hmm though that could be a problem… If she did end up dying the school might be forced to investigate. I doubt many people would risk turning on Emma and I, but still better safe than sorry…
Maybe we could send Madison to the Janitor with a complaint about the fact that Hebert's Locker was stinking up the entire hallway? That would get her out of there and would even help cover our asses. Still though couldn't let her out too soon or she wouldn't learn anything from the experience.
My grin took on a vicious edge at the thought of her staying in there for another two or three more hours.
I wonder if one of the teachers would hear her screaming before we sent the jan-
Spinning clusters of light,
Massive forms moving through space eclipsing stars as they move.
"Sophia, Sophia are you all right?" Mrs. Nuggent asked.
"Huh." The hell just happened?
"You collapsed onto your desk dear, are you alright? Do you need to go to the nurse?"
Collapsed? What the fuck? I don't collapse, I might sleep through some classes but I don't faint or collapse or any of that shit! What the fuck-
A scream ripped through the air. It was Raw, primal full of hate, and pain. Impossibly loud and clear, it filled me with dread.
And then something changed. My mind froze and memories bubbled up to the surface, memories I was familiar with and yet they were different.
The corner of Lord Street, and Washington, on the edge of the docks, this is where I killed my first ganger. I had missed his shoulder and punctured a lung. Only I had shot him from a roof so why was I standing in the street. Pain, hot and sharp lanced through my left side a crossbow bolt sticking all the way through me and out my chest. Through my lung, my breath was labored. I was choking on blood and I couldn't even breath properly.
Fuck! No! Not like this God damn it! I'm not Prey, I'm a Predator damn it all!
A shadow loomed over me.
"Fuck you, you weak fuck, this is exactly what you deserve." I tried to scream back at the hockey mask that was speaking to me in my own voice but all that came out was a wet gurgle.
Things began to get blurry and slowly the world faded to black as I panicked.
My eyes snapped open.
No. No! No, no, no. Not again!
George Street, just past the quickie Mart on the roof of a warehouse no one had used in years. Spinning around there I was Hockey mask and crossbows, cloak wafting dramatically in wind blowing off of the bay.
In the blink of an eye my world exploded in pain as an arrow buried in each of my knees, I screamed in pain as my legs gave out and I fell back onto my ass my head and shoulders hanging over the edge of the warehouse.
"You Nazi fuck. You're a stain, a waste of space." The figure stomped down hard on one of my shot up knees.
I screamed, I'd never been in so much pain in my life before and I screamed and screamed and screamed. And while I screamed I could hear my voice chuckling darkly. A kick to my side caused me to jerk a half foot towards the edge of the roof.
I remember this, only one story up I thought he was sure to survive, but he landed just wrong and snapped his neck.
Another kick and I was over the edge falling headfirst I watched as the pavement came rushing up to meet me.
Darkness
More memories shorter now, a man whose hand I skewered with a bolt after he was already down. The dumbass I watched get beaten to death because he didn't even fight back. Shoving Hebert down the stairs. The chick I left to be raped because she hadn't fought back. Bashing Hebert's flute with a brick and rubbing it in dog shit. Blinding that merchant by breaking a glass bottle across his eyes when he was already on his last legs. Stealing homework from a half dozen classmates. Taunting Missy about being an immature little squirt.
The locker, being shoved face first into the pile of used pads and tampons reeking of stale blood. Puke flowing out of my mouth and down my shirt as laughter, my own and others echoed in my ears, taunting me, tormenting me, damning me with each sick and twisted giggle.
I'm a sick and twisted person. I've done so much wrong.
I came back to myself, the classroom again, all around me people are starting to make sounds of distress, and confusion, one girl in the corner is crying. The old me would have sneered but I can't now. I'm no predator, no hero, just a coward, a bully, a bitch.
My stomach feels like lead, I bolt to the trashcan at the front of the room and empty my stomach into it.
I can't take this.
I can't deal with this, I can't just sit here, I need to move, to run, to get away!
Without a thought or a care I slip into my shadow state and out of the building. I take off at a run. I don't care where I'm going I just need to go, to get away from this.
I'll run, however long it takes to forget and put this behind me I'll run.