37. Simulated Reality
Lithos Maitreya
Character Witness
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Many thanks to @BinaryApotheosis for betareading and fact-checking.
"Father? Art thou… well?"
"Ah, my son. I am… well enough, I think. My body feels no sickness, weakness, or pain. My disturbance is but a thing of the mind."
"A thing of the mind?"
"Aye. Ever since the Zamorian Moctucar fell, I have been… sick at heart. I am a warrior, Godwyn. And it feeleth as though I have run out of wars to fight."
"So you could say we have some unanswered questions," I finish, leaning back against the Daybreak's cockpit from where I'm perched on her nose.
"Sounds like it," Thermidor agrees. "I'm curious about these Outer Gods. How do they fit into the conflict between the Traveler and the Witness? There's no way they just missed it, is there?"
"I can't imagine that," I agree. "That's been going on for, what, billions of years?"
"Probably," Winchester says. "Although the strongest evidence we have is the Dreadnought. Which you know my thoughts on."
"Yes, yes," Pluvius says impatiently. "The fact that the Dreadnought had experienced billions of years of subjective weathering doesn't necessarily mean that billions of years of real-time passed. You've mentioned. Again, Occam's Razor."
"I just don't buy that it took the Hive, with Ascendant Plane warp tech and weaponized celestial bodies, billions of years to hit the amount of space we saw on the starcharts Savathûn gave us," Winchester says. "We know Oryx fought the Vex, and time can flow differently in the Ascendant Plane anyway. Isn't it more likely—"
"Back on track," Thermidor interrupts. "This 'Frenzied Flame' entity sounds like it's taken a particular interest in you."
"Is it not possible that its interest in Barrett is entirely contingent on its interest in me?" Melina asks him.
"Possible," Thermidor allows. "But I don't think it's all that likely. It's not like it's been talking to your other friends, right? Rogier and Trinovar?"
"True enough."
"It knows about Guardians," I say. "Probably skimmed that from my mind during my visions."
"You ever think we're too casual about having godlike paracausal beings rummaging around in our skulls?" Thermidor asks.
"Probably."
"Yes," Pluvius declares with a small shudder. "Ansible's almost ready, by the way. Although we should try to conserve power."
"Great," Thermidor says, standing up. "We'll send off a quick message to Crow, and then you two can go back to rendezvous with your team while I keep watch over the Daybreak."
"I don't like leaving you alone out here," I say. "Not when we know there's Vex around, and especially not when we don't know what they're up to."
"Hate to break it to you, Barrett, but we've got three people here if you don't count the Ghosts," Thermidor says. "And two places to go. Would you rather leave me—with half my arsenal and Light for days—on my own with my ship, or would you rather send Melina off on her own to talk to your teammates?"
"I mean, when you put it like that…" I cross my arms. "Fine. That ansible up?"
"Yup," says Pluvius. "Patching you both into a channel… now."
"Thermidor, Pluvius!" Crow's voice echoes in my aural receptors. It suddenly occurs to me, now that I've gone a couple months without hearing him, that I haven't thought about it as Uldren's voice in a very long time. "I lost the Daybreak's telemetry a few hours ago. Are you all right?"
"Hey, Crow," Thermidor says, speaking into thin air. "We're alive. And, good news, we found Barrett!"
"Hey there," I say. "Sorry for falling out of contact, had an unfortunate encounter with orbital debris."
"Orbital—what did you do?"
"There was a big tree," I protest. "I had to give it a look."
"A big—"
"Bad news," Thermidor cuts in, "The Daybreak's crashed and the Finite Samsara went down a ways north of me. I've lost radio with Parvati, although we had enough time to coordinate where she was going to try and put down. Pluvius is working on repairs, but power's going to be limited for a while. We've gotta be brief."
"Got it," Crow says, all business once again. "What do you need? Just an evac, or something with more firepower?"
"This world seems to be the hub of a Vex simulation," Thermidor says. "They shot me and Parvati down. We're going to need a fleet that can fend them off, I think."
"Okay. Any idea of their numbers?"
"No," Thermidor says. "They're staying invisible inside the sim—we think they're experimenting on, or at least observing, the locals. There's humans here, by the way. Not sure how or when they got here, still investigating."
"Good to know," Crow says. "I'll contact the Empress and Misraakskel, see if anyone can spare a fleet."
"Great," I say. "Thanks, Crow. Sorry about all this."
"You can apologize by actually reporting the systems you're visiting from now on," Crow says, but I can hear the grin in his voice. "I want daily ansible check-ins, Thermidor, all right? For as long as you have the power. We won't talk long, but I want to know ASAP if things have gone to hell."
"Sure," Thermidor says. "Parvati hasn't contacted you yet, then?"
"Nope," Crow says. "I'll let you know next time we talk if she does. Be brave, Guardians."
"Will do," I say. As the channel goes down, I turn back to Thermidor. "Still weird to hear him say that."
Thermidor snorts. "You should get moving," he says. "Got a long ride ahead of you."
"Yeah, yeah." I reach out and clasp his hand. "You take care of yourself, you hear?"
"Same to you, old-timer," he says with a grin. "Go. I'm no Saint-14, but I can hold off some Vex for a while, if they show."
"Ho there, Barrett, Lady Melina!" Trinovar raises his red-gauntleted hand as we approach the camp in the hollow below Fort Haight. The late afternoon sun glints off his armor, making it glow like a bonfire. "I expected ye to return with Barrett's vessel."
"She's gone missing," I report.
"Missing?" Trinovar asks blankly. "Who could steal your vessel? Surely none in the Lands Between have the knowledge to repair thy star-ship?"
"No idea," I say. "Fortunately, it's no longer the only ship on-planet. You saw that falling star this morning?"
"Aye. I wondered if that had aught to do with thee."
"It did. A friend and teammate of mine came looking for me. His ship was shot down and crashed in Lake Agheel."
"They say a dragon roosteth there," says Trinovar.
"It did," I say. "Past tense."
"Ha!" He chuckles. "Fine and well. Then I gather he remaineth with his vessel to see that it should not vanish as thine did."
"Just about."
To be clear, I'm not happy about losing the Lonestar. I'm not ranting or raving about it, but I'm pissed off. The Lonestar's been with me since, oh, well before Thermidor was first rezzed. A decade at least. She's carried me out of more than a few scrapes. I want to know who stole her, what they did with her, and who I have to tear to pieces to get her back.
But there are bigger problems. Namely, the fact that this entire planet is possibly a Vex research installation. I'm not too worried about the people I've met being anything other than real—nice thing about being paracausal, the fact that they can interact with me normally is proof enough that they're not just Vex constructs—but I am worried about the implications of the world at large.
How much of what I've seen has been carefully tailored to me? How much of what I've experienced has been manufactured? The dreams I've been having, the visions, the things I've pieced together about this world's history. How much of it is true?
Most of it, I hope. Trinovar remembers the golden star falling and transforming the Erdtree. The Vex are bad at modifying people's memories. They can rewrite history, in some ways, but those ways are limited. A single Vex frame can retroactively rewrite its history to seemingly teleport, but that's the thing—they're teleporting. What they aren't doing is rewriting the experience of everyone else who also saw the history where they weren't in that other position. Osiris spent subjective millennia studying that—studying how the Vex can rewrite history without rewriting the lived experience of people who lived through that history.
I was never a Vex scholar. My interests are much more in the Light and the Darkness, and the way a person's mental state resonates with different aspects of those fundamental paracausal forces. But from what I understood of Osiris' explanations, the Vex don't time travel in the strictest possible sense. If they did, they would have already destroyed us. They could have simply written us out of existence. But they can't—not outside the Vault of Glass, anyway.
They can change history, but only in very limited ways. 'The Vex see time itself as a quantum object,' is how Osiris explained it. 'Or, more correctly, they see themselves as a quantum object observed through the double-slit of the present moment. They can rewrite the past, because the past is not being observed in the present. But the only thing they are capable of changing is their own place within the superposition. They can change their own history. They cannot change ours.'
The Vex rewrote themselves into the history of Venus and Mercury when Golden Age archaeologists started exploring. They did the same on Neptune when the Neomuni were first building their city. But they couldn't change Rasputin's decision to flag Neptune as a possible bunker for humans to wait out the Collapse, which he wouldn't have done if the Vex had been established on Neptune when he went searching for strongholds. The only conclusion is that the Vex weren't there when he went looking. And the Vex had been there for centuries when the Neomuni found them. Both statements are true. The only contradiction is if you assume that the past is the same from every frame of reference, which Osiris argues it isn't.
Hopefully, he's right. Because if he is, then the Vex can't use their time travel to modify people's memories. And that would mean that things people tell me about the past are historical fact, rather than more Vex fabrication. But the meaning of those events is fundamentally in question. Was the star a real object, or an artifact of the simulation? Is the Erdtree a real megaflora, or a Vex construct?
I know the Scarlet Rot and the Death Blight are paracausal. I know this because Lumina cured them, albeit only partly in Millicent's case, and I know from Asher Mir that Vex conversion can't be cured that way. That should be comforting. It isn't. It's terrifying.
Because I know, or strongly suspect, that the Vex are studying paracausality on this world. It begs the question—how far have they gotten?
If the Vex have actually hit a breakthrough of some kind, have managed to turn this simulation into a place where they can model paracausality in the same way that the Vault of Glass allowed them to control other people's history? It's entirely possible none of us are ever getting off this world. That's just me being realistic. It's been something we Guardians have generally known for a while—the Vex are incredibly powerful, but have a crippling weakness in the form of their paracausality blindspot. If they've managed to get rid of that blindspot…
Well. It's bad.
Fortunately, I doubt they have. There's something like half a dozen Outer Gods on this world, and I haven't seen any obvious indicators that any of them are under the direct control of the Vex. Hell, the Vex haven't even started turning this planet into a machine world, which suggests to me that they're still in the observation stage of their experiments. I can't help but think it'd be damn obvious if they had gotten to the point where they could stand on even footing with paracausality and paracausal beings.
"Thou saidst that thy companion's vessel was 'shot down,'" Trinovar says. "What could do such a thing, in these lands? Was he struck by a passing star as it fell?"
"No," I say. "Worse. Some of my old enemies are apparently here, in the Lands Between and in the sky above it." I'm not really sure how to explain Vex simulation tech in a way that someone who doesn't even have the word digital in their vernacular will understand. "It seems they've placed a sort of… illusion over the entire world. It's unclear as of now how much of the world is natural, and how much they created."
Trinovar leans back. "I fear I do not understand. Surely thou canst not mean what I think thou meanest."
"It means," I say grimly, "that I'm officially questioning everything. Everything except people, because I'm pretty sure I'd be able to tell if they were illusions. And obvious magic, which the Vex shouldn't be able to imitate. Anything else? Fair game."
"You think we are living in an illusion?" Melina asks quietly. "I was not certain if that was how I should interpret your discussion with Sir Thermidor."
"Sir Therm—" I snort. "Oh, man, you should call him Lord Thermidor when we see him next. I'd pay to see his face."
"Is he a Lord, then?" she asks.
"Technically. I think Saladin inducted him as an Iron Lord, anyway. Not completely sure, but it'd be funny either way." I shake my head. "But—yes, that's the implication. This whole world is surrounded, as far as Thermidor could tell, by a simulated reality maintained by the Vex. We have no way of knowing how long that's been true, or how much control they can exert over the reality within the simulation. The only things I'm confident about are that the people we interact with are real, and that they can't do magic without outside help. But that's all I'm sure about."
"Then we must be wary," Trinovar says slowly. "And… perhaps we should endeavor to keep our party together."
"Yeah," I say. "We don't have a timeline for when Blaidd was supposed to be done in Nokron, do we?"
"He thought to take anywhere between two days to two weeks," Melina says. "We are well past the earlier estimate, but have not yet passed the later."
"Then maybe we should go after him," I say. "Chester—how we doing on power ammo?"
"Topped up and good to go," says my Ghost, appearing over my shoulder.
"I do not know if Torrent can manage the treacherous terrain within the crater," Melina says quietly, looking over at the giant sinkhole.
"Mm. True," I agree.
"Perhaps Lady Melina and I could take up Sir Kenneth Haight's offer of hospitality," Trinovar says, "and thou couldst descend in search of Blaidd and his party?"
"You just suggested we stick together," I point out.
"And I maintain that we ought to do so," Trinovar says. "But we three are not all of our party—and Rogier and the others have no warning of the threat thou hast uncovered. If all this is true, then thy old enemies may seek to destroy thine allies before they can benefit from thy knowledge and abilities. We must warn them. But mine own duty is to guard the Lady, and Torrent cannot descend into the depths. That leaveth only thee."
It's a good argument. "You trust Haight?" I ask.
"I trust him better than I do the wilds," says Trinovar. "And should he seek to betray us, I trust that he hath no warriors who could do harm to Lady Melina while I protect her."
"'Tis not a poor plan," Melina says. "and It is true that perhaps we should seek to reunite with Blaidd as quickly as possible, especially since Thermidor is alone while we are here. Go, Barrett. Help our friends. Trinovar and I will be safe until you return."
"I don't like how much we're splitting up," I say quietly, reaching up and resting my hand on Torrent's neck.
She places her hand over mine. It fuzzes away into blue mist where we touch. "Then you had best be quick," she says with a small smile. "The sooner you find Rogier and the others, the sooner we shall be reunited."
"Yeah." I sigh and pull my hand away. "Okay. I'll come and find the two of you at Fort Haight when I'm done. If I can't find them in… let's say three days, I'll come back up alone."
"We shall look to see you then," Trinovar says. "In three days, and no more."
I nod to him. "Be careful," I say. "Both of you."
"You as well, Barrett," Melina says. "I do not know what you will find in the Eternal City. They were sealed long ago. I do not know how dangerous it might be."
"I'll be fine," I say. "I might not be Eris Morn, but I know how to survive in the pit. Go. I'll see you both soon."
We part ways—them headed up the hill, me down towards the chasm. I look down into the dark, seeing masonry exposed deep beneath the surface.
"She'll be all right," Winchester says quietly. "Don't worry too much."
"I'm trying not to," I say softly.. "Damn it all, Winchester. Vex. You remember how I was after the Vault. After we found out what happened to Kabr and his team." I'd had nightmares for weeks, interspersed with my old Crypt-visions. Dreams about a fireteam I'd never had that had been erased from my own history, or about being one of those other three Guardians—the ones besides Pahanin, Praedyth, and Kabr, the ones who had been erased from time so utterly and completely that even the tiny fragments that were left of those three couldn't remember them.
"Yeah." Winchester's voice is soft. "Yeah, I know. But you're right, Barrett. The people you've met are too comfortable with you and with paracausality to be Vex constructs. The magic in the Lands Between is too obviously paracausal to be an artifact of the sim. Yeah, there's a lot we have to start to question. But not everything. Hold on to that, okay, bud?"
"Okay." I take a deep breath. "Thanks."
"Any time."
I jump into the pit.
As I announced on Monday's Of Many Colors chapter, I'm a bit burned out on writing after something like two years of moderately reliable weekly uploads. As such, I'm taking a brief hiatus for the last couple weeks of 2023. I intend to return at the beginning of January.
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"Father? Art thou… well?"
"Ah, my son. I am… well enough, I think. My body feels no sickness, weakness, or pain. My disturbance is but a thing of the mind."
"A thing of the mind?"
"Aye. Ever since the Zamorian Moctucar fell, I have been… sick at heart. I am a warrior, Godwyn. And it feeleth as though I have run out of wars to fight."
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"So you could say we have some unanswered questions," I finish, leaning back against the Daybreak's cockpit from where I'm perched on her nose.
"Sounds like it," Thermidor agrees. "I'm curious about these Outer Gods. How do they fit into the conflict between the Traveler and the Witness? There's no way they just missed it, is there?"
"I can't imagine that," I agree. "That's been going on for, what, billions of years?"
"Probably," Winchester says. "Although the strongest evidence we have is the Dreadnought. Which you know my thoughts on."
"Yes, yes," Pluvius says impatiently. "The fact that the Dreadnought had experienced billions of years of subjective weathering doesn't necessarily mean that billions of years of real-time passed. You've mentioned. Again, Occam's Razor."
"I just don't buy that it took the Hive, with Ascendant Plane warp tech and weaponized celestial bodies, billions of years to hit the amount of space we saw on the starcharts Savathûn gave us," Winchester says. "We know Oryx fought the Vex, and time can flow differently in the Ascendant Plane anyway. Isn't it more likely—"
"Back on track," Thermidor interrupts. "This 'Frenzied Flame' entity sounds like it's taken a particular interest in you."
"Is it not possible that its interest in Barrett is entirely contingent on its interest in me?" Melina asks him.
"Possible," Thermidor allows. "But I don't think it's all that likely. It's not like it's been talking to your other friends, right? Rogier and Trinovar?"
"True enough."
"It knows about Guardians," I say. "Probably skimmed that from my mind during my visions."
"You ever think we're too casual about having godlike paracausal beings rummaging around in our skulls?" Thermidor asks.
"Probably."
"Yes," Pluvius declares with a small shudder. "Ansible's almost ready, by the way. Although we should try to conserve power."
"Great," Thermidor says, standing up. "We'll send off a quick message to Crow, and then you two can go back to rendezvous with your team while I keep watch over the Daybreak."
"I don't like leaving you alone out here," I say. "Not when we know there's Vex around, and especially not when we don't know what they're up to."
"Hate to break it to you, Barrett, but we've got three people here if you don't count the Ghosts," Thermidor says. "And two places to go. Would you rather leave me—with half my arsenal and Light for days—on my own with my ship, or would you rather send Melina off on her own to talk to your teammates?"
"I mean, when you put it like that…" I cross my arms. "Fine. That ansible up?"
"Yup," says Pluvius. "Patching you both into a channel… now."
"Thermidor, Pluvius!" Crow's voice echoes in my aural receptors. It suddenly occurs to me, now that I've gone a couple months without hearing him, that I haven't thought about it as Uldren's voice in a very long time. "I lost the Daybreak's telemetry a few hours ago. Are you all right?"
"Hey, Crow," Thermidor says, speaking into thin air. "We're alive. And, good news, we found Barrett!"
"Hey there," I say. "Sorry for falling out of contact, had an unfortunate encounter with orbital debris."
"Orbital—what did you do?"
"There was a big tree," I protest. "I had to give it a look."
"A big—"
"Bad news," Thermidor cuts in, "The Daybreak's crashed and the Finite Samsara went down a ways north of me. I've lost radio with Parvati, although we had enough time to coordinate where she was going to try and put down. Pluvius is working on repairs, but power's going to be limited for a while. We've gotta be brief."
"Got it," Crow says, all business once again. "What do you need? Just an evac, or something with more firepower?"
"This world seems to be the hub of a Vex simulation," Thermidor says. "They shot me and Parvati down. We're going to need a fleet that can fend them off, I think."
"Okay. Any idea of their numbers?"
"No," Thermidor says. "They're staying invisible inside the sim—we think they're experimenting on, or at least observing, the locals. There's humans here, by the way. Not sure how or when they got here, still investigating."
"Good to know," Crow says. "I'll contact the Empress and Misraakskel, see if anyone can spare a fleet."
"Great," I say. "Thanks, Crow. Sorry about all this."
"You can apologize by actually reporting the systems you're visiting from now on," Crow says, but I can hear the grin in his voice. "I want daily ansible check-ins, Thermidor, all right? For as long as you have the power. We won't talk long, but I want to know ASAP if things have gone to hell."
"Sure," Thermidor says. "Parvati hasn't contacted you yet, then?"
"Nope," Crow says. "I'll let you know next time we talk if she does. Be brave, Guardians."
"Will do," I say. As the channel goes down, I turn back to Thermidor. "Still weird to hear him say that."
Thermidor snorts. "You should get moving," he says. "Got a long ride ahead of you."
"Yeah, yeah." I reach out and clasp his hand. "You take care of yourself, you hear?"
"Same to you, old-timer," he says with a grin. "Go. I'm no Saint-14, but I can hold off some Vex for a while, if they show."
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"Ho there, Barrett, Lady Melina!" Trinovar raises his red-gauntleted hand as we approach the camp in the hollow below Fort Haight. The late afternoon sun glints off his armor, making it glow like a bonfire. "I expected ye to return with Barrett's vessel."
"She's gone missing," I report.
"Missing?" Trinovar asks blankly. "Who could steal your vessel? Surely none in the Lands Between have the knowledge to repair thy star-ship?"
"No idea," I say. "Fortunately, it's no longer the only ship on-planet. You saw that falling star this morning?"
"Aye. I wondered if that had aught to do with thee."
"It did. A friend and teammate of mine came looking for me. His ship was shot down and crashed in Lake Agheel."
"They say a dragon roosteth there," says Trinovar.
"It did," I say. "Past tense."
"Ha!" He chuckles. "Fine and well. Then I gather he remaineth with his vessel to see that it should not vanish as thine did."
"Just about."
To be clear, I'm not happy about losing the Lonestar. I'm not ranting or raving about it, but I'm pissed off. The Lonestar's been with me since, oh, well before Thermidor was first rezzed. A decade at least. She's carried me out of more than a few scrapes. I want to know who stole her, what they did with her, and who I have to tear to pieces to get her back.
But there are bigger problems. Namely, the fact that this entire planet is possibly a Vex research installation. I'm not too worried about the people I've met being anything other than real—nice thing about being paracausal, the fact that they can interact with me normally is proof enough that they're not just Vex constructs—but I am worried about the implications of the world at large.
How much of what I've seen has been carefully tailored to me? How much of what I've experienced has been manufactured? The dreams I've been having, the visions, the things I've pieced together about this world's history. How much of it is true?
Most of it, I hope. Trinovar remembers the golden star falling and transforming the Erdtree. The Vex are bad at modifying people's memories. They can rewrite history, in some ways, but those ways are limited. A single Vex frame can retroactively rewrite its history to seemingly teleport, but that's the thing—they're teleporting. What they aren't doing is rewriting the experience of everyone else who also saw the history where they weren't in that other position. Osiris spent subjective millennia studying that—studying how the Vex can rewrite history without rewriting the lived experience of people who lived through that history.
I was never a Vex scholar. My interests are much more in the Light and the Darkness, and the way a person's mental state resonates with different aspects of those fundamental paracausal forces. But from what I understood of Osiris' explanations, the Vex don't time travel in the strictest possible sense. If they did, they would have already destroyed us. They could have simply written us out of existence. But they can't—not outside the Vault of Glass, anyway.
They can change history, but only in very limited ways. 'The Vex see time itself as a quantum object,' is how Osiris explained it. 'Or, more correctly, they see themselves as a quantum object observed through the double-slit of the present moment. They can rewrite the past, because the past is not being observed in the present. But the only thing they are capable of changing is their own place within the superposition. They can change their own history. They cannot change ours.'
The Vex rewrote themselves into the history of Venus and Mercury when Golden Age archaeologists started exploring. They did the same on Neptune when the Neomuni were first building their city. But they couldn't change Rasputin's decision to flag Neptune as a possible bunker for humans to wait out the Collapse, which he wouldn't have done if the Vex had been established on Neptune when he went searching for strongholds. The only conclusion is that the Vex weren't there when he went looking. And the Vex had been there for centuries when the Neomuni found them. Both statements are true. The only contradiction is if you assume that the past is the same from every frame of reference, which Osiris argues it isn't.
Hopefully, he's right. Because if he is, then the Vex can't use their time travel to modify people's memories. And that would mean that things people tell me about the past are historical fact, rather than more Vex fabrication. But the meaning of those events is fundamentally in question. Was the star a real object, or an artifact of the simulation? Is the Erdtree a real megaflora, or a Vex construct?
I know the Scarlet Rot and the Death Blight are paracausal. I know this because Lumina cured them, albeit only partly in Millicent's case, and I know from Asher Mir that Vex conversion can't be cured that way. That should be comforting. It isn't. It's terrifying.
Because I know, or strongly suspect, that the Vex are studying paracausality on this world. It begs the question—how far have they gotten?
If the Vex have actually hit a breakthrough of some kind, have managed to turn this simulation into a place where they can model paracausality in the same way that the Vault of Glass allowed them to control other people's history? It's entirely possible none of us are ever getting off this world. That's just me being realistic. It's been something we Guardians have generally known for a while—the Vex are incredibly powerful, but have a crippling weakness in the form of their paracausality blindspot. If they've managed to get rid of that blindspot…
Well. It's bad.
Fortunately, I doubt they have. There's something like half a dozen Outer Gods on this world, and I haven't seen any obvious indicators that any of them are under the direct control of the Vex. Hell, the Vex haven't even started turning this planet into a machine world, which suggests to me that they're still in the observation stage of their experiments. I can't help but think it'd be damn obvious if they had gotten to the point where they could stand on even footing with paracausality and paracausal beings.
"Thou saidst that thy companion's vessel was 'shot down,'" Trinovar says. "What could do such a thing, in these lands? Was he struck by a passing star as it fell?"
"No," I say. "Worse. Some of my old enemies are apparently here, in the Lands Between and in the sky above it." I'm not really sure how to explain Vex simulation tech in a way that someone who doesn't even have the word digital in their vernacular will understand. "It seems they've placed a sort of… illusion over the entire world. It's unclear as of now how much of the world is natural, and how much they created."
Trinovar leans back. "I fear I do not understand. Surely thou canst not mean what I think thou meanest."
"It means," I say grimly, "that I'm officially questioning everything. Everything except people, because I'm pretty sure I'd be able to tell if they were illusions. And obvious magic, which the Vex shouldn't be able to imitate. Anything else? Fair game."
"You think we are living in an illusion?" Melina asks quietly. "I was not certain if that was how I should interpret your discussion with Sir Thermidor."
"Sir Therm—" I snort. "Oh, man, you should call him Lord Thermidor when we see him next. I'd pay to see his face."
"Is he a Lord, then?" she asks.
"Technically. I think Saladin inducted him as an Iron Lord, anyway. Not completely sure, but it'd be funny either way." I shake my head. "But—yes, that's the implication. This whole world is surrounded, as far as Thermidor could tell, by a simulated reality maintained by the Vex. We have no way of knowing how long that's been true, or how much control they can exert over the reality within the simulation. The only things I'm confident about are that the people we interact with are real, and that they can't do magic without outside help. But that's all I'm sure about."
"Then we must be wary," Trinovar says slowly. "And… perhaps we should endeavor to keep our party together."
"Yeah," I say. "We don't have a timeline for when Blaidd was supposed to be done in Nokron, do we?"
"He thought to take anywhere between two days to two weeks," Melina says. "We are well past the earlier estimate, but have not yet passed the later."
"Then maybe we should go after him," I say. "Chester—how we doing on power ammo?"
"Topped up and good to go," says my Ghost, appearing over my shoulder.
"I do not know if Torrent can manage the treacherous terrain within the crater," Melina says quietly, looking over at the giant sinkhole.
"Mm. True," I agree.
"Perhaps Lady Melina and I could take up Sir Kenneth Haight's offer of hospitality," Trinovar says, "and thou couldst descend in search of Blaidd and his party?"
"You just suggested we stick together," I point out.
"And I maintain that we ought to do so," Trinovar says. "But we three are not all of our party—and Rogier and the others have no warning of the threat thou hast uncovered. If all this is true, then thy old enemies may seek to destroy thine allies before they can benefit from thy knowledge and abilities. We must warn them. But mine own duty is to guard the Lady, and Torrent cannot descend into the depths. That leaveth only thee."
It's a good argument. "You trust Haight?" I ask.
"I trust him better than I do the wilds," says Trinovar. "And should he seek to betray us, I trust that he hath no warriors who could do harm to Lady Melina while I protect her."
"'Tis not a poor plan," Melina says. "and It is true that perhaps we should seek to reunite with Blaidd as quickly as possible, especially since Thermidor is alone while we are here. Go, Barrett. Help our friends. Trinovar and I will be safe until you return."
"I don't like how much we're splitting up," I say quietly, reaching up and resting my hand on Torrent's neck.
She places her hand over mine. It fuzzes away into blue mist where we touch. "Then you had best be quick," she says with a small smile. "The sooner you find Rogier and the others, the sooner we shall be reunited."
"Yeah." I sigh and pull my hand away. "Okay. I'll come and find the two of you at Fort Haight when I'm done. If I can't find them in… let's say three days, I'll come back up alone."
"We shall look to see you then," Trinovar says. "In three days, and no more."
I nod to him. "Be careful," I say. "Both of you."
"You as well, Barrett," Melina says. "I do not know what you will find in the Eternal City. They were sealed long ago. I do not know how dangerous it might be."
"I'll be fine," I say. "I might not be Eris Morn, but I know how to survive in the pit. Go. I'll see you both soon."
We part ways—them headed up the hill, me down towards the chasm. I look down into the dark, seeing masonry exposed deep beneath the surface.
"She'll be all right," Winchester says quietly. "Don't worry too much."
"I'm trying not to," I say softly.. "Damn it all, Winchester. Vex. You remember how I was after the Vault. After we found out what happened to Kabr and his team." I'd had nightmares for weeks, interspersed with my old Crypt-visions. Dreams about a fireteam I'd never had that had been erased from my own history, or about being one of those other three Guardians—the ones besides Pahanin, Praedyth, and Kabr, the ones who had been erased from time so utterly and completely that even the tiny fragments that were left of those three couldn't remember them.
"Yeah." Winchester's voice is soft. "Yeah, I know. But you're right, Barrett. The people you've met are too comfortable with you and with paracausality to be Vex constructs. The magic in the Lands Between is too obviously paracausal to be an artifact of the sim. Yeah, there's a lot we have to start to question. But not everything. Hold on to that, okay, bud?"
"Okay." I take a deep breath. "Thanks."
"Any time."
I jump into the pit.
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As I announced on Monday's Of Many Colors chapter, I'm a bit burned out on writing after something like two years of moderately reliable weekly uploads. As such, I'm taking a brief hiatus for the last couple weeks of 2023. I intend to return at the beginning of January.