The new UA dormitories were arranged in a row along a curving avenue, U-shaped brown and white buildings embodying the grandiose architecture UA was known for. Huge white stone columns, enormous oak doors and arched, wall-spanning windows were easily visible even beyond the brick fence surrounding each building, topped off with overhanging bushes. By all accounts, UA seemed to have once again gone Plus Ultra in providing for its students.
And there, on the other side of the fence, just around the corner, were my classmates. I could hear them talking animatedly, but it was like a low, muffled murmur at the edge of my hearing. Instinctively, I reached over to unplug my ears, only to realize there was nothing there.
Humans just can't hear conversations at a distance behind an obstacle.
I huffed in annoyance, crossing my arms. Vlad King raised his remaining eyebrow, turning to look at me.
"Is something wrong?"
"N-no." I couldn't help the blush of embarrassment. "Just, um, trying to get used to the little things."
He nodded, closing the car door behind him. "That's the only way to do it. One thing at a time."
The lawyer my parents had retained had advised us that it was best I not go out in public as a dragon, just to avoid any legal difficulties stemming from the fact that I now had other options. But equally, it didn't seem like a great idea to have me try to make my way across the city on my own, so it had been agreed upon that Vlad King would pick me up on the moving-in day.
"Are you ready?" He asked, looking towards the entrance.
Then, there was of course the other reason I had arrived with Vlad King.
"Y-yeah. Like we talked about."
I could hear the muffled gasps of horror, as the others saw Vlad King's new appearance. Exclamations of shock, sorrow, even gladness that he was at least alive. I took the time to prepare myself, leaning against the fence, waiting until I heard Vlad King raise his voice.
"-But there is someone you need to meet first."
That was my cue.
I started walking, keeping a hand on the fence for balance.
It was funny. I could do push-ups until I got bored of counting but I couldn't walk twenty meters unsupported without tripping over my own two feet.
All right Ryuuzaki, you can do this. It's fine, they're your friends.
I took a deep breath and rounded the corner.
The others were gathered in a loose semicircle around Vlad King, standing on the steps leading up the house.
All at once, nineteen heads turned around to look at me. My skin felt like it was tingling.
"Uh… Hi, guys." I swallowed, fighting my hardest not to wilt under their stares. "I-"
"I'm sorry, but who are you?"
My train of thought came to a screeching halt as I saw the confused lack of recognition in Itsuka's eyes. I had planned it all out. What I was going to say. What I was going to do. I'd even rehearsed it in front of a mirror once. But for all that, put on the spot, they fled me like water leaking through a sieve.
Leaving me there standing dumbly as the others stared at me, the moment stretching on until it started to become unbearable, but nothing came out of my mind..
"Hold on." I saw Yui shoulder her way past Tetsutetesu and Yoarashi. "I'd recognize that voice anywhere."
She was… really short. I remembered always being a head taller than her when we were younger, but she didn't even come up to my shoulder now.
"Huh." She tilted her head to the side, looking me up and down. "I don't know what I expected."
"..." I hesitated, still unsure of what to say.
"Let me guess, it didn't occur to you that they wouldn't recognize you?"
"Uh…"
I wasn't really sure what I was about to say, but whatever it was was interrupted by her throwing her arms around my midsection, pressing her head into my chest as she hugged me close.
"You big dumb idiot."
"Wait…" Itsuka blinked slowly, realization dawning on her face. "...Ryuuzaki? Is that you?"
"Um. Yeah."
As soon as the words left my mouth, the world erupted in an explosion of noise, exclamations of shock and questions.
"Holy shit."
"Wait, but I thought-"
"Is that why-"
"Oh, wow."
"Why didn't-"
"So that's what-"
"-Eeeeeeeeeeeee-"
All of that, however, flew by me as a pair of yelling orange and blonde missiles slammed into me and Yui, enveloping us in a flying tackle-group hug.
It lasted for only a fraction of a second before my already-fragile balance was sent careening over the tipping point, stumbling and then falling backwards like a tree trunk, landing on my back with a hefty thud, the group hug transitioning into more like a group pile.
Tokage, a few steps behind Itsuka and Pony, hesitated for a few moments- and that was when an errant, floating horn gave her a push between the shoulder blades, sending her stumbling into the heap as well.
I allowed myself to relax into the embrace, tension slowly bleeding off of my shoulders.
My friends piled on top of me, laughing, squirming, hugging me- it was...
It was nice. It felt genuinely good.
I swept the four of them into my arms and then struggled to my feet, lifting them in the air. Pony was still babbling a semi-incoherent but happy stream of english while Itsuka was beaming broadly and even Yui returned the embrace with a slight but content smile. For her part Tokage seemed a mix of glad and confused, as if her brain was struggling to catch up with what was happening.
"Is that really you?"
"Yep!" I smiled, squeezing them tight, followed by a lot of protesting and flailing limbs.
"Ribs ribs ribs ribs!"
"Sorry." I relaxed my arms, letting them fall out of my hold to the ground- a drop of about a foot or so.
Pony stumbled on her hooves, disorientated, blinking up at me a few times, before smiling and throwing her arms around my midsection with a loud squee, rubbing her cheek against me.
"You're really here!"
"Yeah," I said, gently patting her in the back. "I am."
"But how?" Tokage questioned, still looking as if she was in a daze. "I thought you couldn't turn back?"
"Well. Um. It's a long story." I stuttered, rubbing the back of my neck. "But during the battle… there was somebody I couldn't save as a dragon."
An awkward pause followed, everyone just kind of looking at each other, unsure of what to say to that.
"Well, that's our Vice-President for you!" Monoma exclaimed, breaking the silence. "As expected of her."
"And yet you guys didn't even recognize your own VP." I crossed my arms and shook my head in mock indignation.
"I did!" Itsuka exclaimed, puffing a little. "It just… took a bit. I remember the old pictures when we were over at your house, but you look… different."
"Yeah!" Tetsutetsu agreed enthusiastically, looking up at me. "What the heck have they been feeding you- nothing but raw meat for the last three years?"
"The meat wasn't… raw," I replied lamely, but the others nonetheless apparently found it hilarious, erupting into laughter.
I took a deep breath and exhaled. This was fine.
My classmates crowded around me, offering congratulations, well-wishes and pats on the back.
"Tatsuma! I knew you would pull through!"
Yoarashi tried to offer me a hand to clasp but I used it to pull him into an embrace as well. Out of my classmates, besides Bondo he was the only one to even approach me in height, but that didn't stop me from lifting him clean off the ground.
"Nope, you're getting hugged too." I told him as he let out a pained wheeze, but still reciprocated the hug with his customary enthusiasm. "Don't think I've forgotten about that fire cyclone."
"A-ah!" He rasped breathlessly, before I let go of him. "A real Hero… will always find a way to help their friends!"
"Even if it means working with Shoto Todoroki?"
"It seems that I may have underestimated him!" Yarashi exclaimed with a laugh, throwing back his head. "He has some spark in him, if nothing else." He shook his head, adopting a more serious expression. "You were right. A Hero's role is to save others, not judge them. If it meant getting you back, I would have worked with Endeavour if I had to."
"I'm… glad to be back." I said, rubbing my arm. "It's just a lot to take in."
"I can't even imagine." Kuroiro said. "Coma patients often have to spend months if not years in rehabilitation."
"Yeah. Well, not quite that bad. They have to deal with physical degr- degradation." I felt the flush of embarrassment on my face as I stuttered the word. "Thanks to my Quirk, I'm still in perfect shape."
"Yeah, we noticed." Tsubaraba noted.
"So, um, I just need to get used to being human again. I mean, that's still a lot to deal with. It's… hard. Like talking. Dragons don't have lips, so the sounds are formed in the throat." I fidgeted in place, feeling everyone's eyes on me. "But, um, I think Vlad King wanted to say a few things? Before we got started with moving in?"
"Indeed." Vlad King took the cue, clapping his hands together and drawing all eyes on him. It had been his idea- he'd told me in the car that if things got too much, if I felt like I was being overwhelmed, I could nudge the conversation forward and he'd take over to give me a little bit of breathing room.
"I am glad to see all of you were able to acquire parental permission to attend." He began, standing on the steps leading up to the house. "In a moment, I'll give you a brief overview of your future dorms, and then you can get started on moving in. But before that, I wanted to say a few words."
He clasped his hands behind his back, glancing across the crowd of students.
"All-Might has retired."
It was such an obvious statement. Of course he had. Everyone had seen the broadcast- even I, as I had been loaded onto a special ambulance truck to be evacuated.
"It's your turn now."
But to hear it spoken so clearly, so matter-of-factly…
"We placed all of our hopes, all of our burdens, upon one man. And now he can no longer bear them. So it falls to us to step up. Now, more than ever, your education is of the highest priority. On the night of the attack upon the Training Camp, I was proud to see you conduct yourselves in a manner befitting Heroes. I wish, however, that I could say the same about the events of the night after. Kendo. Tokage. Tsunotori. Yoarashi." Each name fell from his lips like a writ of execution, the mood of the gathering instantly turning into nervous foreboding.
Nobody dared to say a word.
"On the night of the Kamino battle, instead of returning home as ordered, you decided to go out and search for Tatsuma yourselves. You lied to UA that you had arranged to be picked up by your parents, while simultaneously telling them you were being held in the hospital overnight. You took the law into your own hands by running head-first into the middle of the largest Pro-Hero operation in the last ten years. You abused the trust placed upon you and went against both explicit instructions and everything you have been taught at this academy. I expected better of you. Especially you, Kendo. As Class President, you are entrusted to look after the Class in my absence. I am disappointed."
"But- but the pros didn't know about the second hideout." Pony argued, crossing her arms. "If we hadn't done that- nobody would have found them!"
"Did you?" Vlad King asked simply. "Did you know about the second hideout?"
"Well, no-"
"Then how did you find it?"
Silence reigned.
"Tokage?"
"We, um, we lost the location of the first hideout. So we… started searching."
"You stumbled upon the second hideout by accident, while making illegal searches with unauthorized use of your Quirks." Vlad King stated flatly. "Then, instead of calling it in or warning anyone about the Nomu, you decided to break into the hideout of the most dangerous villain in Japan, narrowly missing him again through sheer random chance."
"We knew what we were getting into." Yoarashi replied defiantly, as Pony nodded. "We accepted the consequences."
"Did you now? What do you think All For One would have done with you, had you decided to enter only a few minutes earlier?"
"He… would have taken our Quirks," Pony said. "Or killed us."
Vlad King sighed in disappointment. "Think, Tsunotori. I know you are smarter than this."
"All For One… would have had eight hostages, instead of two," Itsuka mumbled, her eyes downcast.
"And more importantly, he would have known the Heroes were coming. Armed with these factors, he would have turned the raid into a slaughter." He turned away slightly. "It was a near enough thing already. Would we be standing here, mourning All-Might's retirement? Or would we be attending his funeral?"
Pony made a choking noise.
"You are in training to become Heroes, so you need to understand this: the consequences of your actions do not stop at you. When you take risks, it's not just yourselves you're putting in danger, but your fellow Heroes and, inevitably, innocent civilians. Did they know the risks as well? Did they accept them?"
"We-well, it didn't happen."
"Does a drunk driver need to hit anyone to deserve punishment?" Vlad King asked pointedly, stepping closer. "Or does success vindicate any amount of risks taken to reach the end result? Is that how you believe a Hero should think?"
Pony bowed her head, her gaze squarely at her feet.
"By all rights, I should expel you four, and then all the rest of you save Tatsuma, for not stopping this." Vlad King shook his head slowly. I opened my mouth to protest, but he cut me off before I could even say anything. "But, I have been persuaded otherwise. You did eventually call in the proper authorities, and in the end you avoided engaging the villains directly. So, in this new world we live in, without All-Might, it has been decided that you should be afforded leniency."
I saw the others glance around at each other with a mixture of relief and nervousness.
"However, even if the school will not take disciplinary action, that still leaves the four of you to answer for unlawful Quirk usage and interfering with a law enforcement operation. A detective will be by to talk to you tomorrow, but I've been told that you shouldn't expect more than a warning and a permanent mark on your records."
"But-" Pony began, but Vlad King didn't allow her to finish.
"You told me just now that you accepted the consequences of your actions from that night. Are you now refusing to accept what amounts to a comparative slap on the wrist?"
She sighed, her shoulders slumping as she shook her head.
Vlad King swept his gaze across the class and nodded. "Now. Onto the reason we're here. These are the Heights Alliance." He explained, turning around to gesture towards the row of huge buildings. "One dormitory per class, in alphabetical order. 1-A is to our left, 1-C and onwards to our right. Follow me."
He led us up the stone steps leading up to the front door, a metal guard rail running alongside the path. I drew a lot of weird looks as I walked with one hand on it for support.
"Is that- ohhh I get it." Tsubaraba wondered aloud. "You're probably more used to walking on four legs."
"And with a tail for a counterweight" I mumbled. "Frankly, I want to go back in time and give whichever of our ancestors decided it was a good idea a piece of my mind, because this is ridiculous."
I pushed myself off of the rail to walk the last five or so meters to the front door, managing to only wobble on my legs once along the way until I caught a hold of the doorframe.
The inside of the dormitories was as grandiose as the outside, as we entered into a vast ring-shaped room encircling the entire building, lined with couches, televisions, tables and more. At the center of the building was an enclosed outdoors courtyard with bushes and grass visible through the ceiling-height windows.
"This is your common area. Kitchens, laundry rooms, dining areas, showers and baths can be found here," He said, gesturing at the doors lining the outside of the ring-shaped room. "And yes, those last two are separated by gender."
"Damn, the first floor alone is bigger than our entire house." Kuroiro whistled. "And this is just the common areas?"
Slowly, the sullen atmosphere that had dominated the group began to fade, as people started to take in our new living space.
"The upper floors are separated into two wings. Left for boys, right for girls. Eight rooms per floor, up to the fifth. Your room assignments are on the wall." He gestured towards a pair of placards mounted above each elevator, displaying the layout of the building. I peered closer, looking for my own name.
Second floor, fourth room on the right.
"One student per room, you've got refrigerators, air conditioning, closets and a private bathroom. The luggage you sent out ahead has already been delivered to your rooms." Vlad King continued, turning on his heel to regard us. "Today is for moving in and getting your rooms in order. Owing to everything that has happened, it has been decided that you should be allocated some time to acclimatize yourselves with your new living conditions, and as such classes will only resume next week. There will be some official activities as well, but you should take this time to establish a routine and get used to living together. You've been classmates for nearly half a year now, but as housemates you will be seeing each other a lot more. Curfew times and other basic rules are on the common room table, and a copy has been delivered to each of your rooms, but for the rest you should work with your Class Presidents to establish things like laundry rotations and sharing use of the kitchens."
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A few minutes later I stepped off of the elevator on the second floor, into a well-lit hallway, one side covered in a wall-spanning glass window showing the inner courtyard and the common areas and the other lined with four large doors, evenly spaced.
Belatedly, I realized Tokage had gotten off the elevator, as she stepped past me.
"You're on the second floor as well?"
"Yeah…" She trailed off, still looking downcast. "There's eight of us girls and four rooms each across four floors, so that's two per floor."
I hesitated as she walked towards her door on the other end of the row, trying to figure out what to say. When she turned the handle I finally just forced myself to blurt it out.
"Tokage?"
"What is it?"
"I wanted to say, um... thank you."
"I don't think Vlad King thinks we did anything worth being thankful for." She replied sullenly.
"Vlad King… he means well. I think he's just looking at the big picture." I sighed. "I'm not going to say he doesn't have a point… about what could have happened. But all the same, you guys came back for me. And I can't not- I appreciate what you did for me, is what I'm trying to say. So... thank you."
I paused for a moment, drumming my fingers against the drywall. I glanced at her face, at the too-pale patches of skin, the white streaks amidst her green hair.
"But not just that. Even before it… when Shigaraki was about to kill me." I looked away, the image of fingers reaching out for my face rising unbidden to the fore of my mind, the smell of preserved, dead flesh filling my nostrils.
"Even though it meant being disintegrated over and over. You saved my life."
"Well. You're welcome." She turned away, but I could see her smile, red creeping up the tips of her ears. "I just did what I thought was right."
I nodded, turning towards my own room, but just before her door closed I heard her pause.
"Tatsuma?"
"Yes?"
"After everything... you should call me Setsuna."
"Then call me Ryuuzaki."
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Several minutes later, I found myself still in the hallway, staring at a wooden mahogany door, the letters "Ryuuzaki Tatsuma" stamped onto a metal nameplate.
Come on. It's just a room.
After a few more heartbeats of indecision I turned the handle, opening the door.
It was a room.
A normal-sized room.
I swallowed.
Slipping inside, I saw the extra-length bed Ryuko had ordered, placed in the far corner of the room, A row of cabinets along the inner wall, and a basic desk opposite to them below a window. Several plastic storage boxes were piled in the middle of the room, and a small door led to a balcony.
I tried not to look at the ceiling, but that didn't make it go away. It stayed there, a presence I was constantly aware of at the back of my mind.
Trying my best to ignore it I walked up to the stack of boxes, carefully picking the topmost one up into my hands. The trick was, I'd learned, to just take it slowly. That way you can compensate if the weight isn't what you expect it to be.
I popped the lid open and started pulling out the clothes packed inside, before folding them and tossing them into one of the cabinets. Same kind goes on the same shelf, not that I had many kinds of clothing.
Rinse and repeat.
...
Eventually I couldn't take it anymore. I glanced upwards.
Immediately, I felt my throat tighten, my breaths becoming shallow. The ceiling felt both at once oppressively, claustrophobically close, and far, far too distant, as though I was an insect scuttling at the floor of some vast cavern.
I shook my head slowly, trying to make it stop spinning.
It's just a room.
I returned to putting my clothes away, but my hands didn't feel real. It was like I was watching a recording from behind someone else's eyes.
Slowly, methodically I picked up each piece and folded them up, focusing on the repetitive mechanical task. It helped. It felt real.
The feeling of the fabric beneath my fingers was real. It was solid, tangible. It didn't break when I squeezed it. I felt my eyes moisten as I ran my fingers over the cloth while I folded it, feeling the soft fabric, the seams, the hard metal of the zippers, the glossy, smooth surface of the letters and images...
It was a wealth of sensations I'd half-forgotten, to the point that I hadn't even known what I was missing.
Eventually I was startled out of my fugue by a sharp knock of knuckles on wood from the door.
"Uh, come in," I said, quickly wiping my eyes on my sleeve. How long had I spent there, crying over a few pieces of cloth?
The door creaked open, Pony peering inside, quickly followed by Itsuka, Yui, and To- Setsuna.
"Hi!" Pony exclaimed, bouncing on her hooves as she looked around the room. "We wanted to come in and check how you were doing, since we were mostly finished with our rooms."
Had it really been that long?
"Oh, you know, just taking my time," I said, rubbing the back of my neck. "Wouldn't want to break anything."
"You know all you need is to ask," Yui stated evenly. "We'd be happy to help."
"Oh, no, thank you, but if I don't do it I'm never going to get used to it. And besides, I'm almost finished."
"Really? Because it sure looks like you've only unpacked some clothes."
"I don't… exactly have a lot of things besides clothing. And, um, there's not really any point in unpacking my computer or miniature kits, I, ah, wouldn't be able to use them right now anyway..." I trailed off.
"Ah," Itsuka said, with a bit of worry in her expression. "That… sucks. Have you been to physical therapy yet?"
"Well, um, I attended one session," I said, looking away. "They had these… plastic puzzle box things. Meant to help with fine motor skills. I, ah, I broke all of them and they kicked me out. So I've mostly been practicing on my own, and I'm starting PT with Hound Dog tomorrow. A-anyway, if you guys really want to help, I guess you could put up Ryuko's posters." I said, nodding towards one of the boxes still lying on the floor. "I'm going to hang them on every wall and door, and put the plushies and figures on my desk."
"You have an entire box of Ryukyu merchandise?" Itsuka questioned as she peered inside it, picking up a fully articulated action figure of Ryuko's dragon form. "Some of this is limited edition stuff, not easy to come by. Or cheap."
"Yeah, well, sibling privilege," I replied, crossing my arms. "Ryuko's contract stipulates she gets preview samples so that she can approve what's being made under her name and brand, but she's embarrassed by her own merchandise so she gives it to me once she's checked it out. Joke's on her though, now she's too embarrassed to come into my room."
"Why would you want to stop your sister from coming to your room?" Itsuka asked.
"Spoken like an only child," Setsuna said, elbowing her as she moved to pick up one of the posters. "Do you have pins somewhere?"
"There's a pack of blu-tack somewhere in the box," I replied. "I'm not a barbarian."
She rolled her eyes, but she was grinning as she went to hang the posters up.
"Is this… really all of your wardrobe?" Pony asked, glancing at my half-unpacked clothes. "It's just hoodies, t-shirts and cargo pants."
"Well, none of my old clothes exactly fit me. I have some of Dad's old things, and Ryuko got me some of her merchandise that she had lying around. But, um, it's hard to get stuff that fits me without going to a tailor."
"You haven't been clothes shopping since you came back?" Setsuna asked with a mixture of curiosity and slight horror.
"Well… I wasn't quite sure if I was…"
"We could make it into a group thing!" Pony exclaimed, practically vibrating with excitement. "A shopping trip!"
"Um…"
Before I could say anything, I heard the distinct pitter-patter of feet running down the hallway outside, accompanied by Komori's excited voice.
"1-A came to visit! Come to the common room!"
"Oh! We should go see them." Itsuka said. "They probably heard about, well, you."
"I can finish unpacking later." I said, pushing away the box containing my clothes, and getting to my feet. "There's something I need to do first."
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"Urrrk!"
"Come on, Kirishima, aren't you disgracing your manly spirit there?" Tetsutetsu ribbed his friend, looking up at us.
"True manliness… is not something so easily compromised!"
I gave the red-haired boy one last squeeze before setting him down on the floor again.
"Thank you." I smiled. "For what you guys did. I mean it."
"Anytime." Kirishima grinned up at me. "That's what heroes are for."
As Tetsutetsu dragged him off, hand over his shoulders and giving him a noogie, I took a look around. The common room was bustling with activity, people from both classes mingling together.
"It is wonderful to see you in good health!" Iida exclaimed as he and Uraraka approached us, offering me an enthusiastic if stiff handshake. "I only regret not being able to do more at the Camp."
"Ah, well, it's all in the past now." I replied, rubbing the back of my head nervously. "It's nothing to worry about."
"We were all worried about you and Bakugo." Uraraka said quietly. "It was good to hear you made it out okay. We just weren't, um, expecting this. What happened?"
"It's… a long story." I said slowly, trying to find the right words. "I-"
"Ah, sorry, I shouldn't have asked." Uraraka smiled, shaking her head. "You've probably been asked about it a million times already."
"It's alright." I smiled slightly, trying to seem upbeat. "I just… I'd rather not go back to that place… over and over."
"We understand!" Iida said, making a chopping motion with his hand. "We won't bother you about it! Come on Uraraka, let's go talk to the others."
Over the next few minutes, several others from 1-A approached me to offer their congratulations or express their happiness at seeing that I was alright. Tokoyami, Yayorozu, Ojiro, and others- it was more than I had ever expected.
But it wasn't a bad kind of unexpected. It made me feel… warm.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw Kaminari making his way towards us through the crowd, his eyes widening a little as I turned around and he got a good look at me.
"Whoa there." He tilted his head back with a suave grin and a wink, finger-gunning up at me. "You got a license to carry those kinds of guns?"
"But I don't… have any firearms?" I tilted my head in genuine confusion.
Kaminari blinked, momentarily stupefied by my response. Itsuka took advantage of the opening to step between us, shooing him away while taking me by the arm. She dragged me off towards a quieter part of the room while I tried to make sense of what just happened.
Wait.
'Guns'.
Did I… just get flirted at?
…
…
Ryuuzaki.exe has experienced a crash. Please reboot.
"Ryuuzaki?" Yui asked, waving a hand in front of me. "Ground control to Ryuuzaki, please respond."
I felt my face heat up like an oven, falling on my butt with a thump and burying my head in my hands.
"Oh god." I mumbled, the scene playing out in my head over and over. "Oh god."
"Ah." She noted drily. "So you're not totally oblivious, just running on a delay timer."
"Ssh. It's okay." Itsuka said, patting me in the back while giving Yui a death glare.
I just groaned in pure embarrassment.
"It's not like you've never dealt with romantic prospects before." Yui reminded me glibly. "You were quite the heartbreaker in middle school, if I recall."
"That was different!" I squeaked, trying to burrow my head deeper into my arms. "That was just… schoolyard crushes. Because my sister was famous. Nobody's ever been interested in me before."
"Well, if you ask certain corners of the internet-"
"Shut up, Setsuna." Itsuka snapped before crouching to my level, smiling sympathetically. "I'm sorry, Ryuuzaki. I know… this must be weird and upsetting to you. But you are a tall, athletic and yes, attractive young woman, you will be dealing with that sort of attention wherever you go, whether or not you want to."
"The muscles make you look older than you are."
"Thank you for that insight, Yui. Very helpful." She sighed.
"It's embarrassing." I whined.
"Why?" Setsuna asked. "You're buff as heck, nothing embarrassing about that. It's your body that you've worked for, you gotta own it."
"I'm not embarrassed about my body." I said, crossing my hands. "I'm embarrassed about people f-flirting at me."
"Well, don't be."
"Gee, thanks. Why didn't I think of that?"
"Let me finish, you big lug." She shushed me, giving me a flick on the nose before leaning back, hands on her hips and giving me a sharp-toothed grin. "What I was going to say is, take pride in who you are. How people react to it reflects on them, not you."
"I guess." I evaded, looking away. It wasn't… as easy as that. But I wasn't about to bring that up aloud.
"I'm… going to go to the toilet." I mumbled, getting up. "I'll be back."
Just need a moment to gather myself.
The others glanced at each other, but a sharp head movement from Itsuka dissuaded them from following me.
"Tatsuma?" As I rounded the corner, I heard a small, subdued voice come from behind my back. I turned on my heel to see Izuku Midoriya. "Could I speak to you for a moment?"
I paused. Now was really not the time… but then, when would it?
"Let's… go talk somewhere else."
Using one hand on the wall as a support I took us to one of the side rooms, which turned out to be a laundry room when I flicked the lights on. There was a row of washing machines on one side, cabinets presumably containing supplies on the other, and laundry bins and racks in the middle.
I shut the door behind us, and when I turned around I found Midoriya performing a stiff, full-body bow, hands clasped to his sides and gaze lowered to the floor.
"I wish to apologize for everything that you went through during your captivity. I accept full responsibility."
"Hey. No. It wasn't your fault." I stuttered, raising my hands, palms open towards the smaller boy. "None of it was your fault."
"I fell to the villains' trap." He mumbled, and even with his head lowered I could see hot tears welling in the corners of his eyes.
"They went after your childhood friend." I said quietly. "I can't… claim to understand your bond with Bakugo, but clearly, he is important to you. The League knew that, too. They used that against you." As gently as I could, I put a hand on Midoriya's shoulder and pushed him to stand. "If it had been Yui… I can't say that I would have acted any different."
"But I am the carrier of One For All." He sniffed, wiping away tears. "All-Might's chosen successor, like you said, back on I-Island. I have to be better. I-if I screw up… it's others who pay the price."
I said nothing for a moment, trying to find the right words.
"Do you think that All-Might never made any mistakes?"
"Of course he didn't! He's All-Might! He- he…" He trailed off, hesitating.
"What about the secret of One For All?" I asked quietly. "Would you say that All-Might made a mistake in failing to keep your identity as his successor secret?"
"W-well you can't expect him to- He had no way to know-"
"Huh." I said, twiddling my fingers. "So if you can't expect somebody to be able to avoid something… they're not at fault for it. Imagine that."
"B-but-"
"But you're going to hold yourself to a higher standard than All-Might?" I asked, my eyes narrowing, unable to keep a slight grin off my face. "Isn't that… kinda arrogant? Like you're thinking you're better than him?"
Midoriya deflated like a balloon, acknowledging his defeat.
"Even if I could be forgiven for what happened... when Kirishima and Todoroki offered the chance, I didn't come on the mission to save you and Bakugo." He admitted, guilt filling his voice. "I refused, when offered the chance."
I sighed as I sat down on one of the laundry bins, the metal creaking slightly under my weight. Idly, I noted that sitting down, I was about eye-level with Midoriya standing up.
"Do you remember what they taught us in Rescue Training? About the first thing you need to do when saving someone who's drowning?"
"We, um, we kind of missed that one. With the whole USJ attack." Midoriya mumbled quietly, shaking his head. "Aizawa has been meaning to schedule a remedial lesson, but…"
"Ah. Well." I floundered for a moment, gathering my thoughts. "The first thing you do is make sure you aren't going to drown yourself. The worst thing you can do is become the second victim, so that others need to rescue two people. You were still injured, and under guard. What if you were seen sneaking out of the hospital, and the others were caught and stopped because of that."
"That's what All-Might said." Midoriya said, averting his gaze. "Well, not in those words. But he came to talk to me in the hospital. He forbade me from going out to search for you." He mumbled, tears threatening to return. "He made me swear not to. He told me… that the best way that I could help… was to do nothing."
"Well, he is All-Might." I said. "I think he knows what he's talking about. Sometimes… even a Hero needs to know when not to do something."
We sat in silence for a long while, digesting those words.
"I still wish I could have done more."
"Me too."
"But.. you were the one who was captured?" He said, turning to look at me.
"Yeah. And sometimes, I let myself wonder… what if I was a little bit faster? If I'd caught on a little bit sooner… maybe I could have avoided capture. Maybe All-Might… would still be active."
"But-but-" Midoriya began, sounding horrified. "You couldn't have-"
"Yeah. I did what I could. It's not my fault, and all that." I trailed off, shaking my head. "I don't know. But if I'm not allowed to feel bad about that, then you're not allowed to, either."
I meant to poke him in the chest, but I ended up pushing him over, sending him sprawling on the floor.
"Uh… sorry."
"It's fine. I know what it's like, believe me." He smiled a little as he took my proffered hand and I pulled him to his feet. "But I think I understand what you're saying." He looked around. "Thank you."
"You're welcome." I smiled down at him, pulling him into a one handed half-hug. "If you ever want to talk… well, I'm here."
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"There you are, Ryuuzaki!" Pony waved over to me as I returned to the common room. "Where did you disappear off to? Come on, we're getting something to eat."
The crowds seemed to have dispersed a little as people returned to their rooms and 1-A to their own dormitory, but those who remained seemed to have decided to grab dinner together. A large dining table had been dragged to the middle of the room, laden with food and surrounded with people from both classes, talking to each other, seemingly just having fun together.
"We saved you a plate!" Pony exclaimed brightly, patting an empty seat next to her. I sat down hesitantly, trying not to bang my knees against the underside of the table.
What I found in front of me was a cup of rice and chicken sauce, and a pair of chopsticks.
This… was going to be an issue.
I glanced up to find the rest of the table looking at me or trying not to make it look like they were looking at me.
"Is something wrong?" I asked.
"Oh, nothing, it's just that we were talking…" Uraraka trained off.
"We've all seen you eat as a dragon, so we were curious about your reaction to normal food." Yanagi finished for her.
Well, no pressure or anything.
Carefully, I took up the chopsticks, trying my hardest not to just snap them in half as I picked up a piece of chicken.
Slowly. Slooowly. Like you practiced.
And now-
My fingers slipped, and a piece of chicken smacked wetly against my cheek, leaving behind a trail of sauce as it fell onto my lap.
I wanted to cry.
Slowly and methodically, with the weight of everyone's eyes on me, I wiped my cheek with the back of my hand, picked up the piece of chicken, dropped it back on the cup and then pushed it away.
"I don't think this is going to work."
"Is something wrong?" Uraraka asked, her expression worried.
"I've been a giant quadrupedal reptile with negligible tactile senses and massive claws for fingers for the better part of three years." I explained, trying not to let my frustration color my speech, but I was pretty sure it was written large across my face anyway. "Fine motor skills are not my strongest suit."
"Oh." She replied quietly. "Is it really that bad?"
"It's like… imagine your left hand was swapped out for your right hand, and vice versa. And you just woke up after falling asleep with your arms held over your head. It feels like that. Except all the time. And five times worse."
"Ahaha… maybe chopsticks aren't the best idea." Pony laughed nervously, moving to stand up. "I'll get you a spoon?"
"It's fine. I ate before Vlad King picked me up."
"Well…" She drummed her fingers on the table, before her eyes lit up with excitement. "Oh! I saw some ice cream in the back of the freezer!"
I paused. A part of me wanted to just head upstairs and try to forget this whole incident never happened. But...
"...Ice cream, you say?" I let out, despite myself. "I haven't had any since..."
"I'll go get some!" Pony said, springing up. "You like ice cream sandwiches, right?"
"Yeah."
"It's been a week now and you haven't tried out ice cream yet?" Kaibara asked. "Man, that'd be the first thing I'd do, try all the foods."
"It's been a busy week." I said, crossing my arms defensively. "I've had to talk to doctors, police, lawyers, physical therapists, nutritionists, teachers, and seemingly everyone under the sun. I've had to get used to having a human body again, process the fact that I nearly died and oh also All-Might is gone, relearn how to walk on two legs, move out of the only home I've known for nearly sixteen years... It's a lot."
A moment later Pony returned from the kitchen, skipping over to me.
"Here you go!" She exclaimed as she handed me the sandwich.
"Um, thank you, Pony." I said slowly, looking down at it. The cold felt tingly against my skin.
"It's rude to drool, you know." Yui noted drily.
Despite myself I glanced down, before shooting her a dirty look.
"Well, you looked like you were about to."
I just shook my head and bit into the sandwich, before closing my eyes, sighing, and leaning back as my mouth filled up with the taste of vanilla and cookie dough goodness. I could- I could actually taste it properly, feel the texture of the sandwich as it melted in my mouth.
I was jolted back into awareness by a flash of light, and as I blinked away the brightness I saw Pony holding up a phone camera, smiling broadly.
"Okay, that was adorable."
"Are you seriously filming me right now?" I asked, feeling the tips of my ears heat up.
"I just wanted to capture the moment!" Pony replied happily, dancing away as I reached to grab her phone.
"It was pretty dang cute." Setsuna grinned, accompanied by varied noises of approval.
"Stop objectifying me!"
"I am objectifying your objective cuteness!" Pony laughed, dodging another attempt to take the phone whilst I nearly tripped on my feet, before bringing up her hands in a gesture of surrender. "Okay, okay. I'll delete it if you really want me to, but at least check it out first."
She stepped closer, holding up the phone screen towards me. It still felt surreal to see my own body, as if it didn't quite feel real, like I was looking at an illustration or something. My eyes were closed in contentment, my features displaying almost childlike glee as I devoured the ice cream. I looked, in that captured instant, happy.
"...Okay." I eventually admitted. "It is a cute picture.'
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While the others cleaned up the plates I ended up with nothing to contribute to the collective effort, not wanting to risk our brand-new dinnerware. So, as to avoid getting in the way, I found myself wandering around the common area, trying to decide if I should head upstairs when I caught sight of a familiar figure.
"Shoto!"
"Ah, Ryuuzaki." The split-haired boy smiled slightly as he turned his head and saw me approaching. "I heard about Kirishima. I suppose it is my turn, then?"
"Yep!" I exclaimed brightly, pushing off of the high-backed chair I'd been using as a support and sweeping him up into a hug as well.
He felt a bit stiff, and for a moment I began to worry that I'd overstepped, pressured him into something he wasn't comfortable with, but then he loosened up ever so slightly, awkwardly patting me in the back.
"Thank you." I said as I put him down.
"It was nothing."
"Don't say it was nothing." I shook my head down at him. "All For One… was about to kill me. I thought- I thought I was going to die." My voice hitched and I turned away, feeling something burning in the corners of my eyes. "All-Might would never have found me in time if it wasn't for you guys. So please don't say it was nothing. It was something… to me."
"I see." He nodded quietly. "Then I will say… you're welcome. I'm just glad to see you are alright."
I wiped my eyes, feeling a flush of embarrassment rise up on my face. What was it with all the waterworks today?
"I noticed you talking to Midoriya." Shoto said it casually, almost deliberately so. "You know, there's something I've been thinking about since that night."
I felt my heart suddenly sink.
"You and I were the only ones there, who saw that Midoriya was the real target of the kidnapping. Even Bakugo was just a way for them to draw him in. The authorities know it too- they had an entire squad of Heroes on standby outside his room when we saw him in the hospital." He wrung out his hands. "And I just haven't been able to get it out of my head. Why? Why him? But then it all clicked together. You've figured it out as well, haven't you?"
Shit. Shit shit shit shit.
What do I say?
"Midoriya… is All-Might's son."
…wait, what?
"It's the only explanation, and the more I thought about it, the more sense it made. At first I thought it was just normal hero worship. Everyone looks up to All-Might. I di- I do, too. But Midoriya takes it a step beyond. And I've noticed during training that All-Might seems to pay extra attention to him as well. It's as if they have some sort of a special connection."
I couldn't help but stare at him as he carried on through his explanation, feeling an intense sense of deja vu.
"Then today, I saw a picture of Midoriya's mother when he was moving his stuff in. He inherited his eyes and hair from her, not his father. I asked him about it, and he said he's a businessman, working overseas. Wouldn't that be the perfect cover story? And then there's his Quirk. It's nearly- no, it is identical to All-Might's. It all lines together. All-Might is Midoriya's father."
What do I even say to that?
"W-well, um, the thing is…" I stammered hesitantly, trying to figure out how to even begin to respond.
I can't tell him. It's not my secret.
But I can't pretend like I don't know what he's talking about, either. Not after the way I already reacted.
I felt a well of anger rising in my chest, mostly directed at myself. If I'd just stayed composed I could have pretended I had no idea.
God, what is it with me today? Any little thing and I just lose it.
Shoto merely raised a quizzical eyebrow at my antics, before his eyes widened in realization. "Ah. I understand. You've been sworn to secrecy." He nodded gravely. "I understand. I won't share this with anyone."
I just blinked dumbly as he turned to walk away, towards the main doors.
"I won't bother you any longer; I am sure you have a lot to do with your own dorm room."
"Yeah… see you." I mumbled quietly.
...what the fuck was that.
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Shoto wasn't wrong in that I had things to do, and several hours later I had finally managed to finish unpacking the majority of my boxes, leaving just the miniature stuff and my computer, which I'd pushed beneath my bed.
It still didn't feel right, but it had gotten easier to ignore, with Ryuko's posters on every door and wall. Setsuna had even taken my instructions to heart and tacked them onto the ceiling- an addition that I whole-heartedly approved of.
So, after a long day, I laid down on my bed to sleep.
And laid there.
And kept laying there.
It didn't feel right. I felt disorientated, like I was lying on top of a rickety tower about to tip over at any moment. The way the bed frame creaked and shifted with my movements did nothing to help the feeling that I was about to fall.
I threw my mattress on the floor, but it still didn't feel right. I felt like I was sinking into the thing, so I threw it away, wrapping myself in my blanket instead.
That felt better.
Better was not the same as good, though.
I tossed and turned, but no position seemed comfortable. I tried sleeping on my stomach, but yeah we're not doing that. Instinctively, I tried to curl up, but human spines proved to be frustratingly stiff and inflexible.
Eventually, I ended up just laying there on my back, looking up at Ryuko's poster.
Wide awake.