Between Heaven and Earth
Part 6
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-Somewhere in the Formless Wastes-
-The Painter-
You know, most people don't realize just how big space ships are until they see them for themselves in all their might and glory. Admittedly, regular humans are not good at envisioning the scale of big things, not without assistance from technology. Heck, I am guilty of this myself when I went to a circus and saw an elephant personally for the first time.
Their size just left me astounded with how little they resembled the ones on television. Size wise I mean. Granted, perhaps I may attribute that to my warped sense of scale from my youth, but it was still distinct.
But even as big as the largest land animal on Terra was back then, it was nothing short of a speck of dust when compared to the multi-kilometer long ships of the Imperium. Alone, they were massive monuments of engineering and half forgotten sciences held together by faith, raw grit and the wisdom of those greater than the masses that squatted within their halls... called duck tape.
When they are clumped together in a hulk however, oftentimes they would even be comparable to small planetoids.
These monolithic amalgams of human and alien constructs were truly the stuff of legend, chuck full with all manner of horrors and dangers that could spell the doom of planets on their lonesome, and so big that its essentially impossible to displace them.
At least the tech you can find on board is very nice at times, even when its alien.
Especially when its alien. Gaining a new perspective on technology is always worth the headaches and it always leads to new and exciting ways to innovate.
If only the Admech would loosen up on their study material restrictions, the human race would benefit tremendously from expanding their knowledge base. Its not like if several pieces of technology central to the continuation and survival of the Imperium were fully human creations in the first place! The Golden Throne was built upon the Astronomicon, which was stuff borne from the Fra'al's prior zenith cycles and the Warp Drive was only created by studying aliens who had managed to master the Warp before mankind. And then there is the Void Dragon dreaming and dead deep underneath Mars' surface.
If only they'd known. Eh, they would just keep hoarding stuff while going around and stealing better tech from aliens before subtly incorporating it into the admech's tech base... and only the admech's. Bunch of greedy fucks…
Ah, but a man turned spirit can dream… But not really as Lightbornes do not dream since we are incapable of sleep in the first place.
Anyway, where was I going with this tangent? Ah, yes, Space Hulks!
Ugly, jumbled together with warp-duck tape, filled with treasures and horrors aplenty and absurdly huge.
And way beyond my ability to push back into the Materium!
"This one is way out of my league." I say as one of the eyes on my vessel observes the continent sized heap of metal floating in the un-void of the Warp, moving in all directions simultaneously as Empyrean currents push it into some un-ordained path. "I may be able to face off against greater daemons, but forcing something this big out of the Warp is beyond me!" Maybe if we fixed all the Gelar Field generators from all the various ships that make it up and harmonize them we may be able to increase the Dimensional Homogeneous Resonance Field Pull to the point that it passively draws itself back into the Materium and just need a good shove. But there in lies a lot of problems with that.
Firstly, there have to be at least a thousand ships meshed together in there and at least a good half of them would be alien. It would be hard to set all the Gelar Fields up to play nice with each other. And some would need to be built completely from the ground up as some of the Generator models from the thirty fifth millennium and forwards make use of psykers which must have burned out ages ago or are possessed by the powers of the warp.
And lastly, the daemonic density in the air.
"Can you smell that?" I ask Kyras holding me. "Shit mixed with blood and perfume with an undertouch of rainbow. Way too many daemons to deal with." In short, this was a marathon and I was not running it.
I learned in gym classes that I was a sprinter and had low stamina. I also learned that in bed I don't have much of it either.
Sure, being a creature of the Warp now, I am tireless, but that does not mean I like to set myself against
that shit!
"We need to find another hulk. This one is simply too damn big and too infested with daemons." A hum of acknowledgement and Kyras turned around walking off into a distance that had no horizon. I made sure that the illusions gave him a destination, even though we went in circles most of the time. The Warp's up and down don't share anything in common with Realspace. You could go in circles and be moving closer towards your objective or even further. Both things can happen simultaneously too. Don't ask how that's possible it would give you a headache.
Our walk continued without much issue. I made certain of it.
At best, it would be a lesser daemon, which I would need to provide aid to dispatch. The few other encounters were with other warp predators. Nothing truly threatening attacked us though, and I was thankful for that.
But as the walk stretched into hours… I began to notice some issues.
There was a very, very minute drop in Kyras' pacing. He remained quiet, which was not entirely unusual… but… a day or so ago he would at least look around the un-scenery. He wouldn't make any comments, but I could feel his mind shift whenever he looked at something, especially when he disliked it.
But now… it was quiet, yet at the same time, it was raging deeper within. Guarded, but not as energetic as before. A storm hidden behind a panel of sound proof glass. But even that was not enough to hide away the thunder strikes underneath.
I have seen this before on their kind. I have been present to witness astartes succumb to the dark embrace of Chaos, and likewise, I have done my own manipulations and revelations to break a Chapter's will so that I could achieve my objective all the easier.
Sad as it is, I am too familiar with how fatal doubt can be for a man, especially when they are in a very dangerous environment, like the Warp. The mind must be strong and defended at all times, even at rest. Faith, conviction and willpower are all armours the mind can cast to not let itself become lost. But doubt is a chink in that armour, and it alone is strong enough to leave one lost.
I cannot allow that.
I know I am at fault at this, but I would rather have the last children of Magnus not join their father in their damnation and at least hopefully bring some decent change while they are at it. Harmony with my long term plans be damned. I am not Tzeentch that must have everything be a part of some grand scheme. My plans are dynamic, maleable and made to operate with many factors at play but not ruled by them. They must be, or else I would have failed long ago. Best part of all, if my actions here snowball into something beneficial, then I am happy with having to skip part of my plans. I just hope that it doesn't happen like the last five times.
Maybe the sixth time is the charm?
But anyway, I need to adress this soon.
"You alright Kyras?" I ask him, but he does not reply straight away.
He grumbles and just keeps walking. "Yes. Let's keep moving." I could tell that it was a lie. Which means he is not alright, and therefore something is not in working condition.
I need my Bloody Magpie in good working condition. Wholly.
So, subtly, with slow and deliberate action I weave together a thread hidden by my illusions just behind Kyras. And then I strike, popping his mental defenses, and
only his defenses, with the equivalent of a static jolt.
It causes the Epistolary to turn around wildly and flare his powers before realizing what happened. "Why did you do that for?" He snapped, holding me up to eye level.
A yellow striped face appeared on the gun and looked back at him. "You were distracted." I reply. "If you were any more alert, you would have noticed my thread." I look at him, imploringly, or as much as a tumor sized devil head on a gun can. "Help me out here Kyras, I want you alive here and I can't help you out of the Warp if you are preforming subpar."
I could feel the frown underneath his helmet. "Then I would appreciate that you kept your mouth sealed." Snappy, too bad for you I won't be doing that anytime soon.
And then, he sighed, loosening his arm and I followed the motion down. I had a new eye grow on one of the gun's limbs to see his next reaction and what he finally said was kind of odd.
"I am tired." I could tell he wasn't lying, but I was not quite expecting that answer from him.
"Pardon?"
He grumbles for a moment, then builds upon what he said. "I am tired, creature. Perhaps your kind have no need for 'petty' things like sleep. But we, beings of flesh and blood, do." That caught me slightly off guard. We haven't been in the Warp long enough for an astartes to start suffering from drowsyness.And I have made sure to make haste on our trips just to avoid this! So what happened?
"Aren't you astartes supposed to be able to go longer without rest by alternating your brain hemispheres to sleep? I have met some of you that have gone almost four weeks without rest."
A sigh. "In most cases, you would be correct." He informs me. "But the Blood Ravens Chapter is cursed with a few gene flaws in spite of our overall purity. One of those same flaws affects our sleep cycles. We cannot go into REM sleep, not traditionally. We have a different sleep state that apothecaries have dubbed the Raven Stupor. It fills the functions REM would handle, but it requires a much longer time period to function,
and is more frequent." He finished his explanation and sighs again, or rather, he masks his yawn with a sigh. "As such, my chapter requires more sleep than what a traditional astartes does."
"Ah… I see."
"Compound that to the sleepless days I spent on Aurelia fighting heretics, you can tell I did not start well off in this damn travesty of a journey. The longest we he usually can manage without any sleep is about half the time a regular space marine can."
Ah… "How long do you think you can hold off sleep?"
He frowns. "I am not sure. I cannot make sense of the passage of time. But if I have to give it a wager, I would say at most four days."
Well shit. That changes things a bit. A lot actually. We may need to do a detour someplace safe for him to sleep. A tall order in the Warp. He hasn't asked for food and water, and I am glad for that, as I would not be able to easily provide it, but most of that is handled by the life support systems in his power armor anyway, so there isn't much to worry about that. That in the warp, the subconscious state of a person can also help increase or diminish the need of sustenance is also a boon as much as a curse.
But sleep?
That one has a bit more significance to mortals, especially humans. And an astartes of a lineage that is more prone to it? There is significance to that which I cannot ignore, and thus must be addressed post haste.
Survival in the Warp demands peak performance of one's capabilities. As much psycho/metaphysical as physical.
"We need to address this." I say, with a sense of finality.
He does not deny it, but at the same time he does not fully agree with it. "We need to find an exit from the Warp! That's why we need to get moving."
"Rushing things won't get us anywhere. Especially with you around. I still don't know the exact locations of all the available Hulks we could take and if they are even safe enough for our purposes in the first place. This endeavor will take some time regardless of your wishes." His frown grows deeper and grips the gun harder. "But… I so happen to know of a place that is safe, or as safe as a region of the Empyrean can be to mortals." His grip loosens up. His eyes turn down to the weapon that is my receptacle in his hand.
"Where?"
"In a planet, that is also a shadow and a maze perpetually held in its liminal foundations." He cocks his head slightly at my explanation… which is not an explanation really, not without a lot of context. Then again, it makes more sense to experience it first hand than to speak of it. "But you have to agree to something first." Now I feel a spark of suspicion rise.
"What is it?"
"For the duration of our stay, you need to do everything I say." I can immediately feel him tense up at my demand. But instead of flat out saying no, he takes a breath in, and glares down at me.
"Why?"
"It is a place bound by many a rule and laws that are so ingrained and nigh absolute that even the Powers follow them there. Breaking those rules would spell your immediate doom and only the Emperor's full attention and intervention could save you. But if you follow them, then it's the safest place that you can find anywhere in the depths of the Empyrean." And it was true. Not once since I have walked its labyrinthine halls and valleys have I been subjected to an attack from the Neverborn or other Empyrean predators.
Mortals are not necessarily held to that same standard, but it allows them to cheat the system. At least to some extent. But Kyras is one, and one alone. He does not have the many hands to leverage the exceptions in this plane.
"And all I would need to do is to follow you word? Is that it?" He asks, clearly not liking the notion, even though its pretty much what he has been doing lately.
"Yes." I look at him, serious. "I need you to trust me on this. At least for our time there."
"I don't trust you." He states, bluntly.
I shrug. "Hardly an unfounded opinion."
A knowing and somewhat defeated sigh from the Epistolary. "But at the same time I don't have much choice, do I?"
I shrug again. "Not unless you allow me to possess you. But that's a straight up no from you, no matter what, mhm?"
"Correct." He nods, affirming his prior declaration and oppinion. "I do not want to find myself corrupted or worse if I follow your words."
"Don't worry." I know he won't believe me, but it must be said. "I am still bound by the pact, and in the end going there is your choice in the matter. I won't, and even can't, force you to agree." That may be true, and it is… but he is still too reliant on me to simply refuse. He knows this. I know this. It may be a nearly one sided agreement. But let's be honest, our relationship would not change in the slightest until he learns to move in strange angles and get his Warp legs on.
Eventually though, after some deliberation, Kyras is forced to agree to my plans. Its not like if he can hold off sleep forever, and that would leave him even more vulnerable than what he is at the moment. "Let's go. If I get to sleep there, then let's get moving."
I grin and I emerge from the receptacle of death and fire that I have been inhabiting for the last few sunless cycles.
Like wax melting and then reforming into something incongruent while retaining a stony shell behind to retreat into, the mockery and mirror of the once bolter turned shapeless weapon stops being an extention of me and more an open house with its doors left open for its tennant to return into.
Water where schools of six fingered hands swam underneath emerge from my imago, moments before a yellow and black devilish mask rises from its surface and suspended by chains of whispers and light, four leering faces of pink, green, red and blue are revealed held by hands that may in fact be horns.
The river and cloak that were one and the same unfurl and from beneath its icy coblestone surface a rain of polydactiled arms, feathered wings, paws, talons and fins come into being, and then spread.
Vast and wide, until the river becomes a lake as vast as a sea, and from them albatros and pterosaur wings create a corrona of feathers and membranes.
And all the while I am becoming, Kyras is observing how six fingered hands wrapp around him in firm gentle constrictions, unlike an adult holding a child's hand to guide them into the world.
I smile, for I know he is feeling more than simply my shape lets. Small hints. Small tales. Small fingers that are not.
Mayhaps he may see more by the trip's end. Who knows.
All that I know, is that I must make an announcement, for old times' sake.
"Alright, passengers, this is your captain speaking. Welcome to Air-Hell. Please fasten your seatbelts and set your seats and trays in the right place…"
"You don't have trays!" He interrupts, but I ignore him. The captain cannot be interrupted!
"...and lastly, turn your devices to flight mode for the duration of the trip."
I laugh at his grumbling just before my wings and cloak beat against the airless ether and grasp magnetic field lines that are not there as we ascend into the incongruent sea and heaven of stories and law.
Uralan awaits.
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To be continued…