Chapter 11 - Return to the Origin
TailoftheDevil
Youkai Enthusiast
- Location
- United Kingdom
Shinji Ikari woke up with a start. Thankfully, his room was empty for once, his recently repaired bedroom dimly lit in the rising sun's lazy light. Pulling on his usual attire, he noticed a strange feeling. He knew what it was, but he couldn't quite put it into words.
Opening the door of his bedroom, he was beginning to confirm his earlier emotions. The house was eerily quiet. Misato, Rei, Mana... and Asuka. Nobody was home.
No. It was even quieter than that. Misato's tiny little apartment looked as though nobody had lived in it for years. Braving himself, Shinji walked around all the bedrooms in the apartment, knowing full well that if the girls were hiding in some corner, at least one of them would punch him into next Tuesday.
But he found nothing.
Misato's room was bare. No furnishings or furniture. It was as though nobody had lived there at all. He found a similar story going into Asuka's room. Not a soul had ever touched foot in that room, he was sure of it. Rei and Mana's rooms didn't even exist, which confused him even more. It had been necessary to use the power of their bracelets to make a sort of makeshift renovation for the girls to move in.
But where their bedroom doors should have been was the unmistakable sight of the apartment's bland colored walls. No door. No handle. No Rei. No Mana.
Panic was beginning to take hold. He didn't have a clue what was going on. Where was everybody?
Running to the apartment door, he swiped his keycard. The door's automatic systems were offline. Grabbing the manual release, Shinji shifted the surprisingly heavy door open and took a look outside.
...Or what was left of it.
A destroyed world greeted his view. A blood-red sky illuminated destroyed apartment buildings and collapsed skyscrapers over what should have been the view of Tokyo-3. Looking around the building he was currently in, he was genuinely surprised Misato's apartment block was still standing. Everything bar their apartment was in total ruins.
Girders were pointing out of huge holes in the structure, as though huge bullets or something similar had torn chunks out of the architecture.
But the most disturbing thing was easily the huge, alien looking hand that was resting on a good portion of the building. That entire side of the building the giant, severed limb was resting on was caked in what looked like a ton of blood. What scared him more than anything else, was that he vaguely recognized that hand from somewhere.
His whole body shaking, he picked his way closer to the hand, across the external balcony of their apartment building. Dodging countless holes and debris was difficult, but he made it to the other side, trying his hardest not to breathe in the smell of death and rot the blue and slightly black, robotic looking hand was giving off. Leaning over the edge of the balcony, he peered over to see if the hand was connected to anything.
And saw Mana's Evangelion Unit 00, albeit it being easily taller than the apartment building, and looking as though something had been eating it.
"W-what the hell is going on?" Shinji whispered, horrified by the titanic, robotic corpse in front of him. "What... why... Why is an Evangelion... here!?"
After somehow making his way out of the building, he slowly walked over to the head of the downed beast. Or what was left of it at least. Half of what he could assume was a skull was protruding from the giant robots helmet. It apparently used to have a single, cyclopedic eye too, though god only knew where that had gone, leaving a black, gaping abyss in its place.
Some distance away, Shinji noticed something else. A long, somewhat thin, cylindrical tube was lying on the ground, easily enough to fit a human inside, if not a few. Some sort of hatch was open on the tube. A terrifying sense of dread raced through him, as his feet slowly dragged his way towards the tube. He was more scared than he had ever been in his life. Partly due to the fact that he felt an incredible amount of familiarity when he saw the strange object.
Like he had seen it before somewhere.
But even though his memories from eight years ago were kind of fuzzy, he could clearly remember Mana hadn't shown him anything else with her toy Evangelions. He certainly didn't remember a tube-like object from back then. So why did he feel he knew what it was?
The hatch had opened facing the sky. After some difficulty, Shinji managed to pile some debris together, enough to help him make a stand to clamber on top of the metallic tube. Even touching it as he clambered on top left him with that same horrifying sense of familiarity. How on earth did he... recognize this thing!?
Standing on top it the metal hunk, keenly aware that he felt like a tightrope walker taking tentative steps towards his own doom, Shinji slowly made his way forward, aware that a strong gust of wind was threatening to blow him off lest he make any kind of haste. He eventually made it to the opened hatch, and took a very long time convincing himself to look inside.
It was dark, and he noticed a strange liquid pooled at the bottom of the container. Intricately designed machinery was inside, but it was still a little too dark for him to see anything clearly. Taking a deep breath, Shinji climbed into the hatch and let himself down, an audible splash echoing as he landed in whatever the strange liquid was under his feet. His breath was ragged, and he was only faintly aware his pulse was hammering through his chest. He looked up and his breath suddenly got caught in his throat.
Lying in a chair, curled into a fetal position, was another corpse, although it was easy to see that this person had once been human. A skeleton, wrapped in a strange, yet-once-again somewhat familiar suit of white that clung to the body tightly, highlighted with black in certain areas. And from what little he could see of the torso from where he stood, he could easily see the numbers '00' embellished just under the collar.
He should have been running. Run somewhere far, far away. But his whole body was frozen, his eyes unmoving from the corpse, the corpse of someone he was sure he knew.
"W-who are you..." His trembling voice echoed around the inside of the metallic walls.
"She was somebody I failed."
Whirling around, Shinji looked at where the strange, disembodied voice had come from, his pulse skyrocketing as he searched for whoever had just talked behind him.
"WHO ARE YOU!? W-WHERE ARE YOU!?"
"I am you. And I am right beside you."
"DON'T BULLSHIT WITH ME. I CAN'T SEE YOU." Shinji looked around him in a panic. He couldn't see anything. What the hell was going on? And that voice... sounded just like...
Standing on top of the hatch above him, he finally noticed the ghostly-looking boy looking down at him. A boy he instantly recognized, but could barely recognize at all.
The ghost of Shinji Ikari was talking to the living, breathing Shinji Ikari. The ghost was wearing a suit similar to the skeleton was, except it had a purple color scheme, with highlights of green and red.
"W-who... are you?"
"Come with me, and I'll show you."
Clambering out of the hatch, living Shinji once again found himself in the bask of the blood-red sky looming over what was left of Tokyo-3. Ghost Shinji was standing next to him, a tired expression worn over a stretched face. He had dark circles under his eyes, and his suit was torn in several places. What on earth happened?
"I am you. Although it would be a lie to say I am the same you."
"That doesn't make a hell of a lot of sense."
The ghost gave a weak chuckle. It was a depressing sort of noise, full of mirth and depression. It was like looking into a shattered mirror. Warped, and nothing like what Shinji could even imagine. He was looking at a broken version of himself.
"I'm not going to lie, it gets a fair bit weirder from here on out." Broken Shinji still seemed to have a sense of humor, although it was still riddled with a lack of sanity and warmth.
The ghost and Shinji left the metallic tube and starting walking into the ruins of the city. Not a soul was to be found, save for the schoolboy and the literal soul pacing around.
"You still haven't really answered my question."
"Before I answer that, there is something I need to show you. But before I do that, I need to ask you a very important question." The ghost stopped in the middle of a downtown high street, riddled with craters and destroyed buildings. Turning to face the living, the ghost looked grim.
"Do you believe in God?"
They continued to walk. Shinji was beginning to recognize parts of the city, at least from what was left of it. But there were some parts he didn't. Putting aside the destroyed remnants of huge artillery guns stationed at various parts of the city, and what looked like destroyed military tanks and VTOLs littering the streets, there were also signs pointing to evacuation shelters. Looking around him answered quite plainly that at some point they had been necessary, but in his Tokyo-3, he'd never seen any of those signs. Aside from earthquake-related shelters, but they didn't look anywhere near as hi-tech as some of the destroyed shelters they'd walked past. It was as though they were built to repel nuclear blasts, or some other weapon of mass destruction. And had failed.
"This is seriously messed up... What the hell happened..." Shinji murmured as they picked their way through the destroyed city.
The ghost was silent, walking towards whatever unknown destination he had in mind. It was frightening, but Shinji had no other choice but to follow his ethereal doppelgänger to wherever this madness ended.
Eventually, they reached what looked like a station. A station leading underground. Written in big letters above the entrance was the words 'GEOFRONT ENTRANCE B-2'. There was also a smaller notice underneath.
Entrance strictly prohibited to NERV personnel only. Unauthorized access will lead to prosecution.
NERV.
"NERV." Shinji whispered. He was sure he had never said the name in his life, but the word fell off his tongue effortlessly. Like it was used to it.
"Let us go." Ghost Shinji said somberly as he walked into the station.
"B-but the sign...!"
"It's alright. There is nobody there now."
Shinji didn't know whether he should feel relieved or even more scared by that. Where was everybody?
The inside felt like some sort of crazy military base. Metallic walls, riddled with what looked like gunshots and bloodstains continued down towards a broken sliding door, embellished with what looked like a logo of some kind. It was hard to make out from all the beating the door had taken, but he could clearly make out 'NERV' in red, along with something like a slogan circled around it.
"Gods in his heaven..." Shinji voiced with trembling nerves.
"...All's right with the world. Ha." The ghost finished with a bitter laugh. "Nothing's right with the world. Nothing..."
They walked a little further in, and came across what looked like a tram, with it's tracks leading deeper into the underground. It was surprisingly a lot less damaged than the rest of what Shinji had seen so far. Entering into the train, Shinji followed his ghost, looking apprehensively at the vehicle around him.
"I bet there's no power left, but maybe we'll be lucky. Grab that lever for me."
"What? Why me?"
"It'll be kind of hard to make this thing move when I can no longer touch anything." The ghost demonstrated his point by trying to grab the lever, and his hand simply passing through it. With his point taken, Shinji grimaced and pulled the lever. After a moment's uncertainty, there was a jolt as the train's deep slumber was interrupted, it's internals groaning in protest as the train began a slow descent into the darkness.
"What do you know, apparently there is some power left. I hope there's enough for a return trip." The ghost laughed mirthlessly, giving Shinji another reason to panic.
"Don't joke about that! Where are we going anyway!?" The laugh left the ghosts face quickly, and something like anger flashed over his face.
"Into the heart of everything. Where everything began, and everything ended."
Light flashed past the windows as the view suddenly expanded from jet-black. Shinji gasped in terror at what should have been a beautiful sight, but was now a wasteland. Greenland was now dyed red from huge amounts of blood, there was destruction and debris everywhere, and Shinji saw the remnants of what looked like a pyramid erected in the center.
But what caught his attention was the sight of another gigantic Evangelion. It was bright red, and had an embellished number of 02. Half of it's head was missing, several of it's remaining eyes had been gouged out, leaving only a single green eye remaining. It's arms and legs had been severed and even from the considerable distance they were, Shinji could still make out a meaty cross-section from the severed limbs.
The quick glance he had seen suddenly made his stomach lurch, and he was almost thankful the destroyed scenery had been blotted out as the train made its way through another tunnel.
"Heh. I don't think you'll be holding on to your lunch anyway, we'll need to go see Unit 02 up close."
"Are you joking!? Why?!"
"We need to go visit the grave of another I failed."
"Aren't you a ball of sunshine." Shinji thought grimly as the train pulled into a stop. After a considerably long walk across the destroyed ruins outside, Shinji looked up to realize he could see the sky, even though they had travelled what felt like miles underground.
"You never used to be able to see the sky. But after the Geofront was destroyed, well..." Ghost Shinji didn't have to explain. The blood-red sky peering at them from their giant hideaway hole was answer enough.
After a short while, they made it to the corpse of the red giant. Corpse felt like fitting word for a robot that apparently had blood, muscles and bones, like the ones Shinji could visibly see sticking out from the red Unit 02. He looked at his own terrified reflection from the single, lifeless eye left on the towering robot.
"What happened to you..." Shinji's mind echoed the question, along with the million other questions he needed answering about the state of the world he was in. The only one who could answer his questions had walked away, towards another tube-like object that he had found earlier. This time the hatch was open on it's side, allowing the ghost Shinji to simply walk inside.
Not looking forward to it, living Shinji followed him in.
And found another corpse. This time not in the fetal position, but lying back on the chair, it's hands still grabbing the two joysticks, the skull's morbid smile grinning at the terrified boy. Shinji spotted the same '02' markings as was on the Evangelion's body outside. But the number was quickly forgotten as he paid more attention to the skeleton's face, and noticed a pair of crimson head accessories where the hair should have been. Head accessories that looked an awful lot like the ones...
"A-Asu...ka...?!" A scared whimper escaped from him as Shinji took a step backwards, the liquid on the floor splashing loudly.
"That is correct. The second girl I failed." His ghost was looking at the corpse, an unreadable expression on his face.
"Asuka Langley Soryu. The Pilot of Evangelion Unit 02."
Shinji was beyond shocked. His mind was getting closer and closer to a nervous breakdown, but he still had one, excruciatingly painful question to ask.
"W-was that other... c-c-corpse we saw e-earlier...?"
"Rei Ayanami. The Pilot of Evangelion Unit 00."
"N-no... Asuka... Rei... NO!" Shinji wanted to scream, he wanted to throw up, he wanted to curl up in a ball, or run away or anything to stop this nightmare unravelling around him.
"A-and Misato?! Mana Kirishima?! My parents?!" Shinji could barely whisper. He didn't want to hear, but he needed to know.
"Misato is dead. My mother died when I was four years old, in what was known as a 'Contact Experiment'. My father..." The ghost looked ready to murder at the mention of their shared father.
"My father. Gendo Ikari." The ghost looked horrifyingly angry. Shinji backed away slowly, eyes wide, shivering in raw fear.
"Gendo Ikari is the man who helped me destroy the world."
His fear had become numb. The shock of those words turned off everything in his brain except the echo of his ghost's last words reverberating around his mind. His father, had helped me, destroy... the world?
"But I'm curious. You mentioned another..." The ghost turned around to face him, his anger replaced by curiosity.
"Who is Mana Kirishima?"
Shinji's mental collapse was temporarily halted by the next revelation thrown at him from his crazy ghost. What do you mean, who was Mana Kirishima?
"We... wait, what? You don't know Mana?" The ghost shook his head, cocking his head to one side, as though he'd forgotten something and was trying to remember.
"She's about yay-tall, deep red hair, cerulean eyes?"
"Are you sure that isn't Asuka?"
"No! Mana had short hair, was a much deeper shade of red than Asuka, not orange."
"Hmmm..." The ghost looked thoughtful. "I've never known someone like that. Not in this world."
"In... this world?"
Ghost Shinji clambered out of the tube's hatch, after taking one last look at Asuka's corpse, nodding with what looked like a silent promise.
"It's time I told you the reason you were brought here. There isn't much time, and as you can see, this world ran out of time. Way before it's time."
Shinji clambered out of the tube, himself taking one last terrified look at the grinning remains of what was a girl he cared about in his own world. Standing on the Geofront's blood-red burnt wasteland, he felt a strange wind blow through the place as he faced his ghost.
"Let me tell you the tale of the boy who became God, and the man who destroyed the world."
A long time had passed. Ghost Shinji explained his life from the very beginning. And from the sounds of things, had experienced a very different life to the one the living Shinji Ikari had experienced.
The Evangelions, who in his world were only the figment of a hyperactive six-year-old's imagination, were titanic weapons used to defend the world from alien 'Angels', intent on wiping out all life on the planet in this one.
His father had apparently been a basket case, using the pretense of fighting these 'Angels' as an excuse to use the potential awakening and deification of an Evangelion to wish his dead wife, and Shinji's mother, back to life. His mother, who was also trapped inside the core of Evangelion Unit-01, and powering it with her own soul.
Then it appeared Rei Ayanami was some sort of hybrid between an Angel herself, and a clone of his dead mother, to which countless 'replacements' had existed. She was to be used in something called the 'Human Instrumentality Project', relating to the existence of a dark organization called 'Seele', intending to turn all of humanity into a mass, conglomerated soul, in an effort to preserve humanity, for everyone to become one with each other, and to force humanity to evolve past it's apparent boundaries.
Not to mention that this world's Shinji Ikari had apparently been abandoned by his father not long after his mother died at some nameless train station, raised by a teacher, and was practically alone for the majority of his life.
And in the end, the dark plans that would destroy the world had succeeded. But in a very different way to how Gendo Ikari and Seele had imagined.
It appeared that in this fight, the Angels had won. Terminal Dogma, the lowest level of what had been NERV headquarters had been breached. Housing a captured Angel known as Lilith, it had been the purpose of the 'Children' to defend her, not knowing their true purpose for fighting.
But the mission had failed. As per orders of Misato Katsuragi, the Operational Director of NERV, ranking under his father, the central complex had been set to self-destruct. Lilith, Misato, his father, the attacking Angel and everybody who worked there had been vaporized. And not long after Asuka and Rei had failed in their own fight against the Angel, dying on the battlefield.
The only one left standing, piloting Unit-01, the Shinji Ikari of this world went insane, awakening to his powers, and ended up destroying the world in the process. Any who was alive had turned into a liquid known as LCL, their soul binding with others who had perished, into a ball of souls that now floated above the surface of the world, for eternity.
"That... is utterly insane."
"When I came to my senses, Unit-01 was empty, a lifeless husk. The soul of my mother just vanished, and starting from then, I was the only one left, not even alive, wandering the surface of this broken world. As alone as I had been that day father left me at that train station years ago."
"But... " Shinji hesitated. "Why are you...?"
"Why am I still here, and not together with the rest of the souls?" Ghost Shinji looked up at the blood-red sky.
"I think... it's the Curse of the Eva."
In many ways, his answer made no sense at all. But in some ways, Shinji could understand. But he still couldn't understand why, after hearing his counterpart's story, he could believe the tale as easily as he could. As though a part of him had actually been here, experiencing the same things.
"That's because I am you. And so are the other Shinji Ikari's in all the other world's that exist out there." Another hard-to-understand answer.
"When I achieved the power of a deity, I saw something. I was going through, as you can imagine, an incredible amount of emotional stress, but I clearly saw other worlds. Other Shinji Ikari's. Some of them were fighting the same fight I was. Some of them had won the fight and experienced a happy-ever-after. Some world's, like your own, didn't even experience the horror's and lived a relatively peaceful life, a normal life." His ghost looked wistful at the end.
"But for the world's that failed. For the worlds that didn't get a happy ending, what's left to do? How do I atone for destroying a world through insanity, and redo everything?"
Shinji looked worried as his ghost turned to him, a somewhat evil grin on his face.
"And that is the reason you are here. You, a being who is me from another world, have the power to fix what was broken. You are the hope that can save the souls circulating the planet, and return everything back to the way it was." Ignoring the living Shinji's jaw drop to the floor, the ghost continued.
"You are my only hope."
After several minutes of blind shock and his brain attempting to process everything he had just heard, he had only one question for his crazy reflection.
"How!?"
"Shinji! SHINJI! Wake up, stupid idiot! We're going to be late for school!"
A familiar voice was shouting at him. His mind felt groggy, like he hadn't slept for over a hundred years. Who was shouting at him?
"Shinji! Come on, get your ass out of bed, we gotta go!" He felt his body being shaken from the shoulders.
"Wait... what?" Shinji blearily opened an eye, and caught a blurry flash of orange hair and a set of bright red hair accessories.
It was her!
Sitting bolt upright in his bed, Shinji reached out and grabbed the suddenly very confused and flushed girl in front of him.
"S-shinji! What are you doing all of a... wait, why are you crying!?"
"Asuka! I'm so... glad..." He didn't care he was probably gunking up her school uniform was snot and tears. "I'm glad... you're... okay..."
"Of course I'm okay... why wouldn't I be?" The flustered girl tried grabbing his shoulders, but Shinji refused to let go. "Shinji, what the hell, did you have a nightmare or something?"
A nightmare...?
It took a few minutes, but eventually Shinji calmed down enough to let Asuka go, much to the annoyance of the two other girls waiting for him at his bedroom door. After making a quick excuse about having to get his clothes on, Shinji stood out of his bed and looked out of his bedroom window to a perfectly crystal clear blue sky. Everything was normal. Asuka, Rei and Mana were all alive, and judging from their reactions, everyone else was okay too. The world hadn't gone mad. Right?
"Was that really a dream? It felt so real..." Shinji murmured as he buttoned up his school shirt, absent-mindedly fiddling with his bracelet as he did so.
"You'd be a fool for thinking that was a dream."
Looking at his own reflection in the mirror, Shinji saw the unmistakeable visage of his ghostly counterpart from the destroyed world standing behind him, grinning madly.
"I look forward to working with you, me."
Misato's entire apartment block echoed with screams of terror.
Opening the door of his bedroom, he was beginning to confirm his earlier emotions. The house was eerily quiet. Misato, Rei, Mana... and Asuka. Nobody was home.
No. It was even quieter than that. Misato's tiny little apartment looked as though nobody had lived in it for years. Braving himself, Shinji walked around all the bedrooms in the apartment, knowing full well that if the girls were hiding in some corner, at least one of them would punch him into next Tuesday.
But he found nothing.
Misato's room was bare. No furnishings or furniture. It was as though nobody had lived there at all. He found a similar story going into Asuka's room. Not a soul had ever touched foot in that room, he was sure of it. Rei and Mana's rooms didn't even exist, which confused him even more. It had been necessary to use the power of their bracelets to make a sort of makeshift renovation for the girls to move in.
But where their bedroom doors should have been was the unmistakable sight of the apartment's bland colored walls. No door. No handle. No Rei. No Mana.
Panic was beginning to take hold. He didn't have a clue what was going on. Where was everybody?
Running to the apartment door, he swiped his keycard. The door's automatic systems were offline. Grabbing the manual release, Shinji shifted the surprisingly heavy door open and took a look outside.
...Or what was left of it.
A destroyed world greeted his view. A blood-red sky illuminated destroyed apartment buildings and collapsed skyscrapers over what should have been the view of Tokyo-3. Looking around the building he was currently in, he was genuinely surprised Misato's apartment block was still standing. Everything bar their apartment was in total ruins.
Girders were pointing out of huge holes in the structure, as though huge bullets or something similar had torn chunks out of the architecture.
But the most disturbing thing was easily the huge, alien looking hand that was resting on a good portion of the building. That entire side of the building the giant, severed limb was resting on was caked in what looked like a ton of blood. What scared him more than anything else, was that he vaguely recognized that hand from somewhere.
His whole body shaking, he picked his way closer to the hand, across the external balcony of their apartment building. Dodging countless holes and debris was difficult, but he made it to the other side, trying his hardest not to breathe in the smell of death and rot the blue and slightly black, robotic looking hand was giving off. Leaning over the edge of the balcony, he peered over to see if the hand was connected to anything.
And saw Mana's Evangelion Unit 00, albeit it being easily taller than the apartment building, and looking as though something had been eating it.
"W-what the hell is going on?" Shinji whispered, horrified by the titanic, robotic corpse in front of him. "What... why... Why is an Evangelion... here!?"
After somehow making his way out of the building, he slowly walked over to the head of the downed beast. Or what was left of it at least. Half of what he could assume was a skull was protruding from the giant robots helmet. It apparently used to have a single, cyclopedic eye too, though god only knew where that had gone, leaving a black, gaping abyss in its place.
Some distance away, Shinji noticed something else. A long, somewhat thin, cylindrical tube was lying on the ground, easily enough to fit a human inside, if not a few. Some sort of hatch was open on the tube. A terrifying sense of dread raced through him, as his feet slowly dragged his way towards the tube. He was more scared than he had ever been in his life. Partly due to the fact that he felt an incredible amount of familiarity when he saw the strange object.
Like he had seen it before somewhere.
But even though his memories from eight years ago were kind of fuzzy, he could clearly remember Mana hadn't shown him anything else with her toy Evangelions. He certainly didn't remember a tube-like object from back then. So why did he feel he knew what it was?
The hatch had opened facing the sky. After some difficulty, Shinji managed to pile some debris together, enough to help him make a stand to clamber on top of the metallic tube. Even touching it as he clambered on top left him with that same horrifying sense of familiarity. How on earth did he... recognize this thing!?
Standing on top it the metal hunk, keenly aware that he felt like a tightrope walker taking tentative steps towards his own doom, Shinji slowly made his way forward, aware that a strong gust of wind was threatening to blow him off lest he make any kind of haste. He eventually made it to the opened hatch, and took a very long time convincing himself to look inside.
It was dark, and he noticed a strange liquid pooled at the bottom of the container. Intricately designed machinery was inside, but it was still a little too dark for him to see anything clearly. Taking a deep breath, Shinji climbed into the hatch and let himself down, an audible splash echoing as he landed in whatever the strange liquid was under his feet. His breath was ragged, and he was only faintly aware his pulse was hammering through his chest. He looked up and his breath suddenly got caught in his throat.
Lying in a chair, curled into a fetal position, was another corpse, although it was easy to see that this person had once been human. A skeleton, wrapped in a strange, yet-once-again somewhat familiar suit of white that clung to the body tightly, highlighted with black in certain areas. And from what little he could see of the torso from where he stood, he could easily see the numbers '00' embellished just under the collar.
He should have been running. Run somewhere far, far away. But his whole body was frozen, his eyes unmoving from the corpse, the corpse of someone he was sure he knew.
"W-who are you..." His trembling voice echoed around the inside of the metallic walls.
"She was somebody I failed."
Whirling around, Shinji looked at where the strange, disembodied voice had come from, his pulse skyrocketing as he searched for whoever had just talked behind him.
"WHO ARE YOU!? W-WHERE ARE YOU!?"
"I am you. And I am right beside you."
"DON'T BULLSHIT WITH ME. I CAN'T SEE YOU." Shinji looked around him in a panic. He couldn't see anything. What the hell was going on? And that voice... sounded just like...
Standing on top of the hatch above him, he finally noticed the ghostly-looking boy looking down at him. A boy he instantly recognized, but could barely recognize at all.
The ghost of Shinji Ikari was talking to the living, breathing Shinji Ikari. The ghost was wearing a suit similar to the skeleton was, except it had a purple color scheme, with highlights of green and red.
"W-who... are you?"
"Come with me, and I'll show you."
Clambering out of the hatch, living Shinji once again found himself in the bask of the blood-red sky looming over what was left of Tokyo-3. Ghost Shinji was standing next to him, a tired expression worn over a stretched face. He had dark circles under his eyes, and his suit was torn in several places. What on earth happened?
"I am you. Although it would be a lie to say I am the same you."
"That doesn't make a hell of a lot of sense."
The ghost gave a weak chuckle. It was a depressing sort of noise, full of mirth and depression. It was like looking into a shattered mirror. Warped, and nothing like what Shinji could even imagine. He was looking at a broken version of himself.
"I'm not going to lie, it gets a fair bit weirder from here on out." Broken Shinji still seemed to have a sense of humor, although it was still riddled with a lack of sanity and warmth.
The ghost and Shinji left the metallic tube and starting walking into the ruins of the city. Not a soul was to be found, save for the schoolboy and the literal soul pacing around.
"You still haven't really answered my question."
"Before I answer that, there is something I need to show you. But before I do that, I need to ask you a very important question." The ghost stopped in the middle of a downtown high street, riddled with craters and destroyed buildings. Turning to face the living, the ghost looked grim.
"Do you believe in God?"
They continued to walk. Shinji was beginning to recognize parts of the city, at least from what was left of it. But there were some parts he didn't. Putting aside the destroyed remnants of huge artillery guns stationed at various parts of the city, and what looked like destroyed military tanks and VTOLs littering the streets, there were also signs pointing to evacuation shelters. Looking around him answered quite plainly that at some point they had been necessary, but in his Tokyo-3, he'd never seen any of those signs. Aside from earthquake-related shelters, but they didn't look anywhere near as hi-tech as some of the destroyed shelters they'd walked past. It was as though they were built to repel nuclear blasts, or some other weapon of mass destruction. And had failed.
"This is seriously messed up... What the hell happened..." Shinji murmured as they picked their way through the destroyed city.
The ghost was silent, walking towards whatever unknown destination he had in mind. It was frightening, but Shinji had no other choice but to follow his ethereal doppelgänger to wherever this madness ended.
Eventually, they reached what looked like a station. A station leading underground. Written in big letters above the entrance was the words 'GEOFRONT ENTRANCE B-2'. There was also a smaller notice underneath.
Entrance strictly prohibited to NERV personnel only. Unauthorized access will lead to prosecution.
NERV.
"NERV." Shinji whispered. He was sure he had never said the name in his life, but the word fell off his tongue effortlessly. Like it was used to it.
"Let us go." Ghost Shinji said somberly as he walked into the station.
"B-but the sign...!"
"It's alright. There is nobody there now."
Shinji didn't know whether he should feel relieved or even more scared by that. Where was everybody?
The inside felt like some sort of crazy military base. Metallic walls, riddled with what looked like gunshots and bloodstains continued down towards a broken sliding door, embellished with what looked like a logo of some kind. It was hard to make out from all the beating the door had taken, but he could clearly make out 'NERV' in red, along with something like a slogan circled around it.
"Gods in his heaven..." Shinji voiced with trembling nerves.
"...All's right with the world. Ha." The ghost finished with a bitter laugh. "Nothing's right with the world. Nothing..."
They walked a little further in, and came across what looked like a tram, with it's tracks leading deeper into the underground. It was surprisingly a lot less damaged than the rest of what Shinji had seen so far. Entering into the train, Shinji followed his ghost, looking apprehensively at the vehicle around him.
"I bet there's no power left, but maybe we'll be lucky. Grab that lever for me."
"What? Why me?"
"It'll be kind of hard to make this thing move when I can no longer touch anything." The ghost demonstrated his point by trying to grab the lever, and his hand simply passing through it. With his point taken, Shinji grimaced and pulled the lever. After a moment's uncertainty, there was a jolt as the train's deep slumber was interrupted, it's internals groaning in protest as the train began a slow descent into the darkness.
"What do you know, apparently there is some power left. I hope there's enough for a return trip." The ghost laughed mirthlessly, giving Shinji another reason to panic.
"Don't joke about that! Where are we going anyway!?" The laugh left the ghosts face quickly, and something like anger flashed over his face.
"Into the heart of everything. Where everything began, and everything ended."
Light flashed past the windows as the view suddenly expanded from jet-black. Shinji gasped in terror at what should have been a beautiful sight, but was now a wasteland. Greenland was now dyed red from huge amounts of blood, there was destruction and debris everywhere, and Shinji saw the remnants of what looked like a pyramid erected in the center.
But what caught his attention was the sight of another gigantic Evangelion. It was bright red, and had an embellished number of 02. Half of it's head was missing, several of it's remaining eyes had been gouged out, leaving only a single green eye remaining. It's arms and legs had been severed and even from the considerable distance they were, Shinji could still make out a meaty cross-section from the severed limbs.
The quick glance he had seen suddenly made his stomach lurch, and he was almost thankful the destroyed scenery had been blotted out as the train made its way through another tunnel.
"Heh. I don't think you'll be holding on to your lunch anyway, we'll need to go see Unit 02 up close."
"Are you joking!? Why?!"
"We need to go visit the grave of another I failed."
"Aren't you a ball of sunshine." Shinji thought grimly as the train pulled into a stop. After a considerably long walk across the destroyed ruins outside, Shinji looked up to realize he could see the sky, even though they had travelled what felt like miles underground.
"You never used to be able to see the sky. But after the Geofront was destroyed, well..." Ghost Shinji didn't have to explain. The blood-red sky peering at them from their giant hideaway hole was answer enough.
After a short while, they made it to the corpse of the red giant. Corpse felt like fitting word for a robot that apparently had blood, muscles and bones, like the ones Shinji could visibly see sticking out from the red Unit 02. He looked at his own terrified reflection from the single, lifeless eye left on the towering robot.
"What happened to you..." Shinji's mind echoed the question, along with the million other questions he needed answering about the state of the world he was in. The only one who could answer his questions had walked away, towards another tube-like object that he had found earlier. This time the hatch was open on it's side, allowing the ghost Shinji to simply walk inside.
Not looking forward to it, living Shinji followed him in.
And found another corpse. This time not in the fetal position, but lying back on the chair, it's hands still grabbing the two joysticks, the skull's morbid smile grinning at the terrified boy. Shinji spotted the same '02' markings as was on the Evangelion's body outside. But the number was quickly forgotten as he paid more attention to the skeleton's face, and noticed a pair of crimson head accessories where the hair should have been. Head accessories that looked an awful lot like the ones...
"A-Asu...ka...?!" A scared whimper escaped from him as Shinji took a step backwards, the liquid on the floor splashing loudly.
"That is correct. The second girl I failed." His ghost was looking at the corpse, an unreadable expression on his face.
"Asuka Langley Soryu. The Pilot of Evangelion Unit 02."
Shinji was beyond shocked. His mind was getting closer and closer to a nervous breakdown, but he still had one, excruciatingly painful question to ask.
"W-was that other... c-c-corpse we saw e-earlier...?"
"Rei Ayanami. The Pilot of Evangelion Unit 00."
"N-no... Asuka... Rei... NO!" Shinji wanted to scream, he wanted to throw up, he wanted to curl up in a ball, or run away or anything to stop this nightmare unravelling around him.
"A-and Misato?! Mana Kirishima?! My parents?!" Shinji could barely whisper. He didn't want to hear, but he needed to know.
"Misato is dead. My mother died when I was four years old, in what was known as a 'Contact Experiment'. My father..." The ghost looked ready to murder at the mention of their shared father.
"My father. Gendo Ikari." The ghost looked horrifyingly angry. Shinji backed away slowly, eyes wide, shivering in raw fear.
"Gendo Ikari is the man who helped me destroy the world."
His fear had become numb. The shock of those words turned off everything in his brain except the echo of his ghost's last words reverberating around his mind. His father, had helped me, destroy... the world?
"But I'm curious. You mentioned another..." The ghost turned around to face him, his anger replaced by curiosity.
"Who is Mana Kirishima?"
Shinji's mental collapse was temporarily halted by the next revelation thrown at him from his crazy ghost. What do you mean, who was Mana Kirishima?
"We... wait, what? You don't know Mana?" The ghost shook his head, cocking his head to one side, as though he'd forgotten something and was trying to remember.
"She's about yay-tall, deep red hair, cerulean eyes?"
"Are you sure that isn't Asuka?"
"No! Mana had short hair, was a much deeper shade of red than Asuka, not orange."
"Hmmm..." The ghost looked thoughtful. "I've never known someone like that. Not in this world."
"In... this world?"
Ghost Shinji clambered out of the tube's hatch, after taking one last look at Asuka's corpse, nodding with what looked like a silent promise.
"It's time I told you the reason you were brought here. There isn't much time, and as you can see, this world ran out of time. Way before it's time."
Shinji clambered out of the tube, himself taking one last terrified look at the grinning remains of what was a girl he cared about in his own world. Standing on the Geofront's blood-red burnt wasteland, he felt a strange wind blow through the place as he faced his ghost.
"Let me tell you the tale of the boy who became God, and the man who destroyed the world."
A long time had passed. Ghost Shinji explained his life from the very beginning. And from the sounds of things, had experienced a very different life to the one the living Shinji Ikari had experienced.
The Evangelions, who in his world were only the figment of a hyperactive six-year-old's imagination, were titanic weapons used to defend the world from alien 'Angels', intent on wiping out all life on the planet in this one.
His father had apparently been a basket case, using the pretense of fighting these 'Angels' as an excuse to use the potential awakening and deification of an Evangelion to wish his dead wife, and Shinji's mother, back to life. His mother, who was also trapped inside the core of Evangelion Unit-01, and powering it with her own soul.
Then it appeared Rei Ayanami was some sort of hybrid between an Angel herself, and a clone of his dead mother, to which countless 'replacements' had existed. She was to be used in something called the 'Human Instrumentality Project', relating to the existence of a dark organization called 'Seele', intending to turn all of humanity into a mass, conglomerated soul, in an effort to preserve humanity, for everyone to become one with each other, and to force humanity to evolve past it's apparent boundaries.
Not to mention that this world's Shinji Ikari had apparently been abandoned by his father not long after his mother died at some nameless train station, raised by a teacher, and was practically alone for the majority of his life.
And in the end, the dark plans that would destroy the world had succeeded. But in a very different way to how Gendo Ikari and Seele had imagined.
It appeared that in this fight, the Angels had won. Terminal Dogma, the lowest level of what had been NERV headquarters had been breached. Housing a captured Angel known as Lilith, it had been the purpose of the 'Children' to defend her, not knowing their true purpose for fighting.
But the mission had failed. As per orders of Misato Katsuragi, the Operational Director of NERV, ranking under his father, the central complex had been set to self-destruct. Lilith, Misato, his father, the attacking Angel and everybody who worked there had been vaporized. And not long after Asuka and Rei had failed in their own fight against the Angel, dying on the battlefield.
The only one left standing, piloting Unit-01, the Shinji Ikari of this world went insane, awakening to his powers, and ended up destroying the world in the process. Any who was alive had turned into a liquid known as LCL, their soul binding with others who had perished, into a ball of souls that now floated above the surface of the world, for eternity.
"That... is utterly insane."
"When I came to my senses, Unit-01 was empty, a lifeless husk. The soul of my mother just vanished, and starting from then, I was the only one left, not even alive, wandering the surface of this broken world. As alone as I had been that day father left me at that train station years ago."
"But... " Shinji hesitated. "Why are you...?"
"Why am I still here, and not together with the rest of the souls?" Ghost Shinji looked up at the blood-red sky.
"I think... it's the Curse of the Eva."
In many ways, his answer made no sense at all. But in some ways, Shinji could understand. But he still couldn't understand why, after hearing his counterpart's story, he could believe the tale as easily as he could. As though a part of him had actually been here, experiencing the same things.
"That's because I am you. And so are the other Shinji Ikari's in all the other world's that exist out there." Another hard-to-understand answer.
"When I achieved the power of a deity, I saw something. I was going through, as you can imagine, an incredible amount of emotional stress, but I clearly saw other worlds. Other Shinji Ikari's. Some of them were fighting the same fight I was. Some of them had won the fight and experienced a happy-ever-after. Some world's, like your own, didn't even experience the horror's and lived a relatively peaceful life, a normal life." His ghost looked wistful at the end.
"But for the world's that failed. For the worlds that didn't get a happy ending, what's left to do? How do I atone for destroying a world through insanity, and redo everything?"
Shinji looked worried as his ghost turned to him, a somewhat evil grin on his face.
"And that is the reason you are here. You, a being who is me from another world, have the power to fix what was broken. You are the hope that can save the souls circulating the planet, and return everything back to the way it was." Ignoring the living Shinji's jaw drop to the floor, the ghost continued.
"You are my only hope."
After several minutes of blind shock and his brain attempting to process everything he had just heard, he had only one question for his crazy reflection.
"How!?"
"Shinji! SHINJI! Wake up, stupid idiot! We're going to be late for school!"
A familiar voice was shouting at him. His mind felt groggy, like he hadn't slept for over a hundred years. Who was shouting at him?
"Shinji! Come on, get your ass out of bed, we gotta go!" He felt his body being shaken from the shoulders.
"Wait... what?" Shinji blearily opened an eye, and caught a blurry flash of orange hair and a set of bright red hair accessories.
It was her!
Sitting bolt upright in his bed, Shinji reached out and grabbed the suddenly very confused and flushed girl in front of him.
"S-shinji! What are you doing all of a... wait, why are you crying!?"
"Asuka! I'm so... glad..." He didn't care he was probably gunking up her school uniform was snot and tears. "I'm glad... you're... okay..."
"Of course I'm okay... why wouldn't I be?" The flustered girl tried grabbing his shoulders, but Shinji refused to let go. "Shinji, what the hell, did you have a nightmare or something?"
A nightmare...?
It took a few minutes, but eventually Shinji calmed down enough to let Asuka go, much to the annoyance of the two other girls waiting for him at his bedroom door. After making a quick excuse about having to get his clothes on, Shinji stood out of his bed and looked out of his bedroom window to a perfectly crystal clear blue sky. Everything was normal. Asuka, Rei and Mana were all alive, and judging from their reactions, everyone else was okay too. The world hadn't gone mad. Right?
"Was that really a dream? It felt so real..." Shinji murmured as he buttoned up his school shirt, absent-mindedly fiddling with his bracelet as he did so.
"You'd be a fool for thinking that was a dream."
Looking at his own reflection in the mirror, Shinji saw the unmistakeable visage of his ghostly counterpart from the destroyed world standing behind him, grinning madly.
"I look forward to working with you, me."
Misato's entire apartment block echoed with screams of terror.