Chapter Nine
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Chapter Nine
Aura was great. It made me feel energetic. It made me feel capable of doing a hundred thousand push-ups. It also had to be willingly brought to the front of my mind's eye to be used. I could channel it in my body. I could channel it in my weapon. Where it went, it strengthened, it quickened, it made things that seemed impossible happen. And when it ended, I suffered.
If twenty Grimm stepped inside, then twenty Grimm I would face on that day. Learning how to pace oneself was important, apparently, because I wouldn't be allowed respite. There were no breaks. There were no time-outs. When a Beringel slammed one of his fists into my guard and sent me flying for the wall, they wouldn't stop to check if I was still alive, but simply pounce further on the occasion.
When a Boarbatusk would initiate a rolling attack and grind against my armor, sending sparks to fly, they wouldn't stop but instead bite down hard with their tusks on my flesh.
I accrued such a vast quantity of wounds that to call me a patchwork of them wouldn't have been wrong. I survived because of Aura, and because Arthur was actually a pretty good Doctor, provided you didn't piss him off by bleeding all over his research.
There was a certain sense of relief filling my frame when the week came to an end and Hazel and Tyrian returned. The relief was short-lived, because it was replaced with a new sense of nervousness.
I was going to die, or I was going to have to kill someone.
The meeting hall had us all there, though this time both Cinder and I were seated. I had the unfortunate luck of being seated next to Tyrian, while Cinder got lucky with Hazel and Arthur being on her side. Salem stood at the head of the table, as always.
"Goddess, we have completed our mission," Tyrian said with a maniacal smile, "The heathen barely saw us arrive, and we cut him down! Yes, we cut him down and chopped him up and heard him cry and-"
There was a manic glint in Tyrian's eyes as he clasped his hands together while giggling furiously.
"Tyrian," Salem said, firmly but politely, "Well done." She turned her eyes towards Hazel. "Were you seen?"
"No," Hazel said. "We were not discovered. Leonardo sent them away from the city for us to ambush."
Salem nodded. "Then, pick your next target carefully, and bring Shade with you," she gestured at me, and I swallowed as I felt Tyrian's gaze settle on me. It was far more terrifying than that of Hazel, who seemed simply uncaring about it. "He is to deliver the final blow. I will be incredibly displeased, Tyrian, if you take the opportunity away from young Shade to prove his loyalty." Her eyes narrowed, and Tyrian shuddered, from sheer grief I reckoned. "There is to be no hesitation," she added next. "He will prove his loyalty on this mission, or he will die."
Cinder swallowed nervously from her side, but said nothing. Her eyes stared into mine, silently pleading me to do exactly as was said, and I looked back at her with a chagrined expression.
Perhaps the man or woman we'd be charged to kill would be an evil huntsman. Maybe someone who used their powers irresponsibly, to make the world a more horrible place. Maybe they were some kind of arrogant, racist jerk. That would be the most optimal solution. I mean, if Salem wanted to convert me to her cause, then showing me the kind of horrible things evil huntsmen could do would be the best possible solution.
Anyone with half a brain would do that, but then my loyalty would remain in question. If she was measuring my loyalty, then perhaps having me kill some kind of loving huntsman who was a father or a mother to someone would be better. It would arguably be hell for me, but-
"Don't think about them," Hazel said as he realized I was actually pretty much torn over the entire issue, walking by his side while Tyrian had gone ahead. The meeting had ended, and we had our mission to get to. "Kill them because you must. Do not ask yourself anything else."
"But what if-"
"Do not think about that," Hazel answered flatly, quietly looking at me. "They are no more than corpses that walk. If not us, then others will come anyway. You are merely the instrument, the tool that can be used or discarded for another."
I swallowed my replies, because they wouldn't change anything.
Hazel was right on a certain level. These people would die all the same. They were already dead by the time Canon timeline would come around. I wasn't technically needed to kill them. I wasn't drowning my hands in the blood of people-I was just...I was just stabbing corpses that still walked.
I could see it like that.
Oh, who was I kidding. I didn't want to see it that way.
It was true that they would die anyway. They'd be crawling on the ground, perhaps with their bodies broken, and then I'd have to stab them or let Tyrian and Hazel do it before they'd then proceed to kill me in turn. If it had been just Hazel, maybe he might have been convinced to lie -but Salem would have probably found out.
No, the only way to make it was to do the kill myself.
Salem would probably know if I didn't return with feelings of shame and guilt within me.
And if I didn't return at all, Cinder would probably take it hard.
The airship that left Salem's domain was quiet as it floated through the air. I stood on the deck, looking at the land beneath us go by. The dead land transformed into green, lush jungles after a certain point, high cliffs and barren wastelands rife with crystals and Grimm acting as an invisible natural barrier.
Nevermore flocks flew in the air around us, Griffin and Sphinxes as well as many other Grimm of various, yet terrifying nature. They were the guardians of the land of Destruction, and some of them had bodies fully encased in their white bone armors, signaling they were as old as Remnant itself.
I had little doubt that anyone seeing such monstrosities would lose hope in mankind's future. Now that I could look around with ease, no longer clutching on to a Nevermore for safe passage, I could see that the path to Salem's domain was hard and tortuous, and the Grimm would stop anyone mad enough to attempt it.
"If you think about jumping out," Tyrian cackled, having quietly appeared from behind me, "I'll let you reach the ground before hunting you down like the traitorous animal you would be," he giggled with the face of a true madman, his scorpion tail twitching behind him, the stinger gleaming with poison. "Then I would bring your severed head back to the Goddess, and she would show it to your friend, wouldn't she? And then she'd scream oh, I wonder if she'd scream," Tyrian laughed loudly at that. His scorpion tail slithered around me, coming to a halt by the other side of my face. "Or I could let my poison do the work. Leave you to die, eaten alive by the Grimm."
I clenched my fists. "You're the fun soul at the party, aren't you?"
"Oh? Oh oh oh!" Tyrian laughed, "I am! I always bring a lot of laughter to the parties I attend," he snickered, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Hazel's no fun because he doesn't talk much. Just remember-we are not friends, we are not allies. We are fellow servants of the Goddess."
I looked at him. "We are, aren't we?" I muttered. An idea formed in my head. My right hand went to the handle of my sword. "We should train, then, shouldn't we?"
Tyrian's eyes widened as he jumped back, his shoulders twitching from hilarity. "Train!? Train! Ha!" he laughed, a wicked smile on his face. His scorpion tail rattled behind him. "Don't blame me if you die."
I brought my sword in front of me. "Likewise-"
"If you break the airship, we will have to steal another and Salem will not be pleased," Hazel's voice grumbled. "Once we land in Mistral, then we can find somewhere you can fight."
The plan for my escape was simple.
I just had to become stronger than Tyrian, I just had to become stronger than Hazel.
I just had to become stronger than them both combined, and then break free.
Unfortunately, one couldn't just swallow back his words once spoken.
That was why I ended up hurting all over, my body wrecked and my soul actually on fire, not ten hours later. The clearing where we'd be camping was just outside the city of Mistral, and as Hazel had promptly decided to procure wood for the fire and wild game for dinner, I was beaten black and blue and even various shades of purple and red in-between.
Tyrian laughed through it all.
His laughter grated on my nerves more than anything else.
"You just keep trying!" he snickered. "Your efforts are so adorably worthless!" he swatted me down with his tail, before jumping and landing a twin kick into my guts. He crouched atop me, his full weight making me hiss from pain. His face was inches away from mine. "I'd love to cut you in pieces, you know that?" he hissed into my ear. "But the Goddess doesn't want that. Not yet." He tapped the tip of his fingers together. "Oh, how I hope you won't do her commands. Your blasphemy will bring me much joy as I cut you apart!"
I slammed my free left hand against the ground, grasping for the dirt. His tail slammed down on my wrist, and then he hopped off. I couldn't move anymore.
I had to move, but I couldn't.
Come on, my body. Move.
Move.
And move it did as every fiber screamed. It moved as every muscle burned. "Still here," I hissed, my breathing harsh as my vision swam. Sweat dribbled from my forehead. I clutched my knee as I got back on my feet. "Didn't even...feel it."
Tyrian was already coming in for another kick in my sides, when Hazel arrived with a dead dear over his shoulder, and the Faunus-assassin stopped.
"After dinner, we can go again," he snickered. "I'll never tire of beating you up, don't worry."
I tightened my hands into fists from sheer frustration. "One day."
Tyrian laughed, "But not today~" he said with a sing-song voice.
And that day it would not be.
That week, it would not be.
My hands tightened the grip on the handle of my sword at the end of the week, and the pact with the demon known as Salem was sealed with the blood of a huntsman that I did not wish to know anything about, neither the good, nor the bad. Hazel's words stung, Tyrian's laughter echoed in my skull like a most horrifying cacophony, and our return had Salem simply smile.
She smiled at the guilt that poured over me, and she smiled even further at the clenching of my fists and at the ferocity of my training afterwards.
She didn't send me on further missions with them.
She saw no further point.
When push came to shove, I had chosen to do as she had commanded.
My loyalty, for the time being, was proven.
My bitterness was the catalyst of my training, and she knew that too. Perhaps she had foreseen it, perhaps she had planned it, perhaps she had realized that the only way to get me to the very best of my abilities was to frustrate me with my own powerlessness.
I was fifteen years of age when she deemed it righteous to send me on another mission.
I would not be going alone, though.
Cinder would be in command.
"I have no doubts you will obey her as you would obey me," Salem spoke with an amused smile, knowing fully well what her words would have on my thoughts.
I said nothing. I just nodded very slowly, as if giving the impression of reverence whereas there was none within me to be found.
What I was surprised on was what we would end up having to do.
"We're to steal funds?" I muttered.
"Yes," Cinder explained calmly as I looked at the large Nevermore that would bring us to the outskirts of Mistral, and that we'd have to ride. "There is...something to come, and we will need funding for certain parts of it."
"So we're going to rob a bank?" I asked, extending a hand to help settle Cinder atop the Nevermore before climbing behind her.
"Something of the sorts," Cinder acquiesced. "Just do what I say, Shade."
"You're the boss," I mused.
Her hands tightened on the Nevermore, and I couldn't help but feel a slight bout of nervousness from her. "Yeah," she said. "I am."
She didn't sound convinced of it, though.
Then again, perhaps her nervousness was just my imagination?
Still, to send us both alone, wasn't Salem going to wonder if we'd run-wait.
Ah. I got it.
If we attempted running, we'd be hunted and killed, or maybe Cinder herself had been tasked with killing me if I attempted to run for it. This was Salem giving us a slightly longer leash, and seeing if we'd follow through with it or not. Maybe Tyrian would secretly shadow us, or even Hazel.
There was little choice then, at least, if I wanted to play a better card in the future, I'd need to play the game for the time being.
Stealing wasn't that bad of a thing anyway.
When compared to murder...
...many other things were the lesser evil anyway.
Aura was great. It made me feel energetic. It made me feel capable of doing a hundred thousand push-ups. It also had to be willingly brought to the front of my mind's eye to be used. I could channel it in my body. I could channel it in my weapon. Where it went, it strengthened, it quickened, it made things that seemed impossible happen. And when it ended, I suffered.
If twenty Grimm stepped inside, then twenty Grimm I would face on that day. Learning how to pace oneself was important, apparently, because I wouldn't be allowed respite. There were no breaks. There were no time-outs. When a Beringel slammed one of his fists into my guard and sent me flying for the wall, they wouldn't stop to check if I was still alive, but simply pounce further on the occasion.
When a Boarbatusk would initiate a rolling attack and grind against my armor, sending sparks to fly, they wouldn't stop but instead bite down hard with their tusks on my flesh.
I accrued such a vast quantity of wounds that to call me a patchwork of them wouldn't have been wrong. I survived because of Aura, and because Arthur was actually a pretty good Doctor, provided you didn't piss him off by bleeding all over his research.
There was a certain sense of relief filling my frame when the week came to an end and Hazel and Tyrian returned. The relief was short-lived, because it was replaced with a new sense of nervousness.
I was going to die, or I was going to have to kill someone.
The meeting hall had us all there, though this time both Cinder and I were seated. I had the unfortunate luck of being seated next to Tyrian, while Cinder got lucky with Hazel and Arthur being on her side. Salem stood at the head of the table, as always.
"Goddess, we have completed our mission," Tyrian said with a maniacal smile, "The heathen barely saw us arrive, and we cut him down! Yes, we cut him down and chopped him up and heard him cry and-"
There was a manic glint in Tyrian's eyes as he clasped his hands together while giggling furiously.
"Tyrian," Salem said, firmly but politely, "Well done." She turned her eyes towards Hazel. "Were you seen?"
"No," Hazel said. "We were not discovered. Leonardo sent them away from the city for us to ambush."
Salem nodded. "Then, pick your next target carefully, and bring Shade with you," she gestured at me, and I swallowed as I felt Tyrian's gaze settle on me. It was far more terrifying than that of Hazel, who seemed simply uncaring about it. "He is to deliver the final blow. I will be incredibly displeased, Tyrian, if you take the opportunity away from young Shade to prove his loyalty." Her eyes narrowed, and Tyrian shuddered, from sheer grief I reckoned. "There is to be no hesitation," she added next. "He will prove his loyalty on this mission, or he will die."
Cinder swallowed nervously from her side, but said nothing. Her eyes stared into mine, silently pleading me to do exactly as was said, and I looked back at her with a chagrined expression.
Perhaps the man or woman we'd be charged to kill would be an evil huntsman. Maybe someone who used their powers irresponsibly, to make the world a more horrible place. Maybe they were some kind of arrogant, racist jerk. That would be the most optimal solution. I mean, if Salem wanted to convert me to her cause, then showing me the kind of horrible things evil huntsmen could do would be the best possible solution.
Anyone with half a brain would do that, but then my loyalty would remain in question. If she was measuring my loyalty, then perhaps having me kill some kind of loving huntsman who was a father or a mother to someone would be better. It would arguably be hell for me, but-
"Don't think about them," Hazel said as he realized I was actually pretty much torn over the entire issue, walking by his side while Tyrian had gone ahead. The meeting had ended, and we had our mission to get to. "Kill them because you must. Do not ask yourself anything else."
"But what if-"
"Do not think about that," Hazel answered flatly, quietly looking at me. "They are no more than corpses that walk. If not us, then others will come anyway. You are merely the instrument, the tool that can be used or discarded for another."
I swallowed my replies, because they wouldn't change anything.
Hazel was right on a certain level. These people would die all the same. They were already dead by the time Canon timeline would come around. I wasn't technically needed to kill them. I wasn't drowning my hands in the blood of people-I was just...I was just stabbing corpses that still walked.
I could see it like that.
Oh, who was I kidding. I didn't want to see it that way.
It was true that they would die anyway. They'd be crawling on the ground, perhaps with their bodies broken, and then I'd have to stab them or let Tyrian and Hazel do it before they'd then proceed to kill me in turn. If it had been just Hazel, maybe he might have been convinced to lie -but Salem would have probably found out.
No, the only way to make it was to do the kill myself.
Salem would probably know if I didn't return with feelings of shame and guilt within me.
And if I didn't return at all, Cinder would probably take it hard.
The airship that left Salem's domain was quiet as it floated through the air. I stood on the deck, looking at the land beneath us go by. The dead land transformed into green, lush jungles after a certain point, high cliffs and barren wastelands rife with crystals and Grimm acting as an invisible natural barrier.
Nevermore flocks flew in the air around us, Griffin and Sphinxes as well as many other Grimm of various, yet terrifying nature. They were the guardians of the land of Destruction, and some of them had bodies fully encased in their white bone armors, signaling they were as old as Remnant itself.
I had little doubt that anyone seeing such monstrosities would lose hope in mankind's future. Now that I could look around with ease, no longer clutching on to a Nevermore for safe passage, I could see that the path to Salem's domain was hard and tortuous, and the Grimm would stop anyone mad enough to attempt it.
"If you think about jumping out," Tyrian cackled, having quietly appeared from behind me, "I'll let you reach the ground before hunting you down like the traitorous animal you would be," he giggled with the face of a true madman, his scorpion tail twitching behind him, the stinger gleaming with poison. "Then I would bring your severed head back to the Goddess, and she would show it to your friend, wouldn't she? And then she'd scream oh, I wonder if she'd scream," Tyrian laughed loudly at that. His scorpion tail slithered around me, coming to a halt by the other side of my face. "Or I could let my poison do the work. Leave you to die, eaten alive by the Grimm."
I clenched my fists. "You're the fun soul at the party, aren't you?"
"Oh? Oh oh oh!" Tyrian laughed, "I am! I always bring a lot of laughter to the parties I attend," he snickered, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Hazel's no fun because he doesn't talk much. Just remember-we are not friends, we are not allies. We are fellow servants of the Goddess."
I looked at him. "We are, aren't we?" I muttered. An idea formed in my head. My right hand went to the handle of my sword. "We should train, then, shouldn't we?"
Tyrian's eyes widened as he jumped back, his shoulders twitching from hilarity. "Train!? Train! Ha!" he laughed, a wicked smile on his face. His scorpion tail rattled behind him. "Don't blame me if you die."
I brought my sword in front of me. "Likewise-"
"If you break the airship, we will have to steal another and Salem will not be pleased," Hazel's voice grumbled. "Once we land in Mistral, then we can find somewhere you can fight."
The plan for my escape was simple.
I just had to become stronger than Tyrian, I just had to become stronger than Hazel.
I just had to become stronger than them both combined, and then break free.
Unfortunately, one couldn't just swallow back his words once spoken.
That was why I ended up hurting all over, my body wrecked and my soul actually on fire, not ten hours later. The clearing where we'd be camping was just outside the city of Mistral, and as Hazel had promptly decided to procure wood for the fire and wild game for dinner, I was beaten black and blue and even various shades of purple and red in-between.
Tyrian laughed through it all.
His laughter grated on my nerves more than anything else.
"You just keep trying!" he snickered. "Your efforts are so adorably worthless!" he swatted me down with his tail, before jumping and landing a twin kick into my guts. He crouched atop me, his full weight making me hiss from pain. His face was inches away from mine. "I'd love to cut you in pieces, you know that?" he hissed into my ear. "But the Goddess doesn't want that. Not yet." He tapped the tip of his fingers together. "Oh, how I hope you won't do her commands. Your blasphemy will bring me much joy as I cut you apart!"
I slammed my free left hand against the ground, grasping for the dirt. His tail slammed down on my wrist, and then he hopped off. I couldn't move anymore.
I had to move, but I couldn't.
Come on, my body. Move.
Move.
And move it did as every fiber screamed. It moved as every muscle burned. "Still here," I hissed, my breathing harsh as my vision swam. Sweat dribbled from my forehead. I clutched my knee as I got back on my feet. "Didn't even...feel it."
Tyrian was already coming in for another kick in my sides, when Hazel arrived with a dead dear over his shoulder, and the Faunus-assassin stopped.
"After dinner, we can go again," he snickered. "I'll never tire of beating you up, don't worry."
I tightened my hands into fists from sheer frustration. "One day."
Tyrian laughed, "But not today~" he said with a sing-song voice.
And that day it would not be.
That week, it would not be.
My hands tightened the grip on the handle of my sword at the end of the week, and the pact with the demon known as Salem was sealed with the blood of a huntsman that I did not wish to know anything about, neither the good, nor the bad. Hazel's words stung, Tyrian's laughter echoed in my skull like a most horrifying cacophony, and our return had Salem simply smile.
She smiled at the guilt that poured over me, and she smiled even further at the clenching of my fists and at the ferocity of my training afterwards.
She didn't send me on further missions with them.
She saw no further point.
When push came to shove, I had chosen to do as she had commanded.
My loyalty, for the time being, was proven.
My bitterness was the catalyst of my training, and she knew that too. Perhaps she had foreseen it, perhaps she had planned it, perhaps she had realized that the only way to get me to the very best of my abilities was to frustrate me with my own powerlessness.
I was fifteen years of age when she deemed it righteous to send me on another mission.
I would not be going alone, though.
Cinder would be in command.
"I have no doubts you will obey her as you would obey me," Salem spoke with an amused smile, knowing fully well what her words would have on my thoughts.
I said nothing. I just nodded very slowly, as if giving the impression of reverence whereas there was none within me to be found.
What I was surprised on was what we would end up having to do.
"We're to steal funds?" I muttered.
"Yes," Cinder explained calmly as I looked at the large Nevermore that would bring us to the outskirts of Mistral, and that we'd have to ride. "There is...something to come, and we will need funding for certain parts of it."
"So we're going to rob a bank?" I asked, extending a hand to help settle Cinder atop the Nevermore before climbing behind her.
"Something of the sorts," Cinder acquiesced. "Just do what I say, Shade."
"You're the boss," I mused.
Her hands tightened on the Nevermore, and I couldn't help but feel a slight bout of nervousness from her. "Yeah," she said. "I am."
She didn't sound convinced of it, though.
Then again, perhaps her nervousness was just my imagination?
Still, to send us both alone, wasn't Salem going to wonder if we'd run-wait.
Ah. I got it.
If we attempted running, we'd be hunted and killed, or maybe Cinder herself had been tasked with killing me if I attempted to run for it. This was Salem giving us a slightly longer leash, and seeing if we'd follow through with it or not. Maybe Tyrian would secretly shadow us, or even Hazel.
There was little choice then, at least, if I wanted to play a better card in the future, I'd need to play the game for the time being.
Stealing wasn't that bad of a thing anyway.
When compared to murder...
...many other things were the lesser evil anyway.