[X] Why can't people just let you destroy all the stupid dangerous things! That's all you're good for anyways! Destroying everything! They have no right to claim they should be protecting you when your kill count is at least ten times greater then the entire population of the campus!
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You turn your head to face Hakase, a snarl on your face. As if she would understand. She wants you to tell her what happened? Fine, you'll tell her.
"This place is filled with idiots," you start. "They want to protect me? Protect other people?"
You snap your tongue in derision.
"Pathetic. They can't do anything if they aren't willing to stain their hands."
Hakase's eyes are wide, opened in surprise at what you say, and more importantly, how you say it. You usually are careful around her; you know she hates war and suffering, and so you don't talk about your point of view often. Right now, however, you want her to be shocked, to see you for what you are and to hate you.
You can't destroy your enemies, so you'll just destroy everything close to you.
Slowly, you rise to your feet, your arms dangling like those of a broken doll.
"And if they don't want that to happen, they could just let me do what needs to be done. Hah. It's not like it'd change anything for me," you add as you raise one hand in front of your eyes, as if to look at the blood metaphorically covering it. "I could walk through this campus time and time again, and see every single person who lives, works or simply passes through, and it wouldn't equal even a thousandth of the people I killed."
"Nova, what are you-" Hakase says in a pleading voice, raising an arm in your direction and taking a hesitant step forward before you interrupt her by slapping her hand away.
"Don't touch me!" you shout, your voice half breaking. "You… I have no place here. I don't know what I should do. I… I want to protect everyone, but I can't. I… I don't..."
Hakase cradles her hand, a hurt expression on her face. You curl on yourself as you don't even know what you wanted to do anymore. This… this isn't what you wanted. Then, Hakase's expression hardens, she steels herself and she takes one step purposefully so she's right in front of you. Close as she is, you see she's lit by a purplish glow.
You've never seen her like this. She looks furious.
"Well, maybe if you opened yourself a bit, people could understand you," she hisses, before adding "And maybe if you talked to your freaking girlfriend, maybe she could help you!"
She kneels down to get on the same level as you, before hesitantly putting her arms around you.
"I... can't visualise the quantity of people you had to kill, if that isn't an exaggeration, and… and maybe that makes me a bad person, but I don't care about them. I don't know them, I haven't seen them die, but I know you. And… and I know you're not as bad as you think," she finishes by whispering. "Still… you can't continue like this. I didn't say anything because you didn't look like you wanted to talk about it, so I'm probably at fault too, but this isn't the first time I know you… followed your old habits. There was at least Kyoto, and Kaede told me something happened in the mountains before that."
You gasp as she says that. This… this and that are different. You had to take actions these times. Konoka was kidnapped! And the child needed to train! This and that are two different things. You were doing ok at the time.
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[] It was completely different, you're wrong. I'm just annoyed right now, but this definitely isn't a recurrent problem.
[] Damn, she's right. If you'd been allowed to get the dragon, it would have been just the same…
[] The problem clearly is that you weren't allowed to do what is needed, not that you know what is needed.
[] I really don't like the direction this conversation is taking so I'll just leave right now.
[] I really don't like the direction this conversation is taking so I'll just close myself to the world right now.
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