-The World is Empty
The soft sounds of cicada's buzzing fills the late summer night. The silver moon looks down on you, as you look out across the court yard. You had seen it, for a moment, how to bring forth the state of mu-no-shin, or no mind fully, but even now, you can't fully let go. Its not that you're unwilling to see the world, but if anything you're too aware of it, of how it will swallow you whole if you let it.
That isn't why you are out here though. Yukiko had confirmed what Kyoko said. That you had been altered almost a year ago now, in a way that they did not know how to fix. It made your ability to progress, seemingly limitless, but it had a price. As you drove yourself harder, and further, your body would slowly begin to deteriorate.
You still haven't figured out how to feel about that. The Kakita have for literally centuries, meditated on the impermanence of beauty. The cherry blossoms fly away, the snows melt, even Doji no kami faded away into sea foam. So to does any perfection that the individual achieves, but that makes it no less meaningful. At least that's what you want to tell yourself.
"Zeni for your thoughts?" Jubei asks sitting down beside you.
Between you and him, he places a bottle of sake and two cups, pouring one for each of you.
"Brother Jubei...." You quickly bow to the old monk.
Well monk assassin/conspirator? Well he's still your mentor such as it is now.
"None of that. You seem troubled." He says.
"I am alright, forgive me for worrying you."
He shakes his head, and offers you the sake cup.
"Kampai" he says.
"Kampai!" You respond.
The smooth liquor burns ever so gently down your throat as you finish the glass in one gulp. You aren't exactly a drinker, but the familiar taste of sake still brings out nostalgic feelings in you. Jubei's sake wasn't the best you tasted. But then you cannot expect a conspirator turned monk to have access to the same vintages as the Kakita daimyo.
"Thank you Brother Jubei." You say, placing your glass down.
"Welcome." He says refilling it and his own.
A silence falls over you both for a time. The sake slowly building it's warmth in your stomach as you sip it. The moon travelling across the night sky. Its not unpleasant, really, moments like these are also precious.
You're on your third cup of sake when Jubei speaks again.
"Well, you don't have to talk to me about it if you don't want to. But keep in mind, I am a Monk of the Order of Heroes. Part of my duties is to guide troubled young souls into being heroes." He says.
Thinking on that for a moment, you decide to at least talk to him.
"I suppose my soul is troubled...but then what ronin's is not?" You ask.
"Hmm, are you a ronin though?"
Your eyes narrow.
"Of course I am." You say.
Jubei shrugs out of the corner of your eye.
"Perhaps...but there are ronin, and there are ronin. The first are forever scrambling to not be ronin, and in the depths of their own minds, they aren't. They're still the people they were before they became ronin...or the people they should be. Their spirit finds no peace in the waves. The second, while they may wish to return to home, or to have a home, accept their position, they know that they will always be in some way, the masterless Samurai whose own honour was the only guide. Yet, they are at peace with that."
You understand his meaning. Of course you wanted to go back to being Kakita Sakura. An impossible dream is better than no dream at all. Yet, for now, you couldn't change that you were a ronin, no clan, no name, only your sword and your honour to guide you.
"I am Megumi the Ronin, whatever my past, whatever my heart. That is not something I can change right now." You say.
"But you look to change it in the future. Isn't that why you're recruiting those around you? To bring home something that is great enough, important enough, that even an indiscretion with a married man, is not enough to keep you from being raised up from being a Ronin" He asks.
You frown, and drink down your sake too quickly. He knew, somehow, he knew who you were before...the little....okay...that's the sake talking. While you were undoubtedly much more skilled than you had been...Jubei could still break your face, no fighting him. Even if he had a point on your motivations...would you have done anything different if you were still Kakita Sakura? Or if you didn't have your grandmother hounding you?
[] No
[] Yes
Anyways, your intentions aside, you'll still give it your all. That's important right?
Jubei takes your silence for what it is and continues.
"Bayushi Sora, Iuchi Yukiko, Togashi Izu, and now Isawa Kyoko. Between the five of you, the only thing you truly lack is trained courtier. The question is who will lead you?"
"Eh?"
"A dai-hohei over sees a squad of 4-5 hohei. Its his or her job to make sure the squad works as a unit, because without that unity, the squad fails, and with it the mission." Jubei says, finishing his own cup.
"Forgive me Brother Jubei, I don't know what you mean." You say.
Man this sake is stronger than you thought.
"You have four individuals three of them are used to working together true, but they're used to following Bayushi-san's orders. How are you going to deal with that? How are you going to get Isawa-san to mesh with them? It might be wise to take a month to just get used to working together. You get me?" He asks.
After a moment, you nod. It was true that things like leadership, or even where exactly you were going first hadn't been hashed out yet, and probably should be before you leave. You could use the remaining months to do that...or you could try to bring one last person in. Six people in a squad was probably the most you could expect to have this work out with.
[] Spend the remaining months working with your squad.
[] Recruit Kakita Toshiro (Kakita Duelist: Skilled Court Duellist, Excellent Investigator)
[] Recruit Kakita Reika: (Kakita Artisan: Master Artisan, Skilled Courtier)
[] Recruit Hida Tanako: (Hida Bushi: Excellent Combatant, Skilled Hunter)
[] Recruit Ikoma Keiji: (Ikoma Warden: Excellent Spearman, Skilled Tactician)
[] Recruit Yoritomo Nishiyumi: (Yoritomo Marine: Excellent Combatant, Skilled Sailor)
[] Recruit Utaku Nanako (Utaku Battle Maiden: Excellent Combatant, Skilled Horse woman)