A stinging sensation indistinguishable from the pain felt during the battle with the witch. No, it was worse. Much greater, in fact. Tears flow as freely as blood from an open wound. You grimace, clenching your hand to cope with the burning onslaught. You put on a brave face, but it falters with each second that passes. You resign yourself to the pain. There was no fighting the inevitable, after all. Your battle was done. It was a long and arduous battle. The hope was that you would finally receive reprieve with rest, but such was your fate.
"Ow!" You wince. "Madoka, a little softer? Please?"
"Sorry, Momo." Madoka dabs a damp cloth on your arm before wrapping it in a bandage.
Gone was the battlefield, replaced by the soft serenity of Mami's apartment. You lay in Momo's bed, covered in enough bandages to make you look the part of a mummy. Madoka sits on a chair at the bedside with an open medkit at her side.
"That's tight. That's really tight."
"We don't want it falling off." She smiles nervously.
"Man, you don't mess around. No wonder you're the nurse's aid."
"W-well, it's not really like that." Madoka closes the medkit and places it on the nightstand. "It was something no one else wanted to do, so…"
"I don't think there's any real shame in that." Finding the right words to say was hard, so you just speak your mind. "If it's a job you can take pride in, even if no one wants to do it, I think that's a good thing."
"You sound like Mama."
"Ah." You cringe. "I do, don't I?"
Madoka laughs. "At this rate, you'll have an office job before you know it."
"I would rather not." You fall back in bed, arms crossed. "I don't want a salaryman's life. Just thinking about it makes my skin crawl."
"Really? I don't think I would mind it." Madoka takes a seat on the foot of the bed. "Especially if I could come home to a loving family."
"I mean, if you put it that way… it doesn't sound so bad. But you've seen Mama come home from her meetings. She's usually black out drunk."
"Mama likes to drink to have fun. It's not really that much of a bother."
"I mean, true, it could be a lot worse." You frown. "... I dunno. Just thinking about this stuff gets me anxious."
"About the future?"
"Yeah." You look out the window. The sun dips over the horizon, casting a red glow over the glass sheen of Mitakihara. "It's getting late. We should probably be…"
"I already took care of it."
"Huh?"
"I asked Mama if we could stay the night over at a friend's place. I already went back home to get an overnight bag." Madoka points to a blue bag sitting in the corner of the room. "Mami said it was alright."
"Well, that takes care of that then." You sit up in bed. "Where's Sayaka?"
"Ah, uh, Sayaka wanted to stay the night but Mami sent her home." Madoka scratches her cheek. "There was a bit of a fight, but after seeing you were alright, she left."
Sayaka really cares. A heavy feeling stirs. It felt like a butterfly rummaging around your empty stomach. "I shouldn't fight with her so much."
"If you stopped, I think Sayaka would be more concerned."
"I guess." You sigh. "And you would be out of the job."
"Eh? From what? Breaking up your fights?"
"Yeah."
"I mean, that wouldn't be a bad thing, I don't think."
"It would be awful. If you weren't here, imagine the horrors Sayaka would inflict."
Madoka blinks. "I think you're absolving yourself of blame here, Momo."
"Me? No, never. Not at all."
Madoka falls silent. Her eyes drift between your wounds and the floor. She clasps her wrist. Something was clearly wrong. It didn't take much of a guess to figure out what that was. Her entire life had been turned upside down in the span of only a few hours. Who wouldn't react the way she is?
"I didn't like being left behind."
"I'm sorry." You say.
"It was scary, you know? Wondering if you were going to come out or not."
It was the same thing Sayaka felt, watching you vanish. It was the same thing. "It's just… how things ended up."
"I don't blame you." Madoka wipes her eyes. "I probably would've done the same thing if I was you. If I felt like I could make a difference, if I could help, I would. So, that's why I'm thinking about becoming a magical girl."
"Don't."
"How come? I'm sure I could…"
"Madoka, I was scared. I was terrified. The fact I was able to do what I did was a complete fluke." You look at the hand that held the cleaver. You clench it, feeling the grip, the weight of the magic and the fleeting memory. "I don't want you to be in the same situation."
"But I can't just sit by and do nothing."
It was how you felt watching Mami and Midori fight that monster. Feeling helpless, like there was nothing that you could do. You were able to reach out and get a miracle. Something told you the only miracle afforded to Madoka would be one granted by Kyubey. That just begs the question - why you? What made
you unique? You were given the Soul Gem of
another you. A you from another time, another world. You've seen the vastness of its depths. You weren't sure where the influence of the older Madoka and the other
you begins and ends. It was a menagerie of fractured memories and distorted voices. "Hey, Madoka, what do you think my wish was?"
"I don't know…"
"To come back to you." You grin. "To come back home. And it was granted. Not by Kyubey, but by everyone else; Mami, Midori, and Sayaka. I still remember coming home the other day and seeing you sleeping with Takkun. You had this lazy look on your face. Think you had a bit of drool dripping too."
"Ah!" Madoka instinctually wipes her mouth. "What, really? That's so embarrassing."
"It made me happy." You reach out for Madoka's hands. "That's not something I want to lose. Not now, and not ever."
Madoka averts her gaze. "I understand, I do, but if you're out there fighting witches… then I'm not sure what I'll do."
"Then I'll just be such a bad sport that I get fired."
"What? Can you do that?"
"I dunno, it's worth a try."
"Momo." Madoka laughs.
"What? If I got this Soul Gem by a fluke, then I'm--" You stop. "Wait. What happened to the witch? What about that girl? Crap, I got so caught up in the conversation that I didn't ask!"
"Still alive." Mami says, knocking on the doorframe. "How are you feeling, Miss Kaname?"
"Ah, better, at least. I'm not dead, so that's a good thing."
"Oh, Mami. You're back."
Mami nods. "Miss Madoka, can I talk to your sister for a moment? Alone?"
"Oh, um, sure." Madoka frowns. "I'm sorry, Momo. Good luck."
Your sister exits the room with a bow.
"So… you're probably mad, Mami. I can understand that." You force a smile. "But, before that, can … you tell me what happened? I mean, with Midori and the girl inside of the witch."
"We'll get to that." Mami walks forward, taking the seat at the side of the bed. "They're both safe for now."
"That's good." You wanted to ask how the girl from inside the witch was safe. Given recent events, it wasn't entirely unbelievable that she was alive. "So, I know what I did was stupid, but…"
"Stupid? Not necessarily. Reckless fits a bit better." Mami composes herself with a breath.
"I know." You can't look her in the eye. "I know it was, but I felt like I had no other choice. If I didn't, it was going to be Sayaka."
"It doesn't matter who did it, the end result would've likely been the same." Mami crosses her legs. "Kyubey mentioned something about you being 'irregular'. So, were you hiding the fact you were a magical girl? Did you make a contract with Kyubey in the past? What's your goal?"
"No, no, and I have no clue."
Mami walks forward, grasping your hand gently. She finds the finger the Soul Gem ring sits. "There's a mark, but it's faded."
"I'm not lying." You stare. "It all just happened at once."
"For the sake of the conversation, I'll believe you for now." Mami sits down. "So you became a magical girl without contracting with Kyubey?"
"I wouldn't say 'without a contract'." You clench your hand. "There was something going on. I heard a voice calling to me, saying to 'reach out', and I did. And the next thing I knew, I was a magical girl."
"A voice? Were they trying to manipulate you?"
"I don't know." The warmth you felt from that other Madoka was genuine. At least, you wanted to believe it was. "They could be? I dunno what benefit they get from dropping a Soul Gem on my head, though."
"There could be any number of reasons." She shrugs. "They could want you to work toward a certain end, maybe? Did they give you any objectives?"
"Nothing other than 'reach out' and 'believe in yourself'."
"What a strange person." Mami frowns. "It seems you're just as confused as Kyubey and I."
"Believe me, I want answers just as much as you do. But, there's the thing…"
"Yes?"
"I don't really know what to do from here."
"That's for you to decide. Though, there's something else I wanted to discuss with you, but that can wait." Mami stands up. "Are you hungry, Miss Kaname? I just started on dinner."
"Yeah." You throw the covers off and stand up.
With that, you exit the room with Mami and …
[_] … go find Midori. She has to be around here somewhere.
[_] … go see the girl you rescued. She's likely in Mami's room, if she's resting.
[_] … go talk to Momo to see how she's doing.
[_] … go see what Madoka was doing, since your conversation was cut short with Mami entering the room.
[_] … Write-in