Author's Notes: Gotta love Xenoblade Reddit for their meme-posts:
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Fairness.
An unusual topic, but an important one: what was fair about the process behind which the former soldiers of Aionios recovered their memories?
In the wake of the Rejoining, those who had been subjected to Moebius's cycle of rebirth had begun to recall traces of their time during the Intersection, that 'Endless Now': experienced as dreams, nightmares, or lingering phantom pains. Glitches in the system, one might be tempted to call them.
Yet, as the Queen of Keves had remarked to Ouroboros during the twilight of Aionios, "everything that exists is reality." And for however long that singular moment called 'Aionios' had lasted, its existence had been just as real as Bionis or Alrest.
Reality has its say, regardless of the wishes of those who experience it. That some were affected more by reality than others...could it not be reduced to a question of mere chance?
It is uncertain. It would have been so much easier if there had been a nefarious plot, with a definitive villain responsible for afflicting those former soldiers with memories of that time.
But we all know that isn't true; Moebius was born from the collective unconsciousness of all peoples: forged from everyone's lingering fear of the future, as uncertainty gripped them all in light of what must have assuredly seemed their impending doom.
So in essence, mankind was — as it ever was — its own worst enemy.
Alas, the questions are still asked, even if the answers are those which would not satisfy: why were some afflicted by memories more than others? Why were some more susceptible to undergoing personality changes because of their time in Aionios? Last, but certainly not least: how was it fair to the people around them, to see someone change into seemingly someone else?
As with many things in life...sometimes, it comes down to the luck of the draw.
Whether that was fair or unfair was a matter of perspective.
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Dunban inwardly mused that there was something remarkably unfair about this whole 'memory recovery' business.
It seems as if there's little in the way of choice as to who remembers what, and when.
It would have been so much easier, if all those former soldiers had simply been granted a definitive choice to remember or not; given how many had been negatively affected by their memories, he imagined that quite a few could have done
without recalling their days in Aionios. (Which, to his unending disbelief, had been a
literal 'world of strife'.)
Even for those who had
desired their lost memories, it was an open question as to whether the person they had originally been would have consented to an apparent personality change. Ashera was a case in point that he knew personally; had the young girl — learning to be a medic from Sharla — secretly
wanted to be more of a combat specialist, akin to her elder sister Panacea? Or had her personality been suppressed by that of a woman who — as far as Noah and Mio remembered — last recalled being the commander of an entire Kevesi Colony? And that wasn't even getting into even
odder cases like Kenny Rohan...
Alas, Dunban doubted he would ever find out with absolute certainty.
Speaking of Noah and Mio...they were a rather interesting sort, having apparently been Moebius themselves.
Dunban quietly sipped from a cup of lemonade, observing the morning gathering around the extended kitchen table: Rex sat the head, with Pyra to his right and Nia to his left; on Pyra's side sat Glimmer, Mio, and then Noah, whilst Dirk and then Mythra sat on Nia's side. The chair to Dunban's right had been pulled away, allowing Dromarch to sit on his haunches with everyone else. (How ironic that the gigantic tiger would be the most well-mannered and gentlemanly of the whole lot.) All told, conversation that morning had seemed a bit...stilted. Most had complimented Pyra's baked redfish, but the heavy cloud of Mio, Noah, and Nia's revelations last night hung over them all; the definitive discomfort between Mio, Noah, and Dirk was also impossible to ignore.
The ice would have to break eventually.
Fortunately, Glimmer was there to play proverbial peacemaker. "So...if you two, like, remember all this stuff, and you were always apparently together...does that mean you're like, already married?"
Mio and Noah both froze, as the eyes of all
four of the girl's parents zoomed in at them.
Mio blinked. "Um. Well..."
Rex huffed, leaning back against his chair. "Would make sense, now that I'm thinking about it. I mean, I
did fight alongside their great-grandchildren."
"
Eh?!" yelped Mythra, looking back and forth between her husband and Nia's progeny. "After everything we discussed last night, you somehow glossed over
this?!"
"I mean, yours and Pyra's Core Crystal was in Matthew's Blade, so you were
kind of there in spirit," added Rex with an apologetic shrug.
Pyra's smile was somewhat brittle. "I
don't think that's what Mythra's getting at..."
"It's about the principle of the matter! Missing out on one of my kid's weddings is a no-go!" exclaimed Mythra, with an almost exaggerated mania. "Come on Nia, she's
your daughter. How can you be so...
blasé about it?!"
"There's only so often you can experience the same sort of situation," idly remarked Nia, stoically sipping her iced tea. "With how often Noah and Mio found each other, the data detailing their first encounters was...a recurring event. And honestly...there's only
so many times you can witness that sort of thing, even if at a distance."
Mio's ears went erect with horror, her eyes staring widely at her mother. "Mum...you're not saying...?"
Nia simply took another sip. A long,
loud sip. "Fortunately, Poppi eventually learned to...
filter the audio-visual feeds."
"Oh my," muttered Pyra.
"...oof," grumbled Mythra. "You have my sympathies."
"...well, this is awkward," said Rex.
Glimmer gave Mio a conciliatory pat on the back as her sister buried her face into her hands. Noah had wisely decided to remain
dead silent.
Dirk, however, had no such inclinations. "Heh. Mum having to watch your first time? That's the stuff of a comedy." Shooting a cheeky grin at Nia, he asked, "What next, did someone stand up and yell '
I object' during their wedding? Might as well go for all the cliches!"
Glimmer gasped. "Wait,
did that happen?!"
"I was
yankin' their chain, Glim," griped Dirk. "Life ain't like those crappy Tantalese romance novels."
"First of all, they're exquisite literature. Second, how would
you know if they're crappy? Third,
you take that back," snarled Glimmer.
"...Tantalese romance novels?" quoted Rex, looking somewhat befuddled.
Glimmer froze, realizing she had inadvertently outed herself. "Erm."
"...am I going to need to have a talk with a certain Tantalese Prince?" asked Pyra, her brittle smile just a
touch too wide. Nearby fragrance candles suddenly flickered with a brighter glow.
"Easy, sis," cautioned Mythra. "Besides, Zeke wouldn't dare. If anyone's her source, my money's on Pandoria."
Nia cleared her throat. "...to answer your question Dirk, that never happened. Their lifespans were rarely long enough to support such pageantry. But the life wherein they left behind a son...had
one memorial in the form of a rather...
awkward photograph."
At this, Noah suddenly spoke up. "It was nothing like that! Mio and Ghondor were fine; I just...I was distracted by a fly right when they took the picture..."
Everyone chuckled at the boy's apparent embarrassment, Dunban included. There was at least
some childish impulses still present in the young boy; where an adult would have simply laughed it off, Noah seemed as mortified as a typical teenager.
Still, to think he apparently has memories of being a father...how bizarre. He briefly glanced back at Dirk, only to pause.
The humor in the boy's face had bled away, leaving behind a tired expression. Finishing the last of his redfish, he remarked, "Look...I don't know if you all are putting on a routine for my sake. If you are, I appreciate it. But it's hard to laugh when everyone keeps lookin' at me like I'm about to explode."
Dunban frowned; no one had blatantly stared at Dirk. If nothing else, they had occasionally glanced in his direction, as if gauging his speech and mannerisms.
To think he's that observant. A function of his own training? Or perhaps a trace from that other world...?
"You all obviously talked about me last night; I'm no Tirkinhead. So can we stop ignoring the Rotbart in the living room and get on with it?" Dirk paused, inhaling deeply, before looking at Rex. "Can we be excused for that? Please?"
Rex sighed, looking somewhat conflicted; until, with a steady nod, he looked over at Nia.
"...very well." Nia stood up, adopting her more regal persona. "Mio. Noah. I'd like you to follow me and Dirk to the training hall. As the ones who remember the relevant time in Aionios, your input is important."
"Yes, ma'am," said Mio, rising to her feet. "Thanks for breakfast, Mom," she said to Pyra.
"Yes; thank you very much, ma'am," politely added Noah, nodding respectfully. He briefly glanced back at Dunban, as though requesting permission.
Dunban gave it with a wave of his hand, trusting that the Queen of Agnus wouldn't let anything untoward happen to his temporary charge. He instead focused on Dirk as the boy followed them; there was an undeniable tension in the young man's back.
I wonder...how much does he remember? Once the four had left the room, he looked back towards Rex. "How would you rate Queen Nia's combat capacity?" He had to put his mind at ease; he doubted that Melia's Alrestian counterpart would be lacking in capability, but he had to be
sure.
Rex chuckled, flashing a toothy grin. "Her healing abilities are so strong that can she basically used weaponized cancer as an attack. Ol' Malos found that out the hard way, the poor bastard."
Glimmer gagged, while Pyra and Dromarch impulsively shivered at the wording. Dunban merely raised an eyebrow.
I'll have to make sure to stay on her Majesty's good side.
Mythra simply settled for crossing her arms, tapping her bicep irritably; she wanted this whole situation to be resolved as soon as possible.
Honestly, who could blame her?
(Rex, however...had so casually referred to Nia's 'weaponized cancer', as though the thought of Nia using it against his son never even crossed his mind.)
(The Master Driver believed that it would all work out.)
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Noah couldn't help but feel some measure of blame for the current turn of events.
In a sense, that wasn't fair to either himself or to Mio; how were they supposed to know that their memories would return with such ferocity?
(Mere moments after the Rejoining, his ears had caught the sound of a familiar flute; thoughts of pursuing Eunie, Lanz, and Joran fell to the wayside, as he contentedly followed the sound. He eventually found himself staring at a large public monitor, where the news was broadcasting footage of brand new continents, heretofore unseen. Somehow, someway, his world and Mio's had combined.)
Naught but a mere orphan, swept up by the passage of fate into events beyond belief: that was Noah in a nutshell. That he and his three childhood friends had since been adopted wholesale...
("Sonnypon Riku told Riki that he could find you here!" explained a happily rambunctious Nopon, who had all of a sudden barged into the orphanage that they called 'home'. "This not do! Riki will be adopting you now, no questions asked!")
...well, that was a story for another time.
Now was the time to focus on Moebius D...on Dirk.
It's strange. It seems...different, and yet it shouldn't be. Ouroboros had fought to return the power of choice to all the peoples of Aionios, who had been constrained by Moebius's iron grip on the world; amidst such hardships, where they themselves had killed in order to survive...how could they condemn those who had felt trapped? M, J, and even N...had all been extended clemency. Should it not be the same for Dirk, who was once D?
It felt different, somehow. Was it a mere fact of how repulsive he had been as an individual? (N had been repulsive in his own way, glorying in Ouroboros's despair as he mocked their weakness, jeering at how they couldn't save Mio from her Homecoming. J had likewise seemed gleeful at first, basking in the fullness of his Moebius powers,
relishing at how it gave him the strength to dominate.) Was it because D had shown no redeeming qualities? (What could be done, with a man who expressed ecstasy at the thought of burying the world in severed heads?)
Yet here they were: not only facing the boy whom D had come from, but
Mio's brother. Truly, the passage of fate was a wild ride indeed...as D himself had once put it.
All these thoughts and more roiled through Noah's head as they entered a spacious training room, filled with free weights and blunted versions of familiar weapons. Nia calmly turned around, looking at them all with an understanding gaze. "Alrighty then. Dirk...I'm sure you have questions."
Dirk snorted, looking between Mio and Noah; the four had subconsciously formed a square formation, with Nia standing across from Dirk. Mio stood to his left, while Noah was to his right. "That's putting it mildly, Mum." Glancing at Mio, he pointedly said, "You wouldn't look at someone the way you looked at me unless they'd done somethin' awful."
Mio frowned. "Dirk-"
"Don't try and apologize. Not like any of us can apparently
help it." The young blond huffed, an irritable grimace crossing his face. "Guess I'm just trying to wonder
why. The memories I keep seeing bits and pieces of...they feel they should belong to someone else. Not to someone from a family like ours."
"Like ours?" repeated Noah.
"With Mio and Glim as siblings? With Dad, Mother, Mom, and Mum? Old Dromarch as our proverbial nanny, and Grandpa Azurda showing up every so often? 'Bout as stable a family as you can get, with the power to protect from any nasties to boot! That ain't even
getting into our various 'aunts' and 'uncles'. So why would
I wind up being so bloody awful?" Dirk looked between Noah and Mio, confusion crossing his face. "How
do you remember?"
Nia quickly explained. "The nature behind how they became partners...and how fate connected them...it's a bit of a long tale. To summarize a great deal, they became linked through a power called Ouroboros. That link persisted, no matter how often they experienced the cycle of rebirth in Aionios."
"...but that ain't the whole gist of it, huh?" Dirk slowly began to pace, keeping his eyes towards Noah and Mio. "It's strange; there's no rhyme or reason to what I see. But I seem to remember seeing you two in strange armor...and then again as enemies...and I don't have any bloody
context. You were in that dank theater, but you also weren't. What gives?!"
He's getting agitated. Noah voluntarily stepped up, saying, "What happened in that world...is that, for one reason or another, the leader of Moebius — Z — would select certain individuals to join his ranks. He would offer them a reason to become Moebius. You were one of them. And...I was no different."
Be honest. Be forthright.
"...so I was a Moebius, huh?" Dirk schooled his face into a stony mask. "And you were, too, eh?"
"So was I," said Mio, looking quietly in Noah's direction.
Dirk looked at Mio with a measure of surprise. "Really? And what was
your reason?"
"Before they tell you, you must understand this," interrupted Nia, speaking with a solemn tone. "The purpose for which Z lived...was to perpetuate Aionios as it was, for all eternity. Yet, lacking the life that those within Origin intrinsically held, he engineered a world where life was always at stake...and therefore, in
his eyes, was always at its most vibrant."
"...when I emerged in that dark place, Z told me that he was going to make an offer to Noah," said Mio, sounding so much older than her voice should have allowed. "And I simply said...that I would trust Noah to do the right thing. And then, when I saw all the memories of my past lives, and saw how I died before Noah,
every single time...I thought that, perhaps, we could change Moebius from the inside, find a way to end the eternal stalemate..."
Z never said anything about that. Noah grimaced, knowing intimately just how badly he had let her down in the past; yet, from the standpoint of Moebius, it had perpetuated the Endless Now. All was forgivable, if it meant the completion of that goal.
Be honest. Own up to your mistakes. "As for me...I wanted to stop seeing Mio die. I didn't want to lose anymore. I...thought I could pay whatever price. But Z's price...was the lives of an entire City full of people."
Dirk balked. "Titan's Foot, the
hell are you on about-?"
"For Z...it was twofold. By destroying the City, and killing those who represented the future of the world...it would not only perpetuate the Endless Now...but it also temporarily stopped the plans of Alpha to destroy Aionios. By telling me that it would help save the world, and keep Keves and Agnus from perishing...I was able to justify it to myself." (Yet, deep down, if the threat of Alpha had not been present...he wondered if he would have slaughtered the Cityfolk anyway.)
"...N never told M about any of this," whispered Mio, looking utterly shocked by that revelation. "...not once, over all those years...N let M believe that he had done it for no other reason than to live forever with her."
Be honest. Be forthright. "At the time...he believed that you had suffered enough. N...that is,
I...believed that it was my burden alone to bear." No matter how foolish the thought had been, that was how he had been able to live with himself. (And, deep down...he knew that telling Mio he had delivered a fatal blow to Ghondor — no matter how it had come about — would have been too cruel. Better to let her believe that he had been an indiscriminate monster. So long as he had had her, he would have been able to withstand anything.)
"...forget a Tantalese romance, this has all the intrigue and trademark betrayals of an
Indoline drama," griped Dirk. His face had settled into a frustrated frown. "Still not hearing how
I enter into the picture. All this stuff about 'the City', and 'Z', and 'Alpha'...what am I supposed to do with all of that? How did
I become Moebius?!"
Noah shared a glance with Mio, wondering precisely how to phrase it-
"Come on,
out with it!" yelled Dirk.
"Easy now," calmly said Nia.
Her calm voice seemed to cool his ire. "...sorry. Sorry Mum." Dirk huffed, crossing his arms and stuffing his hands beneath his armpits. (A means of restraining himself? Noah wasn't sure.) "Still...I wanna know."
Be honest. Don't hold back. "Well...I'm not sure if either of us witnessed the moment you became Moebius..." There was a trace of
something that he seemed to recall, but it eluded him; there were simply
too many memories to sift through. (Compared to everything involving his last life in Aionios...and everything connected to Mio...would olden encounters with Moebius D have rated highly?) "...but during our last battle, you yourself told us."
"Told you
what?"
"...the reason why you...that is, the man who called himself 'Blackblaze Dirk'...became Moebius." Mio looked downright stricken. "You spoke of how you recalled every memory of slaughter...how it was 'transcendent'...and then without prompting, began to brag about your 'collection'..."
"A collection of
what?" Dirk's frown had become an unbearable thing to witness.
Noah took the proverbial plunge. "...heads. That was the implication given to us by Moebius D."
There was an odd sort of silence within the training room, as Dirk looked back and forth between the other three; almost as though he were waiting for the punchline. Somehow, Noah felt as though he could hear the other boy's very heartbeat (and if he could,
doubtless Mio and Nia did).
Finally, the blond scoffed. "How am I supposed to react? Is this some sort of joke? Because it's
not funny."
"We wouldn't joke about something like-"
"
Piss off!" roared Dirk, his hands suddenly dropping to his side. The very motion forced Mio and Noah to step back, recognizing the stance as that of Moebius D's. "You're talking like I was some serial killer! A
monster! What if I were to say 'no', huh?!"
"Dirk, I know it's hard, but that's what happened-!"
Noah's words were cut off by a snap of ether, emanating from Dirk's body. "I don't appreciate you mocking Mother; but then again, you're just a Kevesi, so I guess you're excused from knowing the history of the Aegis...but
you, sis? You know better!"
Mio briefly glanced at Noah, looking truly befuddled. "Dirk, I don't understand-"
"I'm the son of
Mythra...so I
can't be a monster. I'm not
allowed to be a monster! Because if I was, what would that imply about her? The same old tired
trash we all read about in our history books before we were even ten years old!" Righteous anger mixed with a seemingly unnatural rage, directed...inwardly? Outwardly? Everywhere? Whatever the case, Noah could
hear Dirk's tone becoming sharper with each passing moment. "But these memories...they definitely
belonged to a monster, didn't they? You two seem to have adapted pretty quickly..." Without warning, glowing spears emanated from his wrists; human-sized though they were, they were
unmistakably the unique weapon that Moebius D had wielded. "...so maybe I should
play along-"
A wave of water rushed over them, utterly drenching them all. Noah and Mio yelped with surprise, while Dirk spat out a mouthful of liquid.
View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PblgOfIQA2Q
Nia, dismissing her flowery Catalyst Scimitar, simply shook her head. "You know the rules: no use of Ether Arts inside the house without permission. If yer gonna train with Ether Arts, you have to either go outside or use one of the special arenas made for that purpose. Right?"
"...right." Dirk's tone had cooled considerably, as though the mere reminder of 'rules' had brought him back to the present. "Rules. Rules are important...Mother gets mad if we break the rules..." He looked down at his glowing spear, before glancing back at Nia; the very motion seemingly forced a recollection, because his face
immediately curdled with shame. "I...I saw my spear...going
through you..."
"I know," calmly remarked Nia, slowly stepping towards him. "But I got better."
"But I was aiming to kill...I can practically
taste it..."
"That was Moebius D. You're Dirk: the son of Rex and Mythra, and as much my child as Mio is."
"But..." All strength seemed to leave him; Nia caught him before he fell to his knees, cradling his face into her arms. "What...what
was I...?"
"Ssh...we're here for you, Diederik," cooed Nia, never losing the same calm and collected tone that she'd had ever since entering the training hall. "Everyone's here for you..."
"But they're
not," hissed Dirk, fighting back a wracking sob. "Mio's
already changed, and she don't even realize it...! If she can't see it, what hope do
I got...?!"
Noah frowned, looking over at Mio with bewilderment. The teenage girl looked honestly befuddled, mirroring his own bewilderment.
Have...we really changed that much...?
(If nothing else...at this very moment, there was little of Moebius D in Dirk.)
(
But for how long?)
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The training hall was technically two stories tall; along that second floor were rows of seats, for observation of a spar from a better vantage point.
Naturally, it had only taken a few minutes before everyone else had vacated the kitchen, trailing to observe what was going to happen: not for Nia's sake (for they truly believed she was in no danger), but for the sake of greater understanding.
Needless to say, the preceding conversation had been very...taxing.
Rex glanced over at Mythra, where her teeth were practically clenched together with a self-loathing expression; for all the boy had meant well, Dirk had opened some old wounds with his words.
This ain't the sort of thing we're gonna be able to bash our head against, he thought with a frown.
As Pyra and Glimmer whispered to Mythra, Dromarch remarked, "The young lord is quite troubled."
"Indeed," agreed Dunban. "His words at the end ring true; I don't think Noah nor Mio realize just how much
older they come across as, now." The visiting swordsman placed a hand on his hip, looking sternly at Rex. "What are you going to do now?"
"Whatever we can to help, obviously."
The boy's not only got memories of being a Moebius in his head...but also however long he spent as a soldier on top of it, living and dying during that endless cycle. Navigating this trial would require someone with more experience in the trials involved with that sort of life.
I think it's time we pay a visit to Mòrag.
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Author's Note: One of the things I was curious about in terms of how Noah became N is that, when looking at the theater screen during the relevant Chapter 6 cutscenes...it already showed Mio as M, further ahead along the path than N started out at. We also know that M expressed the wish of "I want to be with you forever" at some point...yet it also seems like Mio becoming Moebius was likewise N's final decision. So I tried to find a way to square those all together.
But yeah, when youngsters act mature beyond their age (especially when they were acting 'normal' just the day prior), it can come across as rather uncanny.
Anyhow, I won't be going into further detail beyond Dunban's little aside at the beginning, but what if Consul K had originally been Kenny Rohan (the artist dude) from Colony 9 in Xenoblade 1?
I will elaborate no further.
/also
//I'm not going to make any guesses as to the potential parentage of the Kevesi quartet
///but hey, all of them being part of an orphanage in the city underneath Alcamoth is as good an idea as any, given their shared color schemes and cost-effective unisex wardrobes seen at the beginning of XC3
////this also gives me an excuse to have Riki be a gigachad dadapon and just adopt four kids without warning