I didn't walk in any particular direction, my eyes traveling across the dark blue sky without care.
'Why am I suddenly like this?' The single note entered my mind.
It took me what felt like a hundred years for me to finally come to the conclusion that I couldn't think for myself. It was almost like I was blocked in a way that dulled the senses. I wasn't sure why it was happening or what to make of it just yet.
From my memories, the earliest thing I could remember was snow. Did that mean that I had died? Or was this all simply a dream?
'This is all real.' A voice in my head told me. I ignored it.
The only reason I walked at all, because of the pull of something tugging me along. Something very nearly tangible was leading me somewhere.
Like a moth drawn to a flame, I didn't know how long I had been following it. Time seemed to last for seconds whereas I'm sure minutes at least several minutes needed to have passed for me to walk street-blocks worth of space. In the end, it didn't matter why or how, only what I eventually found.
I felt the pull grow at its strongest when I finally came upon a small, two floor apartment building. Odd, since the buildings on either side of it were large dormitory-types. However, the much more noteworthy sight was the girl with the strikingly white hair walking up the steps.
I actually found myself staring at how unexpectedly the hair popped out in the dark. How they managed to find such a pure shading dye to hide her natural hair-color down to the roots, I will never know because-
"Hey! Quit staring!" The masculine voice quickly made itself known. Oops.
I realized my mistake, mumbling out an apology to the guy, who probably couldn't hear what I said anyway. I lowered my eyes, but not before catching the look of red, glaring eyes. 'Wait, an albino?'
Intending to sneak one more glance, I twitched my eyes in his direction only to find that he hadn't moved from his spot. He was staring at me just as much as I was staring at him. Something about his features seemed incredibly familiar, now that I was paying attention.
He looked almost like an anime character, but also not really. Specifically, he gave me strong vibes that he was a character that I knew, especially with that black t-shirt and spider-pattern on its front. White-hair. Not actually albino. Anime character. Toaru.
I saw recognition slowly enter his red eyes, seemingly having made his own connections at the same time that I had made mine.
He reacted first, "Wait… you-"
But I didn't let him finish whatever he was about to say, picking up a can half-filled with whatever fluid mixture of rainwater, soft-drink, or otherwise, and throwing the contents in his direction. The spillage flew through the air, most of which splashed harmlessly against his body and bounced away as tiny droplets.
Accelerator deadpanned, "What the hell was that for?"
"You fucking killed me!" I shouted at him.
I felt the bewilderment on his face just as my own confusion and horror started to grow. 'Kill me? Wait, why did I say that? I'm not dead!'
"What are you talking about? I just met you." Accelerator said, yet I could see it in his roaming eyes, like he was trying to confirm that fact for himself. I noticed that his attention wavered on my hand.
"I- um. Sorry. I… I really don't know." The words came out lamely.
I was sure we've never met before, I think I'd remember if I did. But what was with that automatic reaction of mine? I've never thrown anything at anyone before, nor was shouting suddenly something that I would do.
The corners of my eyes felt tense, I didn't understand. I was really beginning to get angry with just how little I understood what was going on- including whatever was happening to myself.
I posed a question, hoping to find an answer, "Nothing is making any sense."
Accelerator's eyebrow didn't raise, but that's what his expression felt like, "Explain it."
I tried to come up with a way to describe my situation, and frustratingly, I couldn't think of how to say it in a way that could be understood. I gave up a few seconds later, "Does any of this seem like it's artificial in some way? Am I imagining this place?" I swept my arms out.
"..."
"How about convoluted events? What were the chances of the two of us meeting?"
Accelerator beheld me with a certain wariness, "Are you saying you searched for me?"
"Certainly not. I would think I'd know if I were looking for you."
"Then what does our meeting have to do with anything?"
"Well, it's important because I'm not important." I sigh, feeling like my own feeble logic was crumbling, yet trying to explain it in a way I thought would make sense of him.
Thoughts of his sense of guilt over killing the sisters, and believing himself to be a villain as a result, came to mind.
"Heroes and villains go hand in hand, but the people who do not serve to enhance one or the other stay on the sidelines. I'm not heartless enough to slaughter thousands of clones for the sake of boosting my own power, yet I also don't have the capacity to save thousands of clones. If you treat yourself like a villain, then I cannot challenge your ideals no matter what I do." But you do have the choice to change.
"What kind of bullshit are you talking about?" Accelerator bared his teeth, "I don't care what you think, brat. I do what I do for my own reasons."
I could feel it clearly now that he was in front of me. It's him. The signal… That same Entity that had been haunting me since I woke up. It's signal was almost identical to what I was sensing from Accelerator- or a version of Accelerator. Whatever he was, I wanted him to stop it.
I glared into his face, "Then tell me. Am I laying in a hospital bed, dreaming this all up? Am I going to die? Why did you bring me to your apartment?"
The esper's eyes widened as if something I had said fell into place, and that was all I needed to confirm my suspicion that he must have been involved. I didn't know what understanding he had made, if he had made one at all. Maybe I didn't have to be so hostile towards a dream-entity that my own mind had likely conjured up.
At that moment however, I didn't care. I just really wanted something to punch.
I pulled out a knife- 'wait how did I get that'- and lunged forward, step-hopping off a trash can, and using the stair's railguards as a springboard to gain extra height and kinetic potential. With the knife gripped in both hands, I swung downward, expecting to either hit my mark or, more likely, be deflected away.
The sound of metal on concrete passed my ears. Odd.
I open my eyes confusedly, wondering how in the world I could have missed. My knife lodged into the flat, concrete part of the stairwell. That's when I saw where Accelerator was now.
Up ahead and higher up on the second floor, Accelerator stood slightly hunched over like he had just jumped back. 'He evaded the attack?'
"Wow. I didn't really expect you to dodge." I smiled cheekily, "Maybe that reflection of yours doesn't hold up so well inside of a dream."
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This whole thing was starting to give Accelerator a grim outlook toward the future.
He wanted to participate in the experiments for his own reasons, for personal gain and nothing more. There was no room for suspicions of foul play, since the very fact that human clones were involved meant that the legality of the whole project was already going to be put into question if it ever came into the light.
Accelerator took that risk regardless, associating himself with this bit of the city's darkness for the sake of achieving absolute power so that he wouldn't have to succumb to those same demands later when the city inevitably came back for him. At least this way, it was under his own terms, without idiots conspiring beneath the floorboards.
However, he was beginning to regret ever accepting that deal. Accelerator didn't want to believe just how much investment would be going into these experiments if clones were going to start appearing for fights at his doorstep.
'Goddamnit.' Accelerator thought.
Jumping backward with a short-vector fueled launch, he took that opportunity to see what this new, short-haired clone had tried to attack him with.
It wasn't a knife. Instead, she held a jagged, metal shard that was wrapped in cloth. Accordingly, he saw a clean tear on the bottom of her vest that looked to be about the right size and length to fashion a makeshift shiv.
First, it was a handgun. Now it's not even a proper weapon.
"Nice one. I didn't really expect you to dodge." The clone gave him a grin full of so much smugness, it caused a slow boiling anger to burn within him, "Maybe if I kill you, I'll end whatever holds up this dream."
The clone continued on without pause, rushing up the steps to meet him regardless of the power difference.
But then he remembered how the First was able to unexpectedly overcome his ability with a prolonged touch. The Second clone was fighting primarily with a close-range weapon, therefore she was likely only effective if she can close the distance and can remain in contact long enough to extend whatever was that weird effect the clones were capable of. This was his working theory, until he knew more.
Using that information to his advantage, Accelerator stored the energy from his previous dodge and recovery as potential energy, awaiting his command to release for a counterattack. Any light amount of contact will do, except...
The clone drew too close, raising the shiv to attempt stabbing him again. Accelerator released the energy, sliding back several paces.
"Brat." Accelerator started, "Why are you trying to fight me so bad?"
"Stop moving! Come back here!" The screech that pierced his eardrums was the only reply, followed shortly by the shiv being thrown at him.
In all honesty, he didn't expect much, considering the nonsense spouting out of this clone's mouth. Accelerator let the metal hit his reflection, allowing the attack to bounce off-
And the shiv seemed to have veered off course; instead of being flung away, it swung right around like the crudest-looking boomerang before being caught by the blade in the clone's hand. She ran at him like a demon possessed, seemingly powered by an intense desire to fulfill her singular goal of shanking him.
But despite her efforts, everytime she got too close and tried to take a swing, Accelerator merely had to effortlessly shift position further backward with his ability.
On it went, with the clone moving closer and him moving back. Accelerator knew that he'd run out of space eventually. At the very end, there was an apartment door with the number 211 printed on its face. His apartment.
'Seriously...' Air escaped out his nose. He'd had just about enough.
The memory image of a girl's broken body slithered into his mind at the worst moment. The blood and bullets served as a reminder. The mental distraction not just delaying his thoughts, but also forcing him to realize something else.
"I'm not heartless enough to slaughter thousands of clones for the sake of boosting my own power."
"You're a villain. I cannot challenge you no matter what I do. But I don't have a choice."
Her words echoed in his ears.
His teeth grit together.
Accelerator hadn't slaughtered anyone, he wouldn't go out of his way to kill people. The clones weren't people. To go through the twenty-thousand clones, he needed to kill them all to reach level 6. He didn't want to repeat what he had done.
Yet, Accelerator had no desire to let things continue to the way they were.
Passivity wouldn't help him here, he needed a reliable method of ending the fight without physically making contact, or else this will only end up the same way as the first experiment. That meant he needed to disarm her weapon, and then, create restraints.
Accelerator glared expectantly, positioning his hand up at the ready and giving her an opening to stab him. He wasn't moving this time. The next attack would be anticipated, that same downward swing she had used repeatedly several times before being predicted and calculated for him to make the best counter movements. The clone approached him again, shiv raising for the umpteenth time.
The swing didn't come. Accelerator's eyes stared in horror.
Instead, the clone revealed a grenade gripped tightly in her white-tense offhand. The lack of a pin and lever was all he needed to see to know what she intended to do with it. Accelerator moved to grab the grenade, but was prevented by the clone, who kept her hand just out of reach. He stepped forward and she moved back.
'That won't hurt me, why are you taking it this far?' He wanted to say, but there was no time.
In the back of his head, Accelerator felt the countdown start ticking down the seconds. He had anywhere between 3-to-5 seconds depending on the build, to decide on an action.
...1...
He hesitated. He needed to think. There was barely any time to think. He needed to be careful, but he never needed to be when the only safety he had truly cared about was solely his own.
...2...
The fuse on a standard fragmentation grenade consisted of a timed-fuse, impact explosion, or instant-pull. Since the pin and level were already released, that ruled out instant-pull as the grenade had yet to go off.
...3… Wait a minute.
If it were based around impact-explosions, then she would've punched him with the grenade. It must have been timed-fuse but then if it were, it would've gone off by now...
Accelerator forced his paralyzed eyes to blink, realizing that too much time had eclipsed. No wait, if it were actually time-fused, then he wouldn't have had as long of a time to think to himself as he did. Not to mention that he hadn't seen when she had released the pin and lever in the first place, which would've only left him with less time to react.
The grenade never went off, if it was ever on a fuze to begin with.
'Goddamnit.' He berated himself, self-directed anger coursing through his veins at his moment of indecision. Had he really been on a countdown, the clone would've blasted herself into chunks of red meat, making this whole charade completely pointless.
Then again, the possibility that the grenade wouldn't explode wasn't zero until Accelerator disabled or otherwise redirected it away safely into the sky.
Looking up, unnerving tingles shot up his back at what he saw.
His eyes were locked on her face, tracing the very disturbing expression rounding her dull eyes. That was just it though, she didn't display any expressions of emotion like she had before.
It was a blank, featureless canvas with normal human facial features, but an abnormal lack of humanity. It was like a flame suddenly extinguished, failing to light even the smallest flicker of life.
"Misaka posits your dilemma: You cannot stop her now."
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A/N: Beta'd by Stdioh.
This is the first chapter where duality begins to diminish and contradictions present themselves. The difference between what a person says and what they really mean is muddled.