Meditation, I've determined, is hard. For the layman, meditation is far more than it appears in media. It's much more than sitting cross-legged or in the lotus position, closing your eyes, and saying "Ohmmm..." The idea behind meditation is to block out everything but what you're focusing on, to let it all fall away into nothingness. That's much easier said than done when you're used to having your mind go a mile a minute, and it's even harder when suddenly thrust into a body that isn't your own.
Tepet Fiora, the girl who probably was expecting to one day turn into a Terrestrial Exalted, who one day was probably going to try and bring honor to her clan, now had been subsumed by me. I wasn't sure if she had left behind any boyfriends, girlfriends, fiancees, whatever, but whichever had been left, they weren't mine. I had no right to them, just as I had no right to this body beyond the fact that I was here. Fiora had been special, worthy of Exaltation, but she had become me. What had I done that made me worthy?
The answer, simply, was nothing. This had to be some sort of cosmic mistake, a cruel misfortune placed upon me by some uncaring twist of fate, but I wouldn't… I couldn't let that break me. I might not have been worthy of the Exaltation, but that didn't mean I couldn't become so. While the smart thing to do would be just to try and survive, keep my head low, ignore any injustices that I came across… I couldn't do that. I couldn't let myself give in to bystander syndrome, not when there was something I could actually do to stop things.
Sure, giving myself away as a Solar would probably have the Hunt on me faster than I could say dragonblood, but I couldn't let that stop me. Of course, there were ways to help without that being revealed. I just needed to figure out how to not glow when doing things. In the game, it was simple. You decided you wanted to use motes of essence from your internal pool as opposed to your external pool, but figuring out how that translated into actual use? Fuck if I knew. I couldn't even figure out if I could quantify my motes of essence compared to what I should have. Didn't matter.
What mattered was the manse, I was in. I needed to claim it, and so I forced my focus upon it, using the pedestal that sat in front of me as a guide. Essence flowed through the building, which extended deeper into where I was. It also extended upward, and when activated properly, sunlight could pour into the manse, giving light to every room. I could feel it, each of the systems turning on, attuning themselves to me, just as I, in turn, attuned myself to it. The essence of the world flowed through me, from my head to my toes, and it flowed out, into the very metal that lined the walls, into the stone behind them, and into the waters that glittered with drops. Plants grew, providing fruits, and fresh water flowed.
There was even a room that was clearly some sort of First Age bathroom. It had a proper toilet, a bidet, and a claw-foot bathtub. Oh, that was going to be… Well, it was going to be awkward, but at the least, it would feel nice. I couldn't not keep this body clean, nor could I go without any sort of natural functions just because it happened to be a female body, even if it was strange and new.
I could feel the manse connecting to me and the stone in the pedestal. I could feel it changing the stone, warping its shape to flow better with how the manse was set up, and an idle thought struck me. Whoever had set this manse up… had either been a genius, vain, or both, and given the key for the entry and where I found the stone that became this hearthstone, it had to be the Solar who was entombed where Fiora Exalted into me. A genius of that caliber would have had the ability to choose what her manse's hearthstone did. I vaguely recalled a specific hearthstone… If she really was that vain… No, I hoped it wouldn't be that. I didn't think it would be, but that didn't mean anything to my niggling doubt.
Luckily, the process, once started, seemed to finish quickly, even though I knew I had to have been in meditation for a while. When I opened my eyes, Sandy had… well, she looked like a pile of rocks now, and the stone in the pedestal glowed red, giving off more light than the torches on the wall. My anima had dissipated, leaving only the other lights in the room. I retrieved the hearthstone from the pedestal's slot, and I examined it. It still glowed red, albeit not as brightly as when in the pedestal, and for some reason, it was a faceted square instead of the sphere that I had placed inside. Interesting. Of course, it slotted into Alarune quite easily. I'd need to figure out what that daiklaive's secrets were later.
"Sorry for taking so long, Sandy." I pet the elemental behind what I assumed were her ears and climbed to my feet, sticking Alarune on my belt like my knife and whip. "I think… that daybreak is almost here, and I'm mostly rested. After a quick bath and use of the facilities… we can probably get going."
I made my way to the bathroom that I'd noticed while meditating, and I started filling the tub. The room, like the others was mirrored, but one thing I did note was the lack of an infinite hall effect. It reflected my presence and Sandy's, but all the mirrors showed of the other surfaces were the metallic sheen of a metal that I hadn't really had the chance to mess with. This world had special materials: orichalcum, moonsilver, starmetal, along with uses for jade that far outstripped anything on Earth. I'd have to figure out what I was doing with them first, but I had ideas on what I could make.
Figuring out the bidet after my… well, y'know, was simultaneously embarrassing and just strange, but what really made my day was what happened when I settled into the bath. I'd chosen to purposefully not get a good look at my body as I did so, not really out of respect for its former owner, but more because I just… I wasn't exactly comfortable thinking of myself in that way. As I let my hair down, I leaned back in the tub and looked to the ceiling.
"Of course there's a mirror up there," I said, grumbling as it apparently ignored the water. Fiora wasn't an unattractive woman by any means, but there was something about looking at the body of someone who looked like she could have been my sister. It was weird because I simultaneously thought of this body as mine and hers. "Pleased to meet you Fiora, I'm the one who is in your head. Pretty sure I was a guy before this, but…"
I shrugged and Sandy padded her way over to the edge of the tub, sniffing at the water. She huffed as her nose went in and then she backed away, and I let out a bit of a giggle.
"Not sure water's your thing, girl. Maybe I can get you a water nymph or something to be your friend," I said, leaning back in the tub again. "Honestly, as nice of company as you are and as nice as this place is, I can't exactly stay here forever."
Well, I probably could, if there was a way this place could produce food, but it wouldn't be the same. Humans are social animals, and I craved conversation. I just hoped that whoever I ran into wouldn't try to kill me. I really didn't want to have to fight if I could avoid it. Well… if it was zombies, I could probably fight without issue. I did always want to kill a few zombies. I brushed some of my hair out of my face. Blue hair was just weird.
"Just wish I knew where we are," I said. "Somewhere in the East, probably, but that could be anywhere from the Scavenger Lands to somewhere that I probably didn't want to go ever. The more we avoid the Wyld, the better."
Sandy chuffed in agreement. She cocked her head, and I got the feeling she was asking about explaining her.
"I'm not sure I'll need to explain you. You can disguise yourself as a proper dog pretty well, and if not, I'm pretty sure I can send you away and call you back again. It'd just take a bit of effort. As for where we should go… Probably northwest until we find a river, and then we can follow that until we find a city." A city meant people to talk to, people to blend with. It also meant potential danger and potential people who would want to kill me. Those last two weren't exactly mutually exclusive either. "Kind of wish that Elias had been a bit more agreeable, but he and Fiora must have been pretty… Oh, God, I hope not."
If the two had been that close, and I'd taken over her body… I'd forced him to try and kill someone he cared about a great deal. That was… unacceptable. For the first time, I wished I could remember Firoa's memories in addition to my own. Fucking Immaculates. I'd have to figure out how to deal with them.
"Name's the other tricky bit," I said, staring into the reflection of myself. "Tepet Fiora is effectively dead, but I don't know what to call myself. I'd use the name I was born with, but… I don't know. Could pick an effective name, but I don't want to be all pretentious."
It wasn't exactly something I'd thought to consider before. Eh. Who knew? Maybe by the time I got to an actual city, I'd have something in mind.
I pulled the plug on the tub and closed my eyes. The temperature in the bathroom was comfortable, and I hadn't found any towels yet, so I'd let myself dry naturally. The benefit to this was that I wasn't going to touch myself more than necessary. In the meantime, I'd try to link myself to Alarune, attune it to my essence so that I could figure out its secrets.
After all, once I was dry and dressed, I had work to do and places to walk. I expected we'd be mostly safe as we did so.
After all, I was Exalted, right?