You scramble backwards, losing your footing completely. You fall to the floor and continue pushing yourself back with both your arms and legs until you hit the wall behind you.
Kyubey is... many things, to you. You had thought him your best friend, really. When everyone else left you, on the nights that you would find yourself too distraught to sleep, too alone to sleep, it was Kyubey that you hugged to your chest and consoled yourself through.
You had leaned on him for strength and he had never abandoned you.
Because he was using you the entire time.
You shudder horribly, your arms flailing as impulses to hug them about yourself collide with urges to get further away in some indeterminate fashion.
Are you afraid of him? No, but yes. On the one hand, he is harmless, moreso than even a mosquito. On the other, a face capable of wrenching you back towards that night, when you almost died in your own bathroom, a crying wreck, when you should have lost everything and almost pushed away the very person who was there to pull you out of your utter misery...
You refuse to think about Kyubey for the same reasons that you refuse to think about Sabrina leaving you. You've been abandoned too many times, and the thought of it happening again resurrects in you the ghosts of all the times it has happened -- all the times you have been brought to your knees in tears and grief.
But he is in front of you, now. He is talking to you. And more than that, he is in your apartment, the apartment you share with your girlfriend, the safe and happy place where you should be able to not deal with these things!
And you cannot look away from him. And Sabrina is not here. And the table is wrong.
It is too much, and you are reduced to calling out. For someone, anyone.
"Sabrina?"
"Sabrina!?"
"What is wrong, Tomoe Mami?" Your calls go unanswered except by Kyubey, whose voice you do not respond to except with another series of shudders. But... Sabrina is not the only friend that you have, as incredible as it is to say it, although she is certainly the best. Your thoughts swing to Homura first; Homura, who you thought so poorly of, Homura, who you understand so little about, Homura, who fights by your side as an equal, who slept fitfully on your sofa when the three of you had been fighting a war of -- as far as you knew at the time -- life or death.
You don't actually think any of that, of course, not panicking as you are. But it is why your mind swings automatically to the dark-haired girl with Sabrina unreachable. It is why you seize up when you cry out "Homura!" in desperation but do not receive an answer even after several beats.
"What has happened, Tomoe Mami?" Kyubey begins to draw closer to you, his speech only barely registering but nonetheless serving to push you even further into your panic. You don't so much make the choice to start reaching out for everyone you can as you just kind of happen on to it, "Sabrina!? Sayaka!? Anyone?!? Ma--"
"Tomoe Mami?" It's the simplest reply you could possibly have gotten, but it is not from Kyubey. Homura's two words bury you in an avalanche of sweet relief. Sayaka is powerful, and your other friends in Mitakihara are kind, but Homura and Sabrina are the two people you know you can trust -- you can trust! -- even if things seem to be falling apart around you, because that has literally happened before.
You latch on to those two words as a life-line. You squeeze your eyes closed and, shutting out Kyubey's existence as best you can, outright denying that you are hearing him say anything at all, you speak. "I- I just woke up. Sabrina is m-missing, K- Kyubey is, is in our apartment, things are, are wrong, and and, and I don't know what's happening!"
Two heartbeats later there's a sort of thrum followed by a squelching noise. You open your eyes to a thin spattering of gore across parts of the room and Homura, transformed, standing a measured several paces from where you are pushed up against the wall, her hand still on her shield, eying you like a ticking bomb. Her hair is in... braids? It clashes dissonantly with her expression.
You only care about one thing, though.
She came.
Thank heaven.
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[] Thank her and faint.
[] Thank her and don't faint.
[] Pull yourself up and hug her. Lightly. Then thank her.