You know nothing,
Jon SnowJim Hunter.
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Home seemed so far away nowadays, after the Fall. It was not the most well-regarded city on the planet, but Cleveland was where my heart was. Everything from the trails and canopies of the Cuyahoga to the exciting roller coasters of Cedar Point had fallen well out of reach. My father's humor, my mother's warmth, and my sister's brightness. All of it now little more than a distant memory.
My family no doubt feared me to be dead, with everything from the phone to the internet down, and not even rumors reaching them.
They'd be shocked to see me alive. Even more so to see me married, and with a pair of daughters to boot. Indeed, I could see them drawing, with crayons spread across the table, all while one of their raven-haired guardians stands watch, leaning in and asking them what they were making pictures of. Their small hands trace lines across the paper, and I could already see them pushing their creations in my face, excited and eager to be praised. Bless them.
Still, it still feels a little strange to be a father. Like many back home, I had planned to hold off until I could settle down. It was only now that things were starting to do so, after what felt like an eternity of struggle.
I feel a hand grab my shoulder, and turn around to find the brown eyes, and matching drapes, of my wife looking into me. She's smiling only slightly, far from the wide grins she got when excited, be that over the prospect of killing something, or stripping her clothes off and having a good time.
"You need something, Ash?" I ask, before letting out a low sigh, turning back to face our children.
"Just wondering how long you're gonna stand there looking at them," she replied. Her tone has a touch of impatience. Understandable, considering she liked to get things done. "They're your children, too."
Another sigh. "It's funny how after the better part of a decade, I still can't get used to this. Sometimes I wonder if I'm cut out for this sort of thing."
She turns me around, her eyes narrowing. "Don't doubt yourself," she chides me. "You stood up when nobody else seemed able to and led us to victory time and again. Remember that."
"Yeah." I turn back around, and walk up to the table. My two girls look up at me, smiles on their faces. "So, what'cha drawing?"
"Midori and I are drawing your house! Look!"
I grabbed the paper and held it up. For a drawing by a child, it was accurate enough to wrench my heart. A two-story Colonial, with each of us waving hello to it, and my parents and sister waving back. "This makes me wanna cry…" I tell them. Indeed, I can feel the tears welling in my eyes, before I wipe them away. "I hope to take you two there one day and meet grandma and grandpa, and let them stuff your bellies full of apple pie and pancakes."
I rub their heads, and they push in, wanting more. "Praise me!" Midori shouts. "I hope gramma praises me, too!"
"I'm sure she would," I tell them. Mom was a woman born of hardship, and dad born from hard work. If they knew how far I had come, and how much I had dealt with and endured…
I dismiss the thought, as I notice another drawing. It's of their mother, on the bow of a ship, smiling as the sun rises behind her. "Minami, is this something you did?" I ask. The younger of my daughters nods, as I take it in. Midori was slowly learning how to detail her drawings. Minami, meanwhile, was learning how to do lighting. Such bright minds at such a young age. It made me proud to know they had such a quality. "You and your sister are doing such wonderful jobs!"
"Thank you, papa!"
I can see a fang popping out as she smiles, just like her mother. Indeed, they took much after her, from each wave in their hair to the way their eyes sparkled when excited. The only thing from me was the fact that Midori needed glasses, and yet she was cute as a button regardless.
"Anyway, do you two want anything to eat?"
Midori shakes her head, while Minami shoots upright. "Curry! Gimme mama's curry!"
I couldn't help but let out a laugh. "Remember what to say," I gently chide her.
"Please!"
"Good girl."
Ash comes up and takes her hand, smiling. "Do you want to watch mama make her curry?"
"Yes! Please!" Minami bounces, wide-eyed and smiling like a lunatic.
I see those brown eyes look up towards me, and a smirk spreads across her face. "Curry isn't the
only thing I'm hungry for~."
"Then what, mama?" Minami asks.
"Nothing you should be eating for a good, long while," Ash tells her before picking her up. "Goodness, you're getting
heavy…"
Midori runs into the kitchen after them, no doubt wanting attention of her own, all while Ash's hips sway just so, and something told me she was doing it intentionally. I can feel their minder's eyes on me, however, and I turn to face her. "You need something?"
She shakes her head. "Nothing, though I suppose I lost today's competition."
I smile and shake my head. "Better luck next time, Myoukou."
A smile spreads across her face, as she tilts her head. "I'll be sure to win. My beloved sister isn't the
only one who can appreciate a well-earned victory~." She leans in and kisses me on the cheek, letting out a soft laugh as she pulls back. "Oh, and I almost forgot to mention," she says, face growing more serious. "There is a new intelligence report from our submarines. Nothing concerning, but you should be aware regardless."
I sigh. "Thank you, Myoukou."
It also feels strange to have married her, too. But such was the norm, nowadays.
She walks off, and I head in the opposite direction. My office isn't too far away, repurposed from someone's room. Well, they won't miss it. The file in question sits on my desk as I unlock and open the door, before turning a light on. It's got the usual red 'CLASSIFIED' stamp on it, in both English and Katakana. Another sigh escapes me as I sit down, and open up the drawer, pulling out a shot glass and a bottle of vodka. It still even has the bow and note from Hibiki on it, the ex-Russian knowing that I, too, have a need for hard liquor these days.
'
It may not be whiskey, but you should hopefully appreciate this, Admiral. It's part of the first batch I managed to distill. —Hibiki '
Vodka tastes like gasoline at the best of times, but it kept the handful of Russians here sane after whatever it is they saw over in Vladivostok. On the plus side, they brought lots and lots of 37mm cannons with them. Not quite Bofors guns, but the 70-Ks and V-11s were still
leagues better than the Type-96 mounts.
I pour a shot out and down it a moment later, shuddering from the hard
sting of the high-grade alcohol going down my throat. A few coughs escape me, before that warm and fuzzy feeling starts to overtake me. "God, you've made some powerful stuff, Hibiki," I mutter to myself. She knew I was more of a whiskey person, but hard drinks were still hard drinks, and she put a lot of thought and effort into making that bottle. She even hand-blew the glass.
Was it a sign of deep respect, or something more from her? I shake my head at the thought. She's not my type, anyway, age or not.
Opening up the folder, my eyes dart over the reports, including photos from the only long-range boat I had in my fleet. I-400 had amazing endurance and access to seaplanes for additional recon, but she was just one submarine, amidst a swarm of enemies converting the Aleutians into a fortress. I lacked the firepower to flush them out, and I let out a deep sigh. It was the fastest way home, and as such, the most dangerous. Hell, their ASW patrols were becoming increasingly frequent, which meant no chance of sending her to Anchorage, nevermind Seattle or Vancouver. All were probably under threat, too, which caused me to shudder. All of those poor people were in for a bad time unless I could muster a force to flush the bastards out.
Sometimes it felt like the universe itself wanted to keep me stuck here, too. The miasma, the enemy patrols, and my odd position as a glorified
daimyo kept me from returning to the home I belonged at.
The whole thing caused me to open up a drawer, full of letters meant for my family. There was so much I wanted to
tell them, so much I wanted to hear back, too. But I was no doubt dead to them, one of the billion souls, whose names I would never know, nor recite within my lifetime, sent to oblivion at the whims of some nebulous force.
I had written those letters once per month in the hopes that something could be sent across. But as the years dragged on, there was less and less of a point. "If only you knew," I sigh.
Closing the drawer, I look over the rest. One of the volcanoes on the Kamchatka Peninsula blew its top, burying a coastal town in ash. It was probably abandoned, anyway. Another suggested that the PRC, or what was left of it, was up to mad science experiments in the hopes of getting something useful. Their fleet had been expanding rapidly before the Fall, and anything left over there was probably picked clean and left to rust. What a pitiful fate.
Probably just a wild tale, though, told by some maddened officer or conspiracy theorist. The DDGs that had been lost weren't coming back, at least not anytime soon. Not ours, and not the PLAN's, either.
Meanwhile, Amagi and Katsuragi were to return today from training with the more experienced carriers. Looking out the window, I could faintly make out their forms, alongside the handful of escorts, in the evening sun. Haguro and Nachi were among them, the former expecting her first child in a few weeks. Even though she had a physical hull, I could still tell, even here, that she was pregnant. Nachi would no doubt have to help her, the weight of an unborn baby almost unbearable for the poor woman.
She was always a doll, with her pale complexion, faint voice, and a more lithe figure than her sisters. I never felt it wrong to marry her, even if she was more
adorable than anything else. Still, she was happy to be a mother, and I'd love our child just as much as Midori and Minami.
My family would be surprised to see me married to someone like Ashigara. To learn that I married all three of her sisters and had children with two of those four women would no doubt cause them to lose their minds. Each of them was child-crazy, making me think of an old fanfiction's interpretation of Lilith— the word 'babies' playing somewhere in their minds over and over again, unceasing until that invisible force was finally sated.
At least they were
understanding. They were effectively goddesses, and I a mere mortal they trusted. I could handle Midori and Minami well enough, and no doubt Haguro's child, too. But each report from Richardson's household made me wonder how he dealt with the… "Fuck, what was the last reported number of kids he had?" I quietly ask myself. I sigh and lean back in my chair. If each of them wanted to have a kid, that was fine. Being
swamped by them was not so.
Still, though. No less than four or five battlewagons fell for him. The man was a trooper.
I put the file away and rise from my seat. I couldn't let Haguro pull into her berth without me welcoming her back. Indeed, she drew closer and closer, looking like she was about to capsize, even though she hadn't even been shot at.
A few minutes later, and I see the youngest
Myōkō step off her hull, cradling her belly as Nachi rushes up to help her. Haguro wasn't the strongest of her sisters, and I could tell with the way she grips my shoulder that our child was taking a toll on her.
I turn my head to her, as she stares forward, eyes wide. "Is everything alright, Haguro?"
She lets out an exhausted-sounding breath, as she slowly steps forward. "I-I can barely do this w-while I have a baby in me," she pants. "Felt like I was gonna hurl…"
"Bad weather?"
I see Nachi poke her head forward, just as concerned for Haguro as I am. "It became windy and the waves kicked up a little. It was nothing too serious, but it appears that Haguro cannot sortie until she gives birth."
"Need food, too…" Haguro moans. I can hear her belly grumble, and while heavy cruisers didn't quite consume as much as a battleship, they still took a lot of feeding when running on empty. Her pregnancy certainly wasn't helping. "Feel like I could eat an entire fleet…"
I use my other hand to take hers and squeeze. "It's okay, Haguro. Ashigara is making curry. I'm sure she can whip up something for you, too."
"No curry. At least, n-not hers. Too spicy for me now."
"I know, I know," I tell her, letting a reassuring smile spread across my face. "Let's get you inside, first."
Our walk back to the building is slow, and onlookers just
stare at her, awed at how someone could get like that. I couldn't help but wonder if I should call Akashi up here, and make sure that everything was in order. Ashigara wasn't
nearly as bad as Haguro was, taking her pregnancies in stride, and even pride, too. Of course, she got a bit on the violent side while giving birth, and one of the doctors
still bore physical scars from that ordeal. I doubt Haguro would nearly tear someone to shreds, but I was still concerned for her, knowing that this was her first time dealing with this.
Each breath of hers is heavy, and her chest heaves slightly with each step forward. As we approach the doors, I see the white-haired form of Hibiki rush up and prop them open, her icy eyes just as shocked as anyone else's.
"Does Haguro need any assistance, Admiral?"
"Just keep the door open, Hibiki!" I grunt. We're forced to use the wheelchair ramp as we make our way up and through the threshold, and as we enter, Hibiki falls in with us, ready to provide assistance at a moment's notice. I let go of Haguro and rub her head, and she lets a small smile form.
"No need to praise me, Admiral," she tells me. "However, I've managed to make some champagne for when Haguro gives birth. I've found the taste acceptable, as well."
"Good girl, Hibiki."
"In addition, Comrade Sverdlov reports that the fishing expedition to the Sea of Okhotsk has yielded a bountiful catch. They should be in tomorrow."
"Good," I reply. "Meteorologists are saying that this winter could get on the nasty side. We'll need all the food we can get if the bridges and ferries are cut off."
"Comrade Sverdlov has reported heavy snowstorms shortly before their departure, so they may be correct."
"Tell Ooyodo that we're going to need more road salt, then. Go."
She salutes, before diligently dashing off.
We eventually find a chair strong enough to support Haguro, and she slowly, gingerly takes a seat. She looks down at the bulge, and smiles, cradling it and running her hand along the curve. "I feel it kicking," she says with a happy-sounding sigh. I place my hand along hers, and can feel the little drumbeat impacts against her womb. "Our child is going to be a restless one. I can tell."
"Hopefully not as bad as what I hear about destroyer children," I remark, before squeezing her hand. Even the destroyers have matured, with a few deciding to settle down and marry. A few eyebrows had been raised, but most vanished when the kids came along. Shigure was the first of her kind I was aware of, and was perhaps the strongest mother I knew. "Remember what happened with Akigumo's kid?"
Haguro blushes at the memory. 'AuClou' had passed on some bad tendencies. "I hope we can do better."
"Same."
I sit next to her and wrap my arm around the back of her head, letting Haguro use it as a rest as she leans in. "I still can't think of a name, though."
"It'll come to you," I reassure her, running a few fingers through her hair. She didn't keep it as long as her sisters did, but that was fine.
I feel her turn her head, and our lips meet for but a moment, before she lets out a contented sigh. "I love you…"
"And I love you, too, Haguro," I reply. "You're a good, kind, thoughtful woman, and don't forget that."
A smile creeps across her face, as she closes her eyes and leans in harder, letting herself drift, all while I feel my heart skip a beat. She was at her most adorable like this, and I hoped to have such moments time and again.
The sound of footsteps echoes closer and closer, as I see Ashigara come in, her eyes widening somewhat. I put a finger to my lips, knowing Haguro needs the rest. She won't get much for a while.
The Hungry Wolf steps closer, as our lips meet, too, but she's a little firmer, and stays close for a little longer, her breath dancing across my skin before she pulls back. Her smile turns into a small frown, as I raise an eyebrow. She exhales, before allowing herself to speak. "I got a priority message from Admiral Richardson shortly after I was done cooking. He's requesting a summit for the house leaders, but has provided no details as to why."
While there was an annual summit, that was three months ago. I feel my body tense, knowing that this sort of thing doesn't happen often. "
Something definitely happened."
"I can certainly smell it in the air," she replies, voice low. "I have a feeling we might have to make a much harder push to win this. I look forward to whatever victories we gain." A grin spreads across her face, but I feel more weary. She picks up on it, though, and she pulls me into a loose embrace. "Don't fret too much. We'll all make it. I promise."
"Yeah…"
I hadn't done this without my fair share of casualties. Ashigara herself was gravely wounded when she ran face first into an angry battlewagon, though her Long Lances made sure that it wouldn't finish the job. But my mind drifts towards those who went out and didn't make it back.
Kinu.
Matsukaze.
Hayanami.
Each was a precious resource that was no longer simply expendable. I hope I won't have to put more names on that shrine going forward.