[] She suspects Carnelian Facet-1M4R Cut-9XG is upset because she is thinking about the Gem that is no longer around. She should attempt to connect with Carnelian Facet-1M4R Cut-9XG by telling her about her platoon and how much she misses them. Perhaps if Carnelian Facet-1M4R Cut-9XG knows that there is someone in a similar situation to her, it will help her feel better...?
Settling In 2.3
For a long moment, Ruby didn't do anything. She knew that her forgetfulness had often upset Ruby, Ruby, Ruby, and Ruby, but she had never thought that her words could upset someone like her words had clearly upset 9XG. She hadn't had a lot to say back on the ship that would upset the others. But when she had somehow managed to upset them, her behavior was either excused because of her lack of experience or dealt with by a firm reminder of what she was supposed to be doing and/or a cuff on the head. But.... she wasn't on the ship, she wasn't with the others, and she didn't think that this could be solved with a firm reminder or a cuff on the head.
Ruby had not intended to upset 9XG when she had asked her about whether or not she knew the reason that Blue Diamond and Pink Diamond had eventually decided to turn this planet into a colony, but it was still her fault that 9XG was upset. It was her responsibility to apologize and try to make up for her mistake.
Even if she had no idea of how she was supposed to do that.
"I'm sorry." Ruby started. 9XG turned toward her so that she could look at her with an unreadable expression on her face. "I didn't mean to upset you when I asked you that."
"... It's fine, 2XG. I should have known that you would want to ask me a couple of questions about this planet. Stars know that I would have questions if I ended up in a situation like you have ended up in." She paused for a moment. "It wasn't a bad question to have asked either. It just... brought up a lot of memories that I would have rather it didn't. It's nothing that you need to worry about though."
".... It's okay to miss someone, 9XG." 9XG's movements stilled as her words reached her -- and she turned around to look at her. She could tell that her words had some effect on 9XG -- and looked at her -- her widened eyes and parted lips -- she couldn't help but to think of how startled she looked. In that moment 9XG didn't look like the leader that 9XH and 9XI looked up to: she didn't look like the Gem with an intense interest in the things outside of this planet. 9XG looked similar to the heartbroken Gem that had thought that she had been left behind, but different.
Ruby looked at 9XG. "I miss... I have missed my platoon since the moment that I was separated from them. I miss being able to see and to talk to Ruby, Ruby, Ruby or Ruby whenever I want to. I miss being told what to do by Ruby. I miss being able to be reminded about what I'm supposed to be doing by Ruby. I miss being able to know that I won't mess things up because Ruby is there. I miss being able to listen to Ruby tell us stories about Era One, miss being able to listen to Ruby talk about the planets we travel to, miss being able to listen to Ruby tell me I'm doing something wrong and correct me.
She clutched her Gem. "I miss them all so much that it hurts. I... I feel like I have been fractured on the inside and nothing... nothing that I do makes the feeling go away. I try not to think about it a lot -- because I don't want to feel like this -- but I can't stop it." The wet something prickled at the corners of her eyes and then started to fall. "I can't stop feeling this way, but.... but it's okay to feel this way. It's okay to feel this way -- and it is okay for you to feel this way too, 9XG."
"..."
"..."
"... I don't think that i have ever stopped missing her." 9XG admitted. The words were so quiet that it was almost hard to hear. "I stop thinking about her for a while -- and I start to think that I have started to move on -- and then something reminds me about her and I start missing her all over again."
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"I wasn't there when it happened." 9XG murmured. Ruby could hear the pain in her voice. "9XA sent out 9XE, 9XF and I to scout out the unusual terrain that 9XC had told us she had seen outside of the pocketed chasma. 9XA had wanted us to find out as much as we could about the unusual terrain -- to find out if there was something there that we might have been able to use. So, we travelled to the pocketed chasma and then into the unusual terrain that 9XC had found.. We found the terrain to be unusual and -- while it was not as unusual in the way that 9XC had led us to believe that it would be -- it excited us because we thought that we might be able to use it. We hoped that if we told 9XA about what we had found, she would send the others back with us to help us start transporting things. We headed home...."
9XG trailed off and then shut her eyes tight. When she opened them again, Ruby could see the pain in them as clearly as anything else. 9XG wasn't trying to hide it at all, allowing her to see it, and her Gem warmed as she realized that she had never seen 9XG as completely open like this.
Before Ruby knew it, she was pushing herself off of the wall and then walking until she was standing beside 9XG, her arms moving to wrap around her. 9XG's fingers clenched into tight fists, and she didn't even try to return the hold. Ruby made to move back -- thinking about whether or not she had done something wrong and starting to panic because she was sure she had, but then 9XG pushed into her. The wet something formed in the corner of 9XG's eyes, but 9XG didn't let it fall, didn't let her voice shake as she continued, but the pain that she felt was still all too obvious to her.
"It happened about a couple of days after we left." 9XG said in a quiet voice. "9XA was talking to 9XD and a couple of the others about something, and they were attacked. The rest were forced to retreat into their gemstones to heal and left on the ground, but 9XA was taken. 11XA took her to their home, back to 11XC, who tortured her for information, forcing her to tell them everything that she knew." She stopped for a brief moment. "Finally, after they had forced her to tell them everything that she knew, 11XC shattered her, and I... I had no idea that any of that was happening. I wasn't there -- and the Gem that we all looked up to was shattered because those... those
shard-damned clods thought that she was holding something back." She broke off again, having to work to control her breathing. She swallowed before she continued in a softer tone. "I didn't know about any of it, until we came back and heard about what had happened from 9XB. 9XB had just told us about what happened when the others returned.
9XG's lip wobbled dangerously. "9XD -- 9XD was the last of them to arrive. She was holding something in her hands -- shielding it -- and I thought that it must have been 9XA's gemstone. 9XB and 9XC tried to stop me -- to tell me that I didn't want to see what was in 9XD's hands -- but I didn't listen. I made it to 9XD and she looked at me for a long moment before she opened her hands. I didn't recognize the shards at first, but.... I knew it was a Carnelian Gemstone. I knew that 9XB, 9XC, 9XD, 9XE and 9XF were standing around me, so I knew that it had to be 9XA. I ... I didn't take it well."
"... What did you do?"
"I...." 9XG's chin trembled, her fury palpable even as she visibly tried to control it. "I convinced the others to take me to the place where they had found 9XA's shards and then I searched for clues that might lead me to the Tiger's Eyes' Kindergarten. I spotted one of their scouts and followed her until she lead me back to their Kindergarten. I rushed in and demanded that they tell me what had happened -- that they tell me what they had done to 9XA -- and they told me. I attacked them -- and I lost. I would have been shattered if the others hadn't retraced my steps and followed me back to the Tiger's Eyes' Kingergarten and taken my gemstone back from the Tiger's Eyes."
Ruby remained silent for a long couple of moments after that. "What happened to them? To the other Carnelians?"
"The Red War happened."
"... Oh."
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9XH and 9XI did not return until the sun had begun to set and darkness had began to spread across the landscape. Ruby and 9XG stood on top of one of the boulders that ran around the encampment, projecting red and reddish-orange lights from their gemstones to see the area outside better, until 9XG saw the reddish-orange lights that 9XH and 9XI were projecting from their own gemstones. The closest light flickered as 9XH shifted her grip on the communication hub pillar above her head to free one of her hands and then motioned for them to come down and help.
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X] She thinks that it would be smart if she gave Carnelian Facet-1M4R Cut-9XG some space, but she made a commitment. She should continue to work on the wall with 9XG.
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X] She thinks that it would be smart if she gave Carnelian Facet-1M4R Cut-9XG some space. She should head out with 9XH and 9XI to start to retrieve the Communication Hub Pillars that the Carnelians have been using as land-markers.
Changes Focus to Exploration.
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X] She thinks that it would be smart if she gave Carnelian Facet-1M4R Cut-9XG some space. She should attempt to study the three Communication Hub Pillars in an attempt to see what she can learn from them.
Changes Focus to Research.
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X] She thinks that it would be smart if she gave Carnelian Facet-1M4R Cut-9XG some space. She should ask about the available materials in the surrounding area and then spend time collecting them.
Changes Focus to Resource Gathering.