The Burden of Carrying the World On Her Shoulders (Vincent)
Ariel's angry face was as cute as an angry face could be. Her doll-like features remained childish enough for Vincent's heart to still need to spoil her when she acts this way. To the other him, it'd come as an alien feeling, but the current him? This is a matter of fact.
"You did not tell me she's an absolute lunatic, Brother." Ariel's words still forced him to put down his book and stare. No matter how cute the girl looked, those were words he did not expect to hear from her nonetheless.
"What could you be talking about?" It didn't strike him as uncommon for her to be this displeased. After all, she always sought to improve things whenever she caught something that could be improved, but he's pretty sure she's never talked about anyone like that before.
He needs to make sure he heard right.
Ariel scoffed "Who else? I met Maria Theodore recently, and she looked about ready to drop dead." Tension rose in her body language, a sign she was trying to hide hurt "Brother, do correct me if I'm mistaken. But someone who actively chooses to ignore that they look like Mother is no sign of "mental health". What else can I call that but lunacy?"
The way she measures his reaction shows she still distrust his "Vincent" feelings. That's not why he chose to be sincere. The original Vincent would have hated to hide things away from his sister. This Vincent? He felt conflicted about his sincerity being met with this sort of distrust.
It just didn't strike him as fair.
And yes, the image if their mother in his mind's eye hurt. After all, she's his mother too. It'd be too weird not to feel anything while seeing the usually strong-willed woman bound to her bed and seeing the life go out of her with each passing day.
He felt secretly glad the academy gave him an excuse not to see her like that, but that didn't mean he'd neglect his duty as the first son either. The current him has a lot of complicated feelings like that.
"There are many ways." Like depression, though as far as he's concerned Yukinoshita Yukino would fall under the high functioning depression type. On second thought, that does sound about right "In the other world it's called "depression" and it's considered a form of sickness. It can be diagnosed and treated with medicine." Only when it's too radical, if he remembers correctly. Japan isn't precisely the best place to learn about medicine for the mind.
Even the way he refers to it feels a bit off, but the original Hayama Hayato is no more to ask about it.
"I see." Ariel adopted that stance when she begins thinking deeply about a problem and comes up with a completely unrelated solution. It's too bad he can't help her any more to look for answers when his own memories of the other world are so outdated "So there's no way we can help her?" Hmm? How strange. She hasn't come up with her own conclusions with such scarce knowledge?
Oh, his baby sister is growing up. How heartwarming.
"I didn't say that." He motioned so she would sit but Ariel completely ignored him. Well, not much he can do against her stubbornness "But Japan didn't precisely take kindly people getting depressed." That guy popped into his mind. The emotions that surfaced felt way too alien to delve in them for too long.
How misguided had he been? How much did his previous country's scorn for emotional problems made him blind to the obvious signs in front of him? The power of conditioning is truly frightening.
"Explain." The girl did her best interpretation of patience, but Vincent knew she was anything but.
"High suicide rates, long work journeys, high rates of hikki… Of NEET population." He thinks, could be completely off the mark "There was even a forest famous for being a place where people ended it. Take everything I said with a grain of salt, but that little factoid says something about Japan."
"And those NEETs you talk about are people that hardly leave their living quarters." Ariel's comment made Vincent nod. He could wait for her to say what she was thinking "I see. Everything fits."
Excuse you?
"Excuse me?" The boy could hardly believe he lived long enough to hear Yukino be linked to NEETs of all people.
"Maria hardly rests. She's always writing, always planning and calculating. To this goal, she would barely leave her room if she didn't have to work at the academy. And according to what you told me about that incident. Well, she didn't precisely fight for survival, did she?" How does she know this, though? Did she actually go around asking people? Would it be too personal to ask?
Also… Well. He doesn't like the implications. The fact that Yukino wanted to die did not sit well with him. Hayama's numbed emotions aside, the current him did carry similar feelings for the girl. As well as a form of comradery as a fellow reincarnator. His emotions could be described as…
Panic.
"Then we do need to do something."
"Well, that's what I was saying." Ariel scoffed again. Her cuteness was completely forgotten "You know her better than I, Brother. What do you suggest?"
"Helping her out with her teaching sessions is a good start." He allowed a practiced smile to creep into his face "If nothing else, having someone to rely on will help immensely."
"That sounds underwhelming." The girl ignored the maid's attempt to get her to sit. Vincent had to dismiss the poor woman after she returned the chair she moved to its place.
"The matters of the heart are complicated, dear sister. Yukino-chan was always a lonely soul. If nothing else, I believe your presence in her life will improve her mood greatly." He did not carry any misconceptions about their chemistry. Ariel herself was more like Yukino than he would ever be, and part of that allowed Hayama to get fond of her, in his time. After the fusion completed, that small piece fell in line and allowed the current Vincent to truly love Ariel as the previous Vincent did.
Truly, what a lucky break to be reborn as a Windhill to meet this girl.
"So you say." Ariel didn't sound convinced, but she'd just have to take his word for it this time. Explaining why would be too complicated, and Vincent had the small suspicion it'd lead Ariel to wonder about her own "matters of the heart" "She wants to go to the slums because of the demon thing."
Ah, the Wretch. It sounds too far-fetched a story be believable. People are easy to be made to believe almost anything. He'd have liked to take the tales with a grain of salt, if it wasn't for a sighting way too close to the estate to ignore. And Ariel says Yukino wants to go there? No way. Absolutely out of question.
"It'd help my peace of mind if you didn't suggest to accompany her." Because of course Ariel would. She's that kind of girl that tries to right wrongs whenever possible. Way too similar to the younger Yukino he knew.
"Do you read minds or something?" And sharp-tongued as well… "Of course I'm going along. You said I could help her. So, of course I will."
His heart was beating faster now. Not good at all.
"Does his highness know about this affair by any chance?"
"Hmm? What does prince Arnold have to do with this at all?" Ariel didn't sound salty per-se. But she could be charged for disdaining the royal if properly angled. That didn't sound good for their future relationship at all "Ah, could it be he's actually charmed by Yukinoshita?" She had to slow down because of her name. It'd have been funny if not because Vincent was amidst a crisis "She is an exotic kind. It'd be easy to become entranced by her, but I didn't think he'd actually fall for her cold exterior. Is his highness a masochist?"
No comments.
"I don't know." He simply shrugged instead of actually answering the question "But people say he hasn't been very pleased recently. Call me crazy, but that's related somehow."
"Hmmm…" She didn't look like she cared all that much. Which again, troubled the young aristocrat but he still got the reasoning behind it.
"Ah… It can't be helped." His sigh sounded way more tired than he expected. Maybe he needed to rest too? Nah. Even if he has to tend to both the estate, the school and his part of the teaching he should be nowhere as tired as he sounds like.
Maybe later.
He'd need to get an escort. People capable of getting not only Ariel, but Yukino out of trouble as well. For that he had the perfect individual.
"Me?" Marcus struck his blade against Vincent. They had made a habit of sparring a few times a week.
The young knight kept his footwork constant. Not even their discussion between swings distracted him.
"Indeed." Vincent swung horizontally, making sure to leave enough ground for the other boy to duck "You've dealt with Maria before. It's only natural I'd like you to take care of Ariel as well."
"Forgive me, lord Vincent. But I fail to see how these things are related." The knight kept the pace and began taking ground, forcing Vincent into the defensive faster than anticipated.
"They are pretty similar." The blond stated. Realization shone in Marcus' eyes.
"That they are." The knight nodded while breaking down the young aristocrat's stance. With a side kick, the blonde fell "Good work."
"Ah, yeah." Vincent tried to get his breathing back into a regular rhythm before jumping into a standing position "So, would you consider it?"
"I'd gladly help lord Vincent, but my duty is to protect prince Arnold. I can't just leave my station like that." That wasn't completely true. The older boy only worked as the royal's personal guard while he studies in the academy. The prince actually has an adult as his actual royal guard, but for convenience Marcus acts as his guard at school.
Vincent knew this, but he also understood the boy actually aspires to become the royal's permanent personal guard. He'd have to respect that desire whether it's convenient or not.
"Still worth asking." The young aristocrat shrugged to take pressure off the subject. His small smile actually made the knight return the gesture "Thank you anyways."
He understood telling the knight this would have consequences that wouldn't help the situation, and in fact, would make it worse. After all, if the knight knows then Arnold knows. It's a simple affair that only the World's intervention would make the reincarnator miss entirely.
No such outside influence affected their conversation.
"But, if you cannot help me. Then I have another request for you." His smile couldn't be called anything but fond. Vincent smacked the knight's back as if to replace a bro hug Tobe had been so fond of "Could I ask for Sir Marcus' discretion? I'd not want to offend his highness if he were to know I asked for his personal retainer behind his back."
"Ah." The knight nodded "That'd be problematic. Worry not, lord Vincent. I will not raise the subject with his highness." After all, the young aristocrat treated him like a friend and it showed. Marcus wouldn't betray a friend's trust so easily. He's loyal like that "I don't think it'd be good for him to know the Viscountess wishes to visit the slums. That is no place for nobility."
Excellent. Marcus said it without prompting. That could only mean he'd say nothing at all of Yukino's trip. To have the prince get in the way would be disastrous. Not only for Yukino's emotional health, but for Vincent's plan as well.
He'd need another escort. A quick swipe through the place before the girls' visit should help make it safer and his intervention would, hopefully, not be seen as an intrusion by his fellow reincarnator.
But man. A depressed Yukino? That's… Problematic.
And troubling. Vincent does not like the implication of his insight being lacking in these trying times.
He's still Hayama Hayato as well, after all.
"You did not tell me she's an absolute lunatic, Brother." Ariel's words still forced him to put down his book and stare. No matter how cute the girl looked, those were words he did not expect to hear from her nonetheless.
"What could you be talking about?" It didn't strike him as uncommon for her to be this displeased. After all, she always sought to improve things whenever she caught something that could be improved, but he's pretty sure she's never talked about anyone like that before.
He needs to make sure he heard right.
Ariel scoffed "Who else? I met Maria Theodore recently, and she looked about ready to drop dead." Tension rose in her body language, a sign she was trying to hide hurt "Brother, do correct me if I'm mistaken. But someone who actively chooses to ignore that they look like Mother is no sign of "mental health". What else can I call that but lunacy?"
The way she measures his reaction shows she still distrust his "Vincent" feelings. That's not why he chose to be sincere. The original Vincent would have hated to hide things away from his sister. This Vincent? He felt conflicted about his sincerity being met with this sort of distrust.
It just didn't strike him as fair.
And yes, the image if their mother in his mind's eye hurt. After all, she's his mother too. It'd be too weird not to feel anything while seeing the usually strong-willed woman bound to her bed and seeing the life go out of her with each passing day.
He felt secretly glad the academy gave him an excuse not to see her like that, but that didn't mean he'd neglect his duty as the first son either. The current him has a lot of complicated feelings like that.
"There are many ways." Like depression, though as far as he's concerned Yukinoshita Yukino would fall under the high functioning depression type. On second thought, that does sound about right "In the other world it's called "depression" and it's considered a form of sickness. It can be diagnosed and treated with medicine." Only when it's too radical, if he remembers correctly. Japan isn't precisely the best place to learn about medicine for the mind.
Even the way he refers to it feels a bit off, but the original Hayama Hayato is no more to ask about it.
"I see." Ariel adopted that stance when she begins thinking deeply about a problem and comes up with a completely unrelated solution. It's too bad he can't help her any more to look for answers when his own memories of the other world are so outdated "So there's no way we can help her?" Hmm? How strange. She hasn't come up with her own conclusions with such scarce knowledge?
Oh, his baby sister is growing up. How heartwarming.
"I didn't say that." He motioned so she would sit but Ariel completely ignored him. Well, not much he can do against her stubbornness "But Japan didn't precisely take kindly people getting depressed." That guy popped into his mind. The emotions that surfaced felt way too alien to delve in them for too long.
How misguided had he been? How much did his previous country's scorn for emotional problems made him blind to the obvious signs in front of him? The power of conditioning is truly frightening.
"Explain." The girl did her best interpretation of patience, but Vincent knew she was anything but.
"High suicide rates, long work journeys, high rates of hikki… Of NEET population." He thinks, could be completely off the mark "There was even a forest famous for being a place where people ended it. Take everything I said with a grain of salt, but that little factoid says something about Japan."
"And those NEETs you talk about are people that hardly leave their living quarters." Ariel's comment made Vincent nod. He could wait for her to say what she was thinking "I see. Everything fits."
Excuse you?
"Excuse me?" The boy could hardly believe he lived long enough to hear Yukino be linked to NEETs of all people.
"Maria hardly rests. She's always writing, always planning and calculating. To this goal, she would barely leave her room if she didn't have to work at the academy. And according to what you told me about that incident. Well, she didn't precisely fight for survival, did she?" How does she know this, though? Did she actually go around asking people? Would it be too personal to ask?
Also… Well. He doesn't like the implications. The fact that Yukino wanted to die did not sit well with him. Hayama's numbed emotions aside, the current him did carry similar feelings for the girl. As well as a form of comradery as a fellow reincarnator. His emotions could be described as…
Panic.
"Then we do need to do something."
"Well, that's what I was saying." Ariel scoffed again. Her cuteness was completely forgotten "You know her better than I, Brother. What do you suggest?"
"Helping her out with her teaching sessions is a good start." He allowed a practiced smile to creep into his face "If nothing else, having someone to rely on will help immensely."
"That sounds underwhelming." The girl ignored the maid's attempt to get her to sit. Vincent had to dismiss the poor woman after she returned the chair she moved to its place.
"The matters of the heart are complicated, dear sister. Yukino-chan was always a lonely soul. If nothing else, I believe your presence in her life will improve her mood greatly." He did not carry any misconceptions about their chemistry. Ariel herself was more like Yukino than he would ever be, and part of that allowed Hayama to get fond of her, in his time. After the fusion completed, that small piece fell in line and allowed the current Vincent to truly love Ariel as the previous Vincent did.
Truly, what a lucky break to be reborn as a Windhill to meet this girl.
"So you say." Ariel didn't sound convinced, but she'd just have to take his word for it this time. Explaining why would be too complicated, and Vincent had the small suspicion it'd lead Ariel to wonder about her own "matters of the heart" "She wants to go to the slums because of the demon thing."
Ah, the Wretch. It sounds too far-fetched a story be believable. People are easy to be made to believe almost anything. He'd have liked to take the tales with a grain of salt, if it wasn't for a sighting way too close to the estate to ignore. And Ariel says Yukino wants to go there? No way. Absolutely out of question.
"It'd help my peace of mind if you didn't suggest to accompany her." Because of course Ariel would. She's that kind of girl that tries to right wrongs whenever possible. Way too similar to the younger Yukino he knew.
"Do you read minds or something?" And sharp-tongued as well… "Of course I'm going along. You said I could help her. So, of course I will."
His heart was beating faster now. Not good at all.
"Does his highness know about this affair by any chance?"
"Hmm? What does prince Arnold have to do with this at all?" Ariel didn't sound salty per-se. But she could be charged for disdaining the royal if properly angled. That didn't sound good for their future relationship at all "Ah, could it be he's actually charmed by Yukinoshita?" She had to slow down because of her name. It'd have been funny if not because Vincent was amidst a crisis "She is an exotic kind. It'd be easy to become entranced by her, but I didn't think he'd actually fall for her cold exterior. Is his highness a masochist?"
No comments.
"I don't know." He simply shrugged instead of actually answering the question "But people say he hasn't been very pleased recently. Call me crazy, but that's related somehow."
"Hmmm…" She didn't look like she cared all that much. Which again, troubled the young aristocrat but he still got the reasoning behind it.
"Ah… It can't be helped." His sigh sounded way more tired than he expected. Maybe he needed to rest too? Nah. Even if he has to tend to both the estate, the school and his part of the teaching he should be nowhere as tired as he sounds like.
Maybe later.
He'd need to get an escort. People capable of getting not only Ariel, but Yukino out of trouble as well. For that he had the perfect individual.
"Me?" Marcus struck his blade against Vincent. They had made a habit of sparring a few times a week.
The young knight kept his footwork constant. Not even their discussion between swings distracted him.
"Indeed." Vincent swung horizontally, making sure to leave enough ground for the other boy to duck "You've dealt with Maria before. It's only natural I'd like you to take care of Ariel as well."
"Forgive me, lord Vincent. But I fail to see how these things are related." The knight kept the pace and began taking ground, forcing Vincent into the defensive faster than anticipated.
"They are pretty similar." The blond stated. Realization shone in Marcus' eyes.
"That they are." The knight nodded while breaking down the young aristocrat's stance. With a side kick, the blonde fell "Good work."
"Ah, yeah." Vincent tried to get his breathing back into a regular rhythm before jumping into a standing position "So, would you consider it?"
"I'd gladly help lord Vincent, but my duty is to protect prince Arnold. I can't just leave my station like that." That wasn't completely true. The older boy only worked as the royal's personal guard while he studies in the academy. The prince actually has an adult as his actual royal guard, but for convenience Marcus acts as his guard at school.
Vincent knew this, but he also understood the boy actually aspires to become the royal's permanent personal guard. He'd have to respect that desire whether it's convenient or not.
"Still worth asking." The young aristocrat shrugged to take pressure off the subject. His small smile actually made the knight return the gesture "Thank you anyways."
He understood telling the knight this would have consequences that wouldn't help the situation, and in fact, would make it worse. After all, if the knight knows then Arnold knows. It's a simple affair that only the World's intervention would make the reincarnator miss entirely.
No such outside influence affected their conversation.
"But, if you cannot help me. Then I have another request for you." His smile couldn't be called anything but fond. Vincent smacked the knight's back as if to replace a bro hug Tobe had been so fond of "Could I ask for Sir Marcus' discretion? I'd not want to offend his highness if he were to know I asked for his personal retainer behind his back."
"Ah." The knight nodded "That'd be problematic. Worry not, lord Vincent. I will not raise the subject with his highness." After all, the young aristocrat treated him like a friend and it showed. Marcus wouldn't betray a friend's trust so easily. He's loyal like that "I don't think it'd be good for him to know the Viscountess wishes to visit the slums. That is no place for nobility."
Excellent. Marcus said it without prompting. That could only mean he'd say nothing at all of Yukino's trip. To have the prince get in the way would be disastrous. Not only for Yukino's emotional health, but for Vincent's plan as well.
He'd need another escort. A quick swipe through the place before the girls' visit should help make it safer and his intervention would, hopefully, not be seen as an intrusion by his fellow reincarnator.
But man. A depressed Yukino? That's… Problematic.
And troubling. Vincent does not like the implication of his insight being lacking in these trying times.
He's still Hayama Hayato as well, after all.