Deep within the central training grounds of the Silent Summit, a small boy works at honing his craft. He is young, barely six summers old, and he is a new walker on the Path of the Silent Summit. But despite his youthfulness he shows much promise and dedication. The dedication is no surprise to any who know him; he has never known his parents, or any family at all. The Silent Summit is his family and he will not disappoint them.
As he trains his forms, thrusting blow after blow onto hardwood, a small token bound to his wrist by a string bounces wildly and nearly comes off. He pays it no mind except to rip it off and tuck it into his pocket; he will retrieve it later, and use it in a game of Garden of Beasts before he retires for the evening. He has newly learned the complex game but he is eager to play more. In fact, he has a game scheduled right before bed.
It will not be a well played game by the young boy. Then again, that is not his goal. He will train and play until his eyes droop and he can barely keep his thoughts in order. Only then will he sleep. The whispers he hears every moment of every day gnaw at his eardrums and do not allow him to rest until his body and mind are both exhausted beyond rationality. The whispers toy with him even now.
But he has long learned to persevere however and gives his all to his training. With a fluid move he drops to a knee, reaching out and grasping a shining shield of steel and emerald. It is as much a weapon as a defense and it has been with him since before he can remember. With the shield in his hand he lashes out, striking the wooden target with the edge before ducking down and guarding himself from an imaginary riposte.
Finally the physical portion of his training comes to an end- at least for the moment. It is time to stop and cycle. He drops where he stands, sitting cross legged in front of the wooden target and begins to cycle his madra. But his breathing technique is a flawed one, and it fits him like a poorly tailored glove. His breathing is raspy and the madra moves sluggishly in his channels. He needs to replace it.
And so he does. Without hesitating for a moment he stops breathing as trained and changes his pattern. Instead of cycling his madra to his core as he inhales, he begins to move it in patterns as he takes short, choppy breaths.. He sends the pure blue energy that sits near his heart out and around, spiraling here and there as it seeks the most beneficial course.
With it, comes the pain.
The boy blacks out.
Suggested topic: the medical practices of the Silent Summit. Continue?
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***
Once, when you were really little, Uncle Erling had taken you out of the Summit on what he called an 'expedition'. You hadn't been expecting anything special; you had been outside a whole six times before that so another trip to get sun on your face was nothing new. But instead of just letting you practice your forms in a clearing right outside like usual, Uncle Erling had picked you up and ran as fast as he could to reach what he called a forest.
wouldn't it be better if you lived in a forest too the forest is kind and cooling and will never leave you
The forest was strange. It had all these plants growing and the trees were way bigger than anything you had ever seen that wasn't the mountain itself. And instead of having you train you you expected, Uncle Erling had decided to show you things like what berries were safe to eat here and where moss grows and what a squirrel is- though that last one took some doing, as he kept finding young Sacred Beasts when he was looking for a normal rodent. It was during one of his hunts that you had first seen a wild bird.
It hadn't been flying through the air like you had hoped; you hadn't earned aviary privileges then, so you still had not seen a bird actually fly. It was doing something almost as interesting however; it was perched on a tree and pecking at the trunk of the tree. Just pecking away, attacking the bark like it had insulted the bird's ancestors. You had stared at the bird for several long breaths before Erling had found those squirrels and it never stopped pecking.
Right now, it feels like that bird is doing its work inside you.
feel the pain that you've earned feel it you know you deserve it why don't you do more
You're not sure how long you were unconscious, but it's been long enough that the lantern that was lighting your training has guttered out, the wick fighting to light the last tiny droplet of oil. Shadows are long and complete around you; a small blessing from heavens surely. For if the light was all consuming the ache behind your eyes would be near crippling. As it is, it's a dull throb that seems to shake your bones and goes quite nicely with the birds attacking your madra channels.
The stone beneath you feels cool and calming and you want nothing more than to sink into it to let the earth wash the pain away. But that will never happen. It won't- well, perhaps with a proper technique. Maybe you will be able to prevail upon one of the-
Your racing chain of thought is cut off by the ache once more. Alright, it's not time for that. It's time to make the pain go away. And it's not going to do that if you just lay here. You need to get up and you need to do it quickly.
You reach out and brace yourself. One hand comes down on the stone, the other on warm and comforting metal. Absently you grab your shield and throw it's strap around your shoulder, resting it in it's familiar place on your back. You're not sure why you bother though. The thing will just follow you around no matter what you do; no need to actually make an effort to carry it. And it is not like it will be taken. The other pupils know better than to-
you should show them you know you can show them all
Pain.
Right. Getting up.
You reach down and push, leveraging yourself back to your feet. It's a near thing, and the pain behind your eyes almost pushes you back to the comforting embrace of the stone. But you spread your feet wide and brace yourself. You can do this! You're a Sacred Artist on the Path of the Silent Summit, you know all thirteen introductory forms, and you're currently ranked third of the Foundation pupils! You can stand!
Walking, however, proves more challenging. Each step you take feels like you are striding through a sand pit. You push on though, stopping only to prop yourself up against a wall as you near the exit to the training ground. Things don't get easier from there. You stagger your way through the halls as fast as you can, feeling like you're going to crash face first onto the ground at any moment.
It's only sheer grit and forward momentum that keep you moving. However your momentum only lasts until you reach the Column.
The Silent Summit is massive. You have lived in it your entire life, and there are places that you are allowed to go to that you still haven't seen. There just are not enough hours in a day to see everything there is to see in the citadel. But all of those places, and many more besides, are connected together by an enormous vertical tunnel that reaches from the bottom of the mountain all the way to the top. That's the Column.
The Column is the only way to get from level to level inside the Summit. Any competent Sacred Artist can use their momentum to spring from side to side, hopping through an exit when they get to the floor they seek. Getting down is even easier; one just has to jump and catch on to their level on the way down.
For those who aren't confident in their footwork- which would be anyone at Copper or Foundation- there are hand holds set in the side that one can use to climb the Column like they were on the outside of a mountain. There is no easier way to get from place to place; as the first Highest said when he created the Silent Summit with one mighty kick, everything should be training. An easier way of traveling would be a waste.
you could just take the servants way the way of the failures and the cowards and the pathetic you should take it right now why don't you take it why aren't you taking it
Ordinarily, you would have no problem scaling the handholds. But now…
You're interrupted from you contemplation of the height you would fall from by footsteps coming behind you.. A glance over your shoulder shows two of your fellows coming; both Sacred Artists of the Foundation level, both clad in worn robes and covered in the small wounds that come from full contact sparring.
The three of you know each other well, and their faces both brighten when they spy you. "Meng!" the larger one calls. "How goes it?"
You nod as they approach. "Tan, Quan," you greet them, fighting not to let your struggle against the pull of the earth show on your face. "A good sparring session?"
Quan Sigdag, the larger of the two, grins at the sight of you. "It was pretty good!" he bellows out loud enough that your ears ring. "Tan almost got me once or twice but I think we both know who got the better of things!"
he is pathetic you're all pathetic they are all pathetic
At his side, the diminutive Tan Jaci lets out a huff and throws her braid out of her face angrily. "We do, and it's me. As always. Or do I have to remind you who the best is again, number seven?"
pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic pathetic
Quan sighs, again at a volume that nearly sends you reeling. "You can protest all you want but at this year's ranking day, we both know who's going to come out on top."
This is a long standing argument between the two of them, and Tan isn't having any of it today. Instead she turns her attention to you. "How about you, Meng?" she asks. "You look like one who put a great deal into their training today as well."
"It... " you reply haltingly. "It could have gone better."
you're showing weakness they'll mock you they'll hurt you they'll leave you
The two of them trade an irritatingly familiar look and as one turn back to you. "So," Quan begins. "What did you do to yourself this time." It is not a question, and the fact that he says it with such a lack of doubt sends a spark of anger shooting down your spine.
"I-"
"Last time it was the time you had a better way to wield your shield than Master taught us. Then it was the way you tried to cycle Vital Aura before you could even see it," Tan continues. "This time you actually seem like you're in discomfort, so it must be bad."
You sigh. There's no point arguing now. Not while your head is like this. You'll get them back later.
Besides, they won't get it even when you do explain it to them. It's not their fault; they're just content by doing things the way they've been taught. They don't know all the things you know! They don't know how many other ways there are to do things! There are different ways, better ways, you know it!
You just have to find them.
show them all show them all show them all show them all show them all show
But you've had that argument before and it won't change a thing to explain it again. It would just irritate them and make them chide you more. Right now, you need their help.
"Something like that," you admit, the words cutting at your soul. "I believe I need to visit the hospice and I don't like my chances on the Column. Could one of you assist me perhaps?"
The admission robs them of their momentum, and the request takes them by surprise. Not for long though. Quan throughs a meaty arm over your shoulders and lets out a belly laugh. "Of course! It is the duty of any responsible Sacred Artist to care for the weak and injured!"
...he will pay dearly for this.
hurt him bleed him paint the walls with him
But he will pay later. Right now, he's busy helping you. Quan turns to Tan. "Hey," he orders. "Grab Meng's hand. I will take the other. Is that alright, little Meng? Do you have an issue holding our hands?"
show him who the little one is remove his knee tear at his cartilage
...he may pay now for this.
Tan, to her credit, slaps her older friend in the shoulder. "You're being rude right now!" she protests loudly. "He's hurt and you're making him angry!"
Quan shrugs. "Do you know how rare this opportunity is for me?" he replies, tone still jovial. "I never get to do this! Whatever happens later will be worth it. I may ask for someone to help me with banners. I can see them now! Large silk tapestry commemorating the day that I, the humble Quan Sigdag, was able to render some assistance to the great and noble Meng Hakko. They may hang them in the Central Chamber for future generations to see!"
you know you want to you already know this why is he still talking you're weak you're weak you're weak
...the gods themselves are not going to be able to stop you from wreaking a well deserved vengeance for this slight upon your honor.
As you stew, Quan is moving. He claps on of your hands in a grip like iron, Tan taking the other side. Then as one, the two approach the Column and grab hold. In one fluid motion they leap, pulling you up as they scale the hand holds in sudden, leaping motions. A glow of light blue madra forms around their arms as they Enforce themselves together, letting their inner light fuel their strength and let them carry you as easily as a mother carries a babe.
With them using their techniques to strengthen their motions the journey to the third level takes only moments. You're deposited on the ground like a sack of flour; at least Tan seems sorry. She waves with her newly freed hand. "See you later, Meng! I hope you feel better!"
"And if you ever need assistance again, please, look no further than I!" Quan joins in.
Without giving you a chance to respond he moves, continuing his way up to the fifth level, where his families apartments are. Tan sighs, shrugs in the universal way that says 'what're you going to do', and drops, heading back for the second level and her own home. You stare after them for a moment before continuing your fight against the comfortable stone.
they will suffer they will all suffer
You push yourself up and continue your staggering down the hall. Thankfully, the hospice is not far. You're able to make it there without seeing anyone else, and also without falling again. You make it to the door and push it open, revealing the room inside.
The hospice is not the largest room in the Summit. It may actually be one of the smallest; after all, true Sacred Artists need nothing to aid their recovery but a source of vital aura to cycle and a glass of water and crust of bread for sustenance. They would rarely visit here. But it's still a comfortable, almost homey room, with cots lined up in a neat row and cabinets stocked with spirit fruits and rare elixirs.
The woman sitting on a stool going over a scroll looks like she may have been built to go with the room. She's an older woman of large size with wrinkled crows feet at the corner of her eyes and streaks of silver threaded through her once dark hair. She's the picture of a friendly matron, ready to assist you with all of life's troubles. The impression lasts until she looks up and spies you leaning against the doorframe. Her eyes narrow as she peers at you, staring through you. Then the friendly matron is gone, replaced by the hostile interrogator you know all too well.
"Meng Hakko," she breathes out, anger low in her voice. "What have you done to yourself?"
You shift guiltily under her gaze. "Nothing, Aunt Mira," you reply instinctively. When the gaze doesn't change you shift again. "Honestly I just came to visit."
danger she's danger she could remove your lungs and no one would think anything of it because you're weak and pathetic
Her eyes stay on you, locking you in place like nails going through the wings of a moth. "Honestly," you protest weakly. "I don't hurt at all!"
There's an itching forming on your back now, a sense of imminent danger. "Though," you allow slowly. "If you had any elixirs to soothe irritation in this one's Madra channels, I would not precisely find them unwelcome."
Aunt Mira sighs and the sense of impending doom falters. "Again?" she says, reaching for a vial. "What did you do this time? Did you try to enforce yourself before you were ready to one up little Sigdag? I keep telling you Hakko, don't attempt techniques before you're ready! Some are just more gifted in certain areas then others. It isn't anything to be ashamed of."
Now that she's decided what you did, you almost want to let her continue. You'll be a in a lot less trouble if she thinks you just tried a technique. But honesty compels you to speak. "I was not attempting to enforce myself again," you say, breaking in during a pause. "I was attempting to improve my cycling technique."
runrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrunrun
She freezes, vial in hand. Without turning around she speaks. You shiver as her back straightens and her shoulders square. "Hakko. Are you telling me that you were attempting to rework an existing cycling technique?"
This is not going to end well for you. "Yes, Honored Aunt. Could I have the-"
"Without any practice at doing anything of the sort?"
"Yes, Auntie. I-"
"Without consulting myself, or your Uncle Erling, or any of the other half dozen of us who would have been happy to assist you?"
"I-"
"And with no supervision whatsoever?"
You don't bother saying anything. There is no point.
She turns on you, anger large on her face. "Meng Hakko, that is perhaps the single most irresponsible foolish thing I have ever heard any single pupil attempt! Do you know what damage to your channels can do? Do you want that? Do you want your path to be finished before you've barely begun to do more than walk upon it?"
"You could have ruptured your core with an improper technique! Do you… are you that eager to leave the life you live and walk the road of the enfeebled? Did you think about what that would do to the rest of us, how we would blame ourselves for you doing something so reckless, so ill advised?!"
"No. Of course you didn't. And I understand how it is for you, Hakko. Truly, I do! You feel like you're the smartest person in the world! But know this, my precious nephew, you may be perhaps the most intelligent child I have ever met, but you're still only a child! You do not even know the consequences of the things you so recklessly attempt and you still attempt them without a care in the world!"
who does she think she is why does she think that because you've given her power over you
The lecture is not as potent as you were expecting for two reasons. First, you've heard the 'you're not as smart as you think you are' lecture so many times that the words are starting to lose all meaning. Second, it's getting very hard to focus with the pain in your channels.
"Please," you say, and later you will be gobsmacked at your daring in cutting off Aunt Mira. "I will be more than pleased to hear your wisdom, but may I at least have the elixir first?"
Aunt Mira studies you closely and moves the elixir towards you. But as you move to grasp it, she pulls it back. "No."
"No?!"
"No," she confirms. "You will not have this elixir. It will do nothing besides remove the reminder of your own shortcomings that is currently spiraling through your madra. I think I shall hold onto it."
Aunt Mira sniffs and looks up at the roof. "Perhaps I will give it to another young pupil. One who realizes when he has made a mistake and is willing to admit it."
Aunt Mira wants you to admit that this was a poor decision on your part and possibly promise to never do it again. What do you do?
[] She's right. You've done something foolish, and you're currently suffering the consequences. You should apologize and promise to never do it again.
[X] She's right. In fact, she's right that you don't deserve the elixir. You'll apologize and leave, heading to your own small apartments. This pain is temporary after all.
[] Refuse. You didn't make a mistake. You had an accident while pushing your own boundaries! That's nothing to be ashamed of!
[] Tell her what she wants to hear. It will make the pain go away. You'll be more careful next time, so you'll have learned your lesson, even if it's not the one she intends for you to learn.