I Wasn't Expecting That [SI/Persona 4]

[Metrux]

Awaken his Persona?

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Does he even have a Persona? Things are certainly different from how he thought...

 

[Mayrun]

Does he even have a Persona? Things are certainly different from how he thought...

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I mean, doesn't everyone have a Persona? As far as I remember P3 is the only game in the franchise all Persona users are snowflakes with "Potential", the rest of the games is just anyone involved in the story

 

[Metrux]

I mean, doesn't everyone have a Persona? As far as I remember P3 is the only game in the franchise all Persona users are snowflakes with "Potential", the rest of the games is just anyone involved in the story

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Everyone in that universe*

Sure, he was brought there by a goddess, but he was also supposed to be the MC, and apparenty he didn't get the MC powers... So he could very well be the ONLY person in there who has no Persona.

 

[King_Rule]

Oh. Look at that.

[X] Chie​

Number of voters: 7​

Is the winner by a landslide. Who would have guessed that?

Achievement Unlocked:
Do you feel like a Gyro yet?
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This is going to be a depressing write up. Shouldn't take as long as the last one though.​

 

[Mayrun]

Everyone in that universe*

Sure, he was brought there by a goddess, but he was also supposed to be the MC, and apparenty he didn't get the MC powers... So he could very well be the ONLY person in there who has no Persona.

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I don't think that absence of MC powers is absence of Persona, especially since the selection of Wild Card seems to be arbitrary, it's not "The Destined One" but whoever will get the job done.

In P4 Yu (yes, that's how I call him) cought the attention of Izami and she gives him a Persona copy of Izanagi, replacing his Shadow and Persona. Really Yu would have ended just as crazy as Namatame and Adachi if the real Izanagi and Igor hadn't interfered, replacing the copy of Izanagi that Izami gave him with the real one and the Wild Card to allow him to grow on his own.

In here the MC didn't attract Izanami's attention (probably because of his shattered soul) and so she went for the next best option, Yosuke, replacing his Magician Arcana with Izanagi's Fool. Now with a sane Fool Izanagi initiated his plan effectually giving Yosuke the Wild Card.

Now in the case of the MC I see 2 options:
1 In the next incursion to the TV World he will encounter his (shattered) Shadow and awaken his Persona and healing some of his soul and the full heal won't come until his Ultimate awakening.
2 His awakening won't come until his soul is recovered, in which case we will have to find a way to have the rest of the team pull up a whole lot of weight until we can relax him and heal him up.

...I'm gonna be honest, if its the second we are already in a downward spiral that we'll find hard to come out of.

 

[Metrux]

I don't think that absence of MC powers is absence of Persona, especially since the selection of Wild Card seems to be arbitrary, it's not "The Destined One" but whoever will get the job done.

In P4 Yu (yes, that's how I call him) cought the attention of Izami and she gives him a Persona copy of Izanagi, replacing his Shadow and Persona. Really Yu would have ended just as crazy as Namatame and Adachi if the real Izanagi and Igor hadn't interfered, replacing the copy of Izanagi that Izami gave him with the real one and the Wild Card to allow him to grow on his own.

In here the MC didn't attract Izanami's attention (probably because of his shattered soul) and so she went for the next best option, Yosuke, replacing his Magician Arcana with Izanagi's Fool. Now with a sane Fool Izanagi initiated his plan effectually giving Yosuke the Wild Card.

Now in the case of the MC I see 2 options:
1 In the next incursion to the TV World he will encounter his (shattered) Shadow and awaken his Persona and healing some of his soul and the full heal won't come until his Ultimate awakening.
2 His awakening won't come until his soul is recovered, in which case we will have to find a way to have the rest of the team pull up a whole lot of weight until we can relax him and heal him up.

...I'm gonna be honest, if its the second we are already in a downward spiral that we'll find hard to come out of.

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I never said he doesn't have a Persona, I said he could not have one. We don't know what is happening here, or why things are going diferently. Some things can be explained with your insight, it is pretty insightfull, really, but some things are outside of that. Things are happening diferently independently of us, which means there is something else changing the story. Thus, we don't even know if we got a Persona. Yeah, I think we do, even hope so, but it's not something we should just assume so.

 

[King_Rule]

Warning: Special colored text may involve suicidal thoughts. If you are wary of such, please skip them.​

Class let out early today.

"Yeah! FREE DAY!" "Why'd they even bother making us some if they just let us leave?" "I got up for this."

Damn it people. Someone just died and all you can do is think about how it affects you. It makes me sick. Yukiko….she didn't deserve this.

What did I do wrong? Why? I thought Chie was the next one on the list. Why did it change over to Yukiko? Was it…was it because Adachi knew she found the body alongside Chie? Why did I not think of that? Of course he would know, just like with Saki. I should have…I should have told her to stay at Chie's until this blew over. Instead she went back right where he could easily find her. Back to the original crime scene.

You idiot. You moron. You…you…

Will you people stop looking at me like that. Why are your eyes filled with fear? Do you think I did this? I'm not even in your direct line of sight. You're going out of your way to place blame without making an effort of finding evidence. Doing nothing but going to the easiest out. 'The Outsider did it', you say. You make me sick.

"…Koudi." Yosuke….and Chie's with him. No, don't look at them. I don't want to see their disappointment in me. "Satonaka…wants us to take her into the TV."

…Why?

"We're not going to find anything Yosuke. We didn't with the other lady. Do you think this one will be any different?"

"We won't know unless we try." Chie proclaims. "Even if it's the tiniest thing it'll be something. Anything….I just need…anything."

…How did cannon go? Yosuke dragged the MC back to look for Saki's mindscape and encountered his Shadow. So will I face mine, or will it be Chie's.

I don't want to, but this world isn't going to let me say 'No', is it? Damn it Yosora.

"Fine." I say with a sigh. "But get something to protect yourself. Even if it's not much."

With that I walk past them, trying to avoid eye contact as best as possible.

I don't want to be around others right now.

-O-​

The transition through the TV was much easier this time. Felt more going through less a tunnel and more a standard door. Teddie had left the TV stack out it seems. Speaking of which.

"Wha..who's ther…Oh. It's you guys again." Same sound stage. Same yellow sky. Same bear. "I told you not to come back."

"Wait. Is that a bear costume? Is there someone inside?" No Chie don't take off the…too late. "KYAAAAAHH! IT'S EMPTY!!"

And there goes the head, rolling on the floor. I am really not feeling this.

"My head. My head. My head." Teddie goes headless as he searches the floor like an old man looking for their glasses.

….No one's going to help? Might as well me then. Of course.

"Here you go Ted." I say giving the top of his body back. The blank expression on the face as he turns it around into place is making my stomach worse.

"Ah. Much obliged." …what? "But that doesn't answer why you're here."

Yeah. I guess not.

"A…friend of ours got pushed in here last night." Yosuke answers for me.

"Oh?....oh. You know…the fog took her back, right?

"Yes." I can't stay silent if we want to get anywhere with this. "But this girl still wanted to see if we could find anything."

"Why are we talking to a hollow bear costume?"

"He's friendly." Stop being a….what term would you use for this type of discrimination? Shadowist? Doesn't matter. And stop hiding behind Yosuke's leg. "Don't pay attention to her. If you don't mind, is there any way you could take us to where she fell in?"

"E~h…well…the shadows are pretty calm right now so…if you just want to look I don't think it'll be a problem." That was easy. "But uhm, the fog is still an issue…so I ah, made these."

The bear pulls something out from behind him transferring a pair of glasses from his paw to mine.

"Woah." Is all I can say putting them on. It's not all gone but a good chunk of the fog just disappears through the glasses. They even have a cool design. Wrap arounds in a deep crimson with bits of blue along the arms.

Maybe today will be alright.

"And one for you, and one for you."

"Dude. These rock."

"Ah, thanks. But purple isn't my color." Just take the things Chie.

"Eh? Oh, sorry. Meant those for the other girl. I can make you your own pair if you'd like but it will take a while."

"Um, sure. I guess I can wear these for now. Wait, other girl?"

"Later. We're wasting time." Yeah I know time is slowed down here but I don't want this to go on for longer than it has to. "We all ready Teddie?"

"I think so. But I…sort of been wondering since you got here." He focuses his question towards me. "Why are you carrying a mop?"

-O-
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"Are we there yet?"

Chie. We just left. And we're here because of you anyways, so why are you complaining? Scary fog? I'll admit even with the glasses it doesn't make the travel any less bland. Heck I think it's even more bland and open of an environment through the glasses. I'm not as paranoid as the first time here but there's still this odd tickle at the back of my mind that something's just out of view.

"I think so. It wasn't that far so it should be…ah. We're here."

There's nothing to see at first but just two more steps forward it feels like walking through a fog wall. On the other side, a simple old style Japanese Inn dyed in red light from the spiraling sky.

Welcome to the Twisted Inn
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"Is this..?" I don't remember ever seeing it from the outside, but if Yukiko was troubled by anything it would be-

"The Amagi Inn." Chie answers. "But why is it here?"

"This is a place that turns thoughts into reality, remember." I don't want to be here. "This what she had on her mind when she was here."

"…Yukiko. YUKIKO!" No, Chie. Don't run in without…Damn it. Why do they always run?

"She likely knows this place better than us. We'd better keep up."

Yeah.

-O-
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"YUKIKO! YUKIKO!"

Luckily Chie didn't run far, just into a small bedroom in a side house beside the Inn. A small desk filled with textbooks, a kimono laid out on the bed, and a bird cage near the window mark the sign of Yukiko's room. But no TV. So if she wasn't pushed in in her own room, where was she?

"She's not here Satonaka."

"HOW DO YOU KNOW? What they found could be a doll or maybe they're lying to us. Maruten said the Police might be involved so who's to say she's not stuck here somewhere crying for help?"

Was that your reasoning for coming here Chie? You can still be so optimistic?

"Look Satonaka I miss her too but we-"

"Of course you miss her Hanamura! You miss looking at her don't you?!"

What? Chie.

"Everyone misses her! She was so smart, so beautiful, and her laugh was….she never laughed for anyone but me. She never liked being around pigs like you!"

"Oi. You're going too far there Chie." How can I stop her? "Calm down."

"Calm down? CALM DOWN?! She needs me and none of you are even trying. Why don't you-"

"Chie."…that was…that was Yukiko's voice. "Chie. Where are you Chie?"

"Yukiko? Yukiko! I'm here. Where are you?"

No. It's pointless. These are-

"These are her thoughts." Teddie speaks up. "They're…the last bits of her before the Shadows got her."

"Yukiko?"

"Chie. Why? Why were you always getting in my way?"

Oh. Oh no. This is what I was afraid of.

"Yuki-"

"I had so many boys licking my heels. Ones that would have taken away from here. But you always came in and chased them off. Trying to be a Knight in Shining Armor. You were just an annoyance. A failure."

"Yu-"

Shadow. Her shadow's about to come out, isn't? Like with Yosuke.

"Look out Yosuke. Something's about to hap-"

"Why did you like hanging around that thief Hanamura and weirdo Maruten?"

"Thief?"

"Does he think he's funny? Making a reverence no one gets? Why did you laugh for him Chie? Stupid American half-breed. I would still be alive if it wasn't for him. I died because of him."

…What? But I-I didn't mean to….it was an accident. How do you…?

"Koudi, what does she mean by that?"

I…I-I don't know. How did she….did Adachi…does Adachi know? It was my fault. He knew Chie was safe and went after Yukiko because he knew she was there to. I didn't protect her. She died because I didn't think to protect her. I'm so stupid. I'm so-

"Pathetic."

That wasn't me. That was my voice but that wasn't me.

"…Koudi."

I don't want to look. I know what I'll find. There in the doorway he stood. A near identical version of me, yellow eyes like beasts glowing in the shadow. My Shadow.

"Oh hello there. Such a wonderful day for some bloody violence, is it not?"

Splatters of blood dripped from his uniform. The smell is nauseating. Is that what people thought of me? My grip on the mop I brought in from outside loosens.

"You. You're the one that killed Yukiko?"

Chie no. Don't. Don't look at it. It's a lie.

"Hm? Oh look at that. The animal has a brain after all. That's so cute."

"You…YOU…I'M GOING TO KILL YOU!" Chie shouts taking the mop from my hands, running up to him with it striking the head.

My shadow didn't dodge. Why would it. All the pain goes to me after all.

"Agh." I grip the spot on my head. Damn it Chie, you hit hard. Even knowing it was coming didn't help soften it.

"Koudi!" I'm okay Yosuke. Focus on Chie.

"Is that all? Seems no one taught you," My shadow says, pushing past the mop grabbing Chie by the throat. ", little girls should just stay quiet when the adults are talking."

Lifting her up with more strength then I should be capable of he tosses her into the wall, Chie falling limp to the floor.

"Satonaka!"

"Owawawa!"

Yosuke and Teddie run to her side, leaving me alone to face my distorted dark side.

………………….
Soul Health: 23.2%

Frustration Level: 80.1%
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"And now that the children are out of the way, we need to talk 'Me'."

No. I don't to. I don't want this. I didn't want any of this.

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Soul Health: 20.9%

Frustration Level: 82.4%
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"You poor little sod. Look at all the mistakes you've made. Look at all the lies you've told. And where did they lead you? Here. To this sad little town. With these fake little friends."

It hurts to stand. It hurts to look at him, so close to my face. That smell. It makes me sick. The smell of blood.

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Soul Health: 17.1%

Frustration Level: 87.5%
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"You can't make real friends after all, so why not some toys to pass the time. Only, you let one brake, another get damaged, and this one," It looks at Yosuke. ", isn't it so funny to be shown up by such a complete fool. You can't even be the hero in your own story, can you?"

I…I…my head. I..I can't breathe. Need to breath, need to calm dow-

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Soul Health: 18.6%

Frustration Level: 82.7%
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"Using that stupid breathing thing again. Why bother? Just let it take you…..Oh but you tried that before haven't you."

I…what? No I-I…I don't want to think about it.

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Soul Health: 14.2%

Frustration Level: 85.1%
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"How many times has it been? Five? Six? A dozen, or two? And for how long? How many years? All failures."

Shut up. Please, shut up. Just go away.

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Soul Health: 11.8%

Frustration Level: 89.6%
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"Oh but you know exactly what I'm doing right? You're so smart after all. If you didn't have these fools dragging you dow-"

"YOU LEAVE THEM OUT OF THIS!" The words sprang from mouth. No. It knows how to push me. Knows all my weak points. I can't let it. I-I can't-

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Soul Health: 8.0%

Frustration Level: 93.4%
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"Why do you even care? It's not like they enjoy your company. They just put up with you because they can't get rid of you. Just like you're doing to them, right?"

He keeps getting closer. Shut up.

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Soul Health: 5.3%

Frustration Level: 95.9%
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"Didn't she say this was all for you. And look at the mess you made. Just like everything else."

Shut up. Shut up! SHUT UP!

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Soul Health: 2.4%

Frustration Level: 98.0%
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I can feel it. Something's cracking. I can't-I can't stop it. It hurts so much I just want to scream. I just want to-want to-.

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"Wouldn't it be better if it all just disappeared? I can even help with that if you just-"

"Shut up!" No. "SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP!" That's what it wants. "Don't you dare act as if I didn't think that every damn day? Because you can't ever be positive. Because you never quit bringing me down." What are you doing my child? I can't reach you like this. You're going to-

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Soul Health: 0.8%

Frustration Level: 99.1%
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"So for once shut that rancid flytrap of a mouth and LEAVE. ME. ALONE!"

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Soul Health: 0.2%

Frustration Level: 99.9%
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Oh no.

"So you're saying…I'm…Not…You?"

…What? I-I…No, I-

"I don't need you to say it idiot. I just need you to mean it. And boy did you mean it."

Something broke.

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Soul Health: 0.2%

Frustration Level: 00.0%
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All the tension, all the stress, all the things keeping me up, gone. Bones of jelly, muscles of used rubber, I collapse as this monster with my form cackles in front of me.

"I'm free, I'M FREE! No more living in that diseased head of yours." My double color fades, bleaching to a stark white. Its face ripping and tearing wider and wider as a ghoulish yellow burns from within. "No more being blamed for your stupidity. I can finally be my own man."

It grew and grew, pushing on the walls until they gave way, revealing a large studio set. A cable hanging down from the ceiling is wrapped around my shadow's neck.

It looks ridiculous.

I am the Shadow. The true self.
What's the point of living if it all ends in pain?
I'll stop it for you.
No thanks are necessary.



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-Does Yosuke fight?:
-[ ]No
-[ ]Yes
-[ ]Heck Yeah!

-If so, how?:
-[ ]Physical
-[ ]Magic
-[ ]A mix of both

Spoiler: Author Notes: Read if you're worried

-No. Things are not quite that bad for me anymore.
-It used to be but I've been getting better.
-In short, I kind of over blew this for the sake of drama.
-Sorry.
-Not sure if I handled this subject well enough.
-
-But seriously, Persona Q2. Yah, or nah?

 

[SyntheticSynthia]

[X]Heck Yeah!
[X]A mix of both

 

[Omergosh]

[X]Heck Yeah!
[X]A mix of both

 

[Anya Homura]

[X] Heck Yeah!
[X] A mix of both


And on the subject of PQ2... FUCK YEAH!

 

[WanderingTwix]

[X] Well, of course, Yeah!
[X] A mix of both

Poor Mr. Not-Protag.

 

[SeekerofDreams]

[X] Heck Yeah!
[X] A mix of both

 

[Mayrun]

[X] Heck Yeah!
[X] A mix of both

 

[QueenPally]

[X] Well, of course, Yeah!
[X] A mix of both

 

[Metrux]

[X]Heck Yeah!
[X]A mix of both

Okay, need a Persona fast

 

[Ultramandalore]

[X]Heck Yeah!
[X]A mix of both

 

[King_Rule]

[]Heck Yeah!
[]A mix of both
Number of voters: 7

[] Well, of course, Yeah!
[]A mix of both
Number of voters: 2

....Bit of an odd rephrasing but since it means the same thing in the end I'm just count it as such. Meaning:

+WINNER+

[]Heck Yeah!
[]A mix of both​

Number of voters: 9​

Now, fight scenes are tricky for me so don't be alarmed if this update takes a while to come out.

In the mean time....HAVE FUN FIGURING OUT WHAT MY PERSONA'S GOING TO BE! WAHAHAHAHA*Coughs up blood*!!

 

[Mayrun]

If you keep true to the P4 themes, it's going to be a Japanese Deity, unfurtunately, as much of a japonofile (weaboo) that I am, Japanese Mythology is my weak point.

PS: By your new profile pic I'll assume you watched the Smash Direct

 

[King_Rule]

+STATUS UPDATE+
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It's best to be honest about these sorts of things. I am having some of the worst time writing for this update.

I've already spent my last three off days trying to get it out but while the first three hundred or so words have worked out fine, the next two hundred and beyond have not.

Add on that I am two days into a straight seven days of work (That's retail for you *shrugs*), other life problems, and that I finally got my new wacom tablet in so that I can try to get into some side work....

Let's just say this one will be a good bit longer than I planned before I can have it out.

I do deeply apologize to those of you whom actually enjoy my self indulgent fantasy. I hope I can get back to it soon.​