Chapter Six
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Two months later.
Horus was leading a meeting on the upcoming invasion of the planet Gadriel. Russ, Ferrus, Fulgrim and even Corzan were already all here. My father was… you know, I actually had no idea where the Emperor was. Huh.
Horus continued his spiel and I tuned him out. I had the basics, Gadriel had gotten a hint of what we were really like and the nature of the Imperium from the advance scouts and had said more or less "hell no, you mutant fascists. Rot and die."
The Imperium didn't take a "no" for an answer to the question of Compliance and thus we were here. We had been assigned major cities and would advance to the heavily unapproachable after conquering the rest of the planet, hopefully scaring them out of their defiance as we covered the globe in blood.
I hummed as Horus went on and on.
"I'll be commanding overall from the ship." Horus said. "Let's get this war started, brothers."
Fulgrim cheered. Corzan looked depressed.
We all got up.
I walked into the hangar from which I would be departing. It was full of hundreds of drop pods. Technicians raced around while Astartes warriors calmly checked their weapons, power armor plate and gear.
I myself was armored in white armor with purple accents. The Emperor had constructed it personally for me, I was told. An honor, I supposed.
I walked up to the meeting point, a clumping of several squads of the First Legion. Their names were Sunbleeder, Firedancer, and Angeleater squads. They would be directly fighting with me and would land near me.
"Looking good, boys!" I complimented them. "Nice and spiffy. Let's go crack some heads."
I actually didn't feel as exuberant as I pretended to be about the upcoming slaughter. It sat wrong with me. Wasn't there another way? Any other way?
I entered my drop pod, crouching and still taking up all the room in the pod. We wait for the descent, the iron rain to begin.
Intercoms blazed with updates.
"Descent in five…" The voice announced as klaxon alarms blared.
Armored plates of the flagship's hull would be disengaging and sliding aside to allow for the drop pods to shoot downwards from the ship.
"Four…"
Once we had landed, Subleeder, Firedancer and Angeleater squads would form up around me.
"Three…"
We would land in the southwest side of the city of Verillion.
"Two…"
I still wasn't sure how I felt yet as I thought it over yet again, trying to puzzle out my emotions. Part of me yearned to test my blade but part of me questioned this whole endeavor. Could the Emperor not find some diplomatic measure with all his supposed genius?
"One…"
I heard the firing of detonation cores and the unlatching of support structures and then felt the inertia of our fall.
My helmed head slammed into the top of the drop pod when we pierced the atmosphere. It was steadily heating up in the pod.
The sound of our meteoric fall was deafening.
Bang. I was hit by Gadrieli artillery. My drop pod spun and then fired thrusters to correct my flight.
Smack!
The drop pod struck the ground and the sides of the pod exploded off. I pulled out of my crouch, oriented myself and charged forward.
I saw the enemy and got to work grimly.
Red.
Red on my blade as it bisected and divided and beheaded.
Red on my fist as it punched and smashed and exploded.
Red between my fingers as it crushed and liquified and smeared.
Red under my boots as it pulverized and collapsed and mangled.
Red.
I slit throats with supersonic speeds, punched off heads with transhuman force, popped lungs and shattered rib cages with supernatural might.
All around was the sound of the Imperium teaching the Gadrieli the exact meaning of slaughter in all its gory and sanguine majesty.
Astartes moved like leopards, hip fired like snipers, danced between artillery shots, used their blades like scalpels and coordinated attacks on the fly like expert strategists. They were unbeatable, unkillable, unbreakable.
They were a pure nightmare and I could not help but love their ugly gloriousness.
How beautiful their motions! How vile their deeds! How dreadful their speed despite their size!
A missile was shooting down straight at me. Time slowed to a crawl and my heartbeats were like lightning. I flashed my hand to my side to grab my bolter and accelerated it to a aiming position. I measured the distance and velocities and let fire.
The bolt soared forth and hit the missile in the air and both exploded like a grand firework.
I located the source of the missile and narrowed my eyes. I sighted a long rockcrete slab of a road block barrier and ripped it out of the ground. I turned and hefted it onto my shoulder.
A member of Angeleater squad had ceased firing his boltgun in favor of staring at my feat of strength.
I found firm footing and then launched the twenty-five foot barrier like a spear at supersonic speeds into the missile men. The whole building they were firing from collapsed.
I took no joy in my abilities now. The Emperor had made me superior physically to these men, it was certainly an uneven and unfair game. To put a single Primarch on the board of battle was to guarantee Imperial victory.
I leapt through the air to meet more combatants. I slayed two but the last tripped in his panic over my coming and fell to the ground, skinning his hands and knees and dropping his weapon as he tried to catch himself. He pulled off the helmet that obscured his features and revealed the human face behind black glass and green painted metal.
On his knees now, he raised his cut, bloody fingers to me in surrender. His eyes begged.
I considered him. I had no way of holding him. I thought that might be kind of the point, to take no prisoners in a cleansing that would make the populace cowed and beaten as much as possible so the Imperium wouldn't have to deal with constant rebellion for the next thousand years when they needed them to be recruitment bases for loyal soldiers and tributaries of grain and water and metal.
He was crying now.
I felt sick, tasting bile in my mouth. I began to feel suffocated in my helm, my breathing hot and its sides pressing in on my head. I made a decision and deactivated the helmet seal in a gasp and a hiss of air and pulled it off.
I breathed in the fresh air, cool and sweet in its taste compared to the recycled and processed ventilation of my armored helm. Maybe I would get shot in the head with something real penetrating power, dying for a second time. Who knows, I didn't really care at the moment.
I looked down at the soldier. His expression had changed to something I couldn't quite describe. His breathing ratcheted up and my strong sense of smell could detect the scent of urine.
"You're beautiful." The soldier whispered in horror, tears in his eyes. "So beautiful. Your eyes burn… It hurts… Please…"
Should I kill him? I had killed so many already. He was so… so weak and unaugmented. He didn't belong on the battlefields of the far future. This was the realm of transhuman heroes and villains now. Lab rats and Frankenstein's monsters and Spartan-IIs.
"Get up." I told him. He scrambled to his feet.
"Leave your weapon." I instructed him.
He nodded fearfully.
"Put your hands on your head and walk towards our forces." I said.
If he went back to his home he'd likely be killed with the rest and if he hid in the rubble and ruins of the buildings around him he'd be found by his life markers by a clean up squad and executed. No, he had to get behind our lines
He hesitated.
"Do it." I commanded. 'Walk to the drop pods and I will collect you when this is all over."
He set off and passed out of my vision.
Now I just had to vox his description to the Astartes-
There was a thundercrack of a bolt shell detonating and the particulate matter of the soldier's remains. Someone from Sunbleeder squad had sniped him the moment he took a few steps from me. I saw the marine move on from the kill.
I clenched my teeth and closed my eyes. Anger flared in me. Did these imbeciles not understand that he wasn't a threat?
I exhaled. This was silly. I was getting mad at one of my own for killing a uniformed combatant in a war of extermination demanded by their Emperor as part punishment for the Gadrieli leadership's reticence and part pragmatism to have to kill less people in the long run. There
was no such thing as a lawful surrender today.
"He's just following orders." I said to myself, putting my helm back on. "We're all just following orders. He just did his job."
I kept on fighting, putting my anger into physical energy and effect. I drowned the streets in blood.
I kicked one soldier's ribcage out of his chest and into the air. I laughed, you know it was really odd but all these troopers were so short. It was comical! Did they run out of normal sized recruits? It was almost like-
My smile died on my lips. It was almost like-
I quickly stepped over to one I had slain and pulled off their helmet. It was almost like they were children.
A little boy's dead eyes stared up at me. They seemed accusing.
Why did I have to die? Those eyes asked me.
I looked around the child soldiers pouring into this street to fight us. Saw Imperial Astartes massacring them. Grown men were nothing to a space marine, sending children against us was a slaughterhouse. The children did not run to their credit, but they did die in great number
I opened my vox channel, blink-clicking it open to every Astartes in the invasion effort on the city of Verillion. Then thinking of it, I made it an open unencrypted signal. The Gadrieli leadership would hear this. I ran a program to hack into communicators. No, everyone in the city of Verillion would hear this.
"This is Primarch Astarion, Commander of the Invasion of Verillion. If you come across Gadrieli soldiers who are abnormally short, I personally order you with the full authority of my status as Primarch to non violently apprehend them. These are children and they are not lawful combatants."
Silence in the line. Not a single Imperial replied as if my words had silenced them.
Then a crackling answer through the vox, patched through from the flagship.
"Brother… This is folly. If you do this you will fail to meet your mission in time." Horus said.
"I'm aware." I said.
Silence.
"All Astartes in Verillion City, this is Horus Lupercal. Astarion's orders are countermanded. You are to ignore any further orders from him and are to continue the invasion of the city." Horus said.
I closed my eyes. Fulgrim had some kind of spark that most days I lacked.
Most days. Today when that soldier who had begged me for mercy, I saw in his eyes the same awe I saw in others who looked at my brother but never in me.
Just once, just once could I have that spark? I had no gods to pray to so I didn't, but I begged the universe itself for the ability to ignite hearts.
Some energy buzzed in me. Small, but hopeful. Like a candle guttering in the wind, a half second from being blown out but still burning brightly enough to push back the night.
"Horus is above," I started. "Horus is above, high in the sky, looking down on us from his perch. He does not walk this battlefield today with you as I do, he does not taste the smoke in the air or pull the bolter's trigger or swing the sword. I do. He does not stand with you. I do."
I paused. The candlelight of the Third Primarch's charisma blazed like an inferno.
"Think back before the days of augmentation and training and hypno indoctrination. Think of the children you once were. Imagine it is you who is sent into battle today against invincible giants. Imagine it is your brothers at your side who are dying, whose heads are being stomped to paste by transhuman boots. Do you remember fear, nephews? They've taken it from you, but do you remember it? I remember fear. I remember fear because when I look at these children who have come to die today, I see it reflected back at me. I see myself in them. When I kill these children, I kill a part of myself. And you do too, you might not feel it but in your actions you stab a dagger into who you once were. You might not care at its passing but I will tell you when the last spark of humanity within you dies you will be nothing more than an animal. And this Crusade will be nothing but a sham."
I sucked in a breath.
"The Imperium exists to save humanity, or so it says. It is what distinguishes us from the petty genewrought monsters and psyker god kings. This
is humanity. Do you worship a fantasy of an abstract humanity or are you still rational enough to see these are the people we have come to save in the first place? We are the shield against the black night and the sword that drives back the beasts that would devour the weak. We are strong not because of the pursuit of vainglory but because we
need to be to help mankind. Stand by me and I will stand by you. What you do on my orders I will claim full responsibility for. Will you help me in this mission, my nephews, my subordinates? Or will you prove yourselves the rabid dogs these people think you are?" I said.
"Our father is currently indisposed, but when he returns from his visions and hears what you are doing he will…" Horus warned, not even speaking the threat out loud.
"Then I'll face the full force of the Emperor's wrath when this is completed." I said.
"So be it." Horus said, his voice emotionless.
Another crackle. A non Imperial communicator messily interfacing with our advanced technology.
A woman's voice. "This is the Mayor Egestonne. We're willing to discuss surrender of Verillion and advise the capital to capitulate… if the Imperial Commander called Astarion will act as an intermediary between the planet and the Imperium."