Ochre Fountain 4.7
I landed on the body, whimpering as I felt blood squelching. My legs didn't help either. Even the jeans rubbing against my legs brought fresh agony. I retched, nauseous at the smells and sights, and what I had done.
I hadn't felt anything. A brief snap of rage in the car, and then nothing. Cold, mechanical precision as I took 16 people's lives. No pity, no remorse, nothing. I vomited, covering the body I was on, along with my own legs. I groped, blind, for the knife. Blind, because I couldn't see out of eyes clenched shut. Covered in vomit, I found it. Hands dripping, from a variety of fluids, one closed around the knife, I pushed myself to my feet.
A whimper, mirroring my own, alerted me that the woman was still in the car. I shuffled over to her, to see if she was alright. As I reached her, a cell phone lit up, faintly lighting the car door closed to me. I stepped into the light, and asked, "Are you alright?"
The light traveled up my body, and stopped on my face. She dropped the cell phone, scrunching back, screaming, "Please! Don't hurt me anymore!"
She might have needed the phone, but I didn't. I could see her in perfect clarity. Her face was bloody, already bruising, and I could see teeth knocked out. She crab walked out the other door, and crawled away, crying, and over her back, "Please!"
Over and over again.
I fell against the door, stunned. I watched her crawl away, remembering. I had pistol-whipped her, for no other reason than she had been there, a possible threat. I dry-heaved, nothing else coming out of my stomach. I pushed myself off the door. I could hear sirens approaching in the distance. Probably drawn by all the gunfire.
I was only half a mile from the motel. I moved, mind blank.
I fumbled with the keycard, finally getting it in, and leaving bloodstains on the door handle. I stumbled to the bathroom, and started washing my arms with a wet towel. The cold turning warm water came off red. It pooled in the sink, the drain insufficient for its task. My arms done, I threw my stained jacket over my shoulder into the shower/tub combination, and started on my face.
I took my jeans off. It wasn't easy – they kept getting caught on my skin, pulling at it. Very painfully. I finally got them all the way off, and bit my lip at the sight. Burns, yellowish white covered my legs, skin blistered as well. Patches where the majority of burning alcohol had hit my right leg were darker, almost brown, and hurt less. But looked far worse.
In the mirror, I didn't look any different. The same Taylor I had been all week. Different than the previous Taylor. Prettier, maybe. A monster? Definitely. How many of those people had kids? Family? Parents? Or dreams? Dreams of being something else, something more? How many people would be getting phone calls, that someone had died? I remembered all too well what it was like, with vivid detail.
I waddled to the bed, in my underwear and shirt, not wanting to bend my legs. I still had to, minutely, grimacing at each new pain. I sat on the bed, legs straight, and pulled myself on with my arms. I lifted my legs up after, still hurting.
On the bedside table, I had my purchases from the drug store. I pulled out the razor, still in its plastic wrapping. I fumbled at the packaging, ineffectually. I finally punctured it with a nail, and, cutting my hand as I did so, tore it apart. A faint line of blood on my palm, and a few droplets splattered my shirt.
I pulled the razor out, throwing the ruined packaging away, off onto the floor.
What would dad think?
I wasn't even in control of myself anymore. I was a danger to everyone around me. The rage had subsided, but when would it come back?
What would mom think?
I sat on my bed, twisting the razor in my hand. Burnt, and still with faint traces of blood on me. Eyes blurry, I set the razor on my wrist-
Bring-Bring.
The room phone rang, and I reached for it, on instinct. I held it to my ear, and didn't say anything.
"Ms. Hebert?"
The razor dropped from my hand.
"Ms. Hebert. Or Defiler. I would like to meet. I wish to propose a mutually beneficial arrangement."
"Who are you?" I whispered.
"Call me the Number Man. I will be at the Denny's across from your motel, at midnight."
He hung up.
A/N: Remember how TT said she was suicidal? Yeah. Also, she would have soaked the razor.
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