A colorful blur of red, gold, and black slammed into me, nearly knocking me off my feet. Armored limbs wrapped themselves around my torso, squeezing me tight. While my body's durability made it difficult to gauge the exact strength of Lucy's sudden hug, the force of our impact and the faint sounds of protest emanating from her armor implied that I should be thankful for that very same resilience.
"Eena! You came early!"
"I… Yes," I replied, surprised to find my voice wavering a touch, in the aftermath of her affectionate display. It felt… odd. To be held like this. Like a fluttering in my stomach - warm, but frantic and crying for attention I couldn't spare.
"What are you doing at the adventurer's guild, though? I thought you were going to come meet me at the church?"
"I… planned to get myself settled before coming to see you," I informed her, trying to focus on the redhead's words rather than our ongoing embrace.
"Settling in?" Lucy inquired, parting from me so that she could meet my gaze with her own. Her hands remained attached to my form, despite the newly created distance, merely shifting their position, from my back to my arms.
"I…" I shook my head, trying to unstick my thoughts. What was wrong with me? Why was I so fixated upon a small measure of physical affection? I was acting as if I'd never been hugged before. Hadn't I experienced them all the time, back when I was Jacob?
"Eena…?"
"It's nothing," I replied, forcing a smile to my lips. Because it was nothing. "You were asking why I'm at the guild, yes? It's because I wished to join."
Lucy frowned at me, her hands at last parting from my flesh, to instead settle upon her own hips. "You're not doing that thing where you pretend everything's fine even when it isn't, because you don't want to worry anyone, are you? Because if people think you're the sort to suffer in silence, rather than sharing what's wrong with them, it'll only make them worry more."
"I'm not pretending," I assured her, my smile becoming a touch less strained in the face of her earnest concern. The panicked feeling was almost entirely gone, now, in any case. "I was merely caught off guard. I'm not used to being greeted with such enthusiasm."
Except from Bailey, perhaps? She had a tendency to wag her tail and lick my face after even the shortest of separations - but, truthfully, even that lacked the impact of Lucy's hug. Between the horned wolf's subservient attitude, her preference for a four legged form, and the simple fact that we'd rarely parted for more than a few minutes at a time, Bailey's reaction to our reunions felt more akin to a pet's eagerness than a friend's joy. Meanwhile, Lucy was hitting me with something of a triple punch - a warm embrace, from someone who sincerely wished to befriend me, after a day of everyone being terrified of me.
"I don't think that's the sort of thing people normally say with a smile on their face," Lucy remarked, frowning at me. "But if you say you're fine, then I won't push… Though I do want to know why you joined the guild without me! Didn't I already pledge to vouch for you?"
"Ah…" I winced. She had suggested something of the sort, hadn't she? In an attempt to incentivize this very visit to Rendra city, if memory served - and I knew full well that it did, considering how easily the conversation flowed into my mind now that I'd been reminded of it. Specifically, she had promised to help me skip the probationary period - the rookie requests, I suppose. It was an offer I had initially dismissed, not wanting anything to do with the Heroine past our coincidental meeting. That resolve had been short lived, mind you, but only because I was too weak of will to continuously deny her heartfelt pleas for a rendezvous.
Then came my dual confrontations with Abigail and Sylvanna, which caused my mindset to shift yet further. Where once I'd planned to run away and begin a new life as an adventurer, now I wished to build a solid foundation of trust with Lucy, so that I could reveal my identity to her without her turning on me. As such, I had nothing but thanks for my past self and her "poor" decision making - at least so far as it applied to this singular instance.
Even so, from start to finish, Lucy's kind offer of assistance had never been more than an afterthought. And, with everything going on…
"Would you believe that I forgot?"
"You forgot?" Lucy parroted. Her tone, like her expression, was difficult to read, but I was fairly sure it wasn't irate. A short lived relief. "You promise?"
"Promise…? You make it sound like I have something to gain with such a lie," I remarked, a furrow of confusion marring my brow. "If I wanted to cover for myself, don't you think I'd be spinning tales about not wanting to take advantage of your generosity, rather than admitting to an embarrassing oversight?"
"That sort of statement is exactly why I want you to promise me, before the goddess, that you just forgot!" Lucy proclaimed. "Though I guess it also proves you're telling the truth, since you don't seem to realize how backwards your way of thinking is… But that doesn't make me worry any less!"
"Backwards…?" Now I was starting to feel like a parrot. A very confused parrot, who dearly wished to know why Lucy's requested promise seemed to be escalating in nature. When, precisely, had the goddess come into this?
"Extremely backwards!" Lucy confirmed, thrusting her finger towards me, the tip of it stopping just short of my clavicle. "Eena, there's no world in which you forgetting about my offer of help would ever upset me! The only one who suffered from that is you - and I can still talk to the guild master once we're done here, so I don't think that really counts in the first place! I'm much more worried about you thinking that you could ever impose upon me by taking me up on something I freely offered! Especially when we both know that part of why I offered it was explicitly because I wanted to see you again!"
I blinked, caught off guard by Lucy's rather passionate declaration of intent. I could feel heat rising to my cheeks as it dawned upon me just what had made her mad - the idea that I valued her time more than my own… Or, rather, the idea that I valued my time less than hers, I suppose. Which meant that the reason she wished me to promise was that she'd already come to the conclusion that I thought less of myself than she did… Not that it was a very hard conclusion to come to, I suppose.
The corners of my lips curled upwards, a soft thrum of joy running through me in the wake of this realization. It wasn't due to her thoughts on the matter, in and of themselves, mind you - and it certainly wasn't due to her lecture. I already had a demonic maid muttering about my self-esteem, I didn't need a naive heroine claiming my thoughts to be backward. But, after a day of dealing with those who quaked in my presence, it was nice to know that Lucy would go so far as to welcome me wasting her time, purely for the sake of the very same company others had been so desperate to avoid.
"Very well," I acceded. "A promise can be given, if that is what you wish. But as for you helping me with my membership issues - if you truly find my company to be of such worth, I do believe I have a superior suggestion. One that has the added benefit of taking our… beleaguered guildmaster out of the picture." And spare me from more of his scrutiny.
"Eena…" Lucy's eyes widened, much to my confusion, and for the briefest moment I saw a flicker of fear pass through her eyes. It was gone so quick I might have thought it a figment of my imagination, if not for the way her voice had wavered when she'd said my name. "I'm happy to hear your ideas, but… Has anyone ever told you that you have a tendency to sound really ominous, sometimes?"
"Only you," I replied, frowning as I recalled the last instance of this strange pronouncement. Back when I told her we needed to have sex somewhere isolated enough that nobody would hear her scream. "Though I hardly see what's so ominous about expressing concern for others."
"That's not exactly what I meant, Eena…" The look upon Lucy's face was unnervingly close to defeat, but the smile that followed was so bright as to make me doubt the previous shadows. "It's fine, though! I already know you're built a little differently, after all - and I don't have any intention of rejecting that, or any other part of you! So why don't we move onto you telling me your idea?"
I regarded Lucy silently for a moment, trying and failing to discern what was going on inside her skull. Eventually, I decided to give up with a shake of my own head, deciding to take Lucy's words of acceptance to heart - though I'd be applying them to the Heroine, herself, for my part.
"Put simply?" I said, eventually. "I want to earn my place amidst the adventurers. To prove not only my strength, but my commitment. To that end, I believe that completing the rookie requests would be beneficial. But I happen to be in need of a mentor figure, who can vouch for me. One of unassailable character… If you understand my meaning?"
I smiled at Lucy, hoping that my sincere desire for her help would outshine the guilt I felt for my half-truths, at least enough to keep the latter from showing on my face. It wasn't as if I were lying, per se. I did wish to prove myself, to some degree - to be seen as an adventurer, during my time amidst humanity, and not an unknown variable of frightening power. And Lucy's help would, of course, be paramount to accomplishing the goal. But, more than that, I wished to prove myself to Lucy. To show her my willingness to work towards my goals, while exposing her to… If not the best side of me, then at least to meas a whole. Because as much as Lucy trusted me right now, as much as she believed in the goodness of my heart, the fact of the matter was that she hardly knew me at all. Without actual experiences to back up her view of me, I feared her good will could easily be overwritten by misconceptions and misunderstandings when my identity was revealed.
Naturally, there was a limit to how much she could learn of me while I was hiding that identity… But if I couldn't tell her the full truth with words, then I would at least do my best to show her through action. I would spend time with her, allowing her to see my virtues and flaws alike in action. Of course, the latter might well overwhelm the former. She could easily end up with a lower opinion of me, by the end. But that was fine. I didn't need her to love me. I only needed her to understand me, so that she would recognize my sincerity when I asked her for help with my people.
Which was why I was honestly rather relieved that I could use the rookie requests as an excuse to spend time with her. Otherwise, I would have been forced to stick with my original plan, and agree to join her party. Not an unworkable plot, by any means, but one that would have been harder to pull off, in my opinion. Those misconceptions and misunderstandings, such as accusations of sabotage, could all too easily rear their head if I were to officially join her in a quest to kill myself.
"Well, if that's how you want to handle it, I definitely wouldn't mind spending more time with you… But, if possible, I really don't want it to be limited to just adventuring, though!"
"You want us to spend more time together, afterward?" I questioned, arching an eyebrow. Was this a prelude to her asking me to join her party after all?
"I do!" Lucy confirmed. "Because there's something I want to do - but it's something I can't do without you. Without your willing help, too, so… this isn't exactly a demand. You can say no, but… Eena… Would you please…"
I tensed, watching Lucy take a deep breath, looking uncharacteristically nervous as she closed her eyes and gathered up her courage. She was obviously gearing up to ask me something big and, no matter what she said to the contrary, I knew I would have no choice but to agree. To do otherwise would endanger our long-term relationship.
"Please go out with me!"
And we're back to Devilla and Lucy, with an absolutely not at all evil chapter!
I actually wrote it directly after chapter 14, but ultimately decided to finish up with Abigail's scenes rather than switching back and forth. Part of the reason for that was simply due to the way this chapter ended - I didn't want to be jumping between cliff hangers on either side. (Of course that means my poor patrons had to wait for me to finish another 3 chapters before I even started working on the continuation.)
The good news is, I've had plenty of time to finish chapter 19! It's currently on my Patreon (alongside chapter 20), and will be getting its public release in a week. (Fair warning - the next couple chapters are going to be pretty damn short. I do think they're exactly as long as they need to be, though, and the shorter length does mean consistent weekly posts through the 14th. I'm expecting 21 to be closer in length to the early chapters, too, though I don't want to make any guarantees.)
As always, I want to give thanks to my proofreader FallingLeaf, and my wonderful beta reader Lulla. And thanks to my lovely readers, too! I hope you enjoyed~!
It's funny how some things manage to escape your notice entirely, until after they've disappeared. I, for example, failed to notice the ubiquitous chatter of our fellow guild members until it suddenly fell silent. In fact, I'd more or less blocked out my surroundings altogether, so focused was I upon my surprise reunion with Lucy.
And then, of course, there's the corollary to my initial statement - that you often don't appreciate what you have until it's gone. Like the previously alluded to silence of the guildhall, which I very much wished would disappear, right up until the moment it actually did so. It was replaced by the commotion of every single adventurer in the guild hall - and the staff, for that matter - trying to speak at the same time. Each and every one of them commenting on Lucy's words.
Not that I could really make out any specific conversations, mind you. I'm not entirely convinced anyone was calm enough to hold something so structured, in the first place. But the words "highborn" and "Heroine" were being repeated so frequently as to be impossible to misconstrue the topic of interest, even if I were dense enough to misattribute the commotion to begin with.
"Eena?" Lucy whispered, looking a little unnerved. "What's going on?"
I wondered what they were saying about me. What tales were they spinning, to explain how the nasty highborn had managed to snatch the heart of their beloved Heroine?
"Eena?"
Not that it really mattered what a bunch of random humans thought of me. They could say whatever they wished behind my back, and it wouldn't mean a thing to me, so long as Lucy didn't listen to them. So long as I had her by my side. So long as she didn't decide that it wasn't worth the trouble of staying around me. So long as she didn't leave me.
I felt a hand grasp my wrist, and offered no resistance. I felt it tug me forward so I walked towards it. Another hand touched my forehead, but despite my confusion no words of protest escaped my lips. My mind was a jumbled mess, the trials of the last two days slamming into me all at once after the momentary respite that was my reunion with Lucy. The brief moment where everything seemed like it would be okay. Where I didn't have to worry about people misunderstanding me, or misjudging me, or rejecting me based only on what they thought they knew of me.
I wondered if Lucy would be the next to-
"Veroon, Bellooosa mador!"
A familiar warmth washed over me, a sheet of holy magic coating my flesh. The noise of the crowd receded. Not that it was any softer, per se - the spell merely added a sense of distance, as if the speakers were somehow very far away, despite being nearly within arm's distance. I knew instinctively that I could shut it out completely if I so desired.
"Eena! Are you okay? Can you hear me? I've cast a privacy spell on us - we can talk to each other, so long as we're touching, and nobody else will be able to hear us."
"I…" I started, then stopped, noting the way my voice was trembling. First there was my overreaction to her hug, and now this? Was worrying Lucy all I could manage?
"You can say no to me, if you want - I promise that nobody will be able to hear you reject me, if that's what worrying you - but are you really that opposed to going out with me?"
"No!" I cried out, shaking my head rapidly. "I mean, I'm not…" I hesitated, unsure how to continue. I was fairly certain Lucy hadn't truly meant to ask me out. Even beyond the obvious questions - such as why she'd even be interested in me, in such a way - there was the fact that she'd opened with how there was something she wished to accomplish. But if I was wrong in that assumption, wouldn't I be making even more trouble?
"Then what is it?" the Heroine asked me, leaning forward. "Whatever it is, I'm sure I can help you deal with it! Whether it's your self-image, or the Demon Queen herself, there's nothing we can't handle if we put our heads together!"
I stared at Lucy, whose eyes shone so bright with passion and determination. I knew, just by looking into them, that she fully believed what she was saying. That, despite having no clue whatsoever about what might be plaguing me, she truly believed with all her heart that we could conquer it together. That any issue could be set right, if we were willing to work for it. It was such a naive view, from my standpoint. A mockery of all the hopelessness I'd ever felt, in both this life and my last. And yet, in the face of that indomitable determination, I couldn't help but smile.
What right did I have to belittle her confidence, considering my own mission? Wasn't I the one trying to end a two thousand year old war by befriending someone who was meant to be my mortal enemy? An impossible task, by most standards. The very definition of hopeless, when one considered how quickly I'd grown discouraged. How easily I'd allowed my frustrations to demotivate me, and my worries to direct my next steps. And yet the one person I needed most was standing in front of me, happily declaring her determination to move forward alongside me… How could I possibly worry about her abandoning me, when she was so obviously determined to fight by my side?
Even if her choice of example issues did leave something to be desired.
"Thank you, Lucy. Truly. But I'm not sure the present issue is one that can be tackled so easily." I held up a hand to forestall her protests, hoping that the soft smile on my lips would convey that I wasn't speaking from pessimism, or anger. "Did you truly mean to ask me on a date? In front of all these people?"
Lucy's eyes went wide. "No! I would never!"
…A bit blunt, but not unexpected. I nodded, opening my mouth to explain-
"Not in front of everyone! And not while you're still suffering from such low self-esteem! I mean, that would put all sorts of pressure on you, wouldn't it?"
I paused for a moment, then shook my head. The qualifiers were unexpected, but it wasn't as if she'd actually said anything about wishing to date me. She likely just wanted to soften the blow. Still, to be sure…
"Then your request to ask me out was not romantic in nature, yes?"
"Of course not!" Lucy confirmed. "It's just that I've realized I can't convince you how wonderful you are with words alone, so I want to show you with actions! I'm sure that if we go out together as friends, you'll see for yourself how much enjoyment I can find in your presence, and you'll realize that there's nothing about you that could ever drive me away! That you really are deserving of affection, friendship, and love!"
So that's what it was. My poor self-image - realistic as I swore it was - must truly have concerned her, for her to hatch such a plot. Still, it matched my own plans perfectly, so I hardly saw reason to refuse.
"And then I'll ask you out! Privately!"
I froze in place, listening to the crowd around me for any hint that the soundproofing might be flawed. That someone might have read her lips. The sound grew closer, as I focused, but the volume stayed more or less the same. I heard no reference to our current words.
"You mean romantically?" I asked, slowly, my face pointed away from the crowd as a precaution.
"Uh-huh! As long as I still feel this way about you!" Lucy casually confirmed, not a hint of caution upon her features. "I think we should get to know each other as friends first, though! That way, maybe our feelings will deepen it on both our ends, so that you'll say yes, and I won't have to worry about pressuring you into a relationship!"
"Lucy…" For a moment, I considered pointing out that this confession of hers was applying pressure in and of itself. Or perhaps simply telling her that there was absolutely no way this strange plan of hers could ever work. That she couldn't convince me I was worthy of something when I wasn't. That I wasn't even someone she should consider dating.
Ultimately, however, I knew that this crush of hers was no more than that - a temporary thing that would surely fall alongside her opinion of me as time wore on. For now, I had a much more pressing concern.
"What say you to moving this conversation to a different venue? Preferably one with less of an audience? Even if they can't hear us, it's difficult to relax, knowing the current subject of their gossip…"
"Does that mean you're okay with going out with me?" Lucy asked, her eyes shining bright.
"If you agree to stop referring to it that way, then yes - we can do things together.
"Great!" Lucy exclaimed, loosening her grip upon my wrist so that she could instead snatch up my hand. The holy magic surrounding me fluctuated a little with the movement, but ultimately stayed in place. "Because there's this food stall that I saw on the way here, and I really want to share some of its food with you! And there's this shop I really want to show you, too! And… Have you already decided where you're going to spend the night?"
"I have," I confirmed, as the overeager Heroine led me through the door. "An inn called the Queen's Crown."
"Oh, I've heard some of the other adventures talking about that one, before!" Lucy informed me, with a wide smile upon her lips and a skip to her step as she dragged me out the door. "I hear they have soft beds and thick walls! I can't wait!"
So, fun fact about Lucy's confession - it wasn't actually part of my original plans. Initially, way before I even got to this chapter, I planned to have Lucy keep silent about her crush until she thought Devilla was ready for romance. Even after I'd gotten this far, and decided that her keeping silent wasn't a good fit, my first thought was for her to accidentally let it slip, only to have Devilla be too out of it to process her words… But then I remembered the many complaints I've heard from multiple friends about miscommunication tropes, and said screw it. This feels way more in character, anyway. And it makes the end of chapter 18 feel less like a tease, too~
Speaking of friends, it's time for my traditional thank yous! To FallingLeaf, who proofreads, to Lulla, who beta read, and to my audience, whose comments and favorites make my day - thank you all for reading! I hope to see you all back for chapter 20, in a week.
PS: Chapter 20 is another short one, but chapter 21 - which will be released on the 21st - clocks in at over 7.5k words. Something to look forward to, if you prefer longer chapters~! (The former is already up on my Patreon, while the latter is currently undergoing proofreading. It's taking a bit longer than usual, due to its size, but I expect it to be up soon.)
Like Emily and Charlie of Hazbin Hotel, and the other equally precious people in fiction and real life I know: Lucy's smile must be protected, but also, Lucy... Lucy please. (That said, was the name an intentional Satanic reference? Lucy Fur? Because it fits SO WELL.)
Like Emily and Charlie of Hazbin Hotel, and the other equally precious people in fiction and real life I know: Lucy's smile must be protected, but also, Lucy... Lucy please. (That said, was the name an intentional Satanic reference? Lucy Fur? Because it fits SO WELL.)
Devilla's ancestor - Luci Satanne - was a reference to Lucifer. Lucy the Heroine, not so much. Though it might fit, all the same - she's certainly putting Devilla through her own personal version of hell, these last couple chapters... And Devilla can't even find it in herself to be mad at Lucy for it~
It was an interesting experience, walking down the street hand and hand with the Heroine. Though I suppose it was less about the experience itself, and more about the shocking mundanity of it. Nobody pointed at us, or stared. There were no whispers about the highborn, the Heroine, or even questions about the girls in shiny armor and skimpy clothing. People obviously knew we were present, as they moved in such a way as to avoid collision, but their gazes never seemed to settle on our forms.
Perhaps it was another effect of Lucy's privacy spell? If so, I could only hope that she'd cast it again in my presence. In fact, I'd be holding onto that hope even if it wasn't. The basic sound proofing alone would likely be more effective at thwarting spider spies than peppermint oil could ever hope to be. It almost made me wish I had a way to cancel my request for it. Almost, because there was still a chance the passive effect of the oil's scent deterring spider-spies might prove worthwhile. Assuming it worked, at least…
"That's the stall I was talking about!" Lucy informed me, drawing my attention back to the present and redirecting it towards a humble little stand. And I do mean humble. It consisted of nothing more than a grill and a sign, the latter of which merely listed a price of 6 copper virtues alongside a picture of what looked to be meat on a skewer.
"I'm surprised it managed to catch your eye," I remarked, internally comparing the stand to some of the more elaborate food stalls surrounding us. Though that adjective's use was admittedly rather relative, the other stands at least had things like counters, and colorful pictures to try and draw customers to them.
"My friend Eff told me about it, actually," Lucy apprised me, a bright smile on her face as she drew forth the memory. "A couple years back, a little after I joined the adventurer's guild. It's actually my favorite stall! But today's the first time he's set up shop since my arrival… Maybe it's a sign of the Goddess blessing our reunion!"
I had to bite my tongue to keep from scoffing. The mere idea of that absentee goddess intervening with something like this when she couldn't even be bothered to referee my aunts in heaven was enough to ruin my appetite.
Thankfully, the scent of charred meat wafting from the stand quickly reignited it.
"Are you going to be okay if I drop the privacy spell?" Lucy asked me, giving my hand a little squeeze. "We'll get more attention, but it won't be anything like in the guild."
"It would be rather awkward to order if you didn't," I pointed out, returning her gesture of reassurance in kind. "I'll be fine, Lucy. If stares and whispers are the price I must pay for your company, then so be it. I'd rather weather them alongside you than walk alone, in any case."
A tinge of pink appeared upon Lucy's cheeks. Perhaps my words had embarrassed her? If so, I could only be grateful that I'd said them before her spell came down, for a moment later the warmth of its holy magic disappeared, and the noise of the world at large washed over me.
The surrounding pedestrians did, of course, notice us once the spell had lifted. But, to my surprise, they did not gawk or gossip in quite the same way that the adventurers had. There were whispers, and lingering looks, of course, but their forward movement didn't cease. In many cases, it barely slowed. In fact, the one who showed the most overt reaction of all came from the stall owner Lucy was steering me towards, who momentarily froze in the act of handing a pair of skewers to his most recent customer.
"Miss Heroine!" he called out, sporting a grin that was just a little bit too wide to pass for sincere. It didn't seem entirely fake, mind you - at least not to my admittedly amateur eye - but rather a touch strained. Like genuine joy had been tainted by nervous energy. "I was wondering whether I'd see you today. Was starting to think I'd need to put some meat in reserve."
"Wilhoon!" Lucy whined, her smile transforming into a pout. "Didn't I ask you not to do that anymore? You'll have less time to spend with your family if you wait for me, won't you? And if I don't come, for whatever reason, you'll have less money to spend!"
"Aye, miss Heroine," the man laughed, a smile on his lips as he scratched at a scar on the side of his nose. "But how could I face the Goddess in prayer, knowing that her champion lost a chance at the best meal she's ever had? It's venison today, you know? Your favorite - went hunting for it the moment I heard you were in town."
"I'd rather lose out on a meal than see you losing time with your husband," Lucy objected, stepping forward as the man's redheaded customer beat a hasty retreat, not even sparing a glance in Lucy's direction as she rushed off with a meaty skewer in hand. "Isn't his number one complaint that you spend too much time away from home? And I bet you spent forever in the woods, trying to find the perfect game for me, too! Even though I would have been happy with anything you cooked…"
"Ah…. You remember that, do you?" Wilhoon's laugh was more of a nervous chuckle, this time. "Really, I don't know what I was thinking, sharing my worries with the Heroine… As if you don't have enough on your plate already… Asteen chewed me out big time for that when I got home, y'know? And I'm sure he'd do it all over again if I didn't make sure you were well fed, and motivated and for your journey! So what'll it be? Three skewers? Four? I know you usually get two, but what about your lady friend over there?"
The hunter turned his attention from Lucy to me, the unabashed curiosity in his eyes standing in sharp contrast to the red tinge of his cheeks. As he looked me over, I took the opportunity to do the same to him.
He was tall, at around five foot ten, with mossy green hair and the start of a beard that looked almost like lichen had begun to sprout against his skin. There was a small notch on the side of his nose, where the flesh had obviously been gouged at one point - perhaps by a wild animal? - and he might have looked intimidating, with his blood red eyes, if it weren't for his jovial smile. It had grown more natural over the course of his conversation with Lucy, though I still saw a bit of tension in how he held himself. More interesting to me was his hands, though, which were dicing up chunks of meat with practiced ease, even as he examined me.
"Six virtues a skewer, yes?" I asked, waiting for his nod of confirmation. Unnecessary, considering his prominent sign, but it felt like the polite thing to do. "I'll take two."
"Two silver crosses for all four, then," the man said, eliciting an arched eyebrow from me. That was four virtues too few, if Feyra's lessons on currency were to be believed. "Heroine discount."
"I don't need a discount, though!" Lucy protested. "You worked really hard to hunt this, didn't you? And I bet you passed up easier prey so that you could try and get my favorite, too! You deserve to be paid for your work!"
"Aye… And it's by the grace of the heavens that I succeeded in catching anything at all, hard work be…" He froze, from a moment, his smile growing just a touch more forced as the movements of his knife ceased. "Well, let's just call this my way of thanking the goddess for my good fortune."
"Perhaps I could offer a compromise?" I suggested, before Lucy could object further. "If I were to pay for our meals, then there'd hardly be a reason for a 'Heroine discount.'"
"But then I'm not contributing at all," Lucy pointed out. "I don't want to be getting free things just because I'm the Heroine! What's the point of having money if people keep giving me things for free?"
"Who says you're not contributing?" I countered, with a teasing smile upon my lips. "Did you know that I paid my last tour guide in saints? And yet the Heroine herself is now offering to show me around, for free. I'd hardly be able to live with myself if I couldn't at least cover her meal."
"...Fine," Lucy conceded, looking between me and the vendor, whose smile seemed to be growing stiffer by the second. "But only if you promise not to call me 'the Heroine' again! I like it way more when you just call me Lucy!"
"An easy enough concession," I confirmed, nodding in agreement. "Assuming, of course, that the arrangement is acceptable to all parties?"
"Ah, well…" Wilhoon nervously, rubbing at the back of his head. "A man needs to know when he's beat, doesn't he?"
"Then it would seem that an accord has been reached," I declared, reaching into my pocket and pulling out the proper assortment of coins. "Four skewers, please."
"Right… Four skewers for the Heroine and her girlfriend, then," he agreed, returning to the cubing of his meat. "Coming right up."
I opened my mouth to protest the appellation, only to close it again at the sight of Lucy's smile. I knew the term to be inaccurate, even if Wilhoon meant it in its more platonic form. Considering how little Lucy knew of me, I hardly even had the qualifications to be called 'friend,' let alone something so intimate as this. But faced with her pure joy at our connection being recognized…Well, at the end of the day, it was just a word. And considering the fact that she'd already asked me out in front of a guild full of strangers… What harm could one more misunderstanding do to me?
Thinking such, I turned my attention back to the meat in front of me. While the future might hold many mysteries, there was one question in particular that I knew would soon be answered. One that had me salivating, in anticipation.
What in the world would Lucy's favorite meal taste like?
Devilla? Food motivated? I have no clue what you're talking about! She just... Uh... Really wants to know more about Lucy's tastes? Yeah. That must be it...
Jokes aside, I do hope you enjoyed the chapter! It's another short one, I know, but chapter 21 (which will be released on the 21st) will make up for that in spades. It's where this (totally not a) date starts in earnest, and it covers said not!date in its entirety. (Chapter 22, meanwhile, returns us to a 2k word count. Something that seems like it might become the norm, at this rate. Both are already up on Patreon, for the impatient~)
Many thanks, as always, to FallingLeaf for proofreading, to my friend Lulla for being my beta reader, and to both of them for listening to my endless babble as I work out my plans for future chapters.
Actual NSFW content for the first time in a while.
Devilla
I studied my venison skewers as Lucy and I walked toward our next destination. They were simple in construction, consisting of cubed meat impaled by wood, cooked upon a grill, lightly salted and slightly charred. They smelled good, and - judging by a quick nibble - tasted decent. But were they truly worth the praise Lucy had bestowed upon them?
"Is something wrong?" Lucy asked, already halfway through the first of her meaty treats. "If you don't like the taste, I can take you somewhere else!"
"The taste is fine," I assured her, taking a larger bite. The meat was firm and smooth, boasting a surprising depth of flavor, the lack of culinary seasoning supplemented by the creature's own varied diet. A bit gamey, but not bad at all. "I'm just confused, I suppose. For as good as it tastes, I cannot help but credit that to the ingredients over the chef. And yet you called his stall your favorite? I mean no offense, but surely there are others who could do the job as well?"
"I think you're underestimating how hard it is to hunt stuff, Eena," Lucy chided me. "Hunters are basically competing with monsters! Monsters who will want to attack them, too! I mean, Wilhoon's actually an adventurer, you know? He makes most of his money selling monster material to guild!"
"Why not sell them at his stall, instead?" I questioned, taking another bite of the meat. Though I had a newfound appreciation for its rarity, I still thought it could have used more seasoning. As wonderful as salt was, even fries couldn't truly shine with that alone. Dipping sauces were essential. Speaking of which… "Could you hold this for me?" I asked, extending my skewers. "There's something I need to retrieve from my pack."
"People don't eat monster meat, Eena," Lucy informed me, lowering her voice to a whisper as she took hold of my meal. "The church teaches that it's fine to use their materials for weapons and stuff - to fight them with their own tools - but that consuming their flesh is to invite darkness into our hearts… Not that I really agree with them…" Lucy trailed off, the frown that had briefly marred her features disappearing. "But we're getting off topic! The food's not really why Wilhoon's stall is my favorite, anyway."
"No?" I questioned, digging into my pack, past the non-perishable goods that filled it, to reach the Empty Bag hiding within. "Then what is?"
"The way he treats me! He's always been way more casual with me than the other vendors!"
I had to bite my tongue to keep from questioning Lucy's words. I didn't wish to disparage her favorite stall further, but if that was her idea of a 'casual' interaction, then I had to wonder whether my manner of speaking even registered with her as formal. The man hadn't even called her by name! And he'd clearly been nervous the entire time, albeit to varying degrees… But I had no wish to endanger whatever joy she found in frequenting the place. Especially if the other vendors were, indeed, bad enough to make Wilhoon seem friendly by comparison.
"If it's more the vendor than the flavor that drew you," I said instead, "then perhaps you won't mind me making a minor adjustment to the taste?"
"What do you mean?" Lucy asked, eyeing my pack. Her eyes widened as I drew forth a glass bottle, curiosity written clearly upon her brow as she studied the red liquid within.
"This is called hot sauce," I apprised her, tugging its cork free from the narrow neck. "A spicy topping that goes well with meat."
I watched Lucy for her reaction, just as she in turn studied the condiment I held. I was a little concerned that she might question its presence in my possessions, deviating as it did from standard adventurer fare, but thankfully, she seemed more curious about its contents than confused as to why I had such a thing in the first place. I could only hope that she'd be as accepting of the other sauces, spices, and herbs that Lenora had helped to procure. It would be best if I probed her acceptance carefully, so as to avoid breaking my promise with Abigail to be discreet.
"Can I try some?" Lucy asked after a moment of study.
"If you'd like," I assented, proffering the bottle with one hand as I reached out to retrieve my two remaining skewers from her. She had, I noticed, finished the first of hers. "Though I'd be careful with the quantity. It's quite potent."
"Don't worry," Lucy replied, confidence puffing up her chest, as she proceeded to pour a generous heaping upon the first chunk of her skewer. "I have a really high tolerance to spicy stuff!"
Or so she said. And yet the very moment her teeth cut through the meat… "Spicyyyyyyyyyy!"
"I did try to warn you," I sighed, trying not to chuckle at the Heroine who'd been brought to tears with a single bite. It was hard to imagine that her presence had ever struck me with terror, seeing her like this.
"I thought you were just underestimating me!" Lucy explained, levitating the bottle over to me via arcane magic, so that her hand would be free to fan at her overheated tongue. A futile gesture, but one I understood all too well - though only via my memories as Jacob. "I mean, I've had hot sauce before, and usually I need at least that much just to feel it!"
I replied with a noncommittal hum, unsure how to justify the differences in strength between Lenora's concoction and those that Lucy was more familiar with. It made sense to me, now that it had been pointed out. Lucy's people didn't have dryads, capable of producing entire fields of peppers almost at will, and as such were no doubt stingier with their supplies. Not to mention the fact that we demons of the tower had long been forced to compensate for a lack of salt in our cuisine, with other, stronger flavors. And yet, as obvious as it seemed to me, none of it was fit for open discussion, while I was hiding my identity.
And speaking of the inexplicable…
"You can't seriously be planning to go back for another bite?" I queried, voice weighted with disbelief as I watched the Heroine slowly bringing the skewer back towards her face. Her eyes were still watering! Not to mention the emotions contained within them - a combination of determination and terror.
"I don't want to waste it!" Lucy told me, her resolve blazing ever brighter, as if she were gathering the courage to face her greatest enemy. Which I suppose wasn't too far off base, considering the snack's origin, but it was still not an expression befitting the consumption of good food. "Wilhoon put his all into hunting this meat! And I bet you don't have a ton of that sauce, either, right?"
"Well…" I obviously did - a near unlimited supply, in fact. But there was a limit to what I could explain having on me.
"This meal isn't just meat and sauce! It's filled with the feelings of those I care about! So there's no way I'll ever let that go to waste!"
Saying so, Lucy opened her mouth wide to take another bite. The skewer, however, never entered her maw, as my magic quickly pulled it back.
"Don't be stupid," I grumbled, snatching the hot sauce from her magic's grasp, pouring a singular drop upon the skewer that I had bitten into, so that I might offer it to her. I would have gone for the untouched skewer, but I didn't want to hear any complaints about taking more than she was giving. "Our feelings are meant to bring you joy, not pain."
"Eena…" Lucy hesitated, her eyes traveling back and forth between the sauce drenched skewer she currently gripped, and the one I'd offered her in trade. "Are you sure? Wouldn't that just put you in trouble, instead of me?"
"As if such a small amount of sauce could possibly trouble me," I replied with a derisive snort. A bit excessive, perhaps, but I wanted to ensure she took me seriously. Especially since I was speaking truthfully - while there was some risk of the sauce washing out the meat's flavor profile, there was no chance of its heat debilitating me. I could drink it straight and be fine. In fact I'd done just that, on multiple occasions, in order to judge Lenora's foray into sauce making.
"Well… If you're sure," Lucy said, overcoming her reluctance and making the trade.
She watched me, nerves obvious, as I raised the oversauced meat to my lips and bit into it. The heat washed over me, and while my fear of losing the venison's taste proved true, the spice itself did me no ill. Indeed, I'd simply need to finish the chunk of meat she'd drenched, and then move onto the lower ones, which had merely caught the dripping excess. I could even switch between the two skewers I now held, so as to enjoy the taste in both its classic and altered forms.
The smile that thought brought to my lips must have alleviated Lucy's concern, for she was soon raising the meal for a bite of her own. It was only as I watched her bite consume the marks I myself had left upon the meat that something occurred to me - that this might, perhaps, count as an indirect kiss.
My face turned red. Then redder yet, when I saw that Lucy herself seemed to hold no such concerns, her focus entirely on the consumption of hot sauce and venison. I was being ridiculous, I realized, allowing thoughts of lips on lips to pass through my mind, while Lucy herself blissfully enjoyed her meal. To think about what it would feel, if a more direct variant of the concept came to pass.
Did this even count? We were biting the food, not sealing our lips upon it. And even if it did, did Solla even have such a concept to begin with? I wasn't sure how much of Earth did, for that matter, having never really come across it outside of the anime that Jacob used to watch. And Lucy certainly didn't seem to be thinking about such ridiculous things as our mouths… sealing against one another…
"Can I have some more?"
I nodded, rapidly, my cheeks on fire as I pushed the embarrassing notion from my mind.
"Eena?" Lucy queried me, her hand yet to reach for the sauce. "Are you okay? Your face is all red…?"
I shook my head, in lieu of a verbal response, not trusting my voice to remain steady. Similarly, my eyes avoided Lucy's, taken as I was by the irrational fear that she might give her some clue as to what was going through my mind.
"Oh no… Don't tell me the sauce got to you after all? I knew I shouldn't have let you take it!"
"N-no!" I squeaked out, cursing the quivering of my voice. I was being ridiculous. Letting Lucy's talk of romance and dates put ideas in my mind… But… The idea of kissing, outside of sex, was just so… So… intimate. Indirect or not! "I'm just… Embarrassed by… Well…" I hesitated, chancing a look upon her face. The concern I saw in her eyes brought guilt bubbling forth from within me. Was she blaming herself for taking the trade from me? Would she try and take it back? And if so, wouldn't that lead to another indirect kiss through it!? "Ijusthadtheideathatwemighthaveindirectlykissedisall!"
Lucy blinked at the words - or maybe just word - that had been birthed from my mortification. I watched her mouthing what I'd said, picking it apart. And then I saw a blush touch her cheeks, as they had mine - but it was lighter, a simple pink compared to my own crimson cheeks. And it was paired with a smile.
"I don't think that counts as a kiss, Eena. I mean, we were just biting it, weren't we?"
I nodded, slower this time, feeling even more like a fool than before. Lucy's words only reinforced my own thoughts on the matter, but, somehow, it felt more convincing coming from her lips than it had going through my mind.
"Besides, there's no way I'd be satisfied with that as our first kiss! When it comes, I want to enjoy it!"
…I wondered what Lucy would think, if she knew how close she was to becoming the first Heroine to ever kill a Demon Queen through sheer embarrassment.
"You're really sensitive about this, aren't you?" Lucy asked me, her voice betraying not concern, but curiosity. "I didn't think you would be, considering how you are with… Other stuff…"
"Otherstuff, as you put it, is purely physical in nature," I pointed out to her, turning my head away and tilting it forward a little, in hopes of hiding my reddened cheeks behind a wall of temporarily brunette hair. "Kisses are romantic. Particularly so when separated from 'other stuff.'"
"I guess that makes sense…" Lucy conceded. "But then why didn't you get embarrassed when Wilhoon called you my girlfriend?"
"Because I knew he meant it platonically…" Little as I might have deserved the term, in either of its forms.
"Platonically? Why would it be platonic? That doesn't even make sense!"
"And assuming we're dating does?" I retorted, turning to face Lucy's frowning form.
"I mean, we were holding hands," Lucy reminded me. "Ordering food together. You even used my name!"
"That's… I'm not entirely sure why that last one made the list, but… Still! Surely that's a bit of a stretch?"
"Not as much of a stretch as calling girlfriends platonic," Lucy countered. "I mean, why would anyone even use it that way? It seems like it would get really confusing!"
"That's…" Accurate, actually. Of course, it had been misleading on Earth, as well. My friend Alice had complained about it regularly. But girls dating girls seemed to be more widely accepted on Solla, even amidst humans, than it had ever been in that world. Nobody had batted an eye at Lissera's interest in me, even in such a small village, and Lucy certainly showed no sign of shame for her preferences. Nor had she mentioned the church frowning upon it. "Wait a moment - if you knew he meant it romantically, then why did you not protest it? We're hardly dating, as of yet."
"Because you didn't, of course! I mean, it made me really happy that we looked like a couple, you know? So I'll back you up if you ever want to stop it, but I'm not going to go out of my way to end something that makes me so happy!"
I didn't know what to say to that. Lucy's infatuation with me was obvious, but the path through it much less so. I could only hope she'd come to realize her mistake in crushing on me as time passed and she grew to know me more.
My silence did nothing to dampen Lucy's mood, however, as she happily consumed the skewer I had given her, swapping back and forth between using the hot sauce and eating chunks plain. For my part, I ate at a much more sedate pace, savoring the flavor of each bite. The hot sauce made a world of difference, and I daresay I might have enjoyed the meal every bit as much as Lucy - though far less vocally. The sounds that girl made would have been more at home in a bed, than on the street.
"We're here!" Lucy declared, after a minute or two more, chewing through the last of her skewer and turning the wooden sticks to ash with a quick burst of magic. I followed suit, putting away the bottle of hot sauce as I looked over the building she had brought me to.
It was a small thing. Squat, made of brown bricks, with a garish yellow roof that drew the eye and a sign that I struggled to make sense of. It depicted what looked to be a spyglass, a wheel, a vase, and… a fork? There were words as well, thankfully, written in a flowing script that circled about the mishmash of items. "Carrie's Curiosities."
"This place has all sorts of interesting things, from all sorts of places!" Lucy excitedly informed me, pulling open the door. "I used to come here all the time, growing up."
"Growing up?" I questioned, following after the eager girl. "Does that mean this is your hometown?"
A quick glance around the shop showed me two things, one of which demanded far more attention than the other. The first, and less important matter, was a hulking man, with an unruly mop of blonde hair, who stood upright by one of the doors. He was easily over six feet - six foot two, if I were pressed to give a precise measurement - with bulky muscles that seemed more fit for intimidation than lifting. He was likely present as an anti-theft measure, but considering the unlikelihood of us partaking in such activities, combined with the simple fact that either me or Lucy could take him with both hands tied behind our back, he wasn't worth more than a cursory glance.
More noteworthy, to me, were the messy shelves, which rose to just a little below my head. They contained a multitude of items, such as small metal balls, fishing hooks, thick coils of rope, and - of course - the forks I'd noticed upon the sign. All scattered across the wooden racks with no rhyme or reason I could detect.
What's more, the shelves themselves had been arranged to form a spiral labyrinth of sorts. One would have to walk their entire length, passing each and every item on display, just to reach the counter on the other end. An underhanded selling technique if ever there was one. One that likely would have had me turning back around immediately, if not for the bright smile upon Lucy's face.
"Hi Rewdeen!" the redhead called, waving to the guard by the door, before turning back towards me. "And sort of? I mean, it's the first city I ever lived in, anyway. Or even visited! I actually grew up in a small cabin out in the woods! It was near a little village - about the same size as Derrin, actually! - and me and Mom would occasionally go there to stock up on supplies, and talk to people…" The smile slipped from her face. "I only came to the city after she died…"
"Lucy…" I whispered, reaching out to take her hand, as she had so often stolen mine. Much like me, she didn't protest or pull away, but even as my hand gripped hers, it momentarily felt like she was somewhere very far away.
Then her smile returned, as bright and joyful as ever, without even a hint of the fragility I had momentarily glimpsed within her eyes. "I've been here since I was thirteen, though! It's where I learned how to control my strength better, and use my holy magic, and be the best Heroine I can be to the people! And this shop actually helped a lot with that!"
"Is that so?" I asked her, returning her smile with one of my own as she squeezed my hand and pulled me forward, towards the shelves. Whether her smile was as forced as mine, I could not say, but if Lucy wished to put forth a brave face for the sake of the public then I would do my best to help her uphold that facade. I only hoped that she would be able to express herself more fully when we were alone.
"Uh-huh!" She gestured to the shelves with her free hand. "The owner - Carrie - buys her stock from adventurers. Everything on these shelves came from another city. Some of them are even from other countries! Which means even the little things we recognize could end up with big differences! Like…" She scanned the shelves for a moment. "Like these skewers!"
I followed the trajectory of her pointing finger with my eyes, and landed upon a pair of skewers completely unlike the ones that we'd just burnt. Wrought of metal instead of carved from wood, their ends had been twisted and turned to form simplified versions of animals - a chicken and a pig.
"I've only ever seen skewers used in street food around here," Lucy continued, her smile brightening just a touch further. Becoming, in my eyes, just a touch more real. "But in other cities, they're used in fancy restaurants! And it's the same with other cooking instruments, too! Not to mention clothes, farming implements, smithing techniques, and so much more! Wherever you go, things will be different than where you were…"
Lucy's gaze swept across the various items on the shelf as she led me down the stacks, her focus lingering occasionally - on a sun hat, a hoe, a pair of ornate chopsticks with white flowers painted upon their surface. "My whole world, back before I became an adventurer, was just the forest, that village, and this city… But when I came here, and looked at all the stuff on display, it made me realize that the world is so much bigger than that. That there are places, more different than I could ever imagine, out there… And that they're filled with people who are different, too! People who think differently than me, and do things differently. People I wouldn't be able to understand if I just stayed in town and trained like Father Tuffel wanted me to. That's why I became an adventurer - so I could go out, and meet those people! So that I could find out what sort of people made this stuff, and work to become the sort of Heroine they needed me to be! And do you want to know what I found out?"
"What?" The question wasn't a perfunctory one. Curiosity laid laden in the single word, alongside a touch of amusement as the corners of my lips turned upwards. I was being pulled along by Lucy's enthusiasm. And, much to my own surprise, I didn't mind it.
"That people are just people! Which… is sort of obvious, I guess, but… There's more to it than that?" Lucy's brow furrowed in thought, as for the first time I watched her actually pick her words before speaking them. "I mean, different people do need different things. The individual jobs I do change, from place to place, but the end results are usually the same? No matter how different people are, they all need to eat and sleep. They need places to stay, and they want safety for themselves and those they care about. They all have needs that need to be met, to get those things, and there's so many differences everywhere I go, but there's just as many similarities binding us all together! And it's not just that way with humans, either, but all living creatures! You know?"
I nodded, slowly, as her eyes met mine. It felt, in that moment, as if she were trying to say that she knew I was different, and that it was okay… That no matter what I told her about myself, it would be okay.
Or perhaps that was simply wishful thinking. A desire, on my part, to come clean. A desire that could cost my people everything, if I was mistaken about the limits of her understanding. She could just as easily be reminding me about our talk on animals and monsters. Perhaps it was Bailey she was truly asking after.
"There's another reason I wanted to bring you here, though!" Lucy added, offering a welcome distraction from my thoughts. "I was hoping you could pick an item to buy!"
"An item?" I queried, arching an eyebrow as my gaze swept across the shelves. There were many things, even in this small section we had walked through. A second sun hat, a pair of sandals, and a candle to name a few. But honestly, of them all, my mind turned back towards the skewers we had seen towards the entrance. Turning back around, without letting go of Lucy's hands, I spied them still perched upon their shelf. A brief flaring of my arcane magic, reaching out towards and enveloping them with the energy under my command, and I had them floating towards my hand. "Would two work?"
"That's fine!" Lucy confirmed. "They're a set, after all! And I know where they're from, too, which makes it even better!"
"Where they're from…" I murmured, glancing between the items, and her. "Were you hoping to tell me about the place, then? To ignite my imagination?"
"Close!" Lucy's smile shifted a little, taking on a nervous edge. "I was actually hoping we could go there, one day? So that I could show you how things differ! And help you see the world how I see it - full of people who are different, but also still the same! Still just people, living under the goddess's loving care!"
Loving care? I wondered how Lucy would take it, if she knew our goddess had abandoned this world long ago… What would it do to her, when she found out that everything she'd been taught was a lie? That the goddess she believed in was gone, and that her religion was nothing but cruelty and lies… Would she be able to believe it? Coming from me? Her supposed greatest enemy?
She claimed to have feelings for me. No - did have feelings for me. I could believe that much. But could mere infatuation possibly stand against everything she'd been taught? Just because she'd been willing to work alongside demons in the game, didn't mean she'd be able to accept their queen in reality. Not when she knew so little of me.
"Um. We don't have to stick to the skewers, if you don't want to?" Lucy offered. "You could pick something else? Or we could just not do it… Though I really hope you'll at least consider it!"
"No…" I shook my head, forcing another smile to come to my own lips. I reminded myself that I was here to grow closer to Lucyso that when the time came, my words would at least have a fighting chance of reaching her. So that the truth could, one day, be revealed.
Even if it meant hiding things in the present.
"I quite like these," I continued. "And there'd be a certain symmetry in it, besides. Assuming, that is, that you intend to ask me there on a proper date one day?"
My teasing tone and smile were ill matched to the painful feeling in my heart. I knew that there would be no date. That there was no way I could allow her to take me on one, even if I wanted to. She deserved better in romance than a girl who didn't even dare to share her real name.
Suddenly, I felt Lucy's hand tightening around my own, as - without so much as a word of justification - she began to pull me down the aisles at top speed. Before I could even think to question her, she'd tossed a gold coin upon the counter and was dragging me back out of the store again, all but sprinting out the door.
"Lucy?" I queried, once we'd left the building, the cool night air helping to shake me from my shock, as Lucy herself began to slow.
"I'm sorry, Eena! We'll talk at the inn!"
The telltale prickling of arcane magic upon my skin was the only warning I received, before a strong tug upon my shirt's collar sent me tumbling backwards. I realized, then, that Lucy's hand was no longer holding mine. Instead, her arms were circling about my legs and waist, as she picked me up in a princess carry and began to run in the direction of the Queen's Crown. Upon arrival, a scene similar to that in the shop occurred, with her slamming a coin down and hurriedly renting a room from an extremely flustered innkeeper. Then she was carrying me up the stairs, magically maneuvering a key into a lock, and bringing me across the threshold of the room we had been given.
"Lucy," I began, as soon as she had put me down, the door closed behind us. "What on Solla was that about!?"
"We need to talk!" Lucy declared, her eyes once more aflame with resolve. "Or more like, we don't need to talk! Or we need to talk about how we don't need to talk? And it's a talk that we need to have with absolute privacy, so… Veroon, Bellooosa mador!"
"Lucy?" I repeated, my tone a bit more cautious this time. I couldn't imagine much that would demand this level of secrecy from her. Excluding my identity, of course, but… Surely she didn't know that much?
"Eena," Lucy began, taking a deep breath. "I know you have secrets!"
I froze.
"And I don't want you to tell them to me!"
And unfroze. Or perhaps it would be better to say I 'twitched,' for that was about all the movement I managed before shock sealed my movements again.
"I'm really sorry, Eena! All that talk about acceptance and differences… It probably sounded like I was trying to pressure you into telling me something… Because I wanted you to know that I would accept you no matter what, you felt like you had to tell me what that 'what' was, didn't you? And then you started talking about dating me, with that pained smile on your face…"
"That's… was it really that obvious?" I questioned.
"Yes!" The firm response, lacking even an ounce of hesitation, made me grimace. Perhaps I wasn't cut out for faking my emotions, any more than I was for hiding them… "I knew I messed up, instantly! But I also knew you wouldn't want to talk about it in public, so I brought you here as quickly as I could!"
"And yet you're saying that you don't want me to tell you anything about what caused that pain? Because I find that rather hard to believe, coming from someone who so clearly wishes to get closer to me."
My words came out a touch harsher than I'd intended them to. Lucy didn't seem to mind, though, shaking her head with a smile that actually felt sincere.
"Of course I want to know! I want to know everything about you! But I want to know it when you want to tell me! If you tell me your secrets because you feel like you have to, then we aren't really getting closer, right? You're going to worry the entire time that I'll reject you. And you'll probably still worry afterward, no matter how much I try to reassure you! That's why I'd rather you not tell me anything just yet. Not until you can truly believe, with all your heart, that I'll accept whatever you have to say!"
"Lucy… That's…" Ridiculous? Incredibly optimistic and naive? She had no idea what I was keeping from her! No clue as to the world shattering secrets I was holding back from her. And yet the look in her eyes was the same I had seen after she'd accidentally asked me out in front of everyone. A look that said whatever secrets I held didn't matter. Because whatever my secrets were, she would accept them anyway.
And yet…
"I… Can't tell you yet…" I whispered, shame burning in my chest. "But someday… I promise."
"'Someday' is good enough for me!" Lucy declared, with a grin so wide you'd never believe that I'd just rejected her trust.
"...Then… For now. I will at least trust you with this much." I took a deep breath. "Eena isn't my real name. It's nothing but an alias." I tensed, waiting for the reprimand. Waiting for her to demand that I go further, to say that she deserved at least that much.
What I received, instead, was a tight embrace.
"Thank you for telling me that. I look forward to hearing your real name, someday," Lucy squeezed tighter. "But I'm happy to call you Eena for now, okay? You can keep it a secret for as long as you need! But there is one rule I want to set! And a request I want to make, but you can say no to that one, if you don't feel up to it."
"A rule?" I questioned. She nodded, the movement felt rather than seen due to her head's position upon my shoulders.
"Don't lie to me!" She parted from me, her eyes meeting mine in a display of seriousness. "That's really important, okay? If there's something you can't tell me, just say so! I'll trust you, so trust me not to ask too many questions!"
I nodded, slowly, fighting down the urge to protest. The desire to say this made no sense. That she put too much faith in someone she barely knew. Someone she was merely infatuated with… And yet, the trust she showed me… I knew, in that moment, that I never ever wanted to betray it.
"And the request?"
"To have sex with me!"
"To…" I stared at Lucy, who grinned back at me without a hint of shame. "After all that? The bridal carry, the dramatic speech, the ups and downs of our… Not date… You want to have sex?!"
"Why not?" Lucy asked, meeting my gaze without flinching. "It's a great way to relax, isn't it? It feels really good, and it's sort of exhausting - but that just means you can go to sleep afterwards, right? Since there won't be any bear attacks this time! And I can put what I said into practice, too - show you what I feel! Show you that I trust you, by putting myself completely in your hands!"
"The last time we had sex, you came out of it with a crush," I pointed out. "One I'm not looking to intensify…"
"I think it's a bit late for that, Eena! I mean, the sex isn't even the biggest part of it - you're the one who said that's just physical, right? Even though I'd argue that it's a great way to convey emotions, too… But the main reason I fell for you is that you treat me like a normal person! You use my name, and you're not afraid to tease me… And yeah, you have sex with me, but it's not the sex itself that was important! Even if it does feel really, really good!"
"You…" I buried my face in my free hand. "I can't believe I'm actually considering this…" But her words made sense to me. Sex was a thing that friends could partake in, easily. It wasn't like kissing - there was no inherent romance. Only pleasure. And it would feel good…
"We don't have to," Lucy reminded me, looking down at the ground. "Not if you don't want to. But I'd like to, if you're up for it…"
"...Thick walls and soft beds."
"Huh?" Lucy's head snapped up.
"That's what you said this place boasted, did you not? Meaning that nobody should hear your screaming and moaning as I ravish you, even without your spell." A spell I'd thankfully had the wherewithal to listen to, this time. And one which I very much doubted she'd be able to keep up during sex.
"You mean…?"
"I'll be sure to repay you for everything you've done to me, today, Lucy." I reached down to grab the hem of my shirt as I spoke. "For the warmth that filled my heart, and the heat that colored my cheeks."
Lucy let out a little squeak, a noise I assumed to be of joy as her hands immediately moved to undo her armor, her magic tugging at any straps that were placed too awkwardly for her to easily reach. Soon her breast plate was on the floor, her greaves and skirt following quickly after, alongside her bracers and gauntlet. A journey my own clothes had already completed.
All articles except for one, that is.
"Aren't you going to take off your shoes?" Lucy asked, the innocence in her voice ill fit to the cutting nature of her question.
I couldn't believe that I was being set such a trial, so soon after my vow of honesty! But I couldn't lie, so… "I… Dislike being seen without them. Especially by…" People who are taller than me. Six simple, shameful words that I just couldn't bring myself to speak.
"In that case…!" Lucy's grin was the only warning I received before she was once more scooping me up in her arms, and carrying me like a princess. "If you're laying down, we can take them off without me seeing how short you are, right?"
"I am not short!" I protested, my cheeks aflame. "I'm just… On the small side, amongst my family members." My mother had been six foot one, my grandmother six foot even, and my great grandmother six foot three! And yet here I was, at a measly five foot four… It was enough to make anyone self conscious!
"It's alright, Eena," Lucy reassured me, laying me upon the bed and reaching for my shoes. I watched her remove them without complaint, allowing her to reveal the black nail tipped toes beneath. "I think you're cute, no matter how tall or small you are!"
"C-cute?" I exclaimed. "Surely you jest?" Sexy, hot, beautiful or even simply 'pretty' were all descriptors I would take. But cute?
"Uh-huh," Lucy affirmed, without thought to my pride as she laid a kiss upon the inside of my thigh. "Especially when you get all flustered and squirmy!"
My thighs twitched at the sensation - a movement that most definitely wasn't squirming - even as I set a baleful glare upon her. "I do not wish to hear of cuteness from you, of all people. Is it not obvious who would receive the title, if someone were to judge between us?"
"We can both be cute," Lucy countered, her lips traveling up my thigh, leaving a trail of tiny kisses until she was barely an inch from my slit - and then she nipped the flesh, before parting, leaving my needy sex behind as she moved to climb atop me. "You know, I've been putting a lot of thought into what I'd do if I got you into bed again? The places I'd kiss. And the noises I'd try to get you to make…" She bent down to place her lips upon the swell of my breast, sucking upon the flesh right below the hardened nipple, and then kissing the space above. "I don't think my imagination was really up to the task, though. I mean, I really don't know enough about sex! So I hope you'll help me learn!"
This time her luscious lips landed squarely upon the nipple proper, her tongue darting out to wet the tip, right before her teeth clamped down upon the sensitive flesh. She began to suck, gently at first, but then fiercer, pulling a soft cry from my own lips as my body arched.
I grasped at Lucy's hair, holding her down against my chest, demanding more of her delightful attention. She obliged my selfish request, sucking and nipping at both the pink peak and the paler flesh beneath. My fingers became entangled in her red hair, as my other hand reached out to wrap around her waist and tug her against my form. This, too, she allowed. Yet when I tried to roll us over, to put myself on top of her so that I could move to return the favor, her hands slammed into the mattress to hold us into place.
"Not yet!" she said, pushing up and away from my breast.
I eyed her curiously, as she got onto her knees. One of which, I noticed, had slid between my own thighs, close enough to my groin that I could touch it with a single movement.
"I know I'm not that practiced, yet," Lucy said. "So there's lots I can learn from letting you do things to me…" Now it was her cheeks that bore a blush. "But… I want to do things to you, too! I don't want to get so overwhelmed that I can't show you how I feel! So please, go easy on me today, okay? So I can learn lots and lots!"
"And you called me cute," I replied, shaking my head with a tired sigh. "If you wish to keep your wits about you, then feel free to try. I'll certainly my best, as well - though I'll warn you now, I'm not exactly well practiced in holding back." Saying so, I grasped her waist within my hands, and once more attempted to move her. This time, however, I didn't immediately attempt to roll us over. Instead, I shifted her form upwards until my violet eyes could meet her orange head on. Her lips above my own.
Red took hold of my cheeks once more, but I didn't let thoughts of kisses distract me from my goal. A quick tug had us rolling over, me atop of her, the swell of her breasts pressing against mine. I lowered myself down her body, to kiss her nipple, to roll the hardened tip upon my tongue, only to be caught off guard when her knee came up between my thighs to press against my flesh.
Any noises I may or may not have made were thankfully muffled as I pressed my mouth against her breast, kissing and sucking and nipping at her even as her own fingers traversed the distance to my own bosom. Soft hands groped my chest, slender fingers finding and pinching at my nipples for a moment. Then one left, finding its way instead to my back, sliding down to the small of it, before finding the curve of my rear and clamping down upon it.
I didn't bother to stifle my moan this time, allowing the sound to vibrate against Lucy's tit for a moment before I lifted my head from it and turned my attention towards its twin. One of my hands, meanwhile, crept between our bodies, reaching down between her thighs, pushing my way through the fleshy constrictions to tease my finger against her wet opening.
It was easy to slip a finger inside of her. Easy, to slide it in and out. Almost as easy to slip a second finger in alongside it, stretching her opening a touch as I began to seek her G-spot out, my thumb similarly searching for her clit.
Lucy squirmed beneath my ministrations, her thighs tightening around my hand, but no amount of unconscious effort would ever be enough to keep me from my goal. My fingers continued to search and play, index and middle fingers pumping away as my thumb felt out the presence of her button.
Teasing her more sensitive areas, I sucked hard upon her nipple as my thumbnail flicked against her clit. My fingers plunged deep, finding that special spot within her, and I felt her tense, her entire body stiffening for a moment, before it began to move all at once - her channel tightening around my fingers just as her thighs squeezed down upon my hands, her back arching as she moaned.
I expected her to slump against me, after that. As such, I was caught off guard when she grasped my waist, as I had once grabbed hers, and twisted so that she was on top of me. She was breathing heavily, her energy obviously lagging, her body at its limit - and yet there was a hunger in her eyes, a fiery passion blazing behind those orange irises that kept me from speaking a word against her plans, or urging her to sleep.
"I won't go down without making you feel good," she whispered, iron in her tone despite the softness of her voice. Her movements were slow, and far from steady, as she pushed against the mattress to move downward. Still, the determination I was coming to associate with her served her well, fueling the movement of her muscles as she slowly lowered her head down between my thighs. Her tongue darted out to touch my legs, and I saw the flicker of surprise as she discovered what I knew she would - that I was sopping wet. Needy. That bringing her such pleasure, combined with her teasing of my flesh, had already pushed me close to her own state.
Perhaps that discovery was energizing, for the swiftness with which she attacked me with her tongue belayed the tired, awkward movements that had characterized her initial descent. Where before two arms had barely kept her up, now one arm was all that kept her from falling flat upon the bed. The other hand moved to join her mouth, her finger teasing my clit from its hood even as her tongue went to work upon my slit.
Heat rose within me, as warm liquid all but gushed out of me, and her finger swiftly found its place inside me, pumping in and out between swipes of her tongue. What had already been a raging fire was quickly turned into an irresistible inferno, heat and pressure building to a crescendo inside of me before, at last, gushing out in release.
Lucy sealed her lips upon my sex, sucking, and licking, and drinking from me, sustaining the waves of pleasure for as long as she could. Then, once the pleasure had become nothing but a pleasant memory, she forced herself onto her hands and knees again. Crawling up the bed, she used the last of her energy to position herself before collapsing, her head upon my chest, one arm curling about my waist, and a leg crossed against my thighs.
That was the night I learned that Lucy snored. Cutely.
And so ends volume 2 of Demon Queened! More or less. There's two epilogue chapters left, before volume 3 starts, but other than that…
It was a short volume, and it's pretty much entirely devoted to setting things up for volume 3, but I hope you enjoyed it. I'll be doing everything in my power to make the payoff in volume 3 worth it.
I'm really curious what everyone thinks about Lucy's big speech. It's something I've been planning for a long time, and it's more or less my answer to the "Liar Revealed" trope. It's the closest I could come to giving Devilla and Lucy a solid foundation to build their relationship upon. As for how it'll affect Lucy's reaction to the truth, in the end... Well, even I'm not entirely sure as to the particulars, just yet. I guess I'll just have to keep writing, so we can all find out~!
Beyond that, I gotta say that there's something fitting about the big finale happening in chapter 21. The number is actually somewhat significant in Demon Queened, after all! It's the youngest age a Demon Queen can be crowned at, and the age Lucy was in the game when she raided the tower. Neither of which is super significant, but there's enough weight behind the number to make me happy. Especially since I wasn't actually aiming for a confluence of numbers, or anything. It just sort of worked out that way.
Finally, I want to give a quick thanks to my proofreader, FallingLeaf, and my beta reader, Lulla. The former went over everything but the sex scene - any mistakes you see there are entirely on me. I don't know about you, but it makes me appreciate all the work they do even more...
PS: Chapter 22, which is already on myPatreon, returns us to 2k chapters. I think that's going to be the norm going forward, but I won't rule out the occasional monster like this.
It was unfortunately discontinued due to complaints about it encouraging all-nighters/dangerous sleep habits. Something about one of the players falling asleep at the wheel and driving off a bridge? (A shame, because I'd love a copy myself.)
Well, I definitely didn't expect this to go full steam ahead in a span of a chapter 😇 😁. I read the description, I've looked the cover (awesome, by the way), I thought, nice, she's going to be nice and all demon generals would fight for her attention, it's gonna be cute, there's gonna be plot, and no way it's gonna be... Whaaaaaaaa~ prt..pft.. prrr..what are you doing, my queen?!.. Ahahahaha! Definitely not expected it.
Centuries playing all-nighters in CK2/Stellaris prepared me for this challenge!
I'm half surprised it's a not rogue-lite with these as popular as they are these days.
Well, I definitely didn't expect this to go full steam ahead in a span of a chapter 😇 😁. I read the description, I've looked the cover (awesome, by the way), I thought, nice, she's going to be nice and all demon generals would fight for her attention, it's gonna be cute, there's gonna be plot, and no way it's gonna be... Whaaaaaaaa~ prt..pft.. prrr..what are you doing, my queen?!.. Ahahahaha! Definitely not expected it.
Yeah, Devilla caught me off guard, too, to be honest. This story was originally meant to be fluffy smut where the generals started liking her before she even noticed... But I'm not going to object about the turn it took - I love the characters I ended up with too much, for that.
Yeah, Devilla caught me off guard, too, to be honest. This story was originally meant to be fluffy smut where the generals started liking her before she even noticed... But I'm not going to object about the turn it took - I love the characters I ended up with too much, for that.
Probably a problem with whatever you're using to copy and paste it. If I'm using my phone keyboard paste a copied SV formatting it comes out with many more Enter's than went in. For instance. Not sure what was the problem for you. Maybe the newer chapters don't have that problem?
Probably a problem with whatever you're using to copy and paste it. If I'm using my phone keyboard paste a copied SV formatting it comes out with many more Enter's than went in. For instance. Not sure what was the problem for you. Maybe the newer chapters don't have that problem?
I can see a huge sign on her face, that says I am not paid enough for this shit and never will be.
It was unfortunately discontinued due to complaints about it encouraging all-nighters/dangerous sleep habits. Something about one of the players falling asleep at the wheel and driving off a bridge? (A shame, because I'd love a copy myself.)
And never will be. She's utterly screwed. It's like all the downsides of being nobility/politician with zero of the perks. If they get out of this mess alive and relatively better, it might be something sometime down the line, judging from the cover art, but she'll get all her hairs gray by season three with current pace.
I didn't really have a game in mind when I wrote about it, but someone compared it to Lightning Warrior Raidy which... Isn't too far off, from what I can tell. (Except without certain gross aspects that stopped me from enjoying the actual game in question, when I checked it out based on curiosity...)
Not gonna lie, Nivera highlighted how utterly and hopelessly alone, and broken Devilla was and how the Tower society enabled it for their short-term political gain and that Devilla isn't exactly fair to herself even with Tower of Conquest frame of reference.
She would probably been better off raised by a pack of monster wolves, than this and we know it's a disaster and a half.
Lightning Warrior Raidy which... Isn't too far off, from what I can tell. (Except without certain gross aspects that stopped me from enjoying the actual game in question, when I checked it out based on curiosity...)
Such a shame. Makes me very sad. I hoped for some video game references from this, eh. Oh well. It can't be helped I guess. Web fiction, fanfic and original writing alike, is the free-est, least compromised, most creative storytelling medium these days. Nothing can't compare in volume or depth.
P.S. I find it hard yo believe that people with this much chemistry and romantic tension can have sex and it be anything, but romantic, no matter what MC is saying. They ARE dating in all but name and you can't convince me otherwise!