[X] Illuyanka
When you stepped into the classroom the day after embarrassing yourself in that failed attempt to dress down a classmate, you had anticipated a litany of responses from the other students of Class 1-B. You had assumed they would pass judgement on your rudeness, whether it be through accusatory eyes following your every step or simply disparaging little remarks murmured behind your back. Or maybe they would actively ignore your very presence, mere silence serving to condemn your indignities.
Not a single one of your predictions came true. You saw no antipathy, no censure. Barely any of your classmates even cared to look in your direction.
And that was just to be expected. For what reason would they expend such effort? The worries that festered inside your heart were no reflection of reality. As much as the shameful words of yesterday gnawed at you … they were the furthest thing from your classmates' minds. The assumptions you made of your peers were but overblown, solely products of your own anxieties.
Yet, even though you were aware of that fact, the guilt and shame still dug its tendrils deep inside your gut. Those illogical,
stupid feelings absolutely
refused to disappear, instead choosing to irritate you throughout the day. An undercurrent of frustration and embarrassment with no outlet whatsoever. Because you had no intention of burdening Theoxena or anyone else with your own self-pity. Not in the slightest.
So instead, you chose to endure it. You did your best to ignore the pulsating discomfort - mild as it was - that continuously flared up every time your thoughts dared to stray.
Because you were worrying over nothing. The awkward feelings bottled up inside … they were - they should have been - utterly irrelevant.
Still, when the final bell rings, signalling the end of the day's learning, it is with relief that you rise from your seat, your mind finally granted stay from the constant prodding and prickling of those muddled thoughts. Now, you have the opportunity to find some sort of distraction from their presence.
"Hey Sieghild!"
At least, that was the original plan.
The very moment you leave your desk, intent on leaving the classroom, a tower of precariously-stacked boxes manifests in the corner of your eye. An unavoidable pillar of cardboard shambling your way. Blocking your path to freedom. And even worse, it speaks with a voice that you had not wanted to - did not want to - hear at all right now.
Illuyanka cares naught for your inner lamentations, however. Likely because she cannot see any part of your face from behind her massive amounts of cargo.
"Wanna help me with these boxes?" is what she says next, even though she does not look or sound as if she is in any way exerting herself.
"... For what possible reason would I want to?" It comes out a little harsher than you want, and you quickly attempt to dial it down. You don't want a repeat of yesterday. "What are you, ah, doing with them?"
"Eyvindur said I had to take stuff to the office so I was like, yeah, I'm all about the boss life so you can count on me!" the Antuhsas girl explains with that obnoxious cheer of hers. "But right now my wings feel stiff and itchy so I'm doing … boss things and getting help from people too. Give orders, yep?"
"And you chose … me."
"I asked Duscha first but she's buying protein so I don't wanna muck up her quest for gains. Girl loves her gains. But you look free so I was all why not have you be my minion?"
You can think of quite a few reasons.
"Plus, you look pretty smart too."
But you aren't … entirely opposed to helping her in this duty.
You find the logic behind her decision-making to be somewhat suspect. In what world, on what planet, and in which star system, would you ever be suited to serve as her ... minion of all things? Yet, even if you still think Illuyanka to be unsuited for the role of class representative, the fact remains that the position is hers. If the combat teacher has entrusted her with the boxes for some reason, then to ensure that no idiocy interferes with her job, somebody should provide assistance. Not because you approve of her or anything like that, flattery or not, but if it falls to you to make sure she succeeds, then it simply cannot be helped. After all, is it not expected that you help those beneath your station?
Lightening some of her burdens is the best way to make sure nothing goes wrong. You can at least recognise that.
And after yesterday's rude treatment … you feel that you should at least … recompense her.
"Very well," you sigh, holding your arms out. "Just hand me the boxes."
She doesn't hesitate. "Awesome. Don't drop 'em."
The topmost boxes rattle as they drop off the tower and into your arms, and you feel yourself immediately straining. They're heavier than you expected. Not so much that you have trouble, but to think that Illuyanka can carry so much so easily …
Well, an arm wrestling contest would have likely been even more humiliating.
As you follow the Antuhsas out into the hallway, you find yourself observing the way she moves through the crowds. Or the way she doesn't. Illuyanka looks entirely oblivious to how much space her wings take up, strolling forth with no consideration of how others are to dodge past her and the large complement of boxes in her arms. If she was actually paying any attention whatsoever to her surroundings, you would have no qualms in describing such behaviour as utterly selfish.
Instead, she doesn't seem to be paying attention to anything at all.
"Say, how strong are you?" she says suddenly.
"... Pardon?"
"All the chiefs back home were really buff," Illuyanka continues, your confusion completely lost on her. "And you went hunting in a monster system, so you're definitely tough, right? Not as much as me though."
"I … suppose?" You don't really know what to make of the question, or whether or not to feel offended by the implication that you aren't as powerful as she is. Actually, it's more surprising to you that she's capable of remembering your disaster of a speech.
But … she doesn't appear to hold any ill will towards you. Santa-ziti's predictions were entirely correct in that regard.
It's admittedly a bit disconcerting.
"We should fight some time. It'll be fun!"
"What if I don't want to?"
"Come on, we can get swole together!" Her wings flap vigorously, and your concern for both the safety of her boxes and passer-bys promptly skyrockets. "Good gains don't come to those who skip fights!"
"I have no idea what you mean."
"Oh, someone on the radio said it."
You sigh exasperatedly, even as you continue to follow after the spirited Antuhsas. The weight in your arms … the burden of helping her … it almost seems heavier than before. Is this really the caliber of class representative your peers elected?
However, if there is one thing you're certain of, at the very least -
"Anyway, what about smashing rocks or monsters? A contest would be fun!"
- Illuyanka is certainly an idiot.
~~~
[X] Theoxena
"This is not, ah, what I imagined when you spoke of fishing."
The current streams and ripples past your sunken legs, chilly water lapping constantly against exposed skin. You and Theoxena are standing in the shallows of a river, hunched over the calm water surface with heels firmly entrenched within the sand and soil to maintain balance. Above you, the day is on the cusp of transforming into dusk, and the weather - the very air around you - is becoming crisper and cooler as well. It's a novel and unfamiliar experience - one your upbringing has rarely been able to provide - and you cannot help but shudder every time a tiny little minnow darts past the sides of your bare feet, but as cold and ... slimy as it … you don't think the experience to be too bad.
No, you simply think it a little strange.
"Don't worry! It works, um, better than you think!" insists your companion, her gaze fixated on the water. She stands opposite to you, sleeves bunched up as she grips carefully onto her trident, its head partially submerged underneath the rippling surface. "But it's um, not really proper spearfishing though ..."
Even when accounting for your unfamiliarity with the fishing process, you are reasonably certain that proper spearfishing did not include somebody lowering the tip of their sword into a stream, cosmic energy flowing through the metal to release a gentle, etheric glow. But if Theoxena says that doing so would attract fish, you can trust her judgement on the matter. There isn't any reason to act otherwise, not when you have almost no practical experience.
"I just thought it would be more ... like that."
You gesture in the rough direction of a sight behind Theoxena. Further downstream - at least a dozen metres away - is a blue-haired student reclining against a camping chair, snoring away with a fishing rod in his hands. Yet he still has a line cast into the water, the float bobbing up and down as it waits for a fish to bite.
"Um, I don't have a rod," the emerald-haired girl says, craning her neck as she tries to look back. "And this way is more fun, I think? It's um, definitely a lot faster! There's not as much waiting."
"I suppose so." Although the water remains cold and there are moments where the touch of the riverbed against your feet feels ... disgusting, you think you would prefer it to sitting on the bank. You don't know if you have the patience for that. "But how exactly does my sword help?"
"Oh! So, um, in spearfishing, people use these things called flashers to attract fish." Your expression must have shown your ignorance, because Theoxena hurriedly continues her explanation. "They reflect light in the water and the um, fish are kind of, um, maybe hypnotised? So they come over."
You nod in newfound understanding. "Ah, then they assume the light reflecting off the flasher is ..." There's a short pause as you try and search for an example. "Reflecting off the scales of other fish, perhaps?"
"That's kind of it. So your glowy sword can, um, help like that, I think?" Theoxena looks sheepish. "I don't really know. It's um, a ... stab in the dark."
A thought spontaneously occurs to you, separate from absolutely any other possible reason. How would the two of you be cooking the fish?
The other girl awkwardly and hesitantly wiggles her trident. "... Because we're doing spearfishing and um, it's getting dark?"
"... I assumed that was your inspiration." You can't hold back the grumbling. You didn't want to recognise her terrible joke at all, but in this position, it's too difficult to turn away from her expectant gaze. Even so, just because you're acknowledging that you understand the thought processes behind her stupid pun, it doesn't mean you actually think they're amusing in any way whatsoever.
"... Um, did you like this one?"
"No."
"I'm sorry."
"Stop apologising!" is once again your response. In such a short time, it has become an unfortunate fixture of conversations with your far-too-apologetic roommate (
friend). Why does she have to keep saying 'sorry' all the time? "Your terrible sense of humour isn't ... offensive, even if I don't know why you keep making bad jokes."
It bothers you; the uneasy tension that still remains between you and her.
"Sorr - but I think they're funny." Theoxena purses her lips. "But um, if you don't like them and want me to I can try and um, stop ..."
"Don't be ridiculous." Your voice rises a little. A part of you feels mildly irritated by the assumption that you would ... want to clamp down and restrict her habits like that. "I'm not here to throw cold water on your tendency for puns."
"..."
Oh no.
"S-stop staring at me like ... like that!" you snap, face flush. You're flustered, frantically looking around for escape, your chest tightening as abject embarrassment takes over. "It was ... I didn't ... that was entirely unintentional! It wasn't like I, ah, wanted to ..."
Theoxena's smile looks as if it wants to eat up her face.
"It's okay, Sieg!" she chirps, throwing you a thumbs-up. "I think it's good! But um, maybe a bit fishy -"
"D-don't patronise - don't, I didn't ... argh!"
She's already lost in a fit of giggles, trident forgotten, leaving you to stew in your ignominy and did you really unconsciously make such a bad pun? Ah, how utterly mortifying. You just want to drop yourself into the river and disappear before the shame burns your very face away. But that would only be even more farcical!
Aaaaah. There is no salvation from this, not a single soul able to save you from these accursed jokes. Nobody like the bespectacled newcomer who has appeared downstream, carrying a blanket in her hands for that sleeping fisherman.
So for want of any better option, you decide to simply stare down at the water, ignoring the heat in your cheeks as you continue to watch the shining tip of your blade. When will a fish arrive to put an end to your joke-induced misery?
Rather serendipitously, right now.
"Theoxena!" you cry, worries temporarily forgotten.
Propelling itself through the water is a massive specimen - one in possession of six eyes, a long, streamlined body and stiff, crescent fins. Lured in by the light, it has put itself in the perfect position for your companion to strike. But the immediate strike the two of you planned for does not materialise. Theoxena's trident comes far too late, missing entirely. And still caught up in her laughter and rushing to try fix her mistake, she trips -
"Aie!"
- And falls into the river with a large splash.
The fish takes the opportunity to ram your leg.
It's gross. The water. The fish's scales. Like sludge dredged from the bottom of a swamp it's entirely gross beyond measure and disgusting and it's sliding right past you at high speed -
"Use your magic!" Your blade slices down - trailing light through water - but to no avail. It's far too fast. "The fish is fleeing!"
Theoxena breaks free of the river with a wheeze, bubbles churning all around her.
"Jetstream Attack!" she shouts, thrusting her trident back into the surface.
It takes no longer than a moment. Once calm water ruptures, and the fish is exposed to air and sunlight, blasted upwards by that jet of pressurised water. Your instincts take over immediately, body moving in tune with your sword to skewer the target dead. Suspended right above the two of you. In mid-air, dripping wet.
You're silent. Theoxena is as well.
The dead fish squeaks as it slides further down the metal.
Downstream, the bespectacled girl quietly reels in a catch for her sleeping friend.
"We should have done this from the very beginning," you finally say, lowering both sword and fish.
"I don't um, think that would be good," Theoxena replies a little reservedly, stepping over to take a better look. "The um, fish gets stressed and there's more cortisol and … um, it's not good to eat."
"... Ah." None of that had occurred to you earlier. "I'm sorry."
"Don't apologise!"
In the face of your flat look, Theoxena can't help but laugh once more, barely holding back her snorts. Her green cowlick is just as uncontrolled, swinging wildly around.
You just don't understand her sense of humour.
"Well it's, pmf, um … ha, it's my fault too," she says, struggling to control the laughter. "I, ha, should've um,
hooked before I leapt."
You just don't understand at all.
"This is supposed to be spearfishing," you mumble, even as your shorter companion collapses into giggles again.
"S-sorry!"
A sigh leaves your lips as you slip the dead fish off the blade and into the bucket you two brought along. But for all the exasperation you feel right now …
"Let's just continue fishing."
… This little river expedition has its perks.
… Not that you will ever grow to tolerate her terrible wordplay in any way or anything. Simply because you find some enjoyment from spending time fishing with Theoxena does not mean you will ever let her off the hook for exposing you to her atrocious humour -
"Sieg? Why are you, ha, turning into a tomato? Sieg?!"
~~~
[X] Melissa
The restaurant is clean and well-lit, a cozy little establishment tucked into an alleyway not too far from the campus gates. Stone reliefs representing scenes from history and folklore line the walls, images of gods and heroes watching over the diners seated at their tables. The décor is admittedly eclectic, but the ambiance of it all suffuses the room with a warm and welcoming atmosphere. And although the restaurant is teeming with customers, its qualities - including the beautiful aroma that fills the air - are enough that you don't think you made a particularly bad decision in coming here for dinner.
Except, one tiny flaw remains.
Sitting directly opposite to you, Melissa serenely slurps soda up through her straw. Those golden eyes of hers flicker towards you, intensifying the uncomfortable silence that has fallen over your table. Never before have you felt a stronger urge to simply leave and find another seat, but thanks to some quirk of fate, or maybe a Divinity's terrible sense of humour, the chances of doing so … are almost zero.
Because the restaurant is at capacity, barely capable of handling the dinner time rush.
Because to your right, Chang is also present, glancing confusedly between you and Melissa, his very presence blocking your ability to just stand up and walk away.
For all intents and purposes, you're completely trapped.
"Hey, what kind of food did you order?" Melissa asks casually, ice tinkling as she puts her glass down on the wooden table.
The question catches you entirely off guard. "... Why do you want to know?"
"Just wanted to make some small talk," replies the freckled girl. "You were staring and not saying anything, so it was getting super awkward."
"I was not staring." you say almost instantly.
"You sure?"
"I am
absolutely positive," you insist. "I was definitely not staring at you at all. There is no reason that I would. Whatever you think you saw is a mere consequence of us being forced to sit across from one another."
"Oh, uh ..." Melissa blinks, looking as if she wants to say something else, but instead she shrugs. "Okay, sure. Let's just go with that."
Her expression is mildly dubious, but you manage to hold yourself back from pressing the point. Engaging further with her misguided assumptions is a fool's errand. You know perfectly well that you did not want to stare at her.
"So …"
"... Curry with potatoes and pork cutlets," you answer reluctantly. If Melissa is so adamant about asking about your meal choices, then you really have no other choice.
She's not the only one to dislike this irritatingly awkward atmosphere.
"Oh, I haven't had that before." She sounds legitimately curious - and even more a rural girl than her accent suggests. "I wanted to try something totally new, so Chang said this place would supposedly expand my horizons."
"You're Sieghild, correct?" asks the said boy. It's the first time he has spoken since your arrival. "I don't think I've introduced myself. I'm Chang."
"Ah - yes." You cough into your hand. His sudden interjection is unexpected, but you quickly smooth over the brief surprise. "My name is Sieghild Scylding. A pleasure to meet you, Chang."
"In kind," he replies with a smile, brushing back his fringe. "How did you and Melissa meet?"
The other girl answers before you can. "We met all the way back at the station," she says, taking another sip of her soda.
A reminder that you neither wanted nor needed.
Thinking about the events of your disastrous first day is actively discomforting, in fact. It brings back memories of your unsightly behaviour and a near-death experience, and in this situation - her nosy and self-righteous (
but not unwarranted) interference.
"I don't think first impressions were super great though," the brunette adds after a short pause, a rueful smile gracing her face.
This is why you didn't want to share a table with Melissa. Exposing yourself to the possibility of being castigated by her again - you just don't want to deal with it.
"People dislike it when strangers butt into their affairs." you shoot back, voice tetchy.
"Hey, it wasn't me who started things." Melissa's eyes are resolute. "I'm not going to let people jump off the handle whenever they want. Others totally don't like that too."
You shift in your seat, her gaze unexpectedly disquieting. You're painfully aware of the consequences of your own actions. And their effects on others. Yet even so -
Her judgement still irritates you. The sensation lurks right underneath your skin, like an itch that cannot be scratched.
"Nobody wants to listen to a lecture," you say quietly.
"I can see where she's coming from," Chang adds thoughtfully. His understanding comes as a surprise. "You did start dressing down those tourists earlier today."
Melissa looks as if she clearly didn't expect it either, but she remains undeterred. "They were chasing that stray … stubby cat-looking thing around," she says firmly, crossing her arms. "I can't just ignore that!"
"Longcats," he explains, nodding sagely. "They're actually a semi-reptilian species only distantly related to the common cat and solely native to this part of the galaxy."
"And they chased it into that old man's garden too. It was totally disrespectful."
"I know, you told them very loudly."
In spite of the somewhat downcast mood, you cannot help but snort. And then immediately snuff it out, suppressing the half-hearted laugh with a closed fist. It does not befit your station. Nor is anything of it funny to you whatsoever. Definitely not.
Unfortunately, you're not quick enough to avoid Melissa's notice.
"Was that a laugh?" she asks, glancing back in your direction.
"No." A second of noise cannot possibly be considered a laugh. You are certainly not lying.
The other girl purses her lips. But rather than make an argument to the contrary, something suddenly seems to dawn on her, comprehension alighting in her eyes.
However, you have no opportunity to find out what exactly that is. The arrival of food stymies any further questions. Not that you would have wanted to ask her anything. Instead, you gratefully take a plate from the peppy four-armed waitress and hand over a sizable tip, ignoring the expression Melissa gives you.
And with food acquired, the next few minutes pass in relative silence, with only your classmates' short and spurious bursts of chit-chat serving to interrupt your meal.
You don't particularly mind the lack of conversation. In fact, it appeals to you significantly more than talking to either Melissa or Chang.
Dining in silence ... is something that you have long grown accustomed to.
Melissa has not.
"Are you planning on joining a club?"
She speaks again right as you're about to start on the curry. Your spoon is already digging into the mound of rice, and yet the girl before you still wishes to make small talk. Does she really expect you to have the appetite for more chatter? When it's clear and obvious that all you want to do is finish your food?
Yet you can't bring yourself to eat. Even the scent of the curry on your plate - a strong, heady spice - is no longer rousing pangs of hunger from your stomach. As long as she's waiting for you to say something, there's only a sense of awkward discomfort, tangled up inside like a ball of yarn.
"I have yet to decide," you answer tersely, looking up from your plate. The issue of a club to join hasn't been a priority for you, even after that impromptu tour on the first day.
In the face of such bluntness, Melissa can only run an awkward hand through messy brown locks. Her expression seems almost exasperated, but more so a little lost.
"You're kind of hard to talk to."
Likely because you don't want to talk to her.
The seconds tick away.
Melissa clears her throat.
"How are things going with Theo?"
Your instinctive reaction is to ask why she even wants to know. Why does she care about that in the first place? The words die in your throat, hesitation gripping your chest. It … makes logical sense that she cares. Yet your mind is blanking - you don't want to not answer. You want to respond.
You can't avoid this one, and she seems to know it too.
Yet how can you give her an answer when even you don't really know how to say? Theoxena … considers you a friend and you … the feelings are very much mutual and everything so -
… It turns out to be easier than you thought.
"We're friends," you mutter, looking away.
Your spoon glides aimlessly about the curry. Your face grows hot.
But admitting it is just …
"Then I'll be rooting for you."
This time, Melissa's smile is gentle and full of cheer. She expresses it so easily, without any of the hesitation and anxiety you yourself possess.
Even so, does she really have to involve herself in every aspect of your life?
You quietly harumph, returning to your meal. The red of embarrassment still tinges your cheeks.
… You just don't know how to handle her.
~~~
[X] Evie
You find Evie lying on a bench right outside one of the greenhouses, back pressed to the cold metal surface, arms stretched out above her to hold a potted plant aloft. It dangles immediately above her face, its deep blue leaves and violet petals - almost the same shade as her soft hair - swaying against the cool afternoon breeze. In contrast, the girl is as still as a statue, with the slow rise and fall of her chest the sole evidence for her presence amongst the living. Her clouded crimson eyes are transfixed upon the flower, observing its gentle motions so intensely that you would think her unblinking.
Nevertheless, despite the snakeskin pattern on the scarf she wears, you are mostly sure that Evie is capable of blinking.
What you are absolutely not sure of, on the other hand, is whether or not even the Divinities can explain what exactly your classmate is doing with that plant, and why she seems so enraptured by it.
Simply watching her watch a flower, however, is no way to obtain a proper answer. In fact, it actually leaves you feeling a little awkward and even more uncertain. Standing a short distance away and gawking at her like some sort of … curious giraffe ... isn't doing much to enlighten you. There are definitely more effective methods.
Like asking her.
"Evie … where did you, ah, find that flower?"
"What?" Her attention snaps to you in an instant, eyes laser-focusing on your face. "Oh, this wee thing? Came from the greenhouse."
"Did one of the gardeners give it to you?" you ask as you approach the bench.
Evie makes room for you, pulling her knees to her chest and rolling herself up into a sitting position in one surprisingly smooth motion. It's an impressive sight, particularly given that her arms are still outstretched, hands tightly grasping the pot.
You idly wonder if she has ever done gymnastics.
"Saw it while walking by, and thought I might ask for it," she explains, handing it over when you sit down. It's a pretty thing in full bloom, so you think you can understand a little of why Evie was studying it so intently. "Didn't know it'd be so easy."
"I doubt they would greatly worry over a student receiving one," you muse, slowly turning the pot over in your hands. "Otherwise there would be no, ah, gardening club."
From what you recall of a short paragraph in the orientation materials, students of the gardening club would frequently help out in the greenhouses, growing and caring for plants that could be used in either experiments or the infirmary. For that reason, they were one of the more prominent of the numerous clubs on campus - enough that you could remember their existence off the top of your head (alongside the specialised workshops or certain special interest clubs such as skateboarding).
"Aye, that's fair." The lilac-haired girl holds out her hands, and you dutifully return to her the flowerpot.
But learning where she found it is only part of the story. You're still quite unsure why she's so preoccupied with it in the first place.
"So what are you planning to ... do with your new plant?"
"Eat it."
You barely have time to show your confusion before Evie abruptly plucks off a petal and palms it right into her waiting mouth.
She quietly chews away, unfazed by your bewildered gaze. Why would she just … eat a petal? You have been thrown completely off-balance. It's not at all proper for someone to randomly swallow pieces of plant life in this manner! But even as you scramble for something suitable to say, you're still at a loss for words.
In the end, you settle for the first thing to come to mind.
"... You, ah, realise it is … fungi season … right?"
At this time of year, Šapinuwa would see an uptick in numbers for a certain strain of fungal growth. It was a pest endemic to the temple city's gardens, where it would infect plant matter - both dead and living - in order to create for itself a doll-shaped body to puppet about. Only an hour earlier did you see one of them emerge from a bush, before it darted away on stubby, root-like legs to menace another of the many lawns on campus.
They could scarcely be described as a threat, but the thought of having unknowingly eaten an infected plant … your stomach churns. You try not to think about it. Not only does it sound demeaning … it's just disgusting.
Yet unlike you, Evie only has a serene smile.
"
冗談, 冗談1." There's a small laugh behind her reassurances. She lowers her hand, revealing the petal hiding within her sleeve. It had never once been in her mouth. "It was only sleight-of-hand."
Everybody in this school has a terrible sense of humour. It's almost a certainty now.
"So what is its real purpose?" you ask with a sigh.
"Giving it to me roommate," the other girl explains, placing the pot down in her lap. "Should have a proper house-warming gift for her, you know? And she's a flower-loving lass."
"It
would look quite beautiful on a window sill," you acknowledge.
"
でしょ?2"
It's as good a reason as any, if a little more mundane than you expected. Yet as the conversation drifts away into an easy silence, you wonder if you should give Theoxena a present of your own. It would be … nice.
You quietly contemplate the scenery, while beside you Evie continues to bask in the flower's presence. The tranquility of it all is soothing, a welcome salve for the stresses of your first week as a student. Your first steps into the rough, unknown waters of a new life.
Whether you handled things well or not …
Idly, your gaze strays over to the lilac-haired girl.
All the problems you faced could have been worse. You don't know how. You can barely even begin to imagine what further strife could have befallen you. In all likelihood, the consequences of your personal failings could have been far greater.
But … you were able to avoid - mitigate - the worst of things. Maybe.
You breathe in. Even now, the memories of your shameful behaviour on that day continue to trouble you. They leave you exhausted and uncomfortable. It's hard to clamp on the dark mutterings at the back of your mind.
However, you push through. There's something you want to - no, need to say to Evie. It's been nagging at you, waiting for you to find the proper opportunity.
"... Thank you."
The words lurch free, mumbled and hesitant.
"Mm?"
Yet if Evie noticed the embarrassment … she thankfully doesn't comment.
"I, ah -" Your throat suddenly feels parched. "If you - if not for your help ... I don't know if I could have -"
Your halting, stumbling attempts reflect your untethered thoughts, scattered all about your mind like the aftermath of a whirlwind. The right words … the feelings you want to convey … they lie just out of reach, darting past your grasp as blood rushes to your head.
You breathe out, trying to calm the drumming of your heart.
"This isn't something I have ever been particularly good at," you finally manage to admit. "Without your sympathy … that little push ... I might not have tried to fix my mistakes. I might have made more. So … that's why - why I want to thank you. You had no reason to help, but -"
"Compassion's well enough for it."
Your classmate softly cuts you off, crimson eyes holding you in their gaze. "Hmm, but ... might be better to act less crabby in the future," she wryly adds.
"That … may be a difficult request," you mutter, looking down at your lap.
Your words hang alone in the silent air, their only companions the muffled activity of distant students. It bothers you how easily you can make a fool of yourself. It's not like you want to act so immaturely, but you're … scared - frightened that you might once again do something moronic.
And it's discouraging.
Evie silently watches you.
Then she reaches out and ruffles your hair.
You are completely unprepared for it.
"Why are you - What do you think you're doing?!"
You glare up at the other girl, heat creeping up your neck. She looks entirely too pleased with herself, patting your head like this! What in the Divinities' name is she thinking? Not that you think it's at all uncomfortable or anything of the sort and it's actually fairly nice but she has to ask before she just … ups and plays with your hair!
Simply because you find Evie to be good company does not mean she can treat you ... like a child. You have a reputation to maintain!
"Wanted to give this a fair try," says the lilac-haired menace to your dignity as if she currently isn't working to confound you. "Didn't work, huh?"
"Work? Whatever you have in mind, of course it isn't working!"
"...
仕方がない3." Much to your relief (and definitely not a tinge of disappointment), Evie glumly pulls away her hand. "Thought it'd help your petted lip."
"P-Pardon?"
"Scylding, there's nothing to be feart of," she says reassuringly. "It's only been 'bout a week, so you still have loads of time. Take it as it goes and it'll be all well."
Her enigmatic smile is an expression you find difficult to stay irritated with. You let out a long sigh. Once again, she's trying to nudge you along.
… You appreciate it.
"I ... suppose so," you admit, trying to inject a little positivity into your voice. "Tackling whatever lies ahead should be absolutely no problem for me."
You swallow down a burst of worry. The future is far from set in stone. You have no clue if you can even believe in your own words. Yet even so - you chose to attend the House of the Dawn in order to change yourself. For the freedom to carve a path that … you can be proud of.
Your first week … it's been rocky, uncertain. A terrible, shameful first impression. But in the grand scheme of everything, you still have the opportunity to change.
And one day, your flimsy dreams may possibly become reality.
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Notes:
1.
冗談, 冗談 (joudan, joudan): just joking!
2.
でしょ? (desho?): right?
3.
仕方がない (shikata ga nai): it can't be helped
Big Vote Time!
Now that Sieghild Scylding has begun to slowly integrate herself into the school rhythm (and sort of settled a few problems here and there), it's time for you to choose what clubs, student workshops and societies she'll be spending most of her time with throughout her student life. Some clubs she'll probably more time at than others, but all in all, it's good to participate in extracurriculars when you're young and not lamenting the lack of opportunities for self-enrichment.
Student Workshops (select one):
[] Engineering Club:
By joining this club, Sieghild will hang out in the collaborative workspaces of the engineering halls, making use of her understanding of the natural sciences to work on projects with her fellow students. Very technology-oriented. Robots. Big on teamwork.
[] Alchemy Ateliers:
Sieghild joins one of the many alchemical workshops on campus to further her understanding of how cosmic energy reacts with the physical universe, as well as other more esoteric things. This involves a lot of potion-making, a bit of enchanting, and a lot of craftwork. Also avoid getting sabotaged by rival workshops or having your secrets stolen. Tradition-minded people, alchemists.
Other Clubs and Societies (select two):
[] Archaeology Club
[] "Going Home" Club (Student Affairs)
[] Infirmary Volunteer
[] Gardening Club
[] Cooking Club
[] Write-in
Note: Special interest clubs tend require less participation from Sieghild and less responsibility.