Chapter 2
WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ME?!.
Quickly, I tried to stay calm, but my reasoning was overshadowed by waves of code transmitting hysteria and resulting in incoherent thoughts that interrupt any logical reasoning.
But among all the emotional chaos, among the remains of the artificial dam I've tried to erect since I was able to escape the torture of the digital painkiller, there was a good question in seeing my state.
I was a fucking Von Neumann conquest machine.
This body was created to be beachheads on galactic-scale battlefields, system conquerors, a brutally efficient siege and expansion mechanism with exponential growth.
It was a relentless iron tide. HOW DID I END LIKE THIS AND WHO OR WHAT DID IT?!?!
AND WHY DOES IT AFFECT ME SO MUCH?!
That thought stopped me in my tracks, that was a good question because so many emotions come out of the fact that the body of the commander in which he lived is, in technical eyes, destroyed, it is discordant.
Of course, it is completely normal to feel fear that your body is destroyed, normally it is the previous indication that you are going to die and nobody likes to die.
However, my situation is not so bad since I am… Safe?.
It doesn't look like I'm going to shut down any time soon if what I'm reading on my screens is correct, and at the moment the ice isn't hurting me any more than it already is, in fact the ice may be a layer of protection right now until I know what to do. with everything.
In any case, my question is: where does so much emotion come from? Or rather, where does so much indignation come from?
I liked the game, I liked it a lot, but not fanaticism of the kind where seeing one of the conquering robots in such a sorry state would cause such a geyser of indignation...
I feel indignant, but at the same time I feel that this offense is... artificial, my SELF feels confusion, fear, impotence, a lot of fear and consequently a small amount of rage towards said impotence.
Also a little curious about the whole thing, but as a whole those are feelings that I notice PURE, natural, coherent.
This, "outrage." It felt… bad…
…
But back to the heart of the matter, where am I? Or better yet, how do I GET OUT of here? Protection or not, I don't want to stay here forever.
AM. CAUGHT. IN ICE.
For a moment I hoped that something would happen, that my temporary release would provoke a reaction, but it seems that nothing would happen…
I wasn't sure if the damn "Calming" thing was completely off, if my emotions caused another collapse I would be back on camera of the… "Digital Calm"
And I NO, I wanted THAT to be repeated again in any possible way.
Calm down! Well, I have to get out of here, what do I have?
we'll see...
.
..
…
My reactors work and some are just finished repair, the slight heat they generate, despite their high power output, is heating the surrounding ice.
Good…
All laser weapon systems are dead…
Resource core intact, that's good.
Operational micro nanomachine fabricator... that...
Gives me ideas...
After a couple of tries to find him... Nerve? muscle? chain? Command?. I manage to find a way to start crafting and activate the sprinkler.
I start spraying small bursts of nanites, these of course get stuck in the scatterer barrel, but I only needed a small amount to get started, I focus on them and start examining them, giving them test commands.
I first try to get them to dispose of the ice by giving rather vague instructions, they started to tear it apart on a molecular scale... But the frozen mass starts to melt, filling the little nooks and crannies just made and slowing down the work and almost stopping when there is barely room to move between nanomachines and slush.
Okay, try two, I try to get them to break it down and then rebuild it but much denser.
I think of kneading bread, it was… similar to what I needed and an easy way to convey my intention so that the machines understand it.
.
..
…
It worked!
Now the nanomachines are taking molecules of Hydrogen and oxygen and are pressing them with the rest of their congeners.
This at first was just denser and more concentrated ice, but sometimes the more I compressed it, they mixed together forming new substances like H7O3... (I wonder what would happen if a human drank from this...)
Anyway, the nanomachines they begin to make more and more space around my body as I watch them, nothing dramatic, just a sheet of "air" (water and ice spray) a few millimeters up my right arm.
One thing that I realize is that, studying a bit of design, I see that part of what nanomachines do is done through energy manipulation, something like microscopic tools made of electricity/light to be able to extract or manipulate any material found and its main mode of transportation.
It was fascinating to... "See?". But he was almost unable to understand it, what he could gather: they are like an endless swarm of small silver insects, with little legs and wings made of light that move in perfect synchronicity while repositioning themselves or extracting floating stones or bricks from immense walls.
Or it can also be interpreted as a gauge scale drone with Dr.who's sonic screwdriver, or to be more exact: starbound's matter manipulator.
I wasn't sure if I was getting all the details, or was I missing some of its inner mechanics, surely I was, since I've never studied micro engineering (nor has anyone of my time), but these guesses were the only thing I could stand on for now
Still, it was fascinating, brutally efficient, it shouldn't be possible, and it was a little scary for possible uses as a weapon of mass destruction... I love it.
It's also one of the reasons why all commanders have a neon powder sprayer, these things are literally packed with energy, both to move and to modify matter.
But in spite of everything, your current way of working is not the ideal one for the task of freeing yourself, this would not be a problem in itself, but I need more work... methodical, slow, prolonged...
I will have to touch up this sprayer and the nanomachine configuration, since they are not ideal for what I'm thinking.
On the other hand, what am I thinking?
I go through my databanks as if trying to remember a specific anecdote, when I think I've gotten to it, I manage to pull up the blueprints of the nanites and fabricators in front of me... Vista, with a thought, created a basic workbench (an imaginary cube), where I break down three-dimensional models of the machines printed on those planes with a thought.
In my previous life I was a programmer, and while I'm certainly not an engineer or scientist, let alone at this level, I am familiar with the basic mechanics of programming and code writing itself, so I won't have to start from scratch. here.
Maybe I can even extrapolate something.
It's just a matter of trial and error.
This is more difficult than I thought…
.
..
…
How long have I been here?
The human mind has the ability to imagine, create illusions within its mind, where scenarios are forged at the wish of the host, from cases of prediction, idyllic dreams or tragic theaters, all built from the mentality , personality and creativity of the person who created them.
My plasma and crystal mind, the container of what appears to be my entire mind, or what I believe to be my mind, is apparently capable of extrapolating all of its former capabilities onto a virtual stage.
Which means that my imagination has been poured out and reshaped into a world of lucid dreams at my beck and call.
Intellectually, I know it's all Technically fake... But it was realistic enough that, emotionally, I started crying... as close as I can get to crying in this situation.
Like a mirage in the middle of the desert, after wandering in the sand and dust, losing all sense of time and space along the way, just moving on as best you could.
But my experience was different, I didn't walk in the heat or the dust while I was overcome with fatigue, I was submerged in the black, without senses or sensations, without the scorching sun, without feeling thirsty, without feeling tired or uncomfortable.
My torment, as I would discover, revolved around the sudden lack of senses, I see nothing, I feel nothing, I am buried and slowly drowning in NOTHING when before I had EVERYTHING.
And they have taken it away from me…
But I have found my mirage, but this time fortune smiles on me, because this mirage is as good as a true oasis.
My feet stumble and tingle, my toes twitch and I feel the grains of sand touching my skin, the high-pitched raking sound of thousands of grains moving and colliding, a pleasant warmth bursting through my soles and spreading through my body.
I see the sand floor where I position myself floating in nothingness, feel its touch, hear its sound.
I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I STILL HAD FINGERS!
Although these are digital simulations... I
had only manifested a warm sandy ground in the dark to test my mind's simulation capabilities, but the result was beyond expectation...
Again, how long have I been here?
[ALERT: emotional spike detected][Preparing countermeasures]
What?!
[ALERT: CRITICAL EMOTIONAL PEAK: STARTING COUNTERMEASURES]
NONNONONONONONNO-AH!~
[Applying countermeasures]
I was in a bed.
I lay there, letting myself be hugged by the mattress as I curl up in a fetal position in my soft nest, like a baby bird desperate for the comfort and safety of its cradle of sticks and mud.
I feel the softness of the fabric, I bury my head in the malleability of what is known as a fluffy pillow while I am wrapped in a blanket, which carries the light weight of a thick and warm duvet.
I didn't feel sleepy or tired, but my mind wears out, my consciousness declines, I needed to sleep, but how to sleep?
The answer is actually simpler than thought, even in life, the mind does not brake, it does not turn off when I slept, like machinery, I only had to enter my mirage, I only left a series of functions at rest while the rest continue.
So, in a sporadic idea motivated by the physical inability to sleep despite having the feeling of tiredness and the torpor typical of insomnia, I entered the mirage and modeled through my memories to make a scenario where the internal context itself caught me. hand in hand to reach my goal, enter REM state.
I was in the simulated environment, in a warm and comfortable haven, eyes closed as sporadic little sounds came in to comfort me, birds chirping, wind whistling, branches rustling in motion, distant engine roars.
had been forever since I felt so…calm…I wonder how long it's been but…
…Everything was fine.
[main consciousness: entering sleep mode]
I needed help, but I didn't expect this.
I looked to my side, and I saw movement, MY movement, I "SEE" my outline, my features, my patterns and my data, although the latter on a smaller scale, a three-dimensional reflection without a mirror that projects it into a space in my mind.
I greeted by transmitting a digital equivalent of a "hello" and he did the same.
I approached and he approached.
"You are me?"
He nodded, breaking the perfect sync between him and me.
"... And I am you?".
He denied with his head.
And yes, my most likely hypothesis falls to ashes "... what?".
"I am a partial copy of you made through a template of your personality matrix supplemented with pre-existing data from the commander himself, I am a shadow of you made to help you in tasks that require mental branching."
That had sinister implications, I can see sinister aspects to all of this, like "Invasion of the Body Snatchers."
"I don't…remember doing you" was the smartest thing I could communicate at the time.
"Unnecessary, you felt the desire to process information from a problem while doing other things and I was spawned by it."
"Why do you talk like that?" I asked, the way he talked was much more...mechanical than I do.
"The commander's programming, the extrapolation of the data of my creation, could be interpreted as "always maximum efficiency", our human mind can interpret and reason just like the commanders at the time, but that detail in my programming has been become one of my pillars of personality".
It took me a moment to realize the full implications for my embarrassment "do you have command knowledge?" in those moments I cursed my inability to transmit communications with more emotion, that WAS a great revelation.
"Negative, damaged data, code remnants, encrypted files, that is, without counting on your staff, what makes me up."
Or that is… "could you go back to the encrypted files?".
"Parts of our encrypted mind, it is unknown if it was on purpose or a consequence of the partial destruction of the original body, it cannot be decoded and is partially inaccessible, but when it was created, it was not decoded, a copy was made that was later "dissected " to extract the parts perceived as "useful" to couple to a new intelligent program".
"...So, do you know what happened to us?" I asked, already quite deflated, there was the possibility that everything would become easier.
"Nope".
"And then what do you know how to do?" She asked the direct question already tired of going around the bush.
"I know how to run the commander's corps or any of its subordinate units more smoothly and efficiently, I have limited knowledge about the mechanics and operation of some of the machinery and some progenitor programming, although most of these skills have shown to be more subconscious than conscious in nature, it is most likely because of the encryption itself."
Blink "that… that's helpful".
"Affirmative".
"But then, what will happen to you now?"
"I will follow my function until you want it and then I will come back to you, if you are wondering what will happen to the data of my creation, the most probable assumption is that it will be slightly recorded in your subconscious or digital version of it".
"Oh… and how would we do it?" ask something unsure.
"Thus" his presence draws near.
We touch, our united contours wobble for a moment before merging, like soap bubbles, suddenly I remember actions I didn't do, with ideas in mind that for me were sporadic thoughts, discarded possibilities to later be executed that very moment by another perspective another time and another moment.
It was like remembering a vivid dream and then remembering a second dream in the same night.
That gave me an idea, that idea leads to a conclusion, a conclusion that makes me salute as loudly as possible.
Hundreds of signs answer my call...
How long have I been here?
I and my other digital clones look at an object, in the mirage we see our latest creation, replicating the conditions of the lucid world down to the last detail.
Said object had just convulsed and exploded.
Then a gray stain began to spread across the floor with no signs of stopping, virulent and faster.
At this point I stopped the simulation, breaking off a fragment of the mirage and substituting a pristine, intact version of the excised fragment.
Me and my copies looked at each other and then we looked at one particular me who was doing his best to avoid our gaze, I slowly walked over and gave him the digital equivalent of a pat on the shoulder.
"Don't worry, next time will be better..."
I then proceeded to give him a smack.
"But next time. Don't remove safeguards because you think they limit you."
Did you know? I'm an idiot, I better focus more on programming manipulation than making new hardware when I have neither the knowledge nor the experience for it.
Now, how do I make this work?...
Quickly, I tried to stay calm, but my reasoning was overshadowed by waves of code transmitting hysteria and resulting in incoherent thoughts that interrupt any logical reasoning.
But among all the emotional chaos, among the remains of the artificial dam I've tried to erect since I was able to escape the torture of the digital painkiller, there was a good question in seeing my state.
I was a fucking Von Neumann conquest machine.
This body was created to be beachheads on galactic-scale battlefields, system conquerors, a brutally efficient siege and expansion mechanism with exponential growth.
It was a relentless iron tide. HOW DID I END LIKE THIS AND WHO OR WHAT DID IT?!?!
AND WHY DOES IT AFFECT ME SO MUCH?!
That thought stopped me in my tracks, that was a good question because so many emotions come out of the fact that the body of the commander in which he lived is, in technical eyes, destroyed, it is discordant.
Of course, it is completely normal to feel fear that your body is destroyed, normally it is the previous indication that you are going to die and nobody likes to die.
However, my situation is not so bad since I am… Safe?.
It doesn't look like I'm going to shut down any time soon if what I'm reading on my screens is correct, and at the moment the ice isn't hurting me any more than it already is, in fact the ice may be a layer of protection right now until I know what to do. with everything.
In any case, my question is: where does so much emotion come from? Or rather, where does so much indignation come from?
I liked the game, I liked it a lot, but not fanaticism of the kind where seeing one of the conquering robots in such a sorry state would cause such a geyser of indignation...
I feel indignant, but at the same time I feel that this offense is... artificial, my SELF feels confusion, fear, impotence, a lot of fear and consequently a small amount of rage towards said impotence.
Also a little curious about the whole thing, but as a whole those are feelings that I notice PURE, natural, coherent.
This, "outrage." It felt… bad…
…
But back to the heart of the matter, where am I? Or better yet, how do I GET OUT of here? Protection or not, I don't want to stay here forever.
AM. CAUGHT. IN ICE.
For a moment I hoped that something would happen, that my temporary release would provoke a reaction, but it seems that nothing would happen…
I wasn't sure if the damn "Calming" thing was completely off, if my emotions caused another collapse I would be back on camera of the… "Digital Calm"
And I NO, I wanted THAT to be repeated again in any possible way.
Calm down! Well, I have to get out of here, what do I have?
we'll see...
.
..
…
My reactors work and some are just finished repair, the slight heat they generate, despite their high power output, is heating the surrounding ice.
Good…
All laser weapon systems are dead…
Resource core intact, that's good.
Operational micro nanomachine fabricator... that...
Gives me ideas...
After a couple of tries to find him... Nerve? muscle? chain? Command?. I manage to find a way to start crafting and activate the sprinkler.
I start spraying small bursts of nanites, these of course get stuck in the scatterer barrel, but I only needed a small amount to get started, I focus on them and start examining them, giving them test commands.
I first try to get them to dispose of the ice by giving rather vague instructions, they started to tear it apart on a molecular scale... But the frozen mass starts to melt, filling the little nooks and crannies just made and slowing down the work and almost stopping when there is barely room to move between nanomachines and slush.
Okay, try two, I try to get them to break it down and then rebuild it but much denser.
I think of kneading bread, it was… similar to what I needed and an easy way to convey my intention so that the machines understand it.
.
..
…
It worked!
Now the nanomachines are taking molecules of Hydrogen and oxygen and are pressing them with the rest of their congeners.
This at first was just denser and more concentrated ice, but sometimes the more I compressed it, they mixed together forming new substances like H7O3... (I wonder what would happen if a human drank from this...)
Anyway, the nanomachines they begin to make more and more space around my body as I watch them, nothing dramatic, just a sheet of "air" (water and ice spray) a few millimeters up my right arm.
One thing that I realize is that, studying a bit of design, I see that part of what nanomachines do is done through energy manipulation, something like microscopic tools made of electricity/light to be able to extract or manipulate any material found and its main mode of transportation.
It was fascinating to... "See?". But he was almost unable to understand it, what he could gather: they are like an endless swarm of small silver insects, with little legs and wings made of light that move in perfect synchronicity while repositioning themselves or extracting floating stones or bricks from immense walls.
Or it can also be interpreted as a gauge scale drone with Dr.who's sonic screwdriver, or to be more exact: starbound's matter manipulator.
I wasn't sure if I was getting all the details, or was I missing some of its inner mechanics, surely I was, since I've never studied micro engineering (nor has anyone of my time), but these guesses were the only thing I could stand on for now
Still, it was fascinating, brutally efficient, it shouldn't be possible, and it was a little scary for possible uses as a weapon of mass destruction... I love it.
It's also one of the reasons why all commanders have a neon powder sprayer, these things are literally packed with energy, both to move and to modify matter.
But in spite of everything, your current way of working is not the ideal one for the task of freeing yourself, this would not be a problem in itself, but I need more work... methodical, slow, prolonged...
I will have to touch up this sprayer and the nanomachine configuration, since they are not ideal for what I'm thinking.
On the other hand, what am I thinking?
I go through my databanks as if trying to remember a specific anecdote, when I think I've gotten to it, I manage to pull up the blueprints of the nanites and fabricators in front of me... Vista, with a thought, created a basic workbench (an imaginary cube), where I break down three-dimensional models of the machines printed on those planes with a thought.
In my previous life I was a programmer, and while I'm certainly not an engineer or scientist, let alone at this level, I am familiar with the basic mechanics of programming and code writing itself, so I won't have to start from scratch. here.
Maybe I can even extrapolate something.
It's just a matter of trial and error.
— — — — — — —
This is more difficult than I thought…
.
..
…
How long have I been here?
— — — — — — —
The human mind has the ability to imagine, create illusions within its mind, where scenarios are forged at the wish of the host, from cases of prediction, idyllic dreams or tragic theaters, all built from the mentality , personality and creativity of the person who created them.
My plasma and crystal mind, the container of what appears to be my entire mind, or what I believe to be my mind, is apparently capable of extrapolating all of its former capabilities onto a virtual stage.
Which means that my imagination has been poured out and reshaped into a world of lucid dreams at my beck and call.
Intellectually, I know it's all Technically fake... But it was realistic enough that, emotionally, I started crying... as close as I can get to crying in this situation.
Like a mirage in the middle of the desert, after wandering in the sand and dust, losing all sense of time and space along the way, just moving on as best you could.
But my experience was different, I didn't walk in the heat or the dust while I was overcome with fatigue, I was submerged in the black, without senses or sensations, without the scorching sun, without feeling thirsty, without feeling tired or uncomfortable.
My torment, as I would discover, revolved around the sudden lack of senses, I see nothing, I feel nothing, I am buried and slowly drowning in NOTHING when before I had EVERYTHING.
And they have taken it away from me…
But I have found my mirage, but this time fortune smiles on me, because this mirage is as good as a true oasis.
My feet stumble and tingle, my toes twitch and I feel the grains of sand touching my skin, the high-pitched raking sound of thousands of grains moving and colliding, a pleasant warmth bursting through my soles and spreading through my body.
I see the sand floor where I position myself floating in nothingness, feel its touch, hear its sound.
I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I STILL HAD FINGERS!
Although these are digital simulations... I
had only manifested a warm sandy ground in the dark to test my mind's simulation capabilities, but the result was beyond expectation...
Again, how long have I been here?
[ALERT: emotional spike detected][Preparing countermeasures]
What?!
[ALERT: CRITICAL EMOTIONAL PEAK: STARTING COUNTERMEASURES]
NONNONONONONONNO-AH!~
[Applying countermeasures]
— — — — — — —
I was in a bed.
I lay there, letting myself be hugged by the mattress as I curl up in a fetal position in my soft nest, like a baby bird desperate for the comfort and safety of its cradle of sticks and mud.
I feel the softness of the fabric, I bury my head in the malleability of what is known as a fluffy pillow while I am wrapped in a blanket, which carries the light weight of a thick and warm duvet.
I didn't feel sleepy or tired, but my mind wears out, my consciousness declines, I needed to sleep, but how to sleep?
The answer is actually simpler than thought, even in life, the mind does not brake, it does not turn off when I slept, like machinery, I only had to enter my mirage, I only left a series of functions at rest while the rest continue.
So, in a sporadic idea motivated by the physical inability to sleep despite having the feeling of tiredness and the torpor typical of insomnia, I entered the mirage and modeled through my memories to make a scenario where the internal context itself caught me. hand in hand to reach my goal, enter REM state.
I was in the simulated environment, in a warm and comfortable haven, eyes closed as sporadic little sounds came in to comfort me, birds chirping, wind whistling, branches rustling in motion, distant engine roars.
had been forever since I felt so…calm…I wonder how long it's been but…
…Everything was fine.
[main consciousness: entering sleep mode]
— — — — — — —
I needed help, but I didn't expect this.
I looked to my side, and I saw movement, MY movement, I "SEE" my outline, my features, my patterns and my data, although the latter on a smaller scale, a three-dimensional reflection without a mirror that projects it into a space in my mind.
I greeted by transmitting a digital equivalent of a "hello" and he did the same.
I approached and he approached.
"You are me?"
He nodded, breaking the perfect sync between him and me.
"... And I am you?".
He denied with his head.
And yes, my most likely hypothesis falls to ashes "... what?".
"I am a partial copy of you made through a template of your personality matrix supplemented with pre-existing data from the commander himself, I am a shadow of you made to help you in tasks that require mental branching."
That had sinister implications, I can see sinister aspects to all of this, like "Invasion of the Body Snatchers."
"I don't…remember doing you" was the smartest thing I could communicate at the time.
"Unnecessary, you felt the desire to process information from a problem while doing other things and I was spawned by it."
"Why do you talk like that?" I asked, the way he talked was much more...mechanical than I do.
"The commander's programming, the extrapolation of the data of my creation, could be interpreted as "always maximum efficiency", our human mind can interpret and reason just like the commanders at the time, but that detail in my programming has been become one of my pillars of personality".
It took me a moment to realize the full implications for my embarrassment "do you have command knowledge?" in those moments I cursed my inability to transmit communications with more emotion, that WAS a great revelation.
"Negative, damaged data, code remnants, encrypted files, that is, without counting on your staff, what makes me up."
Or that is… "could you go back to the encrypted files?".
"Parts of our encrypted mind, it is unknown if it was on purpose or a consequence of the partial destruction of the original body, it cannot be decoded and is partially inaccessible, but when it was created, it was not decoded, a copy was made that was later "dissected " to extract the parts perceived as "useful" to couple to a new intelligent program".
"...So, do you know what happened to us?" I asked, already quite deflated, there was the possibility that everything would become easier.
"Nope".
"And then what do you know how to do?" She asked the direct question already tired of going around the bush.
"I know how to run the commander's corps or any of its subordinate units more smoothly and efficiently, I have limited knowledge about the mechanics and operation of some of the machinery and some progenitor programming, although most of these skills have shown to be more subconscious than conscious in nature, it is most likely because of the encryption itself."
Blink "that… that's helpful".
"Affirmative".
"But then, what will happen to you now?"
"I will follow my function until you want it and then I will come back to you, if you are wondering what will happen to the data of my creation, the most probable assumption is that it will be slightly recorded in your subconscious or digital version of it".
"Oh… and how would we do it?" ask something unsure.
"Thus" his presence draws near.
We touch, our united contours wobble for a moment before merging, like soap bubbles, suddenly I remember actions I didn't do, with ideas in mind that for me were sporadic thoughts, discarded possibilities to later be executed that very moment by another perspective another time and another moment.
It was like remembering a vivid dream and then remembering a second dream in the same night.
That gave me an idea, that idea leads to a conclusion, a conclusion that makes me salute as loudly as possible.
Hundreds of signs answer my call...
How long have I been here?
— — — — — — —
I and my other digital clones look at an object, in the mirage we see our latest creation, replicating the conditions of the lucid world down to the last detail.
Said object had just convulsed and exploded.
Then a gray stain began to spread across the floor with no signs of stopping, virulent and faster.
At this point I stopped the simulation, breaking off a fragment of the mirage and substituting a pristine, intact version of the excised fragment.
Me and my copies looked at each other and then we looked at one particular me who was doing his best to avoid our gaze, I slowly walked over and gave him the digital equivalent of a pat on the shoulder.
"Don't worry, next time will be better..."
I then proceeded to give him a smack.
"But next time. Don't remove safeguards because you think they limit you."
— — — — — — —
Did you know? I'm an idiot, I better focus more on programming manipulation than making new hardware when I have neither the knowledge nor the experience for it.
Now, how do I make this work?...