When your mother hears about this.
Long and sappy but lovely IC with
@Princess_Hex
When the call for astartes to defend the vault had gone out, the Wardens of the Blessed Heart were amongst the first on the scene. Not for any particular keen devotion to duty or an advantage in travel speed, they just happened to be some of the closest astartes to the vault when the call went out. They arrived all at once, twenty four Wardens carrying their weapons as well as as many supplies as they could carry. If they were to be put under siege they would not be caught unprepared.
For now things were still relatively quiet and so the Wardens were taking the time to familiarize themselves with the expected battle space under the watchful eye of Melika. They had, however, learned that three were some civilians inside the vault and had immediately taken custody of them, in their minds if not in legal practice.
So Atefeh had volunteered to go check on them, and she found herself walking through tunnels that felt at once cavernous and claustrophobic. The Wardens were no strangers to urban warfare, in fact the most famous battle in the legion's history had taken place in a city. Yet something about this vault felt unnerving, like it was a tomb. Atefeh refused to let it get too her, and kept her weapon holstered, any small comfort she might derive from keeping her boltgun at the ready wouldn't be worth scaring the civilians when she saw them.
Civilian it seemed was something of a stretch. Her sharp and sensor enhanced vision would soon detect two figures ahead, both armed and one uniformed.
"More of them." The female noted, a strange quality to her familiar voice, somewhere between despair and indifference.
It took all of a moment for Atefeh to recognize the woman who just spoke, and she almost snorted from the sheer coincidence of running into them again. What stopped her was the woman's voice, that hurt indifference was something she had seen too often to treat flippantly. "I'm afraid there will be a fair few more of us soon. We'll do our best to keep to ourselves."
Atefeh was in terrible shape, even in the dim lighting it was clear that her armour was in dire need of maintenance as it was covered in grime, something no one would allow if they had the ability to stop it. The golden paint on her right arm was charred black with soot from an artillery shell that had landed too close, and she held the arm awkwardly at her side. Less easy to define was the softening of her stance, there was an air of exhaustion to her.
With a pneumatic hiss Atefeh took off her helmet, just like she had last time. Her face was worn, the deep dark bags under her eyes belied how little sleep she'd been getting. In short, she looked like hell, but was still easy to recognize. "Nice to see you again Lilith, even if the circumstances aren't ideal."
"You." What was in the greeting? Everything and nothing.
"You've met…guessing these are the ones you tried to dump me on?" The elderly male reasoned.
Lilith nodded mutely, her rusty hair was stained grey and brown from dust and blood and some of it fell over blank eyes. The male looked more alert but was obviously favoring one leg and both looked physically and mentally exhausted, their strange armor pitted and stained though their weapons were in commendable condition, came with the genes, they'd be dead before they neglected those.
Atefeh took a step forward, then held her hands up to reveal they were empty. "May I approach? I'm not going to hurt either of you, I just want to help."
"And don't think I don't recognize you. Andromalius, was it? The Wardens have some opinions on patients who won't stay in their beds. We'll talk about that later."
He curled his lips, "Figure out how to do my duty from a bed and that's where I'll stay."
"Right now your duty is to rest and heal so that you can return to your other duties later. We are very serious about this, we are doctors. If need be we have ways of making you stay put."
"Do you?" He bristled. Not quite pointing the flamer in her direction.
Lilith for her part just sat there looking at something in the distance. But her hands never left her own flamer.
Atefeh sighed, hands still up in the air. "Yeah, we do. Ropes mostly, handcuffs sometimes. What else are you going to do while this entire vault is under siege? By the looks of it you've both done enough fighting to last a lifetime."
Lilith laughed at that, a quiet yet highly pitched sound, like some strangled bird. Andros sent her a look that may have been of concern or annoyance, most likely both.
With some of the tension feeling like it was dissipating Atefeh took a half step forward. "Yeah, I get it. You don't feel safe, you don't think this is the end yet. Your body is keeping you alert and on edge because it feels like at any moment you're going to need to fight for your life."
"Lilith, look at me." Atefeh waited just long enough to give Lilith the chance to comply. "My life, my everything, is to protect people like you. I know that right now trusting anybody is difficult, so I won't ask you to trust me. I haven't earned that yet. But know that the reason I exist is to stand between you and danger and get you home safe. That's what it means to be a Warden."
Lilith looked through her.
"That's my job ma'am. And we seem to be well matched results wise." Andros noted bitterly.
Atefeh didn't seem at all pleased by the comparison. She was no enforcer of the law, she was an astartes, an entirely different kind of existence to someone like Andromalius. For a brief moment she looked offended before she mastered herself once more. "Look, we can sit here and talk all day or you can let me near you and I can start treating your wounds. You both need it, bad. We all realize that, but I can't do anything until you give me permission."
They looked at her uncomprehendingly for a few moments. "Can't be that necessary if you need to ask to do it first." He grumbled but nodded his grudging consent.
Lilith didn't seem to hear but when the Astartes' moved forwards she flinched back, her flamer raised up. Eyes wide with manic terror for a moment.
In a flash Atefeh had closed the distance, not waiting for the panicked girl to fire. Yet where most marines would have violently ripped away the weapon, disarmed the threat as quickly and efficiently as possible, Atefeh was forced to remember her oath. No blows landed, no harsh pulls. All Lilith felt was an embrace, perhaps not as gentle as it should have been.
"Hey, it's alright Lilith, it's okay." Atefeh kept her voice low and gentle. It was hard, she was exhausted and frustrated and wanted to do this the easy way. Nothing Lilith could do could pose an even remotely credible threat to her, and yet this was the way she had to handle this. If she really reflected on it, that was for the best. There was no reason to hurt Lilith even further. "Put the weapon down Lilith, it's time to rest."
Lilith thrashed, she even bit a bit but after a time just subsided with a low moan before slumping into the Space Marine's constricting embrace. There was just no end to it, nothing. Other options all exhausted she shut down, head lolling forwards onto cold ceramite. The flamer miraculously didn't leave her hands.
It was some time later, after Liilith had collapsed, Atefeh had been able to bring them both to a side room and provide first aid. Their weapons and armour were stacked by the door, and even the astartes had removed her armour to hopefully be less intimidating.
She'd seen to Andromalius first, though he was going to need an extended stay under the watchful eye of an apothecary before he recovered. Now Atefeh sat beside the unconscious form of Lilith and was gently massaging burn cream onto her shoulder. It was easier to be delicate now, now that the tension was gone, so she was in doctor mode and very focused.
Lilith's effort to disguise her waking was subtle but Atefeh's augmented senses and well honed intuition made such attempts at deception futile.
"Welcome back Lilith, feeling any better after a rest?"
The still bagged eyes flickered open revealing dark angry eyes.
"Did my home get unmelted whilst I was out?" She asked bluntly as she rose into an upright sitting position, twisting from side to side, stretching and wincing with pain.
Atefeh leaned back, wiping the remainder of the burn cream from her hands with the towel she had prepared for the purpose. She was perfectly content to let Lilith stretch out and have some space.
"I'm afraid not, but we'll see what we can do about getting it rebuilt for you. At least you seem to be talking now, I'll take that as a good thing."
"Take it as you like." Lilith grumbled. She might have been expected to fall silent again and for a moment she did before suddenly stiffening and glaring over at the Astartes, "Can you just give it a rest? This whole nice friendly softtoy act? I get it you're a medic you fix people, you're really nice, everyone should like you and shit. It's older than this shithole bunker already. Take a look around you don't need to try so hard, there ain't any competition going for least bad person or mutant or whatever in this hole. I'm tired and hurt and really, really fucked up right now and I just can't…" she waved at the Space Marine as her voice cracked and then she did go quiet.
Atefeh had sat unmoving throughout Lilith's entire rant, it was only after she was done that the astartes allowed herself to lean back against the wall. "Would it help if I called you a bitch?" she asked half jokingly.
"Look, if you were my enemy I wouldn't give you the time of day, but I do have a job to do here. Despite your temper, you're better than the horde of rats I'm going to be fighting for the next... however long it takes for reinforcements to arrive, so I may as well try and be friendly. Besides, we've met once before, I thought we had a connection." Atefeh shrugged noncommittally, perfectly content to be proven wrong.
"If anything, you should be the one to drop the tough girl act. You're traumatized, in shock, horribly wounded, and all that is after you have suffered a lifetime of abuse. All you're doing is pretending to be strong so you don't have to confront the hurt that you're experiencing. It's not particularly convincing and all it's gonna do is make you more miserable long term."
"You can let me in, let me help, or you can curl up in here and wait for the fighting to stop. It's your choice. My duty ends when you're physically healed, but I want to help you beyond that."
"Tough girl act? Take one fucking look at this world, the weak get devoured, its not an act, if I wasn't strong I'd be dead. I've survived being born on the bottom of the pile, I've survived the rats, I survived whatever the frak that glowing talking bomb thing was and I'll survive whatever the frak comes at me next. I don't need your help and I definitely don't need you patronizing me. Yeah my head's a mess, yeah I'm sick of everything, yeah maybe part of me does want to curl up and wait for it all to be over, you want to be helpful? Cut that useless shit right out of my brain because that's not going to happen." She snarled, physically shaking with rage as she dragged her battered body out of the bed.
"I'm not pretending, I'm surviving, that's how things work in the Pit, or did before I blew it up. So sorry if I'm not going to spend all day crying like a baby and waiting for my giant space mother to come cuddle it all better." She finished on her feet, stiff and bent kneed, her wiry form shivering, she stood there, vulnerable and violently waiting for the Space Marine to dare contradict her.
"You've certainly done a good job of surviving so far," came Atefeh's reply after she was certain Lilith was finished. "I apologise if it sounded like I was saying you aren't strong. My bedside manner hasn't exactly benefited from my stay on the planet. I'm sure Mofid would be very upset with me right now."
"I'm glad you're not just going to curl up and cry, I think you're better than that. But it does leave the question of what exactly you plan to do. No one's got time to run you out of here, and trust me, this is not an insult to your abilities but you would need an astartes to get you clear of the siege. You certainly aren't going to fight in your condition, so what's the plan Lilith, you tell me."
This time her silence had a less hostile and more despairing air to it. She looked uncertain. "I'm done with plans." She finally managed.
Atefeh nodded, she didn't know much about what Lilith had been through but she could recognise the look. "How about this? I tell you the plans we have, and you tell me where you want to fit in to them. Can be as much or as little as you want, and I can promise that if we both make it out alive you'll have a home to return to."
Lilith pondered this for a time, eventually nodded slightly. "Trusting me isn't smart." She warned. "And you should not make promises you know you can't keep."
"I'll keep that in mind, but I'm pretty sure I can keep this one." Atefeh got up from her sitting position and stretched. "We're here along with all the space marines on the planet to guard this vault. We've brought a few imperial army troops with us, but they're mostly going to be guarding the tunnels and inside as a fallback plan. This seems to be the hot spot for skaven activity on the planet, and we're right in the center of their crosshair. I haven't heard any estimates about their numbers or capabilities that leave me nervous, but it's going to be a tough fight."
"Good news is that we only have to hold out for so long before reinforcements arrive. My legion, the Wardens, are being brought by Ahurani to do reconstruction work, but as soon as they learn about the fight down here we'll be relieved. Apparently Lady Varil and the coldiron Cages are coming along too for the same reason." The difference in respect when referring to the two different primarchs was not subtle, nor did Atefeh make any attempt to hide it.
"Once reinforcements arrive the three squads of us here now will probably be transferred out. Once that happens I plan to take a long rest and then get back into helping folks. Probably join the reconstruction work unless I get ordered elsewhere. Maybe I'll even be the one rebuilding your home, assuming you want to return to it."
Atefeh grinned. "With that kind of power on the way, I think just about any promise is within my ability to keep."
"I don't have a home anymore." Lilith countered, before looking around. "All of you are coming here? Aren't there like twenty 'legions' in the whole Galaxy? What matters so much about this hole in the ground? Topsiders barely care and they were born just a few miles up." She sounded confused and suspicious. She also seemed uncomfortable. "Are all Space Marines like you? Soft and friendly like?"
That actually got Atefeh to laugh, an easy and genuine one. "Not even close! Each legion has its own style for that kind of thing, their own personality. In fact, us Wardens get made fun of, belittled for being soft. They call us nurses in armour." While she had started to speak in good humour coming off her laugh, there was more than a little bitterness in her voice by the time she had finished, Atefeh was a hard woman who had fought her entire life. It very obviously hurt to have her accomplishments put down based on reputation alone. "The Cages in particular are a dour lot, from what I hear. If it helps, they'll probably just ignore you."
"I'll be honest I don't have the faintest idea why they are on the way. Maybe Ahurani felt like she owed it to Lord Savnok, or maybe she's just trying to get out of having to fight. It's something she would do though, she likes taking the time to care for the folk who don't have anyone else watching out for them. If you find my pretty basic care annoying then you would hate her."
"And if you don't have a home, and don't want a new one here. You could always come with us. We'll find something for you to do in the fleet that keeps you busy, and you can get away from all," Atefeh waved her hand in the general direction of everything. "This."
Dark eyes widened at all of that. "I just…don't understand anything anymore. Nothing makes sense. Everything is just so fucked up and you are just so…I don't know….weird."
"Think about it, you got time. Time is a wonderful remedy, it lets the brain untangle things that seem so knotted and impossible right now." Atefeh walked over to the pile of armour, and began to get the first pieces ready for her to suit back up. "I should probably get back to it soon. If I don't, the other girls will think I snuck off for a nap and they'll tear me apart in a jealous rage."
"Don't leave any Rats for me." Lilith requested.
Atefeh paused during the process of armouring up. It was a laborious process that she undertook with a great deal of concentration. It looked meditative, though the impression was spoiled somewhat by her swaying slightly from exhaustion. She spared Lilith a glance and grinned. "Wasn't planning on it."
Lilith nodded her gratitude and then squirmed back under the covers. Though Atefeh was not fooled, still feigned rest had to be a start on the journey to the real thing? Who could blame anyone for keeping one eye open in this Galaxy?
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The siege had been brutal, an endless sea of hard fighting. Dozens of space marines had died in the line of duty, their bodies now interred in a specially set aside room guarded by the auxiliaries that the Wardens had brought along. More numerous by far though, were the wounded.
It was only the grim discipline of the astartes that stopped the field hospital, such as it was, from being an absolute charnel house. In the cavernous, dark room the Emperor's elite stayed quiet, patiently awaiting their turn to be treated by the only two apothecaries standing. One was unwounded and worked alone, the other had taken a serious blow to the face and had broken an arm so for now she required help.
Atefeh had volunteered. She too had lost the use of one of her arms, but her situation was more permanent, with the limb severed completely and lost amongst the chaos and carnage of battle. Currently, she held the roll of bandages as the apothecary next to her wrapped a fresh tourniquet around a wound, the normally quick healing astartes suffering from the foul poisons the skaven applied to their weapons.
All things considered Atafeh looked okay. Most of the blood had been cleaned from her, and while she obviously had dozens of minor wounds to go with her missing arm she didn't seem to be particularly hampered by them. By any objective measure she was in horrible condition, but many of the space marines around her were even worse.
Lilith and Andromalius had spent the battle as the last line of defence, waiting alongside dozens of juves chosen to become Astartes, as the bodies had piled up they had been drafted into tending the wounded, it had been grim work but in its own way a welcome distraction, Lilith could not look at the Juves and then at the hunks of meat they so desperately wanted to be, but she could take just looking at one of them. Shredded Transhuman flesh was a fresh novelty, these arrogant freaks who lorded it over anyone who had to fear death, at first she enjoyed their pain, a savage equality. Then the screams and moans and the full extent of the injuries slowly dulled her indignation and left her scared and saddened and lost again. So she drifted between the dead and the dying, somewhere between the two herself, doing what little she could and wondering for the millionth time what she was doing here.
Such heavy questions distracted her so much that she did not even recognise the one armed medic working alongside her over a dying Space Marine in gold and black armor until the former spoke to her, the shocking familiarity robbing any meaning from the words.
"What?" She asked stupidly.
"I said it was nice to see you up and about, but you don't look much better off than the poor souls we're taking care of." By now Atefeh knew the woman she was talking to well enough to be blunt. "I'm saying you look like shit."
She laughed in surprise which quickly morphed into relief, "Oh that's good to hear. I was going to feel mean when I told you what you looked like."
"Oh yeah?" Atefeh smiled as she spoke. Her face was clearly a challenge for Lilith to try her best. "And what exactly do I look like?"
Her eyes flickered for a moment.
Beautiful.
"Like those rodents ate you before coming to their senses and vomiting."
That earned a snort before Atefeh laughed. "Yeah they just couldn't keep me down. Said they didn't like their humans so weird."
"Oh, you call yourself human." Lilith sounded surprised. "Thought Ass-tart-teases were a different breed."
"Depends on who you ask. I think most people see us as a bit too changed to be really human." A tiny hint of clinical precision crept into Atefeh's voice, though the light mood remained predominant. "But Ahurani says that we are human so long as we are able to laugh and love and connect with the people around us. She's my boss, so I use her definition."
"You have a boss? Is she like…bigger than you? Also she sounds like a drip."
"Uh, yeah. A bit taller than me but like, quite a bit bigger. Has big white wings so she's hard to miss." Atefeh set the bandages down and motioned vaguely over her head to indicate the size difference. It wasn't very well communicated. "And yeah she's... a drip is probably a pretty good description. Sappy, cries a lot. Has a whole thing where she thinks fighting is evil, but she's in charge of a legion and a good chunk of the imperial army."
Atefeh shrugged. "No matter how lame she is, she is still my boss. Commands like," Her brow knitted up in thought. "Well when I got assigned here there were about twenty six thousand of us. But last I heard the girls were heading to go fight in two different wars back to back so who knows how many there are now. Melika's been telling me we're buddying up with the Cages too, so I guess I have a second boss?"
Lilith rolled her eyes at the wings comment, clearly presuming she was being fucked with. "Alright, alright…so from the sounds of it this is one of those weird noble things where the Emperor put his six year old brat in charge and you all have to do what she says but its gone so bad that a real soldier got sent to help 'guide' her? Heard that was how they did things in the rest of the Imperium, never believed it though, even the Topsiders here aren't that dumb."
Confusion was clear on Atefeh's face. "Ahurani's gotta be at least a century old now, and who knows how long she was on her homeworld before we found her. That's... not the worst summary though. Girl's not cut out to be a primarch, so if the Emperor is finally giving us someone better suited to being in charge I'll count it as a good thing. I never got why she was in charge in the first place, but hey. My job is to shoot things and tend to thee wounded, not ask political questions."
"Huh, so you have to eat shit too. Maybe you are still human." Lilith allowed. "Plenty of stuff to shoot and wounded to tend to here anyway…do you know why any of this is happening?"
"Which part? There's a whole lot of stuff happening and I only know anything about some of them."
"The rats…nukes…whatever the green glowing shit was…why so many Spacemarines…its all just…why? You know. Everything has been insane since the rockheads showed up."
"Well, those are the things I mostly know the least about. The rats have probably been here for a while, I checked some records and these things have been seen on a bunch of other worlds in smaller numbers. Nukes were probably just a power play, weaken the humans here to let them dominate, but that's just a guess. Who knows how rat minds work. The glowing shit is a mystery to everyone, and I heard some of my sisters got yelled at about it." As Atefeh went though each point she held up fingers, though she couldn't count them for added emphasis.
"The space marines is easy though. The ugly, rude, green ones are natives. The black and gold ones with the weirdly ornate armour came here on orders to stop things from escalating and failed before they got here. My sisters and I were left to help deal with the problems that were developing back when things looked slightly less catastrophic. The newest shipment of my legion and the Cages is because Ahurani heard about what was happening and was, uh... upset." Atefeh grimaced, something about Ahurani being upset clearly having quite a bit more weight to it than her words implied. "They're here to help deal with the rats and help rebuild. Help out the family, you know?"
"Family, also I don't think anyone has ever told me so much about anything in my life without some…persuasion. You always talk so freely?"
That made Atefeh look a little sad, though it was only for a fleeting moment. "I can't tell you everything, there are secrets meant only for the legion. But if it isn't a secret, why keep it hidden? You don't strike me as someone who will misuse anything I tell you, you just want to know so the world is less confusing. If I can help with that, why wouldn't I?"
"On Stormgard you need to know something someone tells you or expects you to find out, you don't then we don't waste time voxing."
"Don't take this the wrong way, but that sounds really lonely." It was the arm closest to Lilith that Atefeh was missing, and so she couldn't offer a hand as a show of support. That actually seemed to frustrate her, and she heaved a sigh before continuing. "I hope that one day things get better, at least for you."
"It is what it is, I've always had people around me, they just trust me to be able to stand on my own two feet, I'd hate it if they didn't respect me enough for that."
"There's a difference, I think." Atefeh began, carefully. "Between respecting someone's ability to stand for themselves, and not doing anything to help unless they get a benefit in return." She closed her eyes for a moment, then reached down to pick the bandage back up after they were open. "I should drop the subject, probably. I just think you deserve a break."
"Since when does deserve have anything to do with anything? You get what you get, not what you think you're owed and I don't need protection from words, wind can't hurt anyone." She bristled slightly, "sorry, you were trying to be nice again, you're pretty sweet."
Atefeh held up a hand. "Hey, I've gotten worse from the guys I fight alongside. Don't worry too much. You're nice to be around, takes more than that to get rid of me"
"Been called a lot of things, never 'nice'" She chuckled. "You are a strange one, all you Space Marines so cute?"
Atefeh's eyes sparkled. "I've been called a lot of things, but cute is a new one. But I bet you say that to all the one armed 7 foot tall women you meet."
"Every, single, one." She confessed.