Year Three, Chapter Seven
On Thursday, Harry had the unenviable experience of double potions first thing in the morning. She thought, perhaps, that the teachers had shown at least a little mercy and not made it first thing Monday morning. She'd heard constant rumours about one class who'd had that happen, and legend had it that Gryffindor had gone into negative points several times that year.
"Double potions first thing... that should be illegal," Ron said into his cereal. Nobody disagreed - not even Hermione, who looked a little tired at the idea herself.
"We need to get going unless you want to be late," Hermione said, after a moment. Harry got her book bag, and the trio started towards the dungeons. It was only after everyone was seated that Snape emerged, batlike, from his office.
He immediately began to berate random Gryffindors about their uniforms, their posture, the organisation of their potions kits, and more. It was only nearly fifteen minutes into the lesson did Harry realise Snape hadn't so much as looked at her for the entire class. She felt her unease grow as the lesson went on, sure that Snape had some diabolical plan in mind for her.
And yet, the end of the lesson came and went without Snape so much as uttering 'Potter' once. He hadn't tried to correct her on minute uniform violations or lamented her brewing technique. He hadn't even looked up when she'd handed in her shrinking solution. He didn't even respond, just writing down an 'E" for her grade.
"What'd you do to make Snape ignore you like that, Harry? Neville asked on their way to defence.
"I've got no idea, Neville," Harry said, honestly. She didn't know what was up with Snape, but she'd take him ignoring her over his previous behaviour.
"Do you think the new Defence Professor will be any good?" Lavender Brown asked Harry. She'd been asked that question a few times, her various end of year exploits apparently making her their year's resident expert on Defence Against the Dark Arts.
"I think he knows what he's doing, which is more than you could say for Lockhart. But I dunno if he's a good teacher or not. Snape knows what he's doing with potions, and look how he turned out," Harry said.
"The textbook he set was interesting. Not at all like your standard DADA textbooks," Hermione said, thoughtfully.
"Only you could call a textbook interesting, Hermione," Ron said, shaking his head.
They'd already gotten their textbooks, parchment, ink, and quills out by the time Lupin entered the classroom. Now that she could look at him up-close and in daylight, Harry saw just how heavily scarred and weary he looked. His robes were shabby, and Harry could see the tell-tale signs of repeated castings of mending charms.
"Well, it's good to see you all survived double potions. Books and parchment away, please. Today will be a practical lesson, as will a great many of our future lessons. No more acting out scenes from dubiously true books," Lupin said as he wrote his name on the blackboard. The entire class laughed at his reference to Lockhart and started to put their things away.
"This year is a special one for Defence Against the Dark Arts. You've learnt basic spells to help you escape danger or signal for help in your first year. In your second year, you should have learnt a basic disarming charm and how to deal with common but dangerous pests, like pixies. This year, your third year, is where it gets interesting. We're going to cover the basics of everything from fighting off another wizard to dealing with your first truly dark creatures. It might get a little scary at times - but this is where the subject you all imagined when you heard the words 'Defence Against the Dark Arts' starts," Lupin said. With a flick of his wand, he sent small booklets flying towards each student. Everyone was grinning at one another. Even if he did turn out to be evil, it sounded to Harry like Lupin's lessons would be a lot of fun.
"That is our syllabus for the year, along with books to read up on in the library for each subject. Essays and note-taking are for homework, not classroom time. Now, with all that said, if you could all wait outside the classroom? Leave everything but your wands here. We're going to have to go to our practical example today - not you Miss Potter, I just need a quick word with you," Lupin said. He walked over to her as everyone else filtered out.
"Professor Lupin?" Harry asked, confused.
"You're not in trouble, Miss Potter. Do you happen to know what a Boggart is?" Lupin asked. Harry, having read her textbooks cover to cover during her stay with the Dursleys, nodded. "So you can see why I might ask you not to take part in actually confronting it today?" Lupin said.
"I - I understand, Professor," Harry said, though she was disappointed.
"If you'd still like to try it, you're welcome to come back here after classes have finished. I'd just really rather not have angry letters from parents after Voldemort appeared in the middle of the third-year defence class," Lupin said.
"I - I hadn't considered that," Harry said, and then she joined the rest of the class outside. Lupin led them down the corridors, and Harry realised where they were going - the staffroom.
"What did Lupin want, mate?" Ron asked.
"Just wanted to ask me to do the practical bit after classes instead of with everyone else," Harry said.
"Are you sure, Harry? That's... unusual," Hermione said, and Harry shook her head.
"I think you'll probably agree with him after this class," Harry said. She wasn't sure what her Boggart would be, but Voldemort was a good guess. Although, she thought he would probably appear as Riddle for her after the last year.
As the door to the staffroom opened, Harry saw that it wasn't totally empty. Snape was sitting in an armchair, one of the many mismatched chairs that adorned the room. Most of them had been pushed to the side, and a table had been moved out of the way too. A large - and familiar to Harry - wardrobe sat at the other end of the long room from the door. He looked up in surprise as Lupin entered and then sighed deeply as he saw the class. As the last student entered, and Lupin went to close the door, Snape got up.
"Leave the door open, Lupin. I'd rather not have to witness Longbottom wet himself," Snape said, as he walked towards the door.
"I think Neville will do wonderfully. In fact, Neville, why don't you come up here and assist me with the first stage of this?" Lupin said, with a bland smile. Neville looked extremely nervous, even after Snape had left. As Snape let the door slam behind him, the wardrobe rattled ominously.
"Wh-what's in there, Professor Lupin?" Neville asked.
"A Boggart. Can anyone tell me what a Boggart is?" Lupin asked the class. Hermione put up her hand, and Lupin pointed to her.
"It's a shapeshifter - it can take the form of whatever frightens us the most," Hermione answered.
"Good, that's exactly right. I asked the staff to leave this one in its hiding place so we could have this lesson - boggarts like dark, enclosed spaces that are also highly magical. They're one of the dark creatures you're most likely to encounter in everyday life - luckily, they're also one of the easiest to defeat if you're aware of what's happening. Boggarts don't deal well with a well-prepared witch or wizard - nor can they affect a group. What really finishes one-off is laughter - but it's hard to laugh at your worst fear. So, if you're on your own, your best bet is a little charm - the Riddikulus charm," Lupin said, demonstrating the wand movement.
The entire class was listening to him eagerly, and Harry thought that defence this year would be very different from defence with Lockhart. As Lupin led them all through practising each element of the spell without the others - first the incantation without a wand, then the wand movement without the incantation - Harry wondered if her Boggart really would take the form of Tom Riddle. She still had nightmares about the chamber, but in the light of day, she could remember Riddle's terrified face as she destroyed the diary.
"Good work, everyone. Now, Neville, what would you say your worst fear is?" Lupin asked.
"Pr-professor Snape," Neville said, blushing as red as Ron's hair. People laughed, not in a mean spirited sort of manner. Neville even grinned apologetically at them.
"An understandable fear! Now, I think I have just the thing for this - the most important part of this charm is to keep an image of your fear transformed to something funny clear in your minds!" Lupin said as he withdrew a photograph from his robes. It was folded over, and Harry could see a girl in a Hogwarts uniform through Lupin's scarred fingers.
"Is that-" Neville began to ask, but Lupin just nodded before Neville could finish the question.
"Now, do you have something funny in mind, Neville?" Lupin asked.
"I- I think so, Professor," he said. Lupin stood back and opened the wardrobe with a wave of his wand. Snape seemed to step out of the wardrobe, his black robes billowing in a phantom wind.
"Mr Longbottom -"" the Boggart began, only for Neville to brandish his wand at it.
"Riddikulus!" he shouted, and the Boggart transformed. It shrank, the hair grew, and an awful case of acne covered what was clearly a teenaged Snape's face. His robes were still sized for his adult self, and the Boggart nearly tripped over the suddenly over-large black robes.
"Mr Longbottom!" He shouted, only for his voice to break. The entire class began to roar with laughter, all glad to see Snape (or at least the illusion of him) humiliated.
"Excellent work Neville - now, form a line and you can all have a try!" Lupin said, and one by one the rest of the class turned the Boggart from a nightmare to a joke. Everyone was laughing, and Harry felt herself not even minding not getting to have a go with everyone else. Neville had even earned ten points to Gryffindor for facing the Boggart first, and Harry saw a spring in his step all day.
After her last class that day, she met Lupin in the defence classroom. The wardrobe wasn't there, but there was a wooden chest that rattled ominously.
"Thank you for your understanding today, Harry. Do you still want to try your charm on the Boggart?" Lupin asked.
"I would, yeah," Harry said. She had been trying to think all day about what her boggart would be. She had considered a number of options, from the obvious (Voldemort) to the personal (Herself as a boy). Still, she couldn't narrow it down.
"Very well," Lupin said and stepped backwards. The chest swung open, and Harry knew she'd been stupid. The hooded figure rising from the chest stunk off rotten meat and saltwater, its visible flesh a slimy, plaid grey. The Dementor in front of her slowly advanced towards her, and Harry felt the panic rising inside her. She remembered the chamber, remembered all her nerves burning as Riddle tortured her. She was back in the cupboard under the stairs. She had to be a boy again.
Yet, as awful as it was, Harry could still move. She could still think. She broke through the panic and remembered that it was just an imitation. A dark spirit in a Dementor costume.
"Riddikulus!" She shouted, and the dementor transformed into Draco Malfoy in a cheap Dementor costume and grey face paint. Lupin struggled not to laugh, failed, and banished the Boggart back into the chest.
"Well, I had expected your boggart to be Lord Voldemort. A Dementor... that suggests that your fear is of fear itself," Lupin said, pensively. Harry didn't say anything, lost in thought. "Your reaction to the Dementors does not make you weak, Harry. The worst most of your peers have suffered is the unexpected death of a relative or a pet. To have faced what you've faced and still be here instead of running for the other side of the world... that takes true courage," Lupin said, smiling at her.
"Thanks, Professor. For letting me do this without everyone watching. And, um, for what you said," Harry said, feeling very nervous.
"So what was your Boggart?" Hermione asked that night as they got ready for bed, quietly. Hermione's Boggart had taken the form of the white queen from the chessboard in their first year.
"A Dementor," Harry said. She wasn't sure what being afraid of fear itself said about her.
"Are you alright?" Hermione asked, worriedly.
"I'm - I'm fine. It wasn't as bad as the real thing," Harry said, feeling angry for a moment before she caught herself.
" I didn't mean that you were weak or anything, Harry," Hermione said, noticing Harry's hurt look.
"I know. Professor Lupin said something similar," Harry said, looking out the window. She could see the Dementors patrolling the boundaries of the grounds, tiny black figures occasionally made visible against the night sky by obscuring the stars. She tore herself away from the window and went to bed, hoping that she wouldn't now have nightmares about the Chamber and the Dementors.