Even when crushed, a portion of it is still in there If my theory is correct, But even so, a fetus might disrupt something, not to mention her soul will likely be very weak because of the pianist. So a bit of interference and many things were lost.
At least we are sure that she definitely have light in her.
Oh, I forgot to mention
*** you Carmen, I'm going to hang your metaphorical head on Rolands door.
And he will appreciate gift by jamming a few new nails into your fucking head.
Goddamnit, I love her and hate her at the same time.