This is the larger 10k chapter I'd discussed. As such, I won't be updating next week as this 10k will serve as the2x5k for the week. I've now finished this story for now and have the poll up (see links previously) for which story I'll be working on next month. There's 2 more advanced chapters up currently.
This is the first perspective change we've had in the story, so I'd welcome feedback on how that went. I had a reread of some of the Sansa chapters in the books and she's not as tiresome a character as one might imagine, there's some interesting stuff there but it can be frustrating to read about a character who's just confused and sad all the time and has little agency and really just gets passed about between various plotting factions.
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Sansa had woken up in a cabin, somewhere in the Wolfswood. She'd been groggy at first, confused and dazed as she shook off sleep.
The first day had been confusing. She was still in her smallclothes, so she tried to dress but only found a few random items of clothing from whoever lived at the cabin.
She didn't know how she'd come to be here, and she wanted to be home.
The howling of wolves in the woods made her stay in the cabin though. At least it was safe there.
Then Greyback had come.
She'd been terrified at first, then heartened at little at the Stark sigil on his shield and the mail on his breast.
"I am Fenrir Greyback, one of your father's men, girl." he'd told her. She'd thought that rude at the time, for him not to address her as she should be as the daughter of his lord, but she was so glad he was there that she was willing to look past it.
Greyback got her up on a horse and she noticed his nails for the first time.
A man couldn't have nails like that. Nails that would belong more on the paw of a beast of the forest, rather than a man.
It wasn't possible, so she ignored it, hunching low over her bridle as Greyback led her horse on.
She didn't question why he held a rope connected to her own horse, but he told her it was to stop the hose being spooked and her falling and hurting herself. She even thanked him for the care.
Sansa didn't like to look at Greyback's face, it was a fearsome on, his teeth were sharp, as if he'd filed them to make himself look more like a beast, while his brow was heavy and the whiskers on his cheeks and his dark hair gave him the look of a savage who'd wandered out the woods.
He wore the mail of her father's guards with the Stark direwolf on his surcoat and bore hatchet, dagger and crossbow. He wore a great bearskin as his cloak, and when he put the hood up over his head he looked like a beast himself.
She knew a lady should be brave, and should treat the smallfolk with respect, and so she tried to do so for Greyback.
The man was leading her south, she realised, and that didn't cause suspicion at first. Sansa didn't know much of the geography of the North, not enough to question a man-at-arms in any case.
"How much further is it, Ser?" she asked. Sansa knew Greyback wasn't a knight, and his name was queer, but it was polite in any case, "I know my family will be glad to see me, and will surely reward you."
Greyback just laughed at that. "Only a little further, girl."
She asked how she'd come to be in the cabin, how Greyback had come to find her.
"You were kidnapped." Greyback said casually.
Sansa was shocked.
Bael the Bard had kidnapped a daughter of House Stark ages and ages ago, and they called the father 'Brandon the Daughterless' afterward. Had the Wildlings crept into her chamber and taken her? How had she not woken up? She asked Greyback.
"Your abductor used a potion, brought from a herbalist, which causes people to sleep a long time and very deeply." Greyback explained. "Now, enough talk, girl, we have a long way to go tomorrow and we must get you back to your father soon."
Sansa hadn't known there to be suspicious. Greyback's words seemed logical and after all, poor Ser Rodrick had been killed by Wildlings, hadn't he?
The first time he pulled her off the horse and pulled the horses down quickly to lie in the ditch beside the road, Sansa had obeyed without question. There were Wildlings about after all, it was only safe.
The second time she obey as well.
But by the third she started to feel a pain in her stomach, a strange ache like she'd swallowed a heavy stone.
When they rose from the hiding, Sansa saw a caravan of wains trekking across the flatlands, off west toward the Kingsroad. Why had they hidden from them? Did the Wildlings use wagons?
Why was Greyback going south? These were the lands around Torrhen's Square, she's seen as such on a sign. But soon enough they passed back into the Wolfswood, keeping to the edge of the forest so they could swiftly hide when they needed to.
The Kingsroad ran north-south through Winterfell, she knew, but Sansa couldn't work out where they were going.
"Can't we stop, ask for help at the nearest holdfast? We passed one earlier and I'm sure the Wildlings wouldn't be able to take it, not without men coming from Torrhen's Square or Castle Cerwyn." she said.
"No!" Greyback growled, and she shrank back in the saddle. Then he seemed to realise he'd scared her. "No, girl." he said again, this time softer, "We must avoid anyone, it's not safe."
Sansa meekly agreed at the time, but the heavy stone in her belly just grew and grew.
That night, she questioned Greyback, tested him. She would talk of small things, of the layout of Winterfell or of the doings of her father. She would mention names which any of Lord Stark's guards would know, and also mix in false names.
And she proved it. Greyback wasn't one of her father's guards at all.
The stone dropped from her stomach, it weighed her down like a great boulder.
Greyback was a Wildling. He must be…
The next day she would prove it for true.
"We should follow the road." she said, gesturing to the wider concourse heading away to the east, "That way must be Winterfell."
Greyback shook his head.
"I order you, Fenrir Greyback." Sansa managed to muster the courage to say, "I order you, if you be true, take me to my father."
The savage just laughed, he threw back his head and let out great rasping barks like a dog.
Her captor came forward and bound her hands to the bridle of her horse. He must have stolen that too, she thought, but she could do nothing as they wound their way through the countryside.
How could she have been so stupid? She should have run the moment she woke up, not waited while Greyback led her through the woods, too far that she'd never know where she was. They must be on the other side of the Wolfswood now, she thought, but there was nothing she could do about it. Where could she run? Greyback kept a firm hand on the rope which restrained her horse and herself, and he kept her bound most of the time, except sometimes at night.
But Sansa was a lady of House Stark, she was the Blood of Winter, she was brave enough to bare it.
"My father will hunt you down and chop off your head." she said one day.
Greyback just laughed again, "If he tries, I'll eat his heart!"
That scared Sansa so much she hid beneath the cloak Greyback had given her. The Wildlings were cannibals, she knew the stories. Was that why Greyback's teeth were so sharp?
She realised she hated the Wildlings. She hated the tribes of the woods, the folk on the Frozen Shore, or those who lived in Hardholme, the only settlement Beyond-the-Wall she'd heard of.
The hatred made her strong, she sat fuming each hour, thinking about Lord Stark riding down on them and slaying all the savages north of the Wall!
She hated the Wildlings, but she hated the Night's Watch too for their inattention. Uncle Benjen had come down weeks ago to advise her lord father about the Wildlings in the Wolfswood. It seemed to Sansa that the black brothers must have let a whole army of them through, for all the trouble they were giving her father's vassals.
She wanted them all to die, the Wildlings, the Watch, just all of them to stop existing as if the Father himself came down from the heavens and smote them with his rod, if the Warrior came with and stabbed them with his sword, if the Stranger (and she made the sign of the Seven at the thought) would come and beckon them away from his world.
But they didn't. The Seven didn't descend to destroy the Wildlings, nor did Stark men ride up and kill Greyback.
Instead they rode on, and the man would look at her in a way that made her feel like she had no clothes on.
"Why did you kidnap me?" she asked. "If it's ransom you're looking for, there's no lord in the North wealthier than the Stark of Winterfell."
"It wasn't for wealth." Greyback replied easily, "You have something that others don't, magic. I want your blood, girl."
Sansa didn't know what to say to that. The thought terrified her. She just looked back at Greyback in amazement.
His eyes were a deep blue, and seemed only to grow more blue as the days went on, as he looked at her more and more. There was pride in those eyes, a sense of dignity and power but also a distain. Greyback was scornful, he looked about the world as if he was above it, he sneered and growled, dismissed that which did not concern him.
Sansa hid from those eyes. She pulled the hood of her cloak low and tried to avoid Greyback's gaze, at least till they turned in to sleep at night.
That was merciful at least. Riding was tiring enough as it was, but the pace Greyback pushed them through was bruising as they picked their way through the outskirts of the Wolfswood. Sansa was often too tired to speak, too tired to even contemplate escape. Whenever Greyback would let her she would sleep, and more than once the horrible man would force her to eat before permitting her rest, shoving dense biscuits of fruit and dried meat and flour and other foulness toward her.
One night Sansa dreamt of a prince on a throne, with herself seated beside him in a gown of woven gold. She had a crown on her head, and everyone she had ever known came before her, to bend the knee and say their courtesies.
But in the morning the prince and the throne and the gown were all gone. The woods were around them, the stink of unwashed horseflesh.
"Get up, girl." The rasping voice stabbed at her ears. He squatted silently before her, a hulking black shape shrouded in the dawnlight, hidden from her eyes. Sansa could hear his ragged breathing and smell the blood on his breath.
By day as they rode Sansa felt those eyes on her again. She couldn't imagine how Greyback could lie, not with eyes like those. It was like they wrenched a way into her soul, made her feel like a small, stupid thing under the smile of a wolf. While occasionally they'd pass woodsmen or travellers and Greyback would smile and hail a greeting before swiftly marching their horses on, she knew the others could see it.
He had the bearing of a lord, the confidence and presence of one, but the soul of a monster. There was a hunger within him, a terrible lust, and Sansa didn't like to think about what would happen when Greyback had time to turn his gaze to her properly, rather than just the hideous glances he would give.
One night they sat by the campfire, Greyback having offered her a fine pie and che
"Tell me of stories, girl."
"My name is Sansa." she told him, as firmly as she could.
Greyback grinned, his sharp teeth bright in the firelight. "Girls like you love stories are tales don't you? You like to live in fantasies, to think much of yourselves, of how you'll live or who you'll marry? My own daughters did."
While Sansa was a little ashamed to realise that it was true, she did love stories, she was more shocked to learn that Greyback had children, that anyone would marry him or look at him fondly.
She looked at him more closely. He was old, his face weathered and scarred, and the cast and aspect of it was fearsome indeed. He was a strong man, tall, broad and powerful, but there was no hint of softness to him, nothing like in the songs.
"You have daughters?" she asked.
"Certainly, too many for one man, I should say!" the savage laughed, and there was a strange merriment in his answer, like the cry of one of those queer bright birds a merchant had once shown her father.
"How old are they?" she asked instead, too interested in this new side of her captor to let her fear get in the way. "Do they like each other?"
Sansa had always warred with Arya. Her lordly father said it was the Wolfblood, but it was just his way of saying that Arya was wilful. The stupid girl would row and throw things, not just when she was younger but even as she grew into her maidenhood. Sansa hated her sister sometimes, she'd once prayed that somehow the Gods would switch places between Arya and Beth Cassel, or Jeyne Poole, or any other girl who could be a true confident to Sansa, not a thorn in her foot eternally.
"Well, Anyanka, my eldest, she's expecting her own grandchildren by now I'd expect, for my grandson took a wife a few years ago. My youngest is Nasrin is only five, though I've not seen her recently." Greyback explained.
Sansa knew the Wildlings took many wives sometimes, she'd heard Jon and Theon speaking of it, saying what a better system it might be to have more than one woman for each man, at least until her lady mother had got wind of it and sent them to the septon to recite the Book of the Mother.
How many wives must Greyback have had, to have borne him daughters so varied through the years?
"As for whether they get along, my kin are a fractious lot, you could say. The Clans fight among themselves sometimes, but I travel between them about my business. My daughters want strong families, and my sons want to make their father proud. Six of them I've buried, sons and grandsons, over the years. But sixty more stand in their place, and they carry battle in my name against the Wizards." Greyback continued.
It was incredible. Sansa didn't know whether to even believe it. Did the Wildlings fight wizards and sorcerers beyond the Wall? Could a man sire sixty sons? She didn't know which was more far-fetched!
"They all loved stories though, when they were young." Greyback continued, and a warmth grew in his rough voice. "Romulus and Remus was always popular, so was the Iron Wolf of Gediminas, or Hyrrokin and her serpent-bridle. Would you like to hear one?"
Sansa said nothing. She would ask nothing of her captor. A lady should remain upright and steadfast at all times, and the offer took her aback, made her remember where she was.
But she couldn't help herself. Where before she'd only had harshness and scorn from Greyback, now he offered a kind word.
With a gulp she nodded.
The Wild Lord grinned his toothy grin again. "Let me tell you then of the knight, Milan of Toplica. Great was he, the most skilled archer in the army of his Prince. His doublet was as blue as the waters of Perucac and his bow was of bound horn…"
Sansa listened, and by the end of the tale she was crying. She heard of Milan, of his lady love and of his mighty prince, Lazar of Kosovo. Of their battles against the nefarious Turk king, and of the deaths of Milan and his band of twelve who went by night to slay their enemies. But it was the woman's fate she found saddest. Knights were meant to die in tales, they were meant to fight valiantly and perish valiantly. They were meant to bleed and kill and die…
But Milan's lover wandered the Blackbird's Field, checking each of the dead to find her betrothed. Her hairnet was of silver and her cloak was rich. But as Greyback told it, the maiden only found blood and death. She cared for the dying, she prayed that she might find her love, but only found one of his sworn brothers, even him dying, to tell her of Milan's death.
Sansa didn't sleep well that night. She imagined herself on such a field. She saw the faces of her father and her brothers, lying upon bloodied snow. She heard the laughter of wolves and the screaming of horses before a blizzard covered the whole world.
The next day, they left the forest. Beyond were the Barrowlands and Sansa could already see the low hills of the burial places. Closer though she found stone bridges over little rivers, as well as inns and farmsteads and all the signs of civilisation as they neared the next settlement.
They passed tall watchtowers on their stony summits, and Greyback grew more agitated with each one. The ground was flat, farms and pastures stretching as far as she could see around holdfasts walled in wood and stone. The road was well trafficked, but Greyback had her sit low on the horse with her hood up and her hair bound, and promised dark things if she tried to raise an alarm.
Torrhen's Square was a large town, at least by the standards of the North. Set on the banks of an artificial lake, the town served to bring lumber out of the Wolfswood, down small rivers and along the roads, then to the town's lake for dressing an construction, or all manner of trade purposes. Lumber was the main export of the settlement, Sansa knew from the lessons she'd had with her lady mother, and with Maester Luwin. It was part of the history of House Stark, and it was a fitting subject for a lady to know of.
Torrhen Stark, the King Who Knelt, had built the town, expanding a smaller holdfast and seeing the value northern lumber might bring in trade to the South, following the unification of the Seven Kingdoms under Aegon the Conqueror. The king had built a dam across a wide valley, flooding the 'square' and giving Torrhen's Square its name.
Sansa knew the Wolfswood was the largest forest in Westeros. There were lesser forests, whether the Rainwood of the Stormlands or the Kingswood of the Crownlands, but the great forest of the North was more ancient and untamed.
The girl had always feared it. You could see it, from the tallest turrets of Winterfell on a clear day, and many a time she's looked out in fear, knowing the beasts and wildlings that hid in it might one day surge out toward Winterfell.
There'd even been a time when she'd refused to leave her room. Sansa had hidden there, too fearful of the forests and the beasts to come out. Her brothers had come to see her and her mother too. Each had told her that the Wolfswood was well named, indeed that it held beasts, and Theon, cruel boy that he was, had even said wildlings would indeed come through there sometimes. That had just terrified her more.
Then her lordly father came. He'd sat on her bed as she hid under the coverlets and furs. Eddard Stark had read from an ancient history book, leafing through the tome to recount every time the knights of House Stark had rode out in splendour to vanquish enemies.
Sansa had always loved stories, but now it seemed she lived one.
How she wished that her father would come! Come to calm her, to read again how her house had ruled the North for thousands of years, how they'd rule in strength for a thousand more. How the riders and warriors would swing their bright swords and throw down the Warg Lord or the Flayed King or the Black Men of Ibben.
There was nothing to fear in those stories, her the Warden of the North had assured her. Good would triumph, brave men would fight against evil-doers.
Her father would have reassured her, she knew. He would have rode out, sword flashing in the sun and Greyback would have quailed before him.
But Eddard Stark wasn't here. In his place stood a different wolf, leering at her.
"Come, girl." the monster said, "We have a lot of ground to cover."
Sansa thought he'd lead her into Torrhen's Square itself. She'd never visited the dam, nor the river which led down between the Barrowlands and the Rills toward the Saltspear, then out into Blazewater Bay, those waters which were said to burn gold in sunset.
While Sansa preferred the stories of chivalry of the south, of Aemon the Dragonknight or Florian the Fool, she also knew those of the North well enough. She knew of the struggles of the Barrowknights, who were said to have dead kings join them in the vanguard of battles or how the steeds of the Rills and the Dustins were the finest to be found.
How did they get lumber south?
She idly wondered it as Greyback pushed them on toward the town. It was a silly question, it didn't matter, she knew… But Sansa needed to distract herself. Whenever she looked at Greyback on the horse before her she shivered, knowing what sort of a man he was.
Greyback didn't seem to be making for Torrhen's Square after all, she noticed as the towers of the wall finally came into sight. Instead he skirted south, along the steep banks of the lake, through little villages. He took her bodily from the horse, his rough hands around her waist clamping her like a smith's vice and his hideous finger-claws biting into her flesh, even through the thick cloak she wore.
"I'm going to tie you." he said simply, and he did, binding her wrists over and over around a young tree, barely a handspan wide. "Don't think to escape, I can track your scent as easily as a hound might, and it won't go well for you if you do run."
Then the man disappeared, setting off on his own horse, leaving her there with hers grazing away and her wrists smarting from the rough thongs of leather.
Sansa struggled against it for more than an hour. She tried simply pulling her hands out, seeing whether the knot was strong.
It was.
She tried lifting the knot further up, but after she looked up for more than a moment she knew that would be useless too, she wasn't Bran, she couldn't climb like a squirrel.
In the end she just slumped to the ground and wept.
Sansa was hungry, she was tired, she was terrified. She hadn't eaten or slept properly in three days and one night in two had been in the saddle. They'd ridden as much as Greyback had been willing to push the horses, and more than was good for them, she knew.
Sansa hated horses. She hated their smell, their mess, the low folk who manned the stables of Winterfell and how her sister, Arya, would make friends so easily with them. When the guards had called her 'Arya Horseface' Sansa had cruelly said that it was because Arya was half horse from all the time she'd spent with them, but once her lady mother caught wind of it she'd chastised Sansa sternly for such insults.
How Sansa missed that now. Even a stern look from her mother or her Septa, or even Arya's stupid jibes were better than the looks Greyback would give her.
That night it took a long time for Greyback to get back. The wind whistled through the boughs of the trees around her, but she could still see the lights of Torrhen's Square, way out across the water. Was it the town, in truth? Or was it just some other village? She didn't know, she couldn't remember.
Sansa shivered in the cold. She had her cloak, but she'd had nothing hot to eat all that day, such was the pace Greyback had pushed them at.
Eventually, mercifully, the man did return, bloody meat hanging over his shoulder.
He set about making a fire, eventually deigning to release Sansa.
She'd thought he might have some salve or poultice for her wrists, for she'd rubbed them bloody in her desperation. But she'd forgotten. Fenrir Greyback wasn't her lady mother, nor Maester Luwin. He was a wildling savage, come to carry her off.
"Do you know how to make a fire, girl?" the wildling asked.
Sansa shook her head, too cold to be defiant.
"Well then you'd best learn. There's a lot you need to know, and little time to teach you." replied Greyback.
"I don't need to learn anything. A lady doesn't set fires." Sansa managed, hope growing at the prospect of a fire's warmth.
"Oh?" remarked Greyback, "We don't need a fire then I suppose. You're right, it's best not to be seen, and we can just eat the meat raw."
Sansa couldn't restrain herself, "Raw!?"
Greyback picked one morsel up from the meat he'd brought back. She couldn't make it out properly, she could smell it though, a fresh kill, bloody and red. He slowly placed it on his tongue and chewed, licking his clawed fingers clean between motions.
"Would you prefer it cooked?" the man asked.
Sansa glared at him. Then she nodded.
"Ask me nicely." Greyback ordered, leaning back against the tree, licking a drip of the meat's blood from his lips.
The defiance of the man! The insolence! If only her father could see them, he'd ride right down on him and take off his head with Ice!
But Sansa was cold, and Sansa was hungry.
"Please, teach me how to make a fire and cook the meat." she finally said.
Greyback just smiled again.
The next morning they set out over the Barrowlands. Greyback led her away from the river, away from civilisation, into the wilds with their horses tramping over a crisp frosty landscape. The rising sun sent fingers of light through the pale white mists of dawn. A wide plain spread out beneath them, bare and brown, its flatness here and there relieved by long, low hummocks.
Here was a land of the dead. Here were the barrows of the First Men, the Kings of the North and of the barrows both. Here they would ride forth by night with their cavalry across the sky to torment smallfolk in their huts, or to steal away great men to join their vanguard.
Off far away, to the west Sansa supposed, the flint hills rose higher and wilder with each passing mile, until by the fourth day they had turned into mountains, cold blue-grey giants with jagged promontories and snow on their shoulders. When the wind blew from the north, long plumes of ice crystals flew from the high peaks like banners.
During the nights they huddled together, for there was no wood to be found for a campfire. Greyback was like a furnace though and he curled around her, one hand spread over her possessively, her bindings on her wrists again to stop her escaping during sleep.
He would tell her stories then, speaking poetry in languages she did not know, telling of kings and heroes.
By day she would force more of the horrid meat cakes down her throat, and drink sparingly of the waterskin Greyback gave her. It was little and less, and her head began to pound. She felt dizzy and her mouth was dry, and Greyback opened the vein of his horse, bidding her drink the hot, salty lifeblood of the animal.
The blood revived her a little, but it was still a terrible existence. Sansa dreaded each day, and the only comfort she could find, perverse as it was, were the stories Greyback would tell as they lay together at night.
How she longed to bathe, to have a moment to herself, to have servants tend to her or to hear her mother's signing as they shared an embrace. Not to have a savage bind her up like a pig to the slaughter, or to watch her constantly, even when she had to make water or use the flat Barrowland ground as a privy.
Her horse died on the third day, but Greyback swiftly moved her over to his own, pushing the beast all the harder. It seemed there was method to this though, for soon enough the hellish experience of the Barrowlands was behind her, and Barrowtown to the fore.
They didn't approach the town. Just like with Torrhen's Square, Greyback feared it, feared discovery. Soon though they came to a large stable, out on the edge of the town's surroundings, probably a day's ride away.
The stolen horse they both sat astride was weaving and blowing, and Sansa didn't think it would last any longer than her own horse had.
"We'll stop here." Greyback said.
The prospect of a roof over their heads at night instead of another fitful, shivering slumber with Greyback's breath in her ear warmed her a little.
It was a large farm, with a large farmhouse, three stories tall and with several outbuildings. The walls were handsome, whitewashed and shining in the sunlight, while there was glass in some of the windows, the bottom of the panes were thicker from where the glass had run down.
That made Sansa sad. She remembered asking Maester Luwin why glass did that, remembered the glass in the sept her father had built for her mother.
She remembered home.
A sandy-haired young man had seen them, and was making his way toward them. Greyback carried Sansa off the horse, stepping down himself after to speak with the man.
Sansa noticed Greyback had dismounted on one side of the horse, toward the farmhand, while he'd put her on the other side. It wasn't as if the man would recognise her but it was clever anyway. It made her feel stupid and small again.
"We've ridden far." Greyback was saying, and his words brought Sansa back to the world. "Do you have oats and feed for my horse? I have silver."
"We do at that." the farmer said. Sansa drew around the stolen horse to look at him from under her hood. He was young, his face freckled and tanned from working in the sun all summer. She couldn't place his age, but he couldn't be more than twenty. "Come over to the stables and I'll see to it myself. You can discuss payment with my father. Where've you come from? From your approach it looked like you came from the Kingsroad."
Greyback ignored the question, pushing on. "And my daughter here, do you have women on the farm? I'd have her taken care of, do you have a well, somewhere to draw bathing water?" he demanded of the farmhand.
"Aye, my sister can see to that, up at the house, send her on ahead and she'll see to it." the man said.
"How many of you are there here?" Greyback asked, looking hungrily toward the building.
"Oh, there's me and two brothers, Jerek is off at Barrowtown as a 'prentice, but my sister and my brother's wife too are here, and my father of course, though he's out in the far pasture beyond the river." concluded the man, continuing to unsaddle their horse. "This is good horseflesh." he mused, "You should really take care of her better!"
Greyback had come up behind him quietly, drawing his knife, "That won't matter soon enough…"
The savage looked at her before he struck. He fixed her to the spot with his terrible eyes.
The young man died in front of her. Greyback stashed his body in the stable, pitching the corpse into a haystack that lay behind a partition. Sansa could still see it, but no one would be able to outside the stable.
"Stay here, girl." Greyback ordered, and stalked away, bloody knife concealed behind his back.
Sansa knew she should say something. Knew she should run for the house, run to warn the family there of the deadly predator which was coming.
But she didn't.
She was more scared for herself than she was for the farmers.
The realisation struck Sansa like a bucket of icy water thrown over her.
Did it make her a bad person? An evil person just as bad as Greyback? Did it make her cruel and uncaring like him?
She'd said nothing, and now the farmers would surely all die.
But she couldn't help it! Greyback had looked at her and those eyes, those terrible eyes had frozen her to the spot, unable to utter even a sound as Greyback killed the first farmer.
Instead she just sat on the rushes on the floor of the stable. She didn't cry, she wasn't even sad. She just watched, hands folded in her lap, with a strange fascination. She had never seen a man die before. She ought to be crying too, she thought, but the tears would not come. Perhaps she had used up all her tears for herself before. It would be different if it had been Jory or Ser Rodrik or Father, she told herself. The young farmhand in the roughspun tunic was nothing to her, some stranger from the Barrowlands who's name she'd never known, and in any case would have forgotten as soon as she heard it. And now the world would forget his name too, Sansa realized; there would be no songs sung for him. That was sad.
Greyback found here there, sitting on the floor, looking at the dead man. He ignored the horse, briefly inspecting others in the stable before turning to her. He spoke to her, she heard a wolf's snarls and growls. Then he caught her up and put her over his shoulder. Her face was pressed into the brindled fur of the bearskin he wore as a cloak and he stalked toward the farmhouse.
Greyback almost threw her into a chair before the fireplace, he spoke again, but again she heard nothing. Then he slapped her, hard with the back of his hand and she tasted blood.
"Wake up, girl!" he shouted. "I'm going into Barrowtown. It's a day's ride and I'm leaving you here. Don't think to escape, you know you can't… If you think to try it, look at the bodies outside again and think better. There's one of the women alive still, but she won't be once I'm done with her, that'll be a good lesson for you I think."
The monster drew closer, grasping her chin between his terrible claws, "Get yourself clean and get some food. You'll be alone here for a few days, depending on how long it takes me."
She sat there for an hour or more after Greyback left. She just stared into the fire. She couldn't hear the screams outside.
Then she felt hungry, so she got up to look around.
Sansa picked through the house. She avoided the bloody train in one room where someone had been killed, and after opening one door and finding a corpse inside she shut it tight and looked away.
The pantry had a hanging slab of bacon, and the buttery had milk and cheeses. Sansa took a knife and a heavy iron skillet she had to use two hands to hold, settling it over the fire. She poked at the wood till she had it better spread out, then managed to manoeuvre the skillet onto the heat. She put butter in and it sizzled away. Then she cut strips of bacon from the slab, carrying them on a wooden plate and dumping them in with the butter.
It wouldn't be enough, she knew, so she went back into the pantry. She found a few wheels of cheese in varying states of maturity but each was a pleasant creamy colour. Then she found bread, brown which meant made of barley and rye, but with a dusting of white flour.
Sansa knew the smallfolk ate brown bread, but she was a noble and her lady mother had always inspected the bread Gage the Cook sent to table carefully, for her standards were very high.
She took half a loaf of bread and cut a chunk of the wheel of cheese she deemed the best, then she found a pot and brought that out too, and grabbed a bunch of thyme on the way out.
Sansa didn't really know how to cook, but she knew herbs were had with meat, but other than seeing the cooks at work when she and Jeyne snuck down to the kitchens to steal cakes, she'd never learnt to cook, it wasn't ladylike.
The bacon sizzled away in the butter, and Sansa tossed the herbs in. She stirred the pot with a stick hanging over the fireplace, and tore off chunks of bread for the cheese.
She was hungry, but she wouldn't demean herself and her House by eating just like that.
After half an hour she deemed the bacon done, for it'd changed colour and wasn't sizzling as much anymore. She brought it all to the stout table in the centre of the greatroom, setting the food out, wiping her face with a cloth and setting her hands over it to pray.
"We ask the Father to judge us with mercy, accepting our human frailty. We ask the Mother to bless the crops, so that we may feed ourselves and all who come to our door. We ask the Warrior to give us courage, in days of strife and turmoil. We ask the Maiden to protect virtue, to keep us from the clutches of depravity. We ask the Smith to strengthen our hands and our backs so we may finish the work required of us. We ask the Crone to guide us on our journey from darkness to darkness." she finished, unable to stop herself speaking faster as she looked at the food in hunger.
She picked up the knife and made to stab at a chunk of black bacon.
Who was 'we'? Who was she praying with? The souls of the farmers? Sansa realised she had repeated prayer her mother would say often over food.
She refused to be sad again. She thrust the knife into the bacon, imagining it was Greyback.
The bacon was burnt, she decided. She'd obviously cooked it for far too long, but that was alright, she could cook more.
She instead used the bread to mop up some of the juices, which were better. Then she took cheese and ate that too. That was good, and inside the little earthenware container she found potted fish, probably salmon.
Sansa spent the next few days by herself. She ate well, cooking better and better each time till on the last day the bacon came out almost as good as Gage's. She found a pot and peas, and made a potted dish, like that which the Starks would sometimes have at table. That was alright, though the herbs were unpleasant to eat. Perhaps she'd used the wrong ones.
At night she would stoke the fire, carrying wood from the woodpile outside. She had to walk past a corpse to do so, and on the second day she threw a blanket over it, for she didn't want to see it anymore.
She was almost happy there. She slept the best she'd slept in a long time, snuggled in the furs and covers of the largest bed in the house, probably the farmers.
One time she thought of saddling a horse, but knew she wouldn't be able to lift the heavy saddles. Then she thought to just sling a blanket over one of the mounts and ride and ride and ride.
But Greyback had warned her about such thoughts. He claimed he could track like a hound, and Sansa believed him.
She went outside, followed the trail of blood leading from one of the doors. She saw a little thing in the dirt and looked more closely.
It was a bloody nail. Ripped from a grasping hand cutting furrows in the earth as the person was dragged somewhere.
Sansa went on, following the signs of a struggle. She didn't have to walk far.
The woman was a bloody mess. She was naked, her clothes scattered around her, her breasts and thighs and female parts were mauled and ruined, and her face was pale, her lips turned blue in death.
Sansa did not try to escape.
Greyback returned on the third day, riding back in with a smile on his face.
"Girl!" he called her, for Sansa had gone out to meet him, hoping he would be kinder to her if she did. "I've brought you something!"
"Thank you, my lord." she replied.
That took Greyback aback, he cocked his head to the side and smiled. "You're in a good mood today."
Sansa didn't answer that. She didn't want to end up like the ruined woman beyond the door. "I made food. Meat and bread and a pottage." she said.
"A good mood indeed!" Greyback laughed.
Greyback ate well, Sansa had prepared everything, knowing he'd be back eventually. She had bathed, brushed her hair and put on one of the dresses she'd found, though it was a little shorter than she thought proper. Her fingers had felt thick and clumsy as she struggled with the brass fastenings without the benefit of servants.
Once he'd finished, eating enough food for three men all on his own, Greyback brought out three wrapped items. The first he gave her immediately and she unwrapped it, thanking the man courteously.
It was the Seven Pointed Star. Sansa did not see the blood on the corner of it, she did not consider how Greyback might have acquired it.
"Thank you, my lord." repeated, nodding in genuine happiness toward the man. She knew the book well, her lady mother had often taught from it and she knew all the hymns and homilies.
"Look here too." Greyback replied.
She took the other wrapping, unfolding it.
It was a fine cloak. It was warm, soft fur on the inside and lining the hood, while it had an oliy sheen to the outside to keep out the rain.
"Thank you again." she said.
The final package Greyback brought were strawberries. They were freshly picked, still hard from whatever garden he'd taken them. They sat in a little woven basket with a pretty lid and Sansa ate them with pleasure, it was the sweetest thing she'd tasted in a while and she loved such things.
Greyback watched her eat. His blue eyes followed each move of her fingers, her lips, her tongue. It made her feel like something dead was slithering over her flesh.
"We'll sleep early tonight." Greyback dictated, "Then tomorrow we'll find a boat and head down river. I mean to ride the horses well, and then after that we'll see what there is to be seen."
He stayed away from her that day, instead busying himself with ransacking the house. He dug by the posts in the walls, and for a moment Sansa didn't know what he was doing, but after the second excavation he pulled out a small chest, full of silver.
Greyback didn't even come to her bed to check on her, he sprawled out in a chair in front of the fire, dozing away in the evening, leaving Sansa to clear up.
When he woke he was full of energy. He ate half a loaf of bread and a large chunk of cheese as he looked over a map, charting the movements of the river that ran from Barrowtown to the Saltspear, and then to the sea. He didn't explain anything to her, but once again, because she made him food he didn't speak any harsh word to her. Sansa's hands ached a little as she packed away food as he instructed, by at least Greyback wasn't at her side, growling and stinking of death.
They departed as he instructed, early enough that the sun wasn't yet fully up. Three horses they took with them, the best in the stable, leaving Greyback's old stolen horse where it was. The third horse was just for their supplies, for Greyback was determined to clear the house out of anything that could be easily transported, whether it be the remaining bacon, some hard bread, one of the cheese wheels they'd not eaten fully, or the chest of silver.
For a moment Sansa let herself think that she was in a story again. That Greyback was not her murderous captor, but merely a knight or a heroic warrior from some far off land. She tried to be pleasant to him, tried to make sure she prepared food in the evening and made the fire. She tried to stop him from looking at her as something to be destroyed, like the woman beyond the door.
But as they travelled, went through villages along the river between the Barrowlands and the Rills, Sansa could feel Greyback's disquiet grow. They must by pursued, she knew that well enough, for by now her lord father would have sent riders to look for her, riders yes and perhaps ravens, to all the keeps and holdfasts in the north.
At lats they came to a stout house by the riverbank and Greyback exchanged the occupant's boat for their horses, packing all their things away and commanding her to lie low under her cloak so she wasn't seen.
The boat ride was not like a story.
Sansa had read of sea knights, the heroic mariners like Gaethalos the Gallant, Admiral of Volantis who fought the Basilisk King in the reign of King Jaeherys the Conciliator, or of Corlys Velaryon, the Sea Snake.
All the stories would fixate on the great magnificence of life at sea, of the stoutness yet fleetness of the ships, of the exotic locations from Yi Ti to the Summer Isles, or of the great beauty of the princesses there who might be saved. The stories would focus on the character of the captains, their romantic wanderlust which would compete with their duty toward house and home.
The skiff bobbed down the river from Barrowtown, gliding though the clear water. The river was wide enough that Sansa couldn't think to chance jumping out and trying to make it to a bank, but even if she did there was nothing to be seen and nowhere to go. The farmland and pastures around Barrowtown faded away swiftly enough, within a few hours even, and soon there was only a rocky scree of flatlands and low hills. On and on it went, and then it started to rain.
Sansa knew, intellectually, that the Sea Snake had probably dealt with storms and rain, that he would have felt the sting of sleet on his cheeks and combed away the sodden mess his hair had become, but that didn't make it any easier to deal with when it happened to her.
The rain was not a gentle kiss and a reminder of the world's love. The rain was not a silver curtain, hiding the secrets of the night. The rain was not the drumbeat of nature.
The train was her tears, icy and sorrowful.
The boat bobbed along, Greyback making to steer it at times. The rain grey harder, and from her place huddled in the bow, Sansa could see rivulets of water running down Greyback's face, into his dark whiskers.
He had a harsh face. Like before though, she saw the face of a lord in him. Cruel, powerful, yet with a restraint and focus to the savagery. He had killed at least three people, she knew that well, and sheltered the bloodstained book he'd stolen from Barrowtown beneath herself so it didn't get wet in the rain.
"How much further?" she asked weakly. She was chilled to the bone, she could feel it seeping into her chest.
"Not far." Greyback growled. "We must be halfway to the Saltspear by now, we've covered at least fifteen miles, the river is fast enough."
They slept that night under a narrow oilskin. Greyback held her close, one clawed hand over her arm. He bound her again, hand and foot so that by morning after a fitfull night of constrained sleep she was sore and wincing.
"Please, just let me go. You can make it, just let me stay here!" she begged him.
Greyback just laughed, pushing her back into the boat.
At least the rain had stopped, that much was a mercy from the Seven, Sansa thought as they went on down the river.
"Heh." Greyback grunted, and it made Sansa look up, "Look, girl, here's something that'll cheer you up."
She rose, stood in the boat.
The river was lower than the surrounding landscape and the waters were swollen with the rain besides. She could clearly see them!
A dozen riders there were, dashing across the plain. Already they were wheeling, turning toward Sansa and her captor.
She grinned, her heart swelled, she was giddy, she jumped up and down, waving her arms and shouting.
Then Greyback laughed that harsh laugh. A laugh like the snarling of dogs in a pit. "I won't give you up that easily, girl."
Greyback was calm, shoving her back down he set his oar against the current, driving them toward the opposite bank. Sansa's heart fell, the riders would have to go around, and she didn't know where there might be a ford.
They reached the bank and Greyback made her disembark as he caught up the packs and supplies and hurled them out of the boat. Then he took a hatchet and smashed the boat's planks. Why? Sansa couldn't work it out, but then she heard splashing from the other side of the river, turned quickly and saw the riders had reached their side and dismounted at the edge.
Several cast aside their armour and leapt into the water, making to swim the river!
They were Rysewells, from the sigils on their surcoats, but Sansa couldn't see much more. She couldn't not trust to hope though, not when Greyback unpacked a stout crossbow from his pack, set a quiver at his feet, and began shooting at the swimmers.
Where other men might use a goat's foot lever or a windlass to assist their shots, Greyback hauled manfully on the crossbow's string after each shot. He grinned as he worked, and Sansa was powerless as one by one he picked off the Rills knights. He was not accurate, not in the slightest, but a crossbow was a simple enough weapon and the knights were weighed down in the fast current.
She had grown up to the sound of steel in the yard, and scarcely a day of her life had passed without hearing the clash of sword on sword, yet somehow knowing that the fighting was real made all the difference in the world. Sansa had heard the dull thud of arrows striking a target, Theon was fond of archery after all, but now she heard it as she had never heard it before. Straw had a static sort of sound to it. There was nothing behind it, a thunk and then the arrow would lie still.
Now though the knights struggled in the shallows, trying to claw their way up. Greyback just shot more though, a dozen bolts, choosing his targets as he saw them. The quarrels thudded into the knights, piercing through the coats of mail and leather with a rasp but there were other sounds as well, grunts of pain, angry curses, shouts for help, and the moans of wounded and dying men. In the songs, the knights never screamed nor begged for mercy
Only two made it to shore. Greyback killed one with a single thrust of his long knife as the man struggled onto the rocky shoal, while the other stumbled up, drawing his longsword.
He was a handsome knight. Broad, strong, his sword was bright and it shed water as he flourished it on the shore. His hair was flowing, though sopping wet as he stood firm and an iron horsehead broach was on his chest, a Rysewell knight, from that House that ruled the west in the Rills.
It happened quickly. It was as if Sansa was remembering it, rather than watching the actions unfold before her. She'd been sure she was about to see one of Old Nan's stories come to life. Greyback was the monster and the Rysewell the true hero who would slay him. He even looked a true hero, so strong and beautiful, with the mane of his horsehead sigil burning like the dawn sun, and clear blue eyes, proud in their conviction.
With a rasp, Greyback shot him in the belly. The bolt pierced his guts and the knight made to rip it out, sending gouts of blood flowing down his legs. He stepped forward raising his sword.
Another bolt, this one puncturing the knight's side, sinking into the nose of the horse on his surcoat.
The knight stepped again, then stumbled as another bolt thudded into his shoulder. The Rysewell collapsed and Greyback laughed, stepping forward himself. He knocked the knight's sword aside with a contemptuous blow of his crossbow, then came behind the knight, grasping the man's face in an iron grip, turning him toward Sansa as the man's breath wheezed from his body.
"Have you nothing to say to him, girl?" Greyback demanded.
Sansa looked into the pained blue eyes of the hero.
"You were gallant, Ser." she said, and she was proud her voice didn't waver.
"My lady…" wheezed the knight, and then Greyback's hand tightened around his throat.
With a roar of triumph the wildling tore the Rysewell's throat from his neck, hurling the chuck of flesh into the river and kicking the bleeding corpse forward.
The Rysewell's blood flowed freely out, into the sand. It was scarlet at first, then swiftly the water ebbing at the sand washing it away, first vermillion, then pink and finally just a reddish hue as the river carried his life away.
The remaining horsemen were screaming now, shouting curses and dooms upon Greyback's soul, condemning him to the Seven Hells and tearing at their hair in grief. They took up bows, sending shafts across the river, before Greyback seized Sansa bodily, forcing the knights to hold lest they hit her.
"Can you feel it, girl?" the monster asked, fetid breath in her ear smelling like a mound of corpses. "The yearning? Do you want to be strong, girl? I can give you that…"
"I will take nothing from you, demon!" the girl struggled.
Had she said that? She had not meant to.
Greyback was untiring. He forced her to walk at first, carrying both their packs over his great shoulders. They hiked away from the river swiftly, and when she fell and cried out he grabbed her too, throwing her over his shoulders and going on, his long legs eating up the distance swiftly over the hills, through long grasses that tickled her face and through gnarled, mossy woodland of ancient trees and flat stones.
The terrain was strange, there were low hills which seemed to be made of layers of rock, pitted and worn by millennia of erosion. Vegetation was scarce, with only small scrubs and little purple flowers growing here and there.
The land had great cracks in it, Sansa didn't know why, but when Greyback stopped to rest she wanted to just fall into one of those cracks, fall into the warm embrace of the earth, fall into safety and darkness.
She dreamed of it that night, as Fenrir kept watch from a hight stone and she shivered in her cloak. He had not allowed her a fire, only told her to bundle herself up, and so she did, wedging herself in a crevice away from the wind. She watched the moon rise, almost full but gravid with promise.
Sansa dreamed that the earth opened behind her, that some dark thing drew her in. She dreamed that the roots of the forests of the world were all connected, that blood flowed through them as it did in a body. She could taste it, dark and languid, then living and vital when she drew near. She could feel something there, out in the darkness of the cave behind her.
Then she woke. She could taste blood and she realised she'd bitten her tongue.
Greyback made her walk that day, they picked their way down the stony hill, through a long valley and under the cover of yet more twisting trunks and shadowed boughs.
She tried to remember the dream, but it was like trying to catch rain in her fingers. The dream faded, and Greyback was still there
Over brooks then went, brushing at ferns spread out like grasping hands, over small rivers and skirting a sort of green bog, till they came up to more hills. As Sansa looked back she could see it, a thunderhead of dour cloud, racing across the sky.
Greyback pushed her hard up the hill, he would grasp her arm with his clawed hand, hauling her up over stones where she struggled, or pushing her on ahead when he thought she was going to slowly. Finally though they came to a small, sandy cave and made to shelter from the rain that had started.
The cave was barely big enough for them both and their packs, but Greyback bade her bring out all that they'd need for the night.
She was just taking out a rather battered pie when she heard it.
Throbbing through the stony hills, she heard the calls of horns.
Had she imagined it?
Then the call came again. No, it was real!
And when she stood, coming to the mouth of the cave and shielding her eyes from the rain she could see them, men bearing lanterns and burning brands coming down the valley where they'd been that morning.
"Yes." Drawled Greyback from behind her, his great stature making him bend low, just next to her ear, his breath racing across her neck. "There's more than a hundred of them and they're gaining on us. A fine thing isn't it, to see the chivalry of the North ride out."
"Less of a fine thing for the monster they pursue." she said, thinking of the ruined woman.
"Ha!" barked her monster. "Ha!" and his laugher was horrible and gleeful. "We shall see. Tonight is the full moon. I intend to go out and kill them."
Sansa whirled, looking at him. Was he mad? Why did the moon matter? Or was he moon-touched, like some wretch who didn't know truth from fiction? "A hundred men? How? You may have had help to bear me from Winterfell, but how can you hope to fight them? The Rysewells were undone more by the river than by your accuracy, and I doubt any man can fight well when weighed down by wet clothes. How can you be so pleased? You're going to die!"
"And I'm sure you're glad of it, aren't you, girl?" Greyback laughed again, scraping one claw across her cheek before she twisted her head.
"I will not mourn you." she managed.
Night was falling, and the moon would soon rise through the storm. That would be when their pursuers would discover them, she guessed, that or the next morning.
Greyback though was making to leave. He had his hatchet and his knife in either hand, and he'd removed his bearskin cloak, dressing only in his boots, breeches and a loose shirt. He looked like a pit fighter or similar slave Sansa had read about once.
"Don't leave the cave." Greyback told her. "I'll be fighting tonight, and I'll return for you soon enough. If you leave the cave I might lose myself and get carried away, and you've seen what happens when I get carried away."
His eyes seemed to gleam in the growing darkness.
Sansa pressed herself back into the wall. The ruined woman, the image of the bloody, torn flesh forced its way into her mind.
"I will not leave the cave." she promised, and she meant it.
"Clever girl." Greyback said. He made to turn toward the storm, then came back. She heard something drop to the floor with a clatter of steel on stone, then Greyback came closer.
And closer…
She felt him kiss her, as if it was happening to another person, someone she watched. She tasted his bloody lips, his rough tongue in her mouth. She felt something hard pressing into her belly and couldn't move for fear of it. She shut her eyes tight, praying for it to stop.
And then he was gone.
The rain poured down, making a little river above the cave and a puddle at the entrance. The wind howled.
But she heard other howls. She heard wolves outside the cave, she saw something moving in the moonlight. She heard the screams of horses and of dying men, and the clash of steel.
She concentrated on the cave. The rocks were white and crowned with lichen, like the thick green hair on a sleeping giant.
Men died outside and Sansa's heart thundered.
The moon shone brightly and Sansa prayed a gallant knight would walk through the torrent, step within the cave and sweep her off her feet, bear her swiftly away to her family that she'd never have to worry about Greyback or his evil ever again.
Then she heard a movement.
But what came to the cave's entrance wasn't a knight. First came a claw, scraping at the stone. Then came the foot, bloody water running down the fur.
Then the snout and the head.
It wasn't real.
Sansa could not see it.
It wasn't real.
There would be a knight soon, some brave rider from Barrowtown or the Rills, some young lord to save her.
The beast stepped forward, it's blue eyes transfixed her, she couldn't move, she just stared at it even as she struggled to breathe under the thing's gaze.
In the songs, the knights never killed magical beasts, they just went up to them and touched them and did them no harm.
But there were no knights here.
Sansa knew that now…