All things considered, I'm glad Martian Manhunter was the one to find me. Though I know all of the members of the League are some of the kindest, more empathetic and most compassionate people alive, telepathy is somewhat of an unfair advantage when it comes to understanding people. I would be unsurprised if he felt contempt towards me after I killed a thousand people because I thought I could be a hero but at least he'd be able to see that I wasn't malicious, just an arrogant idiot.
Those weren't my thoughts at the time, of course. I wasn't thinking much of anything other than gibbering and/or internal screaming. Normally, I'd have been a lot more resistant to the idea of someone reading my mind but I welcomed it in the present circumstances. I could only assume that he'd contacted the League immediately after seeing the scale of the devastation because the Lanterns were pretty quick to arrive for containment duty.
In a flash of green light we had teleported to Belle Reve penitentiary, presumably the most suitable place on Earth to contain something like me. I suspected that arrangements were being made to transfer me into more secure Lantern facility. Until then, terrestrial metahuman suppression collars, Lantern construct reinforcement and what felt like a telepathically induced mental block on my powers would have to be enough. It's not as though I'd resist; I knew full well that I deserved everything that happened to me. Worse, in fact. It was merciful of them to simply humanely imprison me instead of a lifetime of torture. Pearl Harbour was enough to make America turn to concentration camps; I don't want to think about what my country would do to me if they could get their hands on me after what I did.
"Hey."
It's funny how shock works. I could register that there was someone talking in the vicinity but my mind couldn't make the connection between someone talking at me and someone talking to me. Even then, I could register the gentleness in his voice. It was the voice of someone who was both used to and enjoyed caring for people.
"Hey. My name is Guy Gardner. I'm a teacher for children with special needs. I'm here to help you."
Given my unresponsive state, they had decided set me down on the cell's minimalistic bed. I assume they had brought me to Belle Reve's maximum security; the place that was tested against Superman and came out solid.
Seeing that I wasn't responding, the man repeated himself. This time, I had managed to register that someone was actually talking to me and work up a response through the haze in my mind. My thoughts felt like a fish swimming through treacle; the motions were familiar but everything was so slow, no matter how hard I tried.
"Hi."
Eloquent, I know. Thankfully, he was patient with me, content on slowly coaxing out a response instead of taking aggressive action. I don't think I would have responded well to scary people in that mind state. I can't imagine I'd have responded well if someone like Batman had questioned me. I'm glad they got someone on short notice to talk to me; as cool as talking to a superhero would be in normal circumstances, I'm pretty sure the overwhelming shame and self loathing I'd feel talking to one probably wouldn't be conducive to treatment.
"You don't have to worry. We care about you. We want to help you."
His words were slow and measured and I got the impression he carefully selected each one. He kept his sentences short and left pauses between them so I could follow along. At that moment, I couldn't actually understand the implications of his words.
"Okay."
"I'm going to ask a few questions about what happened today. Is that alright?"
"Okay."
"Could you tell me how this all started?"
Before I consciously recognised it, I was already gathering my thoughts to tell him everything. The instincts of a veteran therapy patient, I suppose.
"It all started with this weird tattoo."
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How the hell am I supposed to hide this? And who the hell gets a tattoo on their goddamn palm? A tattoo of a compass rose at that. Did I get roofied or something? Did I get mindfucked by a supervillain? God, if someone sees it, I'm going to look like such a bloody ponce.
Things continued in that vein for several more minutes as I got myself ready for school. In the end, I decided to just wrap my hand in bandages and call it a day. If anyone said anything, I scraped my hand on some gravel and I didn't want to take any chances with infection.
The bus ride to school remained much as it ever was, filled by little hellions with no sense of restraint. Thankfully, I had a friend on this bus and together we managed to shove the little buggers away from the back seats and claim them for our own. Studiously ignoring their screeching, we talked about random highschool bullshit on our way to the building. By the time we finally arrived, we were having a heatedly bickering about absolutely nothing.
Today was a special day; an award ceremony for exceptional students. My parents would be coming in their own car because they flatly refused to wake up at the ungodly time I did to get to school on time. The actual event would be at eight thirty so it wasn't as though they'd be late.
School also remained much as it ever was. I relaxed around with my friends in our homeroom, cracking dirty jokes and mocking our everyone and everything that came to mind, especially each other. The morning's classes were cancelled for the sake of the assembly. Until then, we were to wait with the rest of our class. We weren't exactly complaining since we got to miss some of the worst lessons in the day.
And then we heard gunshots.
I couldn't actually believe it at first until the intercom actually announced that yes, there was a terrorist attack and no, this was not a drill. Since our school was considered a likely target for terrorism, the response times would be relatively fast, if anything could be called fast going through the traffic typical to Indian cities. I had forgotten how utterly inane the response protocols were. We had to hide under goddamn tables and wait for the police and/or superheroes to come save us. I already knew that untrained civilians would only make the situation worse if they blundered in face first but it was still galling to be so utterly helpless.
I heard screaming.
I was moving before I could think about it. I've always had this idiotic habit of reflexively trying help people in danger without actually planning or preparing and today I was in rare form. Didn't bother considering the fact that I might've drawn attention to my classroom, a room filled with my friends.
The tattoo felt warm.
I could hear shouting behind me as the people in my class called at me to come back. I didn't listen, of course. People were in trouble and no one was doing anything; I was the only one who was willing to help. Thoughts like those ran through my mind as I flew down the stairs four steps at a time.
My hand started glowing.
The first gunman I came across saw me immediately and hit me with a burst of full auto fire straight into my chest. I didn't even have a chance to react. As I fell, I was filled with fury. Not towards anything in particular or perhaps everything in particular. Fury at myself for being worthless, fury at these stupid bastards for killing children because of some stupid ideology, fury at the heroes for not being there, fury at the entire world for being a place of such cruelty.
I started burning.
It started at my palm but spread to my entire body. My blood was boiling and fire was scorching my lungs. I tried my utmost to contain it was beyond me like the sun is beyond a candle.
And then there was light.