Something I found about "hoping for the best, expecting the worst" was that, at least to me, it wasn't just a caution to be prepared for all possibilities, to hold onto your optimism while not being blinded by it. It was also a reminder that it wasn't enough to be physically and mentally prepared to see your current plans go up in flames. A single failure could—and would—kick off a cascading chain reaction that would make things ten times, a hundred times, a thousand times worse than your most pessimistic expectation.
It's even worse when you have to patiently wait for the results to come out. You can tell yourself that what's done is done, and that even if things go south, you can take solace in knowing that you did everything you could. But had you, really? Could you stop your treacherous mind from conjuring worst-case scenarios one after another? From plaguing you with "if" and "could have"?
At least an hour had passed since we started following the unknown fleet, and still, there were no discernible signs of them reacting to or even recognizing my presence. The longer we were stuck in this chase without an end in sight, the more I began to doubt my decision to take it on in the first place. There was a constant tightness in my chest that only seemed to ramp up as we continued—a foreboding feeling that weighed heavily on my mind, refusing to go away. Even though the fleet seemed to be cruising at a leisurely speed and the storm had subsided into a light drizzle, I didn't feel confident enough to make the push to catch up.
"Hey hey hey!" Before my taut nerves could reach the breaking point, my lookout shouted from above. I quickly raised the binoculars hanging from my neck.
The fleet had stopped.
I was fairly sure it wasn't because they had finally spotted me. Something—no, multiple somethings—emerged from the water in front of them. Even more ships appeared, and the best-case scenario I had envisioned slipped further and further from my grasp. The foreboding feeling transformed into full dread as I sensed something wrong about those dark shapes even from afar. This pressure, this sinking coldness deep beneath my skin that grasped my heart, was unmistakable...
It was an Abyssal Princess.
Worse yet, instead of a fight breaking out, I saw the ship at the head of the fleet sailing forward and bowing before the Princess.
I had been following a fleet of Abyssals right back to their Princess.
"Shit." I reversed course, taking care not to be too conspicuous in my panic. "Shit, shit, shit. Hang on tight, everyone. We need to get the hell out of here!"
"HEY!" My captain fairy shouted her command to the rest of the crew.
My engines, which had been straining to keep up, groaned in protest as I pushed them even further beyond their limits.
"Hey hey hey, hey!" The lookout yelled again, and despite our mad scramble to escape, I turned my head to look behind. I cursed.
One of the ships had detached from the fleet and was sailing toward us at blinding speed. A heavy cruiser, from my captain's guess, and it was gaining on us fast.
"Fuck. Ready the guns." The two miniature decks attached to my hips swerved around, all of their mounted launchers already loaded and ready for this eventuality. "FIRE!"
The blowback knocked me back, and more than a few of my crew were knocked to their asses. My captain, who was hanging onto the railing atop my bridge, took out her binoculars to survey the damage from our first salvo.
Twelve shots. Ten of which missed completely. One bounced off one of the cruiser's armored jaw-fists, and the final one impacted and exploded in its abdomen. Even then, the only result was a small singed patch on its pale skin and a roar of anger rather than pain.
These missile launchers were not meant for naval combat of this nature, and neither was my crew trained for it. And it showed.
"Come on, guys!" I shouted to my crew, feeling desperation creep into my voice. "Reload the launchers. We need to fire—HURKK!"
I felt something hard collide with my backpack, throwing me off my feet and skidding across the water's surface. Gasping for breath as if my chest had collapsed from the secondhand impact, I struggled to roll into a sitting position, however that worked on the ocean's surface. How the hell was it so fast—
The thing's oversized hand seized my throat and, with a painful yank, lifted me out of the water. Baleful eyes lit with pale flames stared into mine, gleefully drinking in the sight of me struggling to pry off its iron grip to no avail.
"F-Fir..." I gasped out.
Only for the cruiser to grip my weaponized decks and rip them off my back. Hot, searing pain shot through my system. My feet, which were kicking ineffectually against the monster's chest, went numb. Shit, not like this. I didn't want to die. Not like this...
"HEEEEEEY!" One of my crew, who I barely recognized as Comrade Tri, cried out as she popped up on my shoulder and ran up the Abyssal arm. Before it could swat her away with its other hand, I used all my strength and its hand as leverage to land a kick at its face. It wasn't enough to do any real damage, and my foot went numb from the impact, but it was enough of a distraction to let my little battle maniac shoot the RPG straight at its face, blowing off its lower jaw.
Even now, I didn't know what had come over me at that moment. Maybe it was some kind of trance-like clarity that takes over your mind in moments of distress. You wouldn't really have time to think when danger and death were a hair's breadth away. To judge the odds of clearing the distance between you and a child safely while an out-of-control truck barreled down the road. To calculate the optimal angle to swerve your bike and avoid a car running a red light. To weigh your sibling's life against your personal safety. You just...did it.
As the Abyssal let go of my throat and let me fall into the water, I bent my knees to land in a crouching position. A pair of RPGs stowed in my bridge manifested fully in my hands, and I jammed their business ends into the cruiser's gaping mouth like two oversized lollipops. I pulled the trigger.
The blowback knocked me back just enough to avoid taking the full explosion. I could still feel hot fire and shrapnel pummeling my body. Skidding across the water for the second time, even as my consciousness slipped away, I rolled over to catch a glimpse of our handiwork. The cruiser, now with the front plating of its face blown into a gaping hole, stumbled while flailing its arms before falling backward into a flaming wreck.
Damn it. I should have said some kind of one-liner before I gave that bitch the biggest deep throat in history. Would...have been...so...coo...
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Far away from the messy brawl, the Ru-class battleship known as Caesar watched in horror, then hot rage, as the cruiser she had sent to deal with their tail slowly sank beneath the water.
"It appears your cruiser is so incompetent that it can't even sink a mere transport. How...pathetic."
Caesar's head whipped around to look at the Abyssal Princess, biting words and hot metal alike ready to spew at such blatant disrespect for one of their fallen. Kayle had been one of the first ships she recruited before their rogue fleet was absorbed by the late Pacific Light Cruiser Demon, and there was no way her battle sister could lose to a non-combat ship like that. There had to be a trick. There had to be.
Yet as she glared at the imposing figure of this Warden Princess, cold rationality took over her mind. She could do nothing to avenge Kayle, even if the Princess had rigged the game against them in the first place. At least for now. Letting her rage take over at this moment would only spell certain doom for all of her remaining sisters still standing. They had gone through too much, sacrificed too much to escape the battle of the Caroline Islands. To die such ignominious deaths here would be to spit on the sacrifice of those who fell to make their retreat possible.
So she ground her teeth, looked down, and said nothing.
"Oh?" The Princess cooed with interest, even if her serene face betrayed no emotion. "I know that face. The anger. The hatred. You think I had something to do with your ship's ignoble demise."
Taking a sweeping scan of the battered fleet huddled behind Caesar, the Warden raised her voice to address them. "What use will I have for you lot? What are these rusting hulls good for but being broken down for parts and scrap?"
"We..." Caesar swallowed hard, but the lump in her throat refused to let go. She could not mess this up. Could NOT mess this up. "We will give you our undying loyalty. We will serve you until our last breath. So p-please..." She looked up at the impassive face of the Warden, searching for the tiniest hint of compassion.
She found none.
"Undying loyalty, you say?" With a hum, the Princess swept her hand through the fleet, before pointing to the far left at the Ne-class heavy cruiser, who looked to be the most damaged. One of her tail appendages had been broken off at the base, and she was missing her right arm, the stump still leaking black, viscous oil. "Then prove it."
"...what?" Caesar stared unblinking at those words. On some levels, she expected such a response, yet her mind refused to acknowledge it.
"Are your electricals so fried that you have turned stupid? Such a broken wreck serves no purpose in my fleet. Get rid of it."
Slowly turning her head toward CA-146, Caesar looked into her terrified eyes. The heavy cruiser had only been summoned by Pacific for barely a month, not even long enough to pick a name for herself yet. Gritting her teeth, she felt the metal in her balled hands groaning in protest. For a silent, terrifying moment, Caesar felt the shells loaded in her cannon hot enough to burn her insides.
"No."
"No?" The Warden Princess asked with the barest hint of amusement.
"No." Caesar glared defiantly into the Princess's eyes. "I will not sacrifice another of our own for your amusement. If this is how you want us to show our loyalty, then you haven't earned it. We're leaving."
"Is that so? You have decided to put your loyalty in your fleetmates over me." The Princess tilted her head as if looking over the Ru-class's shoulders. "But have they done the same?"
"What are you..." Caesar only had enough time to turn around before her back erupted into unimaginable pain. Hot, molten metal tore through her frames, her armor belts buckling under continuous shelling. One shell clipped a chunk of her bridge, and she was sent face down into the water, her whole body burning and sizzling and screaming in agony. Vaguely, she caught glimpses of CA-146's upper body falling apart from the merciless assault, her head floating in the water in a terrified scream. She could hear the dismayed cries of
Rampage and
Implacable before they too were silenced in a cacophony of booms and explosions.
And then it all abruptly ended, and Caesar could see nothing, feel nothing but the water lapping at her ruined body.
"I have no use for dregs without a shred of loyalty." The Warden narrowed her eyes. "Sink them."
Ignoring the surprised cries and pleas for mercy, the Princess approached the dying battleship and stooped down in an elegant kneel.
"You have had a taste of it, the betrayal at the hands of those you thought your friends, all to save their own pathetic skins." The Warden Princess took the Ru-class up by the chin and lifted its head to face her. Even as those sneering words left her lips, the Princess's face was as serene and expressionless as ever. "Taste it. Savor it. Revel in that pain, that anger, that humiliation. Etch it into your hull, and I may yet have a place for you in my fleet."
For a brief moment, the Abyssal battleship Caesar stared uncomprehendingly at the Princess. Her eyes darted around, only to catch brief glimpses of her fleetmates, her sisters sinking all around her in flaming pieces. She felt no vindictive satisfaction nor vengeful rage at witnessing the demise of those who had just moments ago shelled her without a shred of mercy. There was only sadness, pity, and a sobering clarity filling her mind. She had just escaped the rule of a witless master who lacked even the most basic understanding of tactics and the value of her own ships. To once again be put at the mercy of a sadistic Princess who so readily toyed with their lives...
"That's...funny. Rea...
cough...really funny." The Ru-class started to chuckle wetly even as she felt her systems fail one by one. Yet, despite her hull screaming in protest, Caesar reached out to grip the Princess's hand and used it as leverage to pull herself up to kneel on one knee.
"I don't...
cough...don't begrudge my...sisters. They were...young, and they...wanted...to live. But you..." With the last bit of strength she could muster in her abused body, the Abyssal battleship stood on her shaky legs. "To you...who played...with our lives...with our pride...with our...DIGNITY." She grunted out, forcing all her rage and despair into those three syllables.
Her legs gave out beneath her, and Caesar fell forward. Yet, instead of stepping aside and letting the battleship fall into the water and sink like the smoldering wreck she was, the Warden Princess accepted her body in a one-handed embrace. The lower half of the Ru-class, which was hanging on only by her spines and outer plating, finally broke off and sank quickly beneath the water.
"To you...I only have...one thing...to say..." She could feel it, the cold grasp of the Abyss reclaiming its pawn. Back to the darkness. Back to the cold, desolate void between existence and non-existence. She felt herself unwilling, yet powerless to stop it. Something wet and hot escaped her eyes, neither fuel nor oil. "...f-fuck...you..."
It lacked the resentment, the hatred she wanted. Her final words, she didn't know if they were meant for the Princess or for this cruel, cursed existence. Yet the Ru-class couldn't bring herself to care as the last scrap of her consciousness slipped away, and she knew no more.
Holding the lifeless torso of the Abyssal battleship before her with one hand, the Princess frowned. It was true that she never intended to absorb this ragtag fleet into her own to begin with, yet this one had made her pause. Such loyalty, even in the face of betrayals by her own battle sisters, upset her. The Princess used her other hand to close Caesar's eyes and brought the Abyssal's ruined arms to rest on her chest. With as much care and reverence as she could muster, the Princess lowered the torso into the water and, on a whim, plucked one of her pale feathers and placed it into the battleship's hands.
"A pity." Warden had truly intended to take this little spitfire under her wing. So much rage and resentment, yet so innocent and naïve. Like all those infants born of hatred and despair, yet lacking the guidance of worthy Princesses to mold them, to help them channel those emotions so ingrained in their existence into power and drive. Betrayed and so thoroughly broken by those close to her, the battleship could have given her eternal loyalty to Warden.
What a waste of potential. She let go and watched as the wreck quickly sank into the water, swallowed by the murky depths. "Truly a pity."
Standing up, the Princess gestured to one of her light cruisers, the Tsu-class, which had retrieved and was holding the unconscious transport ship in its oversized hand. Taking the tiny thing by her head, the Abyssal turned and sailed toward the fleet of shipgirls hanging back at the edge of the conflict, her entourage following closely behind.