I fall to my knees and simply lay beneath the shadows of a dead building. This ruined city was smothered in dust and ruin but it provided vital shade for me to crawl under. I felt so weak from the running and the storm I endured the small cuts across my body stinging as I held the baby Aurelian in my arms.
My eyes stung and the water upon my body provided only the slightest of respites. I crawl trying to hold Aurelian tight as I can as I make it to the ruins. Simply laying back against the wall I place Aurelian down onto my lap and hug him tightly as I look into the distant desert. Perhaps this was a part of those four's plan to exhaust me and kill me.
If the natural elements didn't do so then odds were the next person or creature to come across me would. No telling what predators snuck below the surface of the shifting sands or roamed the ruined buildings. "A, B, C, D, E, F, G. . .H, I, J, K, L, M, N, O, P, Q, R, S, T, U, V, W, X, Y and Z. Now you know your ABC next time come and sing with me," I whisper to the child in my arms.
I feel so tired as I see faint blurs of black dance in my eyes. I lean my head back holding onto Aurelian and trying to keep myself anchored to reality, "Little Aurelian, I hope you can understand me. One day we shall conquer the cities of this world together and venture off spreading the word of. . .Mankind. That there is no god, only mankind and its Emperor."
"Be against Chaos my son. For Chaos teaches us not to be satisfied with our understanding of the world. It is a coping mechanism to deal with what we have yet to understand or to try and deify what is currently stronger than us. The focus of life must be to defy those who wish to be called Gods," I grip the child tighter squeezing my eyes shut as I wheeze to catch my breath. I know I wasn't the wisest of people and that I was just reciting something I once read. I was a christian in both lifes and even now believed God had some hand in bringing me here.
"You should try and recover the bible one day Aurelian, I am certain you'd love to read it," I whisper gently to him. My wounds sting and I feel myself hiss and groan as I hold the child tight.
I pause as I feel a heavy presence feel the air. I simply keep my eyes squeezed tighter. The aching in my legs diminish as I open them looking upon the child in my arms. "Biomancy. . ." I whisper as I watch my wounds gently close as a sweet yet Pungent scent fills the air. Perhaps this was the smell of Ozone? It was remarkably similar to the smell that came when it finished raining.
Angron had managed to combat Eldar after being stuck in his pod for only a short amount of time, Konrad had dug his way out of Molten Magma, The Lion fought for his survival in an uncaring woods and it seemed that Aurelian had managed to heal me. I smile as the exhaustion is chased out of my system.
Standing up I feel myself stumble. My muscles were still somewhat sore and my body still exhausted but better than before. . .If I could harbor this skill then perhaps- Perhaps so much more I could save! Lorgar had always been a strong Psyker and if I manage to nurture this skill in this lifetime then he shall become far more valuable.
It would be a safety net that could be vital. Just perhaps I could pull this all off. Maybe I don't have to be just content with saving Lorgar from a dark future, maybe I stand a chance to defy the Gods and bring forth light from the dark.
With such a skill perhaps we could put off Angron's madness and Insanity? Backup Sanginus if Horus still betrayed the Imperium? Prevent the Emperor from being throned or dealing with the Flesh Change- Okay the sun's getting to me. If the Emperor himself could not stop such events then what chance would I have as a mere man trying to guide a weapon of war.
"I'm delusional aren't I? Filled with vein hope that shall be squashed in the upcoming years," I mutter to the wee child in my arms. How could I- A simple minded man who was not truly great in my first life ever hope to outsmart creatures beyond my very comprehension! As I look upon the child a spark of despair hits my heart.
Looking into the eye's of a young Aurelian I simply sat there in silence. "You will be more than a tool to understand," I whispered before my eyes began to fill with tears. I couldn't help but cry gently at the pointlessness of my struggle. Knowing how fucked this universe was baby Aurelian might have also given me cancer or something.
I finally pause as I look upon the child in my arms as I'm reminded of the other Primarchs. Wasn't this the same trap which Konrad himself had fallen into? The same pit and trap of despair had railroaded Konrad into his own twisted destiny. Primarchs could defy fate couldn't they? Twist the future so that its harder to see their actions or predict them.
I didn't need to fight each of these impossible beings myself. I just needed to ensure the loyalty of Aurelian made him stable enough to tip the odds in the Loyalist favor. I smile despite the tears running down my face as I grip onto that idea. All I was and shall be is Aurelian's father and Kor Phaeron's spot alone as Lorgar's father allowed him to take one of the most loyal Primarchs and twist him to Chaos.
The truth of the matter was Aurelian was the most important person to Heresy. Not because of his ability to fight or his Psyker power but because of his ability to dismantle the faith someone has in something and replace it. His ability, to understand what it was like to be Human and the desire to have faith. Even if I can't save a powerhouse like Angron I could get those stuck upon the fence towards the Imperium's side. Mortartion and Lorgar alone could tip the odds.
"We've got to keep going a little longer, little guy. . .I feel so much lighter after what you did and I've got a hunch on how you did it. So only do it if I really need help okay," I whisper as I begin to stand. I gulp my throat dry and my stomach suddenly starves. I'm human and we've always defied the odds in my old world. The Crusaders, Aurelian the Emperor of Rome, and so many other heroes whose exploits we take for granted or go unsung.
If there was even a two percent chance of swaying just Aurelian to the Loyalist and keeping him there I needed to fight for it. If it was only one percent for two Primarchs? Then that was worth it. My depression and despair is brushed away as I begin to walk deeper into the city. Perhaps that rain had left some water laying around puddled somewhere. I knew that Aurelian would be picking up upon my word's now and was most likely translating them. The sooner he could fully communicate the better.
With a smile being restored to my face I whisper, "Impossible odds set the stage for Amazing miracles Aurelian so please be my Miracle child. I know you will grow into something great. I can feel it in my bones."