Author Notes: This I think will be the last hurrah of Sailor Jupiter. As such, expect something a little different. After this if she appears, it will be in a minor role at best.
The greatest joy in my life came when things stopped being predictable. Knowing the future is a curse. And one I grew to hate. If you know the future, you can't change anything. All you can do is sit back and watch. Even your own actions are known to you in advance. And you are trapped knowing they are inevitable. The day I broke free of this curse, is the day I started to truly live.
-Meioh Setsuna
Musings of a Time Traveler
From the diaries of Kino Makoto
Dear Diary,
Well, I guess I should start this. I'm not sure what day it is anymore. Let alone what time it is. My watch stopped when I was brought to this place. I'm still awake, so I guess it's probably the same day. And it has been a strange one. Wish I could say the strangeness was over. But I can't. Anyway, I probably should talk about what happened.
Me and the others had met at Rei's shrine today. There wasn't any pressing senshi business. We just needed some time together after what happened that morning. Good news, we defeated the Dark Kingdom. Bad news, most of us died in the process. Dying hurts. Good thing Usagi figured out how to bring us back.
I was a bit surprised when Usagi came to the meeting with some boy who looks like my old sempai. The others told me he's actually the girl Jane we'd been hanging out with for a while now. I didn't really believe them though. Still, Jane is an ok fighter I hear, so I convinced him to step outside for a brief sparing match. The boy was pretty good I guess. Not as good as me though. Things after that settled down. Usagi had made pancakes for us. Yum. After we ate is when everything got strange. Well, stranger then usual anyway.
A woman dressed a bit like my senshi form appeared behind the boy, James. Imagine my surprise to find out they were right. The mystery woman had thrown a glass of water at James, and I saw the change myself. What was up with those ears though? That wasn't the weirdest thing. That was just the start of it.
The others all knelt and started crying. No clue why. No one was telling me anything. After they just sat there for almost five minutes Jane, Usagi, and Ami all transformed. Who'd have thought Jane was that 'knight rose' that's running around? I didn't, that's for sure. When Ami and Usagi changed into near duplicates of Jane though, I was really starting to get freaked out.
"What is going on?!" I'd screamed.
Not proud to say I had swung the dinner table like a club at the mystery woman after my friends left. And brained the other two senshi. Oops. I hope Rei forgives me. Mina-chan, well all she really cares about is boys anyway. Doubt she will hold a grudge. I hope not anyway. After that, I guess I went overboard. Spent a good ten minutes pounding on that woman.
Odd thing is, she let me. I'm pretty strong. But it felt like I was hitting a wall every time my fist connected. Finally she had raised one eyebrow and smirked. "Are you done yet?" Was all she said. I spent ten minutes venting on a human, and she smirked at me. Argh!
"The girls will be fine on their own. Come with me. We need to talk," the other woman told me.
I had felt spent, so just nodded. The woman then pulled a key shaped staff out of no where. At this point I started wondering if she really was a senshi. Didn't have much time to wonder about it. Not having much time, that's hilarious. I got nothing but time now.
Guess that's getting ahead of myself though. There was a blinding light, and then we were in a large area filled with mist. The only things I could see were a large gateway, a couch, and a wood burning stove. The couch was set up to face the gateway. Wish I'd known why earlier.
"So, who are you and what is going on?" I demanded once again. Didn't really expect an answer. Surprise surprise, I got one.
"My name is Setsuna. I've been Sailor Pluto for a long time, and the guardian of these gates for almost as long. As you might have noticed, things are changing. And now I would like you to take up my task."
"Oh yeah? And why should I trust you? You still haven't explained what is going on."
"You will sit Storm-Of-Skyfire, and you will not interrupt me again. Is that clear?" Setsuna ordered me.
She sounded cross. I don't think that's why I listened to her though. The name she used wasn't mine. And yet when she'd said it my spine had shivered. I didn't want to sit. But I could swear there was a compulsion to obey. Queen Serenity I obeyed out of love. I followed Usagi's lead out of respect. But this woman, I felt I had no choice but to obey. As I sat down on the 'ground' my face was contorting in anger. But it was an impotent anger. Try as I might, I couldn't stand. Not without permission. Nor could I speak. Not while she was talking.
"As I was saying, my time as guardian of the time gate is ending. And I would like you to take up my duties. For ages I have been here watching over time. It has been my duty, and punishment. But now the Fates have given me my freedom. The Gates of Time still need a guardian however. And I believe you would do well. It is your choice however. I will not force this upon you. Do you have any questions for me?"
"Yes..." I said slowly, still seething. "What happened to the other senshi? What was that name you called me? And why can't I go against your order?"
As answer to my questions, she told me to join her on the couch. Finally I could move again. I considered attacking Setsuna. After all, she was apparently a bully. Then I reconsidered it. Somehow this woman had power over me. And until I knew how and why, she could easily control me. It didn't sit well, but for now I would have to play along.
"Your friends are bound to young Jane. I was there when it happened, although I didn't know the true significance at the time. You see, I am a dryad. And Jane is the reborn princess of Faerie."
Her words had brought more questions to mind. But I found I couldn't speak once again. She was still talking. Grr, this stinks. But at least now I know what is going on. She told me about her childhood. And using the gateway showed me a party involving fantastical creatures. To my surprise my friends were in the party. Even more of a surprise, they acted like Jane's pets. And seemed happy about it.
"They are changelings," Setsuna had told me when I looked at her questioningly. "Humans who are taken as a baby as punishment for transgressions against my kind. And no, you are not a reincarnation of then. Nor were you taken as a baby. Although you are a changeling. My changeling it seems. I haven't owned one in a long time. Not since I gave Seleena to my friend."
As she showed me events in that long distant time Setsuna fell silent. After a moment I felt the compulsion to stay silent fade. "How am I one then?"
"No clue, although it may have to do with Queen Serenity. It's not her fault though. I doubt she knew you were being tied by destiny to the faerie realm. Don't worry, I am not the person I once was. Your life is still your own."
We talked for a long time. Or rather, she did. I could only speak when Setsuna had been quiet for a couple minutes. That is getting very annoying by the way. At least I am no longer forced to sit in one spot until given permission to move. Anyway, I'm tired so I guess it's time to end this entry.
Dear Diary,
It's me again. Decided to accept the offer. It's not like I have much choice in the matter. If Setsuna wanted, she could order me to accept. Grr, still can't believe I'm her 'pet'. At least she doesn't force me to do things. Well, other then not interrupt her. I get the feeling I shouldn't let anyone else know about the name she used. Probably shouldn't have recorded it here either, but I'll be leaving you here at the gate anyway.
I've learned a lot since coming here. I've seen the future Setsuna had been working towards. One she tells me is impossible now in this timeline. And I've seen it's cost.. Kami preserve us, some prices are too high. Even for utopia. And yet, the alternative was the loss of all humanity. Thankfully I wont have to worry about such a choice. The gate wont show me how or why, but the future looks much better. It's no utopia, but maybe that is a good thing. I know somehow the balance of nature will be restored.
And I know my fated role in events. Setsuna is right. Knowing the future is a curse. I know every mistake I will ever make, and can't avoid them. I know how friends will die, and can't prevent it. For me, I know now that freedom of choice is lost for a very long time. I may be the guardian of time, but also it's puppet. And the worst thing is, I chose this fate.
After I made the choice, I saw other timelines in this same 'branch'. I didn't have to become the guardian. If not me, then someone else would have accepted the role. To be honest, I almost wish I had let the Saotome boy take this job.
Got to go, She wants some help planting her tree. At least I wont be stuck here alone. Setsuna decided to plant her tree here in the mists. She tells me they have been her home for so long, she doesn't feel right leaving them. Will I become like that someday?
Dear Diary,
This is boring. I want to leave this place for a while. But I know I can't. The senshi wont need me during their current fight. And so I have to stay here. I asked Setsuna how she dealt with it. And her answer was that she passed the time harassing chaos magnets. I think I know who she's talking about for the current one. Sounds like fun. I'll have to think of something interesting to throw at him. Maybe have him get locked as a girl while fighting that Herb person? It has possibilities. It'll be fun to watch how that plays out.
I suppose I could keep an eye on the senshi. It breaks my heart though to see them like that. It's understandable I guess. But still, to see them give up their independence to that degree hurts. I should think about this. I know I'll have to convince Usagi to be Sailor Moon again eventually. The world still needs the sailor senshi. And until Usagi accepts both roles, the others can't use their senshi powers.
Dear Diary,
Just had a surprising visitor. I had been putting the finishing touches on a 'mess with Ranma' plan. It's rather fun. All I have to do is push minor events towards him, and watch as things get really interesting. All of a sudden the gate opened, and out stepped Setsuna. I had thought she couldn't leave her tree.
Turned out this Setsuna was from the future. She had come to warn me about something called the 'black moon family'. Imagine her surprise when I was the one watching the gate. I smirked at her when she demanded to know where the guardian was. This job is changing me. Not sure if I like who I'm becoming though.
"I
am the guardian of time." I told her. "I think you got lost in the trip. The black moon family wont be threatening this timeline. But while you're here, how did you convince Usagi to do something against her nature?"
Not gonna put down what she said. It's something to think about though. Heh, that just might work.
Dear Diary,
I think I'm going crazy. Sitting here day in and day out. Nothing to do but watch the flow of time. How did she handle it for so long? Having someone to talk to helps a little. But still, it's making me nuts. Nothing ever happens. And worst of all, I always know when and where well advance before something interesting does happen.
I miss being surprised. I miss not knowing what was to come. I shouldn't have accepted this job. It's too much for me to handle. Sometimes I think about ending it all. But I know that wont work. I know already that I will snap eventually. I know I'll try to end it multiple times. I know what will stop me each time. And there's nothing I can do about it.
I'd thought I could handle loneliness. After all, I'd been alone for so long already. But it isn't the same. How long have I been here? How long since I trapped myself in this gray mist? I can't tell. And that only makes things worse. I want out. I need out. But I can't leave yet, I can't leave until Then because I didn't leave. I didn't leave because I can't. I am not time's guardian, I am it's puppet.
Dear Diary,
It has been ages since I wrote here. I see now I never had a choice. The eons I have been here. The times I've lived through it all over and over. I think I'm crazy. I have to be. But I can't change what I've done. What I will do. How did it start? I no longer can remember. It's always been this way. I've always lived this endless cycle.
I can see it happening again. The gate is opening, and Sunlight is being exiled once more. I'll hide from her. I already hid from her. I will try changing things this time. I tried it before. Already I know what the results will be. But I'm helpless to stop. What was will be. I can't wait till my birth. Oblivion will feel wonderful. I wish it would last, but it can't.
Why did this loop begin? Because of a baka child. Because in this timeline a child spoke carelessly. She was suppose to die. Her death was suppose to spark a war. But she was not suppose to bind those four like she did. Baka girl, because of you I can't escape this prison. Please be different this time. Please let my torture end. Why wont it end? What did I do to anger the kami?