Stupid Rock Lady. (Steven Universe Pearl Self Insert)

Stupid Rock Lady. (Steven Universe Pearl Self Insert)
Created
Status
Ongoing
Watchers
254
Recent readers
0

Wake up in the Reef.
Have a craptastic training montage.
Get assigned an owner.
Live as an actual, genuine slave for a while.
Plot my escape for a few years while in constant fear of my life.
Meet some Pearls.
Make some friends. (optional.)
Jack a ship.
???
Profit.

TLDR: Fuck Homeworld. And fuck all the stuck up bitches that call the wretched place home.

---

My inevitable SU mood has returned, and now you have to deal with it! Couple years back, I could do little but desperately search for good stories to sate the brain. The difference now is that I'm capable of writing fanfiction, rather than just reading it. Self inserts are my guilty pleasure, and by God does the muse provide.

Will this story last long? Potentially.

Will I be making almost everything up? Conceivably.

But will it be stupid? Now that's a certainty.

It's in the title after all.

Canon omakes=Side Stories section.
Non-canon omakes=Apocrypha.
Fanart/memes/etc=Media.

Link to the original thread on SB, all the media stuff can be found in there, including a visual representation of the protagonist's physical appearance.
LOG-001.
I regret nothing motherfuckers.

LOG-001.

"Welcome, Viridian Pearl order Sixteen B. I am Shell, a guide for Gems visiting the Reef, and your temporary instructor."

"Buh?"

That was the first word out of my mouth, in this new life. It would not be the last of its kind.

"Follow the illuminated path to the education center."

Shaking myself slightly and doing my best to escape the strong daze clinging to my conciousness like a fog, I glanced around for a moment before finally registering just what my newest predicament had decided to present itself as.

For one I was, as a matter of fact, Viridian, just as 'Shell' had said. In the literal, colourful sense. Perfectly smooth, flawless light green skin met my gaze as I raised a thin, delicate looking hand up for inspection. The weird dress I was decked out in also drew attention, but nowhere near as much as the shiny rock embedded where my exposed belly button should be.

"Viridian Pearl order Sixteen B. Proceed to the education center immediately. You will not be ordered a third time."

I blinked, part of me tensing up at the artificial voice's politely threatening tone, and started walking forward along the helpfully illuminated path. Part of me recoiled at just how perfectly balanced I was, despite the fact that the body I was apparently now inhabiting failed to resemble my original meat mech in even the slightest of ways beyond being generally humanoid.

But whatever. No big deal. I'd figure out where the Hell I was first, alongside what had been done to me. Then I'd leave.

Right?

---

"We will now progress into Era Two. This Era is marked by the notable end of the vile and outrageous Rose Quartz Rebellion, after the Great Diamond Authority utilized their limitless power to destroy the army of rogue Gems littering the now shattered Pink Diamond's first colony, avenging her and restoring peace and balance to our Empire."

Pearl 101 had been God damned horrific. If I hadn't fucked up my counting, it had been eight solid hours worth of incredibly in depth explanations as to what my existence and subsequent role as a Pearl meant for me. All beneath the banner of the Great Diamond Authority, of course.

Imperial history was even worse, in the fact that it finally pounded into my brain (not that I actually had one of those anymore, if the Gem physiology lecture was to be believed) just where I had somehow woken up. And as what.

To condense eight fucking hours worth of bare faced indoctrination into something manageable, Pearls are 'servants' on Homeworld (the capital of the glorious Gem Empire), acting as custom made Gems with the sole purpose of serving their owner. Expected to perform activities such as dancing, singing, looking pretty and maybe even carrying things (oh boy!), Pearls are considered property by all of Homeworld, alongside the rest of the Empire surrounding it, decreed as such by the magnificent White Diamond.

I am a Pearl. And am apparently programmed to do all of these things. All while remaining meek, kind and most importantly, subservient. Even if I didn't feel very subservient about any of this damned horseshit.

Yeah. My entire situation could be rather accurately summed up in a single word, if I was being entirely honest with myself.

Fuck.

---

The auditorium that I'd eventually been told to make my way to was dim, even as I quietly settled in amongst the other Pearls that had presumably also been led here, doing my best to avoid looking out of place. That's when the figure standing up above us revealed herself, sharp features glaring down at us impassively.

She was like us. Almost. Her dark, bordering on black limbs were stretched out far beyond that of one of our kind, and her face was significantly more gaunt, lending it an inherently inhuman quality far more drastic than that of our own multicoloured forms.

"Greetings. You will address me as either my Nacre, Nacre Three or Caretaker Three, depending on the situation. Allow me to begin this explanation with one simple fact. You are all Reef Pearls, and as such, are expected to behave at a higher standard than the common rabble produced in lesser Creation Facilities."

Gems spoke English, which was odd to think about. I'd briefly considered the idea that, as I was now a rock lady myself, I had somehow 'come out' preprogrammed with whatever alien language they used. Yet tracking the Nacre's stupidly thin lips showed that the tall, alien looking caretaker was somehow, without a doubt, absolutely speaking the King's fucking English.

"Your stay here shall be brief, as you are all custom orders. Until the prestigious Gems that have asked for your creation arrive to collect you individually, you shall all continue your education as Batch Sixteen until you are collectively deemed perfect. Though you are encouraged to interact with one another until the time comes, do not presume this means you will remain together after your collection."

Which had implications, probably. Like...what if English wasn't native to Earth and humanity, and was in fact just fucking learned and subsequently adopted from the Imperial settlers that had probably arrived decades before we were even making basic attempts at writing?

"Be warned that failure to comply with orders, or any other form of insubordination, shall be punished swiftly and severely-"

The rest of the speech mostly went on like that. Some Pearls gained uncertain, almost fearful faces. Others kept their visages carefully blank of emotion.

I was one of the blank ones, by the way. Mostly because I had a fucking plan beyond acting as a glorified pet for whatever rock bitch had apparently wanted me to exist for her.

---

"Sixteen A! Stand up and report for education, immediately!"

The crimson Pearl held back a whimper, whether from the pain of having tripped and fallen over her own damn feet, or the incoming lesson she was about to receive from our wretched whore of a supervising Nacre remained a mystery. Maybe it was both.

I kept my eyes firmly forward, continuing the elaborate multiple hour long dance routine for today. One fringe benefit of having life experience beyond that of my fellows in the Reef? It somehow meshed well with my internal programming. I picked up on what I was meant to do, and how I was meant to do it, quickly.

The other Pearls occupying this particular training hall followed my lead in the routine almost instinctively. They'd long since learned that if I was doing it, then it was probably a good idea to replicate the act.

There were mild negatives to being awesome, though. It was difficult to ignore the way the Nacre used me as an example to set Sixteen A against. How I was proving far more worthy of resources and training compared to her, and how I would make my future owner happy, even as my Red counterpart was threatened with 'Harvesting' if she didn't shape up, and quickly.

But compared to the punished Gem's pained cries, and subsequent silence as the Nacre enacted a standard 'physical deterrence procedure' on the lagging slave, the comparisons really weren't that bad.

Sixteen A would just have to shape up if she wanted to avoid future beatings. Because there was no way in Hell I was about to make a mistake, not if it meant similar treatment.

No. I was the flawless Sixteen B. The best of my entire batch. And most importantly, I was Nacre Three's personal favourite. Her pride and fucking joy.

Essentially, I was the absolute shit.

I'd take the envious glares or desperate requests for advice whenever I was confined in the Pearl quarters with my 'Reefmates' any day, so long as it let me avoid the downright torture those who failed to perform could expect day by day from our loving Caretaker.

Outright rebellion had flashed and passed through my gemstone quickly, and for damn good reason. Batch Sixteen had mostly been a success, even if some of us were still lagging behind in accepting and internalising our programming.

Sixteen J had been the sole exception. And that exception had been brought back into line via Rejuvenation in order to deal with the golden Pearl's overly 'flighty' tendencies. A code word for trying to run, rather than simply curling up into a ball and taking it when Nacre Three deigned to kick the everloving shit out of her for dropping a tray full of fake datapads during one of our many practice sessions.

Seeing her blank, uncomprehending eyes upon being reintroduced into the group after her fucking mindwipe had instantly set me on the straight and narrow far more than any amount of beatings ever could, that was for bloody certain.

And thus, I ensured I was the best fucking Pearl that Nacre Three would ever have the pleasure of training. To her knowledge at least.

After all, Homeworld were well aware that Pearls had the highest deviancy rate out of any Gem type, and thus kept a careful eye on those who were deemed subpar in their existence.

An eye I couldn't afford to have watching me. Not if I was ever going to escape this place some day.

"Oof!"

"Sixteen F! Up as well, now!"

A day that couldn't come any sooner, in this lowly Pearl's humble opinion.
 
LOG-002.
She's beauty she's grace she's a scared rock from space.

LOG-002.

"Did you see Sixteen A stumble during the last routine? She's bound for harvesting if she keeps that up."

After an unknown amount of time (I wanted to say a few weeks or so, but there was no real way to tell just how long I'd been in this damned facility) I now finally knew why the Nacres that managed the place encouraged us Pearls to interact with one another during the rare times we were granted breaks within our quarters.

"T-that's not true! There was a divot in the floor, it wasn't my fault!"

It fostered competition.

"Yes it is!"

Yeah.

"No it isn't!"

Pearls loved to fucking gossip about just about anything, including each other. Even when the source of said gossip was in the same bloody room as them. Any hint of organisation that could have occurred constantly fell through since the entirety of Batch Sixteen were too busy playing their own weird version of highschool politics.

"As if Nacre Three would stand a flaw existing in her slice of the Reef. You're just faulty. Right, Viridian?"

Viridian. I had somehow become the only named Pearl in our batch (and possibly even this entire section of the Reef), after our Caretaker had idly referred to me as such while in casual conversation with another Nacre.

She'd been merely boastful of the fact, but my 'unique' identifier (as unique as being named after the colour of my damned lightform could even be) had largely been accepted thanks to my seeming 'perfection.' There'd been concerns raised by some of Nacre Three's colleagues that the name would go to my head, that it would drastically inflate my ego, which obviously was something unbefitting of a mere Pearl.

My overseer had been so painfully fucking smug when I hadn't changed in my routine whatsoever, doing my level best to ignore the entire debacle. Seriously, I was starting to suspect more and more that her Gem type was just some fucked up variant of my own. The Caretakers all engaged in enough petty power plays while their various batches were sharing areas that there had to be some sort of connection there.

Regardless of my various theories, the biggest benefit and subsequent drawback of my 'special treatment', was that I had somehow become the effective queen bee of our entire twenty six Pearl batch. I was the cool girl, since I hadn't gotten the stuffing beaten out of me yet. Joy.

"She's wrong! Tell her Viridian!"

Rolling my eyes and gracefully (always gracefully, since I still wasn't sure whether our Caretaker had some kind of surveillance system set up to observe us when not under direct supervision) standing up off the outcropping I'd been lazing about on, I meandered my way past the gaggle of slim bodies in front of me, reaching for one of the ribbon wands stored in the built in containers of our glorified cage (the Nacres loved it when we practiced various 'Pearl related skills' in our own time), even as I waved a hand at the two arguing Gems.

My voice came out in a semi-annoyed drawl, just as my thin fingers firmly wrapped themselves around the wand's handle.

"Sixteen D, stop bullying Sixteen A."

The mocha coloured figure was already backing away with very specifically interlaced fingers, an apology on her lips and in the gesture she was making. Pearl 'sign' language was something that we weren't actively taught, but yet still just kind of developed on its own. We needed a way to communicate with each other when standing around silently and looking pretty for our mistresses, after all.

It was kinda neat, if one ignored how horrific such a necessity was.

Heedless of my internal thoughts, D's crimson counterpart grinned, now sure of her victory since I'd apparently chosen to back her up.

"And Sixteen A, stop tripping all the damn time. Otherwise Nacre Three's gonna do way worse than anything D will say to you."

That unsubtle warning and reminder ensured silence from the both of them, even as the rest of the Pearls in the quarter whispered and chattered from their own corners and cliques. Including 'my' group.

Which included Sixteen D, C, V and the Rejuvenated J.

There wasn't any choice in the matter on my end when it came to picking 'friends', unfortunately. They'd just been the quickest ones to cozy up to the 'perfect Pearl.' Ever curious about my thoughts and opinions on things, and ever eager to copy my fucking dancing techniques. Their one saving grace was that our occasional interactions kept me from going bugfuck insane from sheer social isolation, even if I was going to jam my shitty wand straight into J's gemstone the next time she tried to convince me to get Nacre Three to give us more time for singing rehearsals.

I didn't have a deathwish, for Stars' sake.

Aside from that, they were also largely in part the reason I'd stuck to Homeworld's set naming system for all of us, rather than trying to develop nicknames for those I actually somewhat liked.

Our environment and upbringing fostered Gems utterly subservient to their future owners, even as it kept us divided from one another via pointless power plays (just like our damned Nacre Caretakers) and politicking.

The other, and more important reason I tried to avoid any kind of real attachments was relatively simple.

"Pearl Sixteen B to management station three. Pearl Sixteen B to management station three."

My chances of ever seeing any of them again once we were assigned to our respective owners were slim to none, considering the sheer vastness of the Gem Empire. According to the history lectures, at least.

Getting up and ignoring the excited whispering from the rest of my batch at my latest 'private audience', I packed my ribbon wand away and strode towards the exit to our quarters with a carefully measured, yet outwardly casual gait.

---

"That wretched clod. She knows the candidates are coming soon, so she's trying to one up me with the latest batch success numbers!"

Nacre Three's office was meticulously clean, and coloured a pure, eye searing white. The only splashes of colour came from the grey holographic screens she'd occasionally bring up, alongside the Peridot she'd called in for this or that reason.

The green technician Gem (she almost resembled the little dorito gremlin I remembered from the show. But her hair was assembled in more of a curving knife of a shape than anything else, with her gemstone sitting somewhere on her shoulder. Her limb enhancers were noticeably thinner as well.) would occasionally sneak curious glances my way, even as I resolutely stared forward, a placid and gentle expression plastered across my face.

We'd both been standing here for a few minutes, even as the tall Nacre continued to metaphorically tear through whatever she was reading, angrily ranting all the while.

A forcibly suppressed shiver went down my entire lightform as the Caretaker stared at me with a gleam in her pale looking eyes and a shine upon the gemstone embedded in her forehead, a wide smile slowly coming to her thin lips, right before she turned towards the Peridot who didn't suppress the worried look of someone who's boss was eyeing them up for extra illegal overtime.

"But you'll solve that for me, won't you? I know you have access to the visitation details. You could tell me just what kind of Gem I must personally prepare my dearest Viridian to serve. Then we could have her custom training schedule set up long before they arrive!"

Oh boy.

The Peridot gulped, raising a wobbly, detached finger. Nacre Three's eyes narrowed dangerously. I sobbed internally at the newcomer's sheer stupidity.

"T-that would be against p-protocol-"

The room got colder, even as the Caretaker seemed to loom over the minor technician all the more. A quiet, disturbingly calm sense of menace in her voice.

"You are Peridot Facet 2NFG, Cut 7XT. You were transferred to the Reef Pearl Creation Center thanks to a failure to perform in an experimental laboratory sponsored by White Diamond herself. You should have been shattered, but your status as an experienced technician and our recent expansion necessitated your arrival, placement and subsequent position here."

The green Gem was visibly shivering now, even as the Nacre leaned further forward, clawed hands almost taking gouges out of the colourful material of her desk.

"You shouldn't be here, and the only reason you haven't been harvested and replaced with a more useful Gem is because I ensure such an occurrence does not occur. Solely because I consider you useful."

She tilted her head slightly, eyes boring into 7XT.

"Allow me to make things simple enough for you to understand. Do you wish to be shattered, Peridot?"

The Peridot was already rapidly shaking her head with a terrified look, even as she began to bring up a series of yellow screens of her own using the limb enhancers connected to her arms.

"N-no! I'll get everything you need, right away my Nacre! At once! R-right now!"

And just like that, the Caretaker was back to some semblance of 'normal', hands clapping together and a tight smile upon her face, even as she turned to face me.

I held perfectly still, smiling right back with wide, shining eyes even as some small part of me screamed and raged the second one of her creepy ass hands extended and began to gently pat my hair.

"Do you hear that, Viridian? We'll get to know just who your owner is ahead of time! Isn't that wonderful?"

I took that panicking part of my mind out back and shot it in the name of survival, forcing my perfect smile to widen further, even as I leaned into the touch like an eager fucking dog that was utterly desperate for my Caretaker's approval.

"Yes, my Nacre!"
 
Last edited:
LOG-003.
Lots of neat theories, always great to see.

LOG-003.

I resisted the urge to groan in exhaustion, even as I slid a foot forward, continuing the elaborate dance while the Nacre across from me continued to pour through a small army of holographic screens.

"Simply sublime! The Gem that commissioned you is an Emerald!"

The Caretaker sounded fucking ecstatic about that particular piece of information, which was...good?

Hopefully. Twisting slightly, I let my dress billow around me, one leg rising straight into the air even as I let the tips of my fingers just barely graze the utterly smooth floor of the office.

"Facet 2M7G, cut 8XS. A fleet admiral."

The tall Gem swept the screens away, her hands going up to clench at thin air in front of her chest, even as she did a weird victory shuffle in her seat.

"Oh this is just perfect!"

Lower leg, perform a standard clockwise pirouette. Shift into the next part of the dance...

I stifled a shudder as Nacre Three gazed at me with what I'd almost call loving eyes, if I didn't know better. Her chin resting atop her interlaced fingers, the Caretaker watched me dance for a moment, before nodding.

"That will do for now. Come closer."

Bowing gracefully to end the brief performance, I obliged, approaching the Nacre and resisting the urge to scream as she casually reached forward, clutching my shoulder and dragging me to glance at one of the remaining screens.

"Take a good look, my brilliant Viridian. Once she arrives, you'll belong to her. It's in both our best interests to ensure you're entirely without flaw once we finally present you to the good Emerald."

The image of the green Gem was displayed in full colour, showing off the dazzling shades of her tight bodyglove, alongside the subtle gold accenting of what appeared to be some kind of ceremonial cloak. Her hair was wild looking, yet still managed to somehow sort itself into five distinct masses jutting out from her head. Most notably, her gemstone almost seemed to shine from its position embedded in the dead center of her chest.

The taskmaster sighed dreamily, leaning back and finally releasing her grip on me.

"Ah, I can see it now. My position will be elevated above One and Two once the admiral shows you off. Perhaps I'll even be put in charge of the entire facility? Oh the sheer possibilities!"

I remained silent, even as the Nacre turned and tightly grasped my cheeks with the fucking talons she called fingers, her thin lips stretching apart in an entirely too wide grin to expose a row of pearly white teeth.

"You are going to be sensational my darling! Just wait till Homeworld gets a good look at you!"

I smiled wide in return, doing my best to nod despite the hold the bitch had on me.

"I look forward to it, my Nacre!"

Smiling back, the Caretaker nodded seriously.

"And that is why you are my finest creation, no matter what those clods in the other sectors say." Finally letting go of me (thank the fucking Stars) and clapping her hands cheerily, the Gem swivelled in her seat.

"You won't be rejoining the rest of your Batch in the Pearl quarters anymore. We need to ensure you're in tip top shape when your owner arrives, so I'll be personally taking care of you from now on."

My smile got wider. Painfully wider. I probably looked just like the monster across from me, now that I really thought about it.

"Of course, my Nacre!"

Final stretch.

---

I didn't get breaks anymore. Mostly because the time I would have previously spent lounging around in the quarters and interacting with the rest of the Pearls was now spent dancing, singing and amusing Nacre Three while she was slicing through (metaphorical, since it was all holographic) paperwork in her office.

Days passed. Then weeks. Months, eventually.

At least, I assumed as such. There was still no way I could tell the time in this damned Hell. There were 'orbital cycles' of course, but I had no way of comparing such a time measurement to what I was used to on Earth.

Occasionally, I would be brought out to other parts of the Reef, ostensibly for my current torturer to show off her 'shining product' to...just about everyone she could gloat to and get away with it.

I'd learned that Gems could most definitely cry, at least. I'd managed to bawl my eyes out in the brief period Nacre Three had left me alone in her office while she'd fucked off to get something elsewhere.

That single leakage of actual emotion that I didn't have to fake had been euphoric.

Still didn't know just where the water for the tears had come from, but at this point I didn't care. It was just another way of keeping myself from losing the plot completely.

So yeah, I got really good at timing my crying sessions in between the short lapses in my Caretaker's routine, which I'd all but memorised at this point. Gave me time to fix up my appearance before she got back at least.

Then, one day, something new happened.

I'd been in the middle of a seven hour wordless song when the doors to the office had abruptly opened, allowing a familiar technician entry.

Peridot 7XT had become a common face to see as of late, mostly because Nacre Three called her in whenever she reasonably (and unreasonably) could to scrounge for more information on the Emerald I was slated for. The difference today was that the Peridot hadn't been called for.

I should know, Nacre had pretty much shunted all the work of managing her communications to me, since apparently having such a skill already ingrained in my gemstone would clearly prove most impressive for a decorated and most likely very busy fleet admiral.

As a result, I firmly ignored the interruption and continued singing, though I did take a step back as my fellow green Gem stormed into the room, tears in her eyes and a floating finger wobbly pointed at Nacre Three.

"I can't do this anymore!"

...Oh boy.

The melodic sounds coming from my throat cut off abruptly as the Nacre silently brought up a hand, motioning for me to stop. Then she lowered the limb to rest against the table in front of her, tilting her head slowly.

"Can't do what anymore, Peridot?"

The Gem grit her teeth, gesturing to me, herself, and then seemingly the entire room in a flurry of panicked motion.

"This! All of this! Falsifying records so you can keep your pet Pearl in the office all the time! Accessing files I have zero rights to just so you can get a leg up on the other Nacres! I'm done breaking the law for you!"

I took another very, very careful step back, even as Nacre Three smiled that horrifically stretched smile of hers.

"I would urge you to reconsider-"

The stupid bitch (survival instincts had clearly eroded at some point) cut her off, waving her arms wildly.

"I'm taking this up with the other Caretakers! We'll see what they have to say about thi-!"

Pop.

Her expression paused, eyes utterly uncomprehending behind her transparent yellow visor even as my taskmaster's hand steadily pierced further through her torso, right up until her entire lightform dematerialised with the signature 'poof' of a Gem temporarily losing their projected body. Her four limb enhancers all fell to the floor with dull thumps, rolling around before finally coming to a stop.

"We can pause the singing practice for now, Viridian. This was a surprise, but I can most certainly see an opportunity to teach you something special here."

The Nacre beckoned me closer, even as she kneeled down and scooped up the technician's helpless Gemstone.

I did the only thing I could do. I approached, hands politely clasped in front of me and face attentive.

Three glanced up as the automatic door swished closed, before turning to look at me with a slightly more subdued smile.

"Homeworld has laws, my dearest Pearl. And these laws, of course, exist for a reason. They keep our beautiful Empire running efficiently. Clean, tidy and well ordered."

She glanced at the gemstone in her hand, eyes narrowing.

"However, these laws must be carefully interpreted, lest we cause problems for those who matter in society. This...resource deprived runt would see us fail, Viridian. Were she to spread her worthless knowledge and opinions, the others in control of this facility would see me unjustly punished for the sole sake of their own amusement, and you..."

The gemstone was gently set back on the ground, right before the Nacre stood up straight, staring at me.

"You would not see your true potential...and that is something I as a Caretaker can not allow. Thus begins the lesson."

The Nacre brought her leg up, dainty looking foot aimed right at-oh shit.

Crack.


"As a Pearl, you will see and hear many things in the process of serving your owner."

Crackle.

"And it is your duty as a Pearl to keep these things to yourself."

Snap.


The green gemstone finally shattered, splitting into three distinct shards beneath the grinding pressure of the Nacre's foot, who plucked the separated pieces back into her hand in short order.

"We can proceed without this troublesome pebble, thankfully. I have it on good authority that the Gems coming to collect your Batch will be arriving within this orbital cycle, including the admiral."

I stared in muted shock as she held the shards out, palm up. Then I quickly looked up into her gently smiling face.

I'd underestimated Nacre Three, evidently. Alongside just how far she was willing to go in regards to making us both look good.

"Store her remains inside your gemstone and let us never speak of this troublesome obstacle again, yes? I'll ensure no one misses her."

Ruthlessly stifling the almost violent need to swallow, I took the offered fragments of broken gemstone from her hand, holding them in two of my own and inspecting them.

Pretty looking. And also utterly horrifying for someone who had gone through multiple in depth Gem physiology lectures.

Then I did the smart thing, and brought the clear case of murder lower to my stomach. A short flash of light later, and the evidence of the shattering was safely hidden inside my own gemstone.

Just a little bit longer.

"Good Pearl. Now get the limb enhancers as well."

Final stretch...
 
LOG-004.
Why do you hide from me. I see you giving hearts to the posts. WHY DO YOU HIDE YOURSELF FROM MY GRATITUDE!?

LOG-004.

Rap tap tap.

My thin knuckles gently knocked against the wall I'd chosen to lean against, even as my eyes darted to take in every corner of the shiny, blindingly bright white room Nacre Three had elected to leave me in.

Rap tap tap.

It was finally time. The rest of the Batch were likely only being informed and prepared for presentation now. But I'd known exactly when the Reef's ever so important visitors would arrive. My Caretaker had wanted me to have as much information as possible in the lead up to my being shown off and handed over to my destined owner, obviously.

Hence, while the rest of Batch Sixteen were only now leaving the Pearl quarters to undergo a final cleanup and pep talk prior to their sale, I was already in one of the smaller chambers adjacent to the hangar bay the shuttles transporting the visiting Gems were scheduled to land in, well prepared for what layed ahead.

Why they didn't just use a warp pad (learning about the basics of just how such magnificent devices worked had been one of my few positive experiences in this Hell) was something I didn't, couldn't possibly know. Alongside a million other details. Countless variables constantly flashing through my ever stretching mind even as tears streaked down my cheeks and-

Rap. Tap. Tap.

My hands clenched into tightly balled up little fists, even as I whirled around and glared at the wall behind me.

The reflection of an exhausted looking green Pearl stared back at me, eyes shiny.

I shook, laying my hands against the glimmering surface, using it as as a desperate support even as I whispered to the distorted copy of myself in a hoarse voice that would have quite possibly given Nacre Three whatever the Gem equivalent of a heart attack was.

"Get your head in the game, Viridian. You're nearly out of here. Final stretch. Alright? You're close. You're so close."

"All Pearls from Batch Sixteen B to the primary visitation area. All Pearls from Batch Sixteen B to the primary visitation area."

Hurriedly wiping the wet streaks away and ensuring my hair hadn't been frazzled by my brief outburst of emotion, I took the luxury of spending another few seconds ensuring my appearance was as perfect and flawless as always, even as I turned to the now open door.

"Final fucking stretch."

---

My personal taskmaster had been quick to join me from wherever she'd been once the call had gone out, her hand on my shoulder an everpresent reminder of my fate should I fail to prove myself worthy to this particular Emerald. The walk to the hangar bay itself was short, and my eyes had widened significantly after we'd passed through the doors leading into the gargantuan area.

Not because of the size, but rather the fact that I could see outside the hangar from a massive opened up section, ostensibly there to allow small ships and shuttles to pass through it.

The urge to bawl my eyes out rose up like the need to vomit as I felt sunlight touch my lightform for the first time in...ever. Probably. Yet the clawed fingers wrapped around me ensured not even a single tear escaped my painfully dry eye sockets.

The hangar was just as white as everything else had been, save for a few subtle accents and splashes of colour here and there. In truth, the biggest contrast to the entire area I'd been brought to was the rainbow riot of colours that was an entire Batch of Pearls all being gathered into one place. I could see two other Nacres, identical to my own standing near some kind of console alongside a Peridot, even as my own Caretaker gently pushed me towards the gaggle of Pearls.

"Go on now, Viridian. And ensure you present yourself as the best amongst them."

I didn't hesitate to follow the order, eagerly yet as always gracefully stepping away from the Nacre to join the rest of my Batch.

Surprised eyes stared at me as I silently took my place near the end of the line of Pearls, yet no one spoke as I filled in the missing gap. Not audibly at least.

'You're alive.'

A seemingly simple twitch of Sixteen A's fingers. I shifted my head ever so slightly downwards in response, an act imperceptible to anyone but a fellow slave.

'Yes.'

And that was that, for none of us dared attempt a true conversation once Nacre Three finished whatever discussion she was having with her colleagues, striding towards us on long, almost stilt-like legs.

It was like that, in our line up that we all stood statue still, even as the entire hangar steadily filled with what was clearly a solid portion of the facility's entire garrison.

Despite my proximity to them, I'd only ever seen a Quartz soldier in person just once before. She'd been a yellow Jasper of some sort. I'd taken some small amount of amusement in comparing her to mustard, at the time.

Said amusement had died a miserable death when the mustard coloured Gem had revealed another Pearl trapped in her grasp, the far thinner blue Gem shaking like a leaf even as Nacre One had been informed of her attempt at escaping the Reef in the middle of her conversation with my own overseer.

I hadn't seen that blue Pearl since, though to be fair I hadn't seen many Gems at all since Nacre Three had taken personal charge of my training. My best assumption was Rejuvenation. My worst, shattering and Harvesting-

"Batch Sixteen."

I purged the thoughts from my mind, standing as straight as I could even as my fellow Pearls did the same, just as our Caretaker took her place in front of all of us.

"You have all been taught. You have all been trained. You have all been conditioned. All to make you the best servants you can possibly be. Today is the day that you leave my care, alongside that of the Reef, and become true Pearls."

A steady, humming sound that almost seemed to vibrate the air around us made itself known, even as the first of several shuttles began to descend from the sky above, their pilots carefully manoeuvring the differently shaped vessels through the wide open hangar doors.

The first ship to land was red. The second, green. The third, white.

Yet all those little details barely caught my attention as Nacre Three stared directly at me, her hands clasped in front of her.

"Make me proud."

---

There she was.

Emerald facet 2M7G, cut 8XS.

The bright green, spiky haired, bored looking harbinger of my salvation.

The military Gem cut an imposing figure, to say the very least. Flanked as she was by two serious looking Peridots, even as she and the rest of the Reef's guests mingled with one another. A few minutes of idle discussion passed between the large group, only going silent once Nacre One stepped forward, bowing at the waist with her identical clones copying the action from right behind her.

"Esteemed guests, allow me to personally welcome you to the Reef! Though it would be my pleasure to entertain those of you that are here for the first time and provide a guided tour of our facilities, I understand that we all lead immensely busy lives and thus time may not be a luxury many of us will be able to afford. Unfortunately."

Several agreements rang out from the menagerie of visitors, though some looked ever so slightly disappointed at not being able to poke around a little.

The Nacre rose from her bow, nodding.

"Thus, let us focus on what we are all truly here for."

Her hand moved, slowly gesturing for the Pearl right next to me to come forward.

"Presenting Pearl Sixteen A, to be transferred to the immediate and indefinite ownership of the honourable Sodalite, facet 3U9R, cut 6XP.

Compared to Sixteen A, Sodalite was a dark blue, almost bordering on purple in colour. One singular, drastically oversized eye stared at the Pearl, framed by blue streaked hair that almost seemed to spill around the lilac dress surrounding her plump body.

I silently thanked and cursed the Stars that I had not been first, and that they were following what seemed to be alphabetical order, just as the crimson Pearl stepped forward and bowed daintily.

"It is my pleasure and honour to serve you, my Sodalite."

Silence rang out throughout the hangar as the aristocratic Gem glared down at the Pearl, before sniffing disdainfully.

"It will do. Come along and make way, Pearl. I wish to observe the rest of the proceedings."

And just like that, both master and slave were stepping out of the spotlight, even as the admiral stepped forward, head panning to take in our entire lineup.

Her gaze landed on me just as Nacre One made to open her mouth, only to be beaten to the metaphorical punch by my worst fucking nightmare.

"Presenting Pearl Sixteen B, Viridian! The finest product of my latest Batch, to be transferred to the immediate and indefinite ownership of the venerable Emerald, facet 2M7G, cut 8XS!"

You stupid fucking bitch! What is wrong with you!?

I barely held back a scream as I stepped forward, chest puffed out and head held high. My gemstone thrummed in panic as the admiral's razor sharp looking eyes turned from the Caretaker's abrupt takeover of the presentation to stare me down instead.

My voice came out melodious, even as I took a curtsy that put Sixteen A's previous fumbling gesture of subservience to fucking shame.

"I eagerly await the opportunity to bring you the greatest of joys, my Emerald."

A moment of silence, as the fleet admiral almost seemed to size me up for a few seconds.

Then...finally, a quick, singular nod of approval.

"She seems...well made. Excellent work."

Oh thank the Stars.

---

I didn't get to see the rest of the ceremony, for my new owner had decided that watching various aristocratic Gems, alongside a few other military officers get their freshly prepared Pearls, simply wasn't worth the time she could spend doing something more productive with her life.

Thus, I'd followed the tall Emerald aboard her jade hued shuttle without hesitation, flanked by the two Peridots that had accompanied her in turn.

The last sight I saw of the Reef before the embarking ramp closed with an almost euphorically final click had been Nacre Three's widely smiling face, alongside the two other Caretakers glaring daggers at her from behind.

So long, fuckers.

Then, the shuttle was moving and a loud groan was filling the entire interior as my master plopped down into a nearby seat, waving a hand at one of the Peridots even as the other one moved towards the vessel's cockpit.

"Ugh, I always hate having to deal with those stuffy homecrust aristocrats. Make a note to send some kind of envoy in my place next time, will you?"

A quick affirmative answered the Emerald, the technician utilising her left limb enhancer's (almost painfully familiar to the one resting inside my gemstone, if a little bulkier looking) detached fingers to create a holographic screen she could begin tapping at.

I remained standing, hands firmly clasped in front of me in a respectful pose, not even considering taking a seat unless I was told otherwise.

The decision proved prudent, considering my Emerald was staring at me in short order, her lip quirking ever so slightly upwards.

"Well, I finally got one. Let's see if you were worth the currenza. Entertain me, Pearl."

I smiled widely, and began to sing.

The difference between this particular melody, and the many, many songs I had performed for Nacre Three, was really rather simple in the end.

This one had just a singular note of victory hidden deep within its tune.
 
LOG-005.
Had a crazy night in the Discord server while writing this. You should watch it lmao.

LOG-005.

The shuttle, as it turned out, had viewports. Or at least some kind of technology that allowed one to view the outside during landing and takeoff. As a direct result of this, I got to see the frankly stellar view of what I'd internally begun to call the Reef world rapidly shrinking beneath us, even as I performed a relatively simple dance routine for the bemused Emerald sitting across from me.

So long, Hellhole. I'll be glad to never ever return to your cursed halls.

Alas, every performance must come to an end eventually, and as I slowly wound down from the elaborate motions that had been engrained into my Gem over my time beneath Nacre Three's (may she splinter and crack) care, the large green Gem leaned forward, tilting her head in interest.

"Hm, not bad. Though I've been told Pearls can do more than just dance and sing. Is this true?"

Bowing my head in favour of nodding, I let a gentle, placid smile mask itself over my face, even as my gemstone sang in triumph.

She'd clearly never had a Pearl before, somehow. And as a rather convenient result of that, didn't quite know what to expect from me besides the absolute basics that every Gem in the empire knew of.

"But of course my Emerald! We Pearls are custom made to serve our owners and as such, I have been programmed and taught to assist you in your work and life in a vast variety of ways."

I performed a short twist, bringing up my hand and drawing the admiral's eyes to the limb as I slowly began to raise my fingers, one by one. Out of the corner of my vision, I noticed one of the Peridots doing the same, an eyebrow quirked beneath her visor.

"I personally have been especially trained to perform auxilliary duties such as taking calls, performing administrative work, acting as a representative when you deem your personal presence unnecessary, cleaning, carrying your things for you, and generally acting as a consistent source of companionship!"

Bringing my hands together in a soft clap, I nodded firmly.

"My very existence is tailored to match your own, and thus the Reef has ensured I am more than well prepared to accommodate the needs and desires of a distinguished fleet admiral such as yourself, my Emerald."

I adopted a new attentive pose (type fourteen, pattern three to be specific), even as the high ranking Gem seemed to consider my words.

Come on come on come on come on come o-

"Well...alright then. I'll see about assigning you some tasks once we're on board the Retaliator."

Blinking, I tilted my head. Cutely, of course.

Cause I was such a cute, aesthetically pleasing Pearl, that no one would ever suspect of being defective in the worst way possible, right?

"The Retaliator, my Emerald?"

The question brought a slight grin to her lips, even as she made a grand gesture towards one of the viewports.

The first thing that caught my attention was the stars, in truth. Out in the void of space (something that I could still scarcely comprehend, considering just how smooth the ride up here felt), I was able to behold the shimmering tapestry of the cosmos without the obstruction that human pollution had once manifested itself as, back when I'd been made up of flesh and blood rather than gem and light.

It was the bright green shape in the middle of that star filled void that drew my eyes next.

It somewhat appeared like someone had taken two impossibly large blades and fused them together, all while attaching engines to the rear and a carefully low, almost squat looking bridge of some kind in the space left between them.

A small, childish part of me that I'd long since considered dead and gone at this point suddenly rose up without warning, making a glaring visual comparison. Namely the fact that it almost exactly looked like an energy blade from Halo, somehow. If it was green and entirely made up of some kind of crystaline looking metallic alloy, that is.

It was a crazy coincidence, to say the very least.

Then a hand landed on my shoulder and I resisted the urge to flinch violently as thousands of memories rose up unbidden at the seemingly innocent action. The small smile that had taken over my face almost threatened to slip, yet I just barely managed to keep up the expression as my Emerald leaned forward, her own fanged grin indicating she was rather pleased with my awestruck demeanor.

"Deadly looking, isn't she? Twin-linked heavy assault ship, cruiser class. She might not have the reputation of rapid transit vanguard vessels like the Sun Incinerator, and she'll obviously never hold a candle to a Diamond class armship, but it's cruisers exactly like my one that project the might of our Empire throughout the universe. We're the stone and foundation of any good fleet, after all."

The metaphorical stars in my eyes, amazingly enough, weren't at all faked as I turned towards my master, even as I did my absolute best to shunt away the tainted memories physical contact tended to dredge up thanks to a certain shatterer.

"She's amazing my Emerald!"

It right well could have been my somewhat twisted imagination, but the Gem admiral's green cheeks seemed to get an almost imperceptible shade darker at my surprisingly honest words.

What? Starships were cool. I'd take what enjoyment I could get out of this shitty life damn it!

"Hah! Just wait until you see the rest of the fleet. We'll be warping directly back to Homeworld and regrouping with them after we dock up with Retaliator."

The shine in my eyes lessened ever so slightly at those words, even as my Emerald ordered a second melody to be sung from my lips, an order I quickly complied with, as a matter of course.

Homeworld, the very last place I wanted to be.

With luck, our presence there would be short.

---

"We have arrived, my Emerald."

The technician's voice was matter of fact, ringing out somewhere behind me as I watched the entire process of landing inside the warship with a dull sense of amazement.

The inside of the Retaliator was just as impressive as the cruiser's exterior, a quick landing within a fairly large hangar bay resulting in our shuttle nestling itself amidst three other similar transports, even as dozens of Gems scrambled around the docking bay. A small platoon of assembled Ruby soldiers saluted as a veritable swarm of Peridots ran to and fro, limb enhancers shifting apart to mimic various tools as the embarking ramp lowered, my Emerald confidently striding out into the mess of Gems below.

What I recognised as a pair of elite Citrine guards both came up, the Quartz warriors performing the standard Diamond salute as the ship's captain stepped forward.

Dozens of eyes blinked at me, even as I quickly took my position just behind the Emerald's side, hands carefully clasped behind my back.

The conversation between my master and what I could only assume were her personal bodyguards was quick, consisting of a relatively simple report on the ship's status. Then we were moving away from the hangar with little fanfare, travelling through an almost maze-like mess of hallways and corridors until we were finally standing in front of a large, triangular door that slid upwards as some kind of scanner flashed across the admiral's chest, yellow light reflecting off of her gemstone for just a second.

The bridge itself was circular, with the majority of the walls taken up by what seemed to be high definition viewing screens. Several control stations occupied by various Gems emitted light and sound, yet the centerpiece of the entire operation was the command throne set smack dab in the middle of everything. A command throne quickly occupied by its owner, who sat down with a brief flourish of her cloak.

Naturally, I elected to stand directly to her side, prompting a brief look from the Gem before she turned to stare at the gargantuan screen directly in front of her, one hand gesturing to a pair of Peridots at the left side of the bridge.

"Engines, status?"

"Optimal, my Emerald!"

"Warp drive?"

"The same, my Emerald!"

A smile graced the admiral's lips, before she leaned forward and swept her hand out to point directly at the simulated image of the void in front of us.

"Then we have all we need. All hands, prepare for jump!"

Several pings rang out from a nearby terminal as what seemed to be another Citrine rapidly tapped at the controls in front of her, resulting in a steady hum that seemed to build up from somewhere deeper within the ship, directly behind us.

For just a brief second, I felt things couldn't truly get any better than this.

Then the ship figuratively and literally leapt forward, and I realised just how much the beauty of the stars paled in comparison to the shining, glittering vista that was warp space.
 
My Pearl cannot be this weird! (by Bot105)

My Pearl cannot be this weird!


Another warp. Another rock-called-a-planet. Not even a sign of life.

A groan rises up on the bridge. Bet's called in, and coin exchanged in the manner of the judicially ignored.

Emerald tilts her head slightly, a warning to cut back without an actual warning. That would mean an official reprimand. Not something she wants to hand out, just as she made her bridge the way she liked.

Silence as she speaks, all actions stilled, "Peridot, record another failure, as expected."

"Of course my Emerald!" Peridot says, and ignores how her partner nudges her ribs. Peridot was so certain that the deep range scanner would work this time.

"And, fuel-check."

"Yes, my Emerald!" A different Peridot says. "… Outside expectations, half-full!"

Unfortunate, depending on the local deep space currents, more or less fuel may be spent. "That gas giant seems suitable, send enough shuttles to reach three-quarters."

"At once, my Emerald!"

"Good. Now, standard work, get to it."

The bridge returned to activity, navigators and operators and engineers returning to their tasks. The busywork of command.

But, why was Emerald on edge? What was causing her hackles to raise?

She felt eyes on her back. Two. Starry eyed and soft.

Right. The Pearl.

"Sing." Emerald turned, leaned just slightly against the side of her throne. Better to face her entertainment.

The Pearl sung. Her notes sharp but low. A rhythm that wove between the bustle of the crew, and rose just above, dominating the room not through volume, but through its clarity.

The words were a hymn to the ship, praising the nature of exploration, and the valiance of the explorer. Pride was plucked and sharpened, and Emerald could almost see how her eavesdropping crew stood just a little straighter, just a little stronger.

The Jaspers clutching their spears, military straight, were slowly moving their lips. Mouthing out the words.

Emerald felt generous, and pressed the intercom button, so that the whole ship may hear.

It was pleasant enough, but something was wrong. Something about how the Pearl sang, eyes so bright, was uncanny.

It hit her on the second chorus, with a rumbling rhythm the crew tried to step in time to. Not once has the Pearl blinked.

Emerald leaned forward, staring down the Pearl hard.

There was a hitch in the song. Noticed only by Emerald's heightened awareness. And the Pearl's gaze focused on Emerald's. Bright eyes against suspicious.

Emerald blinked.

The Pearl continued to sing. But, as if, she had just realised, the Pearl blinked too. Eyelids slowly closing, methodical movements towards the middle. And they opened.

A moment later, another blink, just as rigid and precise. Precisely consistent. Precisely measured. Not reflexive, but chosen specifically.

Emerald slowly reclined back in her chair, an attempt to relax, and simply enjoy the song. But some portion of her mind lingered on those eyes.


<Beautiful>​

There is a new rumour about. Well, to be fair, on a ship as large as Emerald's. As storied and ancient, there is always rumours.

But this one is rather more fantastical. Not like so and so failed something or other, or how that one or this one sabotaged this or that.

This ones about the monster stalking these halls.

A misshapen gem. Somehow surviving the Kindergarten purge. Somehow making it to a Warp gate without being detected. Somehow making it aboard an Emerald's personal ship.

They say it wails on the off-cycles. Haunting the corridors and rooms and feasting on those who should be resting, and not wandering the halls. Weeping constantly, for what it does, and what it is.

Clod-bait, a weapon's gunner mutters, an overactive imagination.

This one's different! The junior technician whispers, I have recordings.

Emerald passes by, inspections well underway. She hears the tinny noises from the hidden crystal. Volume tuned as low as it goes.

She ignores the lessor's huddle, as is her nature, but she does not ignore the screams from the recording.

It is ghastly. It is haunting. It is undeniably a persons sobs. And undeniably a wail of fear and anguish.

It reminds her of the wretched noises some Gems make, when they are dragged to the harvesting chambers.

A night later, after she has dismissed the Pearl, after she has dismissed her Jaspers and Peridots. She finds herself restless, and walks the ship alone.

Everyone else is at rest. The ship groans the groans of a ship. Silent, save for the shift of crystal and metal as gravity slowly changes the strength of its pull. Silent, save for the soft tinkling. Micro-matter too small to see impacting the hull too fast to see.

There is a scream, and Emerald remembers the recording. It sounds awful.

It's coming from the door down the hall.

It wails again as she places her hand on the door, screechy and overused to the point of scratching. Wet, and nasal.

Emerald pushes the door open.

On the other side, there is a figure small and lithe. Too dark to see. Hunched over a basin, two claw-like hands gripping the rim tight. The head a mess too spiked, wild and sharp. It leaps away from where it stands as Emerald reaches for the lights.

It is gone.

Emerald very carefully steps forwards, her gaze hyper-focused. She closes the door, locking it behind her. The room has only one exit – it cannot get away.

(She thinks it is the Pearl, a confrontation will get answers.)

She approaches the basin, sees the mirror above it. This is a room for washing up, removing any dirt caught in crevasses while off-ship. The basin seems scratched. Material made rough and jagged by sharp fingernails.

There is something in the basin. A box. One simple. Black material, latched. Slowly, Emerald reaches towards it.

The door unlocks and opens.

"Something wrong, my Emerald?"

Emerald does not shriek. She does look sharply.

It is the Pearl. She stands straight, tall. Pristine and perfect. Hair spiked, but groomed and carefully placed. There are no tear tracks. There are no signs of distress. Her voice is soft, pleasant. Not raw, grief-rent.

Emerald considers her, then glances down at the basin. She decides not to open the box in front of the Pearl. She looks back to see the Pearl's eyes somehow brighter and sharper.

"… There is something wrong. My ship has been damaged," her fingers ran over the grooves. Carved by fingers sharp as knives. "Go fetch something to burr these unsightly lines out."

The closest tool for this job would be in the hanger – the grinder used to burr out damage to shuttle hulls. It would have the Pearl going far away, and staying gone for long enough for Emerald.

A hand too soft to break anything lifts up a block of sandpaper excitedly. "I have this, my Emerald!"

Emerald glares, "So you have," she steps to the side, leaving the box where it is. "Correct the issue."

"With pleasure, my Emerald!" And she does, practically skipping.

With the basin returned to smooth grace, the Pearl stands aside proudly. As if showing it off.

The box is still in the basin, and Emerald reaches for it.

The Pearl stares, Emerald touches the basin's rim instead, inspecting the finish.

The Pearl stares, Emerald withdraws her hand, and looks at the Pearl.

The Pearl keeps looking at Emerald, and reluctantly, Emerald leaves the room with her trailing behind.

The box stays in the basin.

Emerald never sees it again.


<Delicate>​

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

Silence in the room. Hurry up and wait.

The sentiment persists even this far up the command chain, Emerald muses.

Backs rigid, bodyguards still.

Smile soft, the Pearl stiller.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

"… Dance for me." Stop staring at me.

"Of course my Emerald!" Immediate, without warning. Viridian dances as if she was merely waiting for Emerald. As if she could read Emerald perfectly.

(She couldn't, right?)

Pirouettes perfect and graceful, as if the Pearl was made to do this. Perhaps she was. Viridian's toes were outstretched, long slim legs balanced so precariously, but so precisely. They beat a rythmn in the ground as she moves. A shape traced by her dance.

The diamond.

She stops, spinning in place. Her arms, once pinned so close, stretch out wide. Slowing her speed until her motions could be seen for their precision. Her head rarely left the same direction. Facing Emerald even as her neck twisted. Until it could no longer twist more, and in a blur she rotated her head, until she faced Emerald again. Neck turned the other way, so she can face Emerald for longer.

Her arms return inwards, spin speeding up. But instead of returning to her chest they rise up high. Upper arm's sticking out straight, parallel to the floor. Her forearms aiming up, hands sharp as knives. Towards a point above her head.

The triangle.

Her routine changes again. The spinning stops. And in motions so fluid, as if any other Gem's proprioception would not have been shot, the Pearl, Viridian, started leaping. Delicate graceful leaps flowing into twirls and movement high and low. Somehow, a ribbon has started to trail after her hands. The fluttering flickering emerald green catching the eyes. Flying free and fast, and around and around Viridian's body.

A circle.

Emerald cannot help but see these symbols. Always in her dances. No matter how wild or flowerly or gentle or soft, no matter how varied. It always came down to those three symbols. Traced in her movements, her gestures, her actions.

Leap. Slide. Sway. Spin.

Diamond, triangle, circle.

Diamonds are the symbol of the patriot. The pinnacles of Gem society.

Triangles are the symbol of the pyramid. The greatest and most important are housed within.

Circles are symbols of nothing. Yet Viridian keeps making them. A motif clear to even the thickest Ruby.

Swoop. Dip. Ascend. Spin.

Those circles, always. Circles on circles on circles.

The guards stand rigid, seemingly uncaring of Viridian's grace. But Emerald can see the smiles. So can the Pearl. Some of those movements… Even though Viridian's gaze never left Emerald, her dance clearly was for them as well.

It ends. Emerald doesn't say anything, but points to her side.

Viridian returns. Perfect silence, perfect stance. Her gaze still on Emerald. Not judging, nor appraising. But not, not those.

She worries what she wants.


<Paradisaic>​

Madness is, perhaps, seeing what others do not.

The crew love the Pearl. They show it in the glances, the humming, how whenever Viridian is sent on some minor task, the Gems cannot help but help with as much fervour as they do Emerald.

Even worse, when the day of work is done, and her entourage is dismissed; the free Gems crowd around Viridian, and drag her out of Emerald's sight. They cannot seem to get enough of the Pearl, and wish to be with her even during off-time.

Far from Emerald's opinion, for when the Jaspers, rowdy in their Quarters, request that Viridian – Not Emerald's Pearl, but Viridian by name – participate in their weekly tournament, Emerald stamps her seal with vigour.

Well, Emerald says tournament. But really its a brawl club. A ring scratched into the floor. The lights above broken until only one spot-lights the rings. Two or more enter, one stays, the rest dragged out.

It is brutal, violent. Only the Jaspers's skill, and that weapons are forbade, ensure each gem is intact. Although, nearly none leave without some gouge or scratch in their hardlight flesh.

Viridian is returned with nary a scratch in her frame. The Jaspers grin and laugh.

And when Emerald passes them by in the corridor, just far enough ahead that any conversation between any one to any who can be ignored, the Jaspers talk.

They mock and jeer at Viridian, but they also mock and jeer each other so that means nothing.

What means more is how they touch Viridian. Arms over shoulder, claps on back, nods of respect and almost hugs.

What means more is what they say.

"Pearlie! Rematch when you can, 'key? I had you dead to rights and I tripped! I swear I'll give you a proper one next time, yeah?"

"Hey Twigs! You were right – she does think about me that way. Can't believe I was to dumb to realise myself!"

"Vers – next song you give, can you do that one about the moon and her love? It- I… I would like to hear it again okay?"

Next week, Emerald receives another request to have Viridian. She fears they are subverted.

(Viridian stares, and Emerald cannot find it in herself to say no.)


<Pearl>​

Gems do not need to eat or drink or sleep, true. But that merely makes the hydroponics abroad and the Quarries luxuries, instead of necessities. Some Emeralds, Emerald knows, rations their usage ruthlessly. The simple beds and hammocks and soft paddings of each Quarry strictly allotted to the high achievers every week. And a feast prepared for the Gem of honour of this or that skirmish.

Emerald thinks rather fairer, and allows her Gems a goodly six hours each day for Quarry use– eight, for the communal ones– and is always free with the choice fruits that flower.

This is because she herself enjoys them, and flagrantly so. Who was she to deny her crew the base pleasures she enjoys? Just the appearance of her personal Quarters alone should attest to that.

There is the soft bedding, Some wool-like material from avian life. With great plumes that trailed down and after them as they flew amongst the clouds. Camouflage, the Peridots say. Last Emerald checked, there remained a sizeable population on their home planet. Predicted to last until it dies.

There is also the gentle bed curtains, strung from above and cascading down. Silk from some strange organic beasts. Taller then man, many legged and many eyed. They made for good hunting, and their supply of silk made it so that the artisans and the sedate nobles pretending to be hunters clamoured for them. Well after the beasts home planet was drained worthless.

By the bed, a table. Holding a single silver platter. What once held soft-pink plant-flesh. Well. Until she finished it, and her Pearl disappeared the refuse away. Somehow, in the moments where Emerald was not looking.

There is also Viridian. Standing there. Just at the foot of the bed. Eyes bright and shining in the dark. Stare blatant against the back of Emeralds head.

She pulls the cover closer, tighter and deeper in.

Viridian was dismissed. Along with her bodyguards. They were to find amusement for themselves, somewhere else. While Emerald rests.

At some point, Viridian returned. Silent, and unnoticed until Emerald glanced to the left. And saw Viridian's blank shining eyes, ramrod straight against the wall.

Emerald shivered. The bed was too soft. It had a herbal scent to it. One that was pleasing to Emerald.

She did not apply it. No Peridot or Jasper or even the Pebbles would have done such a thing. Something so, so, luxurious. Only a Pearl would even consider. The frivolous things.

(When did she have the time to do it? Emerald made sure Viridian did not leave her side all day.)

(No creature can exist in two places at once.)

(She hopes.)

Viridian's eyes gleam in the dark, so dearly noticed and unwanted by Emerald.



Fin.
 
LOG-006.
So we got fanart, a fan song, multiple pages worth of discussion and a crazy sidestory from Emerald's perspective all in one go. Are y'all snorting crack? Can I have some?

LOG-006.

"Bring it on you clod!"

Time, I found, tended to pass much more quickly when one wasn't fearing for their life every second of every day. It also helped that time itself seemed to act a bit weird when travelling through Warp space, though that might have just been me not being used to the mode of faster than light travel.

Oh, I was more than well aware that I was still in a frankly heinous amount of danger if I dared risk a real slip up, but compared to the tender mercies and utterly exacting standards of the Reef, well...the Retaliator really didn't feel so terrible in the end. The trip through the Warp network had been brief, but during that time I'd hopefully cemented my status as the vessel's resident entertainment piece, alongside the one ensuring damn near every hallway was free of even the most minute specs of filth.

"Oof! Hey, no kicking!"

Becoming acquainted with most of the Gems on board hadn't been my intention when I'd poured my all into singing and dancing for the warship's captain, but I couldn't say I truly regretted it in the slightest. The two Citrines had listened in during one of my performances, and from there, the fact that there was apparently also a Pearl now on board, and the account of her ever so flawless singing voice had spread throughout the Retaliator like wildfire.

I'd expected a reprimand, my experience still raw from a certain Caretaker's general practices when it came to such things (and something deep inside of me shuddered in revulsion as I realised I'd grown accustomed to expecting punishment for something that was no fault of my own), or at least for the bodyguards to be told off in some way or form.

"No weapons! That's the only rule!"

Instead, I'd found myself being let loose by Emerald to mingle with the rest of the crew. Almost eagerly.

I'd nearly lost control of my lightform from sheer terror then and there, utterly horrified that the commanding Gem had already gotten sick of me, and that she'd soon demand a replacement.

My performances had, predictably, been greatly enhanced as a result. Survival was an excellent motivator, all things considered. I'd toured the very depths of the ship, dancing around Peridots (and eagerly watching and learning just how they kept some of the borderline magical looking technology that made up everything around us running), enthralling Ruby soldiers with simple stories that I made up practically on the spot each time, discussing the merits and nuances of exploring and settling organic worlds with Nephrite pilots, and singing various ballads for some of the Quartz elites on board.

"Alright, that's enough for both of you. Clear the ring!"

Like the Jaspers.

I liked the Jaspers, surprisingly enough.

Similar to the Ruby infantry below them, the shocktroopers were fairly blunt at times, and frighteningly honest about their feelings in the face of what I'd long since grown used to back during my training in the Reef. Compared to the technobabble of the Retaliator's technicians or the constant creeping feeling that Emerald was eyeing me up for Harvesting, the Jaspers were, in a word...human.

So painfully, horribly, beautifully human. If one ignored the fact that they were mass produced warriors, that is.

I dipped low, ending my brief demonstration of dance type seven, pattern two and finally finishing off the energetic hymn I'd been belting out as the brief bout between soldiers had progressed. The climax earned a few claps from the burly Gems around me, even as one of them let out a cheer from the prone position she'd taken up in her cubby, close up to the 'ceiling' of the barracks.

"Woo! Do the one about the Zircon next!"

Another soldier snuggled up next to her (my idle, vaguely teasing comment that they seemed to like being rather close to each other had resulted in something happening between the two, apparently) cuffed her over the head, before pointing at me.

"Nah! Let's have a rematch instead! I still haven't managed to catch you yet!"

Ah, the 'duels.'

At some point, one of the Jaspers (I was still learning each of their individual designators, but this one commonly went by the nickname Rush) had jokingly offered to 'fight' me.

I'd been high on the unique (in this life, had to remember that. Being able to speak to people without worrying about being used and abused was meant to be the norm damn it!) experience of having a group of individuals to talk to that weren't actively looking for ways to exploit me. I'd been stupid.

I'd jokingly accepted.

The mock battle had escalated after I'd managed to dodge a few incredibly light and halfhearted slaps. Then it had become a rather strange form of stalemate rather quickly. I couldn't quite figure out a way to truly harm her, not that I really wanted to in the first place. But neither could she actually get a hold of me. Apparently perfect balance and the ability to contort oneself into a variety of shapes and forms were useful for more than just dancing and looking pretty.

That first 'fight' had ended with the far larger Quartz finally growing impatient and lunging at me, only for a quick sidestep to end the entire thing with the shocktrooper unwittingly flinging herself out of the ring the lot of them had scratched onto the floor, and into a nearby cubby, to the raucous laughter of the rest of her unit.

I'd been worried about accidentally offending them all somehow. Instead, the fact that I was such a 'quick and nimble little thing' had drawn praise and what vaguely seemed to be disproportionate levels of affection from the lot, for some reason. After that, I'd gone from simply Pearl to Pearlie. Or Twigs. Or Skinny. Or sometimes, when they were all being especially earnest, Viridian. The fact that I still hadn't managed to figure out where they'd heard that particular name from bothered me, sometimes.

Still, it had almost felt like...friendship. And I'd even managed to go an entire cycle without needing to cry out my bubbled up emotions in an empty and unmonitored maintenance closet as a result of the positive mood I'd been left in afterwards. So...mental health win. Probably.

Dashing the internal deluge of thoughts aside, I bowed my head with an apologetic smile.

"I'm afraid my Emerald has ordered that I return to the bridge within the next cycle, so we'll just have to postpone your defeat for another time. I wouldn't want to be late to a direct summons from our admiral. after all."

A few disappointed groans answered the matter of fact statement, alongside a few jeers at my cocky promise.

The Jaspers liked cocky, though. So it was okay.

---

My first ever visit to Homeworld had initially proven itself to be important, if utterly uneventful on my end. I'd been left to stand around aboard the command bridge, quietly acting as a piece of living decoration even as Emerald had opened up a holo-call with the rest of her fleet, loitering in orbit of the massive, heavily scarred world they'd all tethered themselves to.

I'd silently marvelled at the sheer damage done to the planet, and wondered just what in the Stars the Diamonds could have done to result in a capital world being left in such a sorry state.

"All are present? Good, we can begin."

My attention shifted as my Emerald sat up straight in her throne, seeming utterly in her element now.

Good for her.

Most of the captains in charge of what I now knew to be the Fifty Fifth Lance Fleet's various ships were veteran Nephrites, though there had been a single Gem that I'd recognised as some sort of Agate in command of what I could only assume was a troop carrier of some kind.

At the very least, my position at the admiral's side had allowed me to glean just what exactly our new situation was.

"For a start, Incisor, Sentinel and Edge will be shuffled to the Blue regions effective immediately. Their own security vessels have been reporting more and more alien activity amidst the Saphiric route, and Yellow Diamond wants the potential hole closed up before some organic pirates or rogue Gems decide it can be exploited somehow."

Namely, that we were being split up. Massive military fleets were needed for wars, and Homeworld hadn't faced a major conflict of any sort that wasn't larger than a very brief skirmish since the Rose Quartz rebellion. Now the name of the game was exploration and evaluation of potential new colony worlds and the protection of supply lanes from the various marauding FTL capable species that could be found on the very fringes of Imperial space.

And so, I watched on as one of Homeworld's largest war fleets were effectively sliced apart, with Emerald assigning each separate ship their own sectors of space to explore, or patrol and protect, as needed.

My personal contribution to the whole thing had been stepping forward and posing cutely when one of the Nephrites had let loose a short bark of a laugh.

"Finally got that Pearl for yourself, huh admiral? She looks nice!"

Hmph, I look exquisite, thank you very much!

---

"We're going to be attending an audience with my Diamond."

My metaphorical heart leapt into my throat at the last word, even as I slowly, ever so slowly, turned to look at my Emerald, the commanding officer still lounging around in her throne, even after the holographic meeting had long since ended.

"Y-yellow Diamond, my Emerald?"

Sharp eyes turned towards me, and I held back a cry of despair at the green Gem's firm nod.

"Correct. I am to recieve my new standing orders now that I've dispatched the Fifty Fifth."

She tilted her head slightly, humming a tune I recognised from one of the many songs I'd performed aboard the bridge.

"Direct meetings like this only happen every few thousand cycles. I know this is your first time ever visiting Homeworld, but I expect you to be on your absolute best behaviour regardless, understood?"

I wanted to fucking scream.


Instead, I just bowed deeply, a wide smile stretching across my face.

"Why as a matter of course, my Emerald! Should I help prepare you for the meeting? Would you prefer your hair done up in a different style? Oh! Or would you like me to retrieve some of the perfumes from storage?"

The admiral let out a soft sigh, before shaking her head.

"That won't be necessary, Viri-Pearl. Just keep on as you always do."

In my absolute haste to bow even deeper to the admiral, I failed to notice the out of character slip up until much, much later.
 
Last edited:
LOG-007.
Was listening to this while writing up the chapter and thinking of how seeing Homeworld for the first time would feel.

LOG-007.

The transport shuttle that had once acted as my salvation now felt like a cage, even as I watched through the viewport as the towering golden spires of the Yellow district came ever closer, the distant form of the Retaliator slowly shrinking in size behind us.

Homeworld, despite its utterly ravaged appearance at a first glance, actually went about its existence as an ecumenopolis. In layman's terms, it meant that the entire planet was covered up by one absolutely gigantic city. And it kind of had to be like that, considering the place acted as the central hub and capital world of an entire interstellar empire.

It was beautiful, admittedly. Nothing I'd ever experienced, in either of my lives, could ever truly compare to the sight.

Still didn't make me feel much better about having to be anywhere near the place, though.

The capital's general geography had been included in the lesson plans back at the Reef, thus I at least had a basic sense of just where we were going. Though the city spanned the entire world, it was still organised into four distinct districts.

You could take a wild guess as to just how said districts were divied up. One was dedicated for each Diamond, obviously. With the shattered Pink Diamond's territory generally running mostly autonomously, from what my old Caretaker had explained during my private education.

"Preparing to land, my Emerald!"

The Nephrite pilot's declaration was punctuated by the feeling of our ride finally breaching what tiny bit of atmosphere the ecumenopolis still had. Then we were darting into practically incomprehensible lanes of flying traffic, nestled amongst titanic cargo ships, sleek two Gem skycars, and just about everything in between those two extremes.

The ride mostly passed in silence. Right up until it didn't. As if reacting to some unseen signal, my Emerald sat up, staring out one of the viewports.

"There, take us in to that secondary Warp junction. We can make it to the palace using a free pad."

I continued to softly hum a melodic tune as we began a landing sequence, even as my mind whirled with what if scenarios, each more terrible than the last.

---

Warp junctions were...interesting. I could vaguely remember how Warp pads worked from the show, and some of my lessons at the Reef had helped fill me in on the rest. Junctions, it seemed, were a massive congregation of hundreds of such pads, with each crystaline circle constantly recieving or spitting out at least a dozen individuals at a time. All around the area, however, was a new type of Gem I didn't recognize. Mostly notable due to the fact that they were apparently out in force today.

"Identification and purpose of visit to this junction."

We'd been confronted by a pair of those pale yellow Gems almost immediately upon exiting the shuttle, with several more of them seemingly loitering nearby.

Their bodyplan almost reflected that of a Quartz. Almost. Their limbs were just as thick, but their torsos and connecting hips were quite literally the shape of an hourglass, and the identical triangular hairstyles they all sported repeatedly drilled into my head that no matter how human some Gem types may appear or even act, there would always be others ready to put my hopes back in the dirt, reminding me that I was trapped within an inherently alien empire.

An angular visor, almost like that of a Peridot, completed whatever look they were going for, even as dark eyes swivelled to take our small group in.

"Emerald Facet 2M7G, cut 8XS. Fleet admiral with direct orders to answer a summons from Yellow Diamond herself."

One of the Peridots that had come along with us brushed past me, holding up a limb enhancer shifted into a screen for one of the guards (I didn't rightfully know what else to call them, really) to inspect. Said guard's eyes widened seconds later, before the Gem bowed her head and gestured to one of the unoccupied Warp pads.

"My apologies for the delay, admiral. Please, proceed."

I resisted the urge to stare behind us as we passed the pair of enforcers, only for Emerald's voice to draw me back to reality.

"Those were Sphenes. They're a rather recent development, so am I safe to assume you weren't informed about them back during your training?"

Shaking my head apologetically, I kept careful pace with the Emerald, even as the two technicians closed ranks behind us, presumably staying to keep an eye on the transport.

"I'm afraid not, my Emerald. What are they?"

As we both walked up onto the Warp pad, my master let out a slight hum.

"Law enforcement, from what I understand. Much cheaper to make compared to your average Quartz, if not as powerful. I personally don't see the point of them, but then again I'm not exactly a Diamond, now am I? They serve whatever purpose is relevant, I suppose."

Any response I might have made was put on hold as we were both engulfed by light, and promptly shunted into the Warp.

The dimension that allowed the Gem empire to trivialise travelling...just about anywhere really, tended to be empty of everything but light and the occasional shadow when one was passing through it. Though to be fair my sole experience with it had been on a starship in the depths of space, so maybe that was a given.

The Warp on Homeworld was rather busy in comparison. I could practically see the tunnels being formed by other pads, distant figures travelling through them at speeds almost too quick to catch. Our own trip lasted less than a minute, before we were stepping off yet another Warp pad, this one inside of some kind of massive chamber.

The golden Gems here were ones I recognised. Topaz. Two utterly hulking warriors, each wielding an axe larger than my entire body. The only feature that allowed me to tell the two apart was that one had their gemstone situated in the dead center of their chest, while the other was similar to me, their own shiny rock just about where a human bellybutton might be.

Behind them laid a pair of big ass doors, the rather distinctive mural of a Diamond emblazoned upon them.

I'd expected words of some kind. Maybe another demand for identification, but the duo barely glanced at Emerald before turning to shove the gargantuan doors they were guarding wide open.

Then we were moving once more, this time through a long, almost barren hallway. Towards our ultimate destination, presumably.

Fun. Not.

Utterly terrifying, more like.

---

She was monolithic.

That was the only real way I could describe the being known as Yellow Diamond. Perhaps a native Gem, long since taken in by all the propaganda and indoctrination, would have used other words. Majestic. Incandescent. Glorious. All viable options to be sure.

But to me, the supreme commander of a vast majority of the Imperial army and navy was rigid. Uncompromising. Merely following my Emerald into the large, throne/office the Diamond had chosen to host this meeting in had felt like walking into a room full of electrically charged air.

Then the gigantic woman had turned a pair of hyperfocused eyes towards us, and I had damn near buckled. Thankfully, survival instincts had won out over sheer lightform glitching fear, and my arms had damn near snapped into the ever distinct Diamond salute, even faster than Emerald's could.

I remained silent as the admiral took the lead, stepping forward and taking a knee, her head bowed. I followed suit, as a matter of course.

"My Diamond. I arrive as requested, and await your commands."

A hum left the giant's throat, her eyes roving over Emerald before suddenly darting towards me.

I prayed to God. To the Stars. To fucking White Diamond, if need be, that her militaristic counterpart would not somehow find me wanting. That she would not immediately suss out that I was wrong.

Whoever was listening answered, apparently, and the very edge of her lip quirked ever so slightly upwards.

"Finally got yourself a Pearl I see. Good."

I remained statue still, even as the Diamond beckoned my master forward. Soon enough, the two were discussing something. I heard mention of trade routes, potential colonies, and something about a research post. Anything else flew over my head considering I was far more occupied by the slowly approaching form of yet another yellow Gem, this one having turned the corner from somewhere beneath the Diamond's desk.

She was a Pearl. A Diamond's Pearl, to be more specific.

I didn't know what to do as the servant Gem finally came to a halt just a few feet away from me, eyes roving over my form in a parody to that of the Goddess behind her. Almost instinctively, the tips of my fingers began to twitch from their position maintaining the Diamond salute. I didn't know what else to do.

'Hello.'

The simple greeting drew a quirked brow from the yellow Pearl.

Then she waved me off, letting loose a snort that almost had me gasping from just how inappropriate it fucking was, if it weren't for the fact that sucking in air while in the presence of a Diamond would, without a doubt, be even worse.

Seriously, what the fuck!? How could she just ignore the literal titan sitting in the corner!?

"Relax with the sign language. My Diamond doesn't mind us interacting while she deals with your owner."

Her voice was more nasally in comparison to mine. Her head more round. Shit, even her lightform seemed just a little more...well made. For just a singular instance, I felt the familiar yet somehow unfamiliar pangs of jealousy. Then I managed to identify the utterly stupid emotion and mentally stomped it out in its entirety.

A delicate hand gently brushed against the very tips of my dress.

"Hm, I see the Nacres' tastes are ever evolving. Very heavy on the simulated fabric."

In the world outside of my own head, my arms slowly dropped to my sides. Then I did what I hoped was correct.

A light curtsy. Type one, pattern one. Bow the head. Nice and subservient. She was the bigger Pearl around these parts, and I'd be damned if I didn't let everyone present know that I knew my fucking place in comparison.

"It's a pleasure to meet you, and an honour to stand within the same space as our Diamond."

A moment passed, even as I slowly raised my head.

Did I fuck up? I'd fucked up, hadn't I? Maybe I just shouldn't have said anythi-

"Hmph. Good to see that at least some of you Era Two Pearls still have basic manners. Come on, we can take some time to relax while my Diamond settles things with your Emerald."

Then the yellow Pearl was walking away, off towards another section of the gargantuan chamber that probably just felt like a roomy study for its equally large owner.

Hesitantly (and bloody well dreading the figurative minefield I was about to step into), I followed.
 
Last edited:
LOG-008.
If Viridian ever came to life she'd strangle me I think.

LOG-008.

I want to leave I want to go home this fucking sucks and I'd like to cry a little can I please-

"So, what's the Reef like these days? The last time I was there was, oh...sometime near the end of Era One? Any significant alterations since then?"

I smiled gently at Yellow Pearl's (what else was I supposed to call her? She had no number!) question, even as we remained seated atop what I assumed was some kind of Diamond sized table, next to several expansive diagrams that I had to physically resist the urge to look at.

Seriously, there'd even been a small (to a Diamond, anyway) staircase to allow us to climb up to the surface. If I wasn't actively doing my best to maintain an exterior veneer of functionality, I'd probably risk a laugh.

"I'm afraid I'm not quite sure where to begin. I can only assume there have been changes."

The golden Gem hummed in response to my not quite answer, tilting her head slightly. In the brief silence, I carefully listened to Emerald and our Diamond discussing something regarding a lost starship.

"Ah, are the Nacres still the same?"

I blinked.

"Extremely strict and unforgiving of failure?"

Yellow nodded. "Yes. Do they still lock troublemakers away for a few cycles?"

Pausing, I slowly shook my head. I couldn't remember any of my Batch ever being put into 'timeout', so to speak.

"Not...quite. Generally anyone who fails to meet expectations is beaten back into proper shape and compliance. If that doesn't work, there's always Rejuvenation. One of the Pearls in my Batch got hit with it, came back much more receptive to training afterwards."

A moment passed.

Then two. Part of me panicked a bit more than the rest, since clearly I'd said something wrong judging by my fellow Pearl's wide eyes.

"Pearls don't fail a Nacre's expectations. Beatings? And Rejuvenation? In the middle of...training?"

I hesitated for less than a second, before nodding.

"Yes? Was it different for you?"

She merely huffed, as if my own question was out of line. Maybe it was.

Or maybe, cooped up as she was with her Diamond for her entire life, Yellow Pearl couldn't quite grasp that the outside world could and generally would change, with or without anyone's input.

"W-well of course! No Pearl would require a physical lesson, for one! Not while they're still inside of the Reef at least! And getting their memories erased! Like some common criminal! Just how bad has it gotten in there that such measures need to be implemented? You're talking as if you were brought up in some secondary or even tertiary facility, where's the quality control?!"

Weakly, I raised a finger.

"Ah...from what I understand from my time there, that is the quality control? I never experienced any of it myself, but I saw it happen to some of my Batchmates more than a few times. Nacre Three, our Caretaker, tended to give out physical punishments more often than not."

Mostly cause she was a massive fucking neurotic bitch clod pebble whore of a Gem, though that part went unsaid, for rather obvious reasons.

Regardless of my own inner complaining, the statement prompted what almost sounded like a deeply disgusted sigh from the Pearl, even as she brought a hand up to cradle her head in a show of exhaustion.

"Ugh, nearly everything's gotten worse because of that stupid Quartz and her 'rebellion.' It's just ridiculous-"

The building tirade was cut off by a single word.

"Pearl."

I kept quiet, even as I mirrored the pose of my yellow counterpart, both of us turning and saluting as the Diamond in the room glanced at us from her work space.

Back to business, then.

"Yes, my Diamond?"

Golden eyes that almost seemed to glow with power panned across both of us for a moment, before the supreme commander tilted her head towards a patiently waiting Emerald.

"The admiral has her new orders. Upload any relevant technical details to a disposable datapad and give it to her Pearl. This meeting is over."

Oh thank the Stars.

---

The trip out of Yellow Diamond's palace was a weight off my shoulders, mostly because I had somehow managed to maintain my composure throughout the entire experience. Or at least, I assumed I had. I wasn't being dragged away for harvesting, after all. Instead, I merely followed my Emerald through some kind of massive central plaza type area, with intersecting 'highways' allowing the seemingly infinite crowds of Gems passing through it to go in just about any direction they wanted.

My eyes idly took in what I could only presume was some kind of shop, advertising accessories for Pearls including lightform adjusters, ribbon wands and even physical appearance modifiers. Fancy.

Thankfully for our time and possibly sanity, my Emerald didn't spare any of the shops and services all around us so much as a glance, instead just resolutely marching towards what seemed to be an entirely different Warp junction to the one we'd previously taken.

Maybe the other one was at capacity or something?

Meh.

My thoughts abruptly turned away from my environment, towards details more relevant to me. Namely like the shiny new object stashed within my gemstone.

The datapad I now carried was a small, sleek thing that had been almost lemon like in colour when I'd first recieved it.

It was also redundant, but telling off Yellow fucking Diamond wasn't exactly on my list of priorities. Maybe she knew I could memorize the exact details of our new mission perfectly. Maybe she didn't. Not my problem or even remote responsibility to bring up and question, not at all. It just meant that the small collection of perfumes, pillows and other utterly redundant datapads all stored in my gemstone now had company that wasn't the aftermath of a shattering. Fun.

The task written and stored on the device itself was simultaneously the best and worst thing I could have ever asked for. We were being sent on a search and retrieve mission for a specialised transport vessel that had been lost somewhere near the very fringes of the Gem empire, far, far away from the Great Diamond Authority and all of Homeworld. Which was great.

What had me wary was the fact that well armed and armoured interstellar cargo freighters didn't just go missing for no reason. It could be anything from insane organic space pirates, to rogue, defective Gem rebels (one could only hope they'd take pity on a Pearl like myself should we ever encounter them), to even just extremely hostile conditions in whatever system they'd ended up stranding themselves in, and we were being deployed to find the poor schmucks because of fucking course we were.

Worst of all, the fleet vessels of the Fifty Fifth Lance wouldn't be joining us, considering they'd all already received their new standing orders and were likely already either Warping away from Homeworld or actively preparing to do so. At best my Emerald would maybe be able to conscript a spare handship or two to tag along with us, since we were operating directly under a Diamond's authority. Maybe even one of the garrison destroyers loitering around in orbit all the time.

"You, the admiral!"

My thoughts halted as a strangely familiar voice called out for my owner's attention right before she could approach one of the local Sphenes for identification. Turning revealed a...surprising sight, to say the very least.

Though the brightly dressed figure of a certain Sodalite likely would have taken up the average Gem's attention, my eyes instead focused on the battered looking crimson form of the Pearl walking behind her, the servant seemingly doing her best impression of a rather viciously kicked dog.

Sixteen A looked...rough. To say the very least. Even as our respective masters both strode up to each other, her eyes remained rooted on the ground, right up until her Sodalite spoke.

"Ah, I see you're making good use of your own Pearl. I can only hope she's performed better than the pitiful excuse mine has proven herself to be."

The red Gem at her side ducked her head even further.

Oh Stars. Don't fucking tear up, you idiotic clod! You're supposed to do that in private!

"Viridian...that is my Pearl, has been functioning as advertised, yes. Your one...hasn't?"

Sodalite's scoff could have made a Quartz shocktrooper back down in shame, even as one hand almost idly slapped the back of Sixteen A's head, prompting a whimper from the Pearl in question.

"Oh, a pet name, delightful! And yes, she's just utterly useless. Always around when she's not wanted, and never when she is! Ugh, and her colour. I don't know what I was thinking when I made the order! Maybe I should have gotten a green one like yours..."

I smiled politely as the blue Gem's massive eye trailed over my lightform. I didn't bow, however.

Bowing was for Emerald and those higher ranked than Emerald, and no one else.

"...I don't suppose I could convince you to trade, could I?"

...

The fucking audacity of this bitch-

My owner shook her head slightly, even as I raged and wailed on the inside.

"I'm afraid not. I'm more than satisfied with my Pearl's performance, and you haven't exactly sold me on your own."

Sodalite nodded sadly, as if admitting defeat.

"No, no I suppose I haven't. Though, perhaps I could make you an alternative offer?"

Screw it. If she tried to buy me I'd bring out the limb enhancers. How hard could it be to activate some kind of offensive system?

"Oh?"

The cycloptic aristocrat smiled, shoving Sixteen A forward.

"Take her off my hands, would you? I know it's not exactly the most traditional property transfer, but it would be much less hassle on my end compared to going through the entire legal process of Decommissiong an unwanted Pearl."

I stared. Emerald also stared. Sixteen A held back another whimper and Sodalite grinned.

"Really. I'd consider it a favour!"

---

The familiar halls of the Retaliator would have proven a welcome sight. And they did.

The only difference was that I now had an unwanted tagalong tailing behind me, even as I tailed behind my...our owner.

"Viridian?"

I stopped, feeling a body near identical to my own bump into my back with a startled gasp just as Emerald turned from her position next to the entrance of the bridge.

"Yes, my Emerald?"

The large Gem stared at me for a moment, before waving a hand.

"Get your fellow Pearl situated. Come join me when you're done."

I nodded graciously, as a matter of course.

"Yes, my Emerald."

---

The swish of the storage closet door closing behind us was almost immediately followed by babbling.

"I-I'm sorry! I just-she was never happy with me and I tried so hard but she would just hit me l-like Nacre Three and I'd-"

My hand clamped over my red counterpart's mouth, even as I sighed the sigh of someone who was not at all being paid for this shit. Mostly because I wasn't. Pearls didn't have a salary, being slaves and all.

"Shush."

The feeling of Sixteen A's lips opening and closing prompted me to tighten my grip, before the other servant finally got the hint and shut her mouth.

Bringing my other hand up, I pinched the bridge of my nose in a second of silent suffering, before slowly nodding.

"Alright. We're doing this and I don't really have a choice in the matter so, welcome to Viridian's tips and tricks for not getting Decommisioned. Ready?"

She stared for a moment, before her eyes widened and she began nodding rapidly.

I pursed my lips, even as I brought my hands together in a brief clap.

"Good. Tip one, and something you need to learn immediately, judging from what I saw back in the plaza, is actually rather simple."

Sixteen A's already wide eyes somehow managed to enlarge even further as big, fat ugly globs of water began to stream down my cheeks, even as I let loose a small sniffle that quickly morphed into a full on sob.

"Y-you're only allowed to c-cry when you're sure no one's looking, o-okay?"
 
Sixteen A: A Dance of Disappointment. (By Glazt.)
Inspired by, obviously, Spyder's story, but also Brain Power's Sixteen A asides. While Veridian has a wider breadth of knowledge due to SI, regular Pearls don't, right? Must be rough. It starts from the beginning. :3c

---

Sixteen A: A Dance of Disappointment

"Again."

It was not a request, not a command, not a suggestion, nor even an order. That one word was totality, fact written upon existence that could not be denied, not in body and certainly not in thought.

The Pearl known as Sixteen A flinched as her Caretaker spoke writ upon the universe with a single utterance and a disdainful stare. Nachre Three stood upon her small dais that overlooked the Batch of Pearls she was training, cold eyes disinterestedly watching them all dance.

It was a recent change, that look, and one that terrified Batch Sixteen.

They resumed their dance lessons, moving with exacting rhythm and the dexterous grace that Nachre Three expected of them… or at least they tried.

Sixteen D, a mocha colored pearl with fluffy hair that oftened argued with Sixteen A, missed a beat. A small mistake that caused her to lose synchrony with the rest of them, and that single misstep caused Sixteen J's eyes to linger long enough to have her shoulder bump Sixteen E's outstretched hand.

Sixteen A and the rest kept dancing despite three of them now out of order, but every single one of them knew what was about to happen.

Nachre Three raised a hand elegantly and snapped her fingers, the sound echoing throughout the training chamber.

At once all the Pearls stopped their dance and fell into their specific standby stance for awaiting orders from a superior Gem who had just commanded them to stop due to a fault or error having occurred (type six, pattern four). Twenty five Pearl's formed a single line of bodies as Nachre Three stepped down from her dais.

Her gaze fell upon Sixteen A as the first in the line, and that pressure had tears threatening to spill out and the desire to grovel at the feet of her Caretaker while asking for forgiveness. However, a Pearl did not grovel, did not beg, and did not ask for forgiveness. That wasn't something Pearls did, because that implied they had made mistakes.

Nachre Three's eyes left Sixteen A without a word as her Caretaker walked down the line of Pearls before she passed by Sixteen D. "Step forward."

Sixteen D's expression was a smile and loyal, but the tremble in her hands and the arching of her shoulders quite literally screamed in the unspoken language of the Pearls 'I'm scared, what do I do, please not again!'.

It was a plea that every other Pearl heard as Nachre Three's hand fell on top of Sixteen D's shoulder, sharp fingers digging into her body that had Sixteen D cry out in anguish. "Your steps were off angle by three degrees on section three and your spin lasted too long on section six. Do not repeat these mistakes."

Nachre Three released her grip of Sixteen D's shoulder, and Sixteen A couldn't hold back her terrified flinch at seeing jagged holes Sixteen D's lightform! Yet, their cold hearted Caretaker marched further down the line before stopping in front of Sixteen J. "Step forward."

Sixteen A averted her gaze as a similar scene repeated itself, but it was just another training routine for Batch Sixteen. Nothing out of the ordinary, not the mistakes, not the punishments, except for a single fact that had changed everything.

Veridian, the Pearl also known as Sixteen B, had vanished.

Their example of perfection, the Pearl who Sixteen A and so many others looked to in order to learn how to perform their duties perfectly, or at least well enough that Nachre Three didn't physically punish them to the point where their lightforms began the first stages of destabilizing.

It had happened… seventeen training sessions ago or so, Veridian, the actually perfect example of a Pearl for Sixteen A had never witnessed her failing a single time, had performed everything from song to dance to grace and posture training perfectly upon her first try, was gone.

And Nachre Three's mood had soured entirely whenever she trained Batch Sixteen. At least before, her Caretaker had taken time to correct their mistakes and was slower to punish them, or told them to follow Sixteen B's example of perfection.

Nachre Three had, at least, smiled in their presence.

"Return to your chamber, I have actual business to attend to," said Nachre Three with clear dismissal.

The Pearls of Batch Sixteen responded in unison, "Yes, my Caretaker!"

They formed their line with Sixteen A at the head and walked with trained grace and elegance back to their rest chamber, all piling in and then shutting the door to secure them from the outside world, or at the very least, from their Caretaker.

Almost immediately Sixteen C, V, and J fell upon D in a form of solidarity. They were, however undeservedly, recognized by Sixteen B. Ever since their flawless Batchmate's disappearance however, their group was now the most often to cause mistakes or mishaps.

Losing Sixteen B, Veridian, as a role model had crushed them the most, but it had impacted their entire Batch.

'Are you okay?'

"Cheer up!'

'Today wasn't that bad.'

'Not even sent to Corrections.'

'I miss Veridian.'

'She's dead.'


While they spoke aloud often enough, times like this where they were sent back from training due Nachre Three's disappointed dismissal the room was silent and loud with their Pearl Language, a silent body language that was as easy as speaking aloud.

Except every other Pearl froze and stared at Sixteen A.

"She's not dead," said Sixteen D who was clutching her damaged shoulder. Lightform bodies repaired over time as their real bodies were their gems, so she would be back in top shape by their next training session.

"She can't be," said Sixteen E who had narrowly escaped punishment and only got a slight warning on paying attention to those around her.

"But she's gone!" said Sixteen A as the tears finally spilled out. "And Nachre Three hates us. We aren't good enough, not like Veridian was."

"Maybe she got reassigned?" offered Sixteen J, but nobody took her seriously. She had been strange since she got Rejuvenated, and a clear example of what happens when Nachre Three no longer corrected your mistakes, punishment or not.

Sixteen M, a dusky yellow Pearl with her gem set in her collarbone, grimaced. "If even Veridian could be… could be reprocessed, what hope do we all have? I still struggle on singing and posture stance timing, and Sixteen E forgot her entire story recital, so what could Veridian have done to have Nachre Three destroy her?"

"I didn't forget, I just couldn't think of which story would impress our Caretaker the most," argued Sixteen E.

"...I don't know," said Sixteen A, and that sentiment was clearly shared amongst their entire Batch. If the flawless, perfect Veridian, Nachre Three's favorite pearl, could be Harvested for failure, just what was that failure?

Nobody could even guess, for even trying to escape only resulted in Rejuvenation.

It didn't stop them from speculating, however, and the grimness of the subject had them wary of what mistakes or failures to not do.

— — — — —

Time passed, a lot of it. Training was as difficult as ever as they began more complex topics such as basic political arrangements. Oh, not the politics themselves, but how to conduct themselves or serve their owners within political meetings. What gems required what level of subservience and the common ways to appease or delight said gems for their owner.

But said training had become… delayed? Sixteen A hadn't the word for it, but ever since Veridian had disappeared, their training sessions slowly grew more sparse until they actually spent more time in their group rest chambers than they did training halls by a large factor!

So, being Pearls who were afraid that the lack of training would end up with their gems shattered and harvested as their owners became dissatisfied with their expertise, they tried to train amongst themselves. Share the knowledge, tips, and tricks they had learned, or revisit old lessons.

Sixteen A was the best at vocal attuning, how to best make her voice pleasing and enjoyable to hear amongst a wide set of ranges. It did help with her singing, but only in the sense of the variety of styles she should sing. Sixteen D was actually the best of their Batch at singing, while Sixteen M was the best at dancing.

Any Pearl that was the collectively agreed 'best' at something was the one to help coach each other. It was strange, that before they would bicker and fight constantly, try to one-up each other to seek Nachre Three's approval, but not just their Caretaker's, but also Sixteen B's approval.

…The loss of Sixteen B, Veridian, had devastated their Batch. Their Caretaker's decreasing care to schedule their training, and half the time she didn't even show up, simply gave them orders via hologram or a recording.

Yes, they still fought and bickered amongst each other, but they always tried to pick up one another so that they never had to experience another Pearl possibly disappearing in the way Veridian had.

They all still agreed that however skilled a Pearl might be at a skill, they still never matched up to Veridian.

But they tried, if only for themselves and that maybe, maybe, their Caretaker would look upon them once again with a smile, to say words of encouragement or praise which none of Batch Sixteen had heard in…. Well, since Veridian had vanished.

Time passed, and passed, before the day of graduation arrived.

The day in which they would finally meet their owners, finally leave the Reef, and be a true Pearl.

They had all lined up, from A to Z, however there was a hole that they refused to fill, no matter what the Caretakers thought. A small, tiny act of… something amongst Batch Sixteen, and none of the overseeing Nachres commented on it.

No matter what had happened, Sixteen B had been the best of them, the Pearl of perfection amongst Batch Sixteen, and she deserved to be here when they all became true Pearls for their owners, even if only in absence.

Except… as Sixteen A stood there amongst her Batchmates in the huge spaceship hangar, the row of colorful Pearls awaiting their respective owner's arrival, they all noticed a particular green Pearl approaching alongside Nachre Three.

How?

Why?

Veridian took her spot between Sixteen A and Sixteen C.

'You're alive.' A simple twitch of Sixteen A's fingers, with just the right amount of speed to indicate a statement and not a question, because it was not a question of Batch Sixteen's greatest Pearl returning to them.

Veridian dipped her head a miniscule amount. 'Yes.'

If… if Veridian had been alive this whole time, if Nachre Three walking alongside her had told Sixteen A anything, it was that… They had been abandoned. Not wholly, but Nachre Three had given up on all of Batch Sixteen save one, relinquished time to train a Batch in order to polish Veridian to perfection

It hurt, knowing that she would never reach such grace and flawless skill that Veridian would exemplify. Not because Sixteen A wasn't good enough, she knew that Veridian was simply better than her in literally every way, that was a fact of life, but because their Caretaker hadn't cared enough to try and let her become the flawless Pearl Sixteen A wanted to be.

The ships arrived carrying their new owners, and Sixteen A had the privilege to be the first.

Nachre Three had given some speech about how they had been taught and trained, but a small part of Sixteen A's mind was terrified because they hadn't. Not to any level of which they wanted to be!

But they were trained enough to not let any worry show on their faces as the first ship descended. Their owners descended from their ships that parked in the hangar and formed their own line up mirroring Batch Sixteen.

Nachre One, the lead Caretaker, announced, "Presenting Pearl Sixteen A, to be transferred to the immediate and indefinite ownership of the honorable Sodalite, facet 3U9R, cut 6XP."

Her new owner was as large as Nachre Three, but bulkier with a lightform of a rich, dark blue and a single eye settled in a bored, condescending gaze that watched Sixteen A step forward and bow.

"It is my pleasure and honor to serve you, my Sodalite."

Her Sodalite accepted her greeting with a disdainful sniff, but still beckoned Sixteen A to her side! She was overjoyed that her new owner at least acknowledged her enough to let her stand beside her, two steps behind, just enough that it was showing subservience but also off to the side where a turn of the head could place Sixteen A within her owner's sight.

The proceedings continued with Veridian's being the strangest as Nachre Three interrupted Nachre One's procession, but that was expected by the Pearls of Batch Sixteen. Crazy as it was for their Caretaker to break protocol, it was also expected because of how perfect Veridian was and how devoted to her upbringing Nachre Three was.

No other Pearl got similar treatment once Viridian was taken by her Emerald and they left the proceedings early.

Sixteen A and her Sodalite stayed for the entire thing, with her Sodalite watching banefully as the other gems received their Pearls. "It's pathetic as to what types of gems are allowed to own a Pearl nowadays."

This was not a question or statement she should comment on, so Sixteen A stayed silent.

Her Sodalite's frown turned to a grimace for a second as they watched Sixteen M get taken. "An Onyx? They're barely worth an Agate's status. What is this Era coming to."

Sixteen A still stayed silent.

All the way until Sixteen Z was received, they watched and when it was over, Sodalite turned and returned to her ship. It took a moment for Sixteen A to realize they were leaving without her Sodalite giving a single word to any of the Nachre's, but she hurried along to keep up with her Sodalite.

The difference in stride where Sixteen A had to step three times, all while maintaining the subdued, yet proud posture of an attendant (type eleven, pattern three), to each of Sodalite's single steps.

Finally, finally, Sixteen A could be a true Pearl. She would miss her Batchmates, and the relief of knowing that Veridian wasn't shattered and harvested for some imagined failure kept her hopeful. Of what, she wasn't sure, but she would strive to be the best Pearl that her Sodalite had and would ever own.

— — — — —

"Dance with me," stated her Sodalite.

It had been roughly eleven imperial cycles, or days measured according to Homeworld's calendar, since she had been officially owned by her Sodalite, and Sixteen A had plenty of opportunities to display her abilities as a Pearl.

…Yet, her Sodalite was dissatisfied with each one of them. Sixteen A's songs brought no smile to her Sodalite's face, her stories and jokes she told, as per the Reef's training that were acceptable to tell a Sodalite or gem of her owner's status, brought no laughs, and her service in any menial task brought no comfort.

But her dancing, arguably the skill she was least talented in, was what her Sodalite focused on.

Not dances for amusement or joy or entertainment, not for spectacle or rhythm, but… Sixteen A didn't know, actually, why her Sodalite focused on it. And Sixteen A didn't understand why her Sodalite wished to join her in dancing.

It was so irregular and frightening, being in close contact with a gem of her Sodalite's status, that the very thought of making a mistake during a dance filled Sixteen A with such fear that she thought her lightform was having a hysteric reaction. Those large, thick hands grasping her own so tightly, that singular baleful eye gazing down on Sixteen A as her Sodalite guided her through a dance Sixteen A did not know.

Because for all that she and her Batchmates trained, they never had a class where a Pearl danced with a partner. It simply wasn't done. Her Sodalite knew that too, which was why they were dancing in her Sodalite's private chamber upon the orbiting station above Homeworld. No other gems to witness it, nobody except Sixteen A and her Sodalite.

And it was the only thing they did, every day, after her Sodalite returned from her work, whatever it may be. Sixteen A thought that, as her Sodalite's personal Pearl, she would accompany her wherever she went, and at first this was true.

Except, as those initial days passed, she found herself awaiting her Sodalite inside her private chambers more and more until the eighth cycle. Her Sodalite had gazed down upon her, snorted, and said, "No, you're staying here from now on."

"B-But, my Sodalite, I am—"

"My Pearl, yes, and I said, stay here."

That was the end of that. Sixteen A stood in the passive standby stance that told onlookers she was following orders (type seven pattern five). Until her Sodalite returned and demanded they dance. Not 'her', but 'they'.

Leading to the situation now, where her Sodalite was guiding her in an unknown dance. Despite coming to understand that her Sodalite was proud, noble, and a pristine example of her gem caste, and fully aware of her own status as a Pearl, Sixteen A didn't understand and didn't have the training to understand why.

Big, strong hands were squeezing Sixteen A's hands as the pace picked up, and there was something in her Sodalite's baleful gaze, something searching and expectant, that when Sixteen A failed at whatever it was, those hands crushed her thin, fragile Pearl hands.

Sixteen A bit back a scream, but it was so similar to another familiar hand, except so different. Not a sharp claw that dug in, but instead a thick palm of rigid strength. It was not what she imagined the kind of brutish power a Quartz could put out, but any regal gem had something more than Sixteen A, of a fragile Pearl.

Sodalite dropped her to the ground, and it was with a burning shame that Sixteen A had to scramble to stand up, although with her mangled hands she couldn't hold them correctly according to her trained forms. Sodalite sniffed haughtily, "So weak, are you Pearls really even a Gem?"

Sixteen A had no idea how to properly respond to that line of inquiry, so while the tears beaded traitorously in her eyes, she said, "I am your Pearl, my Sodalite."

Sodalite smirked. "So you are."

— — — — —

Cycles passed, over and over and over, and Sixteen A's world was confined to the single private chamber of her Sodalite. She had long explored every nook and cranny of the singular room, documented every item within its walls, measured everything from dimensions to weight, and did her best to keep busy in any manner that would benefit her Sodalite.

Not that her Sodalite cared for anything but dances.

Dances that her Sodalite grew more and more furious at.

The routine, and it was routine, made Sixteen A wonder what her training and purpose was. She wanted to be of more use to her Sodalite, but was this all she was worth? It wasn't even dancing…

Her Sodalite opened her private chamber's doors and slammed them shut in an upset rage that Sixteen A had never seen before. "Pearl!"

Sixteen A jumped as she hurried to attention, and as she was in the middle of performing her trained greeting and bow to her Sodalite, she was grabbed. Those large, thick hands forced themselves onto her own, and Sixteen A was thrown into a dance.

But it wasn't a dance at all, not a trace of beauty or elegance in it, as Sodalite crushed Sixteen A's feet under her own, snapped Sixteen A's arms with brute twists, shattered her fingers, and finally spun her so hard that with all the blinding pain and her own lightform shuddering and threatening to destabilize, she couldn't stop herself and smashed into the decorated stone bedframe.

Sixteen A poofed for the first time in her life.

The experience… she could replay it vividly while she was solely her gem, and such was her terror at the disappointment of her Sodalite that Sixteen A focused the entirety of her mind to reforming her body as soon as possible.

When she did, the first thing she saw was her Sodalite sitting on the edge of her bed, fingers linked together, and that large singular eye gazing at Sixteen A with disappointment. The same look that Nachre Three had given all of Batch Sixteen before their trainings began to wane.

"Why are you so useless?" asked her Sodalite.

Tears came forth unbidden as her worst nightmare manifested: that her owner found her not just wanting, but found nothing of worth in her. "M-My So-Sodalite, p-please—"

"Useless," stated her Sodalite again. "Are Pearls not real gems? Dancing is how it works, right?"

Sixteen A couldn't understand what her Sodalite was talking about, so she tried and failed to maintain a stance of awaiting orders (no type or pattern because Sixteen A's mind was scattered and the sharp memory of pain was still so very fresh).

Sodalite set her face in a determined grimace. "Again."

Sixteen A's crying hitched as her Sodalite uttered the unquestionable, unforgiving word.

"We dance again, until we get it right. Maybe… maybe we need to be closer," said Sodalite with distaste. "Pearl, you're to accompany me from now on."

A small flame of hope burst into Sixteen A's gem. "M-My Sodalite?"

Her Sodalite got up and stepped forward, that large hand grasping one of her own. "By my side, at all times, understood? Now let's go again."

— — — — —

Sixteen A didn't understand just what she was doing wrong. Her Sodalite refused to explain, or maybe she never even thought she had to explain it to a Pearl, but no matter what Sixteen A did or didn't do, her Sodalite was not satisfied.

She accompanied her Sodalite everywhere. To meetings, aboard spaceships, during travel, greeting Gems of such regality and noblesse that a Pearl was honored to merely be in their presence. Not as grand a time as meeting a Diamond, but that was far beyond Sixteen A's dreams.

But… Sixteen A didn't do anything. As her Sodalite had said, she was by her side at all times, and when they retreated to her private chambers, they danced. Often brutally, and so very often of late the act of dancing left her lightform battered and bent or even broken to the extent that she poofed.

So much that it was routine.

And still she didn't know what her Sodalite desired.

Sixteen A didn't ask, however. Something inside her felt like it would break if she knew.

All the new experiences she had, the wondrous places she went, the gems she saw; all of it was colored in deep, rich blue. That every night she would be held by her Sodalite and forced to perform a mockery of a dance with such brutality.

Until one day, as her Sodalite had business on Homeworld, Sixteen A saw perfection again.

Veridian, Sixteen B of Batch Sixteen, the very image of flawless Pearl excellence, accompanying her own Emerald.

Her Sodalite clearly remembered that Emerald and her eye lingered on Veridian, then when she cast a glance back at Sixteen A, the disappointment, displeasure, and dissatisfaction were so vividly clear that Sixteen A could feel the weight of that gaze in the form of her Sodalite's hands and feet, as if they were dancing out here in the open.

Then her Sodalite turned and called, "You, the admiral!"

The next minutes were so… so… Sixteen A would almost have rather been shattered than have the very Gem who commissioned her offer her as a trade. Of course, the fact that it was for the vision of flawless perfection that was Sixteen B was both expected and natural, but then to be gifted to the Emerald for… for what, nothing?

Had Sixteen A really failed her Sodalite that much? Had her suffering and attempts to fulfill whatever her Sodalite was looking for so wrong? What… What could she even do besides whimper and cry so openly when her entire life, every effort she had made since her creation, was proven so worthless that she was given away.

But, as it was the last order of her Sodalite, no matter Sixteen A's feelings on the matter, both positive or negative, she obeyed as was the duty of a Pearl. Or, at least, she thought it was. When Sixteen A recollected the entirety of her duties performed as a Pearl, then compared them to what she was trained at the Reef to do, really… was she even a Pearl?

Her mind was so scattered that when she finally came to, she was following Veridian down a hall in the Emer—no, her Emerald's ship, that when Viridian led her into a storage closet, she didn't know what to expect.

This was Veridian, the pride and joy of Batch Sixteen.

When… when the very idol of excellence that a Pearl could be whirled around, Sixteen A did not expect to be hit with a gaze full of disappointment and annoyance.

It immediately sent her into excuses, just like she had once gave when they were both trainee Pearls in the Reef. "I-I'm sorry! I just-she was never happy with me and I tried so hard but she would just hit me l-like Nacre Three and I'd-"

A hand clamped over Sixteen A's mouth, yet… yet it was not the thick and brutish hand of Sodalite nor the sharp and dangerous claw of a Nachre. No, it was thin, fragile, and so very gentle that tears streamed from Sixteen A's eyes.

"Shush," said Viridian with such care that it was surprising that Sixteen A even knew what care sounded like. It was a tone she had never heard before.

"Alright. We're doing this and I don't really have a choice in the matter so, welcome to Viridian's tips and tricks for not getting Decommissioned. Ready?"

All Sixteen A could do was nod, swiftly as possible to reassure Viridian that she was listening, that she understood, and that she would do whatever Viridian said. She was the expert on everything a Pearl should be.

Viridian slowly released her grasp on Sixteen A's mouth, so gentle and kind was it that even calling it a grasp was rude, for Viridian left no marks on her cheeks, nor did that grip crush and distort her lightform. She softly clapped her hands together.

"Good. Tip one, and something you need to learn immediately, judging from what I saw back in the plaza, is actually rather simple."

Those eyes, so clear and focused and perfect began to distort. Large tears, as if held back behind a dam that burst, overflowed down Veridian's cheeks and fell to the floor in large globules.

"Y-you're only allowed to c-cry when you're sure no one's looking, o-okay?"

Sixteen A… felt something shatter, and at that moment she almost wished it was her own Gem.
 
Back
Top