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Chapter II - New Friends and Second Servings
Louise was not enjoying her breakfast, it tasted like ash in her mouth, and she chewed on it listlessly. Weeks of repeated failures had robbed her of her appetite.
Why? Why had she not been able to perform a single spell properly since she had gotten here, wha was she doing wrong? Why did everything keep blowing-up in her face? She was the daughter of Karin Desiree de la Valliére, the Heavy Wind, what was wrong with her?
She had been looking forward to attending the Academy, looking forward to learning magic properly. She had been sure, so sure, that she would make her mother proud.
She chuckled to herself, bitterly.
What a joke. As soon as her mother found out what little aptitude she had for anything, she would likely never look at her again. How could someone so great give birth to someone so meagre? It was no wonder the others mocked her so much.
She shook her head, to rid herself of such despairing thoughts.
No! She could not give up yet, it had only been a handful of weeks! She was just a late bloomer, who had yet to discover her real talents. All she had to do was work just a little harder, and she could still make her family proud. Then she would be able to put those idiots in their place.
"Well hello," a voice interrupted her thoughts.
She raised her gaze, and found that there was a red-haired, dark-skinned woman staring back down at her. Louise could not help but notice that she was dressed somewhat provocatively, her skirt was a little too short, and the top three buttons of her shirt were undone, exposing her cleavage. She looked like a harlot, yet she was wearing what was unmistakably the Academy's uniform.
"Is anyone sitting here?" she asked, indicating one of the empty seats.
Perhaps she was being unfair, she thought. She did not know this woman, despite how she dressed, she could be perfectly nice. She did not want to jump to conclusion, like those idiots that were always whispering behind her back.
"No," she answered, with a shake of her head.
The woman smiled, and took her seat.
"Allow me to introduce myself," she said. "Kirche Augusta Frederica von Anhalt-Zerbst."
Zerbst? Louise could have sworn she had heard that name somewhere. No matter, for the moment she should introduce herself, she did not want to be rude.
"Louise François le blanc de la Valliére," she replied.
"A pleasure," Kirche said, still smiling. "My apologies for being so presumptuous, but it is my first day here."
Louise almost raised an eyebrow. Her first day? How odd. Sure it was still early in the year, but that was still a couple of weeks worth of lessons she had missed.
"If I may ask," she began. "How come you are starting so late?"
"Well," Kirche replied. "I was originally supposed to attend a school back home in Germania, but there was an incident, and father thought it best that I attend a school a little further away."
"Oh," Louise replied.
What could she say to that? It was clearly personal, a family matter, to ask further questions would be prying.
"Are you not going to ask what the incident was?" Kirche asked.
Louise looked at her, surprised.
"I – well, I did not want to pry," she replied.
Kirche smiled, and it was a smile that made Louise uncomfortable. It was a grin that was one part teasing, and one part … something else.
"It was a duel," she said. "Two dashing young men decided that they did not want to share, so they started a fight over me."
Louise raised her eyebrows, that sounded like something out of a story.
"So what did you do?" she asked.. She was intrigued, despite herself.
"I slept with both of them," Kirche answered.
Louise almost choked on her own saliva, and the sound of chuckling met her years. Once she had her breathing under control, she looked up and found that the Germanian's grin had grown wider.
"How could I not," she continued. "Oscar won the duel, but Frederick was so very valiant."
Louise could feel her face going red, just what sort of woman was this Kirche von Zerbst?
"Oh my, Valliére, you face has gone quiet red," Kirche said. "Was it something I said?"
She searched for a reply, anything she could say in response.
"Was that – I mean were there any more?"
She could have slapped herself, no matter what had been said, she should not be questioning such things.
"Oh plenty," Kirche replied. "I am a very passionate woman."
This woman … this woman was indecent. She was a tart, a philanderer, a scarlet woman!
The woman in question sighed dramatically, and she look in her eyes, it looked like pity. Louise bit her tongue, she neither needed, nor wanted, pity from someone like this.
"I must admit myself disappointed, Valliére," she said. "They told me there was a fire in you, but you seem just as dull as the rest of your countrymen, Perhaps that is the real reason they call you Zero?"
Perhaps it was the use of the nickname, but in that moment, something inside of Louise just snapped. This harlot had come here pretending to be her friend, but really she just wanted to mock, just like all the others.
She was not going to take it any more! Especially not from someone so … so … perverse!
Before she even knew what she was doing, she was on her feet, and pointing her finger at the Germanian.
"Do not call me that!" she bellowed. "Just because I do not feel the need to put myself out in such a way!"
"Not that you have anything to "put out"," Kirche said, staring at her chest.
Louise fought very hard against the urge to cover her chest with her arms.
"Unlike you," she said. "I do not need such a large amount of useless flesh to compensate for my lack of charm."
"So what do you use to compensate for you lack of charm?" Zerbst asked.
Oh, Louise would like nothing more than to wipe that stupid smirk off of her face.
"I have charm," she replied. "All you have is syphilis!"
"Yes," Zerbst responded, rolling her eyes, "Because you are being so charming right now. Tell me, did you inherit it from your mother? I hear she is something of an ice queen."
Louise could feel her rage boiling over, she had never been so angry in all of her life! How dare this trollop talk about her mother like that!
"Do not," she growled. "Do not dare speak about my mother like that, you brazen harlot!"
Her blood thundered in her ears, but under it she could murmuring coming from all around her. She dragged her gaze away from the Zerbst woman, and found that every eye in the room was on the two of them.
Without thinking she turned on her heel, and stomped out of the Great Hall, leaving her half-finished breakfast behind.
She stalked through the halls of the academy, muttering to herself under her breath. How could she be so foolish, as to let that red-haired bimbo goad her like that? She had let her guard down, allowed her to get under her skin.
Yet, what was she supposed to do? Just stand there whilst she insulted her, insulted her family? Her mother was a great woman, and no one was allowed to talk about her like that! No one!
She had had enough of being mocked, of being ridiculed, and she was not going to stand for it anymore!
She had no idea where her feet were taking her, but eventually she found herself standing outside of the library. She looked up at the large oaken doors for a moment, and came to a decision.
They may not have classes today, but that was not any excuse for her to slack off. Whilst the rest of her peers were doing whatever it was they did in there free time, she would be studying, getting better. Then eventually when she surpassed them all, she would make them regret ever mocking her, or her family.
Inside, she found that it was almost entirely empty, even the librarian was missing from her desk.
Good, she told herself. That meant that she would be able to study without fear of interruption.
Yet, as she walked between the empty rows it seemed entirely too quiet, and the bookcases seemed to loom over her like silent sentinels. It made a tiny shiver run down her spine.
She shook her head, she was being ridiculous. Setting her jaw she grabbed two books from the nearest shelf, and carried them over to the nearest table.
- - -
After their chance meeting, and her talk with Gabrielle, Siesta wondered when she would get to see Miss Valliére again. As it turned out, it would only be a mere handful of days later.
It was another hot, spring day and there were not classes. Today was the day of rest, and most of the students were taking full advantage of it. She could hear their voices as he lazed around outside, enjoying the feeling of the sun against their skin. Lucky them, she would love to have an afternoon off, and settle down for a nap underneath the shining sun, with a gentle breeze caressing her skin.
Whilst she was jealous of the students, Siesta was not sure whether to be jealous of the servants who got to work outside amongst the festivities, or glad not to be out under that boiling sun. Even for a spring afternoon, it was incredibly hot, and napping was one thing, work was quite another
Instead, Siesta had been assigned to help clean the classrooms whilst they were empty. Well, more accurately, she had been assigned to clean the library.
She sighed, the library was huge, it would take her forever to clean it by herself.
However, upon entering the next room on her list, she had found that it was not in fact, empty.
Sitting at one of the desks, and surrounded by books, was a girl with a head of very familiar strawberry blonde hair. Her quill was tapping idly against a sheath of parchment, as she stared into space. The sunlight drifting in trough the window highlighted her hair, making it glow. For some reason, Siesta was reminded of a line from one of her books.
"What's a lovely girl like you doing inside on such a beautiful day?" she asked.
The words were out of her mouth before she even had a chance to think about them. Oh, she could have slapped herself. Things like that were incredibly inappropriate to say to someone of Miss Valliére's station. What a way to ruin a good first impression.
Miss Valliére's shoulders stiffened, and she slowly turned to look in her direction. Siesta's stomach felt a sinking sensation in her stomach, and her own body grew tense. She got an unpleasant feeling of deja vu, as she waited to be scolded for her comment.
However, the reprimand never came. Instead, Miss Valliére only stared at her blankly for a moment, before her eye lit-up in recognition. She even smiled at her; it was only slight, but Siesta caught it.
"Siesta?" she said.
"The very same, Miss," she replied.
She briefly placed her cleaning supplies on the floor, so that she could give a proper curtsey.
"What are you doing here?" Miss Valliére asked.
"Cleaning, Miss," she answered.
She began to do just that, dipping her cloth into the bucket of soapy water, and beginning to scrub the table.
"And yourself?" she asked.
Louise glanced down at her parchment, a troubled look on her face. Siesta felt that such a sad expression did not belong on such a pretty face, but she kept that to herself.
She stood on her tiptoes, and saw that Miss Valliére had apparently done quiet a bit of writing. No doubt she would not even understand half of it.
"Are you not going outside, to join the sun?" she asked.
Miss Valliére stared down at her parchment with such fury, that Siesta was taken aback, and briefly paused in cleaning the tables.
"I would really rather not," she replied. "Who would want to spend time with those, those..."
Whatever those people were like Siesta would not find out, because Miss Valliére's voice just trailed off into a growl. Gabrielle's words from last night floated into her mind, but she pushed them aside. Surely someone so caustic would never have thanked her the way Miss Valliére had?
Having no idea out respond to Miss Valliére's mood, Siesta stared silent, and continued scrubbing the tables. Eventually, the sound of Miss Valliére's quill scratching away returned, and sure enough, when Siesta looked, she found her once again writing furiously. It was not exactly a comfortable atmosphere, but it was not uncomfortable either.
While she worked, Siesta could not keep herself from sneaking glances at Miss Valliére. She noted the furrow of her brow, and the tense way she held herself.
As Siesta finished drying off the last desk, she once again looked over at Miss Valliére sitting by herself. She wondered, was she just to leave the girl sitting there by herself? Just how long had she been sitting there, anyway? In that moment she came to a decision.
"Excuse me, Miss?" she said.
Miss Valliére once again paused in her writing, and looked over at her. Her eyebrow was raised, and she looked a little irritable. Siesta hoped she was not about to overstep her bounds.
"Yes, Siesta?"
"Have you eaten lunch yet," she asked.
There was a brief moment of silence before Miss Valliére responded.
"No," she answered.
Siesta felt like there were butterflies in her stomach, as she opened her mouth to speak again.
"Then if you would like," she said. "I could bring your meal to your room again."
This time there was a slightly longer moment of silence, and Miss Valliére stared at her, as though contemplating her words.
"If you would be so kind," she answered, eventually.
"Of course, Miss," Siesta replied.
She could not help but smile, and curtsied once more, before leaving the room with her bucket and wash-cloth.
That was how it came to be, that half an hour later, Siesta was once again carrying a tray of food to the student's quarters. Only this time it was freshly made, what was meant to be hot was hot, and what was meant to be cool was cool. The chef had looked at her oddly as she had piled it onto some plates, but she had simply told him it was for a student who had fallen ill.
The only thing she had not thought through, was that she had not yet eaten her own lunch. Watching someone eating, did not make it easier to bear her own hunger. She was just trying to distract herself with thoughts of her novels, when her stomach growled, loudly.
Miss Valliére paused, and Siesta felt her face burn, as she turned to face her. Her expression was incredulous.
"Siesta," she said. "Have you not eaten yet?"
Siesta focused on not shuffling her feet, as she answered.
"No, Miss."
Miss Valliére continued to stare at her for a few seconds, and Siesta felt increasingly uncomfortable under her gaze.
"Sit," she said, eventually.
What? For a second Siesta was sure that she had heard wrong.
"Excuse me, Miss?"
"Sit," Miss Valliére repeated.
Her voice was firm, and it sounded like and order. Almost without thinking Siesta obeyed, taking the seat opposite her. She had barely sat down, before Miss Valliére was thrusting a sandwich at her.
"Eat," she said.
With trembling finger, Siesta took the sandwich from her, and began to nibble lightly on the end of it. Was this some sort of trick?
"How do you expect to perform your duties, if you are not eating properly?" Miss Valliére asked.
Siesta stared at her blankly for a second. Miss Valliére had turned her head away, and was staring determinedly at the door. Eventually, she just decided to take this as her way of expressing concern.
"Thank you, Miss," she said.
"You are welcome," she replied, still not looking at her.
Siesta could not help smiling, as she took another bite. There was not really much taste to it, but that was alright.
She could not think of anything to say, and apparently neither could Miss Valliére, so the two of them ate in silence. Although she apparently have Miss Valliére's permission, she made sure not to overindulge. This was not her food, after all, and the last thing she wanted to was annoy her at this point.
Still, this was kind of nice, and she was technically dining with a noble. She tried not to laugh at the thought.
"Why?"
The sudden sound of Miss Valliére's voice made Siesta jump. She needed to take a second to calm her heart, before responding.
"Why what, Miss?" she asked.
"This is the second time you have brought my dinner," she said. "Why?"
"Perhaps I couldn't just leave a cute girl all by herself," she answered, with a smile.
Miss Valliére narrowed her eyes, and glared at her.
"Are you mocking me?" she asked.
Siesta's own eyes went wide, and she felt the blood drain from her face. Why had she said that? Had she not just been thinking about not annoying her? What a stupid thing to say!
"No-No," she stammered. "I wasn't! You really are cute! Well, more pretty than cute, but I wasn't making fun of you I swear. I wouldn't - "
Louise raised a hand, cutting her off. Siesta almost whimpered, and looked down at her feet, expecting Miss Valliére to reprimand her.
"Yes," Louise said. "I understand already."
Siesta raised her head, and found that Miss Valliére's face had gone quite red.
"I-I understand," she repeated. "Thank you for the compliment."
Siesta could not help but stare, not noticing that Miss Valliére's face was turning more and more red. It was not until she turned her head to the side, that Siesta realised how rude she was being.
"W-Why are you staring," Miss Valliére asked.
"Ah! No it's nothing!" Siesta replied. She dragged her gaze away and locking it onto the table.
"I mean, you're welcome, Miss," she added.
Silence reigned between them once more, and this time it was distinctly uncomfortable. That silence seemed to drag on forever, and for a few seconds Siesta did not dare raise her head.
"I am curious, Siesta," Miss Valliére said, eventually. "Do you go to all this trouble for every student?"
Now Siesta raised her gaze, and found Miss Valliére trying to sip nonchalantly from her cup.
Had she not just asked her this? Was this a trick, a trap? Or was Miss Valliére giving her another chance?
"No, Miss," she replied.
"Then why do so for me?" she asked.
Siesta's stomach churned in a most unpleasant way, she may not have much experience talking to nobles, but she recognised the question as precarious. Saying that she had felt sorry for her would surely wound her pride, but so could acting too casually about it. Miss Valliére may be pleasant to her now, but who knew how she would react if she felt insulted?
Siesta swallowed thickly, around the lump that had suddenly formed in her throat.
"B-Because I wanted to?" she eventually managed to say.
Miss Valliére just stared at her, one eyebrow rising curiously.
"I mean, I can't really explain it any better than that," she added.
For a moment Miss Valliére just continued to stare at her, then thankfully, she turned her head away. Siesta almost could have sighed in relief.
Before long the two of them had finished the food Siesta had brought up, and Miss Valliére leaned back into the chair, satisfied. Well almost, there was something of a frown forming on her face.
"Siesta," she said. "I have not been keeping you from your other duties have I"
"Not at all, Miss," she replied.
That was a lie. However, she could make up for the time she had missed by working through her own lunch. She had already eaten now, so it should not be a problem. She would probably have to miss her afternoon nap, but oh well...
Miss Valliére's gaze lingered on her for a moment, before moving away.
"Good," was the only thing she said.
With the meal over Siesta began clear the dishes, whilst Miss Valliére began to root through her books. As she was making for the door, she heard the young lady speak again.
"Thank you again, Siesta," she said.
"Not at all, Miss," she replied, with a smile.
As she carried the dishes towards the kitchens, she hummed a jaunty tune, and she could not help but walk with an extra bounce in her step. Gabrielle's words from the night before came back to her, but they rang so hollow now. She did not care what Gabrielle, or anyone else, had to say, Miss Valliére was clearly a good person.
- - -
Later that night, Louise was stood before the fire, gazing into the flames. She was wondering how best to describe the day, between Siesta and that Zerbst woman, it had been very … odd.
She was already changed into her nightclothes, and it would not be long before she went to bed. There was just one more thing that she needed to do.
She sat herself down at her desk, pulled out a piece of parchment, reached for her quill, and began to write.
Dear Mother, she began, then paused.
What should she say? This was the first letter she had written home since she had gotten here, and she wanted it to sound good. She was not about to admit to all the ridicule she had been forced to endure, she did not want her mother to think she could not handle herself.
My first weeks at the academy have gone fairly well, my classes are interesting, and I have learned much.
This was true, no matter what anyone said. She may have yet to successfully cast a spell, but she had studied hard, and knew the fundamentals better than anyone. It was only a matter of time, she was sure.
It is an interesting experience, being at such a prestigious centre of learning, there is such a variety of people here.
She paused, what else could she say? She had not exactly made friends with her classmates, and she was not about to mention the Zerbst woman.
There is one maid, who is named Siesta, who is most curious. She is rather pretty for a commoner, and the two of us are of a similar age. She seems to be a lot more eager in her duties than the others, and much more eager to serve. Twice now she has offered her services to me, without my needing to request anything.
Although, she is perhaps somewhat too friendly, she referred to me as "cute" when we dined together recently,
She stopped, and went over she words she had just put down...
What the hell had she written?!
She should not be writing so much about a servant! She especially should not be mentioning that the two of them had eaten dinner together! She did not want her mother thinking that she was so starved for attention, that she was making friends amongst the serving staff, no matter how pretty they were. Which was another thing, she should not be commenting on the attractiveness of the servant to her mother.
What was wrong with her? What if Eleanore found out?
She felt a shiver run down her spine at the thought. If he eldest sister read what she written, she would never hear the end of it!
No, this letter could never be sent, and that was all there was to it. She would just have to start over.
She scrunched the parchment up, threw it into the fire, and reached for a new sheet.
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Author's Note: So, I tried to keep this chapter from feeling too repetitive, despite it being so similar in format to the last one, not sure ow well I did.