I feel like I may have overloaded
myself on the feels with this next snip...Enterprise time.
USS Enterprise burned. Her flight deck was cratered, fires raging through her hangar. Her crew raced to put the blazes out, even as dark puffs of flak fire filled the sky. Burning planes fell into the water, their tell-tale 'meatball' wings blackened and torn. And still, more came. American gunners filled the air with fire, but the Japanese still came. Plane after plane fell to a watery grave. And yet more came. It was the fiercest attack Enterprise had endured, overtaking even the recent Battle of the Eastern Solomons.
But through it all, the gallant carrier fought on.
Despite pain and smoke, she fought on. Despite her crew, hurt and scared, being pushed to their limits. She. Fought. On.
She had failed her beloved older sister at Midway. She had lost Wasp, as the damage she sustained at the Eastern Solomons lamed her. She could not find it in herself to blame Sister- Aunt -Sara for her own failings in not being there to save little Wasp. Enterprise could never blame her. It was her own failing, her own weakness, that had seen her two sisters fall. Enterprise made a vow, under repair and refit in Pearl Harbor, with the scorched keel of Oklahoma facing the sky and the burned husk of Arizona staring her in the face. She had sworn that she would fight and survive, and never see another of her sisters fall before her.
"I will not let Hornet fall."
That was what she had sworn that day. And so, Enterprise fought on. Through the pain of her own damage, her hull ripped and torn. Oil leaking into the water around her, as blood leaked into her clothing. She kept fighting.
"I will not fail again."
Enterprise breathed out, red eyes focused entirely on the sky above her. She had noted little Smith, burning brightly. But still fighting, just as Enterprise herself was. She had equally noted young South Dakota, the brand new battleship throwing so much fire into the sky it almost appeared as if she was burning as well. Enterprise noted this, and so many other things. But her attention remained focused on the sky.
Focused on the lean forms of Japanese torpedo bombers. Kates. The machines that had crippled Lex and lead to her death. The ones who had ruined Oklahoma, and done such grievous harm to California and West Virginia. Enterprise knew these planes. She knew the danger.
Without any action on her part, her cred moved her guns. Everything from her old five inch guns, to the brand new 40mm Bofors that so much had hinged upon. Her tortured hull swung into a tight turn, her escorts matching the movement save for poor little Smith.
"You will not sink me today."
She would
not fall. Enterprise had too much to lose, to fall now.
"I will survive, and defeat each and every one of you. For Yorktown. For Wasp. For Lexington. For Langley."
Even as the torpedoes shot through the water, missing her by the scantest feet, Enterprise continued mentally listing off the names of the fallen. Houston. Edsall. Oklahoma. Arizona. These girls, and so many others. She would avenge them, no matter what it took.
And as the last of the Japanese bombers fled the field of battle, their payloads expended and the American taskgroup battered but standing tall, Enterprise let out a sigh. She hurt. Her hull ached, her body in pain she had only felt once before. But she still stood tall, her crew already setting to work to get her operational again. Little Smith pulled up alongside her again, the destroyer blackened by fire but still training her stern guns at the sky.
We won. They will be back, but we won.
Enterprise let her legs carry her to the side of her bridge, faintly registering the orders bouncing through her crew. She was prepared to slide down, rest and recover for the inevitable second strike. At least, she was prepared until an ice-cold jolt of panic ran through her system.
"Hornet is listing sir. Her engines are out."
Hornet...no no no no no.
The carrier was immediately by her Admiral's side. Her own pain was forgotten. Her stoic determination was forgotten. The Big E was gone, replaced by the damaged and worried
Little E. Her last sister...the only family she had left, aside from her Aunts Ranger and Sara. She couldn't lose Hornet. She had vowed that she would be safe. Enterprise couldn't lose her last sister. She...she...
"Northampton has set up a towline, and they're moving out of the combat zone at five knots."
"Good. Do we have any birds that are ready for a CAP?"
A wave of relief ran through Enterprise. Her Admiral was going to protect her sister!
"No, sir. Our pilots are exhausted and with our elevator out of action...we don't have the time to land any birds and rearm them."
Holding a hand to her heart, Enterprise felt the scared girl inside of her come rushing to the surface. The girl who missed her sisters so dearly, came back. Fear for Hornet overrode all her logic. Fear for her sister. Fear that her vow was meaningless. How could she protect her baby sister, like this?
She had failed, again. Unless her crew could get her sufficiently in action to get fighters back in the air, she had failed.
Failed.
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"Fall back."
"No! Don't leave Hornet behind!"
"Inform
Hornet and
Northampton to make best speed out of the combat area. Godspeed, and good luck."
Enterprise, an arm hanging limply by her side- the lingering reminder of yet more damage -could only watch as Admiral Kinkaid consigned her sister to her fate. Her last sister. The baby sister she had vowed to protect, at all costs. Enterprise knew she was damaged. She could feel each and every tear and rend in her hull. She could feel the pain in her body, telling her that she needed dock time...fighting was suicidal. But she...she couldn't leave Hornet behind!
But...she had no choice.
'Big E' had no control of her hull. She was a silent observer, who could do nothing but watch. She saw every line of regret in Admiral Kinkaid's face. He knew what he was doing. He regretted it. But he was a
soldier. He would sacrifice the few, to save the many. Enterprise was relatively undamaged, in comparison to her crippled sister. If it was down to saving one carrier or losing both, her Admiral would make the former decision every time.
No matter how it hurt the older carrier. How could he know what she felt?
Hornet...
"
Hornet acknowledges."
"We've done what we can. Get us out of here."
Her tortured hull pushing as fast as she could manage, Enterprise turned away from her Admiral. Her eyes looked to the horizon, where the smoke of Hornet's fires was still visible. Her bloodied hand, the only one she could lift, held out to her sister. Her baby sister, so brave. The girl who had launched the Doolittle Raid, and fought so hard ever since. Left behind.
Enterprise sucked in a shaky breath. Burnt and split lips open and close. Her hand moves from it's position, as her bloodied hair shifts slightly. She has to...she has to do this. Has to apologize to her baby sister.
"Hornet?"
The carrier knows not if her radio communication will work. At the distance they were from each other...
"Little E?" Hornet's voice is labored, pain clear in every syllable. The baby of the Yorktowns groaned in pain every time she let out a breath.
"Did you...?"
"
Hear? Yeah. It's shitty luck, but I know."
Wiping her face, Enterprise felt a weak smile twist her lips. Hornet...never did change, did she?
"I'm sorry. I should be here to protect you, but I..."
A hacking cough cuts 'Big E' off,
"Hey you. Don't you dare
apologize. Damn it, Little E. I don't want you blaming yourself for what happened to me. You're supposed to be the big sister, remember? Don't worry about me...I'm too tough to let something like this finish me off. The damn Japs won't sink this
carrier. Just make sure you get outta here. Shit, I can deal with a few holes."
There was the bravado that so marked the youngest Yorktown. Hornet had always felt the need to measure up to her sisters in some way, when she was so much younger in ship-terms. And that had lead her to adopt a personality full of bravado. A personality that, even now, had Enterprise laughing weakly. Her sister never would be one to let something like this stop her.
"Get home, and get better. I'll join ya soon enough, and then we can come back and give them a proper whacking!"
"Hornet..."
There was no response. Enterprise let her hand fall to her side, the smoke fading into the distance. Her legs gave out, the carrier sliding down to sit against her hull. Fat tears rolled from red eyes, as she wrapped her arms around her legs, tucking into her torso. Words ran through her mind...words she would remember until the day she died.
"Don't worry, Little E. It will take more than this to sink your big sister!"
"Get back to Pearl, I can handle this for now! I may be small, but I can fight!"
"Get home and get better..."
Each of her sisters. Those were the last words she had heard from Yorktown and Wasp. What if these were the last words she ever heard from Hornet? If her sister didn't make it...she would be all alone. The last of the Yorktowns. The last American fleet carrier, sans Sara and Ranger. All alone against Japan.
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Loneliness.
Enterprise had never thought she would feel it before. She had been the youngest American carrier until Wasp had been built, with all that implied. She had Langley, the closest thing the carrier could call a 'mother'. She had Lex and Sara and Ranger, all like doting aunts to her. And then there was her beloved sisters. Strong, brave Yorktown. Excitable and larger than life Wasp. Bull headed and full of bravado Hornet. Enterprise...Little E...had all of those girls and more. And she had lost them all now, save for Sara and Ranger. Lost them to the war, to death. To her own failures.
Little E...she was a failure, and buried deeply. Big E, the Grey Ghost, was all that was left. She fought Japan, because she must. Her anger had burnt out long ago. Nothing was left but a desire to see this war through to the end, to make her sisters proud.
That single-minded determination had cut Enterprise off from her successors. Essex, always eager to please in a way that painfully reminded Enterprise of her own youth. Yorktown, the girl who bore her beloved elder sibling's name. But not her personality or relation to Enterprise. Lexington, who didn't recognize Sara. Something that Enterprise knew devastated the elder girl. Wasp, stoic and quiet...and completely unlike her namesake. And Hornet, the one who truly was nothing like her namesake in any way. So different, that even Admiral Mitscher considered her as...different.
"This is not my old girl. She bears her name, but she is not her."
Even so, Enterprise knew she should make an effort to get to know them. They weren't her sisters, but they
could be. But...she couldn't. Just as they could never take the place of her fallen sisters in her heart, Enterprise could never bring herself to allow them to try.
Far better to be alone, than face that pain.
And, so, here she was. Sailing with several of the Essex girls, preparing for a final showdown with the Japanese fleet. The Philippine Sea was almost clogged with American ships and planes. The Big Blue Blanket, as it had been nicknamed. Swarms of Hellcats flew above the carriers, prepared to intercept any and all Japanese attackers. Avengers and Dauntless bombers, joined by the newer Helldiver, loaded weapons.
"Fire and death. I am...tired. So tired."
Where once the dull roar of her crew running to and fro may have excited Enterprise, now it just drove a spike into her heart. What if she failed again? That worry was always in the back of her mind.
And always would be.
"We're getting an updated report on Japanese forces, Admiral."
Enterprise turned weary eyes on her Admiral. John Reeves...formerly commander of her younger sister, Wasp. The man nodded to her Captain, as he took the report in hand. His eyes scanned it, as Enterprise watched.
She watched, as Admiral Reeves' hands shook. His eyes widened, a low curse escaping his lips. Enterprise, roused from her perpetually weary state, walked over to the Admiral. She had never seen such a reaction from him...had the Japanese built new carriers? It would be unlikely, but not impossible. Still, her tired mind was awoken, interest leading her to look over his shoulder.
"No. Impossible!"
Only for Enterprise to fall back, her body crashing against the wall of her bridge. Red eyes widened, tears coming to them. A knife had been jabbed into her heart, twisting and turning. Her legs gave out under her, the carrier falling to her deck. Her mind was blank, lost. Her heart painfully beat in her chest. Her emotions were shot.
All from one line.
USS Hornet, CV-8 in formation with Japanese strike force.
There were further details. Details on the Japanese twisting and torturing her sister into something else. Her lean funnels trunked up like that new armored carrier that looked like a Brit ship. Her anti-air suite torn apart and replaced with scores of Jap weapons. A Rising Sun flying proudly from her mast, in place of the Stars and Stripes.
Her baby sister had been turned into a Japanese fleet carrier. Her baby sister she had left to die. Enterprise had been ruined by that decision. It had not been her own. She had no choice but to do it. Even so, she had always blamed herself. Deep down in her heart, where Little E remained, Enterprise had
always blamed herself. It had been her failure to keep her vow, that had let Hornet sink.
Only, she had no sunk. She had been taken as a war prize, and turned into an enemy. Her baby sister, turned into her foe.
Enterprise would have to fight her baby sister.
Enterprise would have to
kill her sister.
Hornet would have to sink.
And there was not a damn thing she could do about it. Enterprise knew this. Even as she felt her heart being torn into pieces, she knew this. Even as she felt the last of her old self buried even deeper...she knew this. Big E, the Grey Ghost, would have to fight and kill her last sister.
What cruel fate was this?
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Decades later, Enterprise stood in front of an aging aircraft carrier. The old girl was lovingly maintained, by both Japanese and American funds. She had been sitting here, in Pearl Harbor, for decades. Ever since she had been returned after the war, she had been here. Left here, as a memorial to the War. A ship that had served both America and Japan. The last of the pre-War United States Navy carriers. The last of the
Yorktown-class carriers.
Even though she bore more Japanese lines, than any of her sisters. Her trunked funnels, so clearly based on Taihou. Her Japanese weapons. Her lines marred by rebuilds from battle damage.
Imperial Japanese Navy aircraft carrier Kouryuu. Yellow Dragon.
USS Hornet, CV-8.
Her baby sister, sleeping ever since the war ended.
Enterprise had never boarded this ship. She had come this far, standing at the bottom of the gangway aboard Kouryuu. But she had not once gone further. She loved Hornet, had never
stopped loving baby Hornet. But she could not bring herself to board the ship that she had become. There were too many bad memories. Too many painful memories, of fighting this girl. It took everything she had, to even get this close.
Her elder sister had no such problems. Enterprise knew that Yorktown, kind and loving Yorktown, came here every day. She had pulled God only knew how many strings, to have all of the Yorktown sisters stationed by their baby sister. And every day since they had been stationed here, she came. Yorktown boarded Kouryuu, constantly trying to get through to their captured sibling.
'Little E, we can't leave her like this. She's our baby sister, and I won't let her stay like this. We will get her back.'
So Yorktown had said, but all Enterprise had been able to do was give a weak half smile and shake her head.
I know that we have to get Hornet back. But...I...I just can't. I can't board her. It would be too painful. It's almost too painful just being this close.
Sighing heavily, Enterprise turned away. Her legs carried her to a nearby bench, where she sat every time Yorktown attempted to get through to Hornet. It had become a daily ritual, and part of the 'Grey Ghost' didn't expect it to ever work. Hornet was...she was buried, so deep. Summoning from a museum ship was possible, but only if the girl wanted to come back. Missouri had come back the moment Arizona had, in a protective rage at Abyssals who dared to hurt her charge.
Yet, Iowa still slept.
As did Hornet. Her sister likely had no desire to come back. Enterprise could not find it in herself to blame her. Hornet...if any girl had a right to sleep, it was her. Enterprise knew what it was like, better than anyone. She so longed to have her sister back...but she was not going to force her. If Hornet desired to sleep, then she should sleep.
"Yorktown will keep trying. I know my sister."
Yorktown and Wasp, for that matter. She knew both were aboard Kouryuu at that very moment, attempting to get through. The odds of it working were...
"Commander Enterprise?" The rough voice of a Marine came over her radio, dragging the weary carrier from her thoughts.
"Yes?"
"The summoning worked."
Enterprise felt her hands drop, as she jumped to her feet. She didn't hear the remaining words. She didn't hear the ecstatic shout of Wasp. All she heard was the simple words.
It worked.
Hornet...
Previous discomfort pushed aside, Enterprise sprinted as fast as her boilers could push her. Her long legs drove her up the gangway, into the old hull of IJN Kouryuu. Drove her deep into the ship, to where she knew Yorktown was, despite never boarding this ship. She only stopped, upon reaching a bulkhead. Enterprise could hear the sound of crying behind it. The familiar voice...the voice she had not heard, since that fateful day at Santa Cruz. That she had never dreamed she would hear again.
Even now, it drove a knife into her heart.
But she forced her way past that. She opened the hatch, stepping into the room. Her arms were crossed, the half-smile she always wore to hide her pain firmly in place. Pain that needed to be hidden.
Yorktown...Wasp...Hornet...
For she saw her sisters. Wasp, littlest Yorktown, standing off to the side. Yorktown, red hair hiding her face, as she hugged a girl tightly to her. A girl who could only be Hornet. Her Japanese uniform twisted the knife further, but the pain lessened slightly when Enterprise saw her blond hair. Hair the same shade as her own. The pain weakened yet further, when Hornet turned to face her.
Her baby sister pulled herself to shaky feet, looking directly in Enterprise's eyes. Brown on red. Baby sister and war-weary legend. Sisters torn apart by fate, forced to fight each other. Sisters who had done their best to kill one another.
But there was no hate in Enterprise. She merely opened her arms. Tears fought to escape her eyes, as she looked at the girl she had wanted to see for
so long. The girl she had wanted to properly apologize to, ever since leaving her at Santa Cruz. But had never had the chance.
"Hello, baby sister." The Grey Ghost finally spoke. Her voice had softened, as she looked in Hornet's eyes. "I missed you."
Enterprise barely shifted, when Hornet ran forward. She merely wrapped her arms around her sobbing sister, holding her close. Her baby sister was babbling apologies into her shoulder, and Enterprise...she felt her walls shatter. Her eyes, eyes that had not shed proper tears in so long, were wet. She ran a hand through Hornet's hair, turning her red eyes on her other sisters.
Yorktown and Wasp understood the message, coming forward to wrap Hornet and Enterprise in a group hug.
We're together again. And I will never let anything tear us apart!