My name was Mukuro Ikusaba, but now I'm not so sure.
I think… I died. I can't be sure of anything from my past life. I'm not even sure it's me. I think I had a sister I loved dearly once too. But it's all so foggy. I'm stuck in a black space with someone else. They don't talk. Neither of us can actually. I can't really move either but it's not… unpleasant. It's rather… nostalgic. A fog settles over my mind over time. I can't even remember what time is or felt like or how long I've been here… things just turn to nothing but… I have to be stronger than this. My Name is Mukuro Ikusaba. I can be sure of that, right?
My name is… Mukuro Ikusaba…
My name is Mukuro Iku… Iku..?
My name is Mukur… M-muk?
My… my name is-
—
The girl didn't know her name, which was mostly fine, as she was only a few months old. She heard her mother call her Ianthe, and over time she'd know it as her name. She shared her crib with her sister. She didn't know her name at the time either, but her name was Pyrrha, like what their mom would tell her.
Ianthe was confused though, but she was just a baby after all. She looked at her sister, a part of her trying to figure out what was wrong. She felt warm and safe and Pyrrha looked back at her. Her eyes were… different. Ianthe couldn't comprehend why it felt like that, but it wasn't a bad one. Her sister's eyes were bright green, and her red hair was… distracting to her young mind. It held her attention until sleep overcame her again.
—
*Five Years later*
"Pyrrha, Ianthe already cleared her plate."
I didn't look my twin in the eyes. It was weird to call us twins, given we might look a lot alike, but our hair and eyes set us apart. And her twinkling, pretty green eyes were looking at me for help.
"But Pyrrha doesn't wanna mom."
Mom sighed. "Ianthe, sweetie, don't encourage her."
I bowed my head, and Pyrrha still ate her vegetables. Just another day in my house. We're good girls, or at least we try to be and Mom loved us. She just doesn't cook veggies the way Pyrrha likes em. I dunno what's wrong with them though; they're okay.
"Iantha eats anything." Pyrrha replied with a pout as she started with Broccoli. She's right; everything tastes good when I'm hungry. I dunno why Pyrrha doesn't like it; she wants to get bigger and stronger, doesn't she? Does it have to taste good?
"There, see? Now it's finished." Mom said petting Pyrrha's hair before taking her plate. When she went to the kitchen, she looked at me and said, "Sorry."
"For what?"
Pyrrha looked confused. "I said you eat everything?"
"So? It's true."
My sister looked closely at me for a moment. "You don't think I was being mean?"
Pyrrha was silly sometimes; she thought everything she did could hurt me. But she'd never hurt me on purpose. It was weird to think she thought she could do so accidentally when… well she was my sister. "It was just a joke. And it's true."
Pyrrha seemed to cheer up a bit. "Why don't you like Mom's veggies anyways?"
"She overcooks them. They're all mushy and stuff." Pyrrha stood up and I followed. We lived in a very big house; The Nikos family is old, mom says. Dad talks to us a lot when he's home; we have pictures of us all together on the wall leading up to our rooms upstairs. I stopped to look at the family picture with all of us; my dad and I looked a lot alike with dark hair, gray eyes, but Mom and Pyrrha have bright red hair and colorful eyes.
People didn't believe us sometimes when I said we were twins, but we had the same face; she didn't have my freckles though. Mom says that what makes us different is what makes us each special. I smile a bit at the picture before joining my sister upstairs so we can play together.
—-
*Eight Years later*
My sister and I stood against one another, the announcer talking about the drama of us benign set one another. I didn't get it at the time if i was honest; to me it's…. Well, a test of skill. There was no shame in victory or defeat. I wanted Pyrrha to win, and she wanted me to win, and it would be shameful to both of us if we didn't put in all our effort. The crowd liked Pyrrha more, though my sister was humble even when we are children. All eyes were on her, because she had a natural charisma I never possessed.
I got interest from the crowds for one simple reason: I was good at this. It wasn't flashy, but I managed to get this far with a perfect record. Pyrrha used her Semblance to do the same, I knew, but for me… everyone else was just a fraction too slow. I don't know how to explain it better; I'm not sure if it was my semblance, or if it was just talent. (I ruled out luck, luck doesn't make perfect)… one that was about to be put to the test.
Our Arena was one converted from the old Mistrali Renaissance before the Great War. It still had many of the old designs from the gladiator games once held here; the lard stands for the audience to stare down at, a pool of water to mark the out of bounds area that surrounded the arena which were still made of the yellow-ish, well-maintained stone. Of course, modern amenities were there; holo-screens, vendors in the stands, and spots for cameras to attempt to assure no cheating (Semblances being what they were, it wasn't always reliable). It seemed almost a shame to do it, but in another way, it allowed the arena to still be used for it's purpose. At least, that's how it was sold to the audience, and the controversy was quickly silenced by Tourney itself.
I bowed to my sister, and she bowed back. Taking our places in the Area. Her weapons, Milo and Akoulo suited her. My own were my shield and spear, Koita and Vlepo. My weapons bore similarity to my sisters; after all it was a family tradition, though I tried to 'modernize' it; Pyrrha chose a rifle, a javelin and a xiphos. Her own panoply suited her.
Koita was a shield, yes, but it was wider, strapped to my arm, just a bit wider than Pyrrha's. Vlepo was larger than its counterpart, but that was because my choice of rifle was made for range. It made it weightier, which had advantages to be sure in some scenarios, but against Pyrrha's semblance…
"Begin!"
The crowd was eager to see the two unexpected newcomers, sisters at that, fight over the title of the regional champion. For us it was a sparring match with higher stakes, such as they were. I didn't care about the title or the money, and I knew Pyrrha didn't either. What we wanted was…
A Challenge.
Pyrrha made the first move, but my shield was up to intercept, sparks flying as metal hit metal, Milo moving to my left as I countered. Pyrrha of course knew this would happen, and I felt Vlepo forced away even as I struggled to make a strike against her. In a moment from that clash, both of us were unharmed… but it had cost Pyrrha just a bit of Aura.
To make this challenging… I needed to push her endurance, and she needed to wear down my own. A battle of attrition on the surface might seem boring, but to be in one allows you to appreciate the intricacy of the exchange. Managing my own resources against Pyrrha's became paramount in my mind. That was my opportunity for victory, the question was how to get there.
I decided to remain on the defensive, to encourage Pyrrha to waste her energy. I wasn't sure if she noticed it herself, but Pyrrha seemed to be more than happy to aid me. Pyrrha fought wonderfully, trying to find any flaw in my defense, from every angle she could try. Her own attempts at getting past my guard were quick, but I was quicker.
Time seemed to slow down for me as I kept moving or blocking with my shield, taking care when I could to exploit the brief moments of her going for another attack to make my own. I wasn't sure what her strategy was if i was honest; she had to have had some idea of trying to win, and we both knew one another too well.
To outsiders, it must have looked like Pyrrha controlled the movement as she seemed to push me along and further back. It couldn't have been further than the truth however as in reality I had the defensive advantage. I only moved when absolutely necessary for my defense; every bit of energy mattered. Vlepo's other form was too clunky to bring out, and Pyrrha knew her accuracy against me would suffer in Milo's rifle form. It was like a battle out of ancient antiquity.
But of course, and what I failed to comprehend at the moment, it was not. My mind focused on this as a battle, but it was still a competition and there were other ways to lose. Pyrrha didn't control the movement of battle, but she did know her sister.
What happened next was mostly an accident. I don't blame Pyrrha for what happened next, because she earned the win because of a small mistake I had made…
Dodging another blow from Pyrrha and repairing my reply, I realized I had lost my footing, going over the line and falling into the pool beneath us. I smiled, honestly as I saw my mistake and looked to my sister who was already in motion for another blow to push me in… but then… then the spear struck and-
—-
-they all struck me at once. Impaling me in front of everyone. My face was frozen in a bizarre expression as I tried to rationalize it in the small amount of time I had.
"H-Huh? This wasn't...supposed to... Why...me...?"
It wasn't supposed to happen.
Junko would have never… No, no… she would.
To give me despair…
I had been hurt before, but never on the battlefield… Junko Enoshima, my beloved sister, wanted to… give me a gift? Was this for her own sake? She had finally succeeded…
So why did it feel so… empty?
My blood ran down from the wounds as the Spears of Gungnir pierced me. Was it always so pink? The others stared at me as my body began to cool and my struggling lungs and heart began to slow. I caught the eyes of my classmates, or at least those that lived at the moment, Makoto was horrified as were the rest…
Those moments I spent with them… They didn't know who I was. They thought I was Junko…
Makoto… My heart stopped when I realized he would never know me. I would just be a corpse. I would never have another moment, a chance to speak, to fight… every possibility would end in a moment.
Junko… is this Despair?
I would never understand how she loved this feeling. And yet, if it made her happy, I embraced it with my last breath but… it still felt wrong.
—-
I blinked. There was no blood, only a strike even Pyrrha knew I should have dodged. I fell over the edge. Where am I?
As I hit the water I almost panicked before I realized I wasn't skewered. I wasn't in some school meeting, there wasn't a bear… that uncanny stuff animal.
I came up for air soon after, my mind still spinning in confusion.
"The winner is Pyrrha Nikos! Congratulations!"
The cheers of the crowd didn't help my mood as Pyrrha extended her hand to help me up. I paused as a rogue flash of a blonde girl with a sadistic grin offered her hand in my sister's place… and I hesitated for a moment before shaking it off.
"Is everything okay?"
I looked down and my right hand, there wasn't a tattoo there… but why would there be? I looked at my sister for a moment and just smiled to try and mask my concern… She saw through me. Why wouldn't she? But the crowd did. "Congratulations Pyrrha."
—-
"Ianthe?"
I turned to my sister; concern clear in her eyes. That memory of this 'Junko'... I knew she would never look at me like that. Pyrrha put her hand on my shoulder and it made me pause as I struggled to figure out just what to say.
"Yes?" Oh good job Ianthe, I thought bitterly. You're just delaying the ACTUAL question!
Pyrrha frowned. "What happened? I've never seen you think this…"
"I'm still not sure… have you ever had a memory of something you know didn't happen?"
Pyrrha of course didn't understand… and so I tried to continue it. "I-it was that, mostly, I think. I just had this weird day dream of… of…" I didn't believe it. A day dream? Really? I was just digging myself deeper. "I-it doesn't matter. You won."
Pyrrha's hand slipped. "Ianthe please this isn't like you. I'm worried."
Pyrrha wasn't that girl. She wasn't Junko, she was as far from Junko as she could get. I had only gotten a brief glimpse but given she killed me, and Pyrrha was…
She was my sister. "... I had a vision."
—-
*a week later*
I only got more context since Pyrrha won. I… saw myself as Mukuro Ikusaba, a student of Hope's Peak Academy. I recalled that last week of life she had, but at the time it was just weird visions who's only context was the last one. Mukuro spent her last days pretending to be her sister, lying to her friends trapped in a normal school.
All part of a plot to get them killed.
I kept myself to my room since then, only coming out to eat and… pretend that nothing happened. It was easy with Pyrrha's victory, and already talks about her entering next year. They started calling her the Invincible Girl, which hopefully wouldn't catch on. My own victories were, thankfully overshadowed by Pyrrha… She was always the more notable of the two of us.
Like Junko, I had thought but it made my stomach turn… in the visions, I loved her like a sister but when I reminded myself it was just nothing reality came back…
At first, I told her it was nothing, but she knew me too well. There was little you could hide from someone who knew you all your life and developed right next to you. Our mother did her best, but it was easy to slip away from her grasp. Not Pyrrha; while the rewards for the first regional were set in stone and she and I were interviewed… she knew. I think it only took me three days before I just confessed. I wasn't sure if it was from the weight of the memories or my own guilt.
Our family, the Nikos family, wasn't religious to any extent. We kept the words and saying up, believed in a general concept and we were spiritual, if not completely concrete in exactly what we believed. Aura and Semblances were expressions of the soul, having a soul was an accepted fact of life for us, so when I heard Pyrrha's suggestion of who Mukuro Ikusaba could be, I was skeptical but… I couldn't argue against it.
We were in my room, a spare little space with my bed to one corner, a desk in the other, and a bookshelf that housed books on the Great War, and next to the desk was a cheap screen I sometimes used to play games. Really, the room wasn't much, and I didn't want much…
"A past life?" I whispered.
Pyrrha frowned, putting a hand behind her head. "It's the best I can come up with. Mukuro died, right? And that's her last memory…"
I slowly moved to look Pyrrha in her eyes. They were genuine, lit with concern that a part of me wondered if she was planning something but no, she's my sister. "I thought once you crossed the river Lethe, you forgot everything so… why me?"
It was a mercy, I think, to not remember your past life; to not be burdened with the thoughts of someone else, of their family and friends, of a life that wasn't yours… In our family tradition, it was said that souls passed on through the river, to emerge pure and clean of the past…
"Maybe it's just your Semblance?"
"Mukuro didn't have one… She had a Talent." Mukuro's memories told me that much… though I'm not sure how "Luck" counts as a talent. "It's complicated to explain. I don't think they were on Remnant."
Pyrrha frowned. "W-well… Maybe it's broader than we thought…"
I looked back at my desk. Soon, we'd head back to Signal… soon, I'd have to pretend nothing happened. I hated it. I didn't have many friends, but the few people who knew might have seen something different. I could see her face in the reflection instead of my own; the same eyes and hair, but none of the marks of my mother and father. The same freckles, even in the same pattern, but on an ever so different face. "It doesn't matter, You're still Ianthe." Pyrrha insisted.
I stared at Mukuro's face and thought aloud. "... Mukuro wasn't a good person." I was never sure how to explain it to her more than that. How do you describe that experience? Of remembering in perfect clarity that you plotted with a monster to murder innocent people? And it would only get worse and worse as I got more information… and yet we were still a lot alike.
How much of me is even me? How much of me is Mukuro? "I'm not even sure if that's true. Pyrrha it's like… staring at a mirror, but it's wrong."
"I-I've been trying to read on it, and it doesn't matter who your past life was," Pyrrha insisted, almost pleading really. Why did this have to happen? Why… "What matters is your current one…" Pyrrha frowned looking at her own reflection as I could see us again. Ianthe and Pyrrha… I had started to tear up and she whipped them from my face. "It's scary I know..I-I'm sorry…"
"For what?"
Pyrrha seemed surprised but just turned me around and gave me a hug. "You'll always be my sister, and I'll always love you."
I embraced her…
I didn't deserve a sister like her.
—-
*Three Years Later*
"Vale is pretty far away." I noted.
Pyrrha nodded. "I thought it would be for the best. It's not as far as Shade, and less of a chance of someone recognizing me if they're from Mistral or Atlas. Plus I wouldn't get in your way at Atlas."
"A-about Atlas…" I began. "I'm reconsidering…"
Pyrrha blinked. "You are? But you've been talking about Atlas for a while."
I had… I would have loved to join up, pursue a career in being a military huntress and yet that's what SHE would want, right? "I'm not sure if it'd be healthy given my… situation."
Pyrrha frowned. "Ianthe, you should follow your heart on this…."
"'Ultimate soldier', that was her talent… and its mine." It had to have some influence… It took her sister to give her a scar. Mukuro was a killer. Junko's tamed wolf… I didn't want to be like her as Ianthe. No, i-i'm Ianthe. Brothers, it was confusing. "I can't trust my heart as much as you can."
"I think you should go to Atlas… but I won't stop you." Pyrrha replied. "Even Beacon, if you want."
I shook my head. "It's better if you go to Beacon alone. I'd only slow you down."
"Bold words from the 'ultimate soldier'," Pyrrha said. "You're not a burden, Ianthe… if you want to come with me i… I'd understand."
"Pyrrha, you deserve your chance to get away from all of this." I replied quickly. "... We have to be our own people."
Our eyes met, and we both started to smile a bit as I looked back to the papers on the table. I decided to fill up the applications to everyone aside from Beacon… and I waited on it… I saw Mukuro's face in the mirror again. It bothered me, but I wasn't going to let her control my life. My right-hand itches ever so slightly and she vanishes again.
—-
Our mother embraced us tightly before we left.
"Stay safe Ianthe." Pyrrha said with a smile.
"You too…" I took a breath, trying to control myself. This was it; my future, such as it was, would be coming soon.
Mukuro's memories couldn't dull the feeling of anxiousness, but for a moment, I could just pretend she was a nightmare. Pyrrha would go to Beacon, and I would see her again at the Vytal Festival.
"You'll both do fine." Mom insisted with a smile. "We're proud of the both of you, no matter what happens."
My flight would be shorter, so I watched Pyrrha leave with some trepidation before taking a deep breath. No matter what happens, no matter Mukuro or Hope's Peak or whatever Tragedy, our destinies on Remnant awaited us, whatever they would be.