You're reluctant to stray so close to the heretical, but you're also reluctant to lie – you've tried to forget about that Michel de Nostradame. "Indeed I did, Your Apostolic Majesty."
"Well, tell us what you thought of him, lord prince!"
He either doesn't see or doesn't care that you're a man of faith. But, someone of his stature must be entertained. "I must have been about fourteen. He was… Very ill when I met him. Dying, even, of the gout and of dropsy. Swollen and red all over, covered in foul-smelling bandages; he could hardly see because his eyes were all puffed up, like a man beaten about the head."
Rudolf chuckles. "We are eating, sir!" His cronies burst out laughing.
"Well, he said," you do your impression of the prophet, a gravelly yet nasal voice, "he said – 'Radzivilius Princeps, let me touch your face,' and, so, I let him, and then he took my pulse." Rudolf leans forward a little in his seat. You have always tried to not think on whatever sorcery it was that allowed him to say what he did next. "And he determined straight away that I was born under Cancer. He said: 'lord prince, you're more full of water than I am! Much phlegm and blood in you – passion and surrender, service and desire, you shall walk atop a tightrope as an acrobat. And you shall learn through falling.'"
Rudolf nods and grins widely. "I was born on the eighteenth of July – I too live under the sign of the Crab! Old Nostradamus noted the dominance of Mercury over me; perhaps it explains my… Constant excitement!" he laughs. "Though Saturn is the cause of my melancholia."
You'll play the game, may the Lord have mercy on you. How you hate this quasi-witchcraft, even when it's… Eerily accurate. "And I, funnily enough, am ruled by Mars under the Lion's gaze – Nostradamus never asked of that–"
"Ah-ha! But you seem not to be a hot-spur!"
"Heh, well, that's the thing: perhaps I try and keep it in check. My confessor is a Benedictine," you explain, "and a good man who's taught me much of restraint, lest I take to drink and dice-throwing and a suicidal love of battle."
Rudolf looks perplexed. "Well, I suppose that too demonstrates a conscience, a passion, as he said. When were you born, lord prince?"
"The twenty-seventh of June, in the 1,551st year of Our Lord, Your Apostolic Majesty."
He wears an expression of clearly mock horror upon his face, but his tone sounds sincere, even serious: "I am but a year your junior! And I am of the opinion that this is the springtime of life, sir! This is the time to let the choleric humor run wild and free, should a man possess it in him! Let oneself be cooled by the time he's, say, thirty."
"Well, it was killing me," you say, glancing down the table at Mariana. "That was not everything that Nostradamus told me, though, the most important part was this: 'hold the Cross close, and your woman, too.' For in those days I was freshly-Catholic, formerly a Calvinist." Mariana raises her eyebrows at you and looks a little thoughtful.
Rudolf lets out his laugh and looks to Mariana. "What do you think of that, my lady?"
"Forgive my poor Latin," she begins, "jak tse skazati… Fidelity! Fidelity to God and to one's wife alike is a very beautiful thing." Her eye contact with you flickers: she doesn't quite know what to say, or maybe just doesn't have the words. "Unless that woman spoken of is the Blessed Mother."
Is that… Is that pointed? "Indeed, I knew not what to think of it – perhaps I took it both ways," you chuckle, trying to conceal a rising nervousness.
"Your wife speaks Latin very well! Oh, certainly he means the princess," says Rudolf to Mariana, staying jovial. "For the love of Mother Maria is eternal, and never runs dry – but a man may run afoul of his wife with ease!" The table laughs.
"He does indeed hold the Cross close to him, praise God, for even if I belong to the Orthodox creed, piety is piety, and the Lord will be pleased," she says. There's something in the way she says this, though, that feels not so kind. You're not sure if others can see it, but you certainly can – never has she praised you to your face for your faithfulness.
Rumination dominated the rest of the feast.
You and Mariana haven't shared a chamber in weeks. Life on the road and lodging in foreign castles leads to an even starker separation of the sexes, and she's in a wholly separate wing of Prague's castle from you. You used a maid as a go-between, and at last the two of you meet in the wee hours of the morning, away from prying eyes, in a servant's corridor.
She's in her court dress, in her headscarf but without a cap, but her hair's down and spills out of it; she looks a bit bleary. "It's late, Stanisław," she says in a hushed voice, speaking her mother tongue. "Is something wrong?"
You're not angry, per se, but… "Should I be asking you that? You mocked my faith."
"I didn't mock anything," she says, betraying nothing on her face. "Touchy-touchy. You must recall that there is no purgatorium in my creed and, so, well…"
"What?"
"You had your head shaved – yet again – for making a decision you felt was right." Now she's starting to burn a little.
"I disobeyed my father by coming here with so many, with such pomp; it was only right, Mariana!" You struggle for words. "It's… It's not a good thing that I did this, I just couldn't sit by or–"
"And when was the last time you gave alms?" she asks. She waits for an answer. "How about having a church built? You could have filled Orsza up with missionaries if you wished, and instead you worried about what you ate, whether you tended to your garden of Saint Benedict." Your face is getting hot, and you say a little prayer in your head for calm. "You are godly enough within, Stanisław. I saw that in you, as did my father, glory to Christ. I was fond of you the moment I laid eyes on you, and I think that to be God's guidance."
"You don't understand–"
"I don't? I was there for everything when you came apart. When you–"
"I know what I did. I know what I did. Vomiting at the table. Gambling with those burghers. The way I'd ride from Wilno to Dubinki and back for no point besides having some of the Jews' Warka-style, drinking beer like a serf."
"This pity! Such pity! Bring the inside outside!" Mariana implores. She never truly gets angry with you, it feels, but this is the closest it'll get. "I don't know the man who married me anymore." Such a despairing thing to say, and yet, somehow, you detect not a trace of it.
"I didn't– I didn't call on you for this, to hear my own wife speak down to me!"
"What is it, then?" she snaps. "What is it? Do you need something from me? You need me when you need not God these days, it seems." She shakes her head. "I'll be back to my chambers–"
"It's important."
"What is it?"
You almost tell her you love her; it almost spills out, like an overfilled pitcher. You're not even sure if you truly do or not. But you do need her. It's hard to tell the difference, perhaps. "Rudolf. You've been speaking with the ladies – do they know anything?"
"You're a lucky man that I'm loyal to family and homeland," she pokes your chest, somehow able to half-joke through this. "He's a bit of a dog, as it turns out. There's much sleeping about; everybody says he's generous, kind-hearted, a good lover – yet not a serious man at all."
"But you never heard anything of him wanting our throne?"
"No. It's only been a few days, hasn't it?"
"Hmmm…" You look down in thought.
[] "...I've got to get him to say something."
Try to get Rudolf alone to determine whether he's properly interested or not.
[] "...We can't keep the Emperor waiting."
We must depart for Vienna within a few days, lest we lose our momentum.