Code Rei-peat: Episode 8 - Asuka meet not-so-cute
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"First, we should be friends."
What had she said the first time? 'Only if I am ordered to'. Even that would not work. It would also start things off antagonistically. Asuka, this Asuka even more than her wife, needed a challenge. Not something she would take as an insult. That did not leave many options. She could ignore the girl. That would be easier. She sighed. Shinji would forgive her for this. Shinji would apologise for this. She would deal with that annoyance later.
She looked up.
"Rei."
"What?"
"My name. Rei to my friends. Ayanami to others. Pilot Ayanami when on duty. Not First. Unless you wish to be Second," and Rei used the derogatory tone Asuka used when she first called her Wondergirl for that final word. There was no way she could ask this Asuka to call her 'mein Wundermädchen' in that soft tone she used between kisses.
"Fine! So what do you say, Rei?"
"On one condition."
"What makes you think you're in a position to require anything of me?" And there was the arrogance. So annoying. So precious. She would miss it when it was gone.
"You desire to be my friend."
She watched Asuka squirm. Perhaps this would be a useful lesson after all.
"Whatever. So what'd you want?"
She tried to remain calm. She had made sure to take all her medications that morning. The sensible thing to say would be "I want you to call me Rei." She knew the right way to say it so it sounded like a demand rather than the plea it really was. But faced with the actual Asuka. Bright and brilliant with the sun reflecting in her eyes so clearly she could imagine her wearing the yellow dress the way Shinji described both first times they met. Looking up at Asuka, her Asuka, calm and sensible slipped through her mental fingers and she said what she really wanted.
"Kiss me," the words were impulsive but even so they came out in the tone she had carefully selected to be somewhere between nonchalant and challenging. She had had an excellent tutor.
Asuka stared at her. It wasn't often she managed to render Asuka speechless. She supressed the smile. Lilith on a stick she missed her wife. Three. Two. One.
"What!? Eww!"
"I was reliably informed you were better at kissing than I am. Prove it."
She watched Asuka closely. There was no flicker of recognition. Bugger. Damn. Fuck. Superheated Goat Excrement. There went the sliver of hope that Asuka remembered.
She closed her book, got up and walked away. Leaving Asuka standing there. She had been wrong. It had been the wrong way to challenge her. She was not running away. It was a brisk walk. Technically it was not running.
She was leaning against her locker not crying. Her hormone balance was off. This body was wrong. Too small. Too fragile. Too numb. She had thought she was ready. No one was here. Not her wife. Not her husband. Not Asuka. Not Shinji.
A fist slammed into the locker by her head. She did not move.
"What the hell First?"
"Rei," she whispered. "My friends call me Rei."
"What makes you think I want to be friends after that stunt?"
She didn't open her eyes. She could feel Asuka's breath on her face. Loud, obnoxious and Asuka. The Great Asuka Langley Soryu. Not Asuka Ayanami-Soryu.
"You are here."
"Why?"
Why are you here Asuka? Why are you Asuka? Why do I want to kiss you so much it hurts more than a broken rib?
"Why should I kiss you First?"
Because Shinji would panic and run away. Oh. She meant her. First Child. Not to kiss her first, before Shinji. Was the order important? How much would she break if she closed the small distance and kissed Asuka. This was still child-Asuka no matter what she sounded like. She needed to wait. She swallowed and turned her head away. Asuka's warm breath on her neck was only marginally better than across her lips. Her Shinji was better at neck kisses. Maybe this Asuka would be. This was not helping.
"Hmph! For a moment I thought you were going to be interesting."
Asuka walked away.
Rei watched her go. She had, by at least some definition, died three times now. Perhaps four if whatever had returned her to this life had been fatal. She could do it again. It couldn't possibly be as frustrating as this could it? It was too early to blow herself up. Anything less probably wouldn't work. She could blow Yui up. That was tempting.
Perhaps she could get drunk. This body was not used to alcohol. It would not require more than a litre or two. As long as she did not take the Commander's whiskey. The only use that had was removing what was left of her taste buds after eating the Captain's cooking. Numbing her senses further seemed like a good idea. Her medication regimen was designed to regulate the emotions of someone who did not have any to start with. The adjustments had not helped. There was only so much she could safely admit to. Except the last time she had been sufficiently intoxicated she had kissed
"Class Representative Horaki, what can I do for you?"
"Oh! Ayanami-san. It's time for class. Is everything alright? Normally you are very punctual."
Wonderful. Letting Hikari notice was possibly an even worse idea than kissing Asuka. She needed a distraction.
"It is not. Please inform Pilot Ikari that I require his assistance."
She watched the class rep hurry off. It wasn't entirely Nerv business. Except preventing her causing a nuclear explosion was probably better for the continued survival of the human race. Probably. She would reassess the situation after her hug.
What had she said the first time? 'Only if I am ordered to'. Even that would not work. It would also start things off antagonistically. Asuka, this Asuka even more than her wife, needed a challenge. Not something she would take as an insult. That did not leave many options. She could ignore the girl. That would be easier. She sighed. Shinji would forgive her for this. Shinji would apologise for this. She would deal with that annoyance later.
She looked up.
"Rei."
"What?"
"My name. Rei to my friends. Ayanami to others. Pilot Ayanami when on duty. Not First. Unless you wish to be Second," and Rei used the derogatory tone Asuka used when she first called her Wondergirl for that final word. There was no way she could ask this Asuka to call her 'mein Wundermädchen' in that soft tone she used between kisses.
"Fine! So what do you say, Rei?"
"On one condition."
"What makes you think you're in a position to require anything of me?" And there was the arrogance. So annoying. So precious. She would miss it when it was gone.
"You desire to be my friend."
She watched Asuka squirm. Perhaps this would be a useful lesson after all.
"Whatever. So what'd you want?"
She tried to remain calm. She had made sure to take all her medications that morning. The sensible thing to say would be "I want you to call me Rei." She knew the right way to say it so it sounded like a demand rather than the plea it really was. But faced with the actual Asuka. Bright and brilliant with the sun reflecting in her eyes so clearly she could imagine her wearing the yellow dress the way Shinji described both first times they met. Looking up at Asuka, her Asuka, calm and sensible slipped through her mental fingers and she said what she really wanted.
"Kiss me," the words were impulsive but even so they came out in the tone she had carefully selected to be somewhere between nonchalant and challenging. She had had an excellent tutor.
Asuka stared at her. It wasn't often she managed to render Asuka speechless. She supressed the smile. Lilith on a stick she missed her wife. Three. Two. One.
"What!? Eww!"
"I was reliably informed you were better at kissing than I am. Prove it."
She watched Asuka closely. There was no flicker of recognition. Bugger. Damn. Fuck. Superheated Goat Excrement. There went the sliver of hope that Asuka remembered.
She closed her book, got up and walked away. Leaving Asuka standing there. She had been wrong. It had been the wrong way to challenge her. She was not running away. It was a brisk walk. Technically it was not running.
She was leaning against her locker not crying. Her hormone balance was off. This body was wrong. Too small. Too fragile. Too numb. She had thought she was ready. No one was here. Not her wife. Not her husband. Not Asuka. Not Shinji.
A fist slammed into the locker by her head. She did not move.
"What the hell First?"
"Rei," she whispered. "My friends call me Rei."
"What makes you think I want to be friends after that stunt?"
She didn't open her eyes. She could feel Asuka's breath on her face. Loud, obnoxious and Asuka. The Great Asuka Langley Soryu. Not Asuka Ayanami-Soryu.
"You are here."
"Why?"
Why are you here Asuka? Why are you Asuka? Why do I want to kiss you so much it hurts more than a broken rib?
"Why should I kiss you First?"
Because Shinji would panic and run away. Oh. She meant her. First Child. Not to kiss her first, before Shinji. Was the order important? How much would she break if she closed the small distance and kissed Asuka. This was still child-Asuka no matter what she sounded like. She needed to wait. She swallowed and turned her head away. Asuka's warm breath on her neck was only marginally better than across her lips. Her Shinji was better at neck kisses. Maybe this Asuka would be. This was not helping.
"Hmph! For a moment I thought you were going to be interesting."
Asuka walked away.
Rei watched her go. She had, by at least some definition, died three times now. Perhaps four if whatever had returned her to this life had been fatal. She could do it again. It couldn't possibly be as frustrating as this could it? It was too early to blow herself up. Anything less probably wouldn't work. She could blow Yui up. That was tempting.
Perhaps she could get drunk. This body was not used to alcohol. It would not require more than a litre or two. As long as she did not take the Commander's whiskey. The only use that had was removing what was left of her taste buds after eating the Captain's cooking. Numbing her senses further seemed like a good idea. Her medication regimen was designed to regulate the emotions of someone who did not have any to start with. The adjustments had not helped. There was only so much she could safely admit to. Except the last time she had been sufficiently intoxicated she had kissed
"Class Representative Horaki, what can I do for you?"
"Oh! Ayanami-san. It's time for class. Is everything alright? Normally you are very punctual."
Wonderful. Letting Hikari notice was possibly an even worse idea than kissing Asuka. She needed a distraction.
"It is not. Please inform Pilot Ikari that I require his assistance."
She watched the class rep hurry off. It wasn't entirely Nerv business. Except preventing her causing a nuclear explosion was probably better for the continued survival of the human race. Probably. She would reassess the situation after her hug.