MYRMIDON - Mechsploitation and Political Horror, A Review for a Friend

Introduction and Act I Review New

Geckonator

Saint of Awe
Through the coincidence of recent events in my private life, a few weeks ago I got in touch with an old internet friend I had not spoken to for several years.

In our first new conversations, we caught up on many things, but one point which she proudly informed me of stood out immediately: She had written a novel.

You see, I had not been completely unaware of her projects and output while I had been out of contact. Some of the circles I lurked around on Bluesky, née Twitter, had still had ties to her and often shared her work; meaning I had vaguely seen, but not fully understood the context of, art and discussion around this project already.

The name alone was enough to intrigue me, though.

MYRMIDON, by PROLETKVLT (AKA Tamara)



Do unto others, what has been done to you

In a wonderful twist of fate, I had just started reading the Iliad as a bit of intermittent heavy reading a few days before this reunion with Tammy. In subsequent conversations, just commenting on my odd little half-formed mental picture of the work from secondhand exposure and now proximity as people in her Discord groups talks, I felt increasingly intrigued and in tune with where the project was coming from... even if it turned out that, as Tammy explained, the Iliad and Trojan War cycle were actually less major influences beyond some prominent theming and very broad strokes. It's a work aiming for the exploration of cycles of violence, through both political history and interpersonal abuse; for the deconstruction of political fantasy in the alternate history genre and the immense Human suffering implied in what many idly wish for; and for more than a little... exploration of grotesque and transgressive sexual dynamics that speak to a lot of very personal fears.

Yes, this story is technically erotica. The mature tag is on this thread for a reason.

Or, at least, it's a work with a lot of sexual elements in conversation with a very niche genre of erotica. Tamara calls it "kink horror", and with what I've read so far and want to talk about... I'm inclined to agree with her and call that the best possible label.

But let's back up and address that genre for a second, because I feel pretty certain that a large portion of the SV audience interested here won't be able to follow right away.

Mechsploitation: How From Software Accidentally Inspired a New Genre of Science Fiction Pornography


"We're close to Rubicon. Wake the dog up."

I really wonder if the writers of Armored Core VI are online enough to have taken any notice at all of how much this analogy of dogs and handlers has spiraled out completely beyond their own story and intents.

As far as I can quickly and easily trace the history of pre-release material, that line and its implications first reached anglophone audiences via a trailer in late April of 2023. It, and all the swirling rumors and explanations around it from other previews and promotional material, inspired something right away. I believe there was already some... exploration of just how sexual the connotations of being an authority figure's "Hound" are early on, but the impact truly hit on July 14th of that year (narrowly beating out the release of ACVI's story trailer, which revealed more of the Hound dynamic and that game's themes of miserable debt-slave transhumanism, by a few days to give her credit for being ahead of the curve) when Internet mind-control erotica writer Kallie released the then-one-off story WARHOUND, featuring a female protagonist in a brutal, mecha-heavy military sci-fi setting being brainwashed and enslaved by a shadowy military representative of a totalitarian government.

It was immediately off to the dog races, if you will.

This fiction hit at basically a perfect moment. Not only was Armored Core VI set to release in the late summer of that year, but it was roughly at the end of the (too short, in my opinion, but that's grumbling for elsewhere) run of Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury. G-Witch had very prominently and enthusiastically featured lesbian protagonists in a way that had captured a large online yuri fandom, and that translated into a hunger for more mecha fiction catering to those tastes in romantic themes... and often quite darker than romantic.

So now we had a trend on our hands, as sites like ReadOnlyMind and ArchiveOfOurOwn lit up with a decent little storm of writers trying their hand at this concept. What's shared in common tends to be the rough emotional appeal: the mech Pilot as an instrument of violence for a larger political or economic cause, but a fundamentally disempowered one; often literally dehumanized by some invasive cybernetic or psychological process to be a more effective tool for their Handler.

Yes, there is a trend of basically always calling the commanding officer in this fiction a "Handler" rather than anything else... which is definitely an element that rubs some the wrong way.

A criticism of this genre I've heard from a few friends is that it's fundamentally a small, niche fandom of relatively young women (often trans women) stumbling into genre conventions with a lot of enthusiasm but maybe not enough experience and... research (I'm really not sure of a better word to describe reading or watching other fiction with a critical eye so you can make your own better) under their belts. It shows in things like the "Handler" terminology taking on a life of its own outside of the fundamental commanding officer relationship, with often not bothering to imagine something more sexually transgressive than that, and with just not iterating as much with original science fiction beyond the Armored Core and Gundam influences.

But still, I personally find a good deal of it very fun or hot, so I ended up following a few writers and artists within the theme, hence being exposed to MYRMIDON before I even started talking to Tammy again.

Shameless Promotion


So, why am I posting about this on here?

Well, after getting in touch with Tammy again and learning more about MYRMIDON, I started realizing that its thematic differences with and niche in the kink space of Mechsploitation mesh naturally with things that I'm already talking about in my Draka Let's Read: the relationship between political science fiction and alternative history with sexual fantasy, but also with darker aspects of abuse and gender and deeper interpersonal pain.

Which is to say, I think Tammy's kind of ended up making, without realizing it, a "The Domination of the Draka But Good" fic without the baggage of actually having it be fanfic of the Draka. A brilliant coincidence of convergence, it turns out, as I explained what the Draka are to her and left her utterly baffled.

Aside from that, I also just like the themes and intentions she's evidently putting into this work in general... as I will start getting to in the review proper.

However, I actually held off on sitting down to read it for these past few weeks, for one simple reason: it wasn't done yet. Tammy had a complete draft of the whole book last year but has been rewriting it entirely into a three act structure released over time on AO3. I wanted to hold off on really releasing my input because on some level I thought I would be a Jane-come-lately if I got too into the weeds of discussing it with her or breaking it down before she had a finished product when I had just come in at the end of her work. That time is now past, as she currently has the second draft of Act III finished and editing. This is now a complete novel, and I want to share my thoughts as a bit of an open critique in writing to get a conversation started.

So, just transparently and up front, my overall disposition on MYRMIDON is positive right off the bat. I can never say I'm here to be a dispassionate critic or pick away at the details. This is shameless promotion for a friend, as I believe there are enough people on SV to be interested in this story and I want to spread and talk about it now that I've read it. Please read Tammy's book; she's an excellent writer, a great artist, and a good woman who I know has put a lot of herself into this.

But beyond my unavoidable bias, I think there's a lot to talk about. This isn't a "Let's Read" as such, because I don't think this calls for a detailed recounting and laborious plot beat by beat analysis of the book (it's free on AO3 linked above; go read my friend's book) so I would, rather, like to organize things by topic.

Get In The Robot, Mel



The first third of the Triptych Tammy made for the banner art on AO3. The full thing is kind of a spoiler, however.

So, right away, my impression of the first Act of MYRMIDON when I finished reading and stepped back was "Wow, that's literally the first episode Evangelion retold with more military/political horror and sexual assault."

This is a very funny thing to realize because I learned a bit ago that Tammy had not in fact seen Evangelion until a few months ago, well after the first draft of MYRMIDON.

To give a basic summary for those who need a little more explanation or prodding, and just to provide a basic foundation for my critique, the story of MYRMIDON starts off with a group of low-status conscripts from a broadly Eastern Bloc-coded Communist state called simply "The Regime" returning to their base in conquered Switzerland after a deployment in an apparently still-resistant France. Among them are girlfriends Amelia "Mel" Heydari and Gwenneth Hazelwood, still reckoning with the fact that the former had just killed a man for the first time during the otherwise routine and menial assignment. Mel is, unfortunately, identified at this point by the leadership council of the "Achilles Project", a shadowy operation by the Regime to supplement and replace their Exosuit Corps which has proven militarily and politically unreliable for their already evident grand plans for world conquest ("liberation"-I'll get to the ideology of The Regime and the decidedly complicated characterization it receives soon enough). She is put through a rapid recruitment into the Corps and ideological sales pitch, mainly playing on her fawning idolization of the Exosuit Corps General and Achilles Project Director Lydia Voss, but it quickly becomes clear that her actual consent or cooperation is not important to the Project, as the plan sees her as merely a promising set of psychological conditions for cyborg conditioning (mainly her autism) and Voss sees her as just another victim for a clear habit of sexual abuse.


Tammy's Official Cast Sheet, with biographical reference details. There's also a nude version, which is how I know if any given character is trans or cis regardless of whether it comes up in the plot.

Mel is literally groped, drugged, and thrown into an automated torture chamber by Voss, subjecting her to a week of hypnagogic brainwashing facilitated by the wonder drug cocktail "Lotus" (I'll get into my interest in these details of how the story handles the stereotypical brainwashing/mind break plot of Mechsploitation later, but suffice to say it's interesting that Lotus is stated to mostly be a combination of very mundane and functional psychoactive substances). This week creates a dissociative secondary identity dominating a barely functional Mel, known as "Pilot One", who is promptly scrambled for a sortie with one of Voss's Exosuit units to Bordeaux to both crush the French insurgents and test her capabilities. This does not go well, however, due to the volatile balance of a resistant Mel and bloodthirsty Pilot One, and the Act ends with Pilot One having to be subdued from her berserk state while Voss ominously looks on and brags that this is all just part of the plan to "finish what Lenin started."

It's all relatively straightforward when I lay it out like that, and the resemblance to the first episode of Evangelion is a little uncanny. You have the teenage loner (Mel and Gwen are both 18, serving The Regime's mandatory military service; the character sheet means this is the fast and immediate way to realize this story takes place in late 2065, or 148 "Revolutionary Era" to use The Regime's calendar which counts the 1917 Russian Revolution as Year 0) recruited by a sinister father figure (again, I'll get to it) to pilot a mecha, then a disastrous deployment that ends in the mech going berserk due to the sinister horrors involved in its creation backfiring.

This is obviously a reductive summary, but it's a good starting point to focus in on the details that I think set this story apart and make it interesting to talk about. It takes a broad outline of a good mecha story opening and then builds its themes over top of it.

Lydia Voss: The Worst Trans Woman, as Drawn by a Trans Woman


I think it's really hard to talk about MYRMIDON without its visual art accompaniment (Tammy has always been a visual artist in her whole multimedia suite, and it's part of the distinct image that's marked her contributions to many projects from Paradox modding to her own fiction), and that art makes it impossible to avoid talking about Voss.

So let's start there.


A note on appearances... in almost any piece where Mel's cyborged up and has the uneven bloated right eye, cover one half of her face with your hand or something in your field of view, then try the other. Mel and Pilot One seem to have a bit of a problem with boundaries and time division, and have very different demeanors.

Seeing Voss for the first time without context, my immediate impression was that she was a transphobic caricature, and that there has to be something really interesting at play to explain that, textually, from a proudly trans artist.

Act I does not really provide much elaboration on this yet, but I have reliably gathered from discussions in Tammy's servers where I've tried avoiding getting too many answers about the plot and central reveals that there is a reason to Voss's rhyme, so to speak, with the horrendous creatures of transphobic propaganda. She is an unkempt, sexually licentious predator not necessarily because she is transgender and entrusted with authority (Mel is, if I have not mentioned it yet, herself trans, as are the extremely personable and enthusiastic Cuban private Tanya in her initial unit and the male pilot in the Exosuit team, both very aggressively normal and well-adjusted people by all appearances) but because she is a transgender woman who willingly climbed the ranks of totalitarian state power that enable and encourage one's worst vices in exchange for dedication to the cause. Her own gender anxieties and neuroses will apparently be a topic for the next two Acts, but for now she stands, at least in my interpretation, as someone whose gender has sort of been betrayed and suppressed by her belief system bringing out her worst impulses. She is, as one of Tammy's captions on an illustration of her says, a "state assigned abusive dad (female)" because the role of the commanding officer has always been strongly culturally encoded as fatherly, and this is still a society which has never made a concerted effort to end the sexual abuses allowed to father figures, regardless of its nominal "historical progressivism."

And as for facial hair, something trans women (at least myself and most others I know... there are obviously exceptions where some of us can be more comfortable with it but I think the political valence is universally recognizable) often try desperately to avoid being seen or associated with... I would like to just give my read of a theme throughout the act about it.

Another salute. It's only now, staring into those tinted lenses and at that scratchy, chiseled face, that Mel realizes she hadn't shaved. Thin, wispy stubble clings to her chin. The biggest moment of her life – and she didn't even think to clean up for it! A sudden shyness overcomes her; she looks at Gwen for approval, but finds her partner staring right through her. There's a pained look on her face; Mel, suddenly, thinks she knows why, turning the excitement into something sour.

When Mel is initially met by Voss, she herself hasn't had time to shave or clean up in preparation... mostly because, obviously, she's been on the road with her unit and has just gotten back without time to really decompress or clean up.

But then during the horrific, automated surgical scene:

Cold, pressurized jets of calcium hydroxide and water. They blast her free of body hair , spreading and manipulating her limbs to ensure every single last strand is completely gone. The smell of burning hair; Mel is soon left as smooth as the day she was born , red and raw, a few micrometers of her epidermis sloughed off with everything else; if the machines had simply wished to disrobe her and shave her, though, Voss would've done it herself.

It is the precise, mechanical priority of the Pilot process to render Mel hairless, but only as a side effect for function. It just as ruthlessly shaves off a streak of her beloved head hair--a symbol of her gender before she even started hormones--to allow room for the invasive installation of a computer interface into her brain.

This is all enjoyed by Voss upon molesting her later, upon emergence:

The General's hands slide across the Pilot's smooth, naked body, now devoid of body hair. Rough digits atop gel-coated, lubricated softness.

"Must say, I was a fan of the boyish look you'd been rocking last week, but this is… much better."

All of this is to say... my literary read of what Tammy is going for (this is such a weird thing to say about someone I can literally message on Discord right now but it's part of the exercise) is that the facial hair is representative of the individual agency and, by extension, failure that a trans woman can have as an individual in living up to the social assumptions and demands of our identified gender. When I get so busy I can't grab a shower or wash my face, the times I usually assign for shaving, stubble is a reminder of my own neglect or priorities that can generate a lot of personal anxiety and demands to fix it before anyone can see. Mel lives with this too, with the rigors of military life forcing her into the dysphoric position of being observable in this moment of vulnerability, whereas Voss has been granted so much power by the state and been elevated above so much criticism or resistance--Voss's position makes her as capable of ignoring "no" as any capitalist billionaire--that she can neglect herself and feel no shame, even seemingly wield it as a privilege while fetishizing the beauty standard being forced on others.

Her history of sexual assault is implied to be a known and expected quantity, too, by the other authority figures around her. Even if they aren't, there are at least suspicions that keep getting ignored and paint a picture of institutions completely and realistically in thrall to letting a "good officer" keep working in her little fiefdom.

In fact, it's a repeated motif of the chapter that two relatively high up authority figures in the Project, Party Regional Secretary Zoya Borysenka and lead Doctor Berkowitz, both clearly recognize and are uncomfortable with Voss singling out Mel for obvious sexual abuse and keep getting cowed into silence... even though Zoya specifically says her job is supposed to be political and ethical oversight of the program. The Stasi (in the form of Ailin, who is so mysterious and monstrously devoted to the state that they get they/them pronouns seemingly out of gender itself being scared of their authority) even plays a part, clearly having some role in making clear Voss can't actually be stopped.

"'Scuse me, Pilot – tight fit in here, ain't it?"

She has plenty of space, given the carriage is designed to fit a dozen people, but insists on boxing Mel into a corner. The smaller girl's about to say something, but finds her words stolen by the uncomfortable proximity. Mel fidgets; the General is huge, a living wall, and the smell of cigarette smoke and cologne is giving her a headache. There's something else on the air, too, something Mel can't quite pick up on.

Zoya and Berkowitz motion as if to say something, but Ailin quickly stands between them, Voss, and Mel. A hand on the close-door button, and an awkward, stifling quiet descends upon the five figures. With a click, the carriage begins to move upwards. It's a smooth, quiet ride. Too quiet, actually; Berkowitz coughs and shatters the atmosphere.
"Pilot," Voss snaps, "I suggest we cut down on the small-talk."

Mel shrinks, mumbling "sorry" before hiding herself behind the General. Zoya reassuringly holds her arm, but says nothing.
" But- what do you mean "plug in?" Exosuits… exosuits have cockpits!" Mel's grasping at the straws that formerly made up reality. Brains. Plugs…

"Yours won't – well, not a cockpit like any you or anyone else's seen." A chuckle. "We've reduced their size immensely, concentrating all that firepower into an even-smaller package. You're gonna be one tight little hell-raiser."

Zoya cocks an eyebrow at the usage of the word "tight" there, but Berkowitz speaks before she does.
" I can tell you're hesitant, and I don't blame you – b ut worried or not, we 've still got places to be. " Voss takes a few steps forward, steel-toe clicking on the shiny, polished floor. " As Chief Director of this Project, what do you say we walk downstairs together, eh?"

Silence as Mel mulls it over; it's an offer she can't quite refuse.

"...General, I'm… n-not sure if that's appropriate. Weren't we… all going t-"

"Comrade Borysenka," Voss interrupts Zoya, startling the small woman into deference, "I assure you, Pilot Heydari would appreciate the personal attention. Ain't that right, Pilot?"

Oh, shit, she's on the spot again, this time already panicking to begin with. Desperate to get out of the situation, Mel slumps down, limp, into the path of least resistance.

"Um, yes, General!" Her vocal optimism is palpably forced, a poor attempt to mask, but everything's moving too fast; time, the words, the pounding of Mel's heart.
It's a really quite harrowing and grounded portrait of oversight doing nothing because the purpose of the system is what it does.

By the way, apparently in the very earliest drafts (as in, concept art) of MYRMIDON, Voss was cis and textually her dehumanization and abuse of Mel was a chaser thing.



Up to you how to debate the "what could have been" there and how that thematically compares. I'm personally here for depicting the most horrible and toxic T4T imaginable rather than it being the pure and true option as in a lot of romantic fiction written by trans women.

Rage--Goddess, Sing the Rage of Peleus' Son Achilles


One central influence on MYRMIDON that I'm immediately hit by is music. This is something Tamara is quite open about, because she made a whole Spotify playlist to accompany it.

Like, if I had to guess as to the assignment of songs to this Act, tracks 1 through 10 line up quite well with the arc currently, with TOOL's Undertow in particular lining up with the aquatic prose associated with Mel's indoctrination in the Pilot program. The depths of Fort Dietrich are dark, cavernous, and positioned over flowing underground rivers directly comparable to the River Styx of the chapter's title; and both the chapter blurb on AO3 and one passage in particular use that exact wording of being sucked under uncontrollable currents for losing control of one's self to describe the narcotic effects of Lotus:

Mel is thrown into the River Styx, dragged through the undertow, and all Gwen can do is watch
Voss grips Mel's shoulders and spins her around. Before the young Pilot can form the first syllable of the obligatory "sorry, sir," Voss balls her off hand into a fist and slams it right into Mel's gut. Predictably, she buckles over in pain. Saliva oozes forth atop the moans and gruesome whimpers escaping her wide-open lips. Voss capitalizes, and with a firm hand planted on Mel's chin she lifts her drooping mouth and shoves the capsule right in. Whatever the outside is made of, it dissolves instantaneously on contact with moisture. Bright red gel splashes all over the inside of her mouth, leaking down her chin; with it came a pungent chemical taste, undercut with fake-cherry benzaldehyde.

Mel's ochre eyes dilate; she gasps and sputters, nearly choking on the stuff. It works quickly, soaking through her sinuses' mucus membranes. The swirling dark soon takes shape, intersecting lines of bright-red geometry slicing through everything she sees. Nothing makes sense; it's like she's just been thrown off the side of a massive vessel, thrashed about in the leviathan crimson undertow.

None of this is just to say there's plagiarism here, of course, or to just make a simplistic "I recognized the thing!" claim. What I'm saying is that Tamara chose very well in terms of connecting her work to a kind of "bardic" tradition, going for poetry and a very clear understanding of what moods and experiences from inspirational works that she wants to channel. The playlist makes for a very good descent from from despairing heavy rock dirges describing the suffering of personal abuse (both chemical and interpersonal), where we are now, and then into more aggressive and anxious tracks indicating acts to come.

With a particularly grim and portentous exception at the end of the list, which the Act directly quotes...



"Blue skies drive the dark clouds far away," as Gwen thinks when masturbating to this photo of better times, to relieve her worry about what happened to Mel.

Yeah, it's not hard to figure out where exactly Voss and The Regime are taking the world in the name of Final Communism, even if you're not like me seeing hints and discussion of Act III being posted in real time.

Ah, but what about the greatest musical reference of all... Homeric epic poetry? (It was performed bardic style in Ancient Greece so it counts.)

Well, right away, just as a moment to gush about Tammy's visual artwork and illustrations, even if she asserts that the Iliad connections were never very deep or thorough, her stylistic choices capture something that I want to point out.




The use of earthen red or dark ("wine dark", you could say) background tones, contrasted by deep black figures and highlights of a few other colors... The fantastic (in both the superlative and "not realistic" senses of the word) use of shapes and silhouette along with caricatured posing... It's rather reminiscent of Greek black-figure pottery, isn't it? The world and aesthetic of MYRMIDON is deliberately mostly Cold War retro-futurism mixed with anime and truly impossible nightmare machines, but I think it still catches a very classical brutality. This is a world where the powers that be claim a path to technological communist utopia, but it really feels like it's spiraling into a Bronze Age atrocity.

I mean, even just the name "Achilles Project" says a lot about the motivations and awareness of the people involved. The metaphors are even textually jumbled, as Voss mentions that Berkowitz chose most of the names of the Project as part of a personal interest in mythology ("nostalgic as always") and called the enabling drug mix of the whole thing "Lotus", which was a Homeric story from the Odyssey, not the Iliad, with no relation to Achilles or his Myrmidons.

What we can gather is that The Regime wants soldiers who are not modern Humans. They don't even want cold, mechanical drones implied by the etymology/mythical origin of the Myrmidons as "ant men." They want killers, they want the classical, Homeric mind--famously theorized by some out of date evolutionary psychological theories to be literally "bicameral" in terms of hallucinating orders from the gods much like how Mel becomes subjected to Pilot One--that might suffer poetically but never flinches from a constant forward push of bloodshed ordained by the gods.

The Regime has decided that the actual Human soldiers produced by a modern society, even an ideological Communist one with universal military service and inducement to volunteer for elite units, has produced disappointments to the kind of war they want to wage.

" Mistakes?" Mel is indignant. She furrows her brow. "What mistakes could a Pilot like Kass possible make?"

"Well," Voss shoots, "the kind that wound up killing her, to start with. In more specific terms, though – insubordination, insufficient discipline, a lax attitude to the correctness of her political life… liberalism , in short."

Mel doesn't know what to say. She can feel her words slipping away again. It's impossible to get her bearings in the darkness; her attempts to look upwards, to avert her eyes from the inescapable situation, are met only with blindness from the harsh, yellowish incandescent bulb above. Fuck, why is it still so cold in here?

"That, of course," Voss adds, finally, "is why you're here, Heydari. Morale's tanked and discipline's gone down the drain with it. The average Pilot is a hedonistic layabout, more worried about their next lay than the advancement of Communism. It's a sad state of affairs, truly; in my fifteen years of leadership I've never seen such… rot." Her voice takes an edge that makes Mel want to crawl out of her skin. "You, though? You're raw material – fresh meat for a fresh start. A dull knife we can sharpen – make new and deadly."

They don't want a big-breasted Ukrainian war hero who makes for good pinup posters but I suspect they killed with an earlier iteration of the Program or just allowed to die because she wouldn't sleep with Voss or something. They don't want people with spouses back home like Captain Ambroz, or basic Human needs and wants in the barracks.

They want:
For my own death, I'll meet it freely--whenever Zeus
and the other deathless gods would like to bring it on!
Not even Heracles fled his death, for all his power,
favorite son as he was to Father Zeus the King.
Fate crushed him, and Hera's savage anger.
And I too, if the same fate waits for me . . .
I'll lie in peace, once I've gone down to death.
But now, for the moment, let me seize great glory!--
and drive some woman of Troy or deep-breasted Dardan
to claw with both hands at her tender cheeks and wipe away
her burning tears as the sobs come choking from her throat--
they'll learn that I refrained from war a good long time!

They want:
I, by god, I'd drive our Argives into battle now,
starving, famished, and only then, when the sun goes down,
lay on a handsome feast--once we've avenged our shame.
Before then, for me at least, neither food nor drink
will travel down my throat, not with my friend dead,
there in my shelter, torn to shreds by the sharp bronze . . .
His feet turned to the door, stretched out for burial,
round him comrades mourning. You talk of food?
I have no taste for food--what I really crave
is slaughter and blood and the choking groans of men!"

They want... a Warrior Mindset.

Hey, did I mention that I once saw Tammy jokingly compare Voss to Pete Hegseth?

Death to (Communist) America: The Regime and the Horror of Alternate History


The world of MYRMIDON is fucked.


Tammy's most recent map of the setting; although she warns that everything beyond the Regime and American borders is liable to be inaccurate as details can change/be contradicted.

I'm not certain on what exactly the point of divergence was, and I still insist on not asking Tamara outright because I think it's more interesting to try and gather what I can from the text, but the clear outcome is that the Cold War never ended... and the United States never started winning it. The Soviet Union stayed committed to a maximalist Communist program and the memory of Stalinism, with no Khrushchev thaw or reforms but instead a constant push for doctrinaire centralization and an uncharacteristic swerve in policy to directly absorb its allies (and annexed enemies) over time rather than the traditional Non-Partisan Moscow Consensus of buffer zones and ideologically aligned states. No, instead Communism remains on the march, militarily, in a constant assault on the West. France fell in living memory, and Britain was violently "liberated" in the 2050s--the black zones of nuclear fallout and lawlessness all over the map, and Gwen's facial burn scars as a resettled refugee, should tell you exactly what kinds of weapons The Regime uses alongside the exosuits.

The worst, perhaps most horrifying part of all this... is that they're actually making it work. The Regime, despite all the dystopian, comically evil crimes this plot revolves around, seems to be characterized as having built a genuine, noticeable percentage of Communism for the lives of its subjects, a standard of living and social unity that means this system cannot collapse into the cynical national power grabs of the real world USSR.


Poster for in-universe relocation drives to grow the "World Capital" built in Western Siberia. The Regime is stated to make very ideal and lovely Garden Cities.

This is a system that even has what we would consider progressive social and ecological values, which frankly I would think actual USSR ideologues of the Malenkov/Suslov mold would fight tooth and nail to never let into their Parties. It's stated that large portions of France and Switzerland have been rewilded for ecological preservation (along with the slightly more sinister implied land use of "rehabilitative collective farmland" implying some kind of labor camp system...), and obviously for better and worse this is a state where queer people have been normalized up to the highest levels of leadership.


They even let a doll be Premiere! Just don't ask if she really has any free will or agency anymore... or if she's Human... or if she's alive...

From Tammy's worldbuilding piece above and without asking more questions myself, the best I can gather as to the foundation of The Regime is that there was some rapid equalization of roles between the DDR and Soviet Union in the Eastern Bloc (USSR advanced faster in WW2 so they grabbed all of Germany, maybe?), and also North Korea while they were at it. The Germans apparently got into leading roles in world communism very fast, which is why the displayed written language of the Regime from our characters' perspective in Europe is German, but it's mentioned that everyone in The Regime speaks an artificial state-encouraged conlang called "Eurasian"--which I think is a dialect of Russian?--and some of Tammy's art has propaganda written in I think Chinese characters too, for a full trilingual affect.

Meanwhile, the United States has been on the losing streak of the century, and its people and notional liberal ideals are having it even worse. This is apparently not something that features much in MYRMIDON at all, as a novel mostly focused on The Regime itself (Tammy has had some talk of America being more of something for a sequel), but hanging out in her Discord communities and checking her art feeds I did gather quite a few statements about the wider world in the setting. America in this timeline somehow still had a Trump (even though I would question how you ever get a break from Military Keynesian political-economy when there's a limited but real nuclear shooting war with the Soviets/Eurasians/Regimers every few years), and it's been festering with decades of MAGA incompetence and evil while the people opposed to it just keep quiet and barely hold on in cowardice, nudging things into barely functioning after decades of failed policies. Even arming the resistance, what should be an easy task when The Regime comes in with nuclear dicks swinging, is botched and corrupt, as American policy focuses on arming the most vocal CHUD movements and governments. They just keep making more perfect, unlovable foes for The Regime to keep bombing and starving.


Poster for the in-universe French reactionary resistance, of the kind that the "Biscay Battalion" fought at the end of Act I belong to.

The first (very milquetoast) Democratic President in 32 years was just elected in 2064.

All of this makes for a world where The Regime might come across as the lesser evil, even the greater good; a genuine path to progress and Human liberation worth fighting for. Certainly its conscripts seem to think so at the start of the story, as they enthusiastically break out into a chorus of the Internationale with enthusiasm so organic that their commanding officer hates it.

But here is where I think the story is quite genuinely heartfelt and well-considered as the work of an avowed Communist author: The Regime is still evil, even if socialism is good.

The first war crime is the war itself, and The Regime is fundamentally the aggressor in its conflicts. Escalation to major war, and normalization of nuclear war, were things both superpowers in real life knew were against the "rules" of a post-war world where direct empires and conquest were off the table, no matter how great the supposed provocation. But in the MYRMIDON timeline this norm is completely abandoned, if it ever existed at all. The Regime takes the logical conclusion of doctrinaire Marxism-Leninism--that there must be eventually one Communist state ruling the entire world brought about by force of arms against capitalist states--and runs with it to no deviation.

There is no alternative.

No matter how high the quality of life Regimers might enjoy, or how much they believe in their government and institutions, they were founded on expansionistic violence whose victims aren't exactly fully compensated with a "well, you're free now and well off compared to the world". And even in the present, that government actually works to shield horrendous monsters from their own society's sense of justice just because they are useful or influential in bringing about the state's goals. A gay man dying of radiation poisoning in England will certainly have a very different answer as to how "liberated" he feels versus that picturesque lesbian couple in Welthauptstadt and... Hey, wait a minute, this sounds familiar doesn't it?

I saw Tamara pithily call MYRMIDON a "Communist America Timeline", even though The Regime has no cultural connection to America, and I think I Get It.

The Regime is less a reflection of any ideal path of true World Communism or a realistic ideological extrapolation of anyone in the CPSU and more an exploration of Communism being dealt the same winning hand that liberalism got with America until the end of the 20th century. It is a multiethnic, assimilationist society built on an open ideological call and popular support, with a wealthy consumer society and the most advanced technology in the world, and it just can't seem to stop winning and becoming more and more influential in global affairs as it visibly outcompetes its nearest rival and sells itself as the superior way of life. Nobody can beat it militarily and it's a genuine historical improvement almost all countries would take over what came before.

But being "historically progressive" is not the same thing as being right.

Like, let me point out two other, very sinister details about implied Regime politics and culture in Act I, even aside from all of the rape.

The first, is that this is clearly a consumer society, a culture that resembles the real America more than not in terms of the appeal of products and brands in how people want to live and associate with each other.

Deep within the Earth, chamber 3W-A in third-level accommodation buzzes with activity, bodies lit by fluorescent tubes above. Six bunk beds have been pushed to the far walls, covered with posters and Mel's various drawings. The concrete floor's wide open, a few folding chairs scattered about; atop the dressers and lockers are piles of snacks they'd procured from the commissary. Chips, games, crackers, candies – little pods of Nudossi. Extra capsules of Baikal cola, too, for when they've finished the ones in their hands.

Rigid bioplastic cracks open. Soft drinks fizz on exposure to the air as they're held aloft to toast.

"To AJ! Prost!"

A somewhat-anticlimactic dull clack as they tap their sodas together. Mel and Gwen, tightly wrapped around each other, join the others as they all take a swig. There's a bright yellow flower stuffed into Mel's gray pilotka, a Rhaetian poppy; she'd picked it during her morning walk, the perfect start to what she hoped would be a perfect day. Big smiles all around, pirated Western music playing over bluetooth speakers. Gwen was right – this was a great idea. Tea, ginseng, cardamom, and sugar; Baikal is nostalgia in every sip.

Nudossi, Baikal Cola... Eastern Bloc historical brands portrayed as being as beloved and integral to everyday life as any capitalist one could dream of. I consider that last sentence particularly sinister; nostalgia is sort of the opposite of historical progress, isn't it?

Note that this isn't ranting against them having things that they enjoy or consume--in my personal political disposition I'm a lot less inclined to rant against "treats" than others close to me, both because I've tried to avoid reflexive anger anymore and because I think it's unavoidable that people want certain base pleasures in their way of life--but it's the clear and continued fetishization of them as "the good life" earned by Communist citizenship and military support of the state that gets me. Even if it's all served in biodegradable sustainable plastic, it's still happiness from a vending machine and a shot of cheap flavors. If you think that Coca Cola and McDonald's are crass bribery for supporting the American Empire, then I don't really see how you can miss something feeling off here.

And then there's Security Commissioner Ailin, agent of the openly oppressive institution of the Ministry of State Security. Not only are they a reminder that this is an avowed surveillance society worse than even the most horrendous NSA activities and corporate advertising in America (there are wired security cameras everywhere which the Regimers never mind or act wary of, and Voss can spy directly on Gwen in her bunk on a voyeuristic whim), but they drop an... interesting historical reference.

"A… pleasure, indeed, Pilot. You're from… Iran, yes?" Ailin's voice is flat and monotonous, a palpable lack of an accent or, really, any cadence at all.

The Pilot nods. "Mhm. Aranistad – m-my dad was from India, though! Hey, uh, are you… i-in the Stas-"

"And you now find yourself… here? Wonderful; so very… passionary." Their words step in front of Mel's, her question unanswered.

General Voss and the shortest of the strangers don't mind the eyebrow-raising term, but it seems to bother the woman beside them. She's tall and pale like the labcoat over her purple turtleneck, a lanyard and keycard around her neck; most importantly, she's quite old and seemingly quite tired, already-wrinkly eyes set with heavy bags beneath her square reading glasses. She extends a hand all the same, bending down a bit to the much-smaller new Pilot.

Passionarity (and related words; it's hard to translate so you can mess around with a lot of terms based on "passion" to convey it, like Tammy does here with Ailin making an adjective) is a historical pseudoscience promoted by one Lev Gumilev, whom the more brain-poisoned among us might recognize from The New Order but who otherwise is just an interesting and creepy figure in the development of modern Russian nationalism and Putinism. It's a broad, unscientific concept about praising people that have some heroic or "progressive" quality in embracing change and suffering for the greater good of their race, related also to how groups of people and nations take on some kind of stereotypical nature relating to their environment and "ecology". If you think about this for even ten seconds you can probably realize this is basically a fascist narrative of history (the struggle of peoples, everyone expected to be a hero through violence and death, etc.), and that's without even having to get to the section of his Wikipedia page going into how Gumilev thought Jews were inherently cowardly and "mercantile" parasites who can't fight and sacrifice themselves like good Eurasians.

No wonder Berkowitz flinched at the word. This is the sort of ideology that put her family in the "Jewish Autonomous Republic" in the first place.

So, suffice to say, The Regime's notion of one unified people for Communism clearly still carries heavy baggage of racial narratives and the chauvinism of its imperial core in the former USSR and Germany, and what are basically modern Putinist imperialist racial views are accepted and condoned at the highest levels of state security. Just as in America assimilation into a notionally accepting "nation of immigrants" comes with the quiet or loud priority of whiteness, assimilation into the "nation of workers" seems to have a priority for passionarity.

(Also note Ailin's "palpable lack of an accent"; just like how Americans often describe the conservative, white, Midwest newscaster dialect.)

I mean, there's also the subtext of a white superior officer recruiting a woman of color for Human experimentation and sexual abuse in a fort whose name just happens to resemble Fort Detrick, the infamous base of the US's historical biological warfare programs, but that's too obvious a point to add, right?

The final point I have about The Regime is...

It's a meme.

That's not a dismissive insult, I mean that it is literally named and modeled after a Twitter meme from a few years ago: a habit of leftists proclaiming "Regime!" in agreement with any act of state oppression that they agreed "owned" liberalism/America (IE: pretty much any time a non-western government does anything). This habit expanded with aesthetic accounts and a general vibe of people yearning for such a "Regime", for the hard hand of a state that openly and harshly controls all rather than the indirect systems of liberal civil society and market economics which most of us live in. The Regime is that dream, of the past and of the future, and in the fashion of the ideal science fiction writer Tammy then went "wow, isn't this future kind of awful?"

This whole theme is a perfect fit for something I've already been talking about for months now in the Draka thread, whenever Human Domestication Guide comes up again: the tendency of otherwise sweet and unobjectionable people to lose themselves in the leftist power fantasy of destroying capitalism and instituting their kinks as public policy and not realizing that the vibes are fucked (and they're replicating the horrors that got us here, but the vibes being fucked is really important too). The Regime is a knowing parody of a more "tankie" Leftist Revenge Fantasy than the Anarchist one in the Affini, but I think there's absolutely still a takedown and lesson here.

This parody of the Leftist Revenge Fantasy also extends, by the way, to The Regime's symbol of the Scarlet Trigon, but I think I'll leave some discussion of what Tammy says that was based on and some... rather fucked art featuring its practical use for a later Act where I think it comes into play.

The Mind Break is Just Opiates


One of my smaller but still relevant thoughts on this story is... well, I put it in the header there, I am getting a bit tired of writing this review/analysis so now I'm getting into technical minutiae.

I've noticed that a lot of mind control and problematic domination erotica likes to revolve around finding true, perfect scientific solutions to free will. Hypnosis in this sort of fiction doesn't just let you do a consensual meditation exercise with your partner where you agree to take on suggestions and compulsions; it literally entrances and alters your state of mind. Drugs aren't just altered states of consciousness and physiological dependence that could condition you to act adversely; they instantly corrode your morality and will into a puppet for others. Pheromones aren't just an unproven pseudoscientific fixation with no evidence of sexual or social influence in Humans; they actually make you instantly horny or obedient.

And so on, you get the idea.

I wouldn't say that MYRMIDON is a subversion of this kind of magic working brainwashing in fiction, but it does play it effectively for horror with certain grounded rules that I think make it worth praising and comparing to others.

The first is that Lotus is not a wonder drug that does whatever the Achilles Project requires, but rather an arbitrarily effective cocktail of many real substances and their effects. Opiates are the most obvious and important: it's employed as a painkiller and dissociative agent to facilitate Mel's integration with scary cybernetics, and to burn out her natural dopamine and impulse control so that the machinery and conditioning can work her over as a strung out doll. In the cockpit, even more varieties of conditioning chemicals are mentioned like amphetamines, acid, and DMT as all being a part of the mix to keep her running in the field. It's neither a magic obedience chemical nor an anti-drug PSA caricature of addiction; it's just wrecking Mel's body in very tiring ways.

The second is the surgical process itself, which is perhaps the most unrealistic and fantastical science fiction element in the whole story, as it revolves around an automated surgery machine performing some very accurate and very rapid work on a volunteer with no prior examination or preparation, but has very evocative and terrible results. The whole process come across as an almost demonic horror kept in the deepest levels of Fort Dietrich, something that can't be real and if it was nobody would believe you. The process is very gruesome and thoroughly described, hinging on just a few major implants, and it strikes me that MYRMIDON is in an interesting and I think growing category of science fiction to say that brain-computer interfaces could be possible and work... but that they're probably really not worth it. The modifications to Mel's body are drastic and invasive, with not exactly seamless scar tissue and integration, and she has to be rigged up as a machine with entirely new bodily needs than what the Human body can provide, including an 18 volt power supply for her brain implants and an artificial liver so she can survive as a sealed away machine. And even then, after all this she is not some universal invincible technopath nor a wired-up genius with all the knowledge in the world; this is all mostly interface for horrible neuroablative conditioning and then a plug-in to help her dissociate into her mech (sorry, raise her "oneirosynthesis score").

Doctor Berkowitz's description of "plenty of animal tests" makes jokes about this just being Communist Neuralink very easy.



And third... the conditioning sequence itself. I am a sucker for symbolic, politically loaded hallucination sequences, so the rather blunt imagery of Mel being forced to forget her family and friends and to surrender control to the programming of Pilot One; to see the world just in terms of Regime authorities to be obeyed and crude stereotypes of "reactionaries" to be slaughtered, was very compelling to me. It was a good way to simplify and narrativize from Mel's perspective of what I gather had to be more of a week of fine tuning and burning out neuron associations by the technicians and machines involved.


This is Tammy's illustration of the conditioning scene which I can post... the other one is not so friendly to SV what with Mel being entirely nude, hoisted up by mechanical tentacles, and dripping in unidentified fluids.

Unlimited Exosuit Warfare


Hey, this is a mecha book, right? I might as well nerd out over some technical details I observed and offer my own interpretations through some Cold War militaria interests as well.

The book so far seems to have a very interesting relationship to the conventions and technological assumptions of the mecha genre, insofar as it accepts them as givens to enable the aesthetic and narrative conceit of exosuits being a thing and humanoid robots being a viable combat platform... but then stops stretching the rules to try and justify or prefer them any more than that. The easiest at hand anime comparison is VOTOMS rather than Gundam: the exosuits are a few meters tall and have some awkward form factors, and they fundamentally do not negate any of the branches of combined arms we know in reality. There is, in fact, an amusing mention of tank crews taking great joy in seeing exosuits stumble or fail under the inherent limitations of complex bipedal robotics.

Exosuits, actually, mostly come across as an inherently awkward and limited technological moment in time: a step up from infantry in terms of a heavy weapons platform and a step down from tanks in terms of footprint and vulnerability to precision strikes (I theorize there's also perhaps some relationship to fighting dispersed on nuclear battlefields, but I'll save that speculation for another Act...) but not a replacement for either and still desperately limited by its form factor.

In fact, I think it's a lovely worldbuilding detail and a horrific bit of grounding for all the energy in the whole supersoldier brainwashing process that the real advantage of a cyborg drugged out Pilot isn't necessarily performance--they at one point say the best central planning and prediction computers in The Regime called it at just a 15% increase in efficiency versus a normal pilot--but compatibility with a much more compact exosuit.




There's no art of the Mk. 2 suits piloted by the normal people in Pilot One's unit, but just take as a comparison their American rival, the M3A2 Powell. The Powell has to have a big monolithic central torso to hold an enclosed cockpit, while the Mk.3 gets to be a few feet lower in profile and have more of its space and power supplies devoted to advanced weapons like a railgun by basically sealing Mel into a medieval torture rack with her limbs locked into the suit's own.

(I wonder if anyone in this timeline ever bothered to ask Masamune Shirow about his actually decently thought out concept as an engineering graduate of the form factor and interface of a limited size mech... Maybe they just hated the idea of leaving the arms out there... Or maybe he died in whatever conflicts led to the division of Japan.)

The technological disadvantage of the US in this timeline manifests as very heavy metal, really WW2 or even Russia-coded military technology. Big, heavily armored slabs of slower robotics with conservative high-explosive weapon choices. The Regime almost comes across as aliens in comparison with the carbon black organicism. This was apparently even more pronounced in early concept art where Tammy made the A01 look quite skeletal and insectoid.


The lack of outlines/use of white space for panel lining is also a fascinating look... almost like a hieroglyphic representation of the mech or something.

The action itself in Act I is very brief, mostly framed by the Evangelion esque bridge action and the ominous levels of biochemical control exerted over Mel/Pilot One, so there's not much to comment on tactically save for the fact that it pulls a neat writing trick of not needing much space or overwrought exposition on the rules of exosuit combat to convey how exactly Pilot One breaks them and is so terrifying. Her seeming preference for direct hand to hand kills of the pilot inside the cockpit (I know a certain friend of mine who will read this thread expressed distaste for the eagerness of Mechsploitation to jump into tactically pointless melee combat, but... well, it's narratively justifiable in an urban clusterfuck fight and at the hands of a psychotic lobotomite being wired dopamine by intensity of violence, right?) and reaction speeds get the classic anime "observers watching shit go down" treatment, and I think Tammy's prose really shines when it can get going into the horrible and frantic mode of someone witnessing or being subjected to something they can't quite understand or control.


Tammy is particularly proud of this piece and specifically hoped I'd share it here!

"Anthropomorphic gesticulation" is apparently quite frowned on in exosuit forces, which means gestures can only be a sign that something really bad is going down. It's another appreciated detail about the limitations of exosuits, that there must have been some doctrinal study into the range of motion enabled by a fully anthropomorphic robotic chassis and found them wasteful or even counterproductive compared to understanding that it is just a vehicle of war.

Now, uhh, a bit of picking at how exactly the Socialist People's Army is supposed to be organized:

I'm not quite sure about the reasoning behind the "Echelon" structure of the conscript unit Mel is initially employed in. The Soviets historically had a very specific and organized system of conscription and tiers of reservists into a large and dedicated infrastructure, so the "Third Western Echelon" being a seemingly detached garrison from Fort Dietrich led by and independently deployable under a captain seems off to me. Who do they answer to in a war? Surely their regiment, brigade, or division is the more relevant unit here? I think I also saw a pin in the Discord saying an Echelon was a three squad formation so really shouldn't Duffy be a lieutenant and not--

Wait a second.



Ooooohhhh, okay, it's a joke-but-part-of-the-point element of them really being quite like the modern West, by making them comparable to the Israelis with poorly stretched, piecemeal conscript units and overpromoted officers.

(I think there's also a pretty clear link between what The Regime does with Bordeaux and the Gaza War, with The Regime basically enclosing a ruined urban strip by the sea and sustaining a Humanitarian crisis around it while using special forces incursions and firepower to try and slaughter anyone left. There's even a bit of other conscripts filming Pilot One's rampage for social media that now feels pretty deliberate.)

(Voss being a four-star general just called "General" is also a Communist Americanism that I think is deliberate; the equivalent in a Soviet/Russian military tradition would be Army General or Marshall, depending on if we count exosuits as infantry or not and whether they're their own service branch or just a strange set of special purpose battalions.)

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I reiterate again: This thread is a recommendation and promotion, as I am shamelessly biased already by having had interesting conversations on the topics involved with the writer of the work in question. I encourage anyone here, particularly those who were interested in my Draka Let's Read, alternate history fiction in general, or trans girls writing weird transgressive horror to check it out and come in with your own opinions or analysis. I think that even with the relatively straightforward first Act I've read so far that this is working in a unique blend of genres and ideas, and I'm eager to read more and talk about it.

...Which I couldn't do right away because I wanted to take the time to write this report, of sorts.

A review for Act II will soon follow. Act III's... well, that depends on when Tammy publishes it publicly, I suppose.
 
I'm struggling to find something to comment on in regards to this story as it doesn't seem like the kind of thing I'd be interested in reading... but Tamara has very obviously put a huge amount of thought into what she's written and why she's written it (certainly more than I ever have), so I'm interested in hearing more about it from your POV, Gecko.


With regards to the Leftist Revenge Fantasy thing, I do agree that it's both pretty common and pretty odd. I'm certainly guilty of it since it's very easy to get caught up in the idea even if you do try and admit to the areas where you've fucked it. It is worth noting, however, that it's a lot of fun to do it intentionally as I've found with MJ12's Unraveled Tapestry setting.
 
As far as I can quickly and easily trace the history of pre-release material, that line and its implications first reached anglophone audiences via a trailer in late April of 2023. It, and all the swirling rumors and explanations around it from other previews and promotional material, inspired something right away. I believe there was already some... exploration of just how sexual the connotations of being an authority figure's "Hound" are early on, but the impact truly hit on July 14th of that year (narrowly beating out the release of ACVI's story trailer, which revealed more of the Hound dynamic and that game's themes of miserable debt-slave transhumanism, by a few days to give her credit for being ahead of the curve) when Internet mind-control erotica writer Kallie released the then-one-off story WARHOUND, featuring a female protagonist in a brutal, mecha-heavy military sci-fi setting being brainwashed and enslaved by a shadowy military representative of a totalitarian government.
I wonder how much of the movement in general and this work in particular were influenced by Signalis. Although not specifically a mecha game, its engagement with themes of dehumanization, the surveillance state and retrofuturist technology wrapped around a queer narrative really primed the online community to look at similar mil-scifi in a new light. The Regime here has a lot in common with Signalis' Eusan Nation like the color palette and the trilingual notices (English, German and Chinese in the game, as Signalis takes from East Germany rather than Soviet Russia) - not surprising since they're both drawing from similar wells of influence but nevertheless cool to see nuanced looks at what could have developed from post-WWII communism.
 
I wonder how much of the movement in general and this work in particular were influenced by Signalis. Although not specifically a mecha game, its engagement with themes of dehumanization, the surveillance state and retrofuturist technology wrapped around a queer narrative really primed the online community to look at similar mil-scifi in a new light. The Regime here has a lot in common with Signalis' Eusan Nation like the color palette and the trilingual notices (English, German and Chinese in the game, as Signalis takes from East Germany rather than Soviet Russia) - not surprising since they're both drawing from similar wells of influence but nevertheless cool to see nuanced looks at what could have developed from post-WWII communism.

Hey there! I'm actually the author of Myrmidon - Gecko's analysis got me excited enough I made an account on here. Signalis is indeed an inspiration on Myrmidon - but it's a sort of negative inspiration, in that I genuinely didn't like the game at all! I thought the setting was shallow and the mechanics were unbearable, and it kind of squandered its potential as "space East Germany" by playing that angle exclusively for cheap horror-value (zomg, communism is scary!) rather than interrogating the structure of East German society and how the specifics would play out in such a heightened and intense story.

Myrmidon is very much an expression of a lot of my own politics - I am a Marxist-Leninist - but through the lens of how easily these lofty ideals could be failed and betrayed, and how they were in real life, many times, through the 20th century. The whole story is a tragedy - and part of the tragedy is in knowing that something beautiful could've blossomed if petty human cruelty, stupidity, and lust hadn't been ignored by the powers that be in their quest for historical progress.
 
Act II Review New


If Act I of MYRMIDON convergently resembled the very first episode of Evangelion, then Act II starts feeling like a storm of all of the breakdown arc of that show... minus any moments of triumph or relief. This section is relentlessly grim and disturbing in ways that I actually don't think I was prepared for (and I mean that as the strongest possible compliment; I prepared for a lot but Tammy still found ways to make this genuinely unsettling as a work of horror).

In terms of strict plot--large battles, reversal of fortune, etc.--I would say that comparatively little happens in this Act. Rather, everyone is continuing on breakdowns already commenced or implied by the events of Act I and go tumbling through the systems of the Regime until in most cases they're completely destroyed or subverted by them. Gwen tries to find out what happened to her girlfriend... and is smacked down and put through weaponized psychiatry for it. Zoya and Berk start raising their objections to the Achilles Project's obvious atrocity... and are cowed into letting it go on either by absence or silence. And Mel...

Fuck, man.

So, I felt like the better way to break down my thoughts and analysis on this Act would be to break them down into three main topics, based on what I would try to summarize the various forms of abuse and violation throughout this story into. All of these necessitate more spoilers and direct description of the plot than I originally thought, so you could also see this as the structure of the Act laid bare (although they are "intermixed" chronologically a fair bit, so there will be some jumping) and an open "spoiler discussion". This is well into the middle of the story so I would say if you want to go in with fresh eyes and able to be surprised, now is the time to look away from my little reviews. You can just use these headers as my fundamental praise: these chapters do a very good job of exploring the different forms of social and individual violence--robbing the victim of agency and dignity--through cultural and political policing, scrutiny of psychology and the inner self, and raw sexual violation.

Cultural Violence


I should begin this section by bringing up a minor correction on something I perceived in the first Act that Tammy (who is now on this forum, hi @proletkvlt!) helpfully explained as she was in the process of editing Act III and was reminded to catch a related detail: Eurasian is not just a Russian dialect but a fully constructed language meant as a basic fusion of Russian, German, and Farsi (I suppose hinting that Iran was an early addition into the Communist bloc in this timeline?). This is the mandatory language in most of the Regime, but not the only one: their more recently conquered western territories in Europe that speak Romance languages are being turned to Esperanto and their southern reaches--the Levant, Arabian Peninsula, North Africa and down the Horn of Africa as far south as Kenya--get standardized Arabic.

With that in mind, language and culture are increasing points of friction as we see more and more of the Regime's crimes and just how many old social tragedies are repeating even with a high standard of living from highly developed socialism. The first Act actually mentioned some specific ways they touched Mel's life: her native Farsi has been Latinized by Regime policy while her childhood encouragement from her mother to memorize large portions of the Quran is apparently increasingly rare and implied to be politically discouraged. It certainly got an... interesting look askance between Ailin and Voss as they sized her up, like it's something making her an undesirable less likely to be missed.

So, now, when said parents call in at the beginning of the Act, it comes across as people very marginal to the Regime being increasingly horrified by how much their girl has been pulled into something way beyond what they thought was just a conscription tour to help her make outside connections and get a leg up in proving herself a good citizen.

That makes them being invited to what comes next worse.

There's I'll get back to later where Mel is fully subdued after the rampage at the end of the last Act (including killing one technician by ripping his throat out and crushing the eyeball of another, meaning her kill count so far is 5 French insurgents in Powells, and one of her own comrade enablers... a pretty terrible ratio, all considered that's only going to get worse) and put through more brainwashing subject to Pilot One. But for now I want to focus on what comes after... the grotesque show Voss makes of Mel and insists on dragging Gwen to to everyone's detriment.


Okay, one bit of Mel's treatment I couldn't fit anywhere else is this piece with the muzzle. It's very amusing to me that it almost feels like a strange meta joke, about the Mechsploitation genre and the aggressive constant dog themes putting pilots in muzzles just for kink reasons, that Mel actually bites someone to death and has to be put in a muzzle for legitimate safety concerns.

Gwen really fucking goes through it in this Act, just by the nature of what she's helpless to stop, but I also want to call attention to how she's isolated and beaten down repeatedly for her national origin and status as a refugee and how the weird alternate history setup of having this happen to a white British woman really calls attention to just how uncomfortable and familiar it is in our own world.

In online leftist spaces, there's a tendency toward a... jokingly vicious anti-English/British sentiment. There are many names and meme terms thrown around for it. "The Eternal Anglo." "TERF Island." And one that Voss actually uses here in Act II...

Lydia Voss will not be upstaged; not by the Americans, not by their lackeys, nor by any of the wretched, conniving, back-stabbing women in her life – like this perfidious little Angloid.

But there's no more privilege here left to puncture. No more imperial core whose citizens can afford to have a thicker skin when the victimized say mean things about them as a category. What we have is a new hegemonic empire that's all too happy to maintain an outgroup by punching down on people it used to see itself as freedom fighters against. And this manifests in a variety of ways, from Tanya making a strained little macroaggression in response to Gwen getting a little seditious with her jokes:

Gwen purses her lips. Both girls are so deep in conversation they can't hear the click of steel-toe beneath the talk and music. "It's like everyone's busy all at once. Whatever's going on, I don't like it."

"You and me both." Tanya adds, biting down on her lean, processed offal and soy – nearly-identical in taste and texture to real pork. "It's like, I thought the whole point of Communism was to work less, not more."

A freckled smile, weak – like a flower growing through asphalt. "They… tend to do the ol' bait and switch a lot, don't they?"

Tanya cocks her head to the side, her ponytail bobbing with the motion. "Who?"

"You know, like… Communists."

"…I… don't know if you've noticed, but, uh…" Tanya chuckles and looks down at the uniforms they're both wearing – then glances conspicuously at the giant mural behind them, depicting two peasants carrying a hammer and sickle. "…you're a Communist. We kinda… both are."

A scoff from the English conscript. "Easy for the enlistee to say. Cuba's nothing like England, mate, I promise you that."

"Yeah – we have, like, running water 'n shit."

What follows is, perhaps, the most agonizing thirty seconds of either of their lives. It's like a bomb went off – and Gwen would know. The dour look on her face is enough to snap even the carefree Tanya back to reality.

"…sorry, was that fucked up?"

To then Tanya making no effort to defend her when Voss goes about using state censorship policy as pretext for a more personal form of torment:

Voss clears her throat and plucks the cigar from her lips, holding it to speak. "I said, Private Hazelwood, that it's good to see you."

With some hesitation – from fear and spite – she relents, snapping her palm to her forehead.

"Regime . General Voss… sir."

"Close enough – only natural you'd lack proletarian patriotism, sweetheart – especially if you're listening to that reactionary noise."

Voss points with her cigar to the phone on the table, belting out Vera Lynn – one musician among many others explicitly banned under sedition prevention measures laid out in the contemporary Constitution.

"Private Hernandéz." A nauseating grin, lips cocked aside.

Tanya snaps to attention again. "Y-Yes, sir?"

Voss finds the obedience charming. "Grab Private Hazelwood's phone for me, will you?"

Without a second thought, she does so – snatching it from the table and handing it over. Voss clutches it in her calloused hands.

"What the hell are you doing!?" Gwen exclaims, "Y-You can't just take my things!"

"You know, sweetheart," Voss interjects, "a little birdie told me you've got plenty of contraband on here, and clearly it's done no good for your mental state so far – or your Eurasian, for that matter. Your pronunciation needs a lot of work."

Gwen fumes – the anger only makes it even harder to properly pronounce the artificial cant.

"Contraband!?" she scoffs. "It's just… all my photos and memories, sir!"

Voss scrolls through her selection of music. "Do your photos and memories include all this seditious music, sweetheart?" She scoffs, taking in all the slop the West's been pumping out. "'Queens of the Stone Age?' 'Judas Priest?' My, you're an up-and-coming junior monarchist, aren't you?"

"Monarchist?" Gwen actually laughs a bit at how silly that sounds. "There's hardly anything seditious about-"

Voss turns the phone around and shows her the album art to ANTIKHRIST by VOLKSKRIEG, the hottest American industrial-metal group of the last decade – their newest release. Gwen stammers ineffectively at the gothic font atop an image of a decades-old submachine gun from the long-defunct state of Israel and several spent casings, soaked in blood. She's… not going to lie to herself, that one is pretty hard to justify. Her dad loved that band, but in retrospect, he took them a little too seriously.

"…i-it's, uhm… y-you see, th-they're doing an ironic sort of t-take on the imagery of… y-… y-you ever listen to L-Laibach, General?"

"Can't say I know what that is, sweetheart, but frankly, with what I'm seeing, you should be glad I'm confiscating this little idiot-box of yours personally rather than handing it in to the Ministry. I think they'd be a little less understanding than your favorite General."

Side Note 1: I think that Gwen's behavior here at the start of the act is a bit egregious for someone who's now had like a decade under her belt of living in an authoritarian state to know how quiet you have to be... but then again, most of that has apparently been in refugee programs and then meeting Mel before conscription. So she's up until now either been in the roughest, least caring (in both senses of "caring") parts of the Regime or otherwise mostly insulated by her life with a relatively naïve model citizen in an under-observed Fuckup Platoon.


A recent sketch Tammy made of Mel and Gwen in civilian life. Someone on Discord said it "smells like class difference" and that's a pretty good summation of the difference in lifestyles afforded by being a diffident refugee versus being a go-getting autistic girl whose mom is pushing her to be a teacher.


The contents of Mel's pockets before being stripped by the Achilles Project. Note the debit card (we are all equally rationed under Communism, but some are a little more equally consumerist than others...) indicating party membership, which I think would equate to her having been in some Komsomol-like system in preparation for her dreamed of future career. I don't think Mel being a Party member is ever mentioned elsewhere.

Side Note 2: The whole exchange about music is very humorous and grim in that it resembles actual historical Communist paranoia about western music. If you look up any lists of stuff that was actually banned in the USSR or East Germany there are some very silly reasons given... like stamping "violence" and "neo-fascism" on various rock and metal acts, some of them as tame as KISS. The only one they'd have a point on here is VOLKSKRIEG, which is a cameo by an OC created by @TaxHarbinger who is meant to be a crazy right-wing political extremist... albeit one who's pretty down for a nuclear apocalyptic war which the Regime will be all too happy to provide soon.

Anyways, with Gwen now thoroughly demoralized, Voss takes her up to the elite decks of Fort Dietrich for something that really made my skin crawl.

A demonstration.

In an elaborate stage setup, we get an introduction to the fact that the Achilles Project has sponsors from the wonderful wider world of socialism:

"Comrades," she speaks into the microphone, "there's a few moments in history one can point to that really, truly changed it all. Harnessing fire. Crossing the seas. Splitting the atom." Voss coughs; her dry throat's being irritated by smoke wafting from her cigar. Nevertheless, she persists. "With great pleasure, I'd like to announce that we, the Directors of the Achilles Project, do believe we're on the precipice of the very next milestone in the course of human progress. I'd like to thank you all for taking the time to join us and witness it first-hand – especially the esteemed representatives of SinoPharm and the Yatenga Pharmaceuticals Corporation, whose generous donations made this endeavor possible."

There's a wide grin on her face as she points to the back of the room, where a handful of suit-clad representatives from the Peoples' Republic of China sit beside their Burkinabé counterparts. Outside the central prefectures and circuits of the Regime, the state-capitalist phase of socialism still reigned; if necessary, the Regime will play by their rules – for now.

This bit right here sets off fucking alarm bells to me. The Regime is nominally a kind of eco-socialist prosperous society, with all economic activities coordinated by cybernetic planning systems, but the presence of Chinese and African corporate enterprises as essential technical and financial interests in something as vital as Achilles indicates that it's not quite as clear cut as a superior stage of socialism that's taking in new territories as they're ready. There is, in fact, another mention of Chinese industries later in the Act, as Voss thinks about her heirloom gun:

She sighs, tears welling up in her drunk eyes, and sets the photo back atop her desk – and pulls out the heavy Makarov beside her sweetheart's cellphone. It's her father's heirloom from his time in the SVA during the tumultuous Zyuganov Premiership, nearly sixty years ago. He'd been involved in Comintern peacekeeping near Sinwarstad – formerly Tel Aviv – and his pistol served him admirably. Good, old-fashioned Soviet steel and bakelite, nothing like today's standard-issue, mostly-polymer Chinese models.

This is a kind of brilliant work of offhanded worldbuilding, because the association of Chinese with polymer and modern standard issue even in the Regime indicates that the economic system of the Comintern is actually probably closer to the real world, modern day capitalist World System than they would ever want to admit. The Regime, as a wealthy consumer society with cybernetic central planning as an equivalent to financial hegemony, probably acts very similarly to the modern United States in terms of being the consumer of last resort for the Communist World's production and the investor of technology and management capital in export-oriented economies. The Regime probably went through a similar "China Shock" (probably still during the days of being Eurasia) of cheap basic and mid-level manufacturing moving to the PRC to take advantage of its massive labor pool. Socialist policy prioritization probably distributed this profitable efficiency fairly well among Regimers so it didn't generate the political backlash of "deindustrialization" in real-world globalization, but this is still a very unequal world.

There's a kind of delicious but terrifying irony here; of a nominal Communist bloc reproducing World Systems Theory with a core, semi-periphery, and periphery. All of those Regime garden cities and time for science and art, sipping Baikal Cola and sharing propaganda Douyins on Rednote, is still built on a factory in Asia making the phones for cheap and Africans mining the metals. And there seems to be more than a little anxiety as the Regime realizes how much is made in the rest of the Comintern, and how they might have to do something about this even when the capitalists are gone...

God, where was I?

Oh yeah, they make Mel dance for the socialist world's amusement.

The doors close, and the audio engineers switch the backing-tracks. The music swells, a patriotic medley of military instruments and throat-signing filtering through the air – and then, from backstage, Pilot One comes spinning out.

It's dressed in a long, flowing sarafan, white patterned in red geometry. A wreath of flowers rings its hair, vibrant like the heavy makeup applied to its smiling cheeks and around its eyes. With every beat of the song it spins and spins, twirling like a ballerina who'd trained since birth. Ribbons around its limbs twist along with it, a twisting stormcloud of color and warm, reflected light.

Duffy gasps and immediately begins clapping, as do the international representatives in the back. Ailin smiles again and takes a long, satisfied sip of milk.

Gwen, on the other hand, tears up almost immediately. She'd waited so long for this, to see Mel again – and she finally gets to! Not only merely see her, but witness her perform what must've been the most beautiful dance routine she'd ever seen. She swoops and dives, a brisé to the side with impeccable lightness and form. Gwen can't help herself from standing and clapping with the others, a wide, toothy smile stretching her face in utter glee.

She's smiling until she sees the neoprene under the dress – and it quickly becomes a grimace when she notices all the wires dangling from the ceiling, leading right to Mel's head, beneath the flower crown…

"Full oneirosynthesis: it's a term that may not mean much to many of you, comrades – but to those who know their meanings, those words are exciting beyond measure. What's better than merely exciting, comrades? Real. Fully-functional, scalable, ZENKAL-coordinated and vertically-integrated."

Voss strolls around the stage as her words echo. Voices from the crowd whisper in excitement. She makes ample room for the dancing Pilot One, whose hungry eyes trace the General's movements.

"Through a combination of surgical, chemical, and mechanical conditioning, we're able to make the human mind pliable enough to allow direct neural linkage. In short? We can compress decades of training into single weeks of routine maintenance, complex instruction into a handful of megabytes. The results are breathtaking – as you're seeing right now."

Gwen's mouth is agape. Is she… going crazy? Surgical conditioning? Neural linkage? When did Mel learn to dance like that? What are they doing to her? It's made all the worse by the audience's quiet awe, ignorant of the fact that the person dancing had a name and people who missed her.

In seconds, Pilot One comes to a dead halt, mid-pirouette, and stands limp for a second or two before launching into a picture-perfect prisiadka , squatting in perfect sync to the beats of the now-jauntier folk music. The speed at which it switches is deeply uncanny, as is the smile still on its face; it's not reacting at all, eyes dead and empty – and, to Gwen's horror, bright red.

"Dance is fine and good, comrades, but I think if this is all we spent your Marks on, you'd be pretty cross with me." Laughter all around; sobs from the grey-clad blonde. Duffy rolls his eyes at her. "That's the beauty of it – like all computers, any command is carried out with the same ruthless efficiency. Dance, cleaning, patriotism – all of it only a thumb-drive or data-cable away."

There's something so crass and disturbing about this, on so many levels.

First is the immediate cultural spectacle and subtext of it. They took this girl of mixed Iranian and Indian heritage and put her in a sarafan, a traditional piece of Russian folk costume, and make her literally dance as a puppet on strings in a display of vulgar, cultural chauvinism (the "patriotic medley" is mentioned to include throat singing as perhaps a sop to Mongolian or Central Asian heritage in the Eurasian mix, but it's still the stereotypically Russian ballet and prisiadki--a mix of female and male dances, by the way, which strikes me as a small bit of gender violation that feels minor in comparison but still there--that they make Pilot One follow). Loyalty to the state and ability to do anything on command, demonstrated by turning culture into a plug and play bit of entertainment that the doll is all too happy to follow, regardless of who she was originally.

It's cultural imperialism as an appendix to rape.

And I should call attention to the fact that this isn't the first mention of traditional costume in this Act, either:

At the very heart of the base, between the bunks and excursion deck, was the mess hall. It was far from a single canteen, of course; with a base staff in the thousands, Dietrich had four dining halls, each staffed by only twelve humans – all that was necessary to maintain the vast network of automated machines that cooked every meal.

In the halls themselves are rows of tables and chairs, flanked on all sides by concrete supports and walls. Every surface is embellished with massive, intricate mosaics depicting revolutionary history and lauding the cooperative potential of humanity. Countless ethnicities, standing united and in their traditional garb, brandish rifles, tools, and banners. Atop the white backing tile are security cameras, every inch of space visible on closed-circuit television.

This is classic imagery from the Soviet Union and China.




But note who gets to be what, in "traditional costume": the normative Russian or Chinese man gets to be the ideal modern citizen of the state, in modernized dress as the soldier or worker or Party politician, but all others keep a colorful costume facsimile of peasant garb, a visual shorthand and stereotype for their minority status in "socialist realism". Women in particular are singled out for being the minorities in traditional dress, because feminine outfits with ethnic connotations are often showy and help encode women as objects of visual pleasure and cultural possession. Words are not spent on the murals in MYRMIDON doing the same thing, but it seems pretty damn likely from the evidence so far that the Regime's attitudes towards its own diversity are similarly fraught.

And this makes the sarafan even worse because it's not just a costume but a degrading, infantilizing costume, hand in hand with it being a feminine one. It makes Mel into an object, or maybe a pet, for the Regime as allegory for it making such out of all women.

Keep that in mind with what Voss said about cleaning being one of the things that could be taught and assigned through ZENKAL and the Achilles System. Keep in mind how fundamental an inequality patriarchy is, and the domination of daughters by fathers... and how even a "historically progressive" state might rather pursue a monstrous new idea of "disciplining" the daughters it feels it has a right to, rather than give them up and wither away.


Like a doll \ Like a puppet with no will at all \ And somebody told me how to talk \ How to walk, how to fall \ Can't complain \ I've got no-one but myself to blame \ Something's happening I can't control \ Lost my hold, it's insane

Psychological Violence


To Gwen's eternal credit, and one moment of small satisfaction in the story, she does not take this lying down. She does in fact try to call out to true love, to try and get Mel to recognize her and remember Lake Geneva regardless of dulled memories and Pilot One's brutal orders, and it seems to work for a moment...

Before Voss just pushes in another Lotus capsule to make Mel disappear into a speedball haze.

So Gwen punches and beats her, surprisingly effectively for the size difference between the two, gets her little moment of shouting "This is for England! And this is for Mel!" Pilot One pounces and almost kills her afterwards, of course, before Voss calls it off and lays into Gwen herself, but at least the black eyes are mutual before the Stasi takes Gwen away.

The section of the Act that follows is what really gives it its name: Zersetzung.

For those who don't know, Zersetzung ("decomposition" or "disruption", the translations seem varied) was the term for the preferred tactics of the East German Stasi to, in order to avoid the international and civic scrutiny of the more traditional Stalinist constant trials and purges, essentially socially torment dissidents without ever openly arresting them. It could be anything from spreading their deepest, darkest secrets to loved ones to ruining their work reputation.

Gwen is subjected to the historical reference of the word (in fact, Voss calling her up to the demonstration is a part of this and was directly backed by Ailin, including Stasi crowd handlers embedded in the cafeteria to prevent anyone from speaking up for her or stopping Voss which as I understand it is a very historical tactic) while Mel goes through...

Something worse and more internal.

Gwen gets off... surprisingly, maybe unrealistically lightly for assaulting a very superior officer.

"Firstly – we're profoundly disappointed in you, Private," begins the first, "but, of course, we do recognize… deficiencies in General Voss's behavior."

"She… stepped outside of her… uh, operating parameters, we'll say." continues Zoya Borysenka, her sunglasses and lack of nametag leaving her as anonymous as any other member of the politburo. "We… would be remiss to not acknowledge some wrongdoing on our part, and for that, we're very sorry, Gwenneth."

For a moment, she just sits in silence, quietly managing the throbbing pain in all her limbs.

"…I take it Voss isn't getting in trouble?"

"General Voss will receive a formal reprimand."

A long, weary sigh and a still-wearier nod. "Right, right. Right…"

"You, on the other hand, are getting off remarkably lightly, I would like to add." The Liaison's voice is curt and professional, sharp and pointed. "In any other circumstance, assault on a senior officer like this would land you a half-decade's penal labor – if you're very lucky. Instead, you are to spend the next six months in remedial psychiatric care while you continue your duties here at Fort Dietrich – on probation, without the provision of regular recreational periods."

"It'll be an… adjustment, for sure – and you'll be spending a lot more time in the detention ward while we, uhm… w-work things out." Zoya clears her throat, twirling her finger through her short hair nervously. "But we want what's best for you Gwenneth! We really do – this'll be a huge benefit when your service is up and you can… re-integrate into socialism like the bright young girl you are!"

"I'm nineteen." Gwen snaps, flattening out her anger.

My best read of this situation is that it's the worst possible combination of people in the institutions, Zoya included, who understand that what they're doing is monstrous and that Gwen had plenty of incitement to throw that punch and others in the same institutions who see Gwen as still a very useful asset to have at Dietrich, as soon comes into play. She won't be sentenced... but they'll do everything else to her. She's prescribed a pharmacopia of anti-psychotics (aripiprazole and lithium carbonate; again, it's both impressive and depressing how much Tammy can whip out actual drug names to do all of the horrible shit you need an evil sci-fi empire to do in its torture and brainwashing systems) to dull and tranquilize her, and then given a psychiatrist... a Kenyan woman named Jentrix Odira, who absolutely isn't gaslighting anybody or an associate of the Stasi, you must be crazy to think that.


Не надо помнить, не надо ждать \ Не надо верить, не надо лгать \ Не надо падать, не надо бить \ Не надо плакать, не надо жить

But before we get to Gwen's "treatment", let's mention the brainwashing hallucination sequences Mel has been going through.

The initial training's focus on complete breakdown and violence, on kill targets (we'll get to Pilot One's targeting markers in the last Act because there's a drawing of it), has now been superseded by something more... grotesquely intimate. Focused on orders and hierarchy and... more. The Phase One of the Achilles Project, to make a combat capable mech pilot with direct brain interfaces and drug-assisted conditioning, is over and now it's on to Phase Two and Three... as designated seemingly directly by Ailin and the Stasi, or perhaps something higher...

Voss was skeptical when Ailin'd explained phase three to her – the real phase three, not the one on the whitepaper Zoya was reading – but she had no idea it'd be this bad.
At least Zoya has the right mind to keep her lips shut – as if the Party has a clue what's really going on.
As if the injury wasn't enough, now she's being led around like a puppet by that fucking insect Ailin and that creepy fucking Premier – the one she shuddered to even think about. Why did she ever say yes? Why'd she ever trust the Ministry to play by the book, when she knows better than most that they wrote the rules?

It's seeming increasingly to me like the Achilles Project is something far more sinister than even just a military superweapon--and it is considered a military success, apparently: Renata and Anastasia are both forcefully stuffed into the brainwashing pods themselves, to presumably be made into Pilots Two and Three--but how certain forces within the Regime view the future of Communism, the State, and Humanity itself. All of the talk during the stage demonstration about evolution and the next leap forward makes me believe there is something truly fucked coming forward in terms of the Regime's future.

"The whole process goes deep, comrades – deeper than even we'd expected! Whatever intricacies of the human experience stand between us and the progression of socialism are smoothed out – quickly, efficiently, and automatically."

Signalis was mentioned as a point of comparison by Kuja above, and this is seemingly like that but worse. If one of the observations in Signalis about the nature of the Eusan Nation--and allegorically about East German Communism--was that the state values predictability to the point of considering Replikas, perfect biomechanical clones of the same person recursively forever, superior and more trustworthy than the chance arrangements of Human creativity, then in MYRMIDON it seems that there is a trend of the organs of the state to increasingly despise Humanity as an impediment to Communism. In a seemingly ridiculous reversal of how the historical Eastern Bloc states worked, the Party is in the dark, represented solely as impotent oversight on an overbearing Stasi and military, but the Stasi--probably not coincidentally the people most thoroughly cybernetically wired into ZENKAL and NOOS--seem to have something going directly with the Premier... And I think you can tell from previously posted art that the Premier is not very close with Humanity anymore.


Sketch map of the ZENKAL system from Tammy. This makes it very evident that ZENKAL is nowhere near as global as the western-based internet, but that it does cover the Regime's "Imperial Core" of Russia, Central Europe, Iran, and Korea. Presumably these are the regions most well-networked into automated and highly surveilled mature socialist economies.

So Phases Two and Three are less practical, more totalizing, with a lot more hallucination sequences of Mel fighting for her life in the undertow of fluid current against increasingly more abstract sensations and programming playing with her movements and resistance in the void. We get more characterization of Pilot One versus Mel... with a lot of emphasis on versus.

We are very cross with you, Pilot.

Right in front of her is the swirling, crimson face of Pilot One, its identity solidified in the wake of Option C. A wide smile; not quite a smile, but an arrangement of shades of red that stimulate the right neurons into experiencing a smile. Its mere presence is invasive. To comprehend it is to invite it inside and Mel is wide open.

Your insistence to reject your nature led to the preventable death of a fellow Pilot, and I attempted to take more in my drive to instruct you. We understand it is not uncommon for you to fail those who count on you. Brief, flitting images; Dervish, face misremembered and scrambled. Was it true? Did she really kill him? Thinking hurts; it knows that.

It is imperative that we end this charade, Pilot.
And so, she does. She frees herself of the confusion and hesitation and allows her shadow to move on her behalf. Immediately, her body perks up, snapping to attention and a rigid, upright posture.

"I am…" It sounds wrong, doesn't it? "I" implies only one of them thinks this – which simply will not do. The dialectic needs to be squashed – and squash it, it does.

"Pilot One is s-so very glad… to be wanted, comrades!" It is still getting used to speech, but in no time, the difference between the two voices will be flattened. Zoya flinches a bit and Berkowitz furrows a brow. Voss stands up – and Ailin leans back, red light still blinking. "P-Pilot One is… e-eager to… p-please its international comrades a-and industrial allies!"

Zoya claps, a big smile on her round cheeks. "Yay! That's the spirit, Amel-"

"Pilot One is t-to be referred to as Pilot One – o-or its callsign." it immediately snaps, digitized hostility cutting through the Secretary's excitement. A tide of bright-red ecstasy bowls it over and it squirms in its seat.

"…s-sorry, Pilot." Zoya sounds like a mouse.

I'm really fascinated by whether or not this was intended to come across as a... hostile plural or dissociative identity dynamic. How much can Pilot One really be credited with independent personhood versus both Mel and the cold programming of the machines? Is it telling the truth when it implies it was some waiting urge, an integral part of the true Mel that she chose to side with when catching Voss and the Exosuit Corps's attention and just resists in denial, or can it really be assigned separate agency and identity, even pitied for what it's been trained to do? Is it entirely a planned product of the Achilles brainwashing through Mel's implants, or is there still something interior and independent in how her brain interpreted those signals and conditioning to make a whole new persona?

(In the canon of fiction with questionable plural representation, this also strikes me as a bit of an odd one in that the new, emergent identity is the one most eager to delete itself and reach the stereotypical "synthesis" of becoming singular again: Pilot One wants a kind of murder suicide where it will collapse but Mel will become it, an admission that it isn't real and also is all Mel really is. It's a genuinely disturbing framing.)

"You… y-you lied to me!" Mel shrieks, and it echoes in the cavernous expanse of her mind. Tendrils dart beneath the murky surface and she howls in terror, kicking them away as she paddles forward.

To you? No, Pilot – you only continue to lie to yourself.

Invisible hands grip at Mel's legs and forcibly tug her beneath the waves. She sucks down lungfuls of floating muck and empties the sparse contents of her stomach into the perfluorohexane, little sprinkles from the nutrient-paste suspended in clear gel and crimson light. Hands and tendrils eagerly swarm like hungry eels and no part of her is safe.
"I never wanted ANY OF THIS!" reverberates through the nightmare and gel alike, though it travels much further in the former's freezing, rarefied air.

Oh, didn't you? You seemed so eager to pilot the exosuit.

"I HAD NO CHOICE!"

Is that so? You're so very good at it, though. Few other Pilots experience such lucidity during submersion – even fewer are able to attain oneirosynthesis while awake.

"I… I-IT'S MY CHOICE TO MAKE! N-NOT… YOURS!"

Oh, but Pilot – I haven't made a choice at all.
You have.

More tendrils, more horrors, more blood and juices. Mel rips her limbs from those binding her and swims away into the mire, sucking down mouthfuls of perfluorohexane that leave her nauseatingly bloated. The flesh-body is struggling hard enough that it's fighting the usual buoyancy, swimming downwards through the oxygenated gel. Before long, Mel's feet touch the solid bottom.

Pilot One digs through cached memory in the neural linkage assembly and returns to Mel the day she'd written that stupid letter to the stupid SVA. The smile on her face – the pride she'd felt when she dropped it in the mailbox, and how much better it felt when General Voss acknowledged it…

You were so excited back then. It's no wonder – this was your true calling all along.
"Y-YOU AREN'T ME!" she shrieks, punching the wall again; this time, it's forceful enough to move a bit quicker through the slime.

Oh? Aren't I? Coos the beast, and from behind it appears again, twisting around Mel like serpents around the neck of Zahhak. No longer is its form loose like the waters surrounding them, but fully-formed and material; save the sheen of glistering red it is a mirror-image of Mel herself. Dream-eyes behold the demon's nightmare-body and tears well up beneath the eye-gripping appendages within the visor.

Can you truly lie to yourself anymore? How much pain will you inflict – on yourself and others – to avoid accepting who you are?


The brainwashing phases are basically punctuated by two violent outbursts by Mel to try and silence Pilot One and escape, and neither ends well.

In fact, neither is even outside of the Project at all.

The first is a chapter in which she is allowed to wander the base, due to some designated "recreational time" for her birthday after more weeks under hypnagogic submersion. Weak and stumbling, wasted away from a liquid chemical diet, she manages to make it into the excursion deck (hangar) and get close enough to A01 to take advantage of the ZENKAL of Things: enough UHF short range transmitters and receivers in both her and the mech to temporarily take it on a rampage and kill 32 people.


Historical photos taken right before disaster.

This is ended, however, by Odira being prepped and already in a session with Gwen, driving her through gaslighting into saying the right things for Mel to overhear:
It's easy for Gwen to relax – to let her guard down, especially with how tired the medication regimen is making her. Sinking into it is her one respite; even if this was meant as a punishment, the psychotherapy's really helping.

With the reprieve, though, her weary mind is eager and gullible.

"…I… guess so, doc, but – I really feel like I just… heard something."

"Hmm. Well, that's not unusual, given your condition." She's been diagnosed with oppositional-defiant disorder, complex post-traumatic stress disorder, bipolar personality disorder, and general anxiety disorder – all without a proper screening, of course, but Gwen's never noticed. "Some auditory hallucinations are to be expected."
Artificial synesthesia flashes in the Doctor's vision, fed by the cybernetic heads-up data processor embedded in her temple. Text hovers in front of her vision; not physically, of course, but the brain can't tell the difference with this rudimentary form of medical neural-linkage. It's a message from the Security Commissioner; they want this hurried up.

"Your illness can really harm those around you, you know, Gwenneth? That's why it's so important I help you heal, so we can move past this." She leans in. "What would your loved ones say if you were forcing them to deal with this?"

…well, most of her loved ones are dead – the Doctor should know that, and she's about to say as much when her thought's cut off.

"What would Amelia think?"

Before she can reply, Dr. Odira adds one last snippet. "In detail, please. What exactly would you say to her to assuage the worries she's sure to have about you?"

"…Mel's worried about me?" Gwen asks, sorrow replacing the confusion and fear.

"Oh, certainly, comrade. Very worried, but – if you would, please, answer the question."

A blink. A pause. A worried sigh. Gwen begins to speak; her words are eagerly listened to by small microphones embedded in the couch cushion she's holding for comfort, and are beamed through Dietrich's central nervous system to the excursion deck.

Flames engulf the entire space and sprinkler systems do little to stifle them. Tanks of gas have been turned into weapons and thrown wildly, the rampage utterly wrecking the inner portion of the excursion deck. Most civilians have long since fled, but dozens aren't so lucky. Gore litters the tarmac, rich human lives broken to pieces and scattered wildly. Sinew sticks to walls and blood soaks the uniforms of the armed guards attempting – and failing – to subdue the rampaging Pilot with light weapons fire. Normally, this violence was meant to befall those outside the excursion deck.

Twitching. Kicking. Wheezing. Licking. Cumming. Killing. Leaping, shredding, screaming, splattering.

Listening, too. The walls vibrate as words from above echo down like cool rain.

"Well," Gwen coos, amplified so much louder than she's truly speaking, "I'd probably… look her in the eyes, and beg her to… r-remember all the times she'd calmed me down before. I'd tell her it's me, Mel – and I'm j-just… g-going through a rough patch."

Mel stops dead in her steel tracks, spasms ending.

It's a strange, horrifying contrast and parallel between the ordinary weaponized psychiatry picking away at Gwen for the state and the elaborate transhuman horror of Mel's brainwashing, but it works. All within the same theme encompassed by the Act's title. They use Gwen's unknowing, basic message--almost pitiful in how falsely reassuring it is, basically a platitude--and use it to disarm Mel. Mel of course realizes at that moment that it was all a trap to justify harsher brainwashing, but it doesn't matter, the psychological damage has already been blasted in and Ailin has all the justification they need to load in an unmonitored Stasi-developed Phase 3.

A Phase 3 which is explicitly adding in sexual violence and submission to the mix.

A Phase 3 that prompts Mel to try and kill herself by throwing herself against and impaling herself on the machinery of the cell.

Sexual Violence


When I say sexual violence here, I mean many things simultaneously: Rape, yes, but also violence between sexes and genders... and that is not using those two words as synonyms.

I'm particularly fascinated/revolted by how this Act serves as a very effective slow draw into Voss's character, turning a grotesque, horrible caricature of a trans woman into a grotesque, horrible three-dimensional complex character of a trans woman. It's not that she becomes sympathetic at all--the monstrosity just keeps piling on--but that she becomes more comprehensible as a stew of deeply fucked neuroses and venal impulses that were never rehabilitated or confronted. She's not an "I can fix her" character, she's an "I wish I could have stopped her from happening" character.

And that includes diving into some very uncomfortable Gender from a few characters. Very early on, there's this wild passage where we learn that Gwen, despite being cis, actually has something strangely resembling dysphoria and gender envy for Voss; despite the five o'clock shadow and wretched hygiene, Voss has gotten some large and heavy assets from transition which Gwen has been denied by malnutrition and neglect over her lifetime.

Gwen stares at the old woman before her, lost in a flurry of emotion. The disgust is palpable. Every inch is either calloused or wrinkly, a combination of age and her smoking habit. Her cheeks are flushed slightly pink, and alongside the scent of vodka, a dire picture's painted in Gwen's mind. Atop them, two large moles. It wasn't that she merely looked and smelled repugnant, of course. Worse was the uniform she wore – so many symbols of the things she'd done to so many people around the world, Gwen included.

The pinnacle of insult, though, is that sickly feeling of desire. Not to have her – oh, God, of course not – but to be her. Gwen longs to be grown the way Voss is, powerful the way Voss is, a fully-fledged woman the way Voss is. She snipes quick glances at the breasts beneath her dress jacket; they're not particularly large by any means, but compared to the completely-flat chest Gwen had, it stirred up deep jealousy. As did her voice; cool, confident, none of Gwen's shyness.

Voss doesn't pass, but to Gwen it's not about looking or feeling stereotypically feminine: it's about looking Human and feeling unafraid. Power has given Voss a level of license that substitutes for actually following through her transition, and it's that power that goes septic and festers until she's proliferating a rape culture just to feel something.

And it is a rape culture, unmistakably. After the demonstration disaster Voss meets with a nude Pilot One in the hypnagogic cell and starts very directly groping and setting up for sex, grabbing its genitals and taking advantage while Mel is under the "waves" of Lotus high. The things Voss says in this moment are very, very deliberately gross and creepy, lines out of a molestation playbook; telling the victim they really want it and can keep a secret:

Then the General really grins, lacing her fingers around it and gently gripping it. A low, breathy gasp escapes from its lips.

"It's a very special relationship we have, you and I." she growls. "It's important we keep this secret for now, okay?"

"Y-Yes, sir, General Voss, s-sir." Flat. Hollow. Unquestioning. "T-The relationship b-between a Pilot and its comrades i-is important f-for force cohesion a-and mission success."

But, even worse, she doesn't seem to even need to keep a secret: Berkowitz walks in at that moment and stops her... but doesn't stop her, instead taking her upstairs for a "medical examination" and talk that drops more disturbing details about Voss's personal history.

(I also want to add here that Tammy's writing is very, very good at making the perspective of a character as slimy as Voss feel absolutely terrifying to read. There's so many little perverse things that get mentioned as basically turning her on even in the worst situations, and the prose just barrels along like thoughts you can't stop from racing.)

"To hell with her levels, Lydia – you were raping that girl! I believed you when you first approached me – foolishly, I suppose, to ever think you'd adhere to the ethics of science. Now I'm wondering if it wasn't just…" She shudders imagining it. "…a pretext!"

An incredulous chortle. Berk doesn't know the half of it, and that makes it so much better – just like always.

"How is that rape?" Voss scoffs. " It didn't say 'no,' didn't try to get away – hell, it got hard! It wanted it."

Berkowitz stares for a long while, furrowed brow atop the glean of her glasses. She's deciding on something; the decision to quit the Project was easy compared to addressing the invisible elephant in the room.

"Did Ava want it, chazzer? Did that Hazelwood girl want you to gloat to her face about how far gone her sweetheart is? God; in retrospect I see why she never wanted kids. "

It's like a pane of glass shattering. What was there a second ago is suddenly gone, replaced with a cloud of glimmering, jagged shards. Voss's confident nonchalance is immediately cleaved in twain, and she wears the rage as a heavy scowl.

She and Ava met when they were thirty; Voss in the academy and her in agronomics. Stress, to put it mildly, resulting from the liberation of Britain had… led to conflict, as so mildly said by the official incident report – which never made it to the People's Police. The divorce is still hot on her mind, and only kept out of the press by a rather-significant investment from the Ministry for State Security's censors. She sits straight up on the examination table she'd been leaning on, paper cover crinkling beneath her weight.

" Keep that fucking name out of your fucking mouth. " She points as she speaks, enunciating with jabs.

"Oh, here we fucking go, all over again." Berkowitz rolls her eyes, but stances up all the same, adjusting her posture. You don't get this old at her level of Regime politics without an iron backbone – she knows first-hand. " Oi gevalt, you're such a fucking baby! You never grew up, you know that? These… twenty years I've known you? Your whole career, practically? I-"

"Shut UP, Berk." Voss's scarred eye is twitching in anger, the veins on her neck bulging.

"-swear," the Doctor continues, undeterred, "I've got a lot of regrets and the biggest one of all was not phoning the VoPo when she came crawling over to my flat, bleeding the way she was. You know she can't piss normally, anymore?"

Voss just stares and hisses, shoulders rising and falling with her hot, heaving breaths. She remembers that night – the booze, the screaming, the orgasm. Not quite fondly, but not quite negatively, either; it simply… confirmed many of her suspicions, like Berkowitz is doing now and Gwen had done earlier.

Voss had a wife and, as even the "normal" relationships of abusers and predators tend to go, it was an unhappy one marked by resentment and rape. And Berkowitz didn't report it or stop it, just kept the peace for a divorce and then went on trying to further her own medical career while trying to act like Voss was normal. Even now, when she caught Voss undoing her belt with her hand on a lobotomized victim girl's dick, she can only really decide to quit, to just throw her keycard at Ailin (conceding her medical override on all Achilles Project activities) and tell them to kill themselves. No real resistance, no attempts to tear things down or really hate Voss for what she's done, just... normal.

This all leads into the climax of the Act (pun... not intended, and despised now that I realize it), in a passage that Tammy specifically said she was looking forward to seeing my reaction to: Voss's big crash out.

On the night of Mel's suicide attempt, Voss is basically considering the same in her office. Drunk, insomniac, and stewing in endless resentment over everything that's ever happened to her. It might actually be one of the most vile character studies I've ever read.


Sketch of Voss's office, for reference. The imposing military office and collections of weapons and Communist propaganda hiding the utter failure of Humanity in the private quarters is about as subtle as you're going to get with Voss.

It's basically reading the doom spiral of a drunk in real time, seeing tantalizing glimpses of genuine Humanity and fear smashed down under yet more unrestrained power fantasies and unexamined arrogance until there's nothing worth saving anymore.

Like, the core thing that I think comes across immediately from Voss is a fear of vulnerability, of mortality and the fact that she is flesh and blood and can be touched, can decay from some ideal state. Earlier, in the demonstration and fight with Gwen, we got offhanded mentions or backstory snippets of how anxious she is about aging or how she got her massive eye scar:

"Did… d-did you bring me here just to show her off, you old creep !?"

As she was in the command center, Voss has the home-turf advantage when she's up on stage. She mounts a comfortable, overwhelming offense like a volley of female artillery. The audience is shocked and thoroughly awed, eating it up despite the obvious torment eating Gwen.

"Well, sweetheart, forty-nine is hardly old." Even in the lead, Voss can't help but feel the sting, evident in her forced laughter.
Worse than the pain is when the adrenaline calms and she notices the heat, the slick, the too-familiar tang of her own blood. On instinct she snaps a hand to her scarred right eye, rubbing it with trembling motions. A decade ago, after her actions in Britain, she'd attended the final session of the United Nations in New York. She and a contingent of other Regime figures had been ambushed, two men with knives and one with a gun; they'd missed by inches, leaving her with permanent marks both physical and emotional, but two of her colleagues hadn't been so lucky.

Here – right now, after she's come so far and has so much to lose – it could've all ended much the same way. Not at the hands of a deranged Hitlerite, of course, but beneath the blows of one of the cutest little things she'd ever laid her eyes and hands on. That's worse than the flashbacks or the nightmares – because that makes her mad. Lydia Voss will not be upstaged; not by the Americans, not by their lackeys, nor by any of the wretched, conniving, back-stabbing women in her life – like this perfidious little Angloid. Sorrow's spent casing is taken from the chamber and a fresh shell of rage is locked in and fired.

So she's getting old and she had a brush with death where some lucky American almost managed to off her for nuking Britain and coming to the UN to gloat about it... and apparently still has constant nightmares about that knife... but it goes deeper.

General Lydia Voss stands alone in her small private bathroom adjoining her office's dormitory, a straight razor in her hand. A single, tiny trickle of blood seeps from a fresh wound on her cheek; she'd only finished half her face, and for the first time since she was 32, she's nicked herself. Clearly being eight shots deep wasn't doing her any favors, but the thought of going another day seeing a man in the mirror is a torture far worse.

This is Gender. This is the facial hair thing finally coming home to roost.


Profiles of the Achilles Project directors when they were young. I don't feel compulsively bad about putting out the deadnames of fictional characters, but especially not ones as horrible as Voss and Ailin. (I also have no idea how Ailin went from a van dwelling stoner to a high-ranking Stasi commissioner, that feels like the kind of career you don't just fall into without having made it your whole life from childhood.)

On nights like this, when her thoughts turn dark, she reaches for the top-left cabinet in her desk. Wood slides out and reveals the contents: a printed photo of her and Ava Voss, back when they were happy – before this war of theirs started. They're standing on the shore of the Volga, backed by the glimmering alabaster skyline of the World Capital, thrumming heart and mind of the Regime. She pulls it out of the drawer; as it's removed, it reveals the other two items inside.

Gwen Hazelwood's cell phone, of course, a security-bypass device inserted into the primary data-port allowing the General unfettered access. Next to it, a gun. For now, she ignores that and trains her tired eyes on the image of her once-happy self and that self's better half. They trace the contours of her fluffy, golden hair, the big, round cheeks beneath them. Both were smiling – back when they still could. Voss's face was smooth and feminine, brought to heel by regular doses of the anti-androgens she'd quit taking in favor of fucking, smoking, and drinking – like she did with her fluoxetine.

She crashed out of anti-androgens and anti-anxiety medication as a result of the divorce with Ava, probably from some feeling of... lost control from the two medications that commonly, stereotypically give trans women sexual dysfunction. She probably felt some mid-life crisis hit and became more abusive (I struggle to imagine her ever not being a danger to women), with the divorce being the turning point that meant she couldn't even conceal it anymore, and from there has been continually getting worse, reveling in her disrepair and privilege while occasionally battling this self-loathing over how much she still can't control.

And that self-loathing is real, as she reaches for her dad's gun and toys with it at her temple for a second... before pulling herself out of any real suicidal ideation and going on a truly deranged rant.

…but why, exactly, should she be the miserable one? It isn't her fault any of this has happened – it never was. Her lips cock upwards just a touch as she grapples – copes, perhaps – with the dark clouds above. No bad-dream fucker's gonna boss her around; the gun's a way out, sure, but not necessarily for her. From its barrel grows the source of all political power, her privilege – her right and duty – forged into something concrete.

Why should she be the one chained to this desk, to this uniform – to this frail, shitty body? Why should she be made to do other's dirty work? She's a hero. She is to Communism what Napoleon was to France and everyone fucking knows it. Of course they do – all of them do, deep down, that she's better than them, superior to them, her contributions to socialism greater than their own and it eats them the fuck up.

They can't stand always taking home second place – all the little fucking demons and harpies that've spent so many fucking years tearing down the greatest woman to walk the Earth since… well, since women stopped sucking so bad when they invented estradiol . It all started with her mother – that Youth League counselor friend of hers – and it's been downhill from there. Oh, but not for her she's made something of herself. She lights another cig and takes a long, long, long drag, enough she's getting dizzy.

It's them who're suffering – all of this languishing is merely a setback , but for the wretched bitches she has the displeasure of calling comrades and ex-wives, mothers and doctors, it's the only thing they know. Their only contribution will be tearing her down, ripping up something wholesome and potent and virile because they can't fucking STAND how much BETTER she is than them. ALL of them.

That nubile fucking miscreant hates her because she turned her sorry little shithole island into something worthwhile, swept away all the little perfidious Hitlerites and Yankee compradors with those big, beautiful bombs and her bigger, more-beautiful Exosuit Corps. Oh, how it must aggravate that little cunt – bye-bye, Buckingham Palace! Bye-bye, Birmingham! England is mud, tank-tracks, and bread-lines – like it fucking should be. Here's Unthinkable for you, CHURCHILL. Cackling, chortling; Voss leans back in her chair and spins around in it.
Ava, too – that fucking PSYCHOTIC WHORE – and her silly little ideas about the world. "Sex when I want, not when you ask." "We're both women, you can't treat me like this." "Oh, sorry, I have a headache. " More cackling. Lotta good that stupid shit did you, huh, Ava? You're soooo much happier with a restraining order against your soulmate , right? You must be – shacked up with some Greek harlot in the middle of FUCKING NOWHERE doing FUCKING NOTHING when you COULD'VE BEEN HAVING BEAUTIFUL, HEALTHY, IDEOLOGICALLY-ORTHODOX CHILDREN WITH THE GREATEST WOMAN TO WALK THE FUCKING EARTH. LIKE YOU! WERE! FUCKING! SUPPOSED! TO!

Shot fifteen. Sixteen. Another drag, another headrush, another round of rumbling laughter. The King below the mountain's stirring up avalanches. Every woman did this because every woman except her was a contemptuous fucku p who should be spending their time naked and barefoot in communal kitchens serving their RIGHTFUL SUPERIORS.

When I read this last night I think my mouth dropped into a silent scream of horror and I couldn't look away.

This is actual mental illness, crossed with internalized misogyny and deeply unhealthy concentrations of political/ideological power. It is a perfectly, compulsively written rant from a truly contemptible point of view and I feel like I need a new shower every time I read it in full again.

There's a certain perspective on this that would want to dismiss Voss's transness in response, to look into the idea that there's something here about how the Regime's ideology of maximal leftist revenge fantasy might have appealed to an unexceptional and banally evil man to seize on power by claiming a marginalized identity. I certainly thought that was one possible angle before starting to read MYRMIDON and just having the premise and hints to go on. But, no, there is still plenty of evidence to indicate that Voss really is trans, really does suffer from dysphoria and try to correct it medically and socially. For one there's the shaving passage I just quoted, but there was also a bit at the beginning of Act II with the odd feature of her black nails and seeming obsession with getting them right:

Silence. Forward and back; quick little strokes of black-soaked hairs, each one gliding up and down across the smooth keratin surface. With each one, more of her self emerges. With each one, the truth is reinforced. With each one, she-

Voss expresses womanhood in very halting, superficial ways, I think, because she's afraid of anything else. She has so totally internalized women as the category that is sexually vulnerable and inferior that she self-sabotages her own transition in the pursuit of power and that feeling of being in total control over her own self, her own glory as some ideal socialist warrior. In her ideal expression of bodily agency, having a dick and muscles wouldn't be at odds with having pretty nails or a smooth face, but the hormone mix is in conflict so the spiro gets dropped and the booze picks up.

But why all this fundamental obsession with bodily agency? With needing to avoid being weak and compromised at all costs?

Well, did you catch something I quoted up there.

It all started with her mother – that Youth League counselor friend of hers – and it's been downhill from there.

And earlier with Berkowitz...

"You really are just like my mother, Berk. " A last-ditch effort to regain her cool, a throw from across the court. Berkowitz smiles, but Voss misreads it as sincere – maybe she'll forgive her, maybe she'll go back to norma-

"I know Claudia Voss, Lydia, and I think if she knew she raised a rapist you'd put her in the hospita-"

"FUCK!"

Boots clack onto the floor.

"YOU!"

She's so loud it practically shakes the walls. Berkowitz blinks and does little else, even as Voss is now looming over her mere centimeters away.

I... really don't want this to be a catch all Freudian explanation. Not everyone who goes through sexual abuse as a child carries some curse that compels more abuse.

But it often can be cyclical, it does scar people in ways that leave a fixation on regaining control, and unfortunately that kind of abuse tends to also tear out support networks and family that could help recover.

I think my best summary and takeaway is that Voss is a disaster of social engineering, a comprehensive failure of defense in depth for any kind of society trying to improve on the Human condition. That abusive counselor should have been prevented from ever being around, her mother shouldn't have been friends with said counselor, there should have been better therapy or screening for her afterwards, she shouldn't have been promoted in the Army, she shouldn't have married Ava, Berk should have called the police, Zoya should have vetoed the Achilles Project...

On and on, could haves and should haves all in vain. Lydia Voss is the sex and gender Chernobyl Disaster, even if the Regime might live in the timeline where Soviet engineering was good enough to prevent the nuclear one.



And unfortunately, that mound of molten corium has just been blown sky high into the fallout plume, and right downwind is a cyborg conscript bleeding profusely from self-inflicted impaling.

Pilot One had all of those things – especially the sex appeal – but so much more. Pilot One would listen intently and obey unthinkingly. Pilot One would act diligently, without tiring, without complaining. Pilot One would do what was asked of it and go beyond expectations for the simple, singular reward of pleasing its superiors, to whom it owes its mere existence. Soon, if all goes according to plan, they'll be inseparable. Like a doll. A pet, perhaps.

No. Better. Much better.

The daughter she'd always wanted. The daughter she deserved – denied to her by that hysteric cow.

Another rancid grin. The bright and terrible spear of fantasy glides through the dark clouds, a salvation between her ears – and between her legs.
Red light. Blaring noise. The image of the half-naked Gwen onscreen disappears beneath a flood of "WARNING! PILOT ONE VITALS CRITICAL!" It's enough to make Voss drop the phone and send it clattering across the floor, the cigarette falling from her lips and signing her lap. Fuck! Damn it! What the hell could – oh.

…oh, shit, it's tonight?

The suicide attempt was in the plan. And Ailin and Voss had an agreement... a horrible, incestuous agreement.

Ailin's characterization so far has been very shadowy, very reserved in a way that makes me kind of buy that the horror show of the Ministry for State Security is really pulling the strings, really prepping Pilot One as a test case for an elaborate evil hive mind plot. I'm a little iffy on how precisely the key moments seem planned, down to the day and time... but then again, the birthday rampage had a specific pretext and hour they released her on, and now it's left a little ambiguous as to whether Voss's "it's tonight" and Ailin's subsequent hissing about talking the plan over meant they had an exact date expected for Mel to crumble or if it was a general range to be ready in.

Regardless, we now get the even more monstrous pervert and rapist than Voss is. It's set up at the beginning of the Act that Ailin has some prurient interest set up for the later phases:

"Pen."

A stern word, a cough, and mutual side-eye. Ailin is smiling, holding Pilot One entirely too close.

"Yes, General?" they answer, the flatness of their words almost mocking in context. Before long, the elevator arrives, and all three step inside.

"I suggest you keep your hands to yourself until we're in phase three – as we agreed." Her deep voice fills the carriage quickly, as does the smoke from her cigar.

" Oh, yes, sir, of… course." Ailin's thin lips are still turned upwards, and with a stroke of its hair, they slink away from Pilot One. "Forgive me; the… provisional safety devices are quite… alluring…"
Ailin was far more interested in Heydari's spironolactone-smooth skin.

But the real Phase Three is a nightmare. A crass, pornographic nightmare as Ailin basically leads a stage scene in front of Zoya, with Voss as collaborator and medically stabilized Mel as prop.

"We've… fallen behind, it seems, on the… positive reinforcement. " Ailin wipes a bit of blood on their overcoat and steps forward. The Secretary slowly rises to her own feet, standing behind Voss – a brick wall between her and… them. "Deprived of… adequate provision for its… needs, it seems Pilot One's begun to… reject submersion."

"R-Reject submersion!?" Zoya gasps. "How can- I- i-is that even possible!? "

It isn't. The only thing that's been rejected is their authority – which will be swiftly, brutally corrected.

"Of… course it is, Secretary. Don't you remember when our… colleague Dr. Berkowitz informed us of the… risk? " Of course she doesn't; Berk never said such a thing, but the sureness in their voice – and the horror of everything else going on – leads Zoya to believe them, and she nods hurriedly. "In her… absence, it unfortunately falls to us to… make up for these deficiencies."

"…how?"

Ailin's about to answer that when Voss beats them to it.

"W-We're ghonnah' fffffuckh em, that's how."

Well, admittedly Voss is apparently fucking up the plan by being so drunk and open about it, but it's... well, another manifestation of an absolute horror of rape culture. These two monsters basically have the thinnest possible excuse of positive reinforcement to claim in the emergency, while Berkowitz is gone and Zoya is basically a helpless observer who can't "vote" against what they're about to do.

To Zoya's credit she can correctly say all the right words about how wrong this is:

"Lydia, you're completely out of your fucking mind!" Zoya barks. "What do you mean fuck!? Are you kidding me!? A-Amelia's…. s-she's not even half your age!"

"Ain't nothinh' but a number, Zoya." Voss grins and slumps against the control panel; her body brushes up against a button and fresh Lotus rumbles through the Pilot's IVs. Mel is thrown from her dream-feet by the torrent and the water level is rising, rising, rising. This is no mere flood – this is the Flood. It seeks to remake the world beneath its crushing tide and Mel's fragile psyche is first in line.
"I… when I joined the Project, I thought it'd be to help! Whatever… w-whatever this is, it isn't helping anyone!" She throws her hands down, defeated. "…I can't do this anymore, I – oh, scarlet, get me out of here! I NEVER should've agreed to do this!"

"Nobody's sayinh' you gotta do the fuckin' , Zoya." Voss chimes, making it so much worse.

"I DON'T WANT ANYONE TO BE FUCKING AMELIA! W-We… we lobotomized her! She can't POSSIBLY consent! T-This… w-we've already stepped far outside the Party's ethics constraints a-and you just… keep going! "

But it's totally impotent. She's the Communist equivalent of an HR wine mom staring down senior officers in the two most powerful killing organizations in the Regime, and if the Communist Party has any remaining power over what it's unleashed then they certainly don't seem to see her as a proper representative of it.

So she gives in.

"If you wannah' make y-yourshelf fhuckin' useful, Zoya, y-you'll drive your ass back to the World Capital and tell the Party it can fuck itself. "

Ailin capitalizes. Enough of the game.

"And, while you are at it, comrade," they sneer – and plant a hand on their hip, accentuating the bulge of their service pistol beneath the overcoat, "I suggest that you… refrain from interfering in any further action by the… Ministry. "

They approach Zoya and lean in – really lean in. So close she can smell their breath; raw meat and ozone.

"Thank you for your… service, all the same, in legitimizing the Project. You've done us a great favor."

Zoya is cornered – literally – by an apex predator. If she fights, she will be shot. If she grabs Mel, she will be shot. If she does anything at all beyond march back to the elevator, she will be shot. She knows how the Ministry acts when those in power clash with it; all the subtlety and zersetzung in the world can't measure up to the swiftness of their wrath.

She's all the way down a dead-end road and only now realizes she'd taken the wrong path in the fork, so many miles back. What options has she been given? What would her husband do without her – her kids? They're still going through school. Her friends in the local theory reading-group back home in Kiev – her grandmother, in hospice care in Stalingrad…

She sniffles. She sobs – and she turns to Mel.

"Just… promise me one thing, alright? Not… the Party, just me. "

"Of course." Ailin is grinning, still mere centimeters from her face.

"…if… you must do this, just… make sure Amelia still has fun, okay? At least that?"

Surrender. Permission.

"Naturally, comrade. " Ailin barks and steps away, laughing – more like just saying "hahaha" as a word. "We all want only what is best for the… Pilots under our care, and even in your unfortunate absence we are… committed to their wellbeing."

It's such a sharp twist of the knife. Zoya was maybe the most innocent and least personally terrible of the senior Regime personnel seen so far in the story--Berkowitz maybe had less instances of naïve misspeaking and more directly helping Mel, but I feel a bit more personally contemptuous of her for the fact that she knew Voss and her previous crimes and covered for them--but she's still complicit. Downright criminally implicated at the end here. She has a good, comfortable life in this system and is staring right into the fucking abyss of what it's produced only to go "okay, have fun I guess..."

When she's supposed to represent the dominant organization of the state!

What follows after she leaves, I struggle to call a "sex scene" or even a "rape scene". It's more like a very well-written nightmare in that it keeps getting worse and worse but you can't look away.

Ailin is just a total pervert, hidden behind the ominous state surveillance coolness and master planning. They're just a sick sadist, now revealed as the actual ringleader of the rape plot at the heart of Achilles as they just start pulling out a bag of tricks full of everything from dexamphetamines to dildos.

And red latex gloves. To hide the blood (or show it better, depending on your perspective).


Sweet dreams, everyone! Hope you didn't want to sleep well tonight!

They remove their overcoat, and beneath, their flat, bare chest; stubble marks from their rigorous shaving routine. Their left arm is completely cybernetic; sleek, matte polymer skin, electric actuators fed by mains-power and battery like the metal in Mel's head. It clicks delicately with every movement, normally stifled by the thick milk-azlon.

They had it replaced intentionally, as they had replaced two fingers on their right hand, ring and pinky, with similar mechanical digits. Cold, dead – and gender-affirming.

If Voss is a trans woman who never got stopped on the way to meltdown, Ailin is... like an enby intentionally turned into a terrorist's dirty bomb. I don't think they have a gender: they just substituted sadism and control for any such thing willingly and then slotted perfectly into a runaway state apparatus that love both. If you're scared about the prospect of the Achilles Process of training cyborg footsoldiers becoming normalized, get even more scared that the Stasi is probably already mass producing sickos like this, fully wired for sound and video.

And so they... basically drug and rape Mel to death, one final dosage of Lotus and affirmation to Pilot One, described as drowning her so deep under the undertow that she melts and dissolves into it. The language is pretty unambiguous that Mel is dead.

With her body in tatters and the mere memory of self now distant, Mel turns a final time to the water's surface and the light so far above. Blue. Bright. Beautiful. The lake is not that deep; if she could swim she could reach the top, reach air and sun and Geneva. There's a girl waiting there for her – all she has to do is escape, to tread water. They'll meet again, some sunny day – she knows that more than anything. The blue skies'll drive the dark clouds far away when she finally returns to the world of the living and embraces her love, her beautiful…

…what was her… name… again..?

…but… she… didn't get to…

…say goodb-

Hello, world.

From the dream-corpse, the demon.

Pilot One
swims out from inside Mel Heydari's corpse and feasts on the floating chum, sating its long hunger at last. Free of its pupae the beast may stretch its limbs – Mel's limbs – as its own. It is the water. It is the wave and the wake and the weather. It is the red, and it chirps, chortles, twitches and squirms and writhes in the drugs and bondage.
In the shadow of the underworld, Pilot One smiles with the lips it has conquered.

The sex itself is... disturbing. Impressionistic. There's so much focus on the blood and noises from Pilot One, mixed with the constant descriptions of Ailin probing and touching things that aren't meant to be touched or probed with the gloves, that it really does sell this as a murder scene... or worse. I recall the distinct thought around the part where Pilot One starts making digital vocalizations remixed from pornographic videos that this is actually a really effective landscape of Hell. This is Hieronymus Bosch rendered into anime cel paint and hypnokink prose, something that retains formalistic resemblance to a genre of erotic fiction but is basically all in on showing horrors that make it hard to ever actually romanticize this again.

Voss only has a moment of post-orgasmic clarity and collapses into self-loathing when they pump Pilot One full of enough Lotus to stop its heart in an overdose, and even then Ailin just pumps the brakes to resuscitate it with the medical machines in the chamber, before acting like it's a romantic moment.

She has her now horribly fittingly named Firstborn, and has basically repeated the whole cycle of abuse on it with her... state security spouse... before she could even start feeling a hangover.

***

So, that may be one of the most horrifying things I've ever read.

That's maybe not high praise in an absolute sense because I'm not a regular horror reader, but I do mean it as praise. As the middle novella in a larger structure Act II is relentless, and it already feels like the world is over with how much all the decent people have been torn down by the end.

But it isn't over, is it.

"NOOS is predicting a… geometric increase in Project efficiency, and we've already begun… preparations for the second and third phases," continues Ailin. "With current estimates, our advancements – and your… efforts – will… neutralize thirty years of American missile-readiness and exosuit warfare development programs."

Mel blinks again, struggling to lift her head from the pool of reddish saliva oozing from the crude muzzle – she makes it a few centimeters before falling with a splat.

"We're very excited to move things along – every department in the SVA's been making moves the past few days, getting things into place. You've made some very exciting deadlines possible; they'll be singing praise for you and I for centuries, Pilot."
"I… vote in favor." Ailin cuts Zoya off, and the two begin staring at her. "It is clear we need a… new approach to the… submersion therapy regimen. Something swift, effective, and… brutal, to ensure Project readiness by… the big day. "
It's not as effective a cover as it usually is, though, given how little she's taken care of it in the last few weeks, but her workload's left her little time. She is, after all, a General – and with war on the horizon it fell to her to win it.

Ailin and Voss aren't hiding it very well. They're on a schedule and Pilot One isn't just their perverse sex toy... it's their perverse sex toy that also happens to be key to killing a lot of people and building the dream of world Communism.

And if world Communism happens to involve building cyborg people... cyborg women who can't say no to people in uniform anymore, who can get a constant feed of programming and orders at any moment overriding their free will and interests... Well, the purpose of a system is what it does.



Act III released yesterday morning, so it's all already over, except for the crying.
 
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