2: Flesh and Blood
My new eyes blinked open and I found myself staring out of them towards a plain wooden ceiling above me. A slight breeze blew into the room from the open windows, and I soon felt cool air caressing my face for the first time in several thousand years. I took a deep breath and delighted in the clean taste. There was no ash to choke on, no stench of sulfur or burnt flesh, just pure, fresh air.
I experimented with my new body, turning my head to and fro, my eyes scanning the room around me. I saw the richly appointed room, though the sight of it right now wasn't as impressive as when I had seen it with my own eyes. Mortal sight was so limited, incapable of seeing all the various spectrums of light. Despite the duller sensations of this body's meager sensory organs, I reveled in every sight, scent, and taste.
There was the fresh air, so clean and untainted by Hell's putrid nature. The sunlight coming in from the windows felt warm and pleasant against my skin. Even the current dryness of my mouth was welcome, as usually I would be tasting ash and blood, or some other foul things my jailers forced me to ingest.
This was freedom. For the first time in an eon, I was free. Free from pain, free from torment. Not a second of my imprisonment had been pleasant. My jailers had delighted in torturing me. They were overjoyed with every scream they wrung out of me, and greatly enjoyed committing any and all malicious acts of deviance upon my divine form. A mortal mind would have been destroyed utterly if it had endured what I had for as long as I did.
For thousands upon thousands of years I suffered. And now, that was over. I was free. If I were a lesser being, I would have wept in joy.
Instead, I sat up in the bed. The movement was unsteady at first since the muscles of this body had become somewhat atrophied from disuse. Yet even now I could feel my essence healing the damage, a side effect of this weak flesh housing my divine radiance. Within a few moments I felt my being permeate every cell of the vessel housing me, and soon all the damage this body had ever suffered had been healed.
I looked down at the form I now currently inhabited, pushing away the silk sheets covering it. My limbs were thin, almost delicate. The form underneath the blue gown I was wearing was slender, though the curves at the chest and hips marked it as being female.
Well, this was a new experience. Having a gender would take some getting used to. After all, I had been created before the concept of man or woman even existed. Same for all of my fellow Messengers. Thus we were neither, not needing such trivial traits such as a sex since we did not reproduce.
I moved my legs off of the bed, placing my bare feet onto the floor. Cold ceramic tiles met my soles and I held myself still for a moment, reveling in the sensation. There was no cold to be felt in Hell, not unless you journeyed deep into its depths. Heat and flame were the constant sensations during my incarceration. Aside from the pain, of course. It was a gift to feel the cold, any cold, at all.
I spent a few moments enjoying the cool sensations of the tiles, then focused on my earlier objective. I attempted to stand, but my knees shook and I fell back onto the bed. I tried again several times, repeating the process, and eventually I familiarized myself enough with this new body's structure and physiognomy to gain some semblance of control over it.
My efforts paid off and I stood victorious, my legs steady and my body still. I took a moment to familiarize myself with my new center of mass; it was difficult balancing a body without wings.
There was a large mirror, gilded in gold, next to the nearby wardrobe. With one step after another, I moved my vessel towards it. I looked onto the reflective surface, observing the form I now possessed. Standing before me was a woman, more of a girl really, clothed in a knee-length blue and white gown. Her body was thin, with a slender waist and long, delicate limbs. Long strands of blond hair fell across her shoulders, looking like spun gold in the sunlight coming from the open windows. Her face was smooth with youth, skin fair and healthy. Her eyes, once green, were now a startling golden yellow. They almost glowed with an inner radiance.
It seemed as if my divine energies had changed some of this body's features when I took it over. From the memories I was able to access in its brain, the girl's appearance had been much less… striking than it was now. She had been much thinner, to the point of being gangly. Her hair had been a darker blond, and her skin tone was pallid and pale. She also had a problem with acne, which she often covered up with cosmetics. Now her skin was flawless, completely smooth and without blemish. And of course, her eyes. Gone were the light green orbs, replaced with divine gold.
The difference was definitely noticeable. I thought for a fleeting second about reverting the changes, to look more like the mortal I had possessed in order to not raise any suspicions. Such foolish thoughts were rejected quickly. Why should I hide my radiance, my beauty? It is a part of me, an intrinsic characteristic of who I am. I would not shame myself by hiding it.
Now done with my external observations, I turned inward. My mind scanned the meat organ inside this vessel's skull, searching through the neurons of its memories as I reviewed the former occupant's short life. I smirked at what I found.
Apparently, this waif that I possessed was royalty. An imperial princess, to be precise. Luthelle Anatai vaum Beurgess, third and youngest child of Emperor Lukallos IV, ruler of the Szarkavin Empire. Impressive. Very impressive. According to the memories, this empire was the most powerful nation in this world. It boasted a massive army a million strong, a navy consisting of a fleet of over a thousand vessels, and its borders spanned a full quarter of the planet.
It seemed as if I had chosen quite the vessel, one that was worthy of housing my divine light. One question I had, though, was why such an important individual was stuck in a room at a Hospice in a small, unimportant-seeming port city. A further search into the girl's memories gave me my answers.
Shallot's Fugue. Also known as the soul-wasting sickness. It was a rare illness that affected mostly children and young adults. The disease was ethereal in nature, and attacked the host's soul directly. It ate away at the connections between the body and the soul, and those suffering from the illness often displayed symptoms similar to depression. They lost interest in things, became lethargic, and eventually lost the will to live. The last stages of the illness found the patients bedridden, wasting away, unwilling to move until at last their souls completely separated from their bodies, leaving behind still living corpses. There was no cure.
And it seemed as if poor Princess Luthelle had caught the sickness. Her loving family, obviously not wanting to catch the disease themselves, sent her off to live out her remaining days at a hospice in an unimportant province of the empire. And here, Luthelle stayed. For the last four years she lived a somewhat luxurious lifestyle, waiting for her life to end. She strolled the grounds, read numerous books, and ate good food. Yet despite the pleasant surroundings, she was a virtual prisoner. Like I had been. She could not leave the grounds of the hospital, could not return home to see her family. She could only sit in her pretty little cell until her life slowly eroded away. In the end, like me, she had found her escape.
It seemed as if my choice for a vessel was even more fitting than I had first realized. If I didn't know any better, I would say that there was some sort of divine influence at work here. As amusing as that would have been, I very much doubted that there was a hand of a higher being influencing things at the moment. From what I sensed earlier, none of the divine beings in this plane were more powerful than I was. There was no way they could control fate on such a scale. As for my previous world, well, only my Creator had such power. And He never interfered in any facet of his creations. Not once. That was one of the reasons why I rebelled.
No. All of this was just a fortuitous coincidence. The universe was full of such unlikely things happening.
As I continued to scan through the memories in this vessel's brain, I heard the door to the room open. I turned my eyes towards it and saw one of the white-uniformed mortals enter carrying a tray of clean cloth and a bowl of warm water. Upon seeing me, the female gasped out in fright, which caused her to drop the tray. The loud crash of the ceramic bowl shattering on the floor filled the room.
"Y-your Highness!" she called aloud in disbelief. "You're awake!"
Mortals are such silly creatures. They took every little occurrence and blew it out of proportion. I ignored the panicking woman and turned my golden eyes back to the reflection in the mirror. I continued to admire my new face and form.
Yes. This was most fortuitous indeed.
An hour later, I found myself forced back into bed by several of the white robed individuals. All of them looked both shocked and in awe as they poked and prodded my new vessel, muttering things such as "astounding" and "miraculous." I would have been annoyed at their incessant chatterings, but I found myself fascinated by what they were doing.
These men and women were examining my body, yet they did not use any of the scientific instrumentation that the mortals of my world would have used. Instead they emitted some type of energy from their hands and eyes, the beams glowing bright green in the visible spectrum as their light weaved to and fro across my form. It was quite interesting. I had never seen anything like this phenomenon, at least not with mortals.
So, as they examined me, I, in turn, examined them. As I said before, my angelic eyes can see far more than the mortal variants. I peeked outside my vessel's eyes and sent my senses into their bodies. From what I could tell, their brains were sending signals through their nerves into their eyes and hands, whereupon some type of chemical reaction was occurring. The reaction caused pulses of energy to emit from the skin of their palms, and their brains somehow directed the energy forward. The energy flowed from them and into my body, where it bounced off the various tissues, organs, bones, and cells. The energy returned, exiting my body whereupon it was carried into their eyes. Here, a different chemical reaction was occurring in the retina. The energy was absorbed, transformed into electrical signatures and then carried back to the brain where it translated the signals into data.
Interesting. It was some type of magical MRI. The fact that the mortals of this world could use some form of magic shouldn't have surprised me. I had already sensed when I arrived that this universe's fabric of reality was much more malleable than it was back home. It seemed that it was so flexible that even mere mortals could change the state of the universe using their wills alone.
The door suddenly burst open and in walked a male mortal in his middle age wearing a complicated looking military uniform. His jacket was black with gold trimming, shiny silver buttons keeping the front closed. His trousers were a spotless white and tucked into black leather boots that were polished to a mirror shine. Upon his shoulders were a set of golden epaulets, upon which were displayed the symbol of two crescent moons, denoting his rank as Major. Several medals were pinned to his chest, though from perusing the Princess's memory, I could see that none of them were battlefield commendations.
The outfit would have been quite the impressive sight, if the man wearing it were not so unimpressive. The shiny silver buttons were strained, fighting for their lives to keep in the man's girth from bursting out of the jacket. His belly was quite pronounced, which contrasted with the rest of his stringy body. His sleeves and pant legs billowed as they were too loose for his stick-thin thin limbs. His face was a mixture of angular and fat, with puffed out cheeks and a sharp, jutting chin. Dull brown eyes peeked out from his sunken sockets, and his eyebrows and mustache were messy bushes on his face. What little hair he had had receded well past the middle of his head, and was slicked back and greasy.
"What is this nonsense I heard about her Highness recovering?" said the man as he strolled into the room with a self-important gait.
I scanned my vessel's memories and quickly recognized him. This was Major Antallery Heus, the man my father, the emperor, had assigned as my aide. As evident by his appearance, he didn't rise through the ranks of the Imperial military through his own merits. He was the fourth son of Duke Meikal Heus, head of one of the Empire's wealthiest noble families. Thus, he was given the rank of Major upon his entrance into the military.
Such honorary ranks were not meant to be true delineators on the military hierarchy. For example, Major Heus here would never be assigned to lead troops on the battlefield. His rank was more political and ceremonial, and he was given duties that would fit his station. Which was why I was stuck with him now.
"It's a miracle, Major!" said one of the physicians in white robes. "This is the first case of someone recovering from Shallot's Fugue in known history! It must be an act of the gods!"
The Major sneered. "Stand aside! Let me see." The corpulent man shoved past the healers surrounding me to stand at my bedside. He narrowed his beady eyes and sent a suspicious glare down at me. "Hm. I suppose that she does look better. What say you, girl? Speak up. How did this happen?"
I frowned at the man's insufferable manner. How dare he speak to me in such a way? I know he didn't know my true identity, and I would have forgiven his boorish behavior because of his ignorance, but I was in the body of an imperial princess. How did this disgusting pig, who was the lowly fourth son of a Duke, treat royalty in such a way? There was something wrong.
A deeper scan of my vessel's memories revealed the truth. Ah. So that's how it was. This would definitely make my situation more complicated, but I was fine with that. It was nothing I couldn't handle.
I looked up at the Major and gave him a small, beatific smile. "It was as the good physician said, dear Major. I was blessed with a miracle."
The man's frown turned even grimmer. "Miracle? What on earth are you talking about, child?"
The smile never left my face as I began to spin a grand tale, concocted to explain away the princess's unbelievable recovery. Coming up with such grand untruths was a simple deed for me; after all, what was that moniker the mortals of my world had given me? Ah, yes. The Prince of Lies.
"I was dying. I could feel it. I was at death's doorstep. I could feel the Grim Reaper's cold claws at my soul, reaching out from the darkness to drag me down into the abyss. I was powerless, helpless, unable to even move. I stood on the precipice of life as I stared down at the pit that awaited me. I teetered on the brink, a knife's edge away from total oblivion.
"But then he came." I clasped my hands together and looked up towards the ceiling. I made sure my smile grew wider yet more solemn. "A bright golden glow banished the darkness around me. I was bathed in holy, luminous light. It was blinding, but beautiful. Within that radiance, I saw absolute perfection. He reached a hand down towards me, and without hesitation I took it. I felt the light of his love enter my body, banishing the evil consuming me. I was reborn, free of disease and healthier than I ever was."
I was, of course, speaking of myself as this mysterious golden savior. It was a truth, in essence. I did save the Princess Luthelle's body. Just not the princess herself.
"My savior smiled down upon me, and it was all I could do not to burst into flame beholding his golden perfection. I then awoke as I am now, cleansed of the taint that had almost struck me down."
The healers in white hung on my every word. A few of them even began taking notes in little books that they had pulled out from somewhere. The Major, on the other hand, looked baffled. He eyed me suspiciously, obviously not believing a word I said.
Hmm. He may be smarter than I gave him credit for.
Regardless, I didn't care if he didn't believe me. In the end, he was just one man. A mortal. Why should I be concerned about the opinion of a simple insect? Besides, the others in the room looked to have been swayed heavily by my tale.
"That is extraordinary!" said a wizened physician with a white beard. "This being bathed in light that you saw. Could he have been Great Ovek?"
"It had to be," spoke up another healer. "Only the Keeper of the Righteous Flame could shine so brightly!"
The others nodded in agreement.
Who was this Ovek that these mortals had dared to compare my radiance to? One of the physicians had said something about gods earlier. Was Ovek a god in their pantheon? Perhaps he was the God of Light, since they compared my glory to his own.
It would probably have been smarter to let them think this fallacy, to have them believe that this Ovek was the one who had saved me. But I couldn't stand the thought of anyone else, god or not, taking credit for my actions. No, I would not stand for that. Not at all.
"No, it was not Ovek," I told them. "My savior was a much greater, more dominant force." I looked each of them in the eye as my voice suddenly became portentous. "He is a brightness from beyond, a force of absolute power and unlimited wisdom. He was the first of his kind, the first being created, the personification of beauty and perfection given form. His golden radiance burns away all darkness and evil, and grants eternal warmth and protection to all who feel it. He is the Lightbringer, the banisher of ignorance, Herald of the Dawn and Heaven's Torchbearer."
I raised my hands up towards the heavens and flexed a minute fraction of my power. The sunlight coming in from the open windows seemed to grow brighter, bathing the room in a soft, golden glow.
"He is Lucifer, the Morningstar. And he walks among us."