AN: New oneshot! I think I've managed to find a consistent writing schedule, but I'm not making any promises at this point in time. Hopefully, I'll get around to updating Royal Prerogative sometime in the next few weeks - I already did some very brief writing (200 words) on it. Also, you might've noticed (or probably not) that I changed the title of the Cupid oneshot to Cupid vs Trauma, this is to bring the title in line with any future oneshots I might write featuring the same protagonist. Now, onto the new oneshot, which, just to be clear, is not about Cupid, although I'm once again playing around with making some changes to someone's canon characterization and exploring the fallout.
Summary: Emma really should have known better than to try and bully Taylor. At least Sophia had the excuse that she didn't know what she was getting into. And Madison? She's happy just watching things unfold, really.
"I don't want to be friends anymore," Emma said.
I snorted. "Don't be silly, Ems."
"I've been wanting to break things off for a year now," she continued, unabated. "I just had to figure out a way."
"You know, it's kind of cute when you act like that," I remarked.
Her eyes narrowed slightly, but she seemed lost for words. Had she really expected me to break down or protest or something?
The other girl in the room, the new friend Emma had made while I was off to summer camp, made an angry noise in her throat, and then was on me in mere moments, pushing me up to the wall of Emma's room. Only because I let her because, come on, I had several inches over her.
"Don't talk to her like that," new girl demanded.
The ghost of a smile played around my lips. "Why not? I've been friends with Emma pretty much since we were born. I think I can decide for myself how to talk to her."
"Didn't you listen?" she asked aggressively. "She doesn't want to be friends with you anymore."
I shrugged. "Everyone says weird stuff sometimes. Doesn't mean they mean it. So, what was your name again?"
"Sophia," she responded, seeming a little lost for words.
"Has anyone ever told you that you look positively adorable when you're angry, Sophia?"
She genuinely bluescreened for a moment, but then she reapplied the pressure, now with a single hand on my neck. "What the fuck is wrong with you, you weirdo?"
I shrugged again. "Emma probably knows better than me."
Sophia seemed to still be confused at the conversation, but let me go after a few more seconds. Emma, meanwhile, seemed to have regained her bearings somewhat.
"You should leave, Taylor," she said.
"Okay," I said. I looked at Sophia. "So, are you also coming to Winslow next year?"
"Yeah I am," she confirmed. "You better not bother Emma there, got it?"
"I'll see you at school, Sophia. Bye. And bye, Emma, see you soon."
I left, as Emma had requested, leaving two confused girls behind. I wasn't sure what Emma's angle was – she seemed different; perhaps something had happened while I was gone? – but had she really expected me to break down crying or something?
Come on Emma, we've been friends our entire lives, you should know me better than that. I'm a little disappointed in you, actually.
Oh well, there'll be time to remedy that.
I slid into the chair in the Winslow cafeteria. "Hi Ems, hi Sophia. How has your first morning of high school been?"
"Did we invite you here?" Sophia demanded.
"No," I said. "I just wanted to sit next to my friend. And besides, you're the only two girls I actually know here."
"I don't want to be friends with you anymore," Emma repeated from last week. "Sorry, Taylor, but you're just…. Lame."
"If you say so," I responded. "So anyway, we never really did talk about our summers. I've got a few funny stories from the camp I visited, you know." I started telling one, ignoring Emma's claim that no one was interested in them.
Come on, Emma, neither of us is buying that.
Halfway through the story – it seemed Sophia and Emma had gone with attempting to ignore me for the moment, not that it really worked – a cute, brown-haired girl arrived at our table.
"Oh hey," Emma said, turning her attention to the new arrival. "Madison, right?"
The girl nodded. "That's me. I figured I could sit with you, if that's alright?"
"Sure," Emma said. "Better you than Taylor here." She gave me a nasty glance.
"Hi," I said, giving Madison a smile. "I'm Taylor, as you probably guessed. Emma seems to be a little moody recently, don't think too much of it, she'll come around."
"Um, pleased to meet you," Madison said, a little awkwardly.
Sorry, Emma, but that awkwardness is entirely on you. I take no responsibility for it.
"I like your look, by the way."
"Thanks," Madison said, clearly pleased.
"What the fuck does it take to get you to shut up?" Sophia demanded.
"Duct tape," I responded promptly.
Madison snorted.
Well, if nothing else high school was looking interesting.
A few days later, Sophia approached from the other side in a busy hallway and tried to shoulder check me into a wall. However, I braced myself in time to hold my balance.
"You know, your intentions are so obvious that it's kind of cute," I remarked.
"Would you stop calling me cute?" she demanded angrily. She seemed to be angry a lot. I'd help her get rid of that, in time.
"Then stop being cute," I parried. "I just call it as I see it."
She tried getting into my face again, but it really wasn't that effective with someone several inches taller than her. Like a Chihuahua yapping at a Great Dane.
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" she barked.
"You already asked me that when we first met," I said with some amusement. "Didn't I tell you to ask Emma instead? I'm not really a self-diagnosing kind of person, and I dare say no one knows me better than she does."
"I swear, you're not right in the head," Sophia said, a little louder than necessary – no doubt so that the people around us would hear it.
"Whatever you say. Also, you're doing that thing where you're cute again." I smirked. "I'm really starting to take a liking to you, Sophia."
I continued walking, leaving her to glare at me. Meanwhile, our peers seemed to mostly be confused at the altercation. Probably wondering whether it was some kind of sexual tension thing or something.
Well, I wasn't ruling anything out – I hadn't lied a word when I said Sophia was being cute. Any of the times I'd told her that. Though to be fair, I also found Emma's attempts at gossiping about me cute – there was just a lot of stuff that I considered cute. Even if most people wouldn't.
At least Madison tentatively seemed to understand me. Then again, she was a connoisseur of the cute. If she kept going the way she'd been so far, I might even have to promote her to the position of Taylor-whisperer in Emma's stead; after all, Emma had been failing at that job quite spectacularly recently.
"Who are you even? Why are you here?" the vapid girl asked. What was her name? I hadn't bothered learning it. She was blonde and had a rather particular attitude.
I smiled. "I'm Taylor. And there's no need to be so rude, you know. We can get along perfectly well."
"Yeah, but not with you," she said, trying to look down at me across her nose.
Well, time to do something about that, huh?
"You know, that look works way better if you're taller than the person you want to look down at. This way it's a bit silly. Also cute though, I'll admit. Eight out of ten for the attempt, four out of ten execution."
"Who the fuck do you think you are?"
"Just myself," I half-shrugged. "Which is far better than being some stuck-up bitch who imagines herself as the queen bee of the school but actually has the creativity of a stone brick, so instead has to suck up to the real queen bee. Which I imagine is Emma, in your case?"
She spluttered. "Now listen—"
I interrupted her. "I'll take that as a yes. Again, you're pretty cute like this, but you really don't have the intimidation factor to back up your words. Leave it to the professionals."
I turned and left, leaving the confounded would-be bully behind.
"Hey Ems," I greeted as I slid down in the chair next to her in class.
"Can't you sit somewhere else?" she asked, face scrunched up in distaste.
"Nope," I said cheerily. "I've had to shut down three attempts at bullying me today, you know. Girls I don't even know the name of. I need a moment to relax with someone I'm familiar with."
"Bullying?" Emma scoffed. "I bet you just can't handle it when people say the truth to your face."
"That, or someone's prompting them," I responded easily. "It's kind of silly, really. But hey, at least you have known me for long enough to understand how unlikely that is to work, right?"
Just poking a little. I still wasn't sure what had prompted Emma to change so much and pursue such a futile endeavor, but I was going to get it out to her. She was my friend and no one was going to take that away. Not even Emma herself.
Meanwhile, she scoffed in response, but did actually seem lost for words for a bit. In fact, it took her long enough to answer that I'd almost brought up another subject to natter on about when she finally opened her mouth.
"You really believe that, don't you?" She smiled nastily. Oh, this was going to be good. The kind of response that was the difference between Emma and that girl from this morning. "Your confidence would be admirable if it weren't so misplaced, Taylor. I'd almost be worried for you, because it'll make things even more painful when you realize the truth, but I guess you wouldn't take me seriously anyway, so I won't bother."
I gave her a dreamy smile, but didn't respond.
"What's with that weird look?" she demanded.
"Oh, sorry, I was just thinking about how cute you are with all the backhanded compliments and veiled insults. You're really talented."
Her face went through several expressions of confusion, but before she could muster up a response, the teacher started the class, drawing our attention away from each other.
Madison froze, awkwardly holding the carton of juice in both hands, ready to squeeze it.
I brought the full force of my gaze to bear.
"Eep!"
She turned and got ready to bolt.
"Stay."
She did.
I caught up to her, and she fell in line with me – although I had to measure my steps somewhat.
She started to apologize.
"Shh-sh-sh," I said, shutting her up.
"That, uhm, that was a bad idea, wasn't it?"
"It was," I agreed. "But at least you realized that, didn't you?" I gave her a smile.
She nodded frantically.
"No harm, no foul," I said, patting her shoulder. "You just got carried away by Emma."
"What's the deal with the two of you?" Madison asked.
"Honestly? I'm not sure," I said with a half-shrug. "She seems to have decided she wants to bully me, even though we've been friends all our lives."
"When you put it like that, that's kind of a dick move," Madison observed.
"And now you're forgetting that you were about to participate in said bullying," I pointed out.
"But I didn't," she said defensively.
"Only because you realized it wouldn't end well for you. But you misunderstood me, about Emma. It's cute what she's trying to do, but it's never, ever going to work. And I don't understand for the life of me how she didn't realize that before ever starting this, specifically because she's known me for this long. And that's what I meant when I made that remark."
I snorted. "Unless she's got some kind of crush on Sophia and is trying to impress her this way?"
Madison giggled.
"I mean, if you ask me, Sophia is absolutely adorable," I continued, drawing a surprised look from Madison, "but my standards for that aren't really average."
"You're… kind of weird," Madison said. "Um, but like, not in a mean way. I mean, I didn't mean it in a mean way. Or, um… ugh." She made a very undignified noise at the way she'd tied her tongue up.
"I get it," I said with some amusement. "Thing is, Emma has always been the one with a lot of friends who spent all her time social networking, meanwhile I'd stick to her and maybe one or two others. It's as if she's forgotten that's not because I'm bad at social interaction, but because I don't bother with it as much.
"But if it's needed? I can be absolutely vicious, as I've already had to show quite a few girls this year. As you actually saw coming before you crossed the line, unlike the others. Not to mention I tend to just find the attempts amusing. And while I don't care about those idiots, because if you're going to bully someone you don't deserve any mercy, I do worry about Emma, if I'm being honest. She's my friend, after all."
"She doesn't seem to want to be friends with you anymore," Madison observed. It wasn't a criticism.
"And yet, she needs me more than ever. I get the appeal of wanting to be on top of the social pyramid, intellectually at least, but the way Emma is doing it right now isn't healthy. Or nice."
"Why are you telling me all this?" Madison asked. "Aren't you worried I'll just run to Emma and tell her?"
"Go ahead, if that's what you want – she should already know it. I'm telling you because I like being able to talk to someone, and you seem to be the only one in this shithole of a school who actually understands me right now. Normally that would be Emma, but, well, that's the problem, right?"
"I don't think I understand you. At all."
I gave her a genuine smile. "Maybe not to the degree Emma should, but that's because we've only known each other for a few weeks. But you did show the instinctive understanding that emptying that carton over my clothes was a capital letters Bad Idea. That's more than most of this school manages after they've had some encouragement from Emma. So, you've been promoted to my confidante."
"Um. Thanks?"
"No problem," I laughed. When I reached over to fuss her hair, she went beet red. "And it doesn't hurt that you look so cute."
Sophia pushed me up against a wall.
"You need to shut up for once," she hissed, no doubt referring to our exchange from before she got physical.
I gave her a vaguely amused look. "It's hardly like I can't stop talking, you know. But if you talk to me, why wouldn't I respond?"
"Because you don't talk back to your betters, and certainly not like that."
"Well, okay," I said, bringing my hand up and lightly placing it on her waist.
She immediately batted it away. "What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"I'm running out of ways to tell you that you're cute without repeating myself, so I'm trying to find other methods to communicate that."
Her finger practically poked my breastbone. "I. Am. Not. Cute. You. Weirdo."
"Whatever you say, Sophie."
I grabbed her arm out of the air before she could slap me in the face. "Cute and spicy," I grinned. "If you don't mind, I'm almost late for class."
I pushed her aside, dodged the obvious strike that came after I turned my back to her, and walked away, leaving Sophia to stumble in full view of the classmates that had been watching.
Bad form, Sophia. Never assume your target is oblivious to your intentions.
"Hey, Mads."
"Hey."
"Sophie."
Growl.
"Ems."
"What are you doing here?"
"Nine out of ten, that expression of disgust is very well-crafted." I sorted out everything on my tray and started eating.
"Are you a masochist, Taylor?" Emma asked.
I looked at her as I considered the question, briefly tilting my head. "Not when it comes to physical pain. Psychological pain? No clue, in order to figure that out someone would have to hurt me first. Can't say that's happened yet."
Madison giggled.
"Do you think you're funny?" Sophia demanded.
I shrugged. "Wasn't particularly trying to. I'm pretty sure it amused Madison though."
All eyes turned to the girl in question, who quickly adopted a blank look. "No clue what she's talking about."
Emma shrugged, apparently having practically zero interest in being mean to someone who wasn't me. Well, that was a good thing at least.
"I'm pretty sure there's just something wrong with Taylor," she said to Sophia in a voice quite a bit louder than needed. Meant for not just me, but also the adjacent tables to hear. "I don't know how I never noticed it before, really."
I snorted. "Did you really forget about that girl two grades above us in elementary school?"
Emma ignored me, so I started retelling the story to Madison, making sure I was talking loudly enough that the people at the adjacent table, who were now listening in, could follow it, without being as obvious about it as Emma.
Then again, that was something of an unfair comparison, as I already had their attention, precisely thanks to what Emma had done.
In short, a girl had attempted to bully me and Emma, and I'd shut her down in much the same way I had been shutting down Emma and Sophia ever since high school started.
Though with a bit less calling her cute. I blamed puberty on that one.
"She lives in a fantasy world, I think," Emma told Sophia. Still talking about me, of course.
"Now you're just projecting," I said.
Emma blinked, clearly needing a moment to process the statement. "And what, exactly, are you implying with that, you skinny frog?"
Did I mention she'd started coming up with insults about my appearance? Come on, Emma, I'm lesbian and you know it, if I want to know whether I'm attractive all I have to do is look in the mirror.
I opened my mouth to give a rather sarcastic response, but paused when I realized this was Emma I was talking to. Not just one of the many random bullies I'd shut up recently. I didn't want to just verbally obliterate Emma. Sure, it would get her off my back, but it'd also end our friendship.
"See? She doesn't have a clue what she's talking about."
"You got me there, in my one moment of weakness," I said with a chuckle. "I've said this before, but I'm really not trying to make fun of you when I'm telling you that you're very good at this kind of thing, Emma." I reached over and patted her hand, which she jerked away.
I smiled. "It's still kind of adorable that you really seem to believe you can hurt me like this, though."
"Why are you so obsessed with calling anything I do cute or adorable?" she asked snidely.
"Because it kind of is," I said frankly. "You're like a two year old that's trying to prepare their own food. Your dedication is immense, and while the execution is somewhat lacking, it doesn't really hurt anyone, so there's no need to get mad about it."
"…"
Wow.
Had I just left Emma speechless in a verbal spar?
I mean, I was no slouch in that department, but neither was Emma, and usually I'd expect at least some reply from her, even if it might not be adequate.
Just then, she restarted with a splutter, and her face turned red. Wait, she was losing her calm?
Damn, there must be some deeper issue here that I hadn't been aware of. But maybe this could be the first step towards doing something about it.
Emma threw her remaining food all over me, then stormed off angrily, Sophia following right behind her.
I glanced at my ruined clothes, then to Emma's retreating form.
"Well, that wasn't very nice."
Madison lost her self-control and started howling with laughter.
Sophia roughly pushed me up against a wall.
Again.
This had to be at least a weekly occurrence.
"If you want to talk to me you can just say so, you know," I remarked with some amusement.
"I am going to make this very clear," she growled, ignoring my comment. "You are not welcome at our table, and you stay away from Emma unless she approaches you. Got it?"
"Sophie…" I sighed as I slowly shook my head. She snarled. "I'm glad to see you care so much about her, I really am. But I only have Emma's best interests in mind. She's my best friend and I'll do anything for her. Even if she's behaving a little oddly at the moment."
"How about you stop backtalking to her then, hm?" Sophia demanded.
I put my hand on her waist again. She shook it off. "Emma is one of those people who needs a bit of resistance every now and then so that she doesn't get carried away," I explained calmly. "I know her. I've been wondering for some time, and with the way she reacted yesterday I'm now sure that there's something deeper. And I'm going to keep bugging her about it until she acknowledges it and lets herself move on."
Sophia scoffed. "Sentimental tripe. Emma is fine, you're just mad she has new friends."
"Like you?" I asked. "I wouldn't mind being friends with you too, you know," I said, playing up a bit of a smirk as I moved my hand back to Sophia's waist. "It's not as if people can only have one friend at a time."
She batted my hand away. "What the fuck is wrong with you, you weirdo?"
"I'm sorry," I said with a playful undertone. "I fear I've caught a terminal case of cuteness appreciation. Which I'm sure there's a fancy Latin term for to make it sound more medical."
"I. Am. Not. Cute," Sophia hissed in my face once more.
"Sophie… cuteness is in the eye of the beholder. I like your spice, I like your attitude – although I'll admit you should probably tone it down towards the less resilient people sometimes – and I like your straightforwardness. I like you." My lips turned into another smirk. "And you don't get a say in that. Deal with it."
She gave an annoyed sigh, then backed away. "I'm too tired to deal with this shit. Fuck off."
I chuckled as I resumed my way. "You're the one who approached me, you know."
As the track field came into view, I just saw Sophia walk over to a bench after finishing her exercise, where she grabbed and mostly downed a bottle of water.
Perfect timing, then. By the time I arrived at the same bench, she'd caught her breath.
"Hey Sophie," I greeted, sitting down.
"The fuck are you doing here?"
"I'm thinking of joining one of the teams," I said. Mostly because I was somewhat concerned that the girl I was talking to right now might actually genuinely hurt me at some point, upon which she'd rapidly stop being cute and start being annoying instead, and I wanted to avoid that, but I wasn't going to tell her that.
"No one fucking wants you here."
"Do you think track would fit me? I'd say I have the right body type for it, don't I?"
Despite still recovering from her exercise, she turned to me and got into my face. "I repeat, Hebert, no one fucking wants you here. You'd just drag the team down. We need fighters, not weaklings."
I responded with an indulgent smile. "Are you still going on about that? You won't need to worry about that, Sophie. I've never been one to do things by half, and I'm not planning on starting now."
"Stop. Fucking. Calling. Me. That," she growled.
I smirked. "Why? A cute girl deserves a cute nickname." Okay, I'll admit that at this point I was deliberately trying to get a rise on her. I guess maybe I was getting addicted to her cuteness?
"Fuck you."
I bit my tongue to avoid asking the obvious question – 'is that an invitation?'. That probably wouldn't go over well at this point, and frankly?
I kind of wanted to see where this was going long-term.
"So anyway, could you give me an overview of the schedule and things like that for track?"
"Why do you have to bother me with this shit? Fuck off and go talk to the coach. Just don't cry when he tells you it's too difficult for you. Or do, that'd be funny."
I smirked. "Wait. You, Sophia Hess, are actually familiar with the concept of amusement?"
She squirted the water bottle at me, which just made me laugh more.
"I swear, fuck off, Hebert. I have far too much to do to deal with your annoying bullshit as well."
She got up – how rude, we were in the middle of a conversation – and started grabbing her things when I heard a new voice.
"Hey Sophia, I was wonder—what is she doing here?"
Emma, predictably, gave me her best look of disgust.
"Being a nuisance," Sophia answered for me.
I got the impression that Emma tried to find something demeaning to say about me, but gave up. "Anyway, do you want to go do something fun this afternoon?"
"Can't," Sophia said. "I need to prepare a few things for my job."
Sophia had a job? Huh. She didn't strike me as the type.
Emma's face fell, but she didn't even protest. "Alright then." She glanced at me, then turned back to Sophia. "Good luck with that."
"Yeah, thanks," Sophia said before leaving in the direction of the changing rooms.
Emma turned to me.
"You should probably be thanking Sophia for being patient enough to not hit you in the face."
"That would have been kinda rude," I responded easily.
"Knowing how you usually clown around, you probably deserve it, you know."
"I find her enjoyable company, most of the time." Not necessarily pleasant, but certainly enjoyable.
"You're just a total waste of oxygen, aren't you?"
I frowned. "Bit of a non sequitur, Emma. And I'm afraid I can't give it more than a four out of ten for creativity, either."
"Look at you, going back to that dumb rating coping mechanism again. Just admit that it's true."
"I'm going to be completely honest here, Emma. I don't know what you're trying, but I'm incredibly surprised you thought it was going to work. You know me, right? You've watched me deal with nasty comments for years. More than once, after we were home, you'd clutch on to me and look to comfort me because of the terrible things someone had said that no doubt hurt me even if I didn't show it, only for me to reply that I thought it was kind of amusing. What makes you think it'd be any different with you?"
"I don't know what you're talking about," she said, seeming a little defensive. "I'm only showing the truth to your face. I never should've pretended otherwise in the first place. If anything, that was mean of me, giving you false hope like that."
I snorted. "Okay, I'll admit, that one was pretty creative."
"What, does that mean you felt bad about it?"
She almost sounded hopeful. Weird.
"No, not really. I was just appreciating the creativity. Though… I guess it's an obvious follow-up to claiming you never wanted to be my friend, huh?" I made a thinking face. "Maybe it's not as inventive as I thought at first, because that one is easy to prepare ahead of time."
Emma scoffed. "Do you really think I'm going to waste my free time thinking about what I'm going to say to you, of all people?"
"Considering how eager you are to talk to me at any opportunity? Yeah, kind of."
"Stop living in your fantasy world."
"I'm not the one living in a fantasy world here, Emma. You've been failing to get a rise out of me for weeks. It's cute, but by this point it's also getting a little repetitive and boring. It hasn't worked, it's not working, it's not going to work. And I'm pretty sure you know that, deep down."
"That's not true!" Emma responded with a surprising amount of heat, making me realize that somehow, that seemed to be the touchy subject for her. It was the same thing that had made her throw her food over me last week.
"Yes it is," I said, finally standing up. "Emma, you've watched me find amusement in bullying attempts for years. Did you make it a challenge for yourself to try and get past that, or something? See if it was a coping mechanism after all? Because if so, I'm afraid I have to tell you that no, it's not." I smirked. "Just look at me and Sophia. You think I'd have sat down on that bench if I was just deflecting? Nah, I'd have gone straight to the coach to learn more about what joining track would mean. I like Sophia. She's incredibly cute, in particular if she's angry. This is just who I am."
Emma seemed to be shaking, although I wasn't sure with what emotion, until suddenly her face contorted in rage and she charged at me.
I responded as quickly as I could, grabbing her arms before she had a chance to punch me properly, although that still left me having to deal with her kicks against my shins. I forced her arms down despite her struggles, taking two, three kicks in the process, then put my arms around her in something that was half a hug and half a hold to stop her from moving her own arms.
At the same time, I tried to step forward and lock our legs together, which worked when her next kick went in between my legs, allowing me to hook my knee into hers.
It was a somewhat awkward and close – almost to the point of intimate – position, but she was neutralized.
Then she bit me, and I finally lost my calm, briefly breaking the hold on her arms to cuff her on the head.
"Don't do that again, or you'll regret it," I hissed venomously.
"Why are you like this?" Emma wailed, and I wasn't sure if it was in anger, despair or pain. "I just—I don't—I want to—"
Despair, I decided.
I moved my leg back – the position was kind of awkward otherwise – and turned the half-hug into an actual hug, ignoring how she immediately went back to bruising my shins.
"Shhh, it's going to be okay, Emma. Everything's going to be fine."
"No it won't be!" she screamed.
"Yes it will," I objected, pushing her head into my shoulder. "I'm not sure what's got you so worked up, but I'm going to help you get through it. Best friends, Emma. Always."
"No you're not!" she responded, her voice bordering on the hysterical. "You've been screwing it up for weeks! I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I HATE YOU!"
I pulled her closer to me, and suddenly… the dam broke. She collapsed into me and started crying.
Carefully, I guided her to the bench I'd been sitting on and sat both of us down, Emma now clutching onto me like a lifeline.
She continued sobbing while we sat there, one minute, then two, and I continued to comfort her, making the appropriate noises and gently rubbing her shoulder, while I ignored the pain still coming from my shins – I could deal with that if Emma needed it.
"I'm so weak," Emma whimpered, the first thing she'd said.
"No, you aren't," I responded reflexively.
"I am!" she insisted. "I'm pathetic, I'm worthless, I can't do anything right."
"Oh, Emma," I lamented as my heart lurched. "Who told you such nonsense?"
"I just wanted to show that I'm strong," she continued. "And, and if I could get a reaction out of you, make you angry or make you cry just once, that'd be enough because I know how resilient you are, but… but you just keep shrugging everything off. I'm worthless. I know everything about you and I still can't hurt you, that's how pathetic I am."
"Emma… strength isn't breaking other people. Strength is not letting other people break you." I forced her to look at me. "Are you going to let other people break you?"
We met eyes for a moment, before she let out a sob and clutched onto me as she started crying again, with renewed vigor.
"They already broke me," she wailed.
And then, bit by bit, the story came out. How she and her father had been ambushed by the ABB. How terrified she'd been, and how Shadow Stalker had saved her at the last moment. How she'd hidden in her room. How, when she'd finally dared leave the house again, she'd met Sophia. What Sophia had told her, about being strong. About strong people and weak people.
And then, the plan formed. Emma wanted to prove that she was strong, that her act of resistance with the ABB wasn't a fluke. And to do so, she wanted to get a reaction out of me, because that would make her stronger than me, and I was the strongest person she knew. Unlike what she'd insisted on over the last month, when she kept saying one way or another that I was weak, as if she were trying to make it true by repeating it over and over, and elevating herself in the process. Apparently, much of Sophia's antagonism stemmed from that as well, as Emma had insisted to her that I was weak.
"And a part of you was thinking it might be easier if she was also working to erode my self-confidence?" I asked.
Emma hesitated, then nodded. "I think so."
"Oh, Emma. Poor, foolish Emma. My dear friend." I contemplated what to say next. "I'm always here for you, Emma. Don't bottle things up like that, don't keep your struggles from me. You can get through it, through anything, and I'm here to help you, every step of the way. We'll figure something out."
"But why?" she asked.
"Because you're my friend. Isn't that enough?"
"So, what—what are we going to do?"
I considered the question.
"I'm thinking we're going to start off by going home together and watching a nice movie while hanging on the couch with a bowl of popcorn in our hands. And after that… we'll see."
Emma nodded. "That sounds as good as anything."
I foresaw a lot of talking in our future. With one another, with our parents, and maybe, if I was being honest, even with a therapist. But this was a start.
"What the hell did you do to Emma?" Sophia demanded the next morning.
I was, once more, pushed up against a wall.
"I showed her friendship," I responded, unfazed. "Through the good times, and the bad ones. She told me what happened while I was gone, you know. I'm glad you were there for her while I couldn't be, even if she latched onto your philosophy a little too much."
Sophia scoffed. "Too much? You're just weak, Hebert. Admit it."
I smiled and put my hand on her waist, intending to reveal why Emma had convinced Sophia of that in the first place. However, the moment I touched her, she flinched.
It wasn't the 'get your hands off of me' annoyed response she'd shown previously. No, this one was instinctive.
"Are you hurt?" I asked, my voice suddenly filled with concern.
She narrowed her eyes in anger. "None of your business, Hebert."
"Hell yes it is," I rebutted. "I care about you, Sophia. I don't like seeing you hurt."
She scoffed. "Just some E88 idiot. Trust me, he got off worse."
"Hah." I grinned despite myself. "I'm willing to believe that." After a moment, I put my other arm around her upper back in a brief half-hug. "He probably deserved that and more, well done."
Sophia's expression was complicated, though I was pretty sure there was some imperfectly hidden embarrassment in there.
"I still don't like seeing you hurt though. Be careful, this city is dangerous for black people, and girls in particular."
She scoffed, regaining her earlier nonchalance. "I know that."
"If you're ever in any kind of trouble, I'll do my best to help you out, Sophia."
That seemed to confuse her, although her expression turned calculating after a moment. I didn't bother figuring out what she was thinking, however, instead slipping away and heading off to my next class.
"I'll see you later, Sophie."
"Bitch!"
"How are you doing, Emma?"
She averted her gaze as I sat down next to her in the cafeteria, so I grabbed her hand.
"Hey, no sulking allowed."
"I'm sorry," she responded. "I just… it's been a lot."
"Did I hear that right?"
"Oh, hey Mads," I greeted as the brunette sat down. "Did you hear what right?"
"Emma saying sorry? And to you of all people?"
"We had a heart-to-heart yesterday," I responded evasively. "Emma has been a bit of a fool and kept some important things to herself even though it was eating her up inside."
Madison stared at us for a second, then nodded. "I won't pry."
"Thanks."
"Why the fuck are you two holding hands?" Sophia demanded as she approached.
Emma and I both glanced down, then let go.
"Just comforting my friend a bit," I responded, shielding Emma. I grinned. "You don't need to be worried about competition, Sophie."
Her eyes narrowed. "Competition for what?"
"My affections, duh."
Madison blinked in confusion, then sent me a shrewd look.
Sophia, meanwhile, stared at me. "I don't even fucking want to know."
"Well, come sit down," I invited. "Unless you'd rather eat while standing?"
"You're weird."
"Thank you."
Madison giggled, although she silenced herself quickly when Sophia turned her gaze upon her.
"Well," I said before the silence could turn awkward, "anyone had anything interesting happen in class today? Mine were completely sleep-inducing, if I'm being honest."
Luckily, Madison had something to get the conversation started.
Push. Shove.
"Why the fuck are you joining the track team?"
I glanced at Sophia's arms on either side of me, forcing me to stay where I was against the wall.
I smirked at her. "Is 'there's a cute girl on the track team' not enough reason?"
"No," she growled. "No, it isn't."
I couldn't help but smile. She was just so… ugh. It was hard to find words that could properly express the things she made me feel when she acted all aggressive like that. Like a kitten enthusiastically fighting a ball of yarn.
I placed my hands on her waist. "Well, I also want to exercise some more, and I figured I've got a good body for running, don't you agree?"
She scoffed. "You're a stick."
I smirked. "Then I better start training soon, right? But I've got the long legs already."
"I think you're just fucking with me."
"Nope, genuinely not," I responded. Although I had to admit that Sophia doing track was part of the reason why I joined this team in particular. "That would be unfair to the coach and all my teammates, Sophie."
She growled again, getting into my face. "Stop calling me that, bitch."
I smirked. "No."
In response, she actually bared her teeth at me. I almost cooed, it was so adorable.
Instead, I went for a brief hug and then released her. "I'll see you soon, Sophie. Just gotta get to class now."
"Fuck you, Hebert."
"You're limping."
"Fuck off."
"No, I won't. What is it with you, Sophia? Yes, I'm using your full name, I want your attention. This is what, at least the third time this year that you have an injury. That I know of. And it's barely even November! What's going on?"
"None of your business," she growled.
I glanced around the cafeteria. "Look, if you don't want to say it in public, I get that. Let's go somewhere else."
I turned and made for the door, only to realize Sophia wasn't following, and Emma was undecided.
So I went back to grab Sophia's arm and started tugging her along. And even though she gave an indignant squawk, she let me. Under protest, that is. And a few expletives and insults, but that was part of what made her so cute in the first place.
I pulled her into an empty classroom, Emma following behind.
"Okay, what the fuck is going on?"
"I don't have to tell you anything," Sophia bristled.
"Maybe you should," Emma suggested. "It's not like Taylor is going to tell anyone. Right, Taylor?"
I frowned. "That depends on whether anyone needs to be told. If someone's hurting Sophie…"
"I'm not a fucking baby! I can take care of myself. Also, stop calling me that!"
"Then stop being so damn cute."
"I'm not cute," she hissed aggressively. Okay, fair enough, she was definitely crossing the line into adorable territory right now.
I was still concerned about her limp though.
"So what is going on that's got you limping, but apparently under your control?" I asked, putting a healthy dose of doubt in my tone for those last few words. "It's not your home life, is it?"
She scoffed. "No. Steven's an ass, but he wouldn't dare to do this."
"So who would?"
"Some E88 thug," she replied evasively.
I gave her a very skeptical look. "Again? What, are you looking for them on purpose or something?"
Sophia gave me a defiant look.
"You should tell her," Emma repeated.
Apparently, Emma already knew.
"Why should I?" Sophia responded.
"Taylor has done much more to show you that she can be trusted than I'd shown you when you told me."
"Taylor is also a stupid dork and a weakling." Derisive tone or not, I was impressed that she actually used my first name.
"That's not true and you know it," Emma said hotly, coming to my defense. "The only reason you think so is because I told you that back in summer, and I've already told you I was being stupid and trying to make you hate Taylor!"
"Don't bother, Emma, I'm sure Sophia has a good understanding of me at this point," I said, though I gave my friend a smile.
"Alright, fine," Sophia relented. "But if anyone else hears about this, you're dead, Hebert. I'm not exaggerating here."
I nodded, but didn't respond. I wasn't entirely sure whether it really was this serious or whether she was exaggerating after all, but I could withhold judgement on that until I'd actually heard it.
"I'm a cape."
My eyebrows raised in surprise. "Oookay. Yeah, I can see why you don't want anyone else to know that." I thought for a moment, and suddenly the puzzle pieces fit together. "You're Shadow Stalker!"
"What? How the fuck?"
"That's why you got to know Emma," I reasoned. "She'd been rather vague about that when she told me, but it makes total sense now. Actually, I could've probably figured that out before. Guess I just didn't expect someone I'd met myself to be a cape, huh. So, what, you've been going out and fighting crime, and that's where you've been getting injured?"
"Yeah," Sophia said, sounding like she was sulking somewhat.
"Well, I guess that's a better reason than I expected. Good on you, Sophie, I'm proud of you."
"Yeah, well, maybe stop using that stupid nickname then," she mumbled irritably.
I gave her a quick hug, not giving her the time to interrupt it or comment on it. "Never. Keep it up, Sophia. And if you ever need help, just tell me." I started making my way to the door.
"I swear, you're such a baby."
"If you say so, babe," I said, winking at her.
I heard her splutter something to Emma just before I left the classroom and started walking back to the cafeteria. I figured Sophia would require a few moments to compose herself before they followed me.
Teasing her was just so much fun.
Sophia roughly grabbed me by the upper arms to push me back.
I took one step to balance myself, then refused to budge.
"What the…?"
I smirked. "You don't have to push me into a wall every time you want a hug, Sophie. You can just ask for it. Or even just go for the hug."
"I don't want to hug you," she denied.
I put my arms around her. "Sure you don't. And you certainly don't seek me out like this practically every day, hm?"
She grumbled something unintelligible, but her arms slowly snuck up to return the hug.
I snorted quietly, our heads on each other's shoulders. "Yeah, I thought so. Finally done with the posturing, huh?"
"I don't posture."
I smirked.
"Stop smirking."
"How do you even know I'm smirking?" I teased. "You can't see my face."
"I know what you're doing, you insufferable dork."
"And you enjoy it."
"No, I don't. I hate you," she said as she snuggled deeper into her favorite spot in my neck.
"From you, I'll consider that the declaration of love that it is."
She shot out of the hug. "The what?"
"You heard me the first time," I said smugly.
She gave me a completely flabbergasted look, which was arguably even more adorable than her aggression.
So I leaned forward and placed a brief kiss on her lips. "You're my girlfriend now."
With one last grin at Sophia, I turned and walked away, towards my next class.
I was almost around the corner when she called out.
"I'm your what now?"
"You heard me!" I called back.
After a moment of hesitation, I leaned against the wall with my arms crossed, and smirked at her as she walked up to me in a daze.
"Are you, like… are you fucking with me?" she asked. For once, she wasn't being aggressive.
"No, I'm not," I said, pulling her into another, shorter, embrace. "You are incredibly cute, as I've been telling you ever since we first met, and I like you a lot."
"But I've been giving you shit the entire time."
"And it has entertained me for just as long. You're stuck with me, Sophie. Deal with it."
She averted her face in what I was pretty sure was embarrassment.
I grasped her hand as I waited for her to gather herself.
"How the fuck did you end up in charge?" It was a genuine question.
I smirked, radiating amusement. "It's a skill. Honestly, you should blame Emma, she misled you completely about me. You had no way to know what you were getting into."
Sophia hesitated for a moment, then stepped forward and snuggled into my chest.
I put my arms around her, one up on her head to play with her hair. "Though from what I can tell, you don't particularly mind."
"No," she admitted. "I guess I don't."
I placed a kiss on her scalp. "Mine."
Sophia just mumbled contently.
All was good.