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So as it turns out, waking up with no memories and relying on first people you run into is kind of a problem when you used to be the demon lord terrorizing the country.

Maybe.

You aren't really keen to confirm.
1 ~ Once More, Twice Over
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the Cornfield
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1 ~ Once More, Twice Over

"Blessed gods of the earth, holy angels from the sky, grant me strength! Grant me your limitless wisdom that forges the bones of this world! Grant me your discretion that dances on the head of a pin! Grant all of this to your servant of wrath, to destroy this demon and restore equilibrium!"

You awaken.

Ow.

Absolutely everything hurts.

You do nothing but lay there.

It really hurts. You feel like every part of you was beat with hammers and then set on fire.
What hit you? The last thing you remember is–

" . . . Oh."

–Nothing. Not a damn thing. You lay there for awhile longer. Maybe if you sit here for a bit, you'll remember everything? Hangovers are like that, right? You don't remember why you know that, but you know that alcohol can cause memory loss and that hangovers can include head pain.

So just sit tight, and you'll definitely remember everything, including who you are.

"Any second now…"

You thought hangovers included light sensitivity, but when you blink open your eyes, you feel fine.

The ceiling looks very nice. A bit old, and you feel a draft, but it has clearly been loved and looked after for awhile. Not recently, though. The structure is sound, but dust and webbing are starting to build up.

Your memories aren't coming back, but the pain is starting to go away.

"Hm… Maybe I could try sitting up." Talking out loud to yourself feels both natural and not natural, like a habit you've let lapse. Much like the maintenance of the ceiling. Odd parallel for your brain to draw. Perhaps you have the makings of a poet? That idea feels bitter, and you don't remember why.

You are currently laid out flat on the floor. Scrunching your fingers against it reveals you're on some kind of mat. The fabric feels familiar to you somehow, as you bunch it up under your hands. You have laid on mats before. Perhaps even this specific mat.
With some effort, you prop one arm up, and then the other. With a grunt, you sit up straight, and immediately regret it.

A cascade of creaks and aches race through your body as it riots over the sudden motion. Smooth practiced motions, which you are apparently in no condition to perform. Nevertheless, you bring your legs up next, undaunted, and….

… Stand up! Progress!

You immediately have to grip a nearby pillar to stop from swaying, but still, progress!

The rest of the room starts to slide into focus for you. It is plain, but little decorations of rope and beads and paper symbols are dotted here and there. This is definitely a place to house those who manage a place of worship. You're confident in that.
The room has little furniture.

The sleeping mat on which you woke up.

A comfortable armchair in the corner.

Across the threshold in another room, something like a barebones kitchen.

But dominating the room is a shrine. And it is a mess, such that it tugs at your heart. Paper seals like those in the rafters like in tatters around it, shredded to pits. Thick cords of rope have been severed with clean strokes, left sprawling like entrails around it. String that once held beads have been snapped, and plenty of the little glass ornaments they carried have rolled to every corner of the room.

Surrounded by all this carnage, are two things. An empty mount, and a sheathed sword in front of it. The sword is too small to go in the mount, but not by much. Whatever kind of blade used to be here would have been the same kind as the one left behind.

Without thinking, you grab the sheathed blade and begin tying it to your waist, only to pause and wonder what you're doing. This isn't your sword, is it? Is it?

But you need a sword!

Or do you? Why are you so sure? You don't know anything!

But you know you need a sword. This one will do.

Especially because someone is outside.

No one is supposed to be here. You know that. Somehow. You're not even sure you're supposed to be here, just that you are.
With the confidence of someone holding a sword she may or may not remember how to use, you push open the door to greet your guests. (not that you live here. Maybe.)

"Look out!"
"Dammit, she survived that?!"
"Stay calm."

A staff, two short swords, and an axe are drawn and readied in a flurry of motion the second you open the door.
You hold up a finger. "Wait."

They wait. You finish stepping out, and carefully close the door behind you. It creaks very loudly–someone has been slacking off on oiling the hinges. You feel like you should take care of that, but you're a little busy right now.

You turn back to the three armed individuals brandishing weapons at you. Thankfully, they haven't attacked you while you were shutting the door. How polite.

"Greetings." You say with all the confidence you can muster, despite your situation. Your bluff seems to work. They look rattled, and on closer examination, very battered from whatever fight they just got out of.

There's three of them and you have no idea how you would stack up against one of them, let alone all of them, so it isn't like you can actually fight them. But they clearly think otherwise, which means you have the advantage, as long as they don't realize you have no clue who you are.

"…"
"…"
"…"
"…"
"…?"
"…?"
"…?"
"…?"

It is at this point that you realize you have no plan. And that they have no plan. Neither party has a plan. Oh no.

The blonde guy with the axe breaks the tense standoff first. "So are we doing this or what?" That's a great question, but most answers to it don't end well for you. You need to maintain control of the conversation, stall until you come up with something good.

"Are we? You've clearly seen better days. Are you sure you want to risk your life now? You only get one, so I hear."
He chokes back a retort with a snarl. You can see he limps slightly when he steps forward, envision the blade that injured his leg. It's been well cared for, but it still has some healing to do, at your guess.

The girl in white robes pipes up. "You're not looking too hot yourself! I can still smell the ash clinging to you from over here! Do you really think you can handle another one of my spells?!"

… Now that she mentions it, you do smell like ash. You assumed that was the incense burners in the shrined, but come to think of it, they weren't lit. Was she the one who made you feel like death warmed over? That's… really bad.

The woman with black hair still hasn't said anything. Her eyes are gold. That feels like a notable detail to you, for some reason. She's just watching you at the moment, but she's clearly ready to strike at any moment.

You pretend to be unbothered by this. The sneer of someone looking down on them comes easily to your face. "And who are you trying to convince? If you really thought it was as simple as that, you would have done it already. I think we both know you're not as strong as you think."

The girl in robes… frowns. As does the man with the axe. Uh oh. Did you say something out of character? They did seem to know who you were, but surely they haven't–

"You don't remember us." The girl with two shortswords finally breaks her silence.

Dammit. Just from that?! What was it that tipped them off? That felt like the right thing to say, but it isn't what they were expecting, clearly.

You raise an eyebrow, trying to recover the bluff. You can still save this. You can! "You seem very sure. Willing to gamble on it?"

But she just nods. "I don't think your words from back then were a lie–" Huh? "–and you wouldn't be acting like this for a rematch anyways."

The blonde guy with the axe rolls his eyes, and you faintly here him say "'cept for the thing with the door." under his breath. Hey. You'll re-injure his leg if he doesn't shut his mouth! Saying so feels ill-advised, however.

The girl in white robes pipes up. "But wait, if she didn't remember us, wouldn't she have just blasted us with her fancy sword attack? Like she did the first time?"

But the other girl just shakes her head. "Nope. Look. Different sword. And we saw that thing break, anyways. She probably lost a lot when that happened. Looks like it rattled her brain, and who knows what else."

Oh.

She knows.

She knows you're bluffing about being able to handle them.

That's…

… So frustrating! You can't help but glare. You felt like you were doing so well. You had a weapon and everything, most people who wake up with no memory of who they are probably don't even have their clothes! You just needed a bit longer to get yourself together, and you would have been fine! But no! You had to run into these three, who ruined everything, again!

… Again? Was there a first time? Well, they seem to think so. There was probably a first time, but you weren't thinking about it when that thought slipped out. No wonder they saw through you so fast, if you've been dealing with them enough to be able to curse them from beyond memory.

Regardless, you're cornered for the moment. Better a conditional surrender than testing your luck and finding it wanting, at least for now. You hold up your hands in a placating gesture, with a grace you don't even slightly feel.

"Fine, fine–" The blonde guy scowls even harder somehow. "–it is as you say. I don't remember my circumstances, or who any of you are. Or… where I am."

That gets a round of surprised and even worried expressions from the three of them. Both axe-guy and staff-girl start to talk at the same time, before their third holds up a hand. "Hang on. You stay there. You two, team huddle."
You notice that she doesn't actually take her eyes off you despite calling a team huddle.

They talk for awhile. How much is there to talk about, though? Whatever their grievances against you, or yours against them, you don't see why its your problem. Leaving aside the fact that you tried to bluff your memories immediately, but… They did draw their weapons at the sight of you. You may have panicked. Maybe.

This sucks. You've just woken up, and it has already been a long day.

You're also getting awfully damned tired of all their muttering over there. The dark looks they keep throwing your way aren't helping your patience one bit! Honestly, do they think they're being subtle about it?

Whoever 'You' are, it looks like they're not happy about anything. Meanwhile, you're getting such a headache from the situation you're tempted to try out this sword at your side on these morons. It fits in your hand like it was made for it, and the scabbard is slightly worn down from where your hands have clearly gripped it for a long time.

… You feel a little weird to apparently be the kind of person with that sort of attention to detail. Maybe you also had to deal with people constantly whispering around you too; the irritation feels familiar. Infuriatingly nostalgic.

"Hey!" You call over. The girl in white robes looks like she just had a heart attack from hearing you speak, even though she's been looking at you the whole time. You'd swear her hand twitched towards her weapon.

The blonde guy with the axe gives you a guarded expression ('when isn't his expression guarded' is a thought that comes unbidden) and makes to retort. You talk over him, letting your frusteration creep into your voice. "Mind if I join this fascinating conversation?"

… Okay ALL of them twitched their hands towards their weapons that time. What?

Blondie spits, but you can hear the shaking in his voice when he tries to sound tough. "Dammit, are we sure she's not evil still?!"

You fold your arms and stare him down. You can tell he almost takes a step back. He really is reaching for his weapon now…

"It's rude to talk about me like I'm not here! Especially when you still haven't told me what's going on!" 'Who am I?' almost slips out, but your refuse to beg for answers from these people. 'You're better than that now!' Except you're not.

The black-haired woman with a pair of shortswords at her hip drags a hand down her face, and sighs. Everyone in the group glances over, restraining whatever interjections they were going to make. The leader? Or does she just not talk very often?

"Listen. I'm tired. Let's do what we came here for. We'll talk things over afterwards."

She looks a lot less likely to snap and attack you on reflex now. It seems like having problems to solve let her regain her mental balance, or rather, she's not someone who loses it often in the first place.

You shrug. "Fine, fine." Aaaand hear the grinding of blondie's teeth. You've got to learn their names at some point. Anyways, since you don't have a better plan than what she just suggested, you'll go along with it.

You hold out a hand, gesturing to the gate to the shrine. You can see stairs leading down. And something about this place is unnerving to you. Painful. "Can we go now?"

But the leader of this trio shakes her head. "Wait. We're going to check the complex first, like I said. Miake, watch her. Lena, with me." Now who's grinding their teeth? You, unfortunately.

Your one solace is that blonde axe guy, Miake, looks just as unhappy about things as you are.

Cold comfort.

Without another glance, Lena and the leader open one of the other doors into the complex, and shut it behind them. The wood creaks from disuse, and one of them has to yank it properly closed so it doesn't swing open. You wince.

You feel as though things shouldn't happening like this. The temple complex is… something to you. You're not sure what, and that uncertainty is a strangely familiar pain in its own right.

Why aren't you there with Lena and Raye carefully shepherding them through the halls (that you don't remember), and explaining what this or that bespoke shrine is meant to depict (you wouldn't know, now)? But then again, why would you be?

There's a keening ache like you're letting someone down. There's something important you should be doing.

Instead, you're standing out in the cold mountain air with Miake.

The two of you have been waiting for awhile, and will be waiting awhile still. It feels like eons. Apparently you get bored easily. When he's not shooting suspicion glares your way, he looks like he wants to gnaw his arm off or remove his brain, to skip to the end of this day all the sooner. Respectable. You wish you were taking a nap instead of trying to pretend that your sense of balance isn't waxing and waning with the pounding headache that's rapidly begun to form once you started moving again.

"Hey, are you okay?" A voice cuts through the cold mountain air, a querying drawl you're certain you've heard before, hearing it again for the first time now. You snap your gaze up from where it had begun to drift to ground, matching his scowl with your own. "I'm fine. Besides, why would you care? We're enemies, yes?"

Miake rolls his eyes. "As if. If you don't remember, there's no point in it. Besides, we did what we came to do. We broke that damn sword. Killing you was something we couldn't avoid. So the fact that you survived is…"

"Frustrating?" You chime in, not sure where he's going with this. You don't like it though. He keeps saying 'you' when he means 'her'. Like he's already decided everything about your past and future in his head, without you getting a say. His foot taps out a three beat rhythm as he looks up to the clouds, ignoring your interjection. It seems you can't shake is train of thought that easily. "…Complicated. We really wanted to get to ask you some questions, you know. And now we can't, because she's gone."

Your grip on the sheath of your weapon tightens, fingers pressing into natural-worn grooves in the grain of the wood. The mountain air is cold, but your face is hot. There's a dull throb in the back of your throat that threatens to choke you, struggling to get the words out around the blockade. "Stop it."

"Stop what?" He gives you a puzzled look. As if he doesn't know. As if. You've been yourself for barely an hour, but the boiling rage you've discovered is an old, old friend. This, you won't allow. Not from them, not from anyone.

"Stop doing that! Am I a blank slate or the person I don't remember being? You can't treat me like both on a whim! I've just met you and I'm already sick the way you keep talking about me like you own me or something! I don't know you! I don't have to listen to you! If I want to go off on my own, there's not a damn thing you can do about it!"

The final words of your tirade echo across the clearing, sharp and ragged sentiments. You remember to breath, and gulp in air. Your throat burns. You don't think you've raised your voice much in your life. Your face is uncomfortably warm, hot angry tears drawing two thin streaks down. You scrub them off your face with your sleeve.

Miake is frozen in a rictus of alarm, hands halfway through making a placating gesture. Behind him, a door cracks open, Lena and Ray poking their heads out with a worried and neutral look, respectively.

The silence stretches uncomfortably long. You, staring down Miake and feeling increasingly embarrassed by the way everyone is just looking at you like they've just found out you're made of glass (you're not. you're not). Him, looking like he just nudged a vase off a shelf and into pieces across the floor. The tableau stays like that, until the creaky shut of the door as Lena and Raye go back to what they were doing finally breaks the silence.

Miake let's one hand drop, the other scratching his head through the mop of spiky blonde hair. Some part of your mind that isn't seeing red notes that he looks like of like a porcupine made out of brass.

"Right, uh…. Sorry about that." You blink, waiting for more. Nothing more comes, just him awkwardly avoiding eye contact with a sheepish look. Like he made a normal social blunder at a party, and not arguing with an amnesiac whose former self he thought he'd killed. It's… comical, and you see him jolt in surprise as a giggle forces its way out of you.

There's an awkward lull where both of you look anywhere but the other. It isn't a comfortable one. You were using the argument to distract yourself from how wretched you feel, and getting screaming mad just made everything worse. 'Typical', comes the thought carved into your body by whoever had it before.

It's an awful feeling, and you're glad to hear Miake clear his throat and pick up the conversation again. "Listen, uh, your demon lord of moonlightness," "Wait did I actually call myself that?" "–yup, anyways, here's the thing. We, or at least I, don't wanna lay the all the shit that happened at your feet if you're a brand new person. That wouldn't be fair. But if there's anything, anything at all, that remains… We can't leave it alone. There's so much stuff we never got to find out, important stuff. We broke that sword but that ain't the whole problem we were after. And we're all tired and confused. We were hoping that after beating you, her, maybe both, maybe not, that we could take a nap and stuff before having to do anything. And then you walked out the door."

You had thought he wasn't one to say much, but maybe he just gets talked over a lot. His voice comes out at an even drawl, and you wonder if he has as little experience raising his voice as you did. You give it a second, to think on it. You meant what you said before—you don't want them to treat you as they please.

But if both parties are looking for answers from each other than maybe… maybe you could…?

"I'm hungry." It slips out before you can stop it. To your relief, Miake just nods solemnly, giving your complaint the gravity of an imperial edict.

"Yeah, I am too. Maybe tossing around all these ultimatums while we're all beat to hell and starving is a bad idea… We can take you down the mountain and rest up and get some food first, if you want."

Huh. You don't hate that idea. You chew on it in your head a moment, and nod slowly. "I think… I think that works. At least we can talk things out after that."

"Right."

"Alright."

"…"

"…"

You both really suck at keeping a conversation going, you're realizing. Miake seems aware of it too, leaving you both staring awkwardly at each other, silently pleading for the other to say something.

"Um-" "Uh-" Both of you make to fumble for a conversation at the same time, and clam up the second you realize the other person is talking. You open your mouth to try again, when the door you came out of swings open, and Lean stomps out.

"Okay we're done! … Huh? What's with you two?" You look away, and hear Miake sigh. "Nothing you need to worry about, Lena. Are we good to go now?"

"Well–"
"Yep, we're good." Raye steps out after her, patting Lena on the shoulder. "Nothing worth taking with us in there. No food either. Place is cleaned out. Wonder why."

She looks at you as if she expects you to know. You meet her stare with silence, and after a few seconds she gives up.

"Fine, be that way. We need to figure out what we're going to do with you though." The look she gives you is calculating, lined in exhaustion. Whatever she thinks her options are, she doesn't like any of them. When Miake clears his throat, her eyes flick to just above your shoulder, keeping you in view.

"About that. The Demon Lord of Moonlight and I were talking—" You groan, stepping between him and Raye to glare at him. "Are you going to call me that every time?"

In response, Miake just steps the other way, and keeps speaking. You resist the urge to stomp your foot. "—And I'm thinking that maybe we all head down to The Stairs. We can get food and rest, and then talk out this mess. Don't think any of us are at our best, and I don't wanna rush a decision I'll regret if we don't have to."

You must look visibly puzzled at 'The Stairs', because Lena takes pity on you. "The Stairs is the name of the village at the bottom of the mountain path. It was left mostly untouched by the demonic invasion happening all around it, so it was where we stocked up supplies before confronting you. Although..."

She suddenly looks fretful, glancing to her leader. "Raye, won't someone recognize her…?" She asks. Raye just shakes her head.

"She always wore a mask and that ceremonial armor, remember? The outfit doesn't stand out nearly as much without the seals and plates." She gives you a scrutinizing look, which you meet with an arched eyebrow and a frown. "Someone might recognize your voice though. The mask didn't change it that much. Try not to talk too much until we're behind closed doors."

As if she gets to dictate that to you. You'll talk as much as you want. You roll your eyes, but Raye is already busy doing one last once-over of the temple complex, and misses it. "Okay, looks like we're done here. Let's go. Are you coming along, Demon Lord?"

You dislike her already. "Of course I am. I'm not gonna stay on a mountaintop by myself with no food. And don't call me Demon Lord!" Miake shakes his head, turning to head for the gate. Lena darts fretfully between him and Raye, before pinning you to the spot with an intense look you can't decipher the meaning of. And Raye, just… turns and starts walking.

You follow quickly, only to hesitate once you step over the threshold of the archway. Your muscle memory itches with the need to do something, so you let it. With a practiced smoothness, you bow to the archway.

Then, and only then, you follow them down the mountain.
 
2 ~ Hell Is Other People, But Gehenna Is Real

2 ~ Hell Is Other People, But Gehenna Is Real


The path down the mountain trails a surprisingly well-maintained set of stone stairs. The moment the threshold of the temple gate is crossed, you can see the beginnings of recent hands-on care, some stones clearly newer than the ones next to them.

Small shrines mark distance at consistent intervals.

Each one is topped with a stone shelter for a torch, and a red ribbon that trails in the wind. Beyond that though, they're all different. Each is covered in carvings or sculpted into different shapes. Weathered figures, human, animal, and scenes. They feel nostalgic and familiar, even if you don't remember any of them. They're nice to look at. If you weren't having to keep up with the group, you'd want to stop and examine each of them on the way down.

Walking with the group is…. fine. It's fine. A little awkward though.

For one thing, it's less of a walk and more of a trudge.

All three of them are starting to show the fatigue from whatever fighting they had with you (or "you" but nevermind that for now).

You noticed Miake's limp earlier, but he seems to keep forgetting about it, leading to further stumbles. Probably an extremely recent injury. The boiled leather plates around that knee look mangled. They have housing for metal reinforcements, but those have been ripped out. You can see what they should look like on the other knee.

Raye looks tired, but otherwise gives you nothing to work with. For some reason that doesn't surprise you. However, like Miake, some of the armor pieces she wears are conspicuously missing, and the fabric beneath is stained with long-dried blood.

Lena seems, if not fine, than at least energetic. The lack of any obvious injuries makes her the odd one out. From the way that both Miake and Raye keep looking back to check on her when they think she isn't looking, you would guess that there are less obvious injuries.

Some part of you brain is sluggishly running the numbers on if you could beat the three of them in a fight, even now. It isn't getting anywhere, every line of tactical thought smashing against the wreckage of your memories. If you don't even know what you can do, how are you going to counter what they can do? Whatever that is. You wish you could just stop worrying about it, but it keeps creeping in whenever you let your thoughts drift naturally; a survival instinct that won't turn off.

It is tiring. Very, very tiring.

And you really don't need that right now.

You don't think this kind of walk would strain you normally, but you still feel like you've been pummeled into the ground and left out in the cold for a night. That's where you started, and it isn't getting better. The dizziness from when you first woke up never quite went away, so much as you doggedly shoved it aside when you heard them outside. Now that you're walking, it's nipping at the edges of your focus relentlessly, singing a horrendous duet with the vice clamp headache.

You have to drop to the back of the group, even behind Lena's short stride, just to hide the way you periodically need to stop and regain your balance. Awful. You don't want them to see you like this.

You don't want anyone to see you like this, but especially not them.

No one has said anything about it, and you manage to reset your expression from open relief when Ray calls a stop. The group has reached a flat area that marks a turn in the stairs down. You could set up camp here, it is big enough. Echoing that thought Lena pipes up, "Are we stopping here for the day, Raye?"

There's a faint undercurrent of tension in her voice that says they had better be stopping here for the day or there will be consequences later. Perhaps because she's looking away or perhaps because she doesn't care (or doesn't show it), Raye shakes her head and blithely ignores the fuming Lena behind her.

"Nope. Need to get farther down first. We'll take a break though." Miake breathes a quiet sigh of relief. Lena wrings her hands and huffs, but bites off whatever retort she was going to make.

Your legs are screaming at you to sit down for awhile, and vision is still wobbling at the edges. You ignore both their protests to step a little closer to the edge of the mountain. Raye is staring at something below with an intense look (you think, it is very hard to tell with her), and you want to know what it is.

Aside from a flick of her gaze, she doesn't twitch as you step up alongside her. "Mm? Something up?"

You shake your head. "Nothing in particular. I was curious what you were looking at."

"The Stairs, down there." She gestures to what is presumably the town at the base of the mountain. The landscape below is a blurry wash of greens, browns, and blues. There's an especially large clump of brown where she points, dotted with twinkling lights. That must be where you're headed. "Looks like none of the stragglers from your army have attacked them, yet. Like Lena said, it's been untouched, but we cleared the area around it before we came up just in case. Don't know what the demons will do with their general gone."

There's a barb hidden in her musing, and you strive to ignore it. You don't want to think about whatever army of demons you were running around with right now. It can wait until after you've eaten something.

"I'm surprised you can make out those kinds of details at this distance." She gives you an odd look you can't decipher, then slowly nods. "Right, well," she says, "I have good eyes."

You don't have anything to say to that, so you just let the silence sit.

It would be a moment that could be called companionable, if you were friends with these people. Instead, there's a painfully awkward void where Raye is clearly waiting for you to say something.

Realizing you won't, she walks away after a moment. You hear some murmured conversation with Miake that you can't convince yourself is worth listening in on with any effort. Something about birds and wings. It's easy to ignore that while you look down at the scenery below. Even if you can't see individual houses or anything, it makes for a pretty water color. You even fill a small thrill of excitement at getting to visit. You'll get to hopefully talk to people who aren't hung up on whoever you used to be, for one thing. It'll be nice to meet people who aren't giving you suspicious glares all the time. But you're also excited to explore! Your memories of what a village should look like are still mostly tattered and pockmarked, but you feel some warmth from them too. You think you'll enjoy it, as long as–

"Hey, are you alright?"

You fail to suppress a flinch, and shoot Lena an annoyed look. "I'm fine."

She puts her hands on her hips, glimmering green eyes squinting at you with a skeptical scowl. Then has to blow a lock of red hair off her face. Somehow this fails to make her less threatening. "I don't believe you."

"Excuse me?" You don't have to fake the affront in your voice, as it comes quite naturally to you. "I'm fine, like I said."

She shakes her head. "We were certain we'd killed you. My spell definitely should have. There's no way that it didn't injure you pretty badly." You fold your arms, frowning.

"You're awful confident in your abilities."

Rather than back down or boil over, she gives you a cold glare. You take a step back before you can stop yourself. But Lena isn't done with you, saying, "Yes, I am. So stop lying to the medic, and tell me what's wrong. You don't look fine."

Raye and Miake both look up from their chat, and you realize that the trip down the mountain is going to be halted permanently until you explain yourself. You wish you remembered anything to curse for your misfortune. You wish that you weren't having this conversation.

You wish that the ground would stop spinning and getting closer–

—You didn't realize that Lena could hold you up with one arm. It doesn't seem to require her to exert herself very much, either. The expression she wears is one of resigned annoyance, and you suspect that you're not the only person she knows that tries to refuse medical treatment. Miake and Raye both look the type.

At least you have an excuse. You don't know these people after all.

Not that Lena cares one bit about that—she drags you bodily over to a rock and makes you sit down. You'd rather not, but you're still dizzy. Lena is muttering to herself. "Don't know why I thought you'd be any better than those two, you're all the same… idiots…"

Unfortunately, once you're off your feet you have no desire to stand up again. Lena is industriously searching through her pack in front of you, still muttering curses. You can see the blurry blobs of Raye and Miake start to wander over, eventually resolving into distinguishable features once they're next to you.

"Is she dying?" Raye asks, sounding for all the world like she's asking if it will rain tomorrow. The world continues to careen at odd angles and jittering rotation, so you can't really respond to that one. But you're still mad about it.

Lena just rolls her eyes. "Obviously not, do you really need to ask. Aside from being pretty banged up by the fight, she's suffering mana exhaustion, and—" she looks up at you. Her eyes shine with an emerald glow, and you shiver as you feel something pierce through some ephemeral part of you. "—her spiritual link is still fluttering in a way that worries me. Forcibly breaking the bond between her and ▇▇▇▇▇▇▇▇▇ obviously did some damage. The memory loss is just a symptom."

Lena holds out the sparkling blue potion that will apparently fix your mana exhaustion, but when you reach for it, she seizes your wrist with an iron grip. Emerald eyes meet yours (whatever color they are), nailing you to the spot.

"This will taste foul. Extremely foul. But if you spit it out, I will kill you myself. Are we clear?"

You mutely nod. Her expression softens, much in the way that an iron club technically lacks sharp edges.

You are not put at ease, but you take the bottle. Lena is still staring, and you don't think she's going to let you out of her sight until she's made sure you drank it.

With no choice but to face the music, you pop the stopped off with your thumb, catching it with your other hand, and drink.

It is beyond foul.

You feel like you'll throw up from the smell of it before the liquid even reaches your tongue, at which its so much worse. You think this is what drinking sewage would be like. The fact that the rest of your body starts to feel better while your tastebuds cry out for the release of death just makes the sensation all the more jarring. You have to clap a hand over your mouth to avoid retching.

"Mmhm, well, you're at least taking it better than some people I've met." She says, rolling her eyes. Disbelieving, Miake's chimes in, "Lena are you still mad about that guy? It's been like… a month."

"I am still mad, and I will continue being mad! The ingredients alone are expensive, and it's such a pain to actually prepare it on top of that! They're a valuable resource, not some kind of cheap wine!"

You could really go for some cheap wine right now, or really, anything at all to stop tasting this. However, you have no doubt Lena will actually kill you, so you have to endure. It's hard to believe they were the ones scared of you.

You try to stand up, but Lena immediately puts a hand on your shoulder and pushes you back down. "Nope, stay there. Give it a sec to do its job. You're just going to fall over again otherwise. Don't sulk."

"I'm not-–Grrhm…." You bite off the end of the sentence, knowing it won't help your case. Whatever. May as well make your peace with taking a rest for awhile, you wanted to get off your feet for a bit anyways. Even if it means putting up with Lena fussing over you. "Fine, fine, I'll stay put."

"Yes. You will." She doesn't have to say it like that.

While you and Lena are more or less camped by the rock standing in for a chair, Miake and Raye continue making a perimeter of the clearing.

You let the chatter roll over you. It is… not the worst thing in the world, to just listen to the conversation flow. It doesn't feel like something you've done often.

"Huh. Raye, do you remember this spot when we were on our way up?" Miake sounds… not worried, exactly. Mildly concerned at worst.

"Mm. Yeah. Why?" Raye, in contrast sounds half-asleep yet with perfect enunciation. You could level a shelf with her monotone.

Miake shrugs. "Nothing, just that they all kinda look the same to me. Only thing that's different is the shrines. Kinda hard to tell how far down the mountain we are."

"Not much. We've got a lot of walking to do before we'll hit halfway. We're not stopping before then. Further than that, if Lena will let us." The woman in question rolls her eyes, long-suffering. You think that the tug of war between Raye's drive and Lena's consideration is one that both are used to.

"I think we're about a fourth of the way down, actually." Your mouth opens on its own, rattling off your best estimate before you have a chance to think about it.

You freeze up a little when all of them look over at you at the same time. "It feels like we are, anyways," you mumble.

Lena winces for some reason. Miake visibly thinks over getting involved, then decides to go stand conspicuously at the other side of the naturally-occurring rest stop. Raye is already walking over, an interrogative gleam in her golden eyes. "What makes you say that?"

"Uh…" You falter. You don't actually have an answer to that question. "I… don't know? I'm just sure we are."

Your eyes are drawn towards one of the waymarker shrines. Every single one is unique, you're sure of that. You must have walked this path a lot. Golden eyes trace your line of sight, Raye puts it together.

Good, because you really didn't want to explain yourself.

"I see. Fourth of the way, then. We're still not stopping for the day until we hit the half-way mark though. Are you– Lena, is she good to walk?" Rude, but you already agreed to defer to her, so…. No, you're still miffed about that, actually. Lena cuts in before you can pick a fight over it.

"She should be, yes. As long as she doesn't have to fight anything, though I could say the same thing about Miake's leg." She gives Raye a pointed look, lined with an exhaustion that she can't quite hide now that she's off her feet, and to your surprise her Leader actually looks a bit sheepish. You did wonder why they were letting him walk on that.

"Lena… I'm just worried. There's still a bunch of stragglers running around. The village doesn't have any protection. And—" It's odd seeing her scramble to justify herself. Lena just sighs and shakes her head. "It's fine Raye, I know you mean well. Just... keep it in mind, okay? There's—"

A distant keening. A laugh. A wail. The sound of birds and steel.

"—just a lot of ways it could cause him problems down the line… I think–"

"Something's coming."

It takes you a second to realize it was you who said that. Everyone freezes, and then…

… They can hear it too. Miake and Lena draw their weapons, while Raye looks around, hands out as if expecting to have to grab something. Your hands clutch the sheath and hilt of your sword, but do not draw it. Why? You're not sure. You simply know. Your body remembers what your memory has lost—trying to think too much will just get in its way.

Lena and Raye both step back, letting Miake take up position in front of them, the formation purely reflexive. You know it is because Raye blinks and looks after at you when she realizes they haven't accounted for you. She opens her mouth to call you over.

"S–!""
"KAAAAAAAAAAAHHAHAAHAHA!!"​

The rest of her sentence is drowned out by a horrific, roaring laugh. Two voices talking in perfect stereo, one mourning and the other exultant.

The cry echoes, bouncing back and forth down the mountain. But even over that din, you can hear the flap of hundreds of wings getting closer. It sends a chill down your spine, and you feel the scabbard creak under your tightening grip.

You've barely gotten control yourself when it careens around the corner of the mountain. A blur at first, but as it gets closer, details revolve.

The first thing you notice are the masks. A weeping blue, and a joyous red. They seem to glow, standing out against the drab palette of the rest of the creatures form. Despite their depicted emotions, both seem to jeer at you, as though hurling insults from two feet in front of you instead of however many in the air above you.

Then you notice their bodies. Two humanoid torsos, each covered in bleeding scars, lashed together back to back with endless black ribbons, blood soaking through the bandages. The mask in blue wears a silver stole over this, while the mask in red equips a gleaming golden breastplate. Where they should have legs, they instead of a shared mass of wings, a thousand mutilated swans flapping in drunken concert.

And lastly, you notice their weapons. The laughing mask wields an enormous spear in one hand, and a heavy sword in the other. The spear is pristine ivory, while the sword is a shoddy, rusted steel. The weeping mask holds two wands, one of trailing flame and the other of oppressive ice.

▇he Tw▇-▇▇ced H▇▇▇or,
Pu▇▇le Perf▇▇▇ance
You can feel the battered book of your memories flip open, pages flying as you flip through it. A name, you need a name. A name, how it fights, its weaknesses… You know these.

You should know these, but the pages that aren't missing are soaked in ink, useless. Even the title on its spine is faded. Another tie in the string of failures for your mind.

One thing is clear though. You have no doubt in you mind that this creature will kill you. You're afraid. You don't want to die, you don't want to die–

"Snap out of it!"

"!"

There's a mass of wild blue in the corner of your vision, and you jump. A spectral swan careens into the ground where you had been standing, and explodes in a blast of icy crystals.

You wouldn't have moved in time if Raye hadn't said something. You didn't even realize you had frozen up until then.

Unfortunately, the creature is now hovering between you and them. The red mask looms, laughing at you. You catch a brief glimpse of the fear and worry in Lena's face, before a light show of elemental magic obscures it.

You are (like always) on your own.

"KAHAHAHAAAKAAAHHAHAH!"



The first strike is a spear you can't evade, and your arms shake from the force of shoving it aside.

The creature almost bowls you over entirely when it suddenly lurches forward. The weight of the spear suddenly leaves, causing you to stumble as it moves back into a ready position.

The shadow of the falling sword is your only warning of impending death, and you throw yourself to the side. A shower of dirt and sundered earth rains down on the battlefield, and you have to throw an arm up to avoid getting blinded.

You don't have to look that the lovingly maintained stone path has been utterly destroyed. Despite the danger, it tugs at you enough to split your focus.

The momentary distraction is enough for the haft of the spear to catch you in the gut in a horizontal sweep that launches you back up the mountain path, landing painfully against the stairs you had just come down. You have to dodge to the side immediately as the brickwork next to you explodes from the force of the spear plunging into it.

Can't keep getting distracted. You have to live through the next couple of seconds.

Its sword drags across the ground, leading a cascading wave of sparks. The tip bursts free from the ground, concealing its path in the hail of earth caused by its emergence.

But it's the second time its used this diversion, and so it the blade meets empty air as you fade through the plume of dirt and earth, guarding your eyes for the exact span of time you need.

Now that you're past its initial guard, you have an opportunity to strike. Marshaling your concentration, you hold and you hand and will forth ▇▇▇▇▇ ▇▇▇▇ ▇▇ ▇ ▇▇▇▇ ▇▇!

▇ ▇ ▇▇▇▇ ▇▇▇ ▇ ▇ ▇▇▇?

Nothing… happens (something important was lost).

You don't understand (you might never recover it).

With another screech of metal violating the sundered ground, the flat of the blade slams into you as the Laughing Mask decides to, in the spirit of enterprise, simply attack everywhere you could be even if it can't see you.

You hit the next set of stairs on your side and roll two more, then scramble to your feet and sloppily parry another thrust of the spear. Your arms complain at being so abused, and you politely inform them to shut up and keep working so you don't die.

Again it advances, and again you're forced back, backpedalling up the stairs as fast as you can.

It's hard not to wonder, 'why haven't those guys caught it yet? Shouldn't they be doing something'?

That question has been on you mind since the battle started.

You get your answer very abruptly.

In the space it had vacated to chase you, barely an instant after it had moved, a spectral tree emerges from the ground and explodes into golden flechettes. They scatter across the mountainside, a few of them even hitting their intended target. The creature lets out a whimper of pain as the light corrodes and blackens its form where it lands….

… but not enough. Not nearly enough.

It's still moving at full speed. The sword is coming next—

It's odd though. Clearly this foe isn't beyond them, so why aren't they winning? Why did that attack miss?

Dodge the sword and parry the spear. An easy rhythm. A grueling marathon—

You think of Lena's exhaustion, having already brought down a demon earlier that day. Miake's leg, a limp he doesn't remember to adjust for. Raye's injured shoulder, she dual wields, doesn't she? And all of you have been walking…

Duck the pincer attack. Ride the force of the spear to escape the sword. Land on your feet.

Because you fought them back then, none of them are at their best (nor are you). And because you can't even stand your ground now, they can't corner it. It can chase after you and retreat from them in the same motion. It can, in fact, do this all day.

Fear sinks cold hooks into you (but when aren't you afraid?).

Suddenly, the task in front of you is much more daunting. It isn't enough to survive its onslaught, you have to hold your ground.

As if to drive home the enormity of the task at hand, the laughing mask reels back its sword, and makes a diagonal slice at you, the enormous blade quite literally as big as you. The vacuum is leaves behind as you duck makes you stumble, and the creature advances with its spear.

Again you are forced back. Again it chases. And again, the only people who could help you are unable to do so because of your weakness. Because all the parts of you that could do something in this situation have been seemingly cored out of you, leaving nothing but hurt feelings and the ability to hold a sword.

Steel meets wood. You slam the pommel of your sword into the tip of the spear, knocking it against the ground and stomping it down with your foot.

It holds it in place long enough for you to deflect the next swing of the sword into the ground next to you, instead of through your torso. The spear rips free of the earth, but you'd already removed your foot and given ground.

And again, it advances.

A scattershot of golden-green beams split the skies, but they're met with birds of frost, intercepting them. You can hear Raye and Miake yelling, catch hints of their blades, but the constant pillars of fire making approaching a dangerous prospect.

In better circumstances, you'd sure they'd have ways around this. They wouldn't have beaten you if this was enough to stop them on a good day.

But this isn't a good day for any of you (if you do nothing, it will be your last).

You're terrified. You have not memories of battle to call on, and your reflexes could misfire at any moment, leaving you standing there baffled and helpless at a critical moment. The best thing to do would be to run and hide, but this thing won't let you. It's shown how willing it is to chase you all the way back up to the shrine, in fact.

Maybe if you hurt it enough, though, it will leave you alone (because that always works).

There's a pattern of preferences to its attacks. It always strikes first with the spear first if it can. The sword is dragged through the environment, to send showers of broken earth up and conceal the path of its sweep. Otherwise it prefers showy, overhead chops.

Perhaps it could stray from these preferences, to catch you off guard. But why would it? As far is it knows, it is winning quite handily.

You want to at least die having proved it wrong.

First, you must bait the sword. Parry the spear, and wait for it to commit to another chop. When the blade falls, be not afraid, and shed it like water. Stomp the blade into the earth as you did with the spear. The sword is heavier, and its embedment was aided by the creature's own strength. Leap straight back.

And when it tries to skewer you as it has done every single time thus far, you act.

A small flare of pain comes from your side as the spear grazes you, but it doesn't hit the mark. The two of you joust past each other, and it doesn't have time to pull back it back. So it attempts to swing the other, but first it must dislodge it. With its strength, that is barely a delay at all. Barely a hinderance on the strength and speed of its attack.

But it is enough.

Your leap clears the sweep of its sword, and for a brief moment you hang in there air. You're right in front of the laughing mask, close enough to look into its eyes.

Eyes of bloodshed, of violence, of a thousand petty slights and cruelties carried out by people who have forgotten how to see strangers as anything other than scenery.

The eyes of something (someone) who would start a war for the pettiest of reasons, and persist to the bitter end (gorged on shame to fuel a cold, cold hatred).

You bring down your sword.

A jagged line splits the surface of the mask, digging a trench of pulp and wood-chips. Silver-red trickles down behind it, droplets of blood hitting the dirt at the same time as your feet.

The creature stops dead in the air, and screams.

It's neck and arms thrash wildly, a flailing spearpoint drawing a fresh line of red up your arm where you failed to get back.

All at once it freezes, head ponderously craning down to home in on you. For the first time, you detect something other than jubilance and mockery in the red mask: rage.

Its evening gown of wings all flap open, and then closed in a great swooping lunge, far faster than it had moved before. If it could do this the whole time then why did it—?!

"GEEEET BACK HERE!"

Ghostly chains wrap around the creature and yank it back just before it can strike. A floating sigil of a familiar golden-green hue reels it in like a fishing rod. Both heads turn to face its captor, leaving you no longer the target of its ire. You gulp air down your burning throat.

Is that it? Can you stop? Can you run? A part of you begs it. You're… terrified, even if you managed that somehow. Like you said to Miake. It's not like you owe them anything. They're not your friends. If you run off and leave them to their fate, well. You're their former enemy. Why would they expect camaraderie from you? (are they wrong to have expectations?)

They must be. The person you were was their bane, and the person you are now is nothing but a burden. You did your part just now, didn't you? They can handle things from here, so you have to help them, right? It'd be better to look out for yourself. That's all you have left. You're not someone who can afford to be selfless (is that who you are?)

It could be… It doesn't matter how strong you were before. Right now you can't do anything. (you don't want to leave them)

But why! You don't owe them anything! (they remember you. that matters.) They remember someone who's dead! An empty husk, long dead. You're just some nobody now! (are you?) Yes! You are! Why is that even a question?!

(you're holding her sword) You…

(let's say that you are…)

(...is the first choice you make as yourself…)

(...going to be abandoning people who trusted you?
)

"...Dammit."

The creature has twisted around to face its red mask towards them, while the blue one begins weaving its wands through the air. Something tells you it's trying to free itself from whatever Lena did to chain it down before Miake and Raye can pile on. You should make sure it fails.

It still isn't looking at you. It doesn't see that you've started running.

You jump. The mask doesn't have eyes, but you can feel it suddenly notice you again. It holds a hand in front of its face, trying to avoid getting marred like its red counterpart.

But that's not where you're aiming.

The blade falls, and bites deep into the thing's shoulder. The arm holding the fire wand goes slack, twitching uselessly. The functioning limb slams its heavy knuckle into your shoulder, sending you flying back the way you came.

You hit the ground, bounce, and somehow manage to roll to your feet. Ten points! Go you! Everything hurts.

But did that actually achieve anything…?

"KREEEEAAAAAAAEAAAHAAAAA!"

The creature wails… or laughs… and waves its injured arm around in a show of pain. Then, with the wand of frost held in its pinkie, it

"W-What…?"​

rips its injured arm off its shoulder.​

You watch, stunned, as it crams the limb down the mouth hole of the weeping mask, making an awful gagging, sputtering noise. It eats its own arm whole, even the wand. The stump continues to bleed, though not as much as it probably should be.

"W-Why did you…?"

The answer comes quick, and you wish it hadn't. Its remaining arm bulges, blue skin fractured with red veins, and extends with a grotesque crack-crack-crack. An awful groan heralds two new joints added to what is more like a tail at this point. The wand in its hand changes too, swelling to the size of a club.

With a jerky sweep, the weeping mask let's loose a new flock of icy birds.

They climb up for air, and then, dive. Cold burns your skin as you throw yourself aside. Tiny fragments of ice scattershot against you, drawing a thatch-work of shallow cuts across your arms and legs.

You don't realize quite fast enough that it's done this to force you back so it can advance on them. It had pegged you as the weak link immediately, why did it suddenly change its mind?!

Two underhand swings from the red mask come out in an instant, aimed at Miake and Raye. They both block successfully, but the force launches them up, away from Lena. They go over the side of the mountain, down past where you can't see.

You can see a trail of glimmering green sparks from Miake's legs, to no effect; whatever he was trying to do, he didn't do it fast enough.

Lena dives forward before the red mask can refocus on her, rolling under the mass of wings and coming to a stumbling stand directly in front of the weeping mask. The entire creature tips to the side and spins like a wagon wheel, bringing around both weapons in an overhead slam towards the hapless mage.

You dart forward and grab Lena's arm, hauling her out of arm's way. The whirling slash of the red mask's weapons freeze at the apex of their backswing, and then reverse to take a second flurry at you. You finish shoving Lena behind you fast enough to get both hands on your weapon when you block, but all that does is let the force of the blow smash you into Lena and knock you both away in a heap.

"Oof!" The air is knocked out of you as you land. "Move!" shouts Lena, before planting a boot against your back. The two of you go rolling away from each other as the sword splits the earth where you'd been.

Where are Miake and Raye? How far did they get flung? However far is how long you'll have to hold out. You can't afford to spend time looking. (there's never enough time)

You spring to your feet, already bringing up your weapon in preparation for the incoming attack. But it isn't aimed at you.

The shadow of the blade hangs over Lena. She will die if it falls on her.

It won't though.

Because to everyone's surprise, especially your own, you've dashed across the arena to shove her out of the way, stealing her predicament for yourself.

How odd. She isn't you're friend, was your enemy, is only temporarily your ally, and was perhaps your healer for all of a few minutes (sophistry). But you've decided she can't die before you do. Which is about to happen.

You should at least try not to die though, so you bring up your scabbard to block a sword already falling too fast to avoid.

But when the sword hits, it stops dead. You stop it dead. The weight of the blade is as light as a feather.

Huh?

And why are you… glowing? "What…?"

A shout from behind you, Lena's voice, oddly triumphant. "I've got you covered! Keep going!"

"KRAAAAAAAAAEAAAAEAAH!" The creature struggles to swing its spear into you, but can't pull it free from where it's chained to a floating golden-green glyph, different from the previous one. When had she set that up?!

"R-right!" Your voice wobbles with a buoying emotion you're scared to name. The creature whips back its sword to make another swing, but this one you meet with confidence. Lena has your back. You can do this.

A burst of golden-green flashes as your pommel slams into aberrant steel, knock it aside. Three steps forward, and draw.

The glowing blade cleaves through two of its fluttering wings and up across its chest, a cascade of arboreal explosions lighting up the path you traced. Its pained screams are deafening, but give you a grim satisfaction despite your bleeding eardrums.

"Look out!" You trust the warning and move.

The spear pulls free of the buckling chains a shower of dissolving magic, and slams into the ground where you stood. You're expecting the sword to come next, but it's chained at the apex of its swing, exactly where you had deflected it. It clicks. As long as you can deliver her magic to its target, she can keep it off balance.

(The two of you can win this!)

As if in defiance of your newfound hope, the single, multi-jointed arm of the weeping mask flops over the shoulder of its brother, and makes a lazy twirl of the wand. It had only summoned a few at a time before, but not anymore. Bolstered by its act of self-cannibalization, it conducts into being a cyclonic flock of gulls. It is more than a little worrisome. Can you even dodge that, much less block it? You call, suddenly uncertain. "Uh, Lena…?"

A root network of magic sprouts from the ground around your feet, winding its way up to the tip of your blade. Flowers of viridian brass blossom, coating you like an abandoned forest manor.

"Just swing! I'll handle it!" (it's no lie)

Right. Lena hasn't let you down yet. You trust she won't now, despite yourself. You raise the blade high above your head, and bring it down with an executioner's finality.

A hurricane of petals screams free from your blade, meeting the winter flock head on.

You backpedal to stand next to Lena as shards of ice and ghostly plant matter scythe across the battlefield.

"Woohoo! Good work." You startle a little to feel the pat on your shoulder, cycling through a number of emotions that you're sure were rarities even back when you had your memories. You manage to acknowledge it with a shaky mumble, "T-thanks…"

Lena's smug delight is burning against your back, hotter than the Sun. It doesn't stop when your legs give out a moment later, collapsing to your knees. She doesn't seem surprised–she had mentioned something about how you shouldn't be fighting, hadn't she? On the cusp of victory, you're willing to admit she was probably right. There's a yawning emptiness in you. It's disconcerting, but… even that can't blunt the feeling of victory. That last hit had to kill the thing, right?

"… oh." Her voice is flat. Please no. No no no–

You look up.

High the sky, an azure eagle spreads its wings. You can't make it out well at this distance, but it feels more complete that the others. No mere passing phantasm, this is a weapon, fully-forged. Waves of power that escape the bounds of its frame wash across the battlefield down below. The temperature is dropping.

When had the creature made that? Maybe during the cover of all the explosions. Or perhaps on the spot, with the force of desperation. You hadn't been looking, too focused on your own exhaustion.

It doesn't really matter. It's here now.

Both masks radiate a deadly seriousness that's off-putting to see on a creature of chaotic whimsy. It isn't attacking either, the Laughing Mask braced to defend its fellow's casting. With the last hit you and Lena got on it still burning into its flesh, that may be all it can do.

That may be all it needs to do. "Uh, Lena? Plan?"

You don't know at what point you decided to let Lena do all the tactical thinking, but it was probably when she stopped you from getting squished. That had been nice of her. You try to keep a small flame of hope alive that she can repeat that miracle.

"Um…" She does not sound confident. "...I don't think I have enough left in the tank to blast that before it hits us."

The chill that runs down you spine is not because of the cold. Lena is still staring up at the bird. Despite it being daytime, it has plunged the battlefield into a gloomy twilight. You're waiting for her to come up with a plan. Or for Miake and Raye to get back but it practically knocked them off the mountain so you don't fancy their chances. You've been trying not to think about it, but there's a chance that they simply fell to their deaths, and you and Lena have been stalling for reinforcements that don't exist.

"Yeah, maybe!" Lena belatedly replies. Both of you laugh nervously, failing to keep your minds off your imminent deaths. She looks over at you. "Hey, um… Your name. Do you want to know what it was?"

You blink. "What? My name? Now?" You're not even upset, just baffled by the timing. Lena shakes her head. "It's important to have a name before you die."

Twilight has plunged into darkness. A bank of snowstorm clouds have gathered. Distantly, you wonder if they can see it from the village you were trying to get to. It will end, soon.

You give Lena a nod. She looks relieved. Had this been wearing on her?

"You name is–"
It is a sound like precision. Like Winter. Like the edge of a blade.
"
Something shifts in your mind. It clicks into place. A tremor runs through your fingertips, pressed hard against your scabbard.

"… Give my sword whatever you have left. I think I can do it."

You hope. You pray. Something in your heart struggles to emerge. The static noise shrieks in your thoughts. You blindly claw for a revelation that slips through your hands. (you're cut off from yourself at both ends. but it's still there.)

Lena doesn't even hesitate. "Can do." The last spell she weaves leaves her breathless, but she sounds… like she believes you (you will owe her for this). She sits down on the ground behind you. You can hear her prop her chin in her hand to watch. Either you pull this off or the two of you die. Both of you know that. She did her part.

Now you have to do yours.

Your mind is murky darkness, but that's as it should be. It gives the light meaning. Clarity and obscurity. The true damage is the absence of either, but you're not as broken as you thought. There's still enough of you for this. Just barely enough.

The eagle dives.

Your left hand curls around the hilt of your sword. Your right hand grips the scabbard as your only lifeline. You see the world as two halves, and speak:

"Draw: Half Moon."( Delirious Innocence)

The world turns dark–

The world under your feet, and all the people in it are shadows. Lies. Anything of substance has the potential to lie. To lie is to have substance. To have substance is to lie. So you cannot trust the world. The open sky is light. A hanging void, a wound that encompasses. It lacks substance, and so it cannot lie. It cannot lie, so it cannot be alive. The sky will never help you. Between the world that obscures and the sky the exposes, is The Enemy. You must kill it. Because you are standing on the world, you may tell it a lie about where you are really standing. Because it is flying in the sky, it must tell you the truth. Because it must tell the truth, it cannot deny the way you have hurt it. Because you can lie, you can never be hurt. Thus, your killing field is the boundary between the world and the sky. Now you must find a tool, for you cannot expose your hand to the sky lest you be revealed. In your hands is a thing that is neither sky nor world. In your hands is Your Sword. With this, you will kill.
–and the sky turns bright.

The two halves of the winter bird hit the ground. A moment later, so do you.
 
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3 ~ Are We There Yet?

3 ~ Are We There Yet?

You feel…

"S—! S—!"

...hollow. Like something went wrong. Like you did something wrong….

"S—….? You're awake…!"

You don't know if that's true. You don't feel awake. You feel like you're dreaming, or drowning.

"S▇▇▇▇!" It's curious… you can't understand it, but you feel it in your bones. Your name...

"… you IDIOT! What were you thinking?! Y… … . .!" An underwater dream, surfacing in and out. You can't hear what Lena is saying but you can tell she's mad at you. It's hard to focus. "Exter …. … … igh gradient …. ?! Ridicu…. …" You don't know what she's saying and it's hard to care. Are you dying? You must be dying. "Stupid .. . .. self-taught geniuses … .. idiots!" She sounds mad… At you? For you?

Does it matter?

"Dammit … … don't give up! You … … live!"

You're choking.

"Lena?!" "RAYE! Help me … … like that, hold it there … "

You're crumbling.

"What can … … ?" "Miake … … and go get …. ..."

You're boiling.

"… carry her …. … the camp … … "

Something is very, very wrong.



Something is jostling you.

You face is laid out against something hard and metal. A wooden thing is jabbing you in the side.

Ah.

You're being carried by Miake, and you've been slung across his back next to his axe. Well at least the blade is facing the other way. You attempt to eloquently voice your displeasure, but unfortunately what comes out is

"Mmrhf."

"Oh hey, you're awake." There's a painful jerk where he has to make sure you don't slide off his back. Ow. Why do they have the guy who keeps pretending he's not going to trip and fall carry you?

You attempt to provide your input on the situation.

"Hmrfm!"

Dammit.

Your mouth feels like it's full of cotton, and even opening your jaw is difficult.

"Yeah, Lena said you'd be in rough spot after that. Said a bunch of stuff about you almost boiling yourself inside out. Nasty stuff. The hell did you even do?"

You'd really like to know yourself. When did they get back? How long have you been out?

"Fhrmf?"

This is getting old, fast. You can feel Miake nodding, hear the buzz of his voice from where your head has lolled. His breathing is fluttery, like he's suppressing a coughing fit.

"Yeah, I—woah woah woah-!"

"Hmrfm!"

Miake stumbles as his leg gives out underneath him. You start to slide off him, making panicked unintelligible noises as your arms lack the strength to tighten around his neck. Because of you, he's also rather top-heavy, and the two of you wobble dangerously on the narrow mountain path before he gets his leg back under him. Jostling you back up to a secure position smacks your head against the metal studded pauldron again, and the axe haft jabs against your side again, and it hurts. Again.

This seems like a stupid idea. You "hmrfm" sullenly, voicing your displeasure. Miake just sighs, not moving while he makes sure he won't trip the moment he takes another step. "Before you ask–"

"Fhrmf?"

"–oh yeah, right. Anyways, before you ask, Raye's out scouting to make sure we're not gonna get jumped again, and Lena is trying to prep some medicine for, uh, all of us basically. Raye wants to get further down the mountain still, so Lena is probably gonna brain her with a rock, but other than that we're all fine–"

At that exact moment he stumbles again and the two of you almost faceplant onto the stone steps. You're going to have a bruise on your face from just the trip alone. How much longer are your limbs going to refuse to work?

"Mmrhf."

"...completely fine. You can't move because you fucked up your mana or something. Lena said it hadn't been long enough since the last potion to take another and she wasn't sure it would help anyways, so uh, sorry about that too."

You hadn't realized how far up the mountain the demon—you're going to assume that was a demon because you remember what's normal for birds and people and it wasn't either of those—demon had chased you. If you made another turn back up you'd be where you started, at the monastery. You're a little curious why Miake only just now is making his way down with you if both Lena and Raye were up here long enough to make sure you didn't die and had time to run off and do other things.

"Gfhmf?"

Unfortunately you still can't ask that, so you'll be left in mystery.

"Yeah, sorry I got no clue what you're trying to say." You'd be angrier about that in other circumstances, but you sort of appreciate that he isn't trying to put words in your mouth. It isn't like he knows you well enough to actually guess what you'd be asking right now.

The rest of the walk back down the mountain is spent in uncomfortable silence, broken up by moments where Miake's footing fails and the two of you nearly go tumbling into the void or down a series of long, stoney steps.

Those steps are now marred by the demon that had attacked them, filled with craters and damage regardless of if they were old or freshly replaced. It isn't making the trip any easier.

You're not slung at an angle where you can see the Sun, even if your eyes are the only part of your body you can move right now, but you can tell it's getting darker. Miake's making quicker progress than you were as a group somehow; is that because he isn't pacing himself, or because you're not getting distracted looking at the shines? It could be both, but it's probably the former. Lena is going to kill him.

Although… It's this dark already, and Raye wants to keep going? Absurd. Lena will definitely kill her first, giving Miake a head start. Maybe that's why he feels like he can court permanent injury like this. You're not really sure why you're worrying over this so much, aside from the fact that you're stuck with these fools until you get down to the village, and well…

...you need them. You're not stupid enough to think you could have beat that thing on your own, at least not in your current condition. Whether you like it or not, you don't have any choices in this situation. You can fall in line or you can die (a familiar refrain).

Bit by bit, step by step, the distant muddled sounds of voices resolves itself into Lena swearing a bluestreak as Miake stumbles into the clearing where you were first attacked.

She's kneeling in the middle of a glowing circle of light, phantasmal brass flowers pushing up through the dirt and rock to bloom.

(this kind of ritual would work better if she was using stabilizing seals, but it's difficult to seamlessly blend staff and seal mana channeling without something exploding)

Does that mean you know what she's doing?

(some kind of magic. probably.)

It's probably fortunate for your dignity that you can't yell at yourself right now. It also wouldn't help anything and might make things worse, but that's not a reason to not do something.

"Miake! Bring her over here!" Lena shouts from where she kneels. Can she not move from that spot? Intuitively, that would make sense, but you're not sure why. You're a little too distracted to examine that, because from your precarious slump you can feel the exact moment Miake's leg gives out again.

"Woah woah woah-!" "Hmrfm!" "MIAKE!"

The two of you hit the ground in a tangle of groans and pain, landing just out of arm's reach of Lena. Ow. Miake just lays there for a second, long enough that you get worried, before picking himself and disentangling himself from you. His mouth is a thin line, and as he picks you up to carry to Lena, you can see she is simmering with rage.

There is a world of hurt and warning in the way she says his name. "Miake. You…" But before she can continue, he waves her off.

"I'm not going anywhere, Lena, I promise. I'll sit tight and wait for Raye. But let's get miss Demon Lord here back on her feet first, I can't imagine she's enjoying being stuck like this."

A sigh, a hint of an old argument you weren't a part of (you feel like an intruder).

You recognize the deflection for what it is, and you think Lena probably does too. But it works, and you do appreciate him moving things along. Lena frowns, looking you over, noticing properly that you haven't been moving. "'Like this'? I thought we had stabilized her enough that she wasn't about to up and die on us–" Were you that bad off?! "–but if anything happened in the intervening..."

Miake just shrugs. "Yeah is seems like she can't really move. Or talk." You're glad you have him here, to eloquently sum up the situation.

"Oh, her body doesn't work right after she scrambled her conduits and almost boiled herself alive? Big shocker there." You feel that Lena is being maybe a little meaner than is justified here. You're still glad she's going to to fix whatever's wrong with you though. It would be nice to have arms and legs again.

Though… does that technique normally mess you up like this, or did you just screw up? (you screwed up) Oh, good to know.

Lena rolls up her sleeve. Her arm glows with coiling vines of verdant brass, gliding thorns across her skin, meeting in the palm of her hand to bloom into a glimmering flower.

"This is going to hurt."

"Gfhmf?"

The palm of her hand strikes you in the chest–





"—▇▇? "S▇▇▇▇? Oh, she's awake again." Your eyes blink open to blurry shapes leaning over you. A blob of reds, golds, whites, and greys… You blink a few times, and Miake and Lena snap into clarity.

"Ow…" You realize you can move your limbs again! Success! This comes at a cost, however–you can now feel how much pain you're in. "Lena, what did you do…?"

She's shaking her wrist out like a cat cleaning her claws, motes of golden dust flecking off her skin. You wished she looked slightly less smug, but you're not winning that battle and you know it. "I mostly unscrambled you conduits by flooding them with high pressure mana. You still need to sleep off what I couldn't fix, but as you can see, your nerves work again. Of course, it's all foreign mana, so…"

You stomach suddenly turns, violently, and you duck your head behind a rock to retch.

"… that might happen, sorry. You should be fine in a little bit though!"

While you recover from Lena's brutal mercies, the two of them get to talking.

"Where's Raye anyways? Scouting doesn't usually take this long…" He doesn't sound worried, and indeed, Lena just rolls her eyes. Apparently this is normal?

"She got done, came back, got bored, and went back out again while you were making your way here. I should have told her to go help you instead…"

She's eyeing his leg again, but hasn't moved to do anything about it. She sounds a little out of breath too. Whatever she did for (to) you must have really took a lot out of her… not that she had much left to begin with after that fight, you're sure.

"Miake-"

"I'm back."

Right about that time, Raye hops down off the overhang and lands gracefully in the middle of all of you. "Wanted to make sure there weren't any landslides waiting to happen after that thing attacked everywhere. We should be in the clear."

She looks around, her eyes settling on you for a moment, before flicking back to Lena. "She can move again? Good, we lost a lot of time fighting that demon. But we can still make The Stairs before nightfall if we set out now…"

A collective groan goes up from the three of you at those words. You and Miake both side-eye each other, the trek down the mountain playing through your heads.

Sure you can walk again, but you're going to have to lean on him to not faceplant. You're pretty sure you were both closer to death whenever Miake tripped than when you were fighting the demon. Neither of you are looking forward to more of that.

But before either of you can step into the ring with Raye, Lena does it for you.

"Raye." Lena calls.

"What?" Raye answers, looking back.

A staring contest commences between the two of them. The air practically simmers with the heat from the clash of wills, before Raye sighs and looks away.

"Okay fine, we can stop for today."

You and Miake both cheer weakly.

Raye pinches the bridge of her nose, in a gesture of such open annoyance that it actually startles you. You'd be worried about being in the blast radius of a shouting match if she hadn't already conceded to Lena. But it doesn't come, and instead she just addresses the two of them.

"I checked around for anymore stragglers from her-" she jabs a thumb in your direction "-army, and there aren't any that I can see. Hopefully The Stairs will be fine too. I'm still worried about bringing the Demon Lord of Moonlight into the village though."

They're still…

Miake makes an exasperated shrug. "You said yourself that no one's seen the Demon Lord without the armor, so as long as she doesn't talk no one's gonna know. And besides, I doubt people remember her voice well enough either. There aren't exactly a lot of speeches given, she basically just started attacking one day as far as anyone could tell us. The Demon Lord–"

...calling you that..!

"Stop calling me 'Demon Lord', I'm serious!" You shout, pulling yourself up off the ground. You have to grab the rock when you start to sway, but you manage to keep your glare on the offenders. Miake freezes in that dumb deer-caught-in-the-torchlight pose again, and Raye just looks at you dubiously.

"I would have thought you'd hold onto it as a point of pride." You almost think she's being sincere, but there's no way that could be the case.

"Don't be ridiculous. Do you see an army of demons under my command? No! One of them almost killed me! Calling me Demon Lord is just…" There's a pain in your throat that you don't like one bit. "… setting expectations I'll never live up to." Your eyes are damp for some reason, and you scrub the wetness away with your sleeve.

Raye stares for a few seconds, then nods. "Right. We'll stop." She says it with absolute finality. Miake raises an eyebrow at her, but doesn't argue. You don't know why she'd take your side but.. you don't have it in you to look a gift horse in the mouth when it comes to this.

Lena chimes in, pointedly. "Her name is S▇▇▇▇, remember?"

You doubt any of them didn't know that, but Miake nods, looking abashed. "Right, uh, sorry S▇▇▇▇."

The name still doesn't click in your head, as if half-chewed on. You know how it felt to be called that. You know what your name meant to you. You even know the sound it starts with. But you can't force the actual characters into clarity. It's annoying. Like you got to the very finish line of a race and then fell over at the last second. You're left wondering what it will take for you to crawl that last meager distance across it.

You'd swear you're getting closer.

"S▇▇▇▇? Is something wrong?" Lena asks, when you don't reply.

She gives you a look, assessing whether you're trying to hide a medical condition or not. You don't really want to talk about the fact that you can't understand your own name when she says it. Not right now. That can be a tomorrow problem.

"Oh, no, I'm fine. Thanks, Lena." She continues to assess you for another second, and nods. You're in the clear. Phew.

"Alright, just let me know if that changes. Your condition is still a little delicate, so I want to keep an eye on it. And speaking of," she says, whirling to point at Miake and Raye, "you two aren't out of the woods either! You feel off a cliff, quit walking around like you're fine! Especially you Miake, you said you'd stay off your leg, so why are you pacing in a circle?!"

Miake winces with a guilty look, but Raye just folds her arms and stares the healer down (braver than you would be). "What about you, Lena? Aren't you near mana exhaustion as well? You have to take care of yourself too."

Lena rolls her eyes in annoyed disgust that is, quite frankly, very hypocritical of her. "Yeah yeah, whatever. One second."

She reaches into her robes and pulls out another one of those foul mana potions she made you drink. She pops the bottle cap on the mana potion with her thumb, and you leap to catch it before hits the ground. It makes you wince to think there might be a trail of broken bottles littering the path up to the monastery.

You're surprised to note that despite your previous experience, the potion is odorless at this distance. But wait, she's not seriously going to–?!

Lena swirls the bottle twice and downs the entire thing in one gulp.

You, Miake, and Raye all flinch, then freeze from the glare she levels at you. "Wanna say something? No? Get to it then. Miake go lay out over there, S▇▇▇▇ go sit over there. Raye, try not to do anything that will make your arm worse, because you're next once I deal with these clowns."

With some embarrassed shuffling, you all do as you're told, and Lena rushes off to fuss over Miake's leg.

That leaves you, sitting up against a rock, and Raye, leaning against the mountainside next to you. Both of you let the silence sit, broken only by Miake's half-hearted protests and Lena's elaborately gruesome threats and warnings.

Raye is the first to break it. "Thanks for protecting Lena."

You rack your brain trying to figure out where this conversation is going to be going, but it's Raye so you've got nothing. It's grating, but you'll live with it. Anyways, you definitely would have died if not for Lena—during the fight, but also giving you that potion before it, you're not stupid—so you can't really preen and brag about this.

You wave a hand dismissively, the other holding your knees to your chest. "It was mutual if anything."

"I know. Still." What do you even say to that? Not a clue.

She gives you a look you can't decipher. "So."

"So?"

You try to keep your irritation out of your voice, and mostly succeed. Raye just shrugs.

"What's your plan now?"

A loaded question asked with a level voice and a neutral expression. Raye is… frustrating. You can't anticipate how your words will be taken (can't tell when someone will blow up at you) when there's nothing to work with.

Maybe that frustration is why the next thing you say is so stupid.

"Oh is that suddenly my choice again?"

Your words come out as a snarl that wishes it was a sneer. You regret it the moment it leaves your mouth. It would be nice if you could decide if you actually want to say things before spewing them out, but oh well. Raye simply nods, which just makes you feel worse.

"I heard what you shouted at Miake. I've been thinking about it. If you really don't remember anything, we don't have any right to keep you prisoner. And we can't afford to drag someone unwilling around. Lena won't let you out of her sight until we get to the village, but if you want to part ways once we get there…."

She trails off at the incredulous look you're giving her, raising an eyebrow.

"…Why are you asking me this all of the sudden?" you ask. It didn't make any sense. What's her game? Although...

She frowns. Her expression, insofar as she has one, speaks of confusion. You think. Probably. "Should I not? You seem like you've been upset."

Is… Is this…

...Is this what Raye being considerate looks like?

(she's just trying to trick you) –!

This time you're ready for it, and manage to clamp down on the reflexive 'of course I've been upset haven't you noticed' or whatever venom would have dripped from your fangs.

Raye is trying to be polite, you're pretty sure, in her own Raye way. So you are also going to be polite, as best able (suit yourself).

"That's not…. It's complicated. I don't know what I'm going to do. Or what to do in this... It's not… I'm not going to apologize for getting mad, but I don't hate any of you." You manage to struggle through the halting explanation, and pray you didn't sound completely unreasonable. You're not very good at this.

"….Oh. I see."

Raye doesn't seem to think that needs any follow-up, and it takes you a few seconds to realize she's not planning on saying anything else.

"What? What does that mean?" you ask.

You're not sad about anything, so why do you feel like crying right now? Just from being exhausted and confused, maybe. You know she isn't trying to lead you in circles, but that doesn't make it much less annoying.

"I wasn't sure if you did hate us or not. We weren't any more prepared for what's happened then you are. I made you come along because I wasn't sure what do yet, and didn't want to risk you disappearing before then. Our job is far from done and we have almost no clues about why any of this happened. To get this far and still come away with nothing was…"

This time you know what that strange look on her face is, and it takes the wind out of your sails completely. It's the same clawing confusion you've been feeling this whole time. Your voice softens, and you finish what she's started.

"You got desperate."

"… yeah."

She clutches one arm with the other, eyes unfocused. If you had to guess, she's replaying some mistake she'd made, wondering how she could have done better. You get the impression she's that kind of person. You don't… think it would be good if she kept dwelling on that, so you try to get her attention again.

"Is that why you left Miake alone to get shouted at?" She snorts, and you see a faint grin pull at the corner of her mouth. Success! She tosses you a look as incredulous as your own, and her voice seems a little lighter when she speaks.

"You're asking me that? I figured he'd be fine. He's more of a people person than I am. Even if he put his foot in his mouth I was pretty sure he could pry it back out again."

That seems kind of mean, but you'd probably do the same thing. "Hm. Well, I guess he did, so I can't criticize."

"…"

"…"

The silence starts to stretch again. Spirits help you, is it possible everyone in this group is as awkward as you are? You don't want to, but one of you has to keep this conversation going, for her sake. And… you feel like you owe them some explanation, at this point. Maybe the nap on Miake's shoulder made you more charitable than usual, but you can admit they've taken a lot of risks accommodating you like this.

It's still hard to say it though. But you have to try.

"...The three of you are the only clues I have, if I want to figure out what happened."

Raye doesn't say anything, and it's a kind of obvious statement to make anyways. But you wouldn't have been able to say this next part without easing into it.

"It's… hard to convince myself I have a choice in the matter. I hate it. Even if it's the obvious best choice, I don't want to feel like it's my only one. So Raye," you say, still failing to meet her eyes directly, "what are you doing?"

She blinks. Did you surprise her?

"Huh? I just said−" You wave a hand, cutting her off.

"I mean after this. We get to The Stairs, recuperate, then what. What were you three planning to do after that? Why are you in such a hurry? What's so important that you'd risk the wrath of Lena?" You giggle a little at your own joke.

"She is scary, yeah." Raye nods.

Was that deflection? Or just her own attempt at humor? Hard to tell with Raye, so you press on regardless. "As I've seen firsthand, yes. So?"

"… first off, we have to finish what we started. Hunting down every single demon isn't realistic, but that was never the plan. Our aim is eliminating the leadership. The Demon Lord of Moonlight, and her generals. We know of four right now. Defeating them means the city garrisons won't have to fight an organized force. Along the way, we're going to be looking for information on why this happened. You- …Uh-" she falters at the end, glancing at you. Is she worried you'll be offended? How considerate.

You wave it off. "It's fine. Keep talking."

"Right. You weren't exactly open about why you were trying to burn down the continent. And we're not exactly locals either. We're hoping that once we know more about troop movements and the like, we'll be able to put together a picture of what you were trying to do, and then… figure things out from there, depending on how the situation has changed."

That's an awful lot of faith in you not being a lunatic who wanted to murder everyone in sight for fun. You aren't, but they don't know that for sure (it's how they're all supposed to see you).

"You seem… sure I had a good reason for whatever it is I did."

She shakes her head. "I think you had a strong reason for it. Meeting you now, you don't seem like someone who would have done all that on a whim. 'Good' isn't something I'd try to sell to the people you hurt."

You can accept that. You'd like to know your own reasons before accepting the judgement of your victims, but if things come to a head before then… Well, you'll accept the consequences of your choices, whether you remember them or not.

"The job we took was to end the current demonic incursion and uncover the cause. I won't consider that mission done until we know the real reason this happened, and have addressed it if we can."

You nod. Your decision is made. "Alright, I'll go with you all."

You feel centered for the first time since you woke up. This is a course of action you can commit to, now that you have a fuller picture. Now that you have a choice in the matter.

Raye, on the other hand, almost falls over. You startle a little, and hear a warning a reproachful yell from Lena before she goes back to her work. When you look back to her, softly glowing golden eyes pin you to the spot. Up close, really looking at them, you realize her pupils are slit, like a cat's. Those aren't human eyes, you think, but you don't have any idea what else they might be. You attempt to ask if she's okay, but the words die in your throat.

"Just like that?" she asks. You're a little taken aback by the intensity of the look she's giving you, and nod hesitantly.

"For now, at least." you amend, knowing it won't be. "I said it was the best option, remember? Just wanted to know who I'd be following first."

The rest of your explanation dies off into a mumble, feeling suddenly very self-conscious. The mysterious leader of the group you're now a part of (so. your leader?) just shakes her head and sighs. "Just get some sleep, S▇▇▇▇. I'll keep an eye on things."

You attempts at protest are interrupted by a yawn you can't stop. You don't like falling in line that easily but it's too hard to keep your eyes open…



Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

The Blue Hall is often dirty.

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

There are dirt and leaves and blood.

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

You are allowed to leave when the Blue Hall is clean.

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

You will never be allowed to leave.

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

There is dirt on their boots worth more than your life.

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

There are leaves from trees you will never see.

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

Your blood is your own responsibility to clean.

Scrub. Scrub. Scrub.

But you did not track in the dirt.

Scrub.

But you did not open the windows on a windy day.

Scrub.

But you did not shed your blood.

Scrub.




From the moment you wake up, you regret sleeping hunched over your knees. Just sitting up and stretching is heralded by a loud percussion of pops and cracks that makes your back ache. Your legs have also fallen asleep, and you have to awkwardly flop on your side to finish unfolding into a position that will let you climb to your feet.

You hear Lena's voice from your behind you. "Sorry about that. It didn't look comfortable but Raye said we shouldn't move you while you were asleep."

You'll have to remember to thank Raye later. In lieu of answering Lena, you finish dragging yourself up the rock, wincing at the pins and needles in your legs. You give the are a quick look around, at least the parts that you can see. Same as it was left. The sun is just barely starting to illuminate the world, a distant torch in the fog coming closer. Early morning then, very early morning. You feel like you've seen this sight before (you've always been woken up at this time). Lena is watching you with a critical eye, maybe making sure you don't trip and fall on your face.

"Anyways, I'm glad you and Raye sorted things out." she mentions, turned away and busying herself with her pack.

It means she doesn't see the luminescent blush making its way across your face as last night's conversation replays in your mind. Why did you say all that?! Why did you say it like that?! Yes most of it was, well, true, and it probably needed to be said, but not like… like… (like you care about them?) Yes! Exactly!

Why did you have to say it like you would answer to her… she's not your leader or something ridiculous like that, you're just… going in the same direction as they are. Traveling with them. You've definitely given the wrong impression at this point, not that you know what the right impression would be. What state of mind were you in, that you felt like saying all of that? You must have still been rattled from whatever Lena did to fix your… whatever Lena said was messed up that she then fixed. That stuff.

You shake your head, trying to get yourself back together. You wish you had your own camp supplies or something to busy yourself with, but all you have is quite literally the clothes on your back and a sword. So instead you just stand their awkwardly, wondering if you should offer to help Lena or not.

You don't, in the end. You probably should have.

Instead, you look around for Raye and Miake. It takes you a bit to spot them—they're on the far side of the clearing, and not moving at all. "Lena, are they…?"

She wouldn't be this calm if they weren't fine, but it's a little weird seeing them both this still.

"Oh, those two. They'll wake up if anything happens, but otherwise they're… not really morning people by nature. Especially Raye."

With how much she reminds you of an alleycat, that's not really surprising. Less so for Miake, but plenty of people have to adapt to waking up regularly at a time they aren't inclined to. So it isn't that strange. Although… "So, are they going to get up anytime soon, or…?" you ask, bemused.

You're not looking her way, but you can feel Lena's eyeroll. "Not of their own volition. Wake them up, would you?"

"Can do."

You quickly look around for a suitable stick. Raye and Miake both seem like the kind of people to take the arm off someone trying to kill them in their sleep, and you're not going to risk your thus far pleasant morning over that.

You end up having to go get a second stick after Raye breaks the first one, but it doesn't take long to get them both awake and moving. The groggy baleful glares from the two of them are kind of cute, but that's not a line of thought you're going to continue.

"Lena said to wake you up. Don't we have a schedule to keep, Raye?" you say.

"Yeah," she replies, climbing to her legs and stretching, "we do. Miake, here." She offers him a hand and pulls him to his feet.

A shame, you were enjoying not having to look up to meet people's eyes for once. Your stomach would really like it if you could get a move on, however, the ever present gnawing hunger still at the forefront of your mind. Lena walks over, having finished packing everything up, and gives Raye a nod.

"Right. Let's go, everyone."

The rest of the way down the mountain is a lot easier this time. You're all still bruised and battered, but you've at least had an actual rest, and Lena has patched up most of the more serious injuries. You wish Lena had let you stop and look at more of the shrines, but unfortunately she's stronger than you and has a lower center of gravity, so you lost those arguments.

The winding mountain path crosses under several archways of rock, some of which have outright collapsed. They look like something large crashed through them, so you suspect the demon from before. At least you've already avenged them, but it still makes you wince to see (they were mostly natural formations. they can't be "'fixed'").

But after a few more twists and turns, you can finally see The Stairs.

A sturdy fence encircles it as far as you can see, with the only entrance through being a large gate similar to the one at (your) Monastery. This one seems more made in its image than an actual temple gate, but you feel warm approval towards it nonetheless.

Both the fence and the gate are covered in blurry pink splotches. When you get closer, you can see that they're white paper seals, all with familiar red symbols scrawled on them. Whoever painted them had terrible brushstrokes ()

Hm. For some reason, that observation makes you feel vaguely disgruntled. Odd.

Everything beyond the fence is too blurry to really make out, but it's still soothing to look at. A pastel of deep blues, greens, and the earth tones you'd associate with a smaller settlement. There's several farms somewhere on the outskirts, you're pretty sure, if for no other reason than a bone deep feeling that there out to be. You'll be excited to look around the place once you've gotten some food; this definitely isn't the first time you've been here, it feels too familiar for that, but it will be the first time you remember being here. That is its own novelty.

The rest of the group doesn't seem to find anything noteworthy about the village, so you keep trailing at the back of the procession. Lena does keep looking back, which is unfair, you only got sidetracked a couple of times. In seconds, you're walking through the gate…

Huh?

You feel a buzzing at the edge of your awareness as you step across the threshold of the village, and stop in your tracks. "What… was that?"

"The wards, apparently. It's how the Stairs have avoided a stray demon crashing through the town. A passing shrinekeeper set them up for everyone. We haven't seen them ourselves, but you can feel how strong they are. It's part of why I wanted us to get here as soon as possible–"

"Raye."

"–sorry Lena."

So those were wards? Interesting.

Trying to think about them too much gives you the mental sensation of smacking your elbow on a table corner, and a vague impression that you've gotten extremely lost in the woods.

You're not sure how either of these relate to the situation at hand, so you still don't know why Raye is placing so much faith in wards that are nearly degraded. All bark and no bite.

It's odd that you know that. You're not sure why you know that. Maybe as a demon lord you had a vested interest in assessing anti-demonic wards? That would make the most sense. Anyways maybe you should tell someo–

"S▇▇▇▇!"

"Huh what where!?"

You jump as Lena practically appears in front of you, scattering whatever you were thinking about. She's giving you a worried look for some reason. "What's wrong?"

"I was going to ask you that, you started lagging behind and practically stopped walking. Are you okay?"

Had you gotten that lost in your own head? That's a little embarrassing (get used to it)… "Right… I'm fine, sorry–" why are you apologizing? "–I was just thinking about something…"

Lena tilts her head to the side, looking curious. "Oh? About what?"

"About–" Um. That's… an excellent question (you've forgotten. in a normal way this time) "–something, it wasn't important I think. Let's catch back up."

You walk ahead of Lena to catch back up with the group, trying to ignore a growing feeling of… something. Unease mixed with excitement. It feels like something is about to happen, and whether it's good or bad, it will be a lot. And there's still whatever you were thinking of, you said it wasn't important, but what if it was-

You almost bump into Raye, before Miake stops you. You got lost in your thoughts again. Embarrassing. He gives you a worried frown. "You good?"

You nod, jerkily, biting your tongue to keep from snapping at him out of frustration. It's a lot easier than it was before. Hunger is still gnawing at you, but sleep did a lot for your self-control. "M'fine." you mumble.

"Alright, S▇▇▇▇." You appreciate that he leaves it at that.

It feels like your attention is being dragged in every direction at once. Phantom impulses to look this way (that fence still needs to be fixed) and that (when did they get a new door), flashes of familiarity and strangeness back to back to back.

It means you don't notice when the four of you turn a street corner and end up face to face with a small gathering of people.

"Oh hey they're back! But who's that with them?"

It means you don't notice them pointing at you excitedly, at the rising din of whispers. But what you do notice is–

"Is that… S▇▇▇▇! Everyone, it's S▇▇▇▇!"

"Wait what? S▇▇▇a's back?"

"Grandma, grandma, it's the person you mentioned. Sa▇▇a's back!"

"Oh thank goodness Sa▇▇a's alive… No one had seen her since the war started! I had feared the worst..."

"Sa▇▇a! Where have you been?"

"Sa▇ta, Sa▇ta, I have a present for you! I made it like you taught me!"

"Sa▇ta, that guy came by like you said he would, but we didn't tell him anything!"

"Sa▇ta!"

"Saeta!"

"Oh, why is she crying? Saeta, are you alright?"



This took so much longer than I wanted it to. I had to delay reading the new Ballad For Icarus to finish this. huge thank you to the people who helped proof read this. Personally I have a hard time telling when my writing is good or not, especially if I've been agonizing over it for too long. Getting someone outside my head to check for me has been such an important part of writing this.
 
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