Fallout: Lone Star State
V. Jance
Cold air filled my lungs and my eyes snapped open to bright light and the smell of alcohol filled my nose. Before that there'd been nothing at all. I had a vague awareness that there
had been something before that, but what it was eluded me.
I was naked but I wasn't cold. The room was warm under huge spot lights I couldn't see past. I was standing but I didn't remember getting there. I looked down to see olive skin over thin arms, flat belly and flat chest. Thighs a little flabby, but not too--
"
Subject is revived successfully. Proceed with phase one testing."
The voice was masked, robotic sounding. It came from above me and sounded very clinical; devoid of emotion or feeling of any kind.
I turned around, looking for a door or a window or even a
wall. The flood lights were washing everything out and my eyes hadn't quite adjusted.
There was a loud 'twack' noise and a blast of wind blew my hair back, the room got cold. I blinked and stared ahead for a moment before anything else really registered to me. I tried to move but my body wouldn't answer me, and then I started to fall forwards.
My vision rolled around and I saw my own headless body falling towards me before my head hit the ground with a sickening crunch of my teeth smashing together and then--
I took a sharp intake of breathe and fell forward onto my hands and knees. The floor was hard and the lights were bright and everything smelled like alcohol and... and my head was still attached? I reached up to feel my neck and there wasn't even a mark. What in the hell?
"Hello? What's going on?"
"
Do you remember anything before this moment?" the same voice as before asked me, and I still couldn't figure out where it was coming from, other than from above.
"I think so? Something about a phase one test?" I asked up to the voice. I was still naked, still a little too flabby on the thighs. Still olive.
There was something itching at the corner of my mind but I couldn't quite grab onto it. I knew English, I knew I was speaking it. I knew things, but no real memor--
"
Proceed with testing."
"What does that mean?" I asked towards the ceiling.
I heard a metallic clacking noise and a loud bang, then a flash of pain--
I opened my eyes to a brightly lit room that smelled like alcohol. I spun around in circles, it was the
same room. "What's going on!?" I finally yelled as I lowered myself into a defensive position.
"
Proceed with testing."
I laid flat on my stomach and tried to avoid whatever might come for me next. I felt like I was starting to figure it out--
A pain blossomed through my belly and I was in the air, the room was full of fire and--
My eyes snapped open and I started to shake.
"
Proceed with testing."
Again, and again, and again.
It felt like days or years or months, I lost track of how many times that damn voice said 'Proceed with testing' and they found some new and creative way of killing me. Laser beams, fame throwers, electrocution, injections.
They used a saw one time, bled me to death another. Another time it was vivisection and another time I was dropped into a grinder.
The longest I'd spent alive was the nine months it took to die after being exposed to organic mercury, and that was the first time they'd given me clothes or food. A one-piece suit made out of some kind of synthetic fiber, blue with gold trim and a big '49' on the back of it.
I would have enjoyed at least that much, if I hadn't spend the next nine months going insane and dying. I didn't know how much actual time had passed, but for me it had only been, at most, two days. Well, two days plus the nine months of dying.
I didn't know how long I stayed dead each time, just that the moment of death lead directly into waking up, seamlessly. The smell of alcohol on the air and every injury I'd taken previously was gone, only memories remained.
Waking up after organic mercury poisoning was the most jarring. I took in the sights and smells and the sensation that my brain worked correctly for the first time in what felt like forever, but again I remembered. Maybe that was what they were trying to figure out?
Maybe they were trying to figure out if they could kill me in a way that would break continuity of consciousness. I'd never actually even seen them, they'd never actually interacted with me directly, just through remotely opened doors and food delivered through slots in the walls.
Maybe they were too cowardly to look me in the eye.
It was different this time, more than just not being brain damaged anymore. The lights were a little dimmer, the room a little dirtier. The voices never came and the door--
The door was open.
Naked or not, I needed to check this out. I stalked my way around the edge of the room that, now that I was alive for long enough to really appreciate it, was shaped a lot like a cinnamon roll, with rounded areas where the walls met the floor and ceiling. That probably made cleaning up my remains easier.
I was sure that there was a time in my life that thought would have been repulsive, but I couldn't remember anything before my first death.
Once through the doorway the corridor outside was more conventional; metal grating on the floor and pipes in the ceiling with more or less squared off walls. The floor was rusty and the pipes were corroded, but the lights were on, and I kept going the only direction I could, forward.
As I pushed further into... wherever it is that I was, it looked like there'd been some kind of fight. There was blood on the floor, the walls. No bodies, never bodies, but lots of dried blood. I caught sight of a knife with blood stains on the blade and I decided to pick it up; just in case.
I was sure I was a sight to behold if anyone was watching. Naked as the day I was born carrying a bloody knife through a poorly lit hallway. Some kind of escaped mental patient or a crazy slasher, that's what they'd think.
Above and ahead there was a sign set into the ceiling indicating that I was entering the residential area. To the right of the sign was a hydraulic door labeled 'storage' and so I pushed the button to the right of it and it retracted into the ceiling and floor.
Chittering sounds were my first clue that something was going to go very very badly very quickly. I raised the knife on instinct. A cockroach the size of a golden retriever lunged out at me and I slashed at it to limited effect.
I was thrown back against the wall as it pushed against me and I managed to jam the knife into its torso, or whatever the middle part of the body was on a giant roach. The attack made it scream and twist and the knife came out of my hand.
I threw a right handed punch and cut my hand open on the hard shell of the bug. The blow I took in return came from one of the legs and went right through my midsection and pinned me to the wall. I spit blood out onto the hard shell of the giant insect and then the mouthparts closed around my neck.
A moment later I felt nothing below the neck, and then--
I opened my eyes and fell onto my hands and knees. Alive again. I lost a fight with a giant roach. That was no fun. I instinctively rolled my head and my shoulders and was rewarded with the clicking and popping of joints.
I was naked, the lights were still dim, and the room was covered in even
more dust. It didn't seem to matter what killed me or where, I'd still end up back in the same place when I came around.
The door was still open and I left through it, this time moving much faster, eager to get further than I had last time. Rusty floors and corroded pipes passed by at a brisk pace and I was back to the sign set into the ceiling in half the time it had taken me the last time.
The door to the right was open. In front of me the giant cockroach still had my knife stuck in it, but it was clearly very dead. My headless corpse was next to it, half eaten and very dried out. Half-eaten, desiccated husk of a human being. I didn't know how long it might take for a body to get into that state or what had fed on it, but it had to be more than a few minutes.
So it might have been instantaneous for me, but in reality I spent a long time dead before waking up each time. I pulled the knife out of the roach and wiped it off as best I could on the back of the bug's shell. It was still pretty gross.
I stepped across the hallway and into the storage room and the lights came on for me, must have been motion sensitive. Lockers were set into the right side of the room, shelves on the left. Footlockers lined the back wall, and there was a workbench in the middle.
The lockers were my first choice, and so I took the right side of the room. The latches were smooth despite the layer of dust and I popped the first one open. Paydirt, another one of those blue suits they'd given me before.
I pulled it out of the locker and held it against my front. It was sized properly for me, which felt like it should have been rare, but I couldn't exactly remember why. I shook the thought out of my head and pulled it on.
The fit was snug, like I imagined it was supposed to be, but at least I wasn't naked. I slid the blade of the knife into the belt around my waist and stretched my limbs out, letting the material settle in properly to take out all the wrinkles.
No longer naked, I felt a little more comfortable and a lot more warm. I opened the next few lockers to find more jumpsuits like the one I was wearing, in all there were probably about sixty of them.
The foot lockers were locked, but they were shitty locks and thin metal. I jammed the blade of my combat knife against the latch and worked it back and forth until the rivets broke and then flipped the flimsy lid open.
On the right side of the foot locker was a row of Colt automatic pistols sitting in a rack, on the left side a few dozen loaded magazines. I didn't know why I knew what they were, but I did. I also knew I wanted one.
I pulled the pistol out of the footlocker by the grip and grabbed a magazine to slide into the bottom of it. With one fluid motion I racked the slide and then slid it into my belt. Next, I grabbed as many magazines as I could carry and slid them into my belt on the opposite side.
I moved to the next foot locker and pried it open like I'd done the first one. This one wasn't full of guns, this one had what looked like some kind of protective vest. Armor. I could use armor. I pulled a few of the vests out and under them found a holster with pouches for spare magazines.
It would have been convenient to find that before I'd stretched out my belt with a bunch of stuff jammed into it, but it didn't take long to transfer everything over and clip it around my waist.
The body armor went a lot further down my body than I thought it would, it was almost a dress but it covered the important parts and wasn't terribly loose, even though it was a bit long, after I tightened up all the straps as tight as they would go.
I left the remaining footlockers locked and found a row of helmets on the shelf. The smallest was still a little big, but nothing I couldn't deal with. I was protected, so any more of those roaches would have a hard time taking me out.
I stepped back out into the hallway and turned towards the residential zone. The lights were flickering worse than they had been last time, and that probably wasn't a good sign. The hallway eventually emptied out into a large atrium with a few stair cases leading to an upper level, with a large circular window overlooking it.
I pulled the pistol out and moved slowly through the huge open room, there were blood stains all over it, pockmarks in the walls too. I didn't know what happened, but after having my head bitten off by a giant cockroach I figured that caution was the order of the day.
I was half way to the staircase at the far side of the atrium when I heard the first skittering, I was two thirds of the way there before I saw the first roach. The second was soon after. I really hated bugs. The small ones were bad enough, the big ones were scary and smelled bad.
The pistol bucked in my hand when I squeezed the trigger, almost by instinct. The roach had rushed me and I'd turned it inside out with a forty-five caliber slug. The noise drew the attention of the second bug and I put it down just as quickly.
With a gun it was easy enough to kill them. Without a gun they'd killed me, so I couldn't afford to get complacent. I continued towards the stairs and then up them as the skittering noises continued to echo through the chamber.
It made my teeth hurt. It made my neck hurt, but that was just memory.
The second level had fewer blood stains than the first, and after a right turn on the second level a backlit sign on the ceiling told me that the overseer's office was ahead, whatever that was. Probably the circular window overhead.
I took that path and ended up doubling back on a staircase, but after only a few minutes of wandering I found myself standing in front of another hydraulic door. I stabbed the button to the right of it and the panels retracted--
The sound of a circular saw and an agonizing burning in my chest greeted me inside. I looked down to see half a saw blade sticking out of me with a robotic arm on the other end of it, attached to a ball with eye stalks floating on a rocket engine.
"Oh no! Terribly sorry! I thought you were one of the roaches!"
A robot. A robot was talking to me. A robot killed me with a buzzsaw.
I fell backwards and the blade slid out of my chest, and with it came a fountain of blood. My back hit the ground first, then my head--
My eyes opened up to a slightly less dusty version of the same room I'd been revived in before, it looked like it had been cleaned recently. Another new addition was a folding table set up in front of me, with a fresh jumpsuit and the gun and holster I'd been wearing when I died. The Mister Handy that killed me must have known I'd be back. That's what he was called, his model, but I didn't know where I'd pulled that information
from.
Getting dressed and armed was quicker than it had been previously, even if I didn't have armor. I could always go get more from the storage room. But if that robot could kill me so easily he could probably take care of the roaches too.
I picked up the jumpsuit and found clean white panties and a bra that looked like it would fit, so I didn't have to go commando like I'd done previously. It's the little things. Whoever or whatever his purpose was, he at least made me comfortable, and so a short while later I was dressed, armed, and on my way back down the hallway.
The first thing I noticed was the lack of rust on the floor, the second thing was that my body and the dead roach had been cleaned up. The door to the storage room was closed, and also looked cleaner than it had been.
I made my way down the hallway and noticed that the smell of roaches had dissipated and the lighting quality had improved remarkably. The atrium itself was fully lit and, if not sparkling, at least didn't look like trash, and the chittering of roaches was gone.
"Miss Victoria! You're awake!"
I turned towards the processed sounding voice of the Mister Handy unit that'd jammed a saw-blade into my chest and took a step back. "Oh, uh... hi?" I offered with a non-committal wave of my hand.
My name was Victoria? No, that felt right, somehow.
"We haven't met, but I was well versed in all of the experimental subjects. My name is Montgomery, and this is Vault 49, but you probably remember that from when you signed up!" The robot, Montgomery, explained in a not quite over the top cheery tone while his three arms gestured wildly.
"Experimental subjects? I guess... that makes sense." I conceded while rubbing my chin. "But what happened? Is it over?"
His eye stalks twitched violently for a moment before settling back down and the outer two raised upwards in what I assumed was a shrug. "The Vault-Tec personnel expired. Yours was the only completely successful trial, and so you are all that remains. As 'last man standing' that makes you the de facto overseer of this vault."
Overseer sounded like 'leader' and if I was the leader of just myself, that didn't really seem like it granted me very much.
"I don't really remember much, Monty." I shook my head and rubbed my temples, it gave me a headache to try to force it. "How long was I uh... dead?"
"Four thousand three hundred and eighty hours. This is the average timeframe for a resurrection procedure to complete, with the exception of the dimethyl mercury trial, which resulted in resurrection taking four hundred and forty four thousand hours," he answered helpfully. This time his voice didn't seem quite so much like he was faking it. Clearly he enjoyed the analytics of it all.
"My math isn't so good, can you uh, put that into other terms for me?"
"Certainly, Miss Victoria. On average you are dead for six calendar months at a time, however for the dimethyl mercury trial, you were dead for approximately fifty years."
I felt the world spinning around me, light headed and wobbly on my feet. I started to fall but Montgomery caught me with his grasping arm and held me upright on my feet. I leaned against his spherical torso until I caught my balance.
That was a lot of time, even if it was six months each time, it was a lot of times. That, plus the fifty? I'd been at this for... a hundred years? Ish?
"What now?" I finally croaked out, not sure if I wanted to cry or take a shortcut through the next six months. I did have the gun on my hip to do it with.
Montgomery stroked my back with his other arm, the one without a saw on it. He seemed more human that I would have expected out of a robot. "A request has been placed with Vault-Tec for relief, the door is on lockdown until they arrive. I have been waiting thirty seven years and sixteen days, so far."
I pulled away, I didn't feel better but I didn't feel worse; I could still stand at least. "Well, at least I know I'll be alive no matter how long it takes..." I wasn't sure if that was a blessing or a curse, or some point in between.
"In that case you will definitely need to eat something. Let me whip something up, shall I, Miss Victoria? Follow me to the cafeteria. You must be absolutely famished." Montgomery started floating away from me and towards the red and white checkered half of the atrium.
There were old restaurant style booth seats along the wall and I followed him far enough to find a seat. The cushion was softer than I'd expected it to be, given the age. It had been made to last. The table was clean, salt and pepper was prepared and in shakers.
It was almost like being in a restaurant, if I wasn't locked inside of this place with a robot anyway. The Monty was still better company than the cockroaches were, and definitely better company than the people who'd been using me for experiments.
The smell of sizzling meat filled the air, garlic, pepper, onions. Whatever he was cooking, it smelled amazing and my mouth started to water. I hadn't eaten in... well, fifty years, right? I was due to put some food down my neck hole.
I leaned back in the booth and waited, didn't want to rush him. Just figured I'd let my eyes close for just a few minutes, just resting them. Just...
***
"How long do you think this is going to take?"
The headset was itchy as all get out. With the migraines that had plagued me for most of my life I finally decided to do something about it. They were going to map it all out, every part of my brain, figure out where the migraines were starting and...
Well, something.
"Could take a while. We'll need to do some preliminary scans today, but we'll do more next week. If we can catch you during a migraine then it'll be even better," the doctor explained, for the third time. He was getting tired of me asking, but I kept asking.
"Well, it's starting to make my head itch."
He stopped what he was doing and turned towards me, "That's... bad. Let's shut it down and recalibrate."
I shrugged at him. Re-calibrations, right. See if I go back to a quack like--
***
"Miss Victoria?"
I blinked the sleep out of my eyes and looked up into the somehow concerned-looking eyes of Montgomery. "What'r y'all makin so much... noise."
I did not sound very intelligent upon first waking. That much, I
did know. He was holding a plate in front of me, full of steaming hot food, looked like tacos and refried beans.
Damn skippy.
"Sorry about the delay, but the food has been prepared, I do hope it is to your liking, Miss Victoria."
"Right... Right! Thank you!" I blurted out as I finished waking up. I took the plate from his outstretched arm and set it down on the table in front of me.
The first bite was amazing, but that could have been because this was technically the first time I had ever eaten food. The second bite cleared the bar set by the first. The temperature, spices, the consistency of the flour tortilla and the tenderness of the meat combined into something
amazing.
I considered asking him where he found such fresh meat when we'd presumably been locked in here for over a hundred years, but there were some questions that I was happier not having answered.
A glass of lemonade appeared to my left while I was concentrating on hoovering down my tacos and I snatched it up and slurped down greedy gulps of the sour-sweet liquid. Whatever Montgomery's purpose had been before, he was a damn fine preparer of food now.
"So after this, what's on the agenda?" I asked him around a mouthful of tortilla.
"A lot of waiting, I'm afraid. Reactor maintenance has already been performed for this quarter, the water system is utilizing a fraction of a percentage of capacity so the next filter change is in about... four hundred years."
I nodded and swallowed by food. "So what you're telling me is that I've got a lot of free time?"
"Oh, endless free time you might say." He answered with a bob of his central eye. That must have been a nod?
"Well I guess I could go exploring then."
"I would only ask that you do please be careful. While you do have access to the entire vault, it is still over six million square feet of floor space so I cannot guarantee that it will be entirely devoid of hostile lifeforms."
I shrugged, "Not like I stay dead."
All three of his eyestalks drooped, "Well that may be the case, Miss Victoria, I don't fancy another six months waiting for your revival. I rather like having someone to talk to."
"I think we'll have plenty of time for that, Monty."