WARNING: This chapter brushes on the subject of suicide.
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January 5th, 2011
I want you to imagine, if you will, an orc. No, not Tolkien's orcs with their huge, well-defined emerald muscles. I want you to imagine an anime orc: a bipedal green pig about just as tall, but replace all those muscles with a copious amount of jiggling fat. Now paint it a pasty white and overlay human features on it, put it in a police uniform, cover it in cheap cologne, and sit it down in the middle of an empty classroom, and you have Officer Bertrand, one of the cops who showed up this morning to "investigate Tuesday's incident."
"Come in! Come in!" He oinks at me through a half-chewed donut before chasing it down with a gulp of coffee – A reminder that all stereotypes are rooted in something – before gesturing for me to take a seat.
"Good morning, officer-san," I greet him with a full saikeirei, bowing 45 degrees with both arms clasping in front of my abdomen. The accent in my voice has been turned up, taking pointers specifically from how Dad speaks. Leaning into the stereotype is a gamble when dealing with white cops, but they're already segregating the students of color into a separate interrogation queue anyway.
He laughs heartily and… jiggily, dismissing my aisatsu with an insultingly casual wave, "Oh there's no need for that, we're in America here! You're… Yang, right? I'll just be asking a few questions about yesterday."
I comply, keeping my back straight, arms across my laps, and eyes forward. My smile is firmly polite, not icy. Officer Bertrand is, after all, not a teenaged hooligan that needs to be glared into submission.
"Now, Yang. Can I call you Yang?"
I blink.
It takes me a long moment to parse that.
"Now, Yang. Can I call you Yang?" He was a bit like officer Bertrand here, actually. Same uniform, though his was dappled in the Brockton rain, his smile was a lot wider and sharper, and he was so tall and thin.
I blink again, this time because of the sharp pain of my nails digging into my palms.
"Miss! Are you alright?"
"I… there is no need for you to worry, officer-san." I say, injecting a little bit of that sick-girl-putting-on-brave-face energy into my voice, "I've only… been feeling a little under the weather since…yesterday."
His face falls just like that, and I silently bask in that delicious sympathy like a dragon bathing in gold. Salvaged
perfectly. Good job Kaida. Thanks, Kaida!
"Yes… I see. Well dear… that's what I am here for. Can you tell us what happened? I understand you were personally involved in the incident?"
I nod, letting some uncertainty bleed into my face as I speak with a slight quiver,
"Well sir… that morning, I saw this tall black girl, I believe her name is Sophia Hess… "
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January 7th, 2011
Jennifer greets me at the gate on Thursday, leaning against the frame in that Rebel Relaxation pose with a smoking cigarette hanging loosely between her lips. The chain around her right arm has been unhooked and is currently being twirled around in a casual yet unmistakably threatening manner.
It is kinda – and not even the Simurgh can pry this confession from my lips – cool. Though also worrying. Because this is posturing. We don't usually stand around all day posturing unless there's a reason to posture. Normally, we have better things to do. Like scheming.
"Oh… that's not… good." Phúc vocalizes my unspoken concerns from his place at my side as we approach. I nod.
Seeing us, Jennifer catches the spinning chain in her palm and preempts my question by jabbing a thumb over her shoulder. My eyes follow the digit to find half of the stair leading to the main school building infested by the local Hitler Youth in their full jackbooted glory. They are not really… doing anything, just standing there, posing and flexing and boasting.
It's rather homoerotic.
And on the opposite end of that is presumably the reason they haven't turned the entire stair into a klan gathering: a contingent of my own soldiers led by Hirohito Saito have claimed the other half of the stair. They are posturing too, though they're going for a more relaxed and effortlessly intimidating kind of vibe. Which is better overall, in my opinion,
Why yes, I am biased. But my opinion is also literally the only one that matters.
"Shit's tense." Jennifer explains, taking a drag of her cigarette as she did, "Lung got everyone on edge. The Merchants already crawled into their hole, but the Nazis can't let things be easy."
I nod, my eyes drifting toward another great pillar of black smoke on the horizon, the third or fourth one this week. Dad is… pissed. He doesn't like showing that side to me; he's never been really angry at me. But mom… well… she loved to use him as a case study for when she taught me how to spot emotions in others. Then I shake my head and turn my attention back to the assembled skinheads. Only a few faces I recognize from the corkboard, all low on their command chain. This was either spontaneous on their part, or their Big Brothers and Sisters didn't bother standing in solidarity with the goons.
"We'll go through." I state, the decree was met with a long, resigned sigh from Phúc and a resolute nod from Jennifer, the former taking another deep drag of her cancer stick before tossing it to the ground and stomping it out with her boots.
"Well…uh… l-ladies first?" The rat-boy says, hands wringing. Jen swats him over the head with a palm while I stride forward.
The E88s puff up at our approach, their chatter becoming rowdiers and the muttered slurs louder. My own retinue responds in kind, their postures shifting, readying to pounce. They're not quite rising to the bait – doing so would be unbecoming of our images – but the forms promise swift answers to any escalation.
Phúc titters nervously at my side and unslung his too-big backpack, clutching it in one hand like a shield. Jennifer Chen rolls her neck and cracks her knuckles, each pop is like a firework. And me, I made sure to give the assembled nazis no more acknowledgement than a half of a glance, with nose turned skyward in ever so understated disgust. Anything more would be unbecoming of Yang Kaida.
There is muttering and snarling from the white pride parade to my right as we approach, a number of them are even brazen enough to step forward, their leather jackets parting to reveal the toys they carry underneath. I hear shuffling from my left as my own men rise and ready themselves.
And then Jen Chen yawns loudly, drawing all eyes onto herself as a Jen Chen does. And then she stretches, and the clicking of meter-long heavy chains unfurling evoke memories of shattered bones and a grinning devil with green and gold hair merrily skipping off for her detention.
And none dare to stop us as we pass through.
I spare the assembled Hitler Youth a quarter of one eye and a single sentence.
"If you cannot bear this shame, there is always the option to copy your idol one last time."
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January 7th, 2011
Friday is not better.
It isn't worse either for the most part. More competitive posturing all across Winslow. Some aren't even bothering to hide their weapons anymore. At least there's no firearms being waved around. Not yet, but it will soon. Something will eventually boil over, and when that happens, I want them prepared. And that means stepping up production and rolling out care packages for the ABB at large, else their early access to my own technology would raise eyebrows.
"Something wrong Kaida? You've hardly even touched your rabbit food love." The familiar voice –poshly British but with a vague Filipino ring– yanks me back to Winslow's cafeteria. I look up from my bowl of takeout mediterranean salad at the speaker; a girl with short-cropped black hair highlighted with sandy streaks and sharp, angular features contrasted by round, pink glasses. Blessica, a girlfriend of one of our dealers. Her name isn't on corkboard-san. I just remember it because it's
Blessica.
"Oh, nothing much, just scheming." I reply with a mischievous wink before tearing off a chunk of the salmon filet with my chopsticks and bringing to my mouth, my gaze pointedly lingering on her plastic-wrapped tuna egg sandwich.
"..heh. Well…" She pulls back, her eyes avoiding mine as her hands fumble with the wrapping as giggling and chuckling rises from around the table. I savor the victory for a brief second before reaching over, my hand delicately undoing the remnant of the wrapping and tearing off a chunk of her sandwich.
"Mmm… not bad!" I say brightly and, because being magnanimous in victory and giving face to the defeated is key to not fighting the same battle twice, I deposit a nice large chunk of salmon on her sandwich with a cheery little "It's a trade!"
"Oh! Uh… Thanks!" Smart girl takes the exit I put down with an easy smile, "Have you heard about the latest regarding you on the rumor mill?"
I lean forward, imperiously laying a chin on one hand while cocking an eyebrow and gesturing for her to continue.
"Word from the local wonderbread is that you'd make a great janitor because, and I quote, 'how good you are at sweeping up trash in your arms'." She nods toward a table on the far side of the cafeteria where Winslow's pettiest court is currently in session around three girls: one petite brunette, one well-developed redhead, and one tall black girl with her dark hair in a ponytail.
"Hm. Classist." I comment even as Jennifer breaks rank and starts cackling openly. Oh how I dearly wish my public image would allow me to start flicking avocado chunks at my traitorous bodyguard.
"Well I think that's amazing!" Jennifer concludes despite my best unamused glare, "Come on, that's an awesome cape name. Meet the Janitor. She keeps Winslow
clean."
The last part was whispered in a throaty growl, and even I found myself involuntarily exhaling. Well, I am now amused, at least
"I'll consider it if I ever became a cape." I won't. I already have a name. "But really, do they have any other comments on my career prospect?"
My informant ponders on it for a moment before shrugging and shaking her head.
"Well then I think we just let those poor things be." I chuckle, my hand flicking imperiously, "We have work to do, after all. Not everyone can be born with the truly enviable privilege of living in a teen drama."
Another round of laughter sweeps across the table as I turn eyes back toward the other table just in time to catch Barnes' own green orbs boring into my eyes. We hold each other's gazes for a brief moment, and then my lips pull back into a smile: serene, friendly, and all teeth.
She flinches first and turns away. I take a sip from my latte.
Throughout the day, I had expected another swing from them, an attempt to escalate this to the point where I must respond. What I received was muttered whispers and furtive glances, petty and inconsequential little things that everyone knows are beneath the attention of Yang Kaida. And yet they never challenge me directly, and conversely that robs me of a proper casus belli.
At least between the new phone and my app, I can remotely put in design work on the manufacturing line to make the monotony more bearable. Still, when the last bell rings and I leave the school entirely unopposed, it feels rather anticlimactic.
"I know that face," Jennifer Chen comments from her place behind me, taking a very audible drag on her cancer stick, "Someone's blue-balled?"
I make a noise between a scoff, not deigning to entertain her vulgarity anymore beyond that. Unfortunately, Chen is not one to relent that easily.
"Oh come on!" She presses on , and I could hear the grin in her voice, "You're not holding court out here, princess!"
I turn to give her a nonplussed stare over my shoulders before dropping myself down on a bench to wait for my ride. My bodyguard, being the animal that she is, immediately decides that the backrest is really the seat and the actual seat is more like a footrest. I glare up at her for the absolute impertinence. She grins down at me impertinently.
"I was hoping for a… duel, yes." I concede with a sigh
Some fights are not worth fighting.
"You know, I'll never get your fetish for verbal fucking jiu-jitsu." Jen chuffs, preening in her victory of sheer obstinacy.
"That's because you don't get jiu-jitsu. In general," I fire back, placing my shot where I know it would hurt, "And I don't get your insistence on clogging your, mine, and everyone's lungs with soot either, but here we are."
She has the decency to look sheepish as she flicks the cigarette away and stomp on it with her boots.
I turn my eyes back to my phone, content to bask in my own victory as blissful, companionable silence descends on us. Even Jen doesn't seem to mind it that much, having already turned her attention away from needling me to… staring into the contents of her own bag and biting her lips?
Odd. But I won't pry.
"So… Kaida! Is your creepy serial killer pedo uncle coming today as well?"
"He's not a pedophile," I parry rotely, not even looking up from my own phone. It has caught me off-guard the first few times, but is gone by the third or fourth time she repeats the same slander, "And yes, he will be here."
"Hey… if he picks you up everyday, that must mean he's pretty badass, right?." I look up at her, not bothering to hide the way my eyes squint up in suspicion. I do not answer. Not yet.
"Oh, don't give me that!" Her voice hitches a little as she raises her hands in defense, "I don't know what makes you a princess, princess, and I'm not gonna dig it up either! But you have to be a big deal! They're not going to send any random fart who can make a fist and a mean face to pick you up everyday!?"
"He is, yes." I nod tentatively. Her train of thought is sound and, more importantly, aware of the danger of digging too deep, "What do you want?"
She is being… unusually serious. It's not necessarily a good thing, but it's not business as usual.
"I want to… talk to him. Just for a moment. Is that okay?" Her attention is back upon whatever it is inside her bag. I briefly entertain the idea of prying further before deciding against it.
"Alright. I think that can be arranged." Whatever it is, I will know soon enough.
She nods, and silence is once again reinstated upon its throne, ruling for many uneventful minutes until a familiar black sedan rounds the corner before coming to a stop before us. I rise to my feet as the door opens for me.
"Oji-san. There is someone who wishes to speak to you." I relay and watch as his head tilts a degree or two before nodding toward Jen Chen standing ramrod straight on the sidewalk, "Please do not kill her."
Uncle Lee nods and steps outside, his movement as deliberate and his expression as unreadably blank as it has ever been, in the decade that I have known him. From inside, I watch as he rounds the hood of the car and approaches my lieutenant and body.
"xiānsheng!" Jen Chen greets him in slightly accented Chinese – the first time I've heard her speak Chinese – as her right fist slams into an open right palm in a textbook martial art salute. And before my very eyes, ABB's merciless demon freezes in place, his entire body going rigid in a way that sends a cold chill down my spine. "This… this junior begs for you to hear her out!"
Why is she talking like an old movie? What is happening? I have
never heard her stuttering before!
I can't see Uncle Lee's face, but I can imagine his trademark blank, unblinking stare boring into Jen. And then, with a slow hesitancy as if he is acting upon half-remembered instinct, Oni Lee returns the salute.
"...Speak. I shall listen." There's an odd, trembling note running beneath his usually curtness, one that I cannot identify.
And then Jen Chen reaches into her bag and pull out a honest-to-god, straight-from-movie wine gourd, complete with red ribbons.
"Xiānsheng, I wish to improve my own martial prowess. Please accept this gift as proof of my dedication and let me call you shīfù!"
I can't see Uncle Lee's face.
I don't know what he's thinking. I have never been able to read him.
Every second of silence stretches out into an eternity as Oni Lee uncorks the gourd with movement so methodical and precise, it evokes the image of an automaton following pre-written instructions. Even his swigs and swallows are uniform.
"This is acceptable."
Joy blooms upon my lieutenant's face like a sun rising and her lip splits open into a massive, stupid grin.
"Shīfù! Then when can we start?"
"Right now."
I see the blur where his hand was. And then I see the edge of his palm depressing my right hand woman's neck with as deceptive gentleness, as if it has not just lashed out faster than the eyes can follow
Jen Chen looks like she's caught between a squeal of joy and a gulp of terror.
"Lesson 1: You have let your guard down. Meditate on this until our next meeting."
His freshly-adopted apprentice nods vigorously as Uncle Lee's hand retreats from her neck to reseal the wine gord. Then he turns around, returns to the car, and step on the gas
An awkward silence hangs over the entire ride. More awkward than usual, that is. Hanging out with Uncle has always felt like trying to make conversations with a robot that can only make random affirmative grunts at set intervals. Today, he is a brick wall, and I was left with only Brockton Bay's breathtaking scenery to accompany me.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"Your costume has arrived." The brick wall behind the wheel says suddenly just as we round a sharp turn into the covert garage. Shock and Newton's First acting in tandem have me very indignantly squishing my cheek against the windshield.
I glare at the back of Uncle Lee's head. I know he can see me in the rearview mirror. He does not respond.
"That's pretty early." I observe, stepping out of the sedan into the empty garage. The workshop has been getting busier throughout the week as more and more minions are vetted to be brought into the workshop, but this garage is always empty unless specifically noted otherwise because it's the one linked directly to my office.
"They put it on the highest priority possible." He explains, opening the door for me, "Said that they hope we will keep them in mind."
I giggle, pause, clear my throat, and give my best ominous chuckles.
When I step through the backdoor into my sanctum, I find my costume already laid out for inspection in a transparent case behind my desk, exactly as I'd demanded. It starts from the basis of hanfu – like something worn by a great empress – before deviating wildly as I add my own aesthetic to it. It is cut from golden cloth with emerald trimmings and embroidered with black silhouettes of sweeping crows. Pauldrons of black feathers sit upon the shoulders, and connected to them is a cape of the same feathers that would frame my form. I've taken even greater liberty from the waist down, being spareser on fabric than traditions would dictate and incorporating slits to the side, all in the name of minimizing constraints on my legs. And also to show off. Because I can.
The literal crowning piece is the headgear, a crow-faced headgear ripped directly off the European plague doctor, with fashionable feathery plumage to cover the neck. It has three eye sockets, all empty and waiting for my technological addition.
The three eyes have no mythological basis for this particular theme and are entirely made up. I would have cared, but I'm a villain.
At a glance, this is wonderfully done. If it passes a deeper inspection, then I definitely need to reward them handsomely for good work and a little extra on top for their initiative. But not now, because I'm not going to wear
that in a lab of any kind. Not before I can have robot servants doing the greasy, splattery heavy lifting for me.
I throw on my more modest costume and emerge from my inner sanctum into the din of my minions carting pallets of CRGs into storage while others load and operate the great tinkertech behemoth of smoking stills, steaming vats, and hissing pipes that dominated the central room as it pumps out tinkertech chemical by the batch.
It has taken me
way too much effort to get it to work right without me hovering and directing the workers every second, yes. But I got there. And I will only get better. And it will be perfect.
The minions turn and stare as I make the round and inspect their work, their eyes full of fear, uncertainty, and a little dash of curiosity. A few of them hurry to offer empty exaltation as I pass by while others shrink and make themselves as small as they could. And there would always be this palpable relief as I leave
Not quite the reaction I'd wish to be greeted with, but it will have to do.
Satisfied with my inspection, I return to the second level of the renovated building, the labs-and-sanctum level and made my way toward the biolab on the far side, one built with additional insulations and ordered to keep cold. There's no guard on this floor save for the pair posted on the stair. Convincing people to work in a tinker's workshop is already hard, convincing them to stand guard around a tinker's lab all day? Anyone who'd take that job isn't qualified to guard a lollipop. Not that I'd want any civilian poking around in there, anyway.
Especially today, when I'm expecting a… delivery.
I've been trying very hard all day, not thinking about the delivery.
You see, as much as I'd love to, I cannot just rub magical tinkertech healing paste on everyone and fix everything. I'm not on that tech level.
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Yes. Not yet.
If I want to be a healer, eventually I'll have to put people under the knife. So I've been working on a device to assist in that procedure. As tinkers do.
It is an ugly tube of metal the size of a body pillow, one end blooming into eighty nine independently articulating tool-tipped manipulators. The other end tapered off into a padded arm-sized opening, built to my measurements. The entire contraption is so large and unwieldy that I had built for it a mechanical arm mounted atop a dolly just so it can maneuver around. But that's still better than fussing over building the prototype small and efficiently now before the technology is even tested.
The technology needs to be tested on cadavers.
Finding corpses in Brockton Bay is not a hard task.
I have three of them, each lying on their own operation table. They're pristine, for the most part. I've specified that much, and the room is kept cold for preservation.
One of them is a girl, perhaps two to four years older than me, with black hair highlighted with blonde streaks, the tag on her chest says 'prostitute. OD." Next is an older man with swarthy skin and cloth covering his face, and what strings of hair peeking out underneath was gray. His tag reads "Soldier. Brained". The third is skinhead through and through: pale, shaved head, with two 8s tattooed on his neck right over the ropeburn, the tag reads "Nazi. Hung himself 😂".
The Winslow crew has more professionalism than this.
I push the dolly over to the first table with an undignified grunt and lock the wheels, then insert my hand into the opening. It fits snugly for the most part, though there are the parts where cold metal and circuitry press against my bare skin is far from comfortable, nor is that little jolt as they connect.
Eighty nine appendages twitch and writhe upon my slightest impulse, unfurling themselves into a Scyllean bloom that is only all too eager to unravel flesh. I take a moment to breathe, to center myself and focus. Tinkertech or not, there's only so much I can do to analogously map five human fingers onto eighty-nine discrete surgical tools. A bad muscle twitch right now would not be pretty.
It takes me a moment to get acclimated to the apparatus, to be reasonably sure that I will not twitch. So I maneuver the arm over the first patient, suck in a deep breath…
And then do nothing.
Another breath to calm and center myself, the metal fingers twitching and flexing as I pour my nervous energy into them. I turn my eyes upon the cadaver before me and steel my resolve, and push my hand forward…
And Yang Kaida can't do it.
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It doesn't really make sense, does it? What care should a
villain have over the sanctity of the dead? They're
dead. Being used as test subjects for my surgical device is one of the few ways they could possibly make a positive contribution to the course of human history in this state. And have I mentioned that I'm a villain?
I withdraw my hands and kick the dolly away, except the wheels are locked and the floor's slip-proof. I want to say it teeters under the kick, but that's giving my lower body strength too much credit.
With a final huff, I spin on my heel, stride over to the intercom and-
And then the explosions start.
The biolab's wall dampens the sound down to a deep, almost distant rumbling, yet I could feel very brickwork shaking, and my bones along with it. A half-formed breath turns into a solid lump in my throat as I stumble for the intercom.
The com buzzes before I can touch it. My chest feels too tight for the thundering within it. I feel the arteries writhing upon my skull like blood-engorged leeches.
"We're under attack." Uncle Lee's voice comes through the buzzing. "Stay whe-"
Gunfire and scream drowns out the last of his sentence, and the intercom goes silent. I reach for the door, the part of me that is Yang Kaida, ABB Princess of Winslow screams to go out there and take charge, to fulfill that noblesse oblige of my station. The rest of me shut her down.
To be a general, one needs to know her soldiers, her enemies, her battle. I know nothing and no one here.
I lock the door and turn back around. There is nothing I can do here but to stay put, stay safe, and…
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My eyes run over everything inside this room, noting the cleaning fluids, the bottle of WD40 and sealant I've used for the prototype, the disinfectant spray…
Perhaps, just perhaps, a way to fight back. To end this.
I feel it coming. That blurry rush of a full tinker fugue, when the world is not the world but merely a collection of components to be assembled, when the chalice of otherworldly knowledge floweth over and drowns me beneath eldritch truth that comes to me as instinctually as breathing. The waves have taken me. My body is a vessel for the fugue, to bring forth-
A hand grabs me and shakes, and my world come apart like glass before Shatterbird
"-inker! Lady Tinker! We have to-"
I hiss, my hand instinctively reaching around to find something to brain this interloper before the rest of me catches up. He's a tall man wearing our color. His face is pale, and his left arm is clutching a welling splotch of red on his side. His right hand clutches a sawn-off.
Also, my lab's door has been kicked off its hinges
There's also another man here, slumped against one wall. Black, with buzz cut hair and filthy, ragged clothes, a good chunk of his abdomen is nothing more than crimson ribbons.
"You're wounded." I observe, head burning with how I can possibly fix him with what in the room.
"Please, Lady Tinker!" He pleads in accented Chinese, though I cannot place the exact accent, "We… We have no-"
Thunder cracks within my hall. a liquid scorching-hot splatters against my legs. The man goes down with a pitiful croak and his right leg explodes from beneath him. There's another standing at the door now. A walking corpse of a man with a gravely complexion and long matted hair framing a sunken, haggard face. The cleanest thing on him is the huge, smoking revolver in his hand.
"Ah, there you are…" His face twists into an ugly leer as he strides into my own lab as if his conquest is already done, his gun hand lax and gesticulating, "Knew that squint-eyed fuck's good. C'mon. You're my meal ticket for the next year and a half."
I'm only half-listening, my attention divided between the wildly waving gun and my own ongoing impromptu chem lab. I was nowhere near done with my planned sleep gas, but at this stage I still have a highly corrosive intermediate product…
"Nah nah nah! Don't even think about it!" My throat seizes as the gun suddenly snaps up at me, "Hand in the air where I can see them. I don't want no tinker tri-aRGHA"
His words devolve into screeching obscenities as my too-brave-for-his-own-good soldier drove a knife into his foot. I spin around and lunge for the erlenmeyer flask filled with a frothing blue liquid, taking a moment to cork it shut lest any sudden movement would splatter it on me even as the sound of a boot crunching through ribs filled the room.
When I look again, I see my soldier curled up in a fetal position a few feet away from where he was and the corpse-man still pinned to the ground with a knife through his right foot. Gritting my teeth, I summon forth every last ounce of strength within me, pour it into my hand, and make sure my man's sacrifice would not be in vain.
I miss.
The flask splatters onto the ground a good feet or two from where my completely immobile target was pinned to the floor. The liquid within breaks free with a sound like damned souls escaping hell as a chunk of the floor a foot across turns to slag and fumes.
"Dumb fucking whore!"
Corpse-man rips himself free and stumbles forward while I'm still too transfixed with my own fuck-up to do anything. His knee drives itself into my stomach and folds me in half over his leg, forcing half-digested lunch into my throat as he did. I swallow it back down. It would be terribly unbecoming of me to vomit now.
"Now you fucking listen to me." A greasy, calloused hand seizes me by the collar and pulls. I do not resist. I let the momentum carry me. I lean into it, desperation driving my head forward, "You-AAAAHRG!!"
Scream of pain and anger symphonizes beautifully with the sound of ceramic cracking apart against cartilages. The gunman stumbles backward. One step, two, and his foot falls into the gaping hole left by my failure. And where his thigh touches the leftover residue, the jean combusts into blue flame as flesh turns to liquid and boils away in black smoke.
I dive for the discarded shotgun just as the man decided that I am no longer worth it as a meal ticket. He shoots first, but agony and anger clouds his aim. And then I answer, and it is hard to miss with a buckshot.
Crimson trenches explode over this face, neck, and shoulders even as I toss the shotgun aside and focus my attention onto my soldier. He's still breathing, still conscious, if barely. My power whispers to me that if he is to have any chance of living at all, he needs the hole in his side patched up.
Because I still can do that, if nothing else.
There's no rejuvenation gel here. Not even a basic first aid kit. Who organized this place? Me, that's who.
There's no clean fabric here that's suitable for a bandage either. His clothes were stained with blood and smoke, and the two gangbangers… Perhaps rather predictably, the cleanest in the room right now is me, therefore…
I shiver as the cold air hits my bare skin, but every second of me struggling with the fabric of my kimono top right now is a second of him gushing blood. Besides, this is a placeholder costume. It's meant to be trashed anyway. And once the external bleeding is stemmed, I turn attention back to the room, searching for something, anything I can-
"You've done all that you can." The familiar dead voice cuts through the beginning of another fugue, and I whip my head around to find Uncle Lee standing at my side. When did he even get there? How does he do that? "We need to get you to the sanctum."
[̷̡̓̔_̵̠̮͎͑̂͊_̵̼͉̎O̴̺̞̚͜N̶̮̄͛_̷̡͔͘_̸͕̳̯̇̓̽Ṅ̴̟̮̯͝Á̴̘͔͜T̶͈͛͜_̸̧̛̼̲Ň̶̫͉]̸͎̜̌͝
He is right.
I hate that he is right. I hate that there is nothing more that I could do, but he is right. This is the extent of me. The limit of the greatest tinker ever.
"Listen to me. Do you hear me?" I turn to the brave man and grip him by his chin. His eyes are open but unfocused, and he's muttering something in Korean that I do not understand, "You're not going to die. You do not have my permission to die, do you hear me? That's an order! I will see to it!"
With my order given, I rise to my feet and let myself be led away. I close my senses to the chaos unfolding outside all around us, telling myself there is nothing I could do to help them now. Occasionally, someone would slip out of the melee and try to intercept us, most of them bigger and better armed than that walking corpse that had accosted me in the biolab.
None of them last beyond the split second that it takes for The Oni Lee to plant a foot-long dagger between their temples from a dozen paces away, the weapon traveling so fast and so precisely it might as well have been teleported into their skull. Sometime, he would be upon them in the next breath and calmly retrieve his blade as if from a knife stand. Other times, he would unsheathe a new one.
He has so many knives.
Once we safely enter my office sanctum, he stays by my side when the heavy pneumatic door slam shut behind us. He does not move, does not say even a single word. He just stands there, like a statue.
And so am I.
"Why are you here?" I finally ask, and that at least gets him to turn and look at me quizzically, as if I just asked him why the sun rises in the morning, "We need you out there, fighting. Our men are dying outside!"
He's still standing there like a human statue, saying nothing, staring at nothing.
I grit my teeth and draw myself up. I reach deep into myself and find the part of me that is my father. I put all the steel I can muster into my voice and says
"Oni Lee. I order you to go out there and help drive off the aggressor. I do not need your protection right now."
That got something out of him. Not the immediate compliance that I wanted, but more of a full-body shudder. Slowly, as if he's submerged in molasses, Oni Lee turns toward me and drops to one knee. And when he places a hand on my cheek, he does so with an alien gentleness
"I'm… sorry Kaida. I… cannot do… that." His words are slow and deliberate, much like the way I remember some martial artist would move through an unfamiliar kata, "But I've… made a promise to Kenta… to Masako… and to you… and I cannot go back on that."
I glare at him. I glare through him. I glare at those dark eyes behind the Oni mask. The eyes of the man who has been with me since as long as I could remember. The eyes of a man who I call Uncle Lee. The eyes of a man who is, practically speaking, my second father.
And I deflate again, knowing that this will be another battle I will lose today.
So instead I pace. I seethe. I fume. I walk in circles, trying to bleed my own energy dry. And then I notice my own reflection in the glass of the display case.
The shivering little thing in the reflection reaches up with her right hand and removes the cracked and broken porcelain that she hid her face behind, the mask crumbling apart between her delicate fingers as she does. Underneath, her face is unmarred and beautiful still. It is the face of Yang Kaida. The face of a princess.
I open the case and pick up the mask of the three-eyed crow, taking a moment to admire the exquisite craftsmanship delivered on a tight schedule before placing it over the princess' face. And I liked it.
"Oj-Oni Lee. Turn around, please." I ask. He comply
I don't really have
that much problem changing clothes in the same room as Uncle Lee. As far as I'm concerned, it really is not that much different from getting changed in the same room as Dad. Awkward? Extremely so. Though given the situation, I can make a few small sacrifices.
Honestly, it's less awkward, given how easy it is to just think of him as a particularly bloody, well-armed pillar.
It took me a few minutes to get into the new costume, and while there is no mirror in my sanctum – an inexcusable design flaw – I like what I see in the display glass. The woman in the reflection is foreboding and imposing, her plumages cutting an overwhelming silhouette of power and surety. Her beaked mask is sharp as Death's scythe, and her eyes…
They're still Yang Kaida's eyes. For now. Not for long.
[̸͔͒͛Ç̶͑_̶̳̥̜͐_̸̺̪̹̹͆́̈́͛̚D̷͓̠̖̘̟͐̕)̵̬̘̬̒̿M̵̖͇̩̆̂̿̉͌N̶̛̯̺̖̞̜̍̉̀_̷͙̑̋͐̈́͆_̷͚̩͋̂̈́̇̀I̶͎̮̯̯͓͝O̶̢͎̣̺̺̓̇̄N̷͎̣̂̑͝]̷͇̈̊̋͜
̵̕̚
I walk toward my workstation and power it on, the monstrous, tinkertech-augmented rig comes to life in a fraction of a second, and I immediately pull up the CCTV feed before collapsing into my chair.
[̸͎̖͝͝C̴̩̆͘Ȯ̴̢̻̪N̴̫̜̖̿̆͠D̷̗̐̂͛_̴̩̈́̈́_̷̛̳̑͝Ṅ̶̪̤͌̈́A̸̗͔̱͂̓͂_̵̘̘̒̾O̷͔̊̌͠N̸̛͇]̵̺̓
Our attackers, whoever they are, obviously did not consider taking out the cameras to be anywhere near the top priority of this raid, and so I was treated with dozens of high-definition bird-eye angles of the chaos unfolding outside.
Because Yang Kaida is not good enough, and there is nothing Yang Kaida can do now except to sit in her hidey hole, waiting for her daddy to come and bail her out again. But she can witness. And she can remember
And The Yatagarasu will make sure this never happens again.
[̵͓̓C̸̡͘O̴̞͘N̸̈́͜D̸̡̔E̷̺͘M̷̦͗N̴̘͠A̷̙͆T̴͖̈I̸̠̎O̵̻̾N̷̞͌]̷̡͋
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Author's Note:
Yeah... so let's address the elephant in the room. This chapter took 7 month to bake. Most of you most likely thought the story/me/both just flat out died. The truth is just more that... the chapter ran away from me and up into a forested mountain. It's just... way too long, with way too many plot threads I'm trying to beat out, and also writing a socially competent character is hell. Regardless, it's back! Though I'll back an effort to *not* disappear for the better part of a year in the future again.
Lastly, huge huge huge thanks to anyone who left a comment. I wasn't as active in the comment as I wanted to be but genuinely every comment you give is a shot of dopamine directly into my brain!
Also I just realized I ended my last chapter with a Soon(TM). So... That's cursed as all fuck!