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The Clone War has been raging for almost three years. An intergalactic conflict the scale of which hasn't been matched in millennia, billions have already died, been displaced, or enslaved, and billions more have the same done to them every week that the war rages on. In the midst of this, Jedi Padawan Ahsoka Tano has been fighting since she was 14 years old, the fates of millions have fallen on her shoulders on an almost daily basis. How much destruction has she prevented, or been responsible for? Is what she's fighting for justified? Just what is she fighting for?

Ahsoka isn't sure she knows anymore. But maybe there's someone who can help.
1 - awake

Alobomb

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Hey there, welcome to my edgily named Star Wars fic. My intention with this story originally was to explore Barriss and Ahsoka's characters and relationship, as perceived by me, as well as the conclusions about the Star Wars universe in this era that I've drawn from the text of the movies and shows. What it turned into after I plotted out the first half and wrote the first couple chapters is a somewhat broader exploration of some of my headcanons and thoughts about Star Wars as a setting, and the characters inside of it. The major themes I'm interested in exploring overall are dealing with the trauma inherent in being weaponized in an intergalactic war from a young age, how that trauma manifests when you're faced with the system that allowed and encouraged it, questioning the justifiability versus the necessity of certain means of resistance against authority, and how the Galactic Republic is Neoliberal Space Hell. Oh, and as always, girls being gay. It probably won't be quite as heavy-handed and angsty as all of that implies, but we'll see. Timeline-wise, this story starts somewhere between the middle or end of the Onderon arc and the beginning of the Barriss terrorism arc, past the point where the fic begins I don't care overmuch about canon events, if they're relevant they'll be mentioned.

As of the time of writing this foreward, the first four chapters are written, and after I get those posted and out of the way, the rest will come as I write them. All discussion, critique, comments, and requests are welcome and encouraged.

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Ahsoka's consciousness returned slowly, and everything about it felt wrong. In sleep, your muscles are meant to be relaxed, recovering, but her body felt sore and overworked, like an old, rotted tree branch being used to prop up a lean-to. Her throat felt raw and she tasted copper, a week's worth of yelling and screaming over the sounds of battle coming back to haunt her. More than anything though, Ahsoka's very mind felt like it was resisting the pull of wakefulness, rather than the calm emergence into clear waters she was used to, she felt like she was clawing her way out of a grave. She felt like she was in danger.

Immediately, Ahsoka panicked. In the part of her mind that was present, that was always present, she felt two presences in the room with her, one standing over her, the other by the doorway. A lookout. Not giving herself time to think, she let her reflexes take over, thousands of hours of combat and hundreds more of training and learning how the force can guide one's strikes to land true brought her fist sailing upwards and her weight shifting into a leg sweep along with it.

Before either had even connected, she was blindly groping away from herself with the force, searching for the telltale, familiar signature that marked her sabers. There! They were in their case, held by the assailant on the far side of the room. Ahsoka twisted her waist in preparation to turn her leg sweep into a rebound to launch at the lookout, when unexpectedly, she felt her fist get caught by another hand. Her eyes finally shot open, for the briefest of moments, the durasteel grey of her cabin's walls looked like the endless corridors of a Separatist base, before reality reasserted itself. Her eyes widened in fear and she desperately tried to wrench her hand free, but the grip of the man standing over her was solid as rock.

With a frightened yell, Ahsoka threw all of her weight into her extending leg- and then doubled over in pain as the overtired muscles all painfully seized up. She tried to throw her other leg around, but found it wouldn't bend at the knee, and felt far heavier than she was used to. They must have already injured her. Acting on pure fight or flight, she just tried to push away from the man with her other hand, but that limb too was easily grabbed and disabled. So this was it? This was how Ahsoka would finally go?

With a click that felt as sudden and overwhelming as being blinded with a floodlight after wandering in the dark, Ahsoka began to hear again.

"-soka! Ahsoka! Relax, you're safe, it's okay!" Master Skywalker's voice? Some kind of Sith trick, Anakin would never try to attack her.

Ahsoka kept struggling, though her limbs already felt exhausted, like her muscles were about to snap, bones about to shatter. She rapidly turned her head around the room, looking for anything she could use to gain the advantage. On the far side, where the lookout was, Rex stood with a look of concern etched on his stern features.

"Rex, run!" She tried to shout, but her voice came out hoarse and feeble, she wasn't sure he'd even heard her.

"Ahsoka!" Skywalker's voice wasn't yelling, but it was firm and commanding, a tone he rarely took these days that prompted Ahsoka to instinctively look up towards the source. It looked like Skywalker, but why would he be here? He was supposed to be on the surface of… Satindor? Onderon? Wherever, right? "Relax, you're safe, you're okay. You're on the 501st Venator, look, Rex is here, right?"

"Uh- Yes, sir. Ma'am. Uh, Commander. General." Rex sounded fr- no, not frightened, she realized, just awkward.

"Breathe, Ahsoka, slowly, relax." Anakin's deep, concerned voice suddenly felt like a rock she could latch onto, despite her earlier misgivings. Right, breath. She didn't realize it till now, but she'd been breathing fast. Really fast. Her head started to come down from the clouds she hadn't even realized it was in as her breathing slowed.

What just happened? Oh. Oh Force. Ahsoka felt her face turn a darker shade of orange than normal as she blinked the sleep out of her eyes and refocused her gaze on Anakin, who was- yep. Standing over her, firmly but carefully holding her arms. He met her eyes. "You back with us Ahsoka?"

"Yeah-" Her throat grated against the word, it felt like there was a rock lodged in her neck. Anakin gently lowered her down as she collapsed and devolved into a fit of coughing. By the end of it, Ahsoka was feeling lightheaded again, but she propped herself up against the wall her cot's pillow rested against nonetheless. Rex had put down her lightsaber case and come closer to the bed, still standing at attention in the way Clones did when they weren't quite sure what else to do. Ahsoka sighed as she put together why exactly he'd been holding her sabers in the first place. "Sorry Master, sorry Rex. I didn't mean to wake you… again."

"Ahsoka." Anakin's voice was firm, and she scooted away from the edge of the bed to give him room as he sat down and turned to her. "You remember what we talked about last time?"

Ahsoka averted her eyes. Of course she remembered, she'd been doing everything in her power to avoid it. She'd had four other… episodes, since the last time he'd caught her, but this was the worst one yet. "Master, please," she pleaded, turning back to him, "I'm okay, it's really not that bad-"

"Come on, Ahsoka, we both know that's not true." Anakin stood and crossed his arms, cocking his hip just so in that way Obi-Wan does. "You're not okay, 'Soka. I know your squad's been covering for you-" he shot a raised eyebrow at Rex, who straightened up even more than before- "but your combat effectiveness is dropping, you're tired all the time, you're obviously struggling, you need to take some time off."

"Master!" Said Ahsoka, glaring up in protest. "I'm fine, okay, so I haven't been getting the best sleep-"

"-you've been screaming bloody murder in your sleep, all night if we don't stop you, yes-"

"-but you need me here, there's too much going on on-planet for just one Jedi to handle!"

Anakin nodded once. "Well, yeah. You got me there." Ahsoka started to smirk, but her expression froze as Anakin continued. "Which is why I've asked the temple to send Master Plo Koon to take over for you."

The Togruta Padawan stared at her Master for a moment, uncomprehending. Then she blinked, and exploded. "YOU WHAT!?"

"Whoa! Ahsoka, relax!" Anakin stepped back two paces as she struggled to her feet, the temporary brace on her left leg making it more cumbersome than normal.

Dozens of emotions were flying through Ahsoka's head. From anger at her Master for superseding her with no warning, to shame for her own weakness, to desperation to convince him to take it back. They all came tumbling out in a cascade of confused stuttering. "Master! Why would you- are you? You don't have to do this! Please, please give me another chance, Master, I-" Ahsoka took one step towards him, then another, then her legs gave out, feeling like jelly under her, and she collapsed in front of her Master. "Please don't send me back to Coruscant, please, I-... I don't want to let you down…" Her head felt woozy from getting up too quickly, and she swayed on the spot where she had fallen.

"Ahsoka…" Anakin said as he knelt down in front of her, his clear blue eyes seeming to pierce through her. Ahsoka tried to hold his gaze, but her vision was blurred, for some reason. "I need you to listen to me now, okay?"

Ahsoka looked down sullenly, and saw twin drops of clear liquid fall from her face. She was crying? For how long? She sniffled, and hoped Anakin hadn't noticed.

"Ahsoka, hey." Anakin caught her attention again, and gently grabbed her shoulders in that reassuring, big-brothery way that always- well, usually made Ahsoka feel better. "Okay?"

"Okay…" Ahsoka muttered.

Anakin squeezed her shoulders. "You are not letting me down Ahsoka. You are one of the best, one of the most trustworthy, and honest, and good Jedi I've ever had the honour to fight with, I am so proud to call you my Padawan."

"Master…" Anakin wasn't one for idle praise, and despite herself, Ahsoka felt a warm glow in her stomach. More tears joined the small wet spots that were already on the ground.

"But Ahsoka, I need you to understand that I know you, I know when something is wrong, we've been through the grinder together again and again and again. And I am telling you, something is wrong whether you'll admit it or not." Anakin gave her shoulders one last reassuring squeeze and stood. "I'm sending you back to the temple for a mandatory two week leave, minimum. I want you to see a Jedi Counsellor, be honest with them about what's going on, and then follow their recommendations."

A part of her still wanted to lash out angrily, to demand he tell Plo Koon to return. But… she was just so, so tired. A deeper tiredness than just lack of sleep. The kind of tiredness that pervaded every inch of her body, every breath she took and every sentence she said. The kind of tiredness that made you want to lash out at yourself for even feeling it. So instead, she said simply "Yes, Master."

"Good, I'm worried for you Ahsoka." Anakin said. Ahsoka just mumbled something in response, barely even registering what he had said. "Also, Rex will be joining you on your way to Coruscant."

Ahsoka blinked, and turned halfheartedly. She saw Rex wearing a similar expression to her own, and they both started to talk at the same time.

"What? Master, come on, please, I do not need a babysitter!"

"Sir. Commander Tano definitely does not need a babysitter."

"Uh-huh." Anakin cocked an eyebrow, wearing an imitation of the deeply unamused expression Obi-Wan only wore when he was extremely amused. "Well, it's actually just a matter of convenient timing. Rex, I was gonna tell you in a more formal setting, but kriff it. You've been chosen to be the face and voice of a publicity campaign ordered by the Supreme Chancellor's office. It'll only last a couple of weeks, but they're going to have you in the studios for hours on end, doing interviews, little scenes for promotional stuff, the works. As a capstone, you've also been invited to join a Joint Grand Army Command meeting that will be taking place partway through your stay as a trial to see 'if Clones are ready to be included in strategic meetings,' as if you aren't all running the show on the ground anyway."

Rex gaped comedically at his General. "Uh, General Skywalker, with all due respect, what? "

Anakin's expression turned extremely pointedly neutral. "Whatever do you mean, Captain?"

"Well, first, why the kriff am I the one who has to do this?" Rex asked, clearly overwhelmed.

Anakin smiled. "Why, you certainly seem more than qualified! Even if you haven't made Commander yet, it's no secret you're my primary advisor when it comes to strategic matters. I don't doubt there's a friend somewhere that put a good word in the Chancellor's ear." If Ahsoka didn't know Anakin better, she'd have said his sudden smile looked benevolent, bordering on angelic. But of course, Ahsoka did know Anakin better, he was obviously being a smarmy little shit.

Rex had obviously caught on by this point too, and he just gave Anakin a long suffering, resigned glare. "Yes, sir."

"Don't worry Rex, you'll do fine, you deserve a break too, anyway. Besides, you'll be helping your brothers. Those pompous a-… uh, Generals, at High Command don't seem to really see Clones as… y'know, people, quite yet. Maybe you can help convince them." Anakin shrugged. "Anyway, 'Soka, Rex, you've got six hours until departure, try to get some actual sleep before then, okay?" With that, Anakin flashed them both another shit eating grin, and strode out.

"He sure… changes his tune on the drop of a hat." Rex said, glancing at Ahsoka. She just sighed and nodded.

"Seeya in a few hours, Rex."
 
2 - flight
The familiar buzz between your ears that indicated a hyperdrive spinning up was what brought Ahsoka out of her half-sleeping daze. She'd managed to fall back asleep, this time without night terrors, after Anakin and Rex had left. Vaguely, she remembered staggering her way to the Coruscant-bound shuttle, where she'd apparently gone back to sleep.

Ahsoka pushed herself up from the row of plasteel and cloth seats she'd been lying across, and immediately winced. Montrals… weren't very comfortable to sleep on without a pillow, especially when they were as large as hers. She rubbed the sleep out of her eyes with one hand while groping for the armrest release with the other. A soft click later and she let herself slump down against the newly deployed sides of her chair.

"Sleep better, Commander?" Rex's voice came from somewhere ahead and to her right.

"Mmhmm," Ahsoka replied, "thanks Rex." Finally, after what seemed like far too long, her vision began to clear and she got her bearings. Huh. A full on civil transport, designed to ferry close to 150 commuters a dozen times a standard day, and her and Rex were the only ones in the passenger compartment. After blinking dumbly at her surroundings for a moment, she turned to the Clone Captain, sitting bolt upright in his cleanly pressed grey dress uniform. "Hey Rex, isn't this a bit… much?"

He sighed, looking all kinds of uncomfortable out of his armour. "Apparently, this transport has been provided to us as part of my publicity… stuff. Main reason is the cargo hold, got some old equipment from 501st stocks they want me to pose with."

Ahsoka snorted. "Is that so?" That was just like the Chancellor's Office, she'd never bring it up in front of Anakin, but they were notorious for cutting corners. Ahsoka leaned an elbow on her armrest and rested her chin on her hand. "So Rex," she said, "how are you feeling about the publicity campaign?"

The clone grimaced, making his feelings on it all too clear. "I'm… not exactly excited, Commander. Don't get me wrong, it's an honour, but I'd rather be with my brothers, or at least have some of them here with me."

Ahsoka nodded. "Yeah, I get that."

Rex just shrugged and said "To be perfectly honest, Commander, the part I'm really worried about is the High Command meeting."

The Padawan cocked her head. "Really? I figured you'd be more comfortable with that than the publicity."

"Posing for, well let's be honest, propaganda, is easy. Just have to read lines, stand where they want, look stern and powerful." Rex sighed and slouched into his chair. "But the High Command… General Skywalker sat me down before we left and started giving me all these instructions about who to listen to and ignore and who might support Clone's rights and who's politically this way or that way and blah blah blah." Rex trailed off and kicked at the air in a way that was surprisingly childlike. It was a gesture that, among others, Ahsoka had seen amongst the Clones when they let their guard down. The small tics that betrayed the age their appearance belied. Clones might be mostly as mature as any adult, but how much of that impression came from their military training on Kamino? It was easy to forget that most of these soldiers were just coming up on their twelfth or thirteenth birthday, a fact that the Chancellor's Office was not very keen to advertise. Rex continued after a moment, "Well, you've heard it a thousand times, Commander. 'Clones don't like to get political,' but it sounded like there's going to be more politics in that meeting than actual strategy."

Ahsoka nodded, and leaned back in her seat, slouching down part way so her legs could reach the opposite row of seats. "That's just how the Republic is, unfortunately."

"I guess, I just didn't expect General Skywalker to care so much about it."

"Oh man," Ahsoka said, giving a snort, "you misunderstood him if you think his explanations meant he liked it. Anakin hates politics, as far as he's concerned, the only reason the Republic hasn't won the war yet is because the Senate and Jedi Council won't let the Chancellor 'do what needs to be done,' whatever that is."

Rex cocked an eyebrow. "And you don't agree?"

"I… don't know." The Padawan sighed again, slouching even further. "Yeah, there's useless politics in the Senate sometimes, I've been there with Senator Amidala and watched them just bicker and not reach any agreement for hours on end. But I don't think giving the Head of Government unlimited power is the answer. I swear, sometimes it feels like the Chancellor is even egging them on when they start to argue in circles."

"And the High Command?"

Ahsoka rolled her eyes. "Assholes. Almost all of them." Rex grinned at her language, and Ahsoka paused for a moment, thinking. She couldn't offer Rex any… practical advice on dealing with the politics, but his comments had reminded her of something. She sat back up and met Rex's eyes. "Y'know, there's something Senator Amidala once said to me. 'War is a continuation of politics by other means.' I'm pretty sure it's just a quote from some old General that she gave a different meaning to, but I liked how she explained it. War happens because what we normally think of as 'politics' has failed. When you're… I don't know, introducing a bill on the Senate floor, you always have to remember what your actual goal is, or it might get amended right out without you even realizing. But the same thing can happen in a war. If the Government, and the Generals, and the Admirals and Commodores and Commanders and Lieutenants and Captains, and even individual soldiers forget what their goal is… forget why they're fighting… it turns into a war for war's sake." Ahsoka took a breath and looked at Rex, who's face had creased into a deep frown. "Do you know why you're fighting, Rex?"

His frown deepened. "Well, for the Republic, right?"

"That's who you're fighting for, but why Rex?"

The Clone Captain's mouth worked up and down a few times, and he started to talk before cutting himself off. Finally, he said "I guess… I guess I don't really know, Commander. I'm just fighting because it's what I was told to do." He looked uncomfortable.

Ahsoka nodded and dropped her gaze to the floor. "I know, Rex."

"What about you, Commander?" Rex asked. Ahsoka froze as her mind processed the question. "What are you fighting for?"

It was a ridiculous question, right? She was a Jedi, what else would she be fighting for? The good of the galaxy, to protect those who cannot protect themselves, but… But nothing, that was it, the Jedi were peacekeepers, she was fighting to restore the peace, of course. Her mouth stayed shut though, as if betraying her mental certainty. No… No. Everything felt wrong about those answers. The good of the galaxy? What good had she been a part of in the past few months? Was it good when she escorted a bomber squadron to attack a shield generator factory that was actively being worked by civilians? Yes, they were Separatists, but weren't they also 'those who cannot protect themselves'? If she was fighting to keep the peace, why did her fleet seem to be attacking planets more than it defended them. What kind of peace was she restoring? She remembered seeing the clone garrisons arrive to support the new, pro-Republic governments of planets she had helped liberate. If there was to be peace on former Separatist planets, would it always be at the end of a rifle? Could that be called peace?

Ahsoka's mouth felt dry as she opened it, and a knot of… something, some kind of anxiety, or a pit of crawling dread, had formed in her stomach. "I… guess I don't really know either, Rex."

They were silent for the rest of the trip to Coruscant.
 
3 - padmé
Ahsoka breathed in, held… and let it out. The further they had gone through hyperspace towards Coruscant, the clearer her mind had felt. Meditating on the way had proven a smart choice, she still felt as tightly wound as a chronometer, mentally, but her body had at least relaxed.

"Five minutes to disembarkment." The pilot droid's voice buzzed through the vessel. It looked like Rex was already waiting by the shuttle door, back straight as a lightsaber, as usual.

"Is it really more comfortable to stand at attention when it's just the two of us, Rex? You know I don't mind." Ahsoka said, stretching on the spot.

Captain Rex shrugged and slouched slightly. "Force of habit, Commander. Decorum like that's been beaten into me since birth."

Ahsoka frowned and looked at the Clone seriously. "Beaten?"

Rex shrank and gave her a sheepish grin. "Ah- figure of speech Commander, sorry."

"Mmhm…" Ahsoka hummed. "If you say so, Rex. I know Master Shaak-Ti is overseeing the Clone training now, but I've definitely heard rumours about the Kaminoan training programs."

The Captain shrugged uncomfortably, seemingly even more upright and tense than before. "Well…"

He was interrupted by their pilot droid's voice once again droning through the ship speakers. "Arriving at Coruscant Spaceport Gate B78, please disembark promptly once the doors have opened."

"Well, we better get going Commander!" Rex said quickly, scooping up his meager travel bag. "Your bags in the cargo hold?"

Ahsoka shook her head. "I've got all a Jedi travels with right here," she said, and patted her saber hilts.

Rex just grinned and shook his head. "Right."

A moment later, the transport's door opened with a hiss of releasing hydraulics. There was a slight pressure differential between the Coruscanti atmosphere and the artificial atmosphere of the ship, so the hiss of the hydraulics was joined shortly by a gentle rush of air tinged with the smells of the city. It was like breathing gaseous nostalgia, Ahsoka thought as she stepped down the unfolding shuttle stairs. How long had it been since she'd been at the Capital? A few months, at least. But it had stayed the same, she could already tell, in that strange way cities do despite being constantly in motion. The force felt alive around her in a way it never could away from the planet of two trillion souls. It was almost overwhelming, like ten dozen invisible hands all beckoning her to look in different directions, on top of the already eye catching physical sights and attention-seeking noises that crowded her perception.

Underneath the gentle nostalgia though, in that spot in the pit of her stomach that functioned as both instinct and anxiety, she could feel… something. Something gnawing at her, pulling at the core of her being. She couldn't place the feeling, but something about it felt familiar. She shook her head, filing the thought away, and as much as she could, she pushed it to the back of her mind, along with the part of her that sensed all these people's emotions echoing in the imprint of the force around her. Ahsoka pressed her lips together and gave herself a small nod, she was in control, she wasn't going to freak out again today.

"Ahsoka, is that you?" A smooth, perfectly controlled alto called out, a voice used to projecting itself over a din without shouting.

Ahsoka snapped her gaze in the direction of the main exit from the platform to meet the familiar voice. "Senator Amidala?" She asked before seeing her, already knowing the answer.

"Padawan Tano," Padmé answered with a smirk, calmly walking forward to meet the young Jedi.

Ahsoka rolled her eyes. "Okay, Padmé then, but when I slip up next time you visit the Temple, it's up to you to explain why I'm on a first name basis with a major Senator."

Padmé laughed as the two of them embraced warmly. "I don't know about major Senator, but I appreciate the vote of confidence." Ahsoka felt her face heat up as they held the hug for a few moments, but quickly cleared her mind as Padmé held her by the shoulders and looked her up and down. "You've grown!" Padmé declared. She squeezed one of Ahsoka's biceps. "Lots of muscle, but you're still too skinny, just like Anakin."

Ahsoka just pursed her lips and tried not to laugh while the Senator began her fussing routine as they walked through the terminal. It was a familiar rhythm to fall into. For a while, before she had turned sixteen, Padmé had been as present in her life as Anakin was. It was fairly obvious he and Padmé were… 'friends.' Yeah, Ahsoka shrugged mentally, she'll just think of them like that. But it was comfortable. Ahsoka and Padmé had grown close enough during her time still living at the Temple, that even if an assignment was deemed too dangerous for a Padawan to accompany on, she would stay with Padmé while she waited for Anakin to return.

Padmé quieted as they turned onto the main boulevard of the Senate District. Ahsoka glanced sidelong at her. Padmé's outfit was still the kind of effortless elegance that made Ahsoka… not jealous, since jealousy wasn't the Jedi way and any such thought was most assuredly banished from her mind the instant it formed, obviously. But… wanting. If that was any better. A simple, form fitting white shirt and pants (miraculously unstained despite a long walk through a spaceport), brought together by a light brown belt, bracelets, and necklace. Oh Force, how long had it been since Ahsoka had cared at all about fashion? The frontlines must be getting to her. Padmé looked over at the Padawan curiously, startling Ahsoka with the knowledge that, wow, yes she had grown, she was looking Padmé straight on in the eyes.

"So," Ahsoka said, breaking off eye contact, "how'd you know I was coming?"

"Anakin told me, he thought it might be nice for someone to meet you at the spaceport." Padmé said, smiling at the Padawan.

Ahsoka rolled her eyes. "How kind of him to make you drop your Senatorial work to babysit me."

"Come now," Padmé frowned and stopped walking to face the Padawan. "He's worried about you, you know. I am too."

Ahsoka felt her face heat up again, and something twisted inside of her at the words. "You don't need to be worried about me, okay? I'm fine. I just… need some time off, probably."

Padmé just pursed her lips and hummed, turning back towards the Senate building. "Well, it's fine anyway. Senator Chuchi is writing the first draft of a bill we're collaborating on right now, so there's nothing for me to do quite yet."

Ahsoka danced out of the way of a veritable baggage train of street food sellers making their pilgrimage down to the mid-city, before her mind caught up with the conversation. "Oh? You're working with Riyo?" She asked, smiling at the thought of the passionate Pantoran Senator.

Padmé grinned. "Oh yes, fiery young thing, isn't she? We're aiming to put together a coalition to get a bill through that… redistributes some of the emergency powers that the Supreme Chancellor has centralized to his Office."

"Mmhmm," Ahsoka hummed, nodding sagely, "no doubt it will receive an equal amount of floor time and consideration at peak attendance hours, as should be expected of any bill handling such a wide-ranging topic, and will not be clearly overshadowed by any sort of pro-war discussions."

Padmé gave her a flat look, but couldn't keep a smirk from rising to the surface. Ahsoka was all too aware of Padmé's complaints about the Senate. With Anakin often not willing to hear about even a stiff breeze that blew against the Supreme Chancellor, Ahsoka had often been the one that Padmé vented to when she didn't want to involve her colleagues in the Senate.

"Well," Ahsoka said as they approached the Temple-Line skybus platform in front of the Senate building, "you and Riyo let me know if I can help at all, Force knows I'll be bored out of my montrals in a few days."

Padmé paused in front of the skybus for a moment, then snapped her fingers and turned to Ahsoka. "Right! I nearly forgot, Anakin wanted me to remind you to get an appointment with the Counsellors ASAP, apparently their queues can run somewhat long, so the sooner the better."

Ahsoka rolled her eyes. "Right, right, I'll do it first thing tomorrow, okay?"

Padmé nodded, "Okay," and hugged Ahsoka again. "Don't hesitate to call me if you need me, or a meal that's better than Temple rations." She said the last part with all the disdain of a person who had actually eaten lunch at the Jedi Temple before. The Senator let go of Ahsoka and gave her a gentle push towards the skybus.

"Will do, seeya Padmé," Ahsoka shot over her back as she boarded. She jammed her datacard into the notoriously buggy scanner port (which thankfully deigned to spit it back out at her this time) and squeezed through to the top of the skybus.

"Oh! Ahsoka!" Padmé's voice rang out from below. Her voice could cut through a din when she was projecting, but when she was yelling? She could knock Master Yoda out of his meditation from the bottom of the Temple. Ahsoka leaned over the side of the skybus with a grin, ignoring the brightly flashing holowarning about keeping arms and legs inside the vehicle. Padmé caught sight of her and waved. "Don't forget to call Ani! He'll miss you, but he won't call first!"

Ahsoka affected an upper class Coruscanti accent and shouted back, "Yes, mother!" But her smile dropped as Padmé seemed to freeze and break eye contact at the second word. The reaction only lasted a moment, but moment-long reactions were what Ahsoka had trained for most of her life to be sensitive to. She smiled uneasily and waved once again to the cheerily waving Padmé, but then retreated back into the bounds of the second level of the bus and sank into her seat.

She hadn't known Padmé to get hangups about joking quips about her mother-henning nature before. Had something changed? Was it just a weird thing to say after having been gone so long? Ahsoka shook her head, feeling the slight G's as the bus took off towards the Temple. Maybe it was just insensitive, no doubt Padmé had worried about her while she was on deployment, she'd probably just had to suppress her mother-y instincts and it might've stung to be reminded. Or something. Ahsoka could sight read opposing lightsaber duelists with ease, but when it came to judging others emotions? Well, she was just glad she had a connection to the Force.

Speaking of which, she cleared her mind, performing her pre-meditation breathing exercises without actually sinking in. Apparently her room had been kept for her at the Temple, and, she decided, she had earned a quiet night of solitude.
 
4 - the job
Asajj Ventress met the Ithorian bartender's wide, beady eyes as she downed her third Geonosian Plasmaball without changing expression. She was, admittedly, cheating a bit. The dark side is a pathway to many abilities some would consider unnatural, including suppressing physical pain, something Asajj had been finding increasingly useful of late to more quickly escape the dullness of being sober on Coruscant.

"Another," she growled, palming another credit chit onto the bar. The Ithorian waggled it's ugly mug in what she could only assume was a 'yes' and trundled away. Asajj warily eyed the empty bottles of Corellian Whiskey and Weequay-Cinnadrink that it left next to the shaker on it's side of the counter. Had she drank that much already? Didn't fucking feel like it.

Asajj spun her stool around and leaned back onto the bar, taking a proper look around the nightclub for the first time since she'd sauntered in. A few curious eyes quickly averted their gaze as she scanned the dimly lit room. Coruscanti nightclubs were awful. It was truly incredible how the prudish stuck-upedness of the Senate managed to penetrate all the way down into the undercity to specifically make Asajj's life boring as fuck. Even the bounty hunting had nothing on some of the Outer Rim contracts Asajj had seen when she was still-

She balled her fists and growled loudly enough that moments later the stools to either side of her had been vacated. A spike of anger, no longer raw but filed to a thin, deadly point once again came to the forefront of Asajj's mind and- fucking damnit. She was making the lights dim again, too fucking overt. Asajj sighed and shook her head, no point thinking about the Outer Rim or Him tonight, not much she could do without a ship.

The pale woman blinked a few times and looked back up as the red receded from her vision. Maybe she had missed something actually fucking interesting on her first look around? She zeroed in on the dancefloor, where strobing laserlights and a gentle fog masked bodies throwing themselves to and fro. Yeah, there were people dancing, but it was Inner Rim dancing, which hardly suited what Asajj was interested in.

Although… she leaned in, squinting and swaying side to side as her vision unfocused and refocused. Hello. A pretty little Togrutan thing standing in a group by the dancefloor was looking between her friends and Asajj with a tantalizingly demure expression on her face. The Dathomirian licked her lips and stood- ach, a little too quickly- and distantly sensed the Ithorian come back behind her.

"Your drink," it said, the speakers on it's twin mouths translating it's weird, whale sounding Ithorian language into Basic. Without looking, Asajj reached back and snatched the cup- oh, larger than the shot glasses of her first three- and once again downed it in one. That… was a lot of Plasmaball. Was the fucking bartender trying to kill her?

Asajj spun back around towards the bar, nearly overshooting but throwing the force out to her side in time to stop herself suddenly. Across the room, someone's drink inexplicably spilled into their lap. The lights dimmed again. She laughed out loud, though most might've described it as a cackle, and almost hoped she had alerted some Jedi spy. She reached out and grabbed the Ithorian's shirt, tugging him towards her. "Next time I…" She blinked. Ithorian's eyes are… fucking big, huh? And… far apart. Kinda stupid looking. She was looking this bartender in just one of it's eyes. Eh, at least it looked panicked enough. Oh, what was she saying? "Uh. Order a drink, make it in a good size!" Yeah, that sounded right. Without a second thought she tossed him back towards his side of the bar, ignoring the sound of empty glass bottles being knocked over. Now where was she? Ah, the Togruta girl.

Ooh, she had moved to the dance floor, but she was sticking close to the edge, almost as if- a sidelong glance that the Togruta quickly cut off confirmed Asajj's suspicions. The amber skinned woman had been waiting for her to look, and now as she started to dance… yes. Asajj could see why, that was a very interesting dance. Asajj let herself smile predatorily, supposedly Togruta were into that kind of thing, and it came naturally to her anyway. Feeling confident, she started to slink towards the flashing lights.

She only made it a metre however, before an unfamiliar pressure on her unarmoured shoulder brought her to a halt. Asajj frowned and jerked against it once. Her frown deepened as it stayed firm. The Dathomirian sighed and finally accepted that someone had been moronic enough as to lay their hand on her shoulder. Her whole body tensed at once in a way that was incredibly visible and reeked of imminent violence, like a cat preparing to pounce. Did she flex the bare arm that was visible to the dancefloor a little more than the other? That's not your fucking business.

"I wouldn't do that if I were you." Eugh, another man. This one had a pompous sounding Uppercity accent. Like, upper Uppercity, the kinda Uppercity accent that could get you a 'legitimate' bounty on your head if you pissed it off.

Still, that didn't mean she had to be nice. Asajj let her body relax halfway and turned around, shrugging the hand off of her shoulder. "What?" She asked with a sneer.

A burly Weequay stared back at her for a moment, before he stepped aside to let the owner of the accent through. A surprisingly unassuming older human met her gaze evenly. Asajj stood a good four or five inches over him, and his facial structure was nearly angular enough to match Ventress' own. His clothes weren't ostentatious, but were clearly fine, most certainly a level of material and craftsmanship above anyone else in the club. He met her sneer with a welcoming smile. A politician then, Ventress thought. "You are… Baneback, yes?" Ah, her Bounty Hunting alias, a little tribute to her home planet.

Asajj glanced behind her at the Togruta girl, who appeared to be watching the interaction with interest. A chance to impress her before reeling her in for the night, perhaps? She fixed her gaze back on the Uppercity human and folded her arms over her chest. "Who's asking?"

He stared back at her appraisingly for a moment before nodding. "Come, sit." Asajj's upper lip twisted in irritation, but she forced herself to breathe a moment before following him to his table. Ah, at least this one had a view of the dance floor. Asajj kept her gaze fixed on the Togruta girl as the human stared at her. Oh, that's delightful, the little minx blushed a vibrant orange when Asajj shot her a wink. The Uppercity man cleared his throat. "I have a business proposition for you."

Bleh, his accent reminded her of what an even snootier Kenobi would sound like. She looked back at him and squinted. "Then put it up on the bounty board and I'll take a look, now if you'll excuse me."

"This matter," he declared in a tone that brought his two Weequay muscles-for-brains sidling up to block her exit, "requires a more private touch."

Ventress seethed in her seat. She was trying to get laid here. And now the Weequay were even blocking her view! "Tell them to fucking move and I'll hear you out."

The man paused for one pompous second, and then nodded and waved the thugs away. Seeing the view of her quarry return, Asajj zeroed in on the Togruta, and the two made eye contact. So she had been looking for her. The Dathomirian smirked at the amber skinned beauty, who blushed that bright orange again in response, but this time kept up with a sultry smile that made Ventress shiver in her seat. Ugh, the human was still talking. Just as she thought that, he paused, and a quick glance made it clear he was waiting for a response. "Oh yes, of course." She drawled uncaringly. Hurry the fuck up and leave me alone.

"Good, good, now, it's important to note that the target…" His voice faded back into the background as she refocused on the amber Togruta. Oh, she was dancing again, very nice. Asajj zoned out as she watched the Togruta move almost hypnotically to the pounding rhythm of the club music. She was lithe and muscular, as Togruta tended to be, and watching her muscles contract and extend under her bright skin as she danced was quickly eroding Ventress's patience with the human that had cornered her.

Asajj's eyes widened as the Togruta maintained eye contact and started to dance in a way that suggested a Twi'Lek bellydance, by the Force that girl could move! Alright, fuck this, she would do literally anything to be over there instead of right here. Reluctantly, she broke her eye contact with the Togruta and turned back to the human. He was droning on about something to do with the Senate, for some ungodly reason. Fucking whatever, he probably just wanted her to get some mistress out of the picture, which, hm. Now that she thought about it, that painted an enticing picture for her on it's own, hopefully that was what he wanted. "Hey, hey!" She interrupted him. "Fucking listen, I'm in, encrypt the details and send them to my holoaddress, alright?"

He blinked. "Y-You're sure? I did not think you would be so interested in the-"

"Yes, I'm 'interested', here." Asajj jammed her hand into one of the pouches strapped to her thigh while she continued to watch the Togruta out of the corner of her eye. Her cards eluded her in the spacious little pocket until she sighed irritably and, as subtly as she could, reached out to the force to will them to her hand. "Here!" She repeated, and slammed one down on the table as she launched to her feet. "Now, if you'll excuse me."

"I- Yes, ah, of course." The human seemed taken aback by her insistence on taking the job and quick departure. "We'll be in touch!" His voice was already fading into the background as she strode to the dancefloor. Asajj met the Togruta's sultry smile with one of her own this time as she got closer. Fucking. Finally.

~~~​

Breeeeep. Breeeeep. Breeeeep. Breeeeep.

Asajj Ventress groaned and buried her head further back into her pillows. By the force her head fucking hurt. Downside to nullifying the sting of alcohol with the force: it made it much easier to keep consuming alcohol past when one should likely stop. Normally it'd be easy enough to meditate through the hangover, but that'd mean crawling out from under her nice, dark, warm bedsheets, and that was one thing she was not willing to do.

Breeeeep. Breeeeep. Breeeeep. Breeeeep.

That accursed electronic wailing though, she could not put up with. Well, better to do it fast, like ripping off a medipatch. Asajj tensed, and then in one motion sat herself up and threw the pile of blankets off of herself. Euuuuugh. The midday Coruscanti sun always managed to peak into the nook that Asajj's apartment hid in within the upper Lowercity at the worst times. Fortunately, a quirk of Dathomirian physiology meant that her eyes weren't light sensitive while hungover, something she had heard was a painful morning after lesson for most humanoids. Unfortunately, she was no more immune to the dizziness and nausea than anyone else, and after she had slammed her fist down onto her holopad to open whatever notification was causing that racket, she staggered to her tiny bathroom.

There, she stood over the sink, braced herself against the counter around it, and just stared down into it's semi-reflective burnished durasteel depths. Just breathe Ventress, you've been through worse than this. Hm, she idly thought, in a general sense that's probably true, but this was easily the worst hangover she'd ever had. The former Sith stayed like that for… some time, she wasn't sure how long she just stood willing herself not to vomit, actually. Anywhere between a few minutes and an hour. Somewhere in there.

Finally, she felt secure enough to chance looking up at herself in the mirror. Oh by the fucking force. Had her job yesterday before the bar really gone that badly? Mottled purple marks marred her body from her neck, down her chest, down below where the mirror cut off. Gingerly, she let go of the counter and pressed a finger against the worst looking spot on her neck. Well… it didn't hurt. That was good, probably. Hold on. She squinted, and pressed a bit harder on the spot before pulling her finger across it. The purple mark smeared and, yes, that texture…

Ah.

It was lipstick. A barrage of confused mental images of coiling, writhing amber limbs and a pair of lips coloured a gaudy purple suddenly cascaded across her memory. Ah. Very nice. Feeling somewhat more confident in her locomotive abilities, she turned and grabbed her bathrobe off of the back of her bathroom door, donning it quickly. No point in staining the furniture any more than it already was.

Hm, looked like the Togruta girl had hit the bricks already. A shame. What was her name again? Anisha? Aishi? Something to that effect- ah, look, she left a little note on the kitchenette. Ouh… 'call me,' huh? Along with her holoaddress. Asajj was pleased to know she still had game, that encounter had ended one bastard of a dry spell. Speaking of holoaddress… she turned to the interface projection hovering over her 'work desk' where her holopad sat. Hmph, she had opened the message that disturbed her sleep when she'd slammed the pad on her way to the washroom. It looked like… a target profile? Lacking the official seals of the Bounty Board, which… wasn't great.

Hold on.

Oh no. No, no, no, no. This job… had she accepted this? This was… fucking high profile. Way too fucking high profile. Like, immediately attract Jedi fucking attention high profile. And it was unofficial? Great, they'd strip her Bounty license as they tossed her in a rayshielded cell for the rest of her fucking life. And that was if she was lucky and they didn't realize just who she was, which, fat fucking chance of that.

Asajj blinked. Hold on. This was unofficial, what was binding her to do it? She'd just holomail back, saying, ech, something else had come up, or something, and the deal was off. Yeah, that'd do it. She briefly skimmed the full holomail. Yeah, not a fucking chance of this- though… she paused near the end. That was a lot of credits. Enough to buy a new, nice ship, and then some.

She grimaced. No, Asajj, no. Keep your head down. Don't give the Jedi, or worse, Dooku, any reason to think you're alive. The bounty hunter cracked her knuckles and quickly typed out a terse reply turning down the job. Nevermind that she had already said yes, they had nothing to hold over her. Huh, maybe she could even go to the Board with this and get commended.

Well, maybe not, too. Asajj spun her chair around to face the rest of her room as she mused. That human had seemed affluent, might be better not to make an enemy of him. She pursed her lips and slowly turned her desk chair back towards the projection of the original holomail. Buuut the credits...

She sighed wistfully. No, the Trade Federation had already failed to kidnap the Senator of Pantora once, what made her think she could do any better?
 
5 - garden
Surrounded by the din of droids, Jedi, and civilians, deep in the Public Services sector of the Jedi Temple, Ahsoka was trying her hardest not to lose her temper.

"I am afraid that a booking within the next -TWELVE MONTHS- is impossible, would you like to try another date?"

"Wh- Twelve months!?" Ahsoka sputtered, drawing glances from the other lineups in the bevy of kiosks around her. "What do you mean twelve months?"

"All Jedi Counsellors are engaged, on frontline duty, on vacation, or fully booked for the next -ONE YEAR-. Is there anything else I can help you with?" The expression the droid was giving her was so unflappably quizzical that for a second, Ahsoka felt like she had lost her mind.

"I need to see someone in the next two weeks so I can go back on duty! You can't-!"

"You are a frontline combatant? You did not mention this," the droid spoke over her.

Ahsoka blinked. "Wha- Yes, I gave you my name! Shouldn't that be in the system?!" Why did things always go this way with the kriffing public services droids?

"I am not authorized to view that information. Good news! -Jedi Padawan Ahsoka Tano-, you qualify for the Frontline Accelerated Counselling Waiting List."

Ahsoka let out the breath and tension she'd been holding. "Thank the Force. Well, like I said, any time in the next two weeks is-"

"I am afraid that a booking on the Frontline Accelerated Counselling Waiting List within the next -NINE MONTHS- is impossible, would you like to try another date?"

Ahsoka turned and left without saying another word, not trusting herself to not violate the sanctity of the Jedi Temple's peaceful halls with every one of the numerous expletives she had learned over several years of campaigning with hundreds of different species on many dozens of different worlds.

---​

It was another hour before Ahsoka had stopped fuming enough to take a breath and really clear her head.

Why did everything to do getting a counsellor have to be so convoluted? Even before talking to that insufferable kriffing droid she had spent two hours on a wild goose chase asking different officials where appointments were actually booked. Which made her seriously wonder how they were fully booked with how hard the droid was to identify.

Ugh, she took another deep breath of the clear air in the Temple Gardens. Ahsoka really needed to distract herself, she'd already watched several groups of happily chatting Jedi veer away from where she had been fuming. Even if the massive 'THIS PERSON IS PISSED' feeling she'd been no doubt giving off like a beacon in the force wasn't enough, she was pretty sure she'd been glaring holes in whatever direction she happened to be looking in as she had paced back and forth.

Speaking of which- ow, her legs were aching, in fact her whole body was so physically tense it was painful. Deep breaths. She carefully untensed her shoulders and back, and walked over to the ornate stone bench that backed onto the edge of this particular clearing.

It was one of Ahsoka's favourite spots in the garden, a ring of manicured trees several deep around a clear area of flagstones set into the ground circling the mausoleum of Master Herkato, one of the more legendary Consulars. Pfft, there's a thought. Why in the Force's name did the Jedi have three major, potentially overlapping categories with such similar names? Consulars were a discipline of Jedi focused on using the force for mental acuity, Counsellors were Jedi of any stripe who had been trained in providing emotional counsel to any of their fellow Jedi who were troubled, and Councilors were Jedi who were members of one of the four Jedi Councils. Technically, one could have all three titles.

The absurdity of the thought made her giggle, and as she did it turned into a full blown laughing fit. Force, had she seriously just spent hours upset and angry that Jedi bureaucracy was inefficient when they had such convoluted traditions and naming schemes as Counsellor, Consular, and Councilor? What had she expected?

A minute later, her laughter quieting, Ahsoka leaned back and let her eyes wander up into the well-tended branches of one of the trees lining the clearing. A pair of small, four winged birds looked down at her curiously. A smile came to her face unbidden as she reached out to the force. Carefully, she scritched the little creature's necks, pleased with both how easy the force was coming to her, and with their happy chirping. Clearly she wasn't the first one to grace these little guys with some affection. This was good. She had needed that bit of catharsis after this crappy day. Heck, crappy week. Crappy several years, even. Though, well, she'd need more than a quick chuckle to work through the stress of the entire war, but better something than nothing, she supposed.

Despite her mood clearing though, she was still no closer to getting herself an appointment with a Counsellor. She sighed and let the birds be, pushing up to her feet and catching sight once again of the tomb she'd been pacing angrily next to. Suddenly feeling somewhat embarrassed, she walked up to Master Herkato's mausoleum, and put her hand against the cool stone. "My apologies, Master Herkato." She mumbled. "For disturbing your rest with my unbalanced emotions."

It wasn't really her fault or anything, but always safer to be polite about these things than not, in her experience. Stepping back, Ahsoka became aware of the heat of the midday Coruscanti sun on her back. It was just past noon then, the gardens would be filling up soon as groups of apprentices and Master/Padawan pairs came through on their midday break. With half a mind to just wander aimlessly for a while till she found somewhere secluded, Ahsoka turned away from Master Herkato's clearing, and began making her way back to the Temple proper.

Or, she would have, if she wasn't stopped by a familiar, surprised voice softly calling out to her.

"Ahsoka?"

Ahsoka froze and spun around, not quite sure if her heart was beating this fast because she was startled or because-

"Barriss!" She shouted, pushing the thought aside. With a grin the Padawan threw herself into a hug with her Mirialan friend, throwing them both slightly off balance.

Barriss instinctively wrapped her own arms around Ahsoka, catching her and doing her level best to keep them both upright, despite the taller Togruta having a head of height and several pounds of muscle over Barriss. But, as she caught her friend, Barriss felt herself relax subconsciously too, an infinitesimal loosening of the tension she normally carried through her whole body. "Good to see you, Ahsoka." She murmured.

Then, the woman behind her, who Barriss had briefly, blissfully forgotten about, loudly cleared her throat. Both Padawans snapped to attention and stepped apart, Ahsoka actually panicked and took several steps back, forcing Barriss to suppress a giggle.

"Padawan Tano, I was under the impression you and your Master were still out in the B Quadrant," Barriss Offee's own Master, Luminara Unduli said.

Ahsoka froze as the older Mirialan regarded her with one raised eyebrow. Master Unduli carried herself with a dignified poise that few other Jedi matched, something about it always put Ahsoka off balance. Perhaps it was that her own Master, and his Master in turn were each so significantly more… casual than Luminara. "I- Um," Ahsoka stuttered, trying to regain her presence of mind, "Master Skywalker felt that I needed time away from the frontlines, so I'm on-world here for a couple weeks."

Luminara's expression seemed to soften marginally, "I see. Are you-"

"Time away? Are you injured, Ahsoka?" Barriss cut her Master off, and Ahsoka didn't respond momentarily out of shock. That… wasn't like her friend. She risked a quick sidelong glance at Master Luminara. Ah, she had her eyes closed and was taking deep breaths, that's… probably fine.

"N-No, not injured Barriss, just-" Ahsoka wracked her brain for a reasonable excuse, "-having trouble… sleeping," she finished blandly. She felt her cheeks heat up as she was met with the same unimpressed expression from the Mirialan Master and Padawan both.

"Well, I hope that you find a healer who can resolve that for you, Ahsoka," Luminara finally replied.

Barriss sighed, and fixed Ahsoka with an expression that clearly said she'd be digging into this later. "Quite. I'll catch up with you later, okay? I have a discussion to finish with my Master-" The frostiness and irreverence with which Barriss referred to Master Unduli was making Ahsoka feel… weird. It wasn't so different from how Ahsoka was used to bantering with her own Masters, but something about Barriss' tone, not to mention the mere context of her speaking that way to Master Unduli of all people, changed the meaning of it all entirely.

"Actually, Barriss," Luminara said, steel suddenly in her voice, "you've spoken quite enough for now. Spend some time with your fellow Padawan, and we shall continue speaking later."

Barriss froze and stood up straight, breaking eye contact with Ahsoka. Her face twisted into a sneer, which was forced down a moment later with a visible effort. After that second of silence, she inclined her head slightly, keeping her back to Luminara. "As you say, Master."

Ahsoka flicked her eyes from one Mirialan to the other, her nerves growing more frayed with every tension filled second. "As you say, Master Unduli," she managed to squeeze out, and bowed her head a bit further than Barriss' was.

Luminara gave her an inscrutable look for a moment longer, then nodded and continued down the pathway the direction she and Barriss had been walking, her even stride and long robes almost making it look as though she was gliding along.

Barriss stayed stock still, eyes narrow, until her master had stalked out of sight. Then, the tension fled her body all at once, and she sagged down into a slouch with a sigh.

"So… that was…"

Barriss glanced back up at Ahsoka, catching her raised eyebrows and small frown. "Yes, we're-" The Mirialan apprentice struggled to find the word for a moment, then gave up with a harumph. "-I'd just prefer not to talk about it right now."

Ahsoka nodded and pursed her lips, then stepped to the side, motioning for her friend to walk with her. "Well, I can't say I'm in the mood to talk about why Master Skywalker sent me here either, why don't we just catch up over some noodles in the city?"

"Or…" Barriss suddenly straightened up, "we could do something more fun?"

"Fun?"

Barriss maneuvered in front of the Togrutan Padawan. "When's the last time you practiced your dueling?" She asked with a sly smile.

"Practiced it?" Ahsoka hummed. "Months, probably. I've been in a few saber fights and used it plenty in battle, but I haven't done any proper dueling."

"I think, then, that it would behoove us both to test ourselves against one another in the training rooms, no?"

Ahsoka shrugged easily as they started to walk through the growing throngs of Jedi to their new destination. "Yeah, that works for me. Funny, I didn't know you were all that interested in dueling, Barriss."

"I wasn't particularly, but I've gained a new appreciation of it in recent months."

"Oh? Any reason for that?"

Barriss shrugged uneasily, and turned to look away from Ahsoka. "I came off on the worse end of a few saber based engagements, I believed that studying up on the forms would help me avoid being a liability in the future."

"And?"

Barriss finally looked back at her with a grin as they arrived at the entrance of the training pits. "I guess you'll just have to come and judge for yourself." She said, then swept into the pits, looking for a free one for the two of them.

Ahsoka shook her head. Something about Barriss' behaviour was bugging her. She seemed a little wilder, or a little less… hinged, than the reserved young woman Ahsoka had known… Force, how many months had it been since she'd seen her?

She supposed it made sense that someone could change in that amount of time. And it's not like a little extra assertiveness and spunk were bad. In fact, once she got over the weirdness of seeing Barriss act this way, she felt more drawn to her friend than ever.

Nodding seriously to herself she hurried to follow Barriss into the training pits. Whatever was going on between her and Master Unduli, she would do her best to support her friend. And for now, that meant trying not to humiliate her too badly in a duel.
 
6 - duel
This chapter brought to you by two years of occasionally thinking about the inherent homoeroticism of lightsaber dueling.



Temple Dueling was a martial art- that meaning, it wasn't remotely the same as actual combat. Yes, it was a tool to help Jedi become more familiar with their lightsabers as weapons, and with the intersection between combat and the force. And yes the lightsaber forms and techniques taught in dueling were most certainly used extensively in actual saber-on-saber combat. But it was an art form as much as a competition, and as such significantly more controlled than actual combat.

That might have been part of why Ahsoka enjoyed it so much. She didn't… enjoy fighting for its own sake; she enjoyed that by fighting, she was useful. She could turn the tide of a battle or save innocent lives. More selfishly, she enjoyed the problem-solving inherent in a life-or-death fight. Which she was… pretty sure was not the same as enjoying fighting itself.

Temple Duels however, were a perfect middle ground. The problem-solving necessitated by combat, the limited toolbox inflicted by the strict adherence to the limited amount of deviation allowed from traditional saber forms, and best of all, it was risk free for everyone involved. Mind you, she didn't get the same rush of joy from being useful from it, but there was nothing for her to do on Coruscant anyway, so she may as well have some fun.

Beside her, Barriss was quiet as they entered the dueling hall. The only sounds were the mumbling of some small gaggles of younger padawans, and her Mirialan friend's breathing slowly evening out as she got further away from Master Luminara.

At least, that's what Ahsoka assumed it was. Barriss had said she didn't want to talk about it, so Ahsoka didn't ask.

Instead, they prepared their sabers for the duel in an easy silence. The complex force maneuver of swapping out their usual saber crystals for training crystals came with an easy familiarity that had passing Padawans years their junior slowing down to look on in envy.

Ahsoka met Barriss' grin with her own as they finally took their places across from one another.

"Best of three, contact or yield?" Barriss asked.

Ahsoka smirked. "Works for me."

Then, she breathed. The force swept through her like a wave at the shore, in and out like the tide.

They circled each other, slowly. Barriss lifted her saber over her right shoulder, tip pointing down, robe swaying loosely with her shifting weight. Ah, she was opening in the Makashi form then, relatively standard. By shifting into her stance before Ahsoka had, Barris was setting the tempo for the first bout, and thus the onus was on Ahsoka to respond.

Technically, one could answer an offensive form with another offensive form, but it was considered bad duel etiquette, unless you were dueling with the looser (and officially disapproved of) 'courtyard rules.'
Bariss' eyes narrowed as Ahsoka allowed herself to fall into the third basic stance of the conservative Soresu form. It was, by far, the form she was rustiest in; the defense-minded style of wearing down one's opponent through attrition didn't sit well with how urgent combat felt to her.

Her left saber hilt vibrated lightly as she trailed the tip near the ground, while she switched her right hand from its reverse grip and brought the blade up to hold horizontally over her head.

The two Padawan learners merely stared at each other as Ahsoka finished assuming her chosen position, ceasing their circling, entirely unaware that the entire dueling hall had gone silent around them.

Ahsoka felt Bariss' intent before the Mirialan had even started to move, and was already responding. Barriss extended her arm and stepped forward in one smooth motion, lunging her blue saber forward in a deadly jab. Ahsoka's blades were already moving though. With her raised right saber, she moved to deflect the jab slightly to the side, and with her lower hand, she thrust upwards, trying to stab the blade into Barriss' exposed side. Her friend was quick to react however. Before Ahsoka had even made contact with Barriss' saber, the other girl was already hopping backwards, whirling the tip of her saber in a rapid Shii-Cho style defensive swirl that forced Ahsoka to abort her retaliatory strike.

So Barriss had finally gotten into mixing styles? That was a relief. It boded well, both for Ahsoka's actual enjoyment of this duel, and for her friend's survival on the battlefields of the Clone War. That thought- of Barriss' survival- made Ahsoka hitch and nearly lose a point to Barriss' next attack.

The shorter girl closed in and threw her saber arm up in a sweeping arc- was that the Ataru overhead variant or the Makashi?- Ahsoka had only a split second to decide, and gambled on the latter. It looked like Bariss' whole center guard was open, but from the slight twist at the end of her thin green lips, Ahsoka knew it was bait.

Instead of biting, she thrust both of her sabers down, crossed into an X shape, and was rewarded for her earlier guess on the overhead variant as, faster than you'd think such a small woman could move, Barriss flung her saber behind her in a full wheel that culminated in what would've been a devastating uppercut.

The two Padawans grinned at each other, not even bothering to look down as their sabers locked beneath them, and they respectfully disengaged as the first bout wound down to a lock-draw.

"You have gotten better!" Ahsoka said, grin widening as the onlookers burst into a scattered applause.

Barriss snorted, flicking a hand dipped in the force to swap the analog bout status indicator on the edge of their pit to 'First Bout - Draw.' "That isn't exactly saying much, is it? I'm aware I was never the strongest duelist."

Ahsoka shook her head, "it isn't like dueling's the most important thing a Jedi can do. I've had plenty of times where I wished I was smart enough to take to the healing arts like you did."

Barriss froze for a moment as she processed what Ahsoka must have meant by that, before filing it away.

"They say flattery will get you everywhere, Ahsoka," the Mirialan said, visibly moving on. Her smile turned into a sly smirk that had Ahsoka's heart beating just that little bit faster. "But will it win you the next bout?"

Ahsoka snorted. "Good one, Kenobi," she teased, earning a laugh both from Barriss and a few of the older spectators. She hoped the colour in her cheeks would be merely attributed to exertion.

The granite of the dueling pit floor felt almost soft under her shoes as she immersed herself in the force once more. Even the stone in the temple felt alive. Pliable, like if she were to lunge it would push up under her feet to lend strength to her blow.

Barriss held the neutral stance this time, allowing Ahsoka to take the lead, which was gracious given that technically she still held initiative due to holding it in the prior round that had ended in a draw.

Ahsoka stepped out of neutral, and into her favoured advanced stance within the Shien form. Both sabers flipped into reverse grips, half-crouched, one held before her and one behind.

Barriss' eyes lit up as she saw this. Finally, Ahsoka was taking this seriously. She drank in every flex and contraction of the Togruta's muscles as she took the form. Her toned arms tensing and relaxing, her legs and abdomen as she crouched and flexed her core. Did she have abs? Barriss wanted to see her abs.

There was a fierce beauty in the self-assured movements of a master of a martial art. Ahsoka may not have been a Jedi Master, but those positions were as based on political acumen and age as they were skill in the Jedi fundamentals. No, Ahsoka had always had a natural talent for the saber, and years of fighting had honed that talent into razor sharp, deadly beautiful skill.

By the force, was she ever fucking gorgeous.

But Barriss had been standing in neutral for far too long- in a mediated duel this would have been an 'honourable resignation' about fifteen seconds ago, and the crowd watching was starting to mutter.

Without thinking too hard she hurried to step into the sixth basic Niman stance, a balanced defensive choice, though likely a poor one against a style as aggressive as Ahsoka's.

Ahsoka breathed in once more, allowing herself to sink even deeper into the force, moreso than she had in actual combat for weeks. Here in the dueling hall she could afford the luxury of floating only halfway within physical reality. Here it was uncomplicated, she didn't need to worry about uneven footing or collapsing walkways, about lives she was responsible for, about civilians or bystanders. There was just her, the force, and Barriss.

The Mirialan's stance was good, Ahsoka saw, raking her eyes over Barriss' elegant swathe of robes. Niman had the most duel-legal transitions into other styles, so it was a strong choice against an aggressive opponent who might not be prepared to respond in time.

Unfortunately for Barriss, Ahsoka thought, she was fighting the protege of one of the best duelists in the entire Jedi Order.

The two stopped circling at the same instant once more, bodies poised for controlled violence. There was a moment of stillness between them, as they gazed into each other's eyes.Then, like an overcharged powercell, they erupted. Ahsoka feinted a swipe with her backhand, forcing Barriss back, and tried to sneak in an acrobatic overhead with her reversed main-hand saber.

Barriss responded well, sticking to a basic but effective Niman defense that blocked the overhead, then pushed the caught saber down in an arc and attempted to transition into a very clever Makashi disarmament.

Ahsoka's heart flashed with joy at her friend's newfound skill, where had this come from? She didn't let it work, of course, but it was an awfully agile little flourish, and Barriss had executed it well.

Unfortunately for her, she was committed to Makashi for the moment, and Ahsoka pressed that advantage, launching into a flurry of Shien strikes she'd learned from an old Holocron called the 'Waterfowl Dance.' It was a rare opponent indeed she couldn't overwhelm with it, but Barriss had seen her use it before.

The only warning Ahsoka got was the slight widening, then narrowing of her friend's dark blue eyes- their colour still struck her as odd, Togrutan eyes didn't come in colours that dark yet vibrant- before things became strange.

Barriss stepped back once, allowing her saber to fall to her side as the first several strikes missed her completely. Ahsoka bounded forwards, per the Waterfowl's instructions, confused but committed. The next several strikes also did no more than carve empty air as Barriss serenely stepped back again, not even bothering to enter a defensive stance. How did she know when to move? The Waterfowl Dance wasn't rigid, the number of strikes in each flurry was the same, but the Holocron itself advised varying your timing, delaying attacks, and such, so that no opponent could grow too used to the overwhelming barrage.

But Barriss was responding as though she'd watched Ahsoka perform it by rote thousands of times. Ahsoka launched into the final, most aggressive phase of the dance. Using the force to amplify her advance, she practically jumped at Barriss, sabers flashing.

But then Barriss did something incredible. She didn't step back, and Ahsoka's eyes widened as her sabers came towards the still relaxed Barriss. Training crystal blades couldn't cause injury, but they still damn well hurt.

Moments before contact, time seemed to slow, and Barriss finally acted. She reached out, not with her saber hand, but with her bare left hand directly into Ahsoka's guard, and simply knocked the Togrutan's main hand slightly out of position.

Ahsoka's tightly controlled dash turned into a flail of tangled limbs and montrals as her balance was completely thrown off, and her friend sidestepped to allow her to crash to the hard stone floor unimpeded.

"Ow, ow, ow," Ahsoka muttered from the floor where she lay in a heap. She was still processing what had just happened. That was… insane. No one could keep their cool against her Waterfowl Dance. Even those that managed part of what Barriss had just done- avoiding it completely by backstepping- couldn't help themselves from throwing their saber around into defensive stance after defensive stance in a vain attempt to block in case she did connect.

"Shall we call that one a draw too then?" Asked Barriss. An even more scattered applause than the first broke out as their small audience snapped out of their stupefaction.

Ahsoka rolled herself onto her back. "Barriss, that was incredible! How'd you even do that?" She set the second bout indicator on their pit to indicate a draw as she spoke. In a real fight, getting outplayed like that might have cost Ahsoka her life, but Temple Dueling banned striking downed opponents due to the dangers to both duelists, so calling a draw on a knockdown was the most common outcome. At least, it was in genuinely friendly matches like this one.

Barriss smiled, her cheeks lighting up in a pretty, light green blush. "Just a little technique I've been working on. I'll tell you more about it later, if you like."

Ahsoka scrambled to her feet and called her hilts back to her hands with the force. "Uh, duh I wanna hear more. Can you throw that out whenever?"

"Oh, no," Barriss laughed easily, "it's really rather situational."

"Still," Ahsoka insisted, "that was really incredible. I can't believe you just reached out and… pap." She waved her hand vaguely as she made a popping sound with her mouth.

"Pap?" Barriss repeated as her eyebrow shot up.

"Ya! Y'know, you just… papped me. Then I fell." Ahsoka nodded seriously. "Pap."

Barriss rolled her eyes, but couldn't keep the smile from her face as she took her position opposite Ahsoka. "Yes, well, I'll be sure to title it as the 'Force Pap' when I submit it to the Masters as a formal technique, once I've perfected it."

They both laughed as they returned to their positions. Ahsoka tried to put the crowd that had formed around their chosen dueling ground out of her mind as she readied herself for the final bout. It was time for her to actually start taking this seriously, she had a reputation to maintain, after all. Ahsoka may not have been undefeated in the dueling ring… but she was damn well close.

It would be bad manners not to cede initiative for this bout, given that Barriss had done so for her on the last draw, so she'd have to be ready to play it reactively. That was fine. 'Reactive' defined much of the Jedi Order's ethos, much to Anakin's very vocal annoyance.

Ahsoka frowned as she finished double checking her sabers. This bout couldn't end in another draw, that would be far too anticlimactic, and she was trying to keep the number of draws on her dueling record down. That meant no saber-locks and no downing, among a myriad of other, more obscure conditions.

Barriss stepped into her opening stance once it was clear that Ahsoka was ceding initiative. She surprised Ahsoka yet again by calmly raising her saber overhead, tilted back as though to prepare for a strong, downward strike.

Ataru, huh? Unexpected. It was never a given, but generally Padawans will rely on the form they're most confident in for a final bout, and generally that form is the same as whatever their Master is most confident in. And Master Luminara certainly wasn't known for her use of the aggressive Ataru form.

Ahsoka's breath hitched as the sleeves of Barriss' long robe slid down her arms slightly as she raised her saber. Arms Ahsoka remembered as soft- not weak, but soft- had been crystallized into tight, wiry muscle since Ahsoka had seen her friend last.

But she needed to respond, so she tore her gaze from where it lingered on the rare glimpse of verdant skin. Ataru… well, if this was the form that Barriss was most comfortable with, it would be an insult not to match her. So Ahsoka shifted into a slight variant of what she had started in for the prior bout. Form V was technically a combination of two forms, though they shared enough technique and philosophy that they were combined in practice. What she had used last time was a Shien guard and offensive, the variant of Form V that was primarily intended for use against blasters.

Now, though, she raised one hand and further lowered the other, while shifting her center of balance onto her back foot. This was the Djem-So variant, one that prioritized saber combat. Of course forms weren't as strict as all that, but thinking of what they were 'best' at countering was a useful way to think about them as a toolbox.

The duelists began to circle for the final time, the crowd around them silent. They didn't notice, as they sized each other up, that they had started breathing exactly in sync with one another.

Time seemed to freeze as a shock ran through Ahsoka's core. Barriss was staring at her with absolute, intense focus. It was all Ahsoka could do to match that gaze. She felt like an empty star freighter approaching an ion storm- she was exhausted, emotionally and physically, from the past months of combat. She felt paper-thin in so, so many ways. But Barriss was full of energy and spite and… intention. Ahsoka might have been the better duelist, but Barriss was full of something Ahsoka craved, some animus that had been pulled out of her and torn to nothing by the grueling slog of the campaign against the Separatists.

In that suspended moment between the calm and the storm of their bout, Ahsoka was in awe of Barriss. What would Ahsoka have suggested they do, if Barriss had not brought up dueling? Would they have just taken up a bench in the courtyard? Another interminable nothing choice, one that would leave the resulting conversation stilted and bland? Ahsoka so rarely felt the drive to do anything these days, she only did what she needed to do, what had to be done. Whether that was saving a planetary population of hundreds of millions from foreign occupation, or as banal as brushing her teeth. It was still all only what she viewed as necessary. To come up so close to someone so clearly animated by some inner desire of her own, by some want to prove or learn or just enjoy something. It made Ahsoka realize how much she'd changed and lost since the start of the war. It made her… want some of what Barriss had somehow kept.

They exhaled at the same moment, and Ahsoka found herself moving without thought, propelled by the force around her. Their sabers clashed over her head for only a moment- just a split second of contact to confirm the blow hadn't gone through- before Barriss disengaged, strafing around Ahsoka's left side while the Togruta blinked the brief flash of the saber contact out of her eyes. Before Ahsoka had even managed that, Barriss was lunging at her flank with another jab, but Ahsoka could feel the echo of the blade in the force, and twirled away, raising her arms at the last second to avoid the saber coming a hair's breadth from her stomach.

Barriss found herself staggering forward, caught off-guard by Ahsoka's near instantaneous reaction and thrown off-balance by her own overcommital to the lunge. The Mirialan padawan found herself cursing her ceremonial robes as her feet nearly got tangled up in them. A flash of bitterness towards her Master arced down her spine, and before she could tamp it down the force screamed a warning at her.

Ahsoka came out of her pirouette away from the jab just in time to see Barriss staggering across the dueling pit floor. Her skull throbbed with her heartbeat from the sudden rush of adrenaline at the rapid dodge and seeing her opponent- at seeing Barriss so open to a counterattack. So she swung. With a flex of her core, she shifted her center of gravity forward, and swung her reversed sabers, still raised in the air from her dodge, down at Barriss' unprotected back, as though to skewer her into the floor.

Barriss' response was… insane. Suicidal, had it been a real duel. So far beyond the realm of possibility the Ahsoka's mind didn't catch up with reality for several moments after the duel had ended, even with a training saber stinging at her breast.

Barriss had caught herself in her stagger just in time to react to Ahsoka's counterattack, but she hadn't dodged out of the way. No, instead she had lunged at Ahsoka, straining her muscles and exhaling a growl through her clenched teeth. It had been so fast… Ahsoka hadn't been able to stop her downward stab, and her arms continued, the reverse-gripped blades following Barriss' insane charge to bury themselves in her kidneys when the Mirialan had finally stopped.

But Barriss wasn't the only one with the blade of a training saber burning itself out against their robes. When Barriss had lunged towards Ahsoka, her blade had been in an awkward position. Trying to flick it down and around in front of her to angle it towards her target would have taken a valuable moment that would've spelled her defeat. So instead, she had trusted in the force, trusted in that spiteful lightning bolt that tore down her spine at the thought of her master, and had deactivated her lightsaber for a split second.

Without the blade to potentially injure herself with, she had reorientated herself rapidly, and was able to lunge under Ahsoka's blades, only partway through their killing stab. Then, the saber came back on. Activating a saber that was already pressed against someone was considered uncouth at best, and outright horrifying at worst, but Barriss had timed it properly. No one watching could deny that the end of her saber finished extending just a split second prior to it 'piercing' Ahsoka's breast, right through her heart. At the same instant though, she felt Ahsoka's twin blades sting against her sides, and the rush of emotion through her fled in an instant, leaving only adrenaline and a mild sense of shame.

They stood in that position for a moment, pressed nearly up against one another, staring into each other's eyes while their brains processed what their bodies had done. When had this duel become so serious? Sweat glistened on Barriss' face, and heat radiated from Ahsoka's montrals as they desperately tried to regulate her own body's exertion. Their eyes met and their chests heaved, Barriss looking up at Ahsoka, half-crouched with her blade in the killing blow, and Ahsoka looking down at Barriss, her arms locked in a deadly embrace, holding the stinging sabers against her friend's flanks. They stayed like that for an intimate moment longer, even after they had realized what had happened.

Then, Barriss clicked her saber off, and they staggered apart as the spell was broken. Another draw.


The Waterfowl dance bit was kinda silly, but I had the thought one night and didn't hate it enough to get rid of it when I was going over what I had written the next day. Hope you enjoyed! Hopefully more at... some point lmao. Hooray for 2 year thread necro because this is apparently my writing pace.
 
Huh. I don't know much about the Clone War era of Star Wars, but this is pretty good. Then again, Alobomb is a good writer.
 
7 - a vacation
Senator Riyo Chuchi needed a vacation. The words on the holopad she held in her hands blurred together as she reworded her current project for the umpteenth time. She didn't have a headache (she was still young enough that those were fortunately rare,) but nevertheless found herself mentally exhausted. For a moment, Riyo considered trying to give it one more pass before bed. But no… she could feel it. She was all out of words.

And, for that matter, all out of energy. Padmè had come back and worked on some holowork of her own after stepping out to make some inquiries on Ahsoka's behalf earlier, but the older Senator had retired hours ago at this point. Not that she'd returned to her own apartment. The Pantoran snorted as a particularly loud snore echoed out from her living room. Humans. Riyo didn't know if all humans snored like Padmè did, or if it was entirely unique to her friend. She hoped she'd never find out.

A vacation… it would be nice, very nice. A few days off to work on the bill somewhere where she wouldn't be interrupted every half-hour, maybe with a cooler climate than the perpetual Coruscanti mugginess that the air conditioning only barely offset through the afternoon and evening hours.

Riyo pondered it as she cleaned up her workstation. Holopad to the left drawer, drafting holopens to the right. There was an icey little planetoid she'd eyed in the past, not far from Coruscant via hyperspace. Surely it would have some kind of resort business? Something to look at tomorrow, in any case.

She gathered up the archival dataslates strewn across her desk and dumped them into a shallow tray to return tomorrow. She frowned at the brief glimpse of the topmost dataslate's contents before she clicked it off. It was mildly embarrassing. A vote from shortly after the start of her renewed tenure as Senator of Pantora, following Chi Cho's untimely demise. It was a motion to approve the transfer of certain committees- specifically ones pertaining to Coruscant's own governance- to under the direct supervision of the executive branch.

Or to put it more succinctly: it allowed the Supreme Chancellor to treat Coruscant itself as his personal fiefdom. Not that Riyo would have put it that way. At least, not in front of Padmè, who despite her own disagreements with the Chancellor's politics still held him in some esteem. Still, Riyo was not so reserved in her own mind.

The Supreme Chancellor was clever and subtle, but Riyo had grown up under Chi Cho's reign on Pantora. She'd watched the man centralize the power of the Pantoran Assembly behind the executive office he held in the name of unity against the 'threat' of the Talz. Then when she'd grown, and worked her ass off to become a candidate for Senator, she'd gotten the chance to see for herself how hollowed-out and rotten her home's democracy had become.

Even now, undoing the damage that Chi Cho had done to the Assembly's democratic process, and the public's trust in that process, was going to be the work of many more years.

She gazed for a moment longer at her dull reflection in the inactive dataslate screen. It was hard not to convince herself she was being paranoid sometimes. But… she couldn't help but feel Chancellor Palpatine and Chi Cho were birds of a feather. The scale was laughably different, but their phrasing, their demeanours, it all just rang a little bit too familiar for her to dismiss it.

Hence the embarrassment. Her idealism had been tempered by now, but at the time she'd seen the Senators around her, people who made decisions themselves for what they knew to be best for their people, stand up and loudly cheer for the latest of Palpatine's sprawling reforms. How could she not have gone along with it? She, who had been a quiet mouthpiece for Chi Cho all those years, who finally had a chance to be trusted, wactually trusted, with the interests of her people? Yeah, fat lot of good that had done her. And now here she was, going over that recording as she strategized how to roll back the reforms she had voted for without being laughed out of the Senate.

There were leads, promising ones. Senators recently dissatisfied with the Chancellor, ones who'd opposed it originally, sectors that needed emergency relief that could be packaged in with the bill. Those inclusions left a sour taste in her mouth, but that's the way the Senate worked. If you couldn't garner ideological support, sometimes you'd have to hold something hostage to get it through. Yes, her idealism had been tempered, but she still saw a light at the end of the tunnel. If Chi Cho's day had come, so too would Palpatine's. Hopefully less violently, though. She wasn't quite so far gone as to wish death on an old man.

With her modest office neatly organized, Riyo stepped out into her living room. Only a bare trickle of light came in through the shuttered shades on her windows, but she'd been living here long enough to know her way through the cozy room by feel.

And indeed, even if she hadn't, she would have been able to navigate using Padmè's snoring as a beacon alone.

The noisome Senator in question was sprawled out across one of Riyo's two couches, which were set up in the close-proximity Pantoran style that eschewed a coffee table between them. Padmè never failed to impress when it came to two things: her intuitive political acumen, and her ability to fall asleep in the most unlikely of positions.

This time, she looked more like a contortionist than anything else, arms bent at weird angles, and one leg that had bravely journeyed to the distant land of the other couch opposite its home.

Riyo spent a moment longer staring at her friend enviously. Being able to simply stop doing what you were focusing on when you felt tired… some people truly had it all. Then, she traipsed to her bedroom and promptly passed out on her spacious bed, neglecting to even change out of her senatorial robes.



At 8:30 in the morning precisely, the window shades across Riyo's entire apartment betrayed her, exactly on schedule. The young senator's sleep was interrupted instantly, and she groaned loudly as her mind shuddered into movement.

By the Force, why was she chronically unable to allow herself to get more than six hours sleep? Pantorans needed slightly more sleep than humans did, nine hours to a human's eight, so she was depriving herself more than even Padmè believed.

Speaking of Padmè, Riyo was unsurprised to hear a ringing silence from the rest of her apartment; her friend had likely woken up and left a few hours ago, damned early riser that she was.

For a moment, Riyo contemplated simply rolling herself back over and sleeping in. She did have further alarms set up for such an event, but she found it harder to worry more about the discomfort of having to endure waking up again than she was anticipating the pleasure of sinking back into her dreamless sleep.

As she rolled over to do just that though, her fantasy was interrupted. The weight cushioning her whole body informed her that, alas, she was still garbed in her senatorial robes. Riyo groaned loudly to herself, still halfway turned over, as she came to accept her fate of another day of sleep deprivation.

The Senate did not have a set uniform per se, rather, there was a set of robes specifically provided by the Senate that were earmarked for any formal events where a Senator represented the Senate, rather than their own people (technically, there were nine slightly differing sets of robes matching to the rough guidelines of the most common gender expressions among the Republic's constituents, not counting custom-made ones for non-biped members.)

Riyo was the Junior Senator Overseeing the Coruscant Public Transportation Council, which meant twice a month she had to sit in a room in her formals and apologetically deny funding requests to overworked members of the public taking unpaid time off work to bring their grievances and suggested plans of action to the council. Really, this should have been the Senior Senator Overseer of the Council's job, but whoever that was had never shown up, and Riyo still hadn't found any documents with a clear answer as to who it was meant to be.

Yesterday morning had been one such session. It was actually calmer than most, thanks to the timing. Morning sessions always had the lowest attendance, and those that did show up were often too tired to do more than the rote necessities of the Council's usual duties, followed by a few unheated jabs at the Senate and Riyo in particular. Riyo did not begrudge them this. While she avoided dwelling on it too often, she knew that in many ways she had become a willing cog in a machine that she, overall, strongly disagreed with the present function of.

But needs must, no? If she was able to pass this damn bill she was drafting, she'd actually be able to bring the complaints from the council she oversaw to the Senatorial Committee for Safe Transit for All (Force she hated that name) instead of submitting them directly to the Supreme Chancellor's office to be summarily ignored. In order for that to happen, she had to be the good Senator she aspired to be as a child.

But… even the best Senators often took vacations, and as Riyo stood and began the lengthy process of divesting herself of the obscenely complex lace and knotwork of her formal robes (which would no doubt eat up her entire morning), she pulled up a holoscreen with a free hand.

A few hours later, she was finally free to take a much needed shower, and was actually able to allow herself to relax and enjoy it. Senator's were public figures, so if one wanted a truly uninterrupted vacation, it behooved them to make plans through more discrete channels. In record time Chuchi had found a (subtly) vetted charter ship that would ferry her to and from the resort on her chosen planetoid with no prying eyes any the wiser. Yes, with a font of relaxation in her future, it was much easier to let the tension drain from her shoulders. It was going to be nice to unwind, and have some time to herself, for once.



Good thing nothing bad ever happens to the Chuchis! I'm sure this will be fine.

Didn't expect to drop another chapter so soon but something about jumping around all the character's perspectives in this story has kept me a little more motivated than normal. It's been fun to try and differentiate all of their internal voices. Riyo's is probably my favourite so far.
 
Still enjoying this! But:
And indeed, even if she hadn't, she would have been able to navigate using Padmè's snoring as a beacon alone.

The noisome Senator in question was sprawled out across one of Riyo's two couches, which were set up in the close-proximity Pantoran style that eschewed a coffee table between them.
Having looked it up, it turns out "noisome" can mean "offensive to the senses" more generally, so I suppose she could be noisome by way of being noisy, but I thought it meant "malodorous" specifically.
 
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