it's a strange feeling. Know that you are right. To know that in your grief and rage you can completely disperse. You... You think you hate this man. This... Monster. You don't know his reasons for his actions, you don't know if he can be corrected... And you don't want to correct him honestly... You remember Garion. You sincerely do not want to think about this idea further. You still terrifyingly remember that horror and deathly numbness when you... When Ayin was collecting the Corpses of his friends, colleagues and the Arbiter, for his insane plan. You know how far you want to go... And how far you CAN go. But... It's a little selfish, especially after you've already committed your sin, but... You don't want to kill anymore. Unless it's just another self-defense. How many times have you insensitively pulled the trigger to kill your employees to make your day easier? You don't pull the trigger. You're not doing this for this crazy person. No. You are doing this for yourself. Selfishly. After all these deaths, and after all the rage and fear, you do NOT pull the trigger. You do not allow all those unfortunate children who died at the hands of this man to bring peace ... But okay. Maybe for once in your life, you want to be selfish. Maybe for once you want the world to shut up... Maybe you just want to send it all to hell. But still... You see your reflection in his eyes. You see this Angel of Death, in black and white... You see butterflies... And your gray eyes filled with grief and misunderstanding. Killing this man really means nothing to you. Shouldn't. But... You remember from other people's memories what it was like to look at the almost corpse of another person. What is it like to experience the same ... But more quiet and wild rage. And... You don't pull the trigger. You will send him to containment you... You will figure it out (one day he will almost certainly escape, but... But you don't want how you get closer to your original. You don't want to become even stronger than him. You know, killing him is something for you the same as torturing a former arbitrator for A.I... An extremely selfish little part of you just begging you to turn away from this nightmare. You want to turn away. You know that later you can meet this world face to face again. You know this very well. You are accustomed to this. But for once, you want to be a person, and not some kind of perfect standard. And you turn away. And you don't shoot)
[X] We're humans after all...
-[X] Contain
-[X] Sleep, you need it
