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I obviously don't own Dark Souls or I wouldn't be posting this...
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Scraped from here.

Now on FFnet

I obviously don't own Dark Souls or I wouldn't be posting this story on a forum.


But yeah. Self Insert. Doing my damnedest to keep him not a Marty Stu, Although i will unashamedly say that by the end of this -probably first couple of sections- he's probably going to be somthing of a badass.


Sort of sparked by the Lovehammer SI thread. Sorta spark by my re-reading the Ciaphas Cain novels, and deciding that i like the first person narative thing. Dark Souls in my vector, largly because its one of the few games/media universes that i enjoy and could hypatheticaly "survive" (pfffftt) long enough to get past "Weak, shitty, relativly pampered, human guy that gets killed by the first thing he comes across" and into "Viable protaganist for the setting" without resorting to giving my insert superpowers or somthing.




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You know those times when you look at a fictional universe and say 'Damn, those guys were idiots, I could do so much better in their place"? Yeah, don't do that. There is a term for that. It's called 'tempting fate'. I learned that the hard way that if you do so, it will kick your ass, kill you, then arrange for it to happen again.


It all started when I was musing out loud to myself, over a game. "Huh. Why do I have to -Kill- The boss? I got no beef with Quelaag, and in all honesty I'm going to feel guilty for it later when I find her sister." I said, "While just going into a boss fight works in some cases, while dealing with something sapient you should be able to talk to it. Try to get your quest done with a little tact. Would it have been that hard to change the question menu thing to give you a few more answers other than yes or no?" Yeah, that's me, going off with my bleeding heart. Then next line is the kicker though. "In this guy's position I'd just spend a bit of time rolling around, asking questions and maybe seeing if there was another way. I mean stamina regenerates pretty fast."


I'm sorry; I was too busy with my hysterical laughing to comment there. Why yes, I did assume that if I was really there, I'd be able to fall back on game mechanics. Probably because it's just a game, people don't just get dropped into fictional worlds. It just can't happen.


Take it from me. When the game hands you a giant flaming spider… woman… thing to kill, just kill it. Don't make stupid fate tempting commentary. It probably won't end well.


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Seriously, this waiting was getting tedious, not to mention dangerous to my health.


First a week went by after I woke up in this damned cell without a clue as to how I got here. During that week I went through several mental breakdowns. The first was as soon as I woke up, and found myself in a ruin of a cell. The second came in after the first day went by and no one showed up to let me out, proving in my mind that this wasn't just a cruel joke. The third was on the second morning, and I realized 'Oh fuck, this isn't just a cruel joke' and a zombie peeked in on me. Shortly after my third, I had my fourth once I recognized the shambling glowing eyed corpse that was staring at me through the bars as a hollow from dark souls. Yeah, that took a while to calm down from… only to have another one once I realized that zombies don't eat food, and I didn't happen to have a Darksign anywhere on me, so starving to death was a very real danger.


Keeping a 'Breakdown count' I was at five before the sun came up fully on the second day. About day four I was finally able to pull myself together enough to scrounge for food. Then that number jumped to six before I could bring myself to eat it.


Desperate times….


I found some helpful mosses growing in my cell that got me through a couple of days, then I discovered that a bit of the wood off my bed –and I use that term lightly- could be coaxed into a small fire suitable for cooking the unlucky rats I managed to kill with a broken sword I discovered. It could be possible that the flint stones I found were brought in by the last occupant, not that the desiccated corpse lying with the absolute stillness I had come to associate with true death had any use for them anymore. That left me with a few days food to keep my strength up, and the steady dribbling of water coming off my roof ensured my needs of water were met. Of course, the little wood and cloth I had couldn't hold out forever, and I was hesitant to start burning my clothes. The nights got chilly, and I was already regretting the use of the blanket as tinder. Days turned into a week, then two, then three.


That brings me to the present I guess. No food, as the rats have wised up, no fire materials, and no fucking clue how I survived eating that-


A shadow passed over the hole in the roof and I briefly saw an armoured figure before a body blocked my view, tumbling down onto the floor of my cell. Shit. If I remember the game right…


I rummaged the tattered rags of the dead hollow, and sure enough, I found a key. Further testing proved that it was indeed the one to my cell –and probably every other cell in this block- as my door swung obediently open. A hollow stared at me, but otherwise didn't react. Checking the hall revealed the stray demon glaring balefully at me as it sat in the center of its massive room.


"Right…" I heard my voice, raspy from disuse; croak out to the hulking monster "If I want out'a here I need t' think of how t' deal with yer little brother." Inwardly I winced. Mutilation of the English language aside, the asylum demon really was a problem I needed to deal with. If not now then fairly soon.


The monster rushed the bars in reply, causing small cracks to appear in the wall they were attached too.


Needless to say, I bugged the hell out. Though in my defence, I didn't piss myself as I no doubt would've had I had this happened to me three weeks ago. I guess just under a month of interacting with nothing but rats, moss, and withered corpses will toughen a guy up psychologically.


Right, that whole tempting fate thing I mentioned earlier.


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And yes, i know i should probably continue on with my other fic.... but screw it. I'll get back to it when i get back to it.


As always, Be brutal in critisism. I know i'm not great, and telling me how i'm not can go a ways to fixing that.
 
Rc1212 said:
Huh, interesting. Haven't played darksouls myself, but I'm always looking for SI fics that don't suck.


I look forward to seeing where this goes.


What kind of,ah...hmm, character is he going to be? Tank, rouge....?
Havn't decided yet, still hashing out what his base stats are. One thing to keep in mind though is that Tank or other heavy melee type isn't likely as i'm not what you would call athletic.


I do know what some of my gear is going to be though.
Riye said:
Your character, they still retain all of their knowledge about the game right? I think a bit of exposition, where you character tries to plan out a course of action to survive the game. It doesn't have to be realistic, just something that shows your character is attempting to cope with the situation in the best way they can.
Yes, yes he does have knowlage of the game, though its three weeks since he's had a chance to do anything with the game. Thus knowlage is a little rusty. Probably do the planing once he hits the Bonfire since that is the closest thing to a safe haven in this place.
 
ThatJerk said:
Statement: It's not bad start. That said, since you're lampooning this some, I'd recommend you keep a general Monty Python and the Holy Grail tone to this work, e.g. keep it whacky despite the awfully depressing subject matter.


Dark Humor, man.


"This is where all the mad people are."


"But I don't want to be with the mad people!"


"John, you are the Mad People."


"...AIiiiiiiieeeeee!"


Lots of trial and error too, despite his vast experience. It's always easier said than done, no?


Other than that, hnn, you taking any requests for Helpful Phantoms, Sunbros, and NOT-So-Helpful Dark Spirits and Black Phantoms? I think, your local SB Dark Souls covenant would be happy to pitch in.


Cheers.
Yeah, i'm going to get to the black humor. My insert just dosn't need it to cope yet.


On an other note I've figured out what my base stats are.


Vitality 11

Attunment 8

Endurance 9

Strength 10

Dexterity 10

Resistance 14

Inteligence 13

Faith 10


Attunment is basicaly just how much magic you can stick on, so having no experiance with that its the lowest a character can start with.


My consitution is my only real life edge that i've got. It takes a great deal to get me sick. thus Resistance.


Inteligence is high because hey, I went to school, did well, and pick things up at an alright rate. Canadian education is better then most of what the starting characters get.


I think i can also make the assumption that anything over 20 starts getting super human, with 20 being absolute human peak.


And Yes, if the local SB covenent would like to join in, that would be awesome. Just a few ground rules.


First; No "superpowers" right off exept for your pre-knowlage of the game. You have to EARN your right to kick ass.


second; You don't need to start off as undead (I didn't) but your first death with inflict the curse of the darksign upon you. Undead don't need to worry about perma-death, eating, or bathroom issue (if they don't eat) as Estus will fill the role of food. Non Undead (people without the darksign) need food, water, and for all intents and purposes needs to meet standard life requirments. That said, normal humans don't need to worry about a limb falling off in hollow form.


third; I've hashed out that the starting classes all have 70 points + soul level as stat values. Resistance is the only stat not calculated starting the game up. Try to keep Resistance reasonable* (and realistic to you/ your character). Nothing says you need to post your "Character Sheet" but keep it on hand so you know what you can and can't equip.


Fourth; For the most part we are in diferent realities, and as such must interact via soapstone (Red for fighting, White for helping, Orange for writing Grafitti messages. mesage length is limited only by section of ground, and amount of time before somthing tries to stab you) Other methods exist (Red Eye Orb, Blue Eye orb, Eye of death) to gain forcable entry. If anybody shares a world make note of it ahead of time.


Fifth: The Capra Demon is a total dick. Don't invite him to your christmas party. He will steal your girlfriend. If you don't have a girlfriend (Because your single, or you have a boyfriend) he will find you one, then steal her from you.

Edit; forgot this *figure 15 at the highest.
 
I'll get you a nice, detailed review in the morning. And you've been kind enough to keep the snippet short for me!

Actually having people communicate with soapstone would be a neat touch, especially if you're planning on lightening things a bit by saving some of the people who deserve it.
 
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Marking time, waiting to die. Plans and Preperation.

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After bolting up the stairs like a started rabbit, I paused to catch my breath.


The room was filled with water, save for the quarter I was standing on, and except for the sputtering torch behind me was unlit. The water didn't look that deep though, mostly ankle deep, with it being about to my knees at the deepest. That last guess was based on where it came to on the hollow crouched in the water staring at me with blank, glowing eye sockets.


"Shut the hell up." I rasped at it, "You would've run too."


It either didn't understand me (rather likely) or it just couldn't speak, as it simply continued to stare at me. This admittedly, was fine by me. With the way the muscle on these guys had atrophied I was fairly certain in my ability to eliminate them if need be. Especially with this crappy broken sword.


"That's right." I muttered.


I striped off my shoes and socks, and then rolled up my pants. I didn't know how long it would be until I could find new shoes, so if possible I would rather keep these ones dry. After that I proceeded to, and through the only other exit in the room. This brought me to another room with a ladder.


Well fuck. With one hand occupied by my footwear, and one hand occupied by my sword, this was going to be a problem. You know what, screw the crappy sword. I hadn't needed to fight yet, and if I had my way I wouldn't need to for a while yet.


Up the ladder, then mincingly across the mildly damaged floor, I finally found my way to my first objective, the first bonfire.


"Light" I thrust my hand at it. No response. "Burn" Nothing. "Ignite?"


Screw you bonfire. The flint didn't work either.


Still though, this was a fairly safe area and I really did need to get an actual game plan going. Dying wasn't on the agenda, and no little burning… ring… mark somewhere on my body meant that taking a dirt nap would be more than simply inconvenient.


"Alright." A nearby stick served as a suitable drawing implement. "First, my encounter through the door. Run like hell to the door on the left side of the room." A grimace "The asylum demon is way out of my league, if possible I need to get around it." There was just no way I could take that thing, even with a good weapon, and better shield. Hell, even if I had good armour (which I don't) that I could actually move in, I'd be screwed.


"Second, the rest of the asylum." It occurred to me that it was possible that the other denizens would be as friendly as the ones I had already met, which I discounted immediately. "I can't assume that. Doing so will get me killed." So, get a weapon after the big guy. Vaguely I hoped that my memories of a weapon and shield ahead would prove accurate. "They seem to be pretty dumb though, I could work that to my advantage and loot whatever lay ahead has."


My complete lack of support -and stuff- made things much more difficult. I made a mental note to loot a rope at the earliest possible convenience. If I had one, I could just rappel down the wall of the asylum, and walk away. No need to deal with the demon more than once. Although, that rope plan may still prove to be a viable plan depending on what I find.


Any other plans would need to wait until Firelink Shrine.

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I looked around the area I was in. It almost looked like it may have once been an internal leisure park or perhaps an exercise field for the inhabitants. Now that I was out of my cell, my guess was that in better times this place may have been significantly more pleasant that at its present state.


Unfortunately there was nothing particularly useful. Just some sparse grass and a thin patina of snow that was considerably sparser in the center where the surprisingly warm sun managed to reach. The place was a ruined mess too, with bricks of the wall scattered about. I did make note to grab a brick before I left however. A two kilogram rock would be a much better weapon then a bare fist.


A bit more searching around turned up a rusty iron door. No catch on my side, and I didn't see a lock on it. Since it wasn't swinging open, that meant that it had a latch on it someplace. The bars were spaced with some distance apart though, and after sliding my arm through it was a few seconds work to find and pop the lever open.


Maybe I wouldn't need to get splattered by the demon after all.


I paused, and listened to the sounds. A bass deep tremble occurring after brief intervals was the first thing I noticed. Just like footsteps. My guess was that it was either the Stray Demon below, or the Asylum Demon above. The next things I noticed were a rasping breath, and faint mutters.


I frowned. Hollows didn't mutter. They hissed when they were annoyed, and made a pathetic attempt at a roar when enraged. That rasping breath was pretty typical though. Further listening confirmed that the sounds were coming from two different places. The muttering was somewhere up the stairs but more forward, and the breath was-


I looked up, and briefly saw two glowing sparks above. They vanished in a moment, and immediately after I heard the sound of metal grinding on stone. Then things started to go downhill.


I heard a huge impact, and my eyes flashed to the top of the stairs. Rocks and bits of debris were falling from the wall up top. Then a hissing rattle and the hollow I had seen jumped down onto my set of stairs. There was no mistaking that glint in the dark for anything but metal. My throat tightened. I was going to be killed by an emaciated zombie. All of my supposed cleverness, my shitty plans, and foreknowledge of what would hopefully be, were about to be for naught.


The hollow took a step forward, a rictus grin on its face as if it knew how royally screwed I was. I stumbled back, and felt my back impact against the rusty door I had just opened. My killer lunged, and I hurled myself out into the courtyard, trying to slam the door shut as I went. It worked.


I knew I didn't have long, maybe five seconds while it figured out that it needed to pull instead of push, but five seconds is all I needed to get clear of the door, and grab a brick. As I turned around I heard the shriek of the hinges. The Hollow ran at me and lunged, sword high and what I could only guess was soulless triumph it its eyes, a light I might add that went out when the brick shattered over its head.


As it fell, my right hand lashed out and grabbed its sword wrist, while my left forced its hand down to a ninety degree angle. The broken sword dropped. I then shifted my grip, then my weight, turning so my back was against its chest. Still gripping its right hand with my left, I hooked its shoulder with my right and heaved. The shoulder throw was shoddy, and no doubt that my uncle would have chastised me for trying it. The hollow however, was a retarded zombie that had probably never dealt with judo (however limited and crappy) even when it was alive. Not that it would have mattered as it was still reeling from my brick. As it impacted the ground, I dropped to one knee and picked up its sword then plunged it into the hollows throat.


I couldn't keep a certain victory fanfare from going off in my head. I began to chuckle, then laugh in earnest. In that laughter was relief and the heady feeling of survival. I had bested my first real opponent. I won. I was alive, and now? Now I was on top of the world.


Still those mutters to deal with however, and my memory stirred as to who might be making them. If I was right, I might just have a chance at getting out. If I was wrong? Well now I was armed, so my chances were better than they were before I dropped the hollow. At that grim thought, my laughter ceased.


"Damn it" I murmered to myself "I'd probably've have a better chance in 40k"

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Drub said:
The retarded zombie comment was hilarious. There's some pretty good humor so far and it didn't seem forced, so I'm holding up hope that you'll be able to keep it up. I'll probably wait a while to see exactly where you're going with this before commenting on anything else too specifically, but I don't see anything glaringly wrong. I can't wait for Blighttown. In fact, I hope someone writes an SI with a fear of heights. Dark Souls is just plain evil with its skinny walkways.


I didn't pay much attention to the story parts (partly because you have to look around for it yourself) so I'm not sure what parts of Darks Souls are gameplay or story, but shouldn't you be getting souls for killing things? Also, I forsee somebody forgetting this isn't a videogame and not realizing that if you want to pick up certain drops, you need to actually be able to physically reach them.


So how is the SB covenant going to work exactly? It seems like there might be timing issues if people write other SIs so maybe some kind of time warp shenanigans? Or maybe somebody writes up some basic characterization and stats and then lets you write the them in?
Ok, for the souls part, he's not getting any at the moment because he is not an Undead. Once he gets cursed with the darksign he will be in a marginaly better position, since he'll be able to light bonfires and do collect/do stuff with souls.


In regards to items, yes.


With the "SB Covenant" It depends. If people want to give me the character sheet, and let me write them as a side character, thats fine. Otherwise they could just go along their own path, and co-ordinate with other people when they want help out/ be helped/ cause problems. Perhaps using the area around firelink shrine as a kind of chatroom.


Solaire said it the best; "We are amidst strange beings, in a strange land. The flow of time itself is convoluted; with heroes centuries old phasing in and out. The very fabric wavers, and relations shift and obscure."


mine is not the only main character out there. He may not even be significant.
 
volrath77 said:
Well, if you want to go by the game, everyone already starts with the Darksign. Otherwise, there's no reason for you to start in the Asylum to begin with.
Unless you've been dropped into the asylum by some jackass cosmic force... Basicaly what happened with me.
 
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New crappy weapon in hand, I once more traveled through that forsaken rusted door. Taking stock of the noises again (hey it saved my life once) I heard nothing beyond the mutters. Encouraged I climbed the staircase, and popped my head through the newly made hole in the wall. I say a man in armor lying on a pile of rubble.


Looks like I was right. I had to suppress a girly squeal at what that meant for my chances of getting through this alive.


As I approached, the knight's head turned to me. "You're no hollow." A pained chuckle "That is a relief. I'm done for I'm-"


"Bullshit" Paragon interrupt, bitch. Time to save your hide, so you can get mine to safety. "I'm no undead, but I know that bonfires produce estus that you guys use to heal." I knelt next to him, the looped his arm around my neck. One solid heave later, and we were both standing "And wouldn't you know it? There happens to be a bonfire just down a set of stairs." I started walking "Convenient, eh?"


"Y-yes." His voice was shaken "Is it lit?"


"No, but I'm going to place my bets that you can light it" A terrifying thought struck me. What if he couldn't? That meant then when he hollowed, I'd need to deal with a fresh and somewhat smarter zombie. One whom was really damn heavy. "Please tell me you can light it…"


He nodded "I can, but it won't be as effective as one with a fire keeper" I nodded myself, rather relived.


The walk back down the stairs was painful, and it felt like ages. It was also uneventful; thank whatever kind deity was left in this crapsack world.


Bonfire lit, I bemusedly watched the healing energies- estus I corrected myself mentally- swirl about, and infuse my new companion. My own aches and pains were left unattended however, and my own mortality left an itching between my shoulder blades.


"So." I began "Fate of the undead. 'He who is undead, travel to Lordran and ring the bell of awakening'. Right?"



He twitched "You know?" It was seriously a pain in the ass not being able to see his face. "I thought that legend was passed down through my line alone."


"I'm something of a scholar." I said shortly "I know quite a few legends, and a good deal of the geography of Lordran."


"Legends?"


I grinned inwardly after too many times listening to the prologue it was child's play to recite it.


"' In the Age of Ancients,The world was unformed, shrouded by fog. A land of grey crags, archtrees, and everlasting dragons

But then there was Fire. And with Fire came Disparity. Heat and cold, life and death, and of course... Light and Dark.

Then, from the Dark, They came, and found the Souls of Lords within the flame.

Nito, the First of the Dead. The Witch of Izalith, and her daughters of Chaos. Gwyn, the Lord of Sunlight, and his faithful knights. And the furtive pygmy, so easily forgotten.

With the Strength of Lords, they challenged the dragons.

Gwyn's mighty bolts peeled apart their stone scales. The witches weaved great firestorms. Nito unleashed a miasma of death and disease.

And Seath the Scaleless betrayed his own, and the dragons were no more. Thus began the Age of Fire
.'"​
A long silence stretched out between us, and a moment of panic ripped through me as it occurred to me that I may have overplayed my hand.


"That" The knight said slowly "Is the first time I heard of that particular version." He tapped his knee "The usual version has Nito, Gwyn, and the Witch springing forth from the flame, rather than the dark, and Gwyn destroyed the dragons on his own." A pause. "The Witch birthed demons, and Nito brought death into the world. Those two aren't usually considered on the side of good." My guess was that he then frowned. "And I have never heard of this 'furtive pygmy'…"


Shit. It was beginning to occur to me that my meta knowledge might be getting me into trouble. In fact I should probably take pains to avoid revealing much of what I know. Well I was just about hooped for this instance. Still though, I hadn't revealed my full hand. People knowing about my jack wouldn't be so bad either, it's just when they figure out I've got a royal flush I'll be screwed.


Still… I could salvage this. "I'm not surprised. That is the only text that so much as mentions a fourth lord." I allowed myself a chuckle that sounded fairly fake to me, but hopefully would be taken as the genuine thing by him. "Maybe he just didn't do anything of note?"


"Perhaps." He sounded satisfied, but I wasn't too sure. "Still, this conjecture isn't helping us. Any knowledge you have of Lordran might, if we can get there." His voice softened "I'm in your debt stranger."


"I'm not much of a fighter. Get me out of here, and I'll consider anything you owe me repaid." Well, no, but it sounded good, and there were places of relative safety in Lordran, so if he bailed on me I might still have a shot at finding some nook to hide in.


"Yes." Another nod, "Though, it might be wise to get you equipped with something better then you are now." His voice took a sadder tone "I believe I know where we can find such equipment as well."

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Kinda not happy with this one. Will probably expand this a fair bit when i have more time. I'm just at a loss for how to do so at the moment. I'll look it over tonight.
 
FlyingHotPocket said:
I like it, especially the worry about him overplaying his knowledge. I'm unsure about the theocratic state of DaS, I'm only up to killing the Capra Demon and getting stuck by those cursed frogs in the sewers, but if I was going to add a character, how serious do people take the whole Lords stuff?
It depends on the person. Solaire takes Gwyn preaty seriously, and its preaty safe to assume that each covenant takes their own lord/deity seriously. honestly i'm making up a bit of the theocratic stuff up as i go along. But its safe to assume that each of the covenents that serve a lord think that their lord is the best, and most of the third parties consider Gwyn the go to guy (seeing as how he had the most impact on human as a whole) for the lords, but their own deity is vastly superior. Anyone non affilianted probably only cares as much as it affects them.


The game wasn't exactly forthcomming, and a large chunk of the cast is activly lying to you, and the rest are either dupes who truly belive what they have been told, or only telling you the truth in order to manipulate you.
I mean, you character, (name?), just thought he made a serious, possibly fatal error by giving the dude an objectively true version of what happens.
It was more panic at possibly revealing how much he knows. The knight (Oscar of astora acording to the guide) isn't likly to find the knowlage too dangerous. Someone like a covenant leader however would want me either taking a permanent dirt nap, or want to use me as a cats paw. Hell, he will probably find some way of manipulating me to get information on how to get to each bell relitivly safely.
Also, the only thing I could think that you possibly needed to add would be characterizing the knight more. He just seems so completely generic, and unless he's about to be brutally murdered (won't he just respawn?) then he should be a bit mire distinct.
Yeah. Now That i think about it thats probably why I wasn't happy with that snip.
I mean, he did have the sheer niceness to help the PC out even on his deathbed, so I wonder what kind of character he'd be.


Also, probably going to stat up a guy tonight and start writing in the morning. This is a reapply, really cool concept and I'd be honored to help you keep it alive. I'll PM you to discuss possible character interations and whatnot.
Awesome. Interested to see where you will take this.
 
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bigish update, and the end of the undead asylum.

We made our way back up the stairs, my cohort leading the way. Noting that there was no hollow waiting at the top of the second flight, I made a mental note to be wary of the one I dispatched near our bonfire. Once more I had to remind myself that the game mechanic of 'all enemies except bosses (and certain mini bosses) respawn when a bonfire was used' was likely just that; a mechanic of a game. That thought didn't comfort me. In fact? It made the spot between my shoulder blades itch. Predictable enemy locations were one thing, as was knowing when they would be back. My current situation meant that everything I killed that had a darksign would re-animate at an unspecified point in the future, regardless of where I was, or where it fell. I wanted to break down and cry, but at this point I couldn't afford to undermine what Oscar thought of me.


Ah, yes. Our introductions had been brief, with him giving a bit of his reason of being here, which I didn't really pay attention to. I had more important things to focus on, notably my own backstory. I could hardly tell him truthfully about myself, and different places have different naming conventions. My name, though not unusual for my universe, would be rather peculiar here. I cooked up a bit of a sob story of how I was either abandoned, or orphaned shortly after birth and was bounced around between caravans. My arrival at the undead asylum was a result of an Undead being discovered in our midst at the authorities of the town we were restocking in, and had all of us sent there in fear we were all cursed. Nobody in the caravan had cared to come up with a name for me, and just called me 'Boy' or 'Nuisance'. He seemed to buy-


Right. Current situation. Digressing just a bit much. I halted him at the top of the first flight, and made a hushing gesture. Briefly listening, I heard a rasping echo. That reminded me of the bow hallow in the hallway after the first encounter with the Asylum Demon. It was possible that that was where we were going, and after a bit of rather quiet inquiry, he confirmed it.


"Down that hallway," he said. "One of the others I was traveling with…" his voice cracked slightly.


"You need a minute?" it came out a bit drier then I had intended, and I hoped he missed it.


His baleful glare (Seriously, I could feel It.) told me otherwise. "No," he said shortly, "and despite my debt to you, you would do well not to speak lightly of my loss."


I nodded "Duly noted." I paused "Yet you would do well not to grieve in a combat zone." A thought struck me "I suspect, however, that you could tell me the dangers of that far better than I could speculate…" if I was right, the grieving is what got is ass borderline killed.


He started, then sighed "You 're right, Gwyn knows I wish you weren't." his next words were a bit more rueful "Your offense was just to break me out of that slump, wasn't it."


It wasn't, it was just me being a prick, but I nodded sagely. "Sometimes callousness can be kinder than tact."


After that I left him in the chamber briefly. Just long enough for me to creep up behind a certain bow wielding walking corpse without his armour jingling in warning.


"go'cha" I growled at it.


I snaked my hand under its armpit, and grabbed the back of its head. The thing struggled like it was possessed (which it kinda was) and I realized that perhaps my debilitation from living off rats and moss was likely worse than I had thought as it was. Still, I had enough time to stab that broken sword through it several times which then caused the struggles to stop.


Ok, dead zombie, "It's dead," I called back. "I snuck up on the hollow without a hitch." A few seconds later, Oscar came jingling in.


"My sword brother is over there" he gestured towards where I vaguely remembered where you picked up you class shield in game.


Saying it wasn't a pretty sight, would be like saying the sun is hot. Correct as far as things go, but a woefully sad understatement.


The first arrow went into the side of the knee, probably crippling him for the rest of his incredibly short life. Another dozen or so littered the ground, and the plate parts of the armour were somewhat dented. The killing blow was either one of two things. Either it was one of the four arrows that were shot at point blank range into the helmet (it would have to be point blank to pierce plate) embedding themselves deep into poor bastards head, or it was the heavy impact that smashed the torso of the man flat.


Grizzly as it was however, the armor; identical to what Oscar was wearing, was doing fairly alright. It could use a blacksmith, but in the meantime it was much better then cotton, polar fleece, and the denim shell of my pants.


"While… while I divest my former comrade of his armour, could you take some time and look around?" He asked. "Take some time… I would-" he took a moment to steady himself, "I would like to give him a brief benediction."


I nodded. "Do what you have to do, just keep an ear open." I looked at the wrecked body "I don't think a bonfire could bring -anybody- back from that."


"Indeed." He murmured grimly. "I'll pay attention"


Satisfied that he was going to be careful, I traveled back into the 'stair room' as I had begun to think of it, and began my search. Rocks, a few chains well and truly stuck to the wall, that big ass metal ball that busted a hole in the side of the room I found Oscar in, and a broken staircase that couldn't be climbed in game. This was no game however, and I was able to crawl my way up it with some difficulty.


"Shit." I panted to myself "I either need some cardio… which I do, or I'm really effing debilitated." Which was also true, but I wasn't exactly in any position to do anything about that.


Still, it wasn't in vain. At the top was a truly desiccated body, and with a little looting, I found a rusted ring, which I pocketed, and a key with all the teeth filed off of it. I pocketed the key too. If someone felt that the labor required to craft it was worth it, who was I to argue?


Having basically exhausted my options here, I made my way back to Oscar, picking through the rubble of each room on my way over. Not even some potentially edible greenery. He was finished by this point, his dead sword brother buried was well as he could contrive, the armour set aside.


"You have a choice of weapons" he said softly "Elliot favored blades imported from the East, yet he carried his standard issue short sword for tight quarters."


I hefted the Eastern blade. It was surprisingly light, yet as I tested it felt somewhat awkward, almost like the blade was heavier than it should be. My guess was that the balance was deliberate, and it would take someone stronger than me to keep control of it. And that's ignoring the hand eye coordination needed to maximise its effectiveness. I set the blade on the makeshift grave, and lifted the short sword. Light, solid, good point and small enough I could use it effectively in tight quarters. Nothing special, but it felt good in my hand.


"Standard issue is usually standard issue for a reason" I said philosophically, and grabbed the sword belt and sheath. "What's the situation on the armour?"


"The boots are unlikely to fit, and you seem to have adequate pants." He cleared his throat "the helms steel was rotted, which was why the arrows pierced it."


I grimaced, "Any other good news?"


He nodded "Oh yes," he said, tone dust dry "The straps that hold the fauld torn by the impact, and the gloves have had the metal bands in them bent to the extent that they are impossible to wear." A brief chuckle, "If we had a blacksmith, everything but the helm could be repaired or fitted."


So, basically, the only thing that was good was the torso armour, and the sword belt. Shit. "What's the condition of the shield?"


"Scuffed, but serviceable."


The shield was a good solid heater. This one had straps meant to secure it to my arm, useful since that meant I could still grip my sword for two handed strikes if need be. In hind sight, the late Elliot probably used two handed strikes with his favored blade, and had his shield custom fitted with that in mind. Not that I minded.


We got me fully equipped (a significant production), then returned to the Stair Room.


"How do you guys wear this stuff?" I asked, shifting my shoulders. Damn Itch just would not go away.


"With training," He murmured sympathetically, "And I suspect that it feels heavier than it is due to your current state.


Fair enough. We climbed the tallest flight, and Oscar used a key to open the door at the top, and then twitched in dismay.


Getting up where I could see, I saw why. Another body cratered in the right parapet, this one female.


"Our guide" Oscar whispered sadly "A pyromancer hailing from the great swamp. She knew the roads to Lordran."


We didn't exactly have time to brood as a duo of Hollows came clattering around the corner. Oscar parried the firsts haphazard swing, then delivered a professional stab through the guts, I sidestepped the seconds downwards swing, and backhanded it in the face with my shield. I followed up by then punching my own blade through its chest. It jerked and clutched at the blade, the glowing lights it had in place of eyes dimmed, and I finished the job with a twist of the short sword.


When I turned Oscar had already rounded the corner, and another hissing rattle told me he just dispatched a third.


Once he returned he faced me, sighed, then turned back around to continue scouting up ahead "…Be respectful." He tossed behind him.


Nodding despite him not looking at me, I began my grisly duty.


I found the ashes that I assumed had once been her pyromancy flame, a busted hand axe, and a locket. I took off one of her manchette, and tried it on. It fit, so I striped off my shield, and put the other one on as well. They were surprisingly comfortable. I undid the belt holding her pouches and supplies and picked through them. Very little of use was in them, but she had a quiver full of bolts, an empty estus flask, and I found her light crossbow nearby beneath some rubble. It was a bit battered, but a quick pull showed that it was functional. Further inspection of her yielded a kind of back holster for it that I happily appropriated. Ah hell, why not? I belted the pouches on as well. Never know when I'm going to need some more storage room.


I flinched as I heard a heavy thump next to me. Twisting around, I saw a pair of heavy boots.


"Try them on" Oscar stated "I think that they will fit, but I can't be sure."


They did fit. Not perfect, but well within what I was used to. They were scuffed from hard use, but much more durable then my runners. I tactfully didn't ask where they came from, mostly because the answer was likely the same as all the rest of my gear.


"I also found a chain long enough to get down there" he pointed over the parapet "She probably found it, and was in the process of tying it when the demon found her."


"The lets finish the job before It finds us." I said shortly.


Oscar noded, and went about tying our makeshift rope. The loop at the end had a crude weld in it that looked quite sturdy, so he looped the chain around several bars and threaded it through the eye.


"She must have used her pyromancy to fuse the chains end to end to make it long enough." Oscar marveled, and suddenly I found myself wishing that it was her I rescued from the brink. Oscar was a nice guy, and he very obviously had a ton of martial experience, but this dead woman was crafty. And likely a damn sight nicer to look at then my faceless friend.


We managed to get down the ladder before everything went to hell. I should have known it would. That unreachable spot between my shoulder blades was itching so bad it felt like it was on fire.


We made it almost to the first broken wall of the cliff, looking for a way down when we heard an inhuman bellow.


We turned as one to watch that hulking monstrosity slam into the ground. Oscar swore, and I just had the thought run through my head that fat ass needed to lay off the trough of hot fudge. Then it began to charge us, and all humor I may have felt vanished before a choking tide of terror. We ran like terrified rabbits, because there was no way that our toothpicks could sufficiently damage that seven meter tall monstrosity. Oscar looked up, and obviously saw something that drove him mad, because he ran toward that edge faster, and leaped off of it. I, still having my facilities in tact, stopped short.


Just in time for the Asylum demon to slam that massive club into me, and hurl me off anyway. My world was pain. My last moments were seeing the ground speeding towards me, and black feathers whipping around me, and wind shrieking in my ears, yet I was in too much pain to really register anything.


Once I hit the ground though, the pain stopped. Just like everything else.

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So, yeah. This is basicaly the end of chapter one. I'll probably splice everything together and post it to Fanfiction.net sometime tomorrow. Just to avoid needing to archive all my posts. Probably going to need to do some formating, error correction, and other stuff, but i'm to damn tired tonight. I just want this posted.
 
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Alright, this is the beginning of the second chapter. Full first one is here and i'll be updating my first post with the link too.


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Soon, the flames will fade, and only Dark will remain. Even now, there are only embers, and man sees not light, but only endless nights.


And amongst the living are seen carriers of the accursed Darksign.


Yes Indeed. The Darksign brands the Undead …This is you fate.


Only in the ancient legends it is stated that one day an undead shall be chosen to leave the undead asylum in pilgrimage, to the land of the ancient lords…


Lordran!

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In the abyss of death, something shuddered, and then sparked into being. A single light burned in the everlasting darkness, and knew that it did not belong. This light refused to be extinguished by deaths embrace, and was empowered enough to fulfill that denial of nonexistence.


What was this power?


Non sentient, the spark in the darkness could not begin to fathom the why of how it could still be, it simply was. Held into being by something as alien to it as the prison in which it existed.


In the land of the living, a crimson spot between the shoulder blades of a dead man that should not have been, sparked into a tiny ring of flame.


The spark reacted, suddenly having purpose once more. That spark twisted, and writhed. In a time that was both mercifully brief, and infinitely long, the soul slipped its binds and returned to whence it came.


And once more, the abomination drew breath.


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It's a fucked up day, let me tell you.


First off, the only reason why this thought thread didn't start up sooner. I woke up dead at Firelink shine.


You heard me.


It was a peculiar state. I wasn't precisely in control of my facilities, and yet I could still function relatively normally, though higher thoughts were rather difficult, and there was something about the other people I woke up around that drew me to them. Made me want to kill them and take… What? Intellectually I knew –and know now if I'm honest- that I wanted their humanity, but for the life of me (Note, find new saying. I don't think this one applies anymore.) I can't seem to really connect with what that means outside of game mechanics.


Food for later thought.


A small spark of what I was, or am now I guess, remained though. From what I've been able to pick up, is that I was a hollow, basically like those ones in the asylum but less atrophied, but still somehow sane. I didn't attack anyone, and I was able to answer questions. Supposedly this was a fairly significant development because I became more or less full hollow, yet still retained enough of myself that I could still function like an unhallowed Undead.


From what Oscar has been telling me, the typical way things happen is that once hollowed, a given undead will degenerate rapidly into a mindless monster, with the strong willed and good natured managing simply to remain docile but still subject to the minor issue of being a brain dead fucking-


Stopping the tirade now, before it turns into breakdown number seven.


Except for the initial level of degeneration I took in loosing much that made me, well, me, I didn't change mentally at all.


Eventually I suggested that perhaps it might be best to see if anything could be done about it, and Oscar tracked down a black sprite. After that, they gave it to me, I absorbed it on instinct, and then Petrus did some kind of right that reversed my hollowing.


I don't think he thought it would work, because he looked as shocked as I was


After that Oscar started talking and asking questions whose answers all added up to 'fucked if I know' and telling me about Hollows. Couldn't tell you most of what he said, because I wasn't paying attention, instead preferring to try to burn the time I spent as a hollow from my mind.


And that brings us up to the present.


"You are not paying attention to me in the slightest." Oscar stated flatly.


"I picked up that functioning as a hollow is unheard of, that hollows come back to life painfully incessantly, and several other little things that I already knew." I said equally flatly.


He flushed deeply.


Hah! Yes I saw him blush. He took off his helmet once it the area was deemed sufficiently secure, before I came back to life.


"If you want to tell me something I don't know, how did you get us here? And more pressingly in my mind, how did you cart me here after scraping my remains of the bottom of that cliff?" Total bullshit about me not knowing, but I couldn't have him thinking I could know about things I wasn't alive for.


"The crow was kind enough to bring us." He said simply, then smirked, "And with a bit of nudging flew to the bottom so I could 'scrape up your remains" he made air quotes on the last phrase, using my terminology. He then pointed towards the ruins that served as Firelink shrine, "Our benefactor is perched over there."


I looked over, and my heart stopped (if it was even going in the first place). "That has to be the biggest Gwyn damned bird I've seen in my life" Only expecting it was able to allow me to stay in character.


"Technically you didn't see it during your 'life'"


The ruins of Firelink were largely made of a yellowing stone that had various mosses and fungi growing on it. The point with the bonfire was a circular area with some stairs behind us backing up nearly onto the cliff on which the shrine was perched. Down those stairs I knew that Anastacia of Astora, our local fire keeper, was residing in a small room with bars which was carved into the wall. The rest of the ruins involved what looked like a dilapidated church.


Our 'benifactor' was resting on one of the walls of the shrine proper, and was easily four times the size of a grown man. It was a damn big bird.


He spoke again, "There are a few others here as you saw." He paused, as if considering something "Now that you are doing better, it might do us good to get you properly introduced.


"Joy."
 
I do have a question how much of the game has Your character played before he was sucked into it. Did he beat the game and was going to a new game plus. How much of the game did he know.
 
Nightblade said:
I do have a question how much of the game has Your character played before he was sucked into it. Did he beat the game and was going to a new game plus. How much of the game did he know.
I've beaten it, so, yes he knows everything and copious wiki research ensures that he knows the little details he may have missed in a play through. He has, however, spent just short of a month in a cell scrounging for food, and an undetermined amount of time being, you know, dead. Details get lost, although he has a general gist of whats going on.


Still knows more about whats going on then anybody else in 'verse except for the primordial serpents, Nito, Gwyn and Seath.


I do have a disclaimer here though. Just because something is the way it is in game, doesn't mean it would be that way if you were dropped into the world. So while the knowledge helps taken in broad strokes, it can be lethal if relied on to the letter.
 
LastChronicler said:
I get that this prologue part reads like the Ciaphas Cain-esque narrative that you said inspired you, but for me personally, it sort of ramps up the difficulty of the immersion, at least a little. He's too cavalier-ish, too much of a Harry Dresden-I'm-about-to-get-eaten-by-something-crazy-but-I'm-going-to-toss-off-funny-wisecracks-anyway sort of a thing going for a guy who, unless I'm doing you an extremely grave disservice, wouldn't be in much of a joking mood when he's first sucked into the world of Dark Souls.


Dark humour is an absolute must for this story, but in my humble opinion I don't think you're well served by using it as the kick-off point. It fails to grasp the oppressiveness of the place. The most interesting (and realistic) opening I can think of would be a look at the guy alone in his cell, confused and starting to get scared, who at first thinks this is some kind of prank, dream, etc, who, once he gets out, starts to use humour as a coping mechanic. I know you started to address that kind of stuff in your next paragraph, but it was too easily skimmed over. I don't want an entire chapter focused on his time alone in the cell, but it would be nice if there was more than two paragraphs or so.

As it is it just falls flat for me.
Fair enough, and thanks for the input. I'll keep that in mind for later. Something else to note though, is that its quite possible that the story was done with a tone of hindsight. weather it has or not, i actually haven't decided yet.


Still, if it doesn't work, its something that can be changed.
There's a class based on make-up? :wtf: What good would that do?
there's not. But using those terms helps to get an idea on what he will be equipped like, and what his focus on fighting will be.
I'm not exactly an authority as such on life and death combat, but in my limited martial arts experience (eastern and western; armed and unarmed) you pick up the fundamentals pretty damn quickly when people are actively trying to hit you and not pulling their punches (fairly heavy armour helps with the believability that he could live long enough to manage this).
Oh the fighting part its taken for granted that I'll learn (or die horribly many many times), i was referring more to actual Armour weight, and the strength needed to use it effectively. If its too heavy, he won't wear it, because it's just too exhausting. which chains into not building that required strength.
This is an incredibly interesting idea, and sells your story as something more than just an SI.
It would be wonderful if more people decided to join in and turn this into a community thing, but until then, self insert is the only thing i can call it.
That... makes no sense. On any level. Are you trying to say that the blade was weighted towards the point of the blade, like a Katana? How long is the grip in comparison to the length and weight of the blade?


Alternatively, if you're just making an effort to explain game mechanics for stat requirements, I'm advising you now to ditch that stuff right away. Seriously. You're far better off approaching the use of equipment on a realistic basis.
Yes to the bit on the weighting. I have held a katana before, and while it was a beautiful weapon, it just felt too awkward for me. Though I admit the problem could have just been me holding it wrong. The control bit wasn't an extremely noticeable thing, but more that it made me feel awkward swinging it one handed, and i found that my cuts went a bit further then i wanted.


would it have taken me long in story to compensate? No. But at this point i wasn't wanting to risk that I'd screwed up at the wrong point. I prefer a balance at the guard, or the weight to be towards the pommel if i cant get that if the former is unavailable.
Think you mean rusted here.
No, i meant rotted, but i probably should have expanded the scene to show what i meant. and in hindsight now that you've mentioned it, I probably could have found a better way to explain it too.


Soft underneath a brittle exterior, poorly forged, both would have been better. Basically i was just trying to get across that somebody cut corners, used inferior materials and now a man has died for it. It looked good on the surface, but was flawed underneath.


Good stuff, constructive criticism is always a good thing, and once i have more time I'll get to work seeing if i can implement it.
 
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I'll put the alterations to the first chapter on FF.net in at the same time i put up the second chapter. For now have another snip.



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Oscar frowned "Here now!" he said forcefully "These people are some of the few sane remnants in this forsaken world, Isolating yourself via alienation is far beyond stupid."


I sighed. He was right; I really was going to have to make friends at some point if I wanted a chance. That said I still felt like crap, so I suspect that I am significantly less diplomatic then I should be at the moment.


"Oscar, I might be relatively human again, but I still feel like death and suffering. I'll do far more alienating by talking to people right now." I looked him in the eye "Now if you would, go make my excuses. I need some time alone to digest what happened." A slight spike of sick humor ripped through me "It's not like death is such a common occurrence for one person they can simply walk it off."


A grimace crossed his face "Though I had hoped that you could be the first." Still though he relented, stood, and picked his way over to where another man was sitting.


Alone with my thoughts once more, I decided to push away the darker ones away while I focused on my game plan for going home.


My throat tightened. All through my stay in the undead asylum, a tiny part of my mind had rationalized that it was all just a long nightmare, and I had accepted that unthinkingly. My -I was about to say untimely, but I suspect that there is no such thing as a timely one for the subject- death shattered those delusions. People woke up from dreams when they died unless it was in a particularly low quality horror b-movie.


Going home was going to be a very long, very hard task and I knew of only four sources that might have the necessary information, or power to get me there.


The first, easiest, and probably most unreliable was a Primordial Serpent. Both Frampt and Kaathe have been around for a very long time, and knowing that I'm not a particularly special snowflake am probably not the first person to be displaced into this special hell, nor will I likely be the last. The flipside of this, is that both of them have an agenda and will likely have no problem lying through their oversized teeth to get me to forward it. Me having a better than average chance of getting through due to foreknowledge probably won't get past them either.


The second, and my preference, would be the Dukes Archives. There is a hell of a lot of books in that place, so chance are good that at least one of those books might have some information I may find useful. Quite honestly if all else fails I could likely use the Information there and develop my own trans-dimensional spell. Not an ideal method, as I would prefer not to pull a Big Hat, and go nuts due to knowledge overload. Still, none of my options are particularly attractive; this one is just my favorite.


The third is easily the most dangerous and will only be my last resort. Seath the Scaleless is the grandfather of sorcery in its current form, and has been pushing magic to its limit ever since. Much as I hate the analogy, it's quite possible that he'll give me some metaphorical ruby slippers and tell me to bugger off. This also assumes that he doesn't decide that I look better as a lawn ornament and give me a puff of dragon breath for my pains.


The final would be to use a homeward bone. Not that I think it will be that easy, but it's not like it will hurt to try. And if it works, then hey, I'm back in my world and I have a new horror story to tell.


Assuming that a homeward bone doesn't work though, I'll need to ring both bells of awakening before I can do anything else. The one in the parish will likely be easy enough; I'll just have a chat with my large feathered friend to take me on a trip to the top of the bell tower of the parish. The bell of Blighttown will be much more difficult, to the extent that taking the long way to the Undead Parish might be a better idea. It will be hard for sure, but the practice in fighting will be valuable, not mention the items I could pick up.





Or I could have a word with that bird, and see if it would be willing to fly me directly to the Dukes Archives, and skip a good chunk of potentially fatal adventuring.

Spirits somewhat lifted, I stood.


"Maybe I am in a good enough mood to talk to people"

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Something of a long one. kinda want feedback on this because I'm not sure I got the Crestfallen Warrior right.

Also? I need a name for him.


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I stalked over to where Oscar was chatting with… did any source tell me what his name was? The Crestfallen Warrior I guess. Not that I cared, he wasn't going to last to much longer in any case, so I'd best not make any real connection to him.

The chain-mail wearing man paused in his conversation to look at me, and gave a slight sneer "looks like his highness is willing to talk with the rest of us after all."

"I just decided to stop being a crybaby and man up" Not precisely true, but he didn't need to know that. "After all, doing nothing is just an agonizingly slow way to end it. I'd like to think I have bigger stones then that." I managed to keep the accusing note that wanted to creep in to my voice out. It wouldn't do to blow knowledge another of my aces by letting Oscar know, that I might know something that I shouldn't know yet.

And a good thing I did too, because the dig had no effect but to elect a humorless laugh. "Slow it may be, but how many times do you think you could go through dying before those stones vanish with your humanity?"

I ignored him, largely because he had a point and I had no witty riposte. How many times could I die before I completely lost it? Pushing that thought into the depths of my mind with all the other depressing, unhelpful ones that threatened to crush what little resolve I had, I turned to Oscar, "So what were you talking about?"

"Largely how it is suicide to try and ring the bells" he emphasized the plural "There is one up in the parish and another down below in a place called 'Blighttown'." He sounded grim.

"Sounds like fun times," my tone was dust dry. I looked at the man in chain, "Wanna come along for the ride?"

Mr. Crestfallen looked shocked, appalled, and a little sick "I would rather die again!"

I nodded "Fair enough, I'm going to have a word with that massive crow actually, and see if wouldn't mind taking me to the Dukes Archives by Anor Londo." Seeing the blank look on both their faces I continued "It's an absolutely massive library amassed by Seath the Scaleless, and a treasure trove of ancient texts I'm sure." Telling them my objective didn't seem like too much of a risk. Oscar 'knew' I was something of a scholar, so my wanting to get to the biggest concentration of books probably wouldn't seem that unusual.

Oscar shook his head "I can already tell you that the crow will probably not accept your request." He pointed up to the upper most reaches of the ruins, and on closer inspection, I realized that he was pointing at the birds nest. "The only reason it traveled as far as it did was to move its eggs from the Asylum to here at Firelink, Probably in the event that demon got loose and trampled, or ate its children. I was lucky it decided to bring me along," he poked at me "and you were lucky that I could persuade it to go down so I could retrieve your remains."

And my terrible mood returned, this time more tempered with anger rather than despair though the latter wasn't far behind. It must have shown on my face because the crestfallen warrior smirked "Looks like it wasn't bravery that motivated you after all."

"No." I admitted sourly "No it wasn't, but a minor setback like that isn't going to stop me from going-" I cut myself off. I had about said 'home'. That would have been bad.

Oscar looked somewhat saddened, "Well seeing as how I need to ring the bells, I guess we will be parting ways shortly."

That look on his face made me feel guilty for some reason. I didn't know why, we had only known each other for about twenty four hours total, so it's not like we had time to form a meaningful emotional attachment.

Did he actually expect me to help him on his quest?

Still, whatever I wanted, we weren't separating yet. Mostly because that damn door to Sens Fortress wouldn't open until both bells were rung, so I guess I was going to have to help him. The alternative was striking out on my own when he inevitably got killed, and drained of humanity by Quelaag.

Assuming that the homeward bone thing doesn't work.

"No, actually, we won't" I assured him, and his eyes lit up. That made me feel even worse. Somehow. "The road to Anor Londo begins at the parish. Undead from the burg over there" I pointed at the town on the cliff, "would start their pilgrimage by getting a blessing from their priests, then travel to Anor Londo from there."

My little lore moment was most likely complete BS, but it sounded good, and was met by Oscar's thoughtful nod.

The Crestfallen warrior just gaped at us, "You two nutters are seriously considering this?"

Maybe it was all just too many overwhelming feelings at once for me to deal with properly. Maybe I was tired of stepped on by the crapsack world, not being allowed to have anything go right. Maybe I was just suppressing myself too much, and him implying that I was insane for it was enough to put me over the edge. It could have been a combination of all three; god knows that I've usually got enough control that might have been what it took. Whatever the case though, I lost it. I defaulted to the only negative feeling I was truly familiar with. The only one I could draw some measure of comfort from.

Anger.

I slugged that cynical bastard hard enough he sprawled backwards sputtering, and followed up by planting my foot firmly on his chest, and glared balefully down at him.

It was only a second, and then I forced that spark of unrelenting fury down. Beat it under control. Yet I didn't suppress it so hard it vanished. It was still there, and I allowed it to add force to my next quiet words. I allowed it to give me the boldness that I would otherwise never be able to find.

"Who. Are. You. To say who is insane or not." I breathed "I doubt that you've moved a meter since you sat your sorry rear down, just counting the days, praying that someone divine would just reach down and fix the world." I spat out those words. "Hate to tell you this, but the gods have done just about all they're willing, or able to do." I bent, and leaned against my knee, putting more weight on him. "That's why the world has me.

"I'm going to get things done. I won't just sit around and wait for everything to get fixed." I gave an ice cold chuckle "Oh, I used to be a lotus eater once, basically just like you, but without the raging pessimism. But then I was dropped into a cell for twenty three days, and had to eat rats, and moss. My only companionship for that time. Was some dead eyed bone sacks. That I could compare hand sizes with, on a good day." My voice had dropped to a whisper, and out of the corner of my eye I saw Oscar set his hand on the pommel of his sword in case things escalated. Nonetheless I continued "I was forced to do nothing, despite my every attempt at getting out. Forced to do nothing even when I wanted to do something!

"Then a dead body dropped into my cell with a key on it." I took a deep breath, and relaxed my weight off of him. "I was free, and I could finally do something. On a certain level, it was a game, 'Find the way out, and you get a heroes meal', an adventure like in the books, but with more starvation. A way of coping with the horror of being trapped in a morgue filled with the walking dead." I made a more noticeable pause. "And then I died." I said flatly. "And now? I'm apparently not even allowed to have the satisfaction of knowing that I'm now some sort of borderline immortal because all I have to look forward to is either dying for eternity, or giving up and becoming one of those brainless, dead eyed, hollows."

I took my foot of him, and turned to walk away, "Maybe I am insane." I tossed behind me "But you're a useless waste of flesh. I know what I'd rather be."

As I walked, I partially closed my eyes. Damn, but that felt good. However good it felt though, it was stupid. He was a trained warrior, I was some halfwit who thought that just because he had some foreknowledge of the land, and a sword he didn't fully know how to use he could get away with anything. And now I'm just walking away, turning my back on someone who could kill me easy even if I faced him in a fair fight. I waited for the pain of death to consume me once more, cold steel tearing into me from behind… but it never came.

I slowly walked down the stairs that led to the fire keeper.
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Also would like Feedback on my characters freak out. He needs one, if only to vent, and anger (though better contained, less violent, and less ranty) is *my* most likely way of doing so, but I'm not sure if it works. I have ideas for other versions, but this one

Edit= felt the best. I really need to stop cutting myself of mid sentence.
 
Huh, that does make some sense. How he was stuck in a cell, unable to do anything despite wanting to do something... So now that he's free, he's going to do stuff.


Having a goal or something to work on or look forward to, is a sort of freedom.
 
Yeah, I can tell now that i've read it over (several times) after having slept on things for a while that while the base premise is fine, the execution was not so good.


You guys pointed out where i screwed up though, and that's something harder to see since i'm writing it.


It needs a rewrite, but doing it now (3:30 in the morning) would be worse then the original version (written around midnight).


Yeah, i know i should wait until i have time during the day to do this stuff, but i get all my good ideas at night.


I'll see how things look when I'm no longer sleep deprived.
 
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The Rewrite, now some odd percent longer.

I stalked over to where Oscar was chatting with… did any source tell me what his name was? The Crestfallen Warrior I guess. Not that I cared, he wasn't going to last to much longer in any case, so I'd best not make any real connection to him.


The chainmail wearing man paused in his conversation to look at me, and then pointed "It looks like he is willing to talk with the rest of us after all."


"I just decided to stop being a crybaby and man up" Not precisely true, but he didn't need to know that. "After all, doing nothing is just an agonizingly slow way to end it. I'd like to think I have bigger stones then that." I managed to keep the accusing note that wanted to creep in to my voice out. It wouldn't do to blow knowledge another of my aces by letting Oscar know, that I might know something that I shouldn't know yet. That and I was keeping what he had mentioned about alienating people and not doing so in mind.


And a good thing I did too, because the dig had no effect but to elect a weak smile. "Slow it may be, but how many times do you think you could go through dying before those stones vanish with your humanity?" he gave a cold humorless chuckle.


I ignored him, largely because he had a point and I had no witty riposte. How many times could I die before I completely lost it? Pushing that thought into the depths of my mind with all the other depressing, unhelpful ones that threatened to crush what little resolve I had, I turned to Oscar, "So what were you talking about?"


"Largely how it is suicide to try and ring the bells" he emphasized the plural "There is one up in the parish and another down below in a place called 'blighttown'." He sounded grim.


"Sounds like fun times," my tone was dust dry. I looked at the man in chain, "Wanna come along for the ride?"


Mr. Crestfallen looked shocked, appalled, and a little sick "I would rather die again then venture into that hive of sickness and rot!"


I nodded "Fair enough, I'm going to have a word with that massive crow actually, and see if wouldn't mind taking me to the Dukes Archives by Anor Londo." Seeing the blank look on both their faces I continued "It's an absolutely massive library amassed by Seath the Scaleless, and a treasure trove of ancient texts I'm sure." Telling them my objective didn't seem like too much of a risk. Oscar 'knew' I was something of a scholar, so my wanting to get to the biggest concentration of books probably wouldn't seem that unusual.


Oscar shook his head "I can already tell you that the crow will probably not accept your request." He pointed up to the upper most reaches of the ruins, and on closer inspection, I realized that he was pointing at the birds nest. "The only reason it traveled as far as it did was to move its eggs from the Asylum to here at Firelink, Probably in the event that demon got loose and trampled, or ate its children. I was lucky it decided to bring me along," he poked at me "and you were lucky that I could persuade it to go down so I could retrieve your remains."


And my terrible mood returned, this time more tempered with anger rather than despair though the latter wasn't far behind. It must have shown on my face because the crestfallen warrior smirked "Looks like it wasn't bravery that motivated you after all."


"No." I admitted sourly "No it wasn't, but a minor setback like that isn't going to stop me from going-" I cut myself off. I had about said 'home'. That would have been bad.


Oscar looked somewhat saddened, "Well seeing as how I need to ring the bells, I guess we will be parting ways shortly."


That look on his face made me feel guilty for some reason. I didn't know why, we had only known each other for about twenty four hours total, so it's not like we had time to form a meaningful emotional attachment.


Did he actually expect me to help him on his quest?


Still, whatever I wanted, we weren't separating yet. Mostly because that damn door to Sens Fortress wouldn't open until both bells were rung, so I guess I was going to have to help him. The alternative was striking out on my own when he inevitably got killed, and drained of humanity by Quelaag.


Assuming that the homeward bone thing doesn't work.


"No, actually, we won't" I assured him, and his eyes lit up. That made me feel even worse. "The road to Anor Londo begins at the parish. Undead from the burg over there" I pointed at the town on the cliff, "would start their pilgrimage by getting a blessing from their priests, then travel to Anor Londo from there."


My little lore moment was most likely complete BS, but it sounded good, and was met by Oscar's thoughtful nod.


The Crestfallen warrior just gaped at us. "You two are seriously considering this?" He said slowly. "You might be able to ring one up in the parish, but Blighttown?" He shook his head, "Imposible."


We both leveled a stare at him, and I felt an irrational spike of fury run through me. I slammed my control down on it before it got out of hand. He had a point. No matter what happened, this was going to be the epitome of suck. So what did every impulse running through me scream 'kill him for doubting you!'? Even ignoring how it was a bad idea to attack people in general, attacking someone much more skilled then me bordered on suicidal.


I felt Oscar's gauntleted hand firmly grip my left hand, which I only realized that my left hand was slowly going to my sword on the same side. I stilled it myself, and his grip fell away. Irrational rage broke, and made way for fear. What was wrong with me? I may have joked about killing people before, but I had never made moves to do so!


The crestfallen warrior, unlike Oscar, had missed the movement and was still waiting for our response.


"Be that as it may be." Oscar said firmly, "Things are only going to get worse until someone does something about it." He looked at me, keeping his face carefully neutral "You mentioned something about having some geographical knowledge of Lordran?"


I nodded in response, not trusting myself to do anything else.


"Then we need to make plans." He turned to walk back over to where we had been sitting before, and I followed woodenly.


Once we were out of earshot, he looked at me and hissed "What the name of twelve gods do you think you were doing."


I swallowed, "I-I don't know. I just felt angry, but there was no purpose behind it." I dodged his eyes "I swear, that has never happened before."


"I see," he nodded slowly "I will have a talk with Petrus later, and I shall see if he knows why you acted the way you did." He sighed, "Not that I expect him too. Undead returning from being hollowed is rare. I've never heard of it in fact, but the simple matter of Petrus knowing a ritual that does just that, suggests that it's not unheard of."


He sat down, and I followed suit.


"Now, we truly do need to discuss our plan here." Oscar finally said, "My first impulse would be to travel through the burg, and collect what supplies we can. The after we ring the bell, you tell me the about Blighttown the best you can, then we go our separate ways. I'll go down to Blighttown through the burg depths, and you can make your way to the Dukes' Archives."


I considered that. It sounded good on paper, but I knew that Sen's Fortress would not open before both bells were rung, and getting through it besides would require me to be much more comfortable with my weapon then I was right now. There was also the matter that I highly doubted that I could take on the snake men within even if I was as skilled as Oscar was. Skill only did so much, and the snake men were massively strong.


I needed an equalizer. If I remembered right, and if nothing threw me for a loop, there would be one right beneath a giant parasite in Blighttown. The trouble was getting to it, and getting back safely.


A plan slowly began to form. But before i could really do anything about it, i had to get up to some shadow of skilled for this world.


"It's a good plan." I said, "And if I thought that I was up for taking on the dangers that would be on the way to Anor Londo, I'd say we go for it." Now for the brutal truth, "But I'm not. I'm not sure I'm even up to where I was before being dropped into the Asylum physically, though the Estus has at least made me healthy again, and I know I'm not emotionally up to scuff. That debacle with that pessimist proved that."


Oscar pursed his lips, and was silent for several long moments. "Have you heard of soul reinforcement?"


I prevented myself from betraying myself with shock, and just slowly shook my head. I was positive that that would have fallen purely under game mechanics, so I hadn't even taken it into account. This changed allot. Hell this changed everything!


"When an Undead strikes down another creature, the Undead gathers essence from it. We call this essence, souls, though that is not precisely correct. It is more like the energy that holds a soul to this plane." He paused to make sure I was following. "We can absorb, and release this energy freely. However, when at a large concentration of Estus; usually a bonfire, it is possible to use this energy to strengthen one's self." He gave a wry grin "This is primarily why it is used as a currency among undead as well."


"I see" So basically same way it was used in game. Huh.


"Now the ways that one can reinforce oneself varies. You can enhance you physical strength, which would allow you to wear heavier armor, and swing your weapon harder. Your physical durability, which effects your rate of healing, your tolerance to toxins, as well your ability to survive and recover from injury. It effects also to some degree how long you can exert yourself before exhaustion. Your control over your body, which includes reaction times and hand eye coordination. It also affects your senses slightly as well. Many mages say that doing so increases the rate at which you can think, though I have not noticed it myself."


He frowned "And lastly is your… spiritual essence. This is something very difficult in increase without souls, as it requires much mediation. The long and the short of it is that it is the wellspring of power that a sorcerer or a cleric draws upon to cast their spells, or use their miracles. You do however need to be able to comprehend the arcane arts you are manipulating, or have the faith that your miracle will succeed, and no reinforcement will make you smarter or more faithful." He chuckled "I've never had the faith to do anything but seek guidance from my gods."


"That…would probably help" I murmured softly. After a moment I went on more normally "Of course it doesn't solve more immediate problem."


"Indeed" Oscar stood, "I shall go and speak with Petrus. Just… Stay here, and try not to interact with anyone while I am gone. Do not go exploring or trying reinforcement either, without knowing what is going on…"


"Because I'm a danger to myself and others, so it would be best if the problem was kept manageable." A bitterness that I felt I had every right to feel pervaded my voice.


He flushed "I did not say-"


"Just… Go. Talk to Petrus. Let's get this issue solved." I leaned back against the wall and closed my eyes.


I heard him walk away, and kicked myself. My only kinda friend here, and I was treating him like crap. I'm such a wonderful person.
 
FlyingHotPocket said:
...~ Oh my god, please help me, knee deep in the river tryin' to get clear ~...
Well done. This style actually works quite well. Arguably the jumbled nature adds to the impressions of the characters characters mental state.


It also adds something of a contrast. Mine is from the small more or less dispassionate part of my mind that remains coherent in basically any situation but is only a tiny, fairly unhelpful voice. Yours seems to be done more at the front of your characters mind. Not bad, just different.


In regards to the stat sheet, mostly use it more as a quick and dirty guide for what you can do rather then iron hard game mechanics for equipment. Also take a look at my previous post's Reinforcement explanation that Oscar gives if you haven't already. I came up with that at time of writing because some of the "Stats" when transferred into a real life situation are linked. Admittedly, I'm going to need to come up with a value system for it (or something) but it seems (at a glance) to be better then the in game variant for purposes of fics, and keeping track of it would probably be a good thing.


And just for reference for later, look up what the weapon is in real life, as opposed to what it could be judged as in game. It gets pretty interesting. That zweihander you mentioned is only (hah! only) about 7lbs, at roughly 55 inches long (40 inches of thick blade). a fairly far cry from the 10lb (it had better be pounds, 10 kilos would be nuts) almost 6 foot monster depicted in game. Its more glaring with the bastard sword though (50 inches, with 39 inches of blade... and weighing in at about three pounds.) as its basically a longsword with a longer hilt... not, as the game would have you believe a six pound hulking, realistically sized two handed sword.*


*examples given are just one each of the many i could look up
 
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Dunno how i like how this one went, but its mostly establishing what he knows, what he doesn't know, and more or less identifying and putting a band-aid on this chapters conflict. So its kind of necessary.


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Still. Having some alone time was something of a blessing. I've never been a social person, and just being around people for any real length of time was, and still is, enough to sour my disposition. I'd like to think that it was merely that, being amplified by high stress that was doing this to me, but for some reason I doubted it.


Ok, I'm a smart guy, let's work backwards. When was the last time I was relatively like my normal self that was after I was dumped in the asylum?


Right before we descended that chain.


When was the first time I was more irrational then normal?


Right after I woke up from my dirt nap was the worst, but it continued well after Petrus re-humanized me.


A vision of a black sprite danced tauntingly through my mind and caused my eyes burst open. Humanity. I had no humanity. I kicked myself. Of course humanity was the issue; people in the game explicitly killed each other over it and I highly doubt that that would be the case unless it was more important than looking good, and getting more stuff.


Obviously simply being a human wasn't enough. You needed more of it to be human. Good thing to file away. I also resolved to collect as many of the sprites to hold on to as I could. Worse came to worse, I'd guess humanity could be used just as easily as souls for currency.


The humanity concept brought up a new question however. What in the Dark Souls game world was legitimate, and what was just game mechanics? Doors opening from one side was obviously a game mechanic, as were the impassible rubble piles. Humanity was legit, and reinforcement existed, if in a slightly different form.


Vaguely I wondered how magic and attunment slots worked, and ditto for the "casts per day" type mechanic. It would probably be a good idea to figure that out, as I never was a natural athlete and truth told I would prefer to stay away from the swords and demon claws. Of course the concept of killing things with the power of my mind was quite an attractive concept too. I resolved to rescue Griggs and Big Hat if at all possible. Laurentus as well. Heck, especially Laurentus. Pyromancy would serve even better as it didn't require anything but a Pyromancy Flame. Maybe.


I shook myself out of my reverie at returned my attention to game mechanics. I haven't seen a fog door yet, so likely that was just a mechanic. Covenants are likely legit, which meant that I should keep an eye out for Darkwraith, as the limitations of invasion and warnings were most certainly not. I also had to wonder if the multiple worlds overlapping applied here, and if soap stones existed. Weapon scaling grades were likely bull for the most part, though I had to wonder about if the magical and other enhancements scaled somehow.


Distances, I realized with dread, were also likely much larger then depicted in game. I realized just how lucky I was that the asylum was as I had remembered it from the game, as very few places would be as advertised. The asylum, Firelink, and the Parish would likely be roughly the size as in game. Everywhere else would likely be vastly different. After all, I could hardly see being able to walk the length of Lordran in a few hours. Day's maybe, but not hours.


Good thing Undead didn't apparently need food, though I was wondering how long an estus flask would hold out. I made another mental note to keep track of how much of my flask I went through in a given day. Another game mechanic that existed, but was somewhat altered.


I pushed the thoughts of comparisons to the game out of my head. Too much, too fast. Best to keep it to a handful at a time, just so I could learn and remember it all.


Instead, I busied myself looking over my equipment. Surprisingly my weapons and shield survived my plunge better than I had. My armour, on the other hand, needed a smith rather badly. The rings in the front of the armor were almost universally bent, and the breast plate somewhat flattened. The surcoat was slightly shorter then historically and only came down to my knees. It was also ripped in several places, and in need of a good cleaning


My short sword was a plain weapon. The leather wrap frayed from hard use, yet still serviceable. I noticed a few small nicks in the edge, and I resolved to track down a whetstone to service it. The quillon was simple; the only bit of decoration was the small metal balls on each of the ends that matched the pommel. The sheath was just as plane, made from the same type of leather as the wrap, and the metal on each end just slightly rounded.


The heater shield was slightly odd in that it was a slab of metal rather than wood with leather cover, but I honestly wouldn't complain. The metal was surprisingly light as well, being only about a kilogram, and wasn't any that I recognized. Perhaps this was titanite? Beyond the peculiarities of the metal it was made of, it was just a simple unadorned shield with a triangular shape. The straps could use replacing, but in the meantime, they would do.


The crossbow was the final weapon in my arsenal, and the one that had most assuredly seen better days. The body was marked and battered, and the catch slightly bent. The bow was scuffed, and made of the same peculiar metal my shield was. A quick pull confirmed that it was moderately flexible, and that I should probably find a goat hoof, or something, to use as an intermediary between my fingers and the string, I didn't feel it was likely that I could find a windlass to crank it back. There was probably a good chuck of force behind it in the event I could fully pull the string to the latch. I decided that I wanted to take it to either a bowyer or a blacksmith, whatever it took to get this back into shape before I used it.


My estus flask was fine, and I was somewhat surprised to find that someone had been kind enough to fill it. Pressing the top opened top to my lips without taking a sip revealed a somewhat sweet taste. The key and the rusted ring that were in my pockets seemed to be fine as well.


What the hell was taking him so long!


I crushed the uncanny wrath beneath my heel once more. I used to do something whenever I got really pissed or depressed before I got dropped here. The first few days in the cell weaned me off it. Damn it, what was it? It felt significant, like it could be a salve that would so more the just hold me for the short term. There was a fog that began to cloud my mind as soon as I tried to remember what it was, and it got thicker the harder I tried to remember.


It was like there was something that was fighting me, holding back what I was, screaming that I couldn't.


Then something broke and the first strains of music tore through my mind, and my very being soon after. It felt so good, but it hurt so badly. It was like I was so inhuman despite my current form that the simple memory of music was like a bane to my being. More memories flooded in. Song after song. It hurt, pure, unrelenting exhausting agony, but I didn't care. I held those burning memories to my soul, and refused to let the small piece of that which I used to be go. It was to become the talisman that would get me through the hellish days ahead. Just, as i now remembered, it got me through my bad days before this.


An hour later, Oscar returned.


"Sorry it took so long. Petrus was trying to waste time by calling it sacred knowlage, and wanted a 'show of faith', payment for information pertaining to his own safety. I argued the point a touch firmly" His mouth quirked, "When that I pulled out my rank as prince of astora, threatening him with the power behind my station. Then he wouldn't stop apologising. That man is a toad." He finally registered my state. "Twelve gods, man. You look almost as ghastly as you did when you rose from the dead!"


"In a way, I've risen again" I chuckled. "Indecently, I figured out that my problem was that while I was a human again, I wasn't human. A bit of soul searching started me on the path to the later." Wait a minute. "Hold on. You're a Prince?" that was a surprise.


"I have five brothers between me and any throne." He said shortly, then changed the subject "If you figured it out, what didn't you come tell me, and help me avoid that debacle?"


I gave him wry look, and let him change it "You told me to stay put. So I did"


"But I…" he deflated "Fine. You win this one." He sat down next to me "you mentioned soul searching that put you on the path to being human again. What did you find?"


"Music" I said as shortly as he had on his own privet subject.


He raised an eyebrow. "Music? The work of bards does not strike me as something that would be so significant."


Rage boiled up again, but it was a familiar rage unlike the effects of humanity loss, and it was easily subdued. I couldn't lash out at him for not knowing. He wasn't me so he couldn't understand how significant it truly was. "Remember that issue we had in the asylum about me speaking lightly of your comrades?"


He went quiet.


"You just did the same sort of deal."


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Just to clarify, the big music thing isn't necessarily the same for everyone. Its massive for me, due to control, and soothing purposes, but the important thing is that i have a lot of my best -say my most human- moments tied with music. I could get into a big argument on matters of how is music just as important for the soul as air is for the body, but ultimately, such things are my own opinion, subjective, and open for interpretation or utter denial.
 
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And update. I blame my new melee build character, and my box sets showing up for the delay. }p


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The silence we shared was rather awkward. Shit.


"So, in a blatant attempt to change the subject, where is my Darksign? I couldn't find it when I looked over myself in the cell." Wow. Of all the ways to start that sentence off…


"In a gracious maneuver to make it succeed, that must mean that is somewhere you couldn't see it." He sounded relieved that I was going to let the subject drop. "I'd guess somewhere on your back." He made a thoughtful face. "Take off your chest piece."


I obliged, and shortly after my armour and shirt were removed I felt a tapping right between my shoulder blades.


"Right there." Oscar said, "It is possible you have been marked for longer then you had thought."


"You know what?" I murmured slowly, "I'm fairly sure I have. I had an itch there for a good chunk of that trip through the asylum. I had thought it was just psychosomatic-"


"What?"


"All in my head." I grumbled at him irritably. "I thought it was just a feeling that something bad was going to happen. Not a real itch."


He nodded, "I see. About when did it start?"


"I dunno." I racked my brain, but I had so much on my mind at the time that it was just a passing notice, and a general feeling of paranoia. "After I got out of the cell though, but before we got to the hall where Elliot was." Invoking his friends name wasn't something I did lightly, but for some reason I felt that it was important to give some frame of reference.


"It…" He stopped, and considered his next words carefully. "It is possible that you gained the mark while we were traveling through the asylum, and your fall triggered it into full activity." He frowned, "Do not take that as pure truth however. I am hardly an expert on undead, I just happen to be one."


It sounded pretty good and without knowing anything beyond 'The Darksign brands the undead' about the little fiery ring, I had nothing better to go on. That also seemed to kill that particular thread. We spent another few minutes in silence.


"Why is music so significant?" Oscar said finally, and a solid chunk of trepidation. I didn't blame him; I did kind of give him an impression that it was a loaded question. For a moment I considered using that to my advantage and blowing him off, but I remembered my earlier rudeness and against that. I had a few loaded questions that I wanted to ask, myself and this struck me as a good point to garner trust.


But how to put it? "Have you ever heard of the saying 'Music has charms to soothe the savage breast'?"


He shook his head, and I wasn't surprised. It originated from a poem from 1697, and was further bastardized since then. My guess was that they didn't have a William Congreve, or if they did, he probably hasn't been born yet.


"It's literal, and mine was always more savage than most." And now for mixing the truth with lies. "The Caravan had several minstrels in it, and my teachers found that I was happy, manageable, and agreeable when I did my studies near where the younger musicians were practicing. Otherwise I was… distinctly unpleasant to interact with, for both the teachers and other just about everyone else. I also seemed to work more effectively too, so needless to say people took special pains to keep music nearby."


My teachers in school never had any ideas of the sort. I noticed early on in my life that music put me in a better mood, so I was the one taking pains, not anyone else. Still, except for in classes I always did have a pair of headphones on, and a song running through my head if actually listening to it wasn't a possibility.


"Eventually, as I grew up, I became more and more dependent on that to leverage out my foul temper. One might say I became addicted to music. It was just always there." Pure truth. "It made me feel safe. And without it I would simply get more savage, and nasty." I gave a half-hearted grin. "Seeing as how I never was much of a fighter… I got beat up a lot if I gave into that. People mocked me for it though, which boosted my dependency, and made it so I had to develop a certain amount of self-control." I sighed, "Which is incidentally is why I was probably more horrified with myself then you were when I went for my sword back there. I never lose control. Ever."


True as far as things went. I was the victim of the common schoolyard bully, and music did give me the buffer to build the self-control I needed to turn the other cheek. It paid off too. It took a supernatural event of being stripped of the essence that made me human to lose it. Top that.


"Of course the music ended once I got bounced to a caravan without any musicians, and I needed that self-control I built up to wean myself off. A ways after that, I more or less just relied on crushing my savage impulses under heal rather than soothing them" I finished. This was somewhat true. My learned control did help out once I got to this world, and after the first week and a half I was too concerned with eking out enough food to keep myself alive to worry about music. If I'm going to be honest though, the loss of my mp3 player was probably as much of a cause of my early breakdowns as much as the realization that I was a world away from home. Even now it was probably the thing that hurt the most not to have.


"I see." Oscar stated. "But may I ask, how does remembering that help you with finding your humanity once more? We don't exactly have a bard lying around."


"We may not have a bard, but I can remember the songs as clearly as if they were right here next to me." Which was also true. I had listened to the songs I had hundreds, possibly thousands of times each. My repertoire was not small either. "Certain songs also hold powerful memories. Kind of like bringing back a shadow of the humanity I had then."


"You feel that you can use that shadow as a semblance of true humanity to get you through until you can gain the black sprites." He seemed content, and continued softly "I suspect that you were being rather generous when you compared that gift to my comrades."


"I'm not you. I certainly thought that way, but I can't know how significant they are for you."


The conversation was getting awkward again, but this time Oscar had it covered. "At any rate, it might be best if we both spoke to Petrus. Learning that ritual to reverse hollowing would be rather useful, and despite his toadying he truly is much more knowledgeable about the specifics of undead then either of us seem to be."


"Yeah." I grasped the opportunity as graciously as he had grasped mine earlier "I want to ask him about miracles and magic as well. Or see if he could direct me to someone who knows enough to teach me about that stuff."


Thus, we both stood, and proceeded to the back of the ruins of Firelink, where Petrus of Thorolund was waiting for his companions, and thoroughly immersed in a book of some sort. Probably his equivalent to a bible.


We stopped next to him, and Oscar cleared his throat.


Petrus jumped and looked up at us quickly. "Ah, my lord. You have brought…" He looked at me with something that I guessed was veiled distain. Bastard had a pretty good poker face though; it may have been annoyance at being pulled from his reading. "Your squire?"


"His savior, and guide actually." I said shortly. Petrus stiffened, lending cred to my distain theory, I continued however. "We are going to be doing some traveling, and in light of what results from death, we have both determined that learning that ritual to reverse hollowing would be wise."


He eyed me, and glanced somewhat nervously at Oscar who was keeping his face passive. "Er, Yes. I suppose it would be." He paused, and then began again less stiffly "I meant no ill will by calling you squire. It is a noble profession." And one that puts said individual far below a warrior cleric such as him in status I'd guess. I quashed the pettiness I was feeling beneath my heel. Ok, I knew he was going to abandon Reah in the catacombs, and leave her friends to be hollowed, but he hadn't really done anything other than be a touch pretentious by this point. Hostility wasn't exactly warranted. Yet.


Instead I gave a mirthless chuckle. "I'm part of no order, or covenant. I'm just a caravan rat that happened to get his claws into every book available, and talked to everyone with any degree of learning." A fake wry smile "After I found out about Lordran, I was fascinated about it, and I looked up every text and every legend I could find pertaining to it."


"Including," Oscar interjected, "A variant of the legend on how the great lords came to this world. One that even the libraries in Astora have not cataloged."


Shit. I was hoping that he would have forgotten about that.


Petrus raised an eyebrow. "Really?" well, at least it got his attention. "Might I ask You to repeat it for me?"


I briefly thought about trading the legend for souls, but after Oscar had browbeaten Petrus out of his info without paying, it would be hypocritical to withhold my story from him. "In the age of ancients…"


Once I finished, Silence reined once mo- OK, Seriously. Way too many quiet moments. Couldn't someone give me a 'hey, cool story bro!' instead of considering everything I say as though it were a revelation from Go- Gwyn?


Petrus finally spoke, "I have never heard-"


"Of the furtive pygmy." I finished for him "Yes, we know. That would be the only legend that tells of him that I know of, so neither of us know any more about him then you do." It was kind of bullshit though, as I knew that the Pygmy was the dark lord, and basically the founder of the Darkwraith. Probably best not to mention that little tidbit though. Still, we had strayed from the point. "But while story time is fun, and enlightening, it is hardly our point of coming here. That ritual to reverse hollowing was the big reason, though I wanted to ask you about miracles and what you know of sorcery."


I dunno if it was my raw boldness, or if he was still bemused by my legend, but he taught us without complaint. Basically it was like reinforcement, but using humanity. The variant that he had used on me was a slightly more advanced version that was more or less a miracle, and not something that we could pick up so easily.


In the case of miracles, he just stated that there was no point in telling me, as I had insufficient faith to do anything, and he knew nothing of sorcery or pyromancy. Oscar on the other hand was 'fairly devout, and could likely pick up a few easy powers, though it would take time to build the necessary will to unleash them into the world.' Petrus' words, not mine. I left them to it, and went decided to go exploring. Oscar quashed most of his objections, and instead told me to be careful.


Yeah. Right. He really needed to tell me to be careful.


I poked around the shrine and found a stash of firebombs, and a few souls bound to this world. I didn't know how to deal with them at the moment, so I just put them in one of my pouches. Then I dropped down the shaft of the elevator to the parish. It wasn't a very large drop, and it revealed a hallway.


Wait a sec.


Memories of the game came flooding back, if they were right then… They were. Another quick drop and I discovered a small clearing with several chests. One held a talisman that I intended to hand to Oscar at some point and a spiked mace that I threaded through my belt just in case. Another held loyd's talismans that would be helpful against more intelligent hollows. The third housed several cracked red eye orbs that I pocketed not from desire to use, but to get in the habit of picking up anything that might be of any use at all. And the last held six finger bones that I guessed were homeward bones.


My heart leaped into my throat. If one of these little bones worked and sent me home, I would be able to write off this whole mess as a really bad month. My hands quivered as I closed a fist around one. And I closed my eyes.


On one level, I was hesitant. Oscar helped me out a fair bit, and I was loath to leave him. But on the other hand, I was more or less dead weight that happened to know a few things but otherwise was pretty much helpless when push came to shove. My disappearance would likely sadden him, but I was sure that he would ball up in time to get this shit done. And really, I didn't belong here.


One might say it was my duty to try and get home, if only so I didn't screw up the balance of this world.


My hand tightened, and as I felt the brittle bone break I felt a sense of vertigo overtake me and all senses went numb.

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I'm going to call that the end of chapter 2. I'll post the whole thing on FF.net with revisions after i get some feedback.
 
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