"I would appreciate that." You give her a strained smile, trying to convey your genuine appreciation of your kindness despite the misgivings rising in you. She won't come to harm by harbouring you, but you dislike involving others in your affairs. "Thank you for your graciousness."
She gives you a small smile, the kind that flickers mirthlessly over her face before it disappears, so quick you wonder if she had actually smiled at all, or if you had merely imagined it. "Not at all," she returns calmly. "It is only my duty as a hostess."
Your own smile falls off as you nod, although she has already turned back to the sink. "Nevertheless, I appreciate the sentiment," you reply. "I will endeavour not to prove myself too much of a burden on your hospitality."
Of course, that is much easier said than done. If you were at your peak, you could have simply avoided her, if not offered your own help in tending to her daily chores and the maintenance of her house. As it is, however, your joints protest even as you shift nervously from side to side, and you can only subside. You cannot help like this, though you do want to.
It seems you are not subtle enough in your desires, however, as eventually Yui turns to you with a shrewd look. "Arashi!" she calls out, voice echoing powerfully through the house. "Have you finished bathing yet?" Then she turns to you with an apologetic look and speaks in a softer tone. "I am sorry to bother you with this, but would you mind terribly if I asked you to look over Arashi for a while? I am afraid he has a terrible habit of getting underfoot while I clean."
A loud humming comes from the bathroom, but you ignore it and smile at Yui. "Of course," you say warmly. "I would be happy to."
And truly, you would. You have always been good with children; they are flighty and temperamental creatures, but they are not half as stubborn as adults are. It takes little effort to convince him to help you to your feet, once he returns from the bathroom, and little more to aid you to your bedroom.
Once you are there, you pat the bed beside you, offering him a gentle smile. He kicks up beside you, giving you a wide-eyed look. The faint but discernable scent of bath-salts emanates from him- a cheaper alternative to soap, out here. It is unpleasant, but you do not let your nose wrinkle. He smiles up at you as he kicks his legs at the bed.
For a moment, you think. You have not entertained a child in some time- few people are so willing to leave their child alone with a Shinigami, and fewer times still have you been in a position to accept an offer to spend time with them. You have almost forgotten the process.
You settle on something simple. "Would you like to hear a story, Arashi?" you ask quietly.
He blinks up at you, then scoots a little further back on the bed, the movement bouncing you a little. His mouth parts in awe. "Like- like a shinigami story?" he asks, almost reverentially.
Your chest aches softly at that. "If you would like," you reply, your tone warm now, welcoming. "Tell me, little one. Have you heard the story of the first blade of the Shinigami?"
He shakes his head, his eyes somehow even wider now, as though the confirmation of your Shinigami status has conferred you some great authority in his eyes. "No!" he says energetically, shaking his head. "Tell me tell me tell me?!"
A huff of laughter escapes you as you settle back, leaning your weight across the bed. Arashi lies back with you, his eyes locked reverentially onto yours. "Very well," you reply softly. "It starts with a man called Oetsu Nimaiya. He was a brave man, and loyal…"
There are few tales amongst the Shinigami that are suitable for retelling to children. Even this one, you have to sanitize of some details; you leave out the sacrificial element of the creation of the blades, for instance, the tale of how ten thousand men sacrificed their souls to the forging of the blades, that the wielders of those blades might save ten million more. You fail to mention also the bloody death of the man at the hands of the Quincy, that no more blades might be forged in service of their enemies.
Even so, it is a long tale. By the time you draw to a close, explaining to him how each Zanpakuto was given to one of ten thousand Shinigami with which to form their soul-bond, his breaths are coming slowly, and your own eyes are beginning to close, tiredness hanging heavy from them.
… Sleep would not be so bad. It has been some time since you have rested well.
Recovering from reiryoku burnout is a simple process, but it's not a particularly quick one.
Were you back in Seireitei, you would have been back on your feet within the day. Stabilizing another's reiatsu with your own is a risky technique; the healers risk experiencing reiatsu burnout of their own if they offer enough to a patient, and if care is not taken, the patient's spirit may reject the foreign reiatsu. Those healers in the 4th Division are, however, very skilled at their job.
Indeed, were you in their care, you would not have been down for long. But on your own, recovery is a slow and inefficient process as you wait for your damaged spirit to heal and reiatsu to begin flowing through you once more.
Luckily, you have no need to use your reiatsu right now. If you did, you would have had to be particularly cautious, lest you risk pushing yourself even further into the process of spiritual burnout. Physical exertion alone will not risk that.
It just hurts.
Still, you have practice enough not to show the pain your movements cause you as you limp into the tavern the next day. Your weakness has faded some now, allowing you to walk further than the distance between your bedroom and the kitchen without needing aid; although, you muse to yourself with a rueful grimace, perhaps it has not faded quite far enough for you to have walked from Yui's house to the local tavern.
Either way, the damage is done. You move silently to an unoccupied table near the centre of the room, from which you can survey the rest of the occupants of the room, and open your senses.
There are many ways to make money in the outer districts of the Rukongai, but very few of them are both lucrative and legal. You sought such work for the first few months you had found yourself exiled out here, but after spending weeks searching with only minimal work coming your way, you had been forced to accept that you would not be making enough money to repay those who aid you by taking on the usual legal methods.
That is fine; you do, after all, have skills that are not usually found in the Rukongai, and while you dislike forcing people to trade money for healing, it is better than the alternatives. However, you have to be subtle about it. If word spreads- and it will- then inevitably, the attention of Shinigami will be caught. They will track down the spiritual healer, if only to recruit them for the Academy; and you will be forced to leave without repaying your benefactors regardless.
So over the years, you have learned to be subtle about it. Rather than asking around, you head to the taverns- places where people go not only to socialize, but also to drink away their sorrows. There, people will always spill their stories to those with sympathetic ears; their drinking companions, or barmen with more time than customers, or fellow half-deaf drunks. Stories of sick children, or injured masters, or wasting illnesses spreading through the cracks of the Rukongai.
If you were only looking for money for yourself, you wouldn't be doing this- you are a Shinigami, and while you do need to find sustenance, you are no stranger to hunting through the woods for roots and fungi to prepare for eat. But you are not looking for money for yourself; you have been offered a kindness by Yui and Arashi, and so you will repay it in kind.
It is only right to repay a kindness in kind, after all.
So you listen to the tales of woe spread through the tavern. And there are many of them. Life in the Rukongai is not a pleasant thing. Off to your side, a man tells a sympathetic barmaid of his suspicion that his wife is cheating on him with his father; behind you, a man cries into his flagon of drink, words occasionally intelligible enough for you to hear cries for a lost son; and at the table beside your own, a woman rasps words of her assault to a man bearing a wicked blade in his belt.
You make note of some of the tales. Perhaps, if you have time, you can lend what aid you can to some of these people. Your presence need not be entirely a negative for them.
It takes a distressingly long time for someone to speak of something that catches your attention. Dozens of stories of poverty, misery and starvation pass you by before, finally, you hear something that draws your interest proper.
"... still can't find a healer for him," a man is murmuring. Using a signal for a barmaid as an excuse, you half-turn your head so you can look at the table the voice emanated from. There are two men sitting there, both with sunken faces and wicked eyes, although that is where their similarities lie. "After the business with that bitch, he's refused to let anyone besides me in."
The second man, a man with a bulbous nose and a jagged scar across his eyes, grins widely, revealing a golden tooth set in place of a frontal incisor. You shudder at the sight of the dirt accruing beneath his nails. "And what do you expect me to do about it?" he asks, a cruel lilt to his voice. "I have already offered you the use of a valued healer without expectation of payment. Is that not enough for the crew of the great Kaito?" His voice turns mocking at the last words, and his smirk only grows wider.
The first man shudders a little. His clothes hang loosely around his shoulders and chest, as though he has lost a lot of weight recently, and his eyes are bruised, as though he has not slept in days. Still, when he responds, his words are emphatic, if quiet. "We've defended you before," he says, ice undercutting his words. "When Haruto and his pigs knocked on your door, we helped you. Are you saying you won't return the favour in kind, Genjiro?"
Humour washes off Genjiro's face at that. He scowls at the other man, a thunderous expression. "That was a very long time ago, Daiki," he says. His voice is quiet now, almost scarily so. "I have helped you many time since. Don't think you can hold that over me now. I have told you before- I will help you, if you can offer payment. I know the bandit has the money to pay me, if he wants healing."
You turn your head away quickly before either of them can look over. Behind you, you hear the sound of a wooden chair scraping against stone, then a loud clunk as someone presses a flagon down heavily to the surface of the table. You draw in on yourself as Genjiro passes you by, his body reeking of a heavy soap and sour aftershave, before finally half-twisting yourself to look back at Daiki, who is currently glaring at the table in frustration.
An opportunity, then. An injured bandit, with gold enough to make his wealth worth seeking; and a loyal underling, alone and seeking a healer. You feel vaguely guilty for considering taking advantage of their wealth, but, should there be anyone worth taking money from in this district, surely a bandit would be they.
The question is, how to go about it?
When should you approach him?
[] Approach Daiki now. He is frustrated and hot-headed now; you will not find a better time for beginning negotiations than when he has already opened himself and found himself rejected. Of course, this also brings with it risk- your spiritual veins still burn, and with his vulnerability comes frustration. You must take care.
[] Follow him stealthily, and find their hideout. Return on the morrow, when you have further healed and prepared. Of course, you risk the bandits finding another healer in the time you are gone- and even should they not, you risk further complications in their patient, which could complicate your efforts at healing him. And while you will heal some, you will not be at full capability- just immensely less likely to burn yourself out.
When you approach him, how will you present yourself?
[] Approach him as a Shinigami. Your blade confers upon you status, and your status conveys power; although your status is false, your power is not. By approaching him with your blade evident, he will be put on the back foot. However, approaching him now is risky; should you be required to heal today, you will be risking further burnout unless you can somehow fool him until you have recovered more. Still; no mere bandit will risk the wrath of a Shinigami. You will be safe, this way.
- [] Approach him aggressively. You are a Shinigami, and while you have little desire to harm him, he will readily believe that you will if you do not get your way. Demand payment in gold for your services; he will bend before you, and offer you what you will. You will win no friends this way, however.
- [] Approach him cautiously. You are a Shinigami, but not all legends of your kind portray you as forces of destruction. By portraying yourself as a wandering soul, you might earn modest payment- enough to assuage your conscience over Yui's hospitality, but only that, and barely at so. Still, you are much less likely to anger these people this way.
[] Approach him as a wandering healer. By hiding your blade within the folds of your dress, it will be a simple matter to offer your assistance as a wandering healer. Payment will be but modest, of course, and it conveys upon you the risk of assault should you anger them- but you will not be expected to risk your delicate reiryoku.